SDEHNKE's SparkPeople Blog SDEHNKE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Fit Bit shows why I have a Fat Butt I've lamented forever about why I'm not losing weight. I've stayed within a pound or two of the same weight for over a year even though I've stayed within my calorie ranges and I've been trying to exercise more. I got a Fitbit last week. I synced it to Sparkpeople so it not only shows my steps and my calories for the day but it also shows me the calories I've burned. <em>40</em> Even on my best days I'm not getting enough steps in. And then there are the bad days where the weather is too b... Tue, 14 Mar 2017 10:53:19 EST OK Now I'm really ticked. For those of you that don't know me well enough to have heard me whine about it. I lost 40 pounds in my first year on Sparkpeople. After faithfully losing every week a round of antibiotics brought my weight loss to a standstill. I thought it would be short-lived but all of last year I only lost 5 pounds. I still didn't let myself get discouraged. I'm 61 years old and disabled. Mobility is a big issue for me so I'm pretty much sedentary. 25 pounds from goal the going gets harder so I just figu... Mon, 16 May 2016 09:33:43 EST Well This Explains a Lot I have been "stuck" for more than a year pretty much at my present weight. Lose a pound Gain a pound. This is an excellent article in the New York Times about how your body fights against weight loss. <link><BR>ggest-loser-weight-loss.html?smid=fb-n<BR>ytimes&smtyp=cur&_r=0 </link> Mon, 2 May 2016 10:19:44 EST Something else has been happening. Gee didn't realize it's been so long since my last blog. I'm still Sparking. Still tracking and doing everything I know I should but I've been STUCK for over 6 months now. Up a pound down a pound but the basic trend is downward even if only by 3 pounds. It's easy to feel discouraged when you step on the scale week after week to see the same number. Two things though to give me motivation. Number One; I'm now seeing 189 on the scale every week instead of 190 or 192. Just being in the 180's fee... Mon, 31 Aug 2015 09:51:35 EST Indianapolis Spark Rally 8/23/14 Many thanks to Indygirl (Beth Donovan) and Hoosiergirlindy (Tina Wiseley) for putting on a great rally today. I so enjoyed meeting some of my fellow sparkers and all of the speakers were really motivating. I snuck in a few pictures. I'm not sure if you'll be able to see much but here they are. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Indygirl Beth Donovan <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR>... Sat, 23 Aug 2014 19:20:43 EST The difference a year makes Family Reunion July 27, 2013 <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Family Reunion July 26, 2014 <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> 35 pounds down and standing on my own two feet. A little shaky without the cane but I'm standing. <BR> <BR> Sat, 26 Jul 2014 21:17:22 EST O Glorious Day <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=" Tue, 15 Jul 2014 15:58:52 EST Believe that You Can Do Anything, and You Will! <BR> Imagine yourself to be the type of person you want to be, and then be it. You may have to let go of some bad habits and develop some more positive ones, but don't give up--for it is only in trying and persisting that dreams come true. <BR> <BR> Expect changes to occur, and realize that the power to make those changes comes from within you. Your thoughts and actions, your choices and decisions, and the way you spend your time, determine who you are and who you will become. <BR> <BR> Yo... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 18:37:45 EST 55+ Scavenger Hunt Friday Day 5 Believe it or not I did a 5K here just a few years ago and now I'm struggling to learn to walk again with a cane. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <i... Fri, 27 Jun 2014 21:11:42 EST 55+ Scavenger Hunt Thursday Day 4 For whatever reason there was almost no one at the park this morning so I didn't get a lot of pictures. I had to go to the grocery. I figured I would come back at some point but I didn't. I'm really tired this evening. I chased a robin all around the park trying to get his picture but he would not cooperate. SO not as many points today but here is today's walk. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=" Thu, 26 Jun 2014 20:38:51 EST 55+ Scavenger Hunt Wednesday Day 3 <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=" Wed, 25 Jun 2014 14:17:44 EST 55+ Scavenger Hunt Tuesday Day 2 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=" Tue, 24 Jun 2014 19:03:25 EST Inari Sushi It's one of my husband's favorite things. He grew up in Japan and this simple meal will always make him happy. Easy to make. Low in calories. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Mon, 23 Jun 2014 18:32:11 EST 55+ Scavenger Hunt Monday Day 1 <img src=""> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeopl... Mon, 23 Jun 2014 18:29:42 EST This is Me You know something I've noticed flipping through different people's Sparkpages is that so many of us don't have pictures of ourselves. We have pictures of our pets, our family, our flowers, maybe the places that we've been or places that we live but no pictures of us. <BR> <BR> I'm not knocking it because that's where I've been. I have a couple of pictures maybe of when I was younger and in good shape but nothing recent. I know why I haven't put recent pictures up is because I've been asham... Fri, 20 Jun 2014 15:32:26 EST A Question Of Balance One of the challenges for one of my Spark Teams today was to read an article on SP and blog about it. Right away an article entitled "Improve Your Balance in 3 Simple Steps" caught my eye. If I was able to gain strength and improve my balance maybe I wouldn't need this: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> or maybe not even look like this: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> The article... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 20:53:10 EST Just a Reminder: It's Not About Losing Weight It's About Being Healthy I think many of us struggle with eating disorders. This video shows the flip side. When we become obsessed with our weight. I think I was there once in high school and it's why I take the slow approach to weight loss now. Watch the video: <BR> <link><BR>rexic-women-weighed-only-79-pounds-is-<BR>saved-by-9-angels.php?ref=11 </link> Wed, 18 Jun 2014 12:14:17 EST My walk today and some pictures of our little park. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://pho... Tue, 17 Jun 2014 11:48:29 EST I Can't Do This Anymore! I've been challenged by one of my teams to write a blog about why I started eating and stopped moving. <BR> <BR> I decided to concentrate on why I did it THIS time. Because I've had a life full of ups and downs and yo-yo-ing. It all stems from my childhood of course and things that I won't go into here that had me grow up loathing myself instead of putting the blame where it belonged and realizing that I was just a child who deserved better. <BR> <BR> But THIS time I had given up. Given up... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 14:37:10 EST You Can Make Something Happy Out of Everything That Happens in Life Life can make choices for us, <BR> Sometimes these choices seem unhappy or unfair, <BR> but in the end we control <BR> our own destiny because we can decide <BR> how people and events affect us. <BR> <BR> So much of our happiness lies within <BR> the choices that we make. <BR> We can accept that life <BR> isn't the way we want it to be, <BR> or we can change it so that it will be. <BR> <BR> We can walk through the shadows, <BR> or we can choose to smile <BR> and seek out the sunlight. <BR... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 14:47:51 EST Make Each Day a New Beginning Finish every day and be done with it. <BR> You have done what you could. <BR> Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; <BR> forget them as soon as you can. <BR> Tomorrow is a new day; <BR> begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be cumbered with your old nonsense. <BR> This day is all that is good and fair. <BR> It is too dear, with it's hopes and invitations, <BR> to waste a moment on the yesterdays. <BR> <BR> --Ralph Waldo Emerson Mon, 14 Apr 2014 10:37:20 EST May You Always Have Positive Thoughts May every day of your life bring you fresh hopes for tomorrow..because hope gives all of us our reason for trying. <BR> <BR> May each new day bring a feeling of excitement, joy, and a wonderful sense of expectation. Expect the best, and you'll get it. <BR> <BR> May you find peace in simple things, because those are the ones that will always be there. <BR> <BR> May you remember the good times and forget the sorrow and pain, for the good times will remind you of how special your life has be... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 10:37:22 EST Over the First Hump Today I reached a minor milestone. Over the first hump on my ticker which means I'm a quarter of the way to my goal. The sad news is that I still have to lose 1 pound to make it to my previous lifetime high but that's OK. I got myself here and I'm going in the right direction now. <em>55</em> I hardly know myself now. For the first time in my life I'm actually CRAVING salads. Even on previous weight loss journeys I've eaten very few salads. The other day I found myself making a trip to Wal... Mon, 25 Nov 2013 06:42:26 EST I Know He Meant to Help! I've been feeling under the weather the last few days. First stomach upset and then allergy/cold like symptoms. Just a general yucky feeling. I didn't feel like cooking supper last night so my husband asked what I wanted from Arby's. Arby's is always my go-to when my IBS is flared up. For some reason a plain roast beef sandwich usually stops the spasms. But yesterday I told him that I didn't want anything. Actually I wouldn't have been able to fit it into my tracker anyway. I let him go off a... Sat, 9 Nov 2013 19:08:24 EST Inspiration when you need it. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This is one of the first things I saw this morning. As I was sitting here a little bummed that I had actually GAINED 1.4 pounds this week. I was doing a little bit of negative self-talk and going back over the week. Yes, I had Chinese one day as I blogged earlier. I made the wisest choices that I could and thought that I did OK. Yes, we celebrated out anniversary on Thursday but I had baked chicken and asparagus a... Mon, 23 Sep 2013 12:30:16 EST I'm not liking this <em>4</em> <BR> <BR> I broke down and went to the Chinese Buffet this afternoon. I have an adult handicapped daughter who loves Chinese food. She's been saying to me "Just because you're on a diet doesn't mean I have to give up Chinese food". OK. My husband is out to a meeting this evening so I decided today would be a good time. I skipped lunch ( I know, I know) and went about 4 pm so it was a late lunch/ early dinner. I've tracked as close as possible what I ate and I'm still within my ... Tue, 17 Sep 2013 21:08:06 EST Ouch <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This is what I feel like too. After attending the marathon labor of my daughter (something like 52 hours all told) on Monday, September 2nd, I came home the following day. Then we drove back to Louisville from outside Indy on Friday so my husband could get a chance to hold the baby. And of course I got to hold her again too. She was sleeping so I took advantage and held her for about 2 hours. I expected a sore arm... Wed, 11 Sep 2013 11:05:19 EST THIS is why I got off track today <img src=""> <BR> <BR> The birth of my first grandchild last night. All told my daughter was in labor something like 50 hours and ending up giving birth to a 9 lb 2 oz baby girl. With the traveling, long waits at the hospital, and very little sleep I've gotten a little off track today. I probably ate too little at the hospital yesterday and woke up ravenous today. But it's just one day and I'll be back on track tomorrow! <BR> <BR> <img... Tue, 3 Sep 2013 20:32:44 EST Panic attack. Send food. I have a panic/anxiety disorder. I haven't had a problem for months but with the spiraling anxiety awaiting the birth of our first long-awaited grandchild (due in 3 days) I have started feeling that panicky feeling over the last couple of days. I first noticed on Friday when we went out to eat. The lights seemed to be flashing and I started getting that "I have to get out of here" kind of feeling. Then this morning as we're getting ready for church it completely bubbled over I started crying ... Sun, 25 Aug 2013 10:32:14 EST The real victory I could be disappointed after getting on the scales this morning. It only went down .6 pounds. I could have wanted to give up after all the effort and not much results this week but then I think back on the little ways that I probably fudged a bit. Some of the casseroles that I KNOW have more calories and fat than the sum of their parts but I let them slide because it fit into the tracker better. That extra little bite of trifle (and it was so good). I used to be able to fudge a little bit wh... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 11:51:29 EST Well I did it! Part 2 I took my new walker out for a little spin the other day. I used to walk 3 miles every day and loved it. So I took off down the street, across the road, to the park where I used to walk. I used to walk the whole perimeter of the park, across a covered bridge, and up a steep hill in the woods. This time it was a big achievement just to make it to the park. I've been paying for it ever since. Pain in my lower back and groin to where it's hard to sleep but I'm not giving up. Just maybe putting i... Mon, 12 Aug 2013 18:48:33 EST Well I did it! I finally got a rollator today. It's a walker on wheels kind of thing that I can use on the bad days. It also converts to a wheel chair for the bad bad days. I'm hoping that this will give me more confidence to try to get out and walk and not be afraid that I'm going to fall down. I used to walk 3 miles every day. Not only did I love walking but I loved being outdoors and it was good therapy to help with the depression. When I was no longer able to do that I just got more and more depressed. ... Wed, 7 Aug 2013 15:15:32 EST I'm tired of making excuses I keep rolling from being depressed about one thing and then right into another. We have had a LOT of stress. My husband is still without a church and it will be 4 years in December. Brother-in-law lived with us for 5 months (talk about stress). Too much stuff has happened in the intervening time to even bring up but this summer we lost one of our best friends to cancer. I have one niece with breast cancer, one niece with a tumor in her neck, and a nephew (an Iraqi war veteran) committed suic... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 19:51:46 EST Disability I should be thrilled. I finally had my Social Security Disability hearing on Wednesday and my attorney tells me that I was approved. It's rather hard to tell because the doctors and the judge were talking to each other in technical terms after my testimony and I felt rather "dismissed". I would rather have heard OK'd or Granted or Approved. So now I have to wait for 60 days for the paperwork to go through and then maybe I can relax. I've been waiting for 3 1/2 years. I said I should be thrill... Sun, 29 Apr 2012 15:13:09 EST Obstacles I haven't been on in a couple of weeks because my computer decided to take a rest break. : ( They found that it had been hit by lightning. Luckily they found that only the power source was fried. YAY! Instead of it being totaled as originally thought I only had to pay $169 to get it fixed. But it meant I was without a computer for more than 2 weeks and I wasn't able to track my food. SOMEhow I managed to maintain. I would have liked to see a loss but I'll take it. It's not a gain. NOW we're e... Wed, 20 Jul 2011 18:14:33 EST The Midnight Battle of the Pound Cake and I won! <em>104</em> I tried some light floor exercises last night for the 1st time in a long time. My husband was watching and we were commenting about how much I was doing a year ago and how much I can't do now. I know with the Fibro that if I don't use my muscles I lose them but I haven't been getting much exercise of any kind for quite some time. Most of the time I've been walking with a cane and that's only when I have to. I was shocked to see that I couldn't even lay on my back an... Mon, 23 May 2011 12:37:05 EST Waking up comes with it's own problems Now that some of the deadness/numbness is starting to wear off the anxiety has really ratcheted up the last week or so. Now I am having to deal with so many feelings that I have been stuffing down for the past 6 months or longer. I could put up with the crying jags but the dizziness, shakiness, palpitation kind of thing can go away now please. You wouldn't believe how stressful it is for me just to doodle around on Sparkpeople. I've really isolated myself from everyone but a few trusted frie... Mon, 16 May 2011 16:57:05 EST I Think I Might Want to Live Again I guess I can title this winter the "Winter of Dark Despair". I've been in a deep dark place that I hope I never go back to. I'm just beginning to see the 1st inklings of spring in my soul and a feeling that I want to live again. There for awhile it was touch and go. Our life has been so hard. My husband is still waiting for a church and is still without a job after 2 1/2 years. He has picked up some temporary work and fill-in preaching jobs and we have managed to stay afloat (barely). I am g... Thu, 12 May 2011 13:15:36 EST MOURNING I don't even know how to put it into words. There's like a noiseless cry coming from deep in my soul. I lost my mother on November 7th 2010. <BR> <BR> I got a phone call on October 15th that she had been taken to the hospital. We had a few days of tests and then the words that no child ever wants to hear. Cancer. Not strong enough to survive surgery. Not strong enough for chemo. Hospice. My mother had a strong will to die. Ripped out the IV's, ripped out the catheters, wouldn't leave oxygen ... Mon, 22 Nov 2010 14:24:41 EST NOW I'M TICKED!!!! So ticked in fact that I haven't been on Sparkpeople much at all this week. No, I'm not ticked at Sparkpeople. I'm ticked at myself and my stupid body. If you were following my last blog I was complaining that after a perfect week the week before last, I didn't lose an ounce. I was able to put it past me and had another, what I thought was, perfect week. I tracked everything that I ate. I thought maybe the week before that I was underestimating so I made sure to eat in the bottom of my calori... Thu, 11 Feb 2010 20:04:38 EST THIS DOES NOT COMPUTE!!!! I got on the scales this morning. I usually weigh every Monday morning. I had a great week. The first week in months that I had been totally on program. I tracked every single bite of food that went into my mouth and was easily within my ranges. We went mall walking 3 times this week at a fast pace and walked the whole Mall, about 2 miles. I did "Walk Away the Pounds" twice. I haven't done ANY exercise for months and I do mean ANY. Some weeks I couldn't even lift myself up off the couch. So a... Mon, 1 Feb 2010 11:10:45 EST OUCH! My husband and I have started Mall Walking this week. It's too cold to walk outside for sure. I'm really out of shape and sore. I can't stop though just because it hurts. The old saying applies "Use it or lose it" and it is especially true for aging with Fibromyalgia. Just the few short weeks that I've avoided exercise, I've lost a lot of muscle. I'm just thrilled that I am able to walk the mall right now, without the cane. When I really started hurting and felt like giving up as I watched my... Thu, 28 Jan 2010 00:03:30 EST Battling Depression and Disability I've recommited myself to Sparkpeople AGAIN. I weighed in this morning for the first time in weeks and didn't like what I saw. I'm up 8 pounds from last summer when I was exercising, eating right, and using Sparkpeople everyday. I'm readjusting my ticker AGAIN. The going has been tough. We passed the 1 year anniversary of my husbands church closing on December 14th. That means 1 year without a steady income. He's picked up preaching assignments here and there. Somehow, by God's grace, we are ... Mon, 25 Jan 2010 21:35:16 EST HOW DID THE WHEELS COME OFF???? Boy! After a year of being on Sparkpeople and tracking my calories and exercising and losing 34 pounds (OK, that's not a great amount but still something that I'm proud of), all of a sudden the wheels came off the cart. It wasn't just that I wasn't making any forward momentum, the whole dang cart came off the track, bogged down in the mud. In other words, I stopped doing everything that I know I needed to do. I didn't sign onto Sparkpeople at all. Especially after reading my anniversary post ... Mon, 26 Oct 2009 21:37:22 EST 1 year Spark Anniversary Today is my one year anniversary of joining Sparkpeople. I'm not as far along as I hoped to be. I've lost 34 pounds rather than the 50 that I was aiming for. Am I still proud of that? You betcha. Despite major obstacles this year, I'm still here. Despite an absolutely crazy summer, traveling more than being at home, I maintained. Despite 9 months of my husband's unemployment, I'm still hopeful for the future. Despite depression, anxiety, and disability, I'm still thankful to God every day tha... Thu, 17 Sep 2009 19:37:21 EST Back to the Future! My son bought us an old-fashioned reel type push mower a couple of weeks ago. He bought it to help out the environment but also to give us more exercise. And boy is it a work out! It usually takes me about 1 1/2 hours to do front and back, as opposed to the less than 10 minutes that it takes for our neighbor to do it on his lawn tractor. It gets my heart pumping and I'm dripping with sweat. You also have to do it every 2 to 3 days because it doesn't work well with taller grass. Sounds like a ... Thu, 18 Jun 2009 19:32:37 EST I'm OVERWEIGHT! YAY! It suddenly dawned on me while I was out walking today that I had passed a major milestone without noticing it. I officially crossed over from the OBESE BMI category to the OVERWEIGHT BMI category! YAY me! No more looking at that offensive word written by my doctor on my chart at every checkup. With today's weigh-in, I am just .2 pounds away from having a 30 pound loss too. I am so surprised how these milestones keep coming up and getting busted. Looking forward to the day I can say I am no l... Mon, 27 Apr 2009 14:17:01 EST FLU??? I ate a full meal tonight for the first time since Sunday lunch (this is Wednesday). I've been SO sick. Projectile vomiting for 24 hours. Pain in my side. I was just thinking I needed to head to the emergency room when things started easing up. I have no idea. I had some chills the night before so was it Flu? Or food poisoning? I'm just so glad to start feeling better. I've got a long way to go to be 100% but there's been a big improvement. The sad thing is, I was visiting at my daughter's ho... Wed, 22 Apr 2009 22:24:59 EST I CAN'T QUIT EATING! No, not like you probably think I mean. It seems like, if left to my own devices, I can't ever eat enough food. I'm always shocked when I put everything on my Tracker and I don't come UP to my ranges! So I add in this and I add in that and gee whiz! I feel like I'm eating more than I ever have! Well, I guess if you leave out all the cookies and junk snacks that I used to eat. I've figured out that I haven't eaten enough REAL food for probably YEARS! No wonder my health isn't so good. I'm eat... Thu, 26 Mar 2009 19:17:02 EST WOW!!! 10,000 Sparkpoints! As I pass this milestone, I've been thinking about how I got here. It's simple really. One day at a time, one step at a time, one meal at a time. When I started on Sparkpeople in Sept 2008 little did I know how my attitude to food and exercise was going to change. I've been a Weightwatcher several times in the past and the weight was always a goal that you reached and then you moved on. Now, I usually don't even think much about the number on the scale. I'm working every day to be the healthi... Wed, 18 Feb 2009 19:32:25 EST