SEAJESS's SparkPeople Blog SEAJESS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Beck Diet Solution Day 20: GET BACK ON TRACK This is a powerful day! This day is about putting the brakes on a fall downhill and returning to the climb in the direction I want to go instead of turning a few calories and a few minutes into feelings of despair and days or weeks or months of poor choices. <BR> <BR> <em>227</em> <em>227</em> <em>227</em> <em>227</em> <em>227</em> <em>227</em> <em>227</em> <em>227</em> <em>227</em> <em>227</em> <BR> <BR> It's pretty simple, really. Dr. Beck says to take these ste... Thu, 17 Oct 2013 01:39:44 EST I FOUND THE MIRACLE DIET!!! Okay, I found it! The way to eat all you want and still lose weight! <BR> <BR> It happened while I was making my standard yogurt parfait of unsweetened blueberries with Fage 0% yogurt, a grind of nutmeg and pumpkin seeds. I weigh and measure everything now because if I don't I will inevitably serve myself more and for some items that can boost me right out of my recommended nutrient range. I usually want MORE. <BR> <BR> As I was weighing out my punks, I decided that 0.3 ounce was just not e... Tue, 8 Oct 2013 17:52:10 EST Beck Diet Solution Day 19: STOP FOOLING YOURSELF BECK DIET SOLUTION DAY 19: STOP FOOLING YOURSELF <BR> <BR> This exercise reminds me of a night in Puerto Rico when a lizard dropped from the ceiling onto my face, waking me. Walking into the kitchen that we swept and mopped each night after dinner and turning on the light, I saw an army of cockroaches scatter from across the floor into the cracks and crevices. They had come in from the lush tropics outside, under cover of night, to make their rounds. Just checking to see if anything was avai... Sun, 29 Sep 2013 00:24:20 EST BLC23 Cruise Goals This is the snapshot of me as I step off the deck after our 12-week cruise on the good ship BLC23: <BR> <BR> <em>185</em> I start each day with prayer, meditation and exercise. <BR> <em>23</em> I strength train three days a week. <BR> <em>192</em> I weigh 12 pounds less. <BR> <em>149</em> I plan and prep the week's meals in advance on one day. <BR> <em>205</em> I follow my meal plan. <BR> <em>333</em> I am not vampire dessert because my HbA1C is below 6.5!!! <BR> <BR> How will I... Fri, 27 Sep 2013 14:39:39 EST Your #1 Weight Loss Action TODAY Vote for SparkPeople! <BR> <BR> Go to<BR>e-Inc/387418 <BR> Enter "" in the "Search" field <BR> Click on "Read more" <BR> <BR> I stumbled onto SparkPeople while searching for an online carbohydrate counter. I have juvenile diabetes and have struggled with weight and blood sugar control. I have struggled with my weight since I was a teen and I'm an old lady now. I think I've lost the collective weight of a small town over decades of ... Sun, 22 Sep 2013 13:49:22 EST Beck Diet Solution Day 18: CHANGE YOUR DEFINITION OF FULL Oh no, Mr. Bill! <em>24</em> A subjective measurement! All the other steps were objective, scientific, yes-or-no measures. I did them or I didn’t do them. An outside observer could verify my findings. Scientific. <BR> <BR> I freaked out a little bit on this. <em>40</em> So what are these unskillful thoughts? <BR> <BR> UNSKILLFUL THOUGHT: This is too subjective! I need an objective standard of measurement. I’m fine with feeling the way I feel now after eating my balanced 400 calorie m... Fri, 20 Sep 2013 15:46:57 EST Beck Diet Solution Day 17: END OVEREATING Judith Beck says that there are TWO ways to overeat. First, eat more than the amount you planned to eat and second, eat past the point when you feel full even if it’s an amount you planned to eat. We need to learn to manage both of them. <BR> <BR> Her exercise to prevent overeating is to load your plate with a greater quantity than planned of a food you did plan to eat AND a food you hadn’t planned to eat at all. <BR> <BR> Some protesting thoughts did come in response to this. <BR> <BR> UN... Mon, 16 Sep 2013 02:54:01 EST Beck Diet Solution Day 16: PREVENT UNPLANNED EATING Okay, that sounds like an offer too good to be true. MOST of my eating has been unplanned eating, unless you count making a decision while standing in front of the refrigerator planning. <BR> <BR> Beck suggests making a response card that says “NO CHOICE”. This set my inner two-year old into an autonomy fit. No choice? I refuse to have no choice! I just couldn’t see how feeling choiceless was going to work for me. <BR> <BR> Fortunately, my brilliant diet coach gave me a twist on this and a... Sun, 15 Sep 2013 00:39:11 EST Beck Diet Solution Day 15: MONITOR YOUR EATING The rubber is hitting the road. I weighed myself, opened my Beck journal for the first time and wrote my weight and today’s date in it. Now I have a little card file of tips ‘n’ tricks and a little pocket journal close to the same size. I printed off my food plan and wrote my Beck card for today. <BR> <BR> <em>249</em> <BR> <BR> COMMITMENT: I’ll make written notations about what I ate immediately after I finish eating. <BR> <BR> The rest of today was just checking off the items on my pl... Fri, 13 Sep 2013 02:01:57 EST Beck Day 14: PLAN FOR TOMORROW UNSKILLFUL THOUGHT: Too much work! <BR> SKILLFUL THOUGHT: Maybe at first but evntually it will save time by eliminating multiple daily food decisions and trips to the store. It will save money as well as I won’t buy food I end up not using before it spoils. <BR> <BR> UNSKILLFULL THOUGHT: Eating according to a plan will prevent me from getting in touch with my body and finding a natural, way of eating. I’ll need to force myself to eat when I’m not hungry. <BR> <BR> SKILLFUL THOUGHT: Delusion... Thu, 12 Sep 2013 01:23:21 EST Beck Diet Solution Day 13: OVERCOME CRAVINGS I fell off a cliff on Sunday. I didn’t even know I was over the edge until I was on my way down. <BR> <BR> I went to a vegan buffet and author talk. The food was incredibly delicious. It was also very difficult to plan ahead on the Spark tracker. I guesstimated but it was tough, not knowing what would be there. Looking back, I realize that I went with the intention of trying any dish that looked good. “Learning experience”, right? A little brain gremlin was whispering, so soft I didn’t even... Wed, 11 Sep 2013 02:19:11 EST Beck Diet Solution Day 12: PRACTICE HUNGER TOLERANCE Today’s Beck adventure is about learning to sit with feelings of hunger. We are asked to chose a day when we will skip lunch. <BR> <BR> COMMITMENT: I will skip lunch on Monday 9 September 2013. <BR> <BR> “Hunger is not an emergency” says Ms. Beck. <BR> <BR> I know this. I fast a few times a year as a religious observance. There have been times when I’ve been engrossed in a project that is so compelling that even though my gut is growling like a band of starving tigers, I jus... Mon, 9 Sep 2013 00:55:32 EST Beck Diet Solution Day 11: DIFFERENTIATE BETWEEN HUNGER, DESIRE & CRAVINGS What great timing! I'm impressed with the way Ms. Beck organized her book. Mindful eating seems to flow into this step. I've been noticing my thoughts about eating and asking myself whether I was really hungry. I've noticed that it's hard for me to distinguish desire from hunger at times. <BR> <BR> I wrote this tip from the book into my index card file: <BR> <BR> TIP: If it has been anywhere from 20 minutes to 3 hours since you've eaten a reasonable-sized meal, remind yourself that an urge ... Fri, 6 Sep 2013 00:22:54 EST Beck Diet Solution Day 10: SET A REALISTIC GOAL My first weight loss goal will be to lose 5 pounds from what I weigh today. <BR> <BR> That was easy! I just followed the book's suggestion to focus on the next 5 pounds. I'll reassess my next goal when I achieve this. SO doable. I like that! And I've even decided to give myself a reward. A skein of sock yarn. WooHoo! <BR> <BR> <em>306</em> <em>23</em> <em>23</em> <em>23</em> <em>23</em> <em>23</em> <em>248</em> <BR> Thu, 5 Sep 2013 23:58:24 EST Beck Diet Solution Day 9: SELECT AN EXERCISE PLAN This was hard because it felt like going backward. I’d been doing a run/walk training program for a 10K and was up to running 55-60 minutes per session three times a week. Unfortunately, I was having pain in my knees and feet. The pain in my left knee was severe enough to interfere with my sleep and limit my range of motion. There was always some level of pain and the only enjoyment I felt was from finishing. I also didn’t have a scheduled time to run and was finding myself doing other thing... Thu, 5 Sep 2013 23:53:07 EST Beck Diet Solution Day 8: CREATE TIME AND ENERGY The Universe has a sense of humor. <BR> <BR> Day 8 is all about figuring out what I need to do to make my weight loss program <em>192</em> work, when I'm going to do it <em>128</em> and what I might need to drop <em>27</em> for the priorities to get done. Almost every minute of today was filled with spending an R&R day with hubby. (He will not take one if I don't initiate it and participate, just works on endless minor projects at home while getting grumpier and grumpier. ... Tue, 3 Sep 2013 01:26:31 EST Beck Diet Solution Day 7: Arrange Your Environment This was an easy one! I've already done many of the steps. I have small plates and small bowls and little Japanese serving saucers. <BR> <BR> I've eliminated most junk food from our kitchen. Hubby's giant bag of chocolate chips is on the highest shelf in the pantry where I need to stand on a chair to reach it. The Costco box of crackers is next to it. Honestly, I forget they are there if I don't see them. The few things that are difficult to resist are a few jars of nuts: pumpkin seeds... Mon, 2 Sep 2013 01:46:47 EST Beck Diet Solution Day 6: FIND A DIET COACH "THIS IS A CRUCIAL COMPONENT OF THE PROGRAM"" <BR> <BR> Yes, this sentence is in all caps in the book and oddly enough, it was one thing I just dismissed out of hand when I read the book the first time. I truly was convinced I could be my own coach. I mean, I was good at encouraging others so why couldn't I just encourage myself? And I had a calendar; I could check in with myself once a week. This did not work so well after all.... <BR> <BR> Fortunately, this time around I've been blessed w... Sun, 1 Sep 2013 01:32:31 EST Beck Diet Solution Day Five: EAT SLOWLY AND MINDFULLY "Hey", I thought, "I did this as part of 'Eat Sitting Down' on Day Two." But not quite; today there was that s...l...o...w... part. <BR> <BR> Can you be mindful but fast? <BR> <BR> So my written commitments for today are <BR> <BR> "When I feel like eating quickly, I'm going to take a two-minute meditation break." <BR> <BR> "To remind myself to eat slowly, I'm going to put my utensil down after every bite. While I'm learning, I'm going to set a timer to chime every two minutes so I can ch... Sat, 31 Aug 2013 02:48:08 EST Beck Diet Solution Day 4: Give Yourself Credit Okay, this one was actually not too hard! I've spent decades working on not being so incredibly hard on myself and I have made some progress. At this point it's not so much a matter as overcoming lots of thoughts about not deserving and more about just not thinking of it. I am aware of when other Sparkers are not giving themselves credit and not only that but beating themselves up. It makes me sad because I can see that's only one way of looking at the situation and one that's not helpful or ... Thu, 29 Aug 2013 17:35:37 EST Beck Diet Solution Day 3: EAT SITTING DOWN Another assignment with wonderful surprises. What's stuffed into the attic of my mind anyway? I'm starting to feel hopeful that doing these exercises is going to help me to uncover and transform more and more thoughts that run in the background and do not serve me well. <BR> <BR> Today's task was to commit to eating sitting down. Walking around and looking at it from all sides, it seems to me that the policy underlying that instruction is to get us to "eat mindfully". I actually do quite a ... Wed, 28 Aug 2013 23:11:48 EST Beck Diet Solution Day 2: Pick Two Reasonable Diets Today's task took a surprising amount of time, effort and thought. It's not so easy to truly and thoughtfully commit to a diet plan! <BR> <BR> My written commitment card says, "I picked a primary and a backup diet plan that are <BR> ~ reasonable <BR> ~ nutritious and balanced <BR> ~ flexible <BR> ~ easy to use <BR> <BR> My primary plan is a modified Spark diet. I will chose foods that fit within my calorie range and recommended proportions of carbohydrates, fats and... Wed, 28 Aug 2013 01:14:17 EST Beck Diet Solution Day 1:P RECORD THE ADVANTAGES OF LOSING WEIGHT Okay, off to a tortoise-like start! (This is a good thing for someone who wants to do it all right now and eats an entire box of "diet" items, figuring if one is good, then two dozen is better.) <BR> <BR> <em>134</em> <BR> Guess I could stick my head out of my shell and sniff the air.... <BR> <BR> <em>249</em> <BR> <BR> The task for day one is to prepare an "Advantage Response Card". I wrote my reasons for wanting to lose weight on 3 x 5 index cards and ranked them in order of impo... Tue, 27 Aug 2013 11:56:06 EST Monkey on my back? If only! HELP! The horror and helplessness of a monkey on your back... could anything be worse? <BR> <BR> YES <BR> <BR> Having a SNIKE on your back! It happened like this: I went to the shelter to adopt a sweet little fluffy girl kitty that my hubbie had picked out through the screen door. He loved her demure nature and her curly ear tufts. She reminded him of GirlyGirl, the kitty we lost a few months ago. She left a great big empty space we were ready to fill it. And did... <BR> <BR> Here is our sweet, ... Thu, 22 Aug 2013 17:27:26 EST Happy Birthday, Bro! Just returned from a small party for my brother's birthday. It was a no presents event but I gave him a few small "joke" presents anyway. One of them was a set of fake moustaches. He and one of a nephew's two daughters tried them out along with various party hats. (The older more sophisticated daughter played with her cell phone.) <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> His wife wore my brother's special birthday hat to go with his fake Fu Ma... Wed, 21 Aug 2013 01:59:46 EST Beautiful West Seattle <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am so blessed to live in West Seattle with its gorgeous Lincoln Park arboretum on Puget Sound (housing a heated, outdoor saltwater pool) and beautiful Alki beach on Elliot Bay, connected to downtown Seattle by the charming little water taxi. <BR> <BR> If I'm not able to continue to run because of my knees, at least I will have endless walks to enjoy. Tue, 20 Aug 2013 00:18:07 EST No! No! No! Terrible, horrible SparkGift disaster looming! I am almost out of SparkGoodie points! How will I be able to send my glorious and wonderful and indispensable SparkBuddies all the gifts they need and deserve? I really love giving gifts. <BR> <BR> <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> I guess I should be grateful that SparkPeople is not like those virtual world games where people buy virtual items for their virtual friends. I could get into trouble. <BR> <BR> <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> Maybe running out of SparkPoints will inspire me to learn how to ... Sun, 18 Aug 2013 17:11:12 EST For My SparkBuddies Who Are Having a Bad Day Horace the horse on the merry-go-round <BR> Went up and down, round and round <BR> He's been sad since the day he found <BR> He's the very last horse on the merry-go-round <BR> <BR> The music began and away they go <BR> High and low, to and fro <BR> Poor old Horace would always say <BR> "I'm the very last horse again today." <BR> <BR> How he tried and tried and tried <BR> But he just never could win. <BR> Horace cried and cried and cried <BR> cause all the other horses were ahead... Fri, 16 Aug 2013 15:30:47 EST Drink a pot of coffee or set the alarm for way early? Okay, I worked all day (not very effectively) on my biochem of cancer paper. There are so many molecules, so many pathways, so many interactions and soooo many methods used to probe the genome! I'm kind of burned out but I haven't finished writing up even one of the two papers I'm reviewing in my paper on genomics of the disease. (The interesting thing is that endometrial cancer and leukemia share a significant number of mutations that make it more relevant to classify cancers by genetic muta... Thu, 15 Aug 2013 01:40:08 EST Appy Days My new phone has a step-counting app. I activated it and added 10,000 steps a day to my goals. It hasn't been too hard to get those steps with a little walk at the end of some days. But today I spent most of my time at the library working on a paper. It was late and getting dark when I got home after the library closed and booted me out. <BR> <BR> Checking 1o,ooo steps off my goal list motivated me to head out the door and I just got back from knocking off those 10,000 steps. <BR> <BR> Hu... Tue, 13 Aug 2013 01:20:40 EST "I get by with a little help from my (Spark) friends" Yes, yes, yes, it is the presence and encouragement of my SparkBuddies that kept me on track tonight. I went out and completed the last segment of Week Two of my run/walk program. I got such good advice and support. Thank you! <BR> <BR> My knees were sore but I slowed down on the running and the walking and focused on enjoying the beautiful summer evening. <BR> <BR> Plan now is to increase the run intervals until I'm running 2:30 and then decrease the walk intervals until they are 0:30 and ... Mon, 12 Aug 2013 01:44:51 EST Get Thee Behind Me, Evil Scale! Yesterday I did my scheduled run/walk for 45 minutes, tracked all my food and stayed within targeted range and sat next to my hubbie through a movie during which he at the monster-sized buttered popcorn and a giant box of Dots all by himself and drank more than 8 glasses of water. <BR> <BR> This morning I am up half a pound. <BR> <BR> Oh well, just goes to show that fluctuation happens and it's necessary to look at The Big Picture. Today I will walk my 10,000 steps, do my scheduled work on ... Sat, 10 Aug 2013 18:01:11 EST Too Fat to Run/Walk? Limping back from today's run/walk I found myself wondering, "Am I too fat to run right now?" I'm 40 pounds more than when I was running 10Ks and half marathons and even then I was about 10 pounds over my most comfortable running weight. <BR> <BR> My feet ache, my knees are sore... and I'm only in my second week of run/walk! But all that extra weight on my frame magnifies the effect of the repetitive impact from running. Starting a running program has never been like this but I have never tr... Fri, 9 Aug 2013 19:03:21 EST SparkPeople IS the fast, easy miracle diet I finished my hospital clinical rotation and I am exhausted. Broke my "blog a day" SparkStreak 'cause I was just too busy but I did stick to my healthy eating and exercise. (Well, I kicked yesterday's run over to today but that flexibility is in the plan. I'm okay as long as I don't go more than two days between runs.) <BR> <BR> So many thoughts I'm tempted to skip blogging entirely because I can't cover them all. (Thank you my old friend, All-or-None thinking!) But there is one experience I... Thu, 8 Aug 2013 19:53:47 EST Happy & Tired I did 45 minutes of run/walk before I left for my second day of hospital clinicals. And had one of those Nutribullet superfood smoothies. Then ate a small salad with quinoa, beans, greens & tomatoes for dinner. Now I'm home, exhausted, and going to have some rice cakes and cottage cheese. <BR> <BR> Worked hard at the hospital. What amazed me is that even though I started the day sleep-deprived and feeling groggy, jogging invigorated me and together with the good nutrition I had more energy t... Tue, 6 Aug 2013 02:21:47 EST A Day Without Sleep I slept at my parents' house last night so I wouldn't have a long drive home from the hospital late at night after my first night of clinicals. It was 2 am when I went to sleep and the contractors woke me up banging and pounding at 7 am. Surprise! The folks are putting in a fancy new driveway right next to the guest room! <BR> <BR> I am SO TIRED! But today is the first day of Week Two of my Run/Walk training program so I'm hoping that a jog will energize me to get through another night on th... Mon, 5 Aug 2013 13:20:06 EST Quiet Day with Glimmers of Hope Finished my first week of the Run/Walk 10K training program. It felt good. Even though I'm running only 30 seconds and walking for 4 minutes, 30 seconds, I'm having thoughts of training for another half marathon. I liked distance running. And next week I'll be running a minute and walking four. Slowly but surely these things build up. I was pretty amazed when I found myself running 14 miles last year. <BR> <BR> I feel tired so I think I'll let myself laze about and get enough sleep tonight ... Sat, 3 Aug 2013 22:14:37 EST "Get Your Mind in the Groove it Must Follow" This is the fortune from a fortune cookie I got many years ago. I made it into a refrigerator magnet and sometimes follow its advice. <BR> <BR> Today felt like a day "in the groove". It was good. No late night eating. Going to bed a little bit hungry and hoping to get up and do a run/walk. <BR> <BR> A good day. <BR> <BR> Hope you all had one, too. <BR> <BR> <em>381</em> Sat, 3 Aug 2013 02:45:28 EST August 1: August ALREADY? A choice between blessing and curse. Mixed feelings on realizing it is the first day of August. Where did the summer go? I have not done one fun summer thing: no hike, no swimming in our neighborhood outdoor saltwater pool, no walking on the beach at Alki, no summer road trip. <BR> <BR> I can feel sad that I wasted the summer being fat, out of shape and watching worthless videos for entertainment in the little time I had to have fun. <BR> <BR> OR I can be grateful that I still have two months of summer left. (September is a ki... Fri, 2 Aug 2013 13:42:53 EST By George, I think she's got it! The solution to my night munchies, that is. Just realized that I spend quite a bit of engaged time on SparkPeople now that I'm back. Reconnecting with SparkBuddies and groups, reading, tracking. <BR> <BR> I'm going to save my Spark computer time for the evening when I am bored, restless and vulnerable to emotional eating. Another bonus will be that I can use this time to plan my meals for the next day. That will save time and give focus. When I make decisions for each meal or snack througho... Wed, 31 Jul 2013 12:56:58 EST Lump and Bumps Okay, here's a test: I'm up a pound. Thinking it through with the help of my Beck Diet Solution team, I realize that it's probably because I was hungry at bedtime and ate a salty bowl of polenta right before sleeping. Next time I can have a cup of miso soup. <BR> <BR> Reading Secrets of Success I'm encouraged to find that many, many other people have put the past behind, stayed on plan and sooner or later achieved their goals. From my own experience I know that getting discouraged and going ... Tue, 30 Jul 2013 13:03:49 EST Day One on The Run Run/walk, actually. I finally got out the door and did Day one of the Thirteen Week Run/Walk program. By the end of September I will be ready for a 10K. <BR> <BR> I already feel better. Maybe it's just psychological because I overcame the heavy inertia of procrastination but I don't really care because I'm so glad to feel better inside. <BR> <BR> There will be time to work on the high blood pressure and rapid heart rate. It's shocking to me. I've always had borderline low blood pressure an... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 17:21:22 EST Sometimes just show up.... Okay, I've been standing here with my toe in the SparkPool for a few weeks after a LONG time away from a healthy way of living. I've noticed that many of the people who seem successful at learning and staying with a better life post blogs. Even if it's just a daily joke. <BR> <BR> I've also noticed that the support I get from Sparkers in the form of posts really, really helps. An oasis of kindness, support and encouragement. I want to drink eight glasses a day of that! <BR> <BR> So my goal ... Sun, 28 Jul 2013 15:17:57 EST Nutribullet News Well, the world is full of surprises. A pile of "Nutribullets" at Bed, Bath & Beyond caught my attention when I went there to return sheets. (This little critter has been popping up as an advertisement on SparkPeople.) I have a blender that I've used to make smoothies in the past. I like smoothies and they are a great way to add veggies... but cleaning up a blender, yuck. <BR> <BR> The asking price was pretty crazy - $99 - but Bed, Bath & Beyond has coupons including one for 20% off and also... Sat, 27 Jul 2013 16:14:17 EST I love LSD! Long slow distance, that is! <BR> <BR> Today was my first day of Jeff Galloway run/walk training for the half marathon. I don't have the book on training for the half yet; I'm going on information I found in "Running to 100". <BR> <BR> Today instead of running 6 miles, I ran/walked it per the instructions for doing the long, slow run for a 9:30 pace. Long, slow distance is supposed to be a painless way to build the endurance needed to run a half or full marathon. Ha. Running, painless? <B... Thu, 29 Dec 2011 00:29:41 EST Moroccan Chicken and Baked Lemon Spiced Rice Ahhh, my friends, you MUST try the SparkRecipe for baked lemon spiced brown rice. I added some extra Moroccan themed spices: pinch of cinnamon, turmeric and green pepper, dash of smoked paprika, garlic. And marinated some boneless skinless chicken thighs in lemon juice and zest and similar spices. Roasted the chicken in the oven with chunky peices of carrot and zuchini, also dusted with lemon juice and spices. <BR> <BR> This was SO DELICIOUS! I am totally satisfied. <BR> <BR> This is the ... Tue, 27 Dec 2011 22:10:08 EST Strategic Overeating? I slept late... coffee in bed and not up until noon. My husband left to meet his brother and his brother's girlfriend for dinner in a town about 50 miles south of us (and about 65 miles away from his brother and SO). There is a chain restaurant there called the Black Bear Dinner that bro likes because it gives huge portions of "comfort food" menu items. <BR> <BR> I didn't go. Brother has had nothing to do with me (or my husband either, for that matter) for 19+ years. He's recently been diag... Sun, 25 Dec 2011 20:49:09 EST Sharpei Woman Sharpei girls (of any age), unite! <BR> <BR> Like so many of us who have lost weight, I found a pile of loose skin at the end of my rainbow. (Well, not quite the end. I have a few more pounds to go but I am happily resting on my laurels in the "normal" weight range for the time being.) <BR> <BR> This morning I threw off the covers and did some stretches. I was stiff from a restless night of flinging kitties and fighting hubby for space. Maybe because I spent yesterday with my beloved nephew... Fri, 23 Dec 2011 18:55:53 EST Here comes the sun! Solstice 2011 Solstice at last. And end to the ever increasing darkness and the beginning of more light! <BR> <BR> I have not felt much joy for months. Just slogging along, procrastinating, not enjoying most of what I do, including exercise. It no longer felt enjoyable. I dreaded doing it and never clicked in to "the runner's high". At best, I felt a dull relief at the end that I'd finally got it done. <BR> <BR> This morning something changed. I turned my run into a loop with a Big Hill. Well, big to ... Thu, 22 Dec 2011 00:56:54 EST Any Start is Better Than No Start At All ... is what I'm telling myself. <BR> <BR> After being stalled and then starting to backslide, I reset my SparkStreaks and committed to using all the tools available. At least until the end of the year. That's not very long. Just a bit over two weeks. I can do that. <BR> <BR> The scruffy little imp voice that shows up when I turn my attention to running is now showing up to disparage blogging. The standard comparision and perfectionism and wait until conditions are better and you really fee... Wed, 14 Dec 2011 21:54:35 EST