SDLEE514's SparkPeople Blog SDLEE514's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community 25 days to make a change Alright friends, time to get serious. <BR> <BR> Its Monday, after a whirlwind weekend flying up to Boston for a bachelorette party, with 25 days to that wedding. I need to step up my game. I'm feeling really motivated but I'm also afraid 25 days isn't enough time and I'm setting myself up for failure. I want to cut all sugar, carbs (except naturally occurring in veggies and dairy), and alcohol. <BR> <BR> First, the fun stuff. I was finally feeling incrementally better by Friday, and Saturda... Mon, 14 Apr 2014 08:36:23 EST Sick and off track Ugh. Came down with my bf's cold. I'm just so glad it didn't happen over my vacation, as it seemed to have started for him just before I left. But yeah, being sick is never fun. I'm only at work today b/c I have to conduct training this afternoon. Everyone's been saying how puffy I look and that my nose is red. Gee, thanks. I actually did go home yesterday. Wish I could just take the week off but we can only take 3 days without a doctors' note. <BR> <BR> Anyways, where has the time gone sinc... Tue, 8 Apr 2014 09:05:49 EST Vacation pics, finally! So as many of you may know, I took a much needed vacation recently with my sister, to the Azores! Specifically, the single island in the Azores of Sao Miguel. I got back on Monday, and I'm still trying to get back into the swing of things and be motivated to work, hard to do! <BR> <BR> The trip was incredible, we were there for a week. I'd never been to anywhere in Europe before (the Azores is technically part of Portugal, even though its pretty far off the coast and pretty much self-sustain... Thu, 3 Apr 2014 09:34:34 EST Not a pity party I will NOT allow this blog to become a pity party. However, let me just get it out of the way that I haven't done an Insanity workout since the 6th (a recovery one) and I haven't done a "real" Insanity video (cardio) since the 1st. And while I'm none too happy about that, I'm done. So done with Insanity. okay maybe not quite yet. But I'm done with wallowing over the fact that I didn't finish "as planned." Still did pretty dang well. <BR> <BR> I had to listen to my body. My back was tweaked ... Thu, 13 Mar 2014 13:14:18 EST Discouraged--new approach I'm trying not to beat myself up too much and throw in the towel because thats exactly what I feel like doing. I'm around 3 days behind in Insanity. And I don't plan on doing it today b/c my back is bothering me. I really wanted to do it as outlined basically to prove to myself that I could stick to it and do it. I haven't been good about eating but I was still hoping for noticeable change in my muscle tone, my weight definitely hasn't budged. I keep fluctuating; from my last blog I do belie... Sun, 2 Mar 2014 14:23:11 EST NSV proof in pics I've really been struggling feeling like I'm working SO hard with my Insanity and not fitting into pants and not losing any weight that I decided to take a step back and look back on how far I've come to remind myself of what I've accomplished. <BR> <BR> Yes, everyone always says don't rely on the scale. Unfortunately, I have a hard time kicking that habit. I've been feeling like I'm close to my starting point, and I am, in weight. But not in stamina. Or in muscles. Or my attitude about my b... Thu, 20 Feb 2014 17:21:16 EST A Valentine's Day message to my Spark friends <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Whether it be figuratively or literally, today is a day dedicated to love. As you show love for others' don't forget yourself! <BR> <BR> Also, it is perfectly acceptable to love yourself with a piece of chocolate today. Or two. Or three. <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> <em>129</em> Fri, 14 Feb 2014 10:42:13 EST Body realities, thoughts on BL, Insanity check in I'm going to try to keep this blog positive but I can't promise anything. It's been a stressful week (conducting training all week, TOM, luckily the stars aligned that it was recovery week for Insanity, I would NOT have had the motivation to keep up the work outs). I just have a lot of thoughts running around in my head and I'm trying to relax. <BR> <BR> First off, TWICE this week I put on pants in the morning and had to change because they didn't fit. I had to un-retire pants I had put in... Fri, 7 Feb 2014 11:10:40 EST Insanity-3 week check in Guys! I've completed 3 weeks of Insanity. I had a couple days in there where I had to mix up rest days and workout days but I haven't actually missed a workout and I stayed on track. WHOOO HOOOO!! I've done programs before and tried to stay on track, Jillians 90 day, etc. but I was bad about actually doing them as planned and had to double up on days, etc. then life got in the way and I didn't finish exactly in three months. I am determined to make it through Insanity as outlined and on time,... Mon, 27 Jan 2014 11:30:42 EST Yes, another A-Z, but about me :) First off, thanks to those who commented on my last couple blogs, lots of great support and advice in there, I just haven't be able to respond and thank you individually, but it is very much appreciated! <BR> <BR> Now for the fun, I can't pass these things up lol. Reminds me of being back in middle school passing these around to all your friends, guess that much hasn't really changed lol. <BR> <BR> A is for Age: 27 <BR> B is for Booze: Anything with St. Germain (elderflower liquor), also ... Wed, 22 Jan 2014 15:27:41 EST ATTENTION all cat owners! Seeking advice about a common cat is up ALL NIGHT. And keeps me up all night! I am a very light sleeper and she is always getting into things, causing a raucous, knocking things off, etc. One of her favorite things to do is climb up on our refrigerator and paw and the cabinets, opening and letting them slam shut. <BR> <BR> I realize, I may get a lot of "what did you expect!? she's a cat!" type responses and while it is kind of ludicrous, its really hindering my sleep. And as we... Thu, 16 Jan 2014 09:28:25 EST Insanity week 1 wrap up and check in on New Year's resolutions I have finished week 1 of Insanity!! I started it on Monday the 6th. I took before pictures, weight, and measurements. I plan on posting before/after pictures if, no WHEN, I complete the program. Really hoping for a noticeable change. Day 1 was the fit test only, which if you are familiar at all with Insanity, its I think 8 different cardio movements and you do each of them for a minute, seeing how many you can complete. Obviously, you improve if you can complete more in a minute. My startin... Tue, 14 Jan 2014 11:00:59 EST (one of) my favorite Christmas gifts! Is this: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> It's an Aquazinger, and I swear I'm not trying to sell you anything. My bf's sister gave it to me because she loves hers so much. Basically you can infuse your water (or juice) with anything, fruit, herbs, etc. I was skeptical myself why its so different than say, just adding a few pieces of fruit to your water, but if you can see from the pic, the little base of the bottle has a container for fruits, etc.... Thu, 2 Jan 2014 09:45:33 EST Another requisite New Year blog Christmas was fun, too much time at home but I was kind of bracing for that. My last blog said I was dreading it and it pretty much played out how I anticipated, my bf and I didn't spend it together but I tried to make the most of my family time. <BR> <BR> Here are a couple pictures: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I hate that picture of me. My face looks so chubby and I have a double chin. My kitty looks evil lol. <BR> Here's a better picture... Mon, 30 Dec 2013 11:28:52 EST Somewhat dreading Christmas Yup, I am. I love the traditions of Christmas and seeing my family/extended family so I am looking forward to going home for that, but I feel like I was JUST home for Thanksgiving. And over Thanksgiving I had about as much time home as I could stand. Christmas will be even longer. I love my family dearly, but after a few days its like get me out of here. I need some peace and quiet and the ability to do what I want; something I don't get at home. <BR> <BR> Secondly, my sister is going throu... Mon, 16 Dec 2013 14:06:22 EST #SparktheSeason December Christmas is my favorite time of year! Always has been, I just love the merriness of Christmas carols, the decorations, and getting into the spirit. It's waned a little as I've gotten older (stressing about sharing holidays with the bf, what gifts to get people etc.) but still, bring it on! <em>447</em> <BR> <BR> November was kind of a break even month for me. I wasn't on track food wise as I would have liked to have been, but I did set a personal record for an exercise streak of 23 day... Mon, 2 Dec 2013 16:40:16 EST #Fit2feast Fail So sadly, my streak ended yesterday <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> I did 23 days of daily exercise for #fit2feast. Which I do believe is a personal record for me but still, I really wanted to keep it going just a few days longer until I left to travel home for thanksgiving. Coming up just short (3 days) feels like failing. But, its not! I had a good streak and I already passed my 700 monthly fitness minutes which is more than I did last month. <BR> <BR> Last week I wanted to end on a high note... Mon, 25 Nov 2013 10:20:42 EST 1 year, 10lb maintaining Happy Friday friends! Just a quick happy blog for once. I feel like I always blog when I'm beating myself up after a binge/slip up. But today, and maybe its the workout endorphins talking, I'm feeling good. Last November I hit the 10lb weight loss mark and I'm still hovering steady on that mark. At my lowest I've hit about a 13lb loss and on bad days I've only lost about 6 lbs. Still, we're only talking a few lbs here and there. But on me, I can tell since I'm so petite. And while I'm not qui... Fri, 15 Nov 2013 10:47:29 EST #fit2feast and weekend recap I really need to step it up from now until Thanksgiving. While I've been keeping up with the #fit2feast challenge, I've been slacking big time on food. I was only on track 3 days last week and this past weekend was terrible foodwise. <BR> <BR> Friday I got a quick workout in after work and between going out for the night, we had plans for dinner and a comedy show (John Oliver) with friends. I drank a couple too many--when you're a young professional in DC pretty much any restaurant that you ... Tue, 12 Nov 2013 10:58:21 EST #fit2feast November If I don't do anything else from now until Thanksgiving (and then hopefully the rest of November) it's to do the #fit2feast challenge. 10 min of exercise a day. That's it. Easy, right? Let's hope. <BR> <BR> I usually don't mind adding a few extra minutes in once I start, as they say, the hardest part is just starting and doing it. So I'm hoping this challenge will keep me up to my monthly fitness minutes which is still set for 700. I didn't get there last month, which was totally inexcusable... Mon, 4 Nov 2013 10:43:34 EST A picture check in blog There are 32 days until Thanksgiving. 33 if you count all the things you can do today to make progress and stay on track. <BR> <BR> I am checking in today because this weekend has been bad. Friday and Saturday involved lots of pizza. And my bf did the grocery shopping, coming home with Wheat thins (I don't remember the last time I had them and they are a trigger food, I will sit and eat the whole box) and a bag of Halloween candy. I was kind of mad. I had several pieces that night then made ... Sun, 27 Oct 2013 10:51:13 EST What is wrong with me?! I feel like absolute crap this morning. And (hopefully) not in a sick way. I am just absolutely exhausted, my back is pinched and in pain, and I kind of feel nauseas and I have no idea why. It's all I can do not to curl up into a ball right now and fall asleep at my desk. <BR> <BR> I haven't been on track calories since last Wednesday. So much for my only 7 days this month that I allotted for. I don't know why its so dang hard for me to just say no and not eat what I want to eat. Thursday I... Mon, 21 Oct 2013 09:30:17 EST Weekend wrap up... Thank you to all of you for your comments and support from my last was really comforting to know my irritated feelings weren't completely crazy. Sometimes you just need someone on your side and to justify your thoughts lol. I told my bf I was kind of irritated with my friend and he didn't understand it all, I just got the impression he thought I was an ungrateful b*tch of a friend :( no good. <BR> <BR> So as it turns out, I did have fun over the weekend but things got even more aw... Tue, 15 Oct 2013 10:52:13 EST Kind of irritated--not spark related So I mentioned last blog that I had friends coming to visit this weekend, another couple will be staying with us 3 nights. I am soooo excited and this friend means a lot to me, she basically introduced me to my bf. However, and I feel so selfish for even thinking this, but I am....I am being gracious enough to host them (and we really dont have a lot of space, and she hates cats, so I will be offering them our own bed in the bedroom so she doesn't have to deal with the cat at night) but, she ... Wed, 9 Oct 2013 08:23:36 EST October Well, I made it through yesterday. The first of Oct, the first of the government fiscal year, and the first day of the shutdown. For now, I'm working but they are uncertain how long we'll be funded and if the IDIOTS in Congress don't figure things out who knows what will happen. Sorry, just getting very pent up about this whole situation. Trying to take one day at a time and not let the uncertainty of it all get me stressed. <BR> <BR> My goals for October are simple, try to reach my monthly ... Wed, 2 Oct 2013 09:39:13 EST Hoping for the best I work for the government. The government may shut down tomorrow. I may get furloughed. I don't do well with uncertainty. However, I've told myself that I will be "okay" if that happens, to make the best of it, and to take it as an opportunity to be productive. Focus on more exercise. Get things done around the apartment. And, depending on how long it lasts, FINALLY open my Etsy jewelry shop that my friends and family have been pestering me to start selling my stuff. <BR> <BR> That, in comb... Mon, 30 Sep 2013 12:06:55 EST Full week of paleo: check! (and pics) So I know I was the one soliciting opinions from you all about paleo, and most of you were not pro-paleo, although you were encouraging as far as me at least trying it. So I did, and have, for 8 days now. 8 days, no sugar (besides what occurs naturally in fruits and veggies), no grains, no legumes, no dairy, no soy, no alcohol. Which, is a miracle in itself because my streaks are usually 4 days and then I "allow myself" whatever over the weekend. I didn't really feel compelled to do that! <... Mon, 16 Sep 2013 10:09:49 EST Labor day weekend pics! and update First of all, I'm sorry for slacking for those who were following my 30 days of gratitude pics. I've been losing my Spark lately and just wanted to be MIA. I'm feeling like a roller coaster of I'm upset, I'm tired, I don't want to stay on track to no! I can do this! If I keep at it I WILL see the progress I want. And then I sabotage myself. Last week wasn't good. 3 days of exercise 3 days of on track eating. Thursday I had a "fight" with the bf. As in, we don't really fight, but I was upset w... Tue, 3 Sep 2013 10:55:29 EST Day 10 of 30 days of gratitude in pics Day 10: Nature <BR> <BR> I love nature. Animals, mountains, flowers, lakes, know, pretty much anything. Today's picture(s) are from a cross country road trip I took 3 summers ago with the bf. It was truly a once in lifetime experience and I am SO grateful to have had the opportunity to do that. It was during summer break in graduate school, and we took 3 weeks to drive to basically as many national parks as possible, camping along the way. I mean, when else in life would you hav... Thu, 22 Aug 2013 09:49:16 EST Days 8 & 9(fail) of 30 days of gratitude in pics Day 8: Favorite color: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> The ocean, when I was in Turks & Caicos. This isn't actually my favorite color because I don't have one, but I did LOVE the color of the water, it was just gorgeous. And if I had to pick, I've always loved blue, almost any hue. I like most colors, except I'm not a big fan of yellow, at least not for clothing and decorating. And someday, when I eventually get to plan my wedding, I already have ... Wed, 21 Aug 2013 13:10:36 EST Day 7 in pics and week recap (8/11-8/17) First off, week recap. <BR> 3/7 days on-track food <BR> 3/7 exercise <BR> 2lbs lost <BR> <BR> It just goes to show that weight loss is a funny thing and sometimes it doesn't immediately show your hard work. I had worked so hard the week before and maintained, but obviously this week it caught up. Despite the "bad" week as far as food an exercising goes. This week I expect gain given the not on track week and it will be TOM. <BR> <BR> Sunday and Monday my sis was still in town, so we were i... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 09:47:47 EST Days 5&6 of 30 days of gratitude in pics Friday's Josh Groban concert...there are no words. Seriously, one person shouldn't be that talented. This is going to sound so corny, but it's amazing to me how there are few moments in life that can affect you so much with that much emotion. At the concert, the music just filling my very being, it was almost overwhelming. It was just incredible. *sigh* <BR> <BR> And on that note, I am so grateful to have experienced that. I missed posting yesterday so today I have both Days 5 and 6 of 30 da... Sun, 18 Aug 2013 16:58:43 EST Day 4: 30 Days of gratitude in pics Hey friends, happy Friday!!! <BR> <BR> You can look at previous blogs for my inspiration on this 30 day photo gratitude challenge, but today is day 4. <BR> <BR> Day 4: Leaves. Really random might I add. I feel like I'm slightly cheating on today because I didn't take a picture of leaves for today. But, I searched my phone/fb pics and found this one from when I was living up in Mass: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Autumn is just around the corne... Fri, 16 Aug 2013 10:36:19 EST Day 3: 30 Days of gratitude in pics Again, this is my inspiration for my little 30 day experiment: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Today is day 3: happiness. This one was really tough for me to choose. I'm really trying to be authentic with this little exercise and pick representative pictures for each day. Today begs the question, what makes me happy? I realized a LOT of things make me happy. That really shouldn't be shocking, but growing up(um basically middle school throug... Thu, 15 Aug 2013 08:07:54 EST Day 2: 30 Days of gratitude in pics This is my inspiration for this little experiment: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> And here's Day 2: Smile <BR> <img src=""> <BR> This pic is from this past weekend when my sister visited. We had a really great time! Even if as my sister, sometimes she annoys me and sometimes I'm jealous of her, at the end of the day I don't know what I would do without her <em>129</em> Wed, 14 Aug 2013 13:13:31 EST Week 8/4- 8/10 recap AND 30 days of gratitude in pics 5/7 days on track eating <BR> 5/7 days exercising <BR> weight maintained. <BR> <BR> Had a really great week! I knew I would have an indulgent weekend with my sister coming to visit on Friday so I accounted for that and really focused on staying on. With that being said, I was frustrated with no weight loss. I'm still above my 10 lb "maintenance" weight, and at this point I'm still trying to lose more. I weigh myself on Thursdays so that is a reflection of how bad the weekend prior was and h... Tue, 13 Aug 2013 08:51:53 EST Week recap-into August we go 3/7 days within calorie range <BR> 5/7 days working out <BR> 3lbs lost <BR> <BR> Pretty good week! Would like to have been stronger food-wise, but I haven't had a 5/7 workout week in a while, so yay! <BR> <BR> Last Sunday I had a big Sunday/family style dinner with my friends which took me over calories. Thursday I just got lazy and went over by a little bit. Friday, and I know a lot of people are against this, I'm still on the fence, I fasted for 15 hours because I wanted to make up for go... Mon, 5 Aug 2013 09:58:40 EST Why people are misinformed I realize I'm beating this issue to death but it's my issue so if you're sick of it don't read. More pics were tagged of me from the wedding. Did I mention I HATE my arms? <BR> <BR> case in point: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> However, this one, dare I say, think they look good and toned--shocking!! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It's all about the angles. And most times I guess the an... Sun, 4 Aug 2013 16:46:03 EST Week recap 4/7 days on target eating <BR> 5/7 days exercise <BR> <BR> I can do better, but its a good start. At the beginning of the week I was still up north for the wedding. We went kayaking on Sunday and while I didn't track it and it wasn't that strenuous, it was something. Monday we traveled back and that day was pretty much a wash. Tuesday was back to reality and I hit the ground running. 4 straight days of good eating and exercise. I preemptively weighed myself and I lost almost 4 pounds in thos... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 10:43:20 EST Authentic Self You all are too kind, reading your support and compliments from my last blog I was a bit overwhelmed--I don't think of myself as beautiful and I wasn't fishing for compliments or justification (even if it seemed so). So thank you all, I know everyone has their insecurities and sometimes I DO take an attitude of "yeah, but not as bad as mine..." and it's NOT doing me any good. Mostly I keep it inside but it makes me feel better to get it out here. <BR> <BR> It's a process truly accepting you... Thu, 25 Jul 2013 15:33:25 EST Back from the wedding, with pics Well friends, I'm back from wedding, the culmination of the past 5 weeks I had been planning to make serious progress, food/fitness/body-wise. And I feel like I'm back at square one. More on that in a bit. <BR> <BR> First, about the wedding. Some background, it was my bf's close family friend from growing up, so they grew up together as basically other siblings and their families are neighbors and really close. My bf's sister was the MOH. I was my bf's date and basically knew no one; I had m... Tue, 23 Jul 2013 10:29:49 EST Week 4 2/7 days on track calories <BR> 4/7 days of exercise <BR> avoided scale <BR> <BR> I traveled for 3 days, came home for the weekend; I was not on track for 4 straight days. Monday night before I left I totally caved. BF wanted pizza to have copious amounts for leftovers so he wouldn't have to cook anything (REAL healthy plan, I know) but I don't expect him to follow my plan when I'm gone, and he only does it when I'm around because I'm the one cooking. Anyway, pizza it was. I told myself I wo... Mon, 15 Jul 2013 12:45:57 EST 1st day travel recap I think I did okay! <BR> <BR> Thank you all for your support and suggestions in my last blog. It is SO hard to track while traveling. But, I feel pretty good about my choices today. <BR> <BR> Breakfast: Ate while still at home and made sure it was something that would really keep me full until lunch, so through the flight - chobani vanilla greek yogurt with 1 tbs peanut butter and a banana. Little high on carbs, but also protein and some fat. I was still quite hungry by the time I found som... Tue, 9 Jul 2013 20:38:12 EST Week 3 3/7 days staying within cals/macros. <BR> 0/7 workout days. <BR> Maintained weight. <BR> <BR> Welp. I was supposed to improve my staying on track days, not get worse. At this point, I'm over getting where I wanted to be in less than 2 weeks. I'm not "giving up" I've just accepted that fact that for reasons beyond my control I haven't been able to stick to my fitness plan at ALL but, I'm still at my maintenance weight and I look better than I have before so, I'm okay with it. <BR> <BR> Fo... Mon, 8 Jul 2013 10:21:45 EST Week 2 sum Another week gone and I wasn't able to stick to my 5 week plan at all. While I'm upset, I know it is for the best to take care of my body. My back has been giving me a lot of pain for at least the past couple weeks, but last week it was even worse and particularly bad. I honestly thought I had a slipped disc or something. It is all one-sided. The lower right part aches when I'm lying down for a while/when I sleep, so I haven't been sleeping, and the upper right part/rib area is a sharper p... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 13:51:07 EST Week 1 done I'm currently on a 5-week fitness plan to tone up and lose a couple more pounds before a wedding we have coming up in July. Basically, I'm taking barre classes 2x a week, PT 1x a week, and supplementing with Jillian dvds and light cardio (even walking) for the rest of days. I'm trying to stay within calories/ macros for at LEAST the weekdays. <BR> <BR> Last week sums: 4/7 perfect calorie days; some sort of exercise 6/7 days, 2 of those days were only walking for exercise. Good, but not great... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 10:56:05 EST I guess you're never as healthy as you think you are... That is how I'm feeling right now and it is kind of upsetting. I just got back from the doctor's and she had my results of my recent full work-up, including my lipid panel. I have high cholesterol. Pause. Yes, me. High cholesterol. My total cholesterol is in the high range and my LDL "bad" cholesterol is in the borderline high range. My HDL "good" cholesterol however, is high, which is good/ideal. That at least makes me happy. <BR> <BR> For anyone who may be reading this, if you are not alre... Fri, 21 Jun 2013 16:27:36 EST Daily odd compliment Thanks for all your support on my last blog! I know my 4ish lb fluctuations aren't that much, but when I "pride" myself in having lost 10 pounds (even though its only 10 lbs), that's like losing and re-gaining almost half of it. Anyways, today is a new day and start of my new work out plan. <BR> <BR> First, I guess what you would call a daily odd compliment from my bf. Remember this picture I posted a couple blogs ago? <BR> <img src=" Mon, 17 Jun 2013 15:32:48 EST Up and down...up and down <img src=""> <BR> There it is. My weight chart that looks more like a roller coaster. I can't really say I'm surprised because my life and eating habits have been up and down as well. It's just frustrating because I want progress. <BR> <BR> I keep telling myself every little decision matters. Every little thing I eat or drink matters. Every time I do or do not work out adds up. I WILL see progress again, despite all these ups and downs,... Fri, 14 Jun 2013 16:09:28 EST Battling self-sabotage So June is off to a shaky start but I'm determined to turn it around. Monday was my birthday so the weekend prior involved a lot of pre-celebrating. I've actually been feeling motivated, I've been feeling that fire I felt over a year ago when I was determined to see if I could make a difference in my body, I guess looking at pictures and still being unhappy with what you see will do that to you. <BR> <BR> I've been keeping up with my workouts, for the last couple days anyways, and I even pus... Thu, 6 Jun 2013 17:33:55 EST