SARILA's SparkPeople Blog SARILA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community May be losing too fast. I weighed in this morning. It looks like I have dropped 10-15 pounds over the last couple of weeks. I can't be sure exactly how much because I've weighed on three different scales -- my own at home, at a doctor's, and at the gym. I want to say the doctor's scale puts me at about 5 pounds heavier than my personal one. I am going to weigh again later at the gym and see how that tracks with the last weigh in I had there, but even allowing for the difference in scale and time of day, I think ... Fri, 29 Jul 2016 14:07:10 EST "Lazy" Day. Today, I did not go to the gym. I don't think I will be going for a walk. I might pull out the trampoline, but probably not. <BR> <BR> Today, I cleaned. We are so busy running the bookstore, we don't clean like we should. Things are cluttered and messy. So I relaxed a little, and cleaned. And I think there will be more cleaning before the day is done. <BR> <BR> Besides, I had a really good workout yesterday, and plan on going again tomorrow. And I have watched my intake today, and am... Sun, 24 Jul 2016 20:53:41 EST The hardest part of the gym is going. Once I get to the gym, I wouldn't say I enjoy it, but I do want to make the most of the effort it took me to get there. The hardest part is actually going. And it can be really hard sometimes. <BR> <BR> But once I walk in, it's like I want to use everything! I want to use all the cardio machines, all the weight machines. I always leave feeling as though I could have done more. I guess there is a part of me that wants to have to crawl out. Today I did 45 minutes of cardio and quite a bi... Sat, 23 Jul 2016 17:40:02 EST How much of it was on me? I have struggled with my weight pretty much throughout my life. I remember it first being an issue when was maybe 7 or so. I wasn't obese, just a bit overweight. I have always thought it was my fault. <BR> <BR> I would sneak food whenever my parents left. One of my earliest memories comes from a time when I was still in diapers! I couldn't have been more than 2 or 3. My parents went out to feed the cows, and I, understanding I was alone, went to the fridge, grabbed the margarine (?!!?)... Fri, 22 Jul 2016 16:13:57 EST Thoughts on gym class I hated gym class. <BR> <BR> It always started at a level far beyond me, and I never felt like I could catch up. So I cut corners wherever I could, and didn't put in the effort I should. Add to this a system that favored the athletic kids in sports over the others, and I hated gym class with a real passion. <BR> <BR> I never once felt inspired. I did learn to hate exercising. It was something that I did because I was forced to do it. The teachers never cared about helping you improve, ... Fri, 13 Mar 2015 21:54:01 EST Work in Progress Overall, things have been going okay. I pulled something in my back last week, and I was forced to back off of my exercising for a while, but I kept tracking my food intake. I have had a few days lately that I feel I took in too many calories -- had too many splurges. I wish I could have a little splurge now and then and leave it at that. It never seems to end there, though. I can't just have a little treat; I end up craving junk with only a slight deviation and then it feels like starti... Mon, 9 Mar 2015 22:18:00 EST A Good Day I started the day with oatmeal. I think I have finally gotten out of my ramen for breakfast habit, at least sort of. At least on work mornings, I've been pretty good about eating healthy cereal and maybe some fruit. <BR> <BR> Resisted the frozen yogurt place by work, though it's not too bad nutritionally. It's just that the portion sizes are hard to gauge until it's too late, and I love the brownie bites too much. <BR> <BR> Kept almost all my goals where they needed to be. Need to be ... Sat, 28 Jun 2014 00:13:25 EST Tonight's workout music Tonight on my MP3 player as I jumped on my trampoline and lifted weights: <BR> <BR> Dead or Alive - You Spin Me Round <BR> Eminem - Lose Yourself <BR> Michael Jackson - Beat It <BR> Britney Spears - Work Bitch <BR> Katy Perry - Roar <BR> <BR> Had a good day overall. Met just about every nutrition goal I have, and got it some exercise, too. My husband and I got ready for a walk, only to discover that it was raining. But that wasn't going to stop me tonight. I pulled out the trampoline a... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 23:53:44 EST Trigger foods and mindless eating I've been thinking lately about foods I have to be careful with. I'd love to be able to relax with food, but after over 30 years in this body, I know that's just not for me. <BR> <BR> For example, I can't just get a pint of good ice cream and enjoy it as a special splurge. I get one, and then I'm in the habit of it, and so I want some every day. And then I start craving sugar even more, and wanting candy bars and cake and things. And it can start with something as small as a single pint ... Tue, 24 Jun 2014 23:28:08 EST Tiring night Came home from work tonight to find husband preparing to take his mother to the hospital. She fell and bumped her head. Several hours later, they released her, diagnosing a bruise. But you can't be too careful. She's almost 80; a fall could be very serious. <BR> <BR> She seems to be fine, just a bad headache. <BR> <BR> I hate hospital waiting rooms. They seem to be designed to be as annoyingly uncomfortable as possible. <BR> <BR> Did pretty good today at increasing fruit intake, but... Fri, 20 Jun 2014 00:14:22 EST Shopping trip Tonight, we we grocery shopping. Didn't make it a complete trip, as it was late and we were tired, but made a point of starting in the produce section and buying lots of veggies and fruit. I haven't been doing great lately at my fruit and vegetable intake, largely because there just hasn't been anything on hand that was good for eating alone. <BR> <BR> My husband and I usually end up eating two separate breakfasts and lunches, due to our work schedules. We will have dinner together, and I... Thu, 19 Jun 2014 00:39:16 EST Just some random stuff Recent doctor's appointment showed everything in normal limits. A1C, normal. All cholesterol, normal. Platelets, normal. Thyroid, normal. BP, normal. <BR> <BR> All good news! <BR> <BR> I have started taking the brand name of my thyroid medicine. It's a lot more expensive, but I feel a lot better on it. Before, I would always go through the same thing with every new bottle: a few days of feeling good, two to three weeks of feeling like crud on toast, and a slow return to feeling decen... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 00:19:45 EST New gym! I'm back at a gym, after a long time away. I put in about an hour overall, and got in some good cardio and strength training. It has a sauna, which I love to use after a workout. It gives me some time to relax and listen to some slower music. <BR> <BR> Between the sauna and the pickle juice I drank when I got home, I hope I am not too sore tomorrow, as it will be a long day. A girl at the gym said something about whey protein being good for that, and I will look into it. At least I no l... Thu, 7 Nov 2013 21:04:23 EST Doctor's appointment, with mixed results Overall, it went well. <BR> <BR> My A1C is still in check, which is a relief. I haven't been watching my sugar and carb intake like I should, so I was expecting to see that number higher. It's good that it was within limits! <BR> <BR> My thyroid levels were supposedly normal, but a lot of my symptoms have come back over the last month or so -- low energy, being cold, no appetite, light period, and so on. I explained this, and my doctor agreed that while it was technically normal, many pe... Tue, 5 Nov 2013 18:10:19 EST Trying to Start Again It's been a long time since I was here. I fell off the Spark wagon while dealing with the fallout of abnormal paps. The changes in my diet seemed to make me spot, which skyrocketed my anxiety levels, so I stepped away for a while. <BR> <BR> After having a cervical biopsy come back clear, and two more paps come back fine, I am more relaxed about that situation. But in the meantime, I have discovered a new wrinkle in my battle with weight loss and living healthier. <BR> <BR> A few months ... Wed, 21 Aug 2013 14:23:36 EST I HATE ASCUS! Back in February, the same time I started on here, I had an abnormal Pap smear. I also started spotting before my period at the same time, which really, really freaked me out because it was not usual for me, and with the abnormal Pap . . . . <BR> <BR> I had to wait until this month to get a follow-up Pap to see if the abnormal cells were still there. I was sticking to Sparkpeople pretty closely, but eventually I felt I had to back away a bit, to see if going back to my "normal" (read, bad)... Wed, 26 May 2010 00:53:58 EST Time for a job change? Maybe I just have expectations that are just too high? I don't know. <BR> <BR> Lately, I've been scheduled to work closing shifts followed by opening shifts like it's nothing. Last week, I had two of them, and that's one reason I have been so quiet here lately. Being at work until 10:30 or 11 at night and then having to be there at 7 in the morning is exhausting. <BR> <BR> Worse, it's sabotaging my attempts to get healthy. I get so exhausted, and I have no time to log on here, and so ti... Sun, 21 Mar 2010 21:43:27 EST Making Smart Choices I almost titled this blog "Being Good", but something that I need to do is stop thinking of eating healthy things as "good" and unhealthy things as "bad". Food is not good or bad. And I am not bad if I make an unhealthy choice. <BR> <BR> Hubby and I went to El Pollo Loco today. I love their chicken, but I have really been wanting to try their new sirloin. But what I really, really wanted was the steak quesadilla. This particular item is over 500 calories and has over 40 grams of fat. I... Sat, 13 Mar 2010 19:32:35 EST One Word Each That Would Describe Me Found this on someone's blog, and it looked fun. Here goes! <BR> <BR> <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> Not as easy as you might think! Copy and Paste into your own blog, change the answers to suit you. It's really hard to only use one word answers. <BR> <BR> Where is your cell phone? <BR> Near <BR> <BR> Spouse? <BR> Goofy <BR> <BR> Your hair? <BR> Long <BR> <BR> Your mother? <BR> Missed <BR> <BR> Your father? <BR> Missed <BR> <BR> Your favorite thing? <BR> Laughing <BR> <BR> Your dream las... Wed, 10 Mar 2010 23:50:59 EST Inventory. I've been out of the picture for a couple of days here on Sparkpeople. A big reason for that is Inventory. Our store went through two days of hell -- Sunday and Monday. Sunday was supposed to be hardlines, and Monday was softlines -- my side. <BR> <BR> Well, they finished hardlines early, and started in on softlines. And I was the only one there to help for an hour or so. SKU check! SKU check! SKU check! Wait, slow down, it's just me here. Oh, just drop it on the floor. I'll get it... Tue, 2 Mar 2010 20:12:51 EST 2 1/2 hours at the gym??? I made it to the gym again today. I guess you could say that was an understatement. <BR> <BR> I spent about 2 1/2 hours there. <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> It was not intentional. I didn't plan to spend that long there. It just happened. I spent about 30 minutes on the treadmill, and the rest on weight training. I probably wouldn't have spent quite so much time there, but there were some other girls, and I had to keep waiting for them. One of the machines was taken for a full hour by t... Sun, 21 Feb 2010 20:35:30 EST Quick Little Blog I did make it to the gym last night. I didn't go overboard with it because I was very tired, but I knew I wouldn't have a chance today. I don't like to work out before I go in to work, but it will be especially hard for the next couple days. Tonight, I will be at work until at least 10, but I really don't think I'll get out before 11, maybe even 12. Tomorrow, I have to be at work at 7 in the morning. And through the whole week, I don't have two shifts back to back that are the same. Clo... Sat, 20 Feb 2010 16:54:56 EST Having a Fight With Myself My mind wants to go exercise. It's totally in the mood. "Let's go! Whoo-hoo! Ready, set, go, go, go!" <BR> <BR> My body is not really with the program. "Yeah, you know that four hours of sleep we got last night? Not so much of the enough, that. Very tired. Let's just snuggle up right here on the couch and have a little nap. Or a long one. Sleep is good." <BR> <BR> I'd really like to go to the gym. <BR> <BR> Hello. It's an hour after I started this entry. I fell asleep sitting... Fri, 19 Feb 2010 20:09:08 EST Of exercise, binging, and other things. I did my exercising today. But I was starving afterward. I had a hot dog, which might not have been the best thing, but I'm still within all my counts. I just have to be careful for the rest of the night. I have two things in reserve to munch on if I feel I need to: a can of tuna (which I need to eat, anyway, for the protein), and a can of turnip greens. I'm a Southern girl, and I love my turnip greens. <BR> <BR> It's Ash Wednesday. I wish I could have made it to church today. My hu... Wed, 17 Feb 2010 22:09:17 EST One Day Off I took Valentine's Day off this week. We had no money (and I mean NO money) to go anywhere or do anything special, so we stayed home and had a little party. <BR> <BR> With drinking and munchies. <BR> <BR> I don't plan on doing it often, but every once in a while, I think it's good just not to worry about what that handful of Doritos is going to do to your nutrition counts. Also, the one thing my hubby was able to do for me was get me a package of those cookies where you can break off the ... Tue, 16 Feb 2010 22:47:31 EST Not so bad today. I've been calmer today. I think I might be adjusting to the shocker on Monday. I know it'll be in the back of my mind for the next three months, but last night was rough. It hasn't been as bad today. <BR> <BR> My eating has been fine today, too. I need to get back to exercising, now that things are calming down a little in my system. It's just hard to do, after a long day of work, especially when that long day is spent on your feet. But I was feeling better when I was working out, and ... Thu, 11 Feb 2010 22:31:19 EST Still freaked. I worked earlier today, but my husband is closing. So I'm alone for the first time since the call on Monday. <BR> <BR> I am still freaked out, and more so when alone. I don't know how I'm going to get through the next three months. I know there is nothing I can do, except pray, but my body feels all geared up, adrenaline pumping. And I agreed to work tomorrow to make up for not going in yesterday. <BR> <BR> But I'm not emotionally eating. Well, I did have one snack-size ice cream dru... Wed, 10 Feb 2010 22:32:38 EST Scary. Yesterday when I went into work, I found that the schedule had been changed and I had lost my only day off this week with my husband. <BR> <BR> I was very ticked off, but I need the hours, so I had decided I would go ahead and work the shift. I would, however, be sure to let whoever changed it know how rude it is to change the schedule when you're into the workweek without making sure that it will not be inconvenient for everyone involved. <BR> <BR> I work a minimum wage job, so it's not... Tue, 9 Feb 2010 09:15:30 EST Trucking along Not too much going on today. For once, all nutrients came into line tonight without the help of stale cereal. Came close to hitting all the upper limits, but I am just under all of them. <BR> <BR> Did my exercise today, too, but kind of just going through the motions of it. I guess it can't always be a "Whoo, look at me, I'm doing good for myself, yea!" Sometimes, the point is just to do it, even if it's a fight to get started. <BR> <BR> But tomorrow is my first full day at work since s... Sun, 7 Feb 2010 23:55:28 EST The end-day race Now that I am tracking all the foods I eat, I am discovering a frustrating thing. <BR> <BR> I end up at the end of the day short in some areas, and barely squeaking by in others. Tonight, I ended up searching through the kitchen trying to find something that would put me where I needed to be in carbohydrate and protein areas without putting me over on the fat. <BR> <BR> I ended up downing a cup of stale cereal that put me just where I needed to be, but now I am beginning to see the importa... Sun, 7 Feb 2010 00:30:54 EST Fighting cravings It hasn't been a bad day. It's been good in some ways -- I exercised today, and have managed to keep my eating in line. I did splurge a bit at work -- there was a pizza party, and cake, and I had some of both. Not enough to really hurt me, though. If I stop eating now for the night, things will be pretty much where they should be. <BR> <BR> But those little snack ice cream cones in the freezer are calling my name. Actually, I could afford one of them without breaking the nutrition bank.... Fri, 5 Feb 2010 20:58:59 EST Not a bad day today Well, foodwise, at least. Kept everything, or almost everything, in reasonable limits. Of course, we didn't eat lunch, but that was a timing issue more than anything else. We had to take Kenny's mom to the doctor, and we didn't get breakfast before the appointment. After breakfast, we had to run here and there, and by the time we got home, all we wanted to do is crash. After a nap, we had dinner. But nutrition overall was good, and breakfast was hearty enough (but healthy, too, or at le... Thu, 4 Feb 2010 20:47:55 EST Why does this always happen? I've had a pretty good month, overall. But it doesn't take much for the wheels to come off the wagon. I'll have a good day, a couple, maybe even a week or two. But somehow, it always comes back to just not caring very much, and the snacking and binging get out of control. Even now, I keep running over the foods in the kitchen in my head, though I am not at all hungry. At one point, I'd lost a couple pounds. Now, I've gained them back. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever be able to do thi... Wed, 3 Feb 2010 23:46:11 EST