SARAOMG13's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SARAOMG13 SARAOMG13's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ I'm not saying I gave up... But I gave up. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5242755 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/6/l760693824.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Ok, so that blog title doesn't exactly explain it, but allow me. As most of you know, I've been working on C25K, and for the most part I was doing really well. Then Week 4 day 1 happened, and I learned something about my body. At 238 pounds on a 5'4 frame, running for that long HURT. Badly. I gave it a go twice. I was able to complete the workout, but I caught myself doing something dangerous: running through pain.... Fri, 8 Feb 2013 11:29:38 EST The A to Z of ME! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5230273 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/7/l27473123.jpg">Saw this on a SparkFriends page! Love it. Reminds me of the early days of Myspace, LOL. <BR> <BR> A - Available or married: Married for nearly 5 years (In July) to my soulmate Tim. <BR> <BR> B - Book: Any of L. Frank Baums OZ books, Harry Potter series, The Alchemist, a lot of self-help books from Bob Harper and others. <BR> <BR> C - Cake or Pie? : Cake. Any cake. Oh poo (I got censored!), now I want cake. (Not happening) <... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 12:49:37 EST The night I tracked my binge.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5104227 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1564390554.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I am one of those in the habit of making excuses. And I have to say that there is one in particular that I have become expert at making.... using my anger and emotion as an excuse to eat. And eat. AND EAT. <BR> <BR> I share my food tracker. Go ahead, take a look at it. I am not ashamed tonight. I'm owning up to what I did to myself. Go look, I dare you. In fact, here, I'll make it even easier... here's the link: ... Thu, 18 Oct 2012 20:56:09 EST Low expectations bring happier surprises http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5097239 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/4/l340703792.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I want you to try something today. Lower your expectations of yourself or something you want to get done. Are you going to be getting on the scale? Hope for a half pound loss instead of 1 pound. Need to laundry? Tell yourself you'll get 2 loads done instead of 4. Want to eat healthy perfect food all day? Tell yourself you need to eat 2 of your 3 meals perfect instead. You see, this isn't about degrading yourself o... Sat, 13 Oct 2012 07:02:40 EST Getting it DONE, no matter what... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5094835 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/3/l734852937.jpg"> <BR> <BR> The last few days have been pretty exhausting for me. Running around with the kids, taking testing for a (hopefully) new job, interviews, work, cooking, cleaning.... it is true that a woman's work never ends. That coupled with my recent bout of insomnia has got me feeling worn out by the end of the day. <BR> <BR> If one good thing is to come out of only getting 6 hours of sleep a night, it's that I wake up just mo... Thu, 11 Oct 2012 06:00:37 EST How I turned my 'tude around... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5089694 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/4/l24929919.jpg"> <BR> Ah, wise words from the wonderful J.K. Rowling. This quote basically sums up my recent change of attitude, the rebirth of myself, and the beginning of what I know will be a tough and perilous journey. Maybe not like what Ms. Rowling, or her Harry Potter, went through, but my own dark, sad path to me has been quite the battle. <BR> <BR> It was Thursday, Sept. 13th, my daughter's 6th birthday. But instead of sitting around... Sun, 7 Oct 2012 08:04:01 EST Less of a blog, more of a blurb http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5081597 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/6/l368428413.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I seem to be suffering a little bout of insomnia. I was up at 3a.m. this morning. As much as I enjoy waking up and having energy, a good night's sleep (aka more that 5 hours) would do me good. There's going to be quite a bit of coffee in my life today. <BR> <BR> But again I made the best of it. Decided I would go for a little walk. The nights/early mornings are feeling a little more brisk which is a relief. My wal... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 06:14:06 EST Done before the sun http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5080257 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/2/l929099747.jpg"> <BR> <BR> So I've noticed over the last few days that I am able to do something that I have not been able to do in, I'll guess, well over a year. And that is WAKE UP in the morning. Since about Thursday I've been waking up regularly between about 4:30 and 5:30. Great during the work-week... not so much on the weekend. <BR> <BR> But today I decided to make the most of being up at 5am on Sunday and get my bike workout in nice... Sun, 30 Sep 2012 07:49:13 EST Food Addiction: Food Porn http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5071395 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/0/l600497823.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Food addiction is a scary thing. You don't even know that you're dealing with it until it's just about too late, until it has consumed (literally and figuratively) all of you. Food becomes a coping mechanism. Bored? Eat. Upset? Eat. Need comfort? Eat. And Eat. AND EAT. EAAAAAT. It's like this demonic voice in the back of your head at all times, nagging you, taunting you. It knows your every move and watches you, wa... Sun, 23 Sep 2012 11:34:40 EST Star Wars and Weight Loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4866594 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/1/l612979511.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Anyone who knows me well will tell you that, of the many things that make me a loveable nerd, my passion for all things Star Wars is probably what pushes me into the edge of full-blown geekdom. Which I'm fine with, btw. So, in honor of Star Wars Day (May the 4th, like May the Force...get it?) I figured I'd take a handful of my favorite Star Wars quotes and flip them into inspirational quotes relative to weight loss... Fri, 4 May 2012 16:00:17 EST Days 6 & 7: One week in the books! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4843289 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/0/l801379105.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Let me start by saying THANK YOU to the DONE GIRLS team for all the DGOTD loooooove! It was so awesome being DGOTD, I had a lot of fun on SP and made a lot of new friends. I say it all the time, but the Done Girls are BY FAR the best and most supportive team on SP. You all rock my socks! <BR> <em>247</em> <em>247</em> <em>247</em> <em>247</em> <em>247</em> <em>247</em> <em>247</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> We... Thu, 19 Apr 2012 22:02:07 EST Day 5, 86 days to go, and loving it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4840081 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/7/l278923524.jpg"> <BR> I have realized so much about myself in the last few days. It's been so long since I've made any type of important decision for MYSELF. I have always put my family and pretty much everyone else's needs before mine. I'm not saying that's going to stop, it's just not my nature, I care about the people close to me so much, I hate to let them down. But all this time, I was letting myself down. I was not putting me into the p... Tue, 17 Apr 2012 21:50:37 EST Day 3 into Day 4.... 87 Days to go! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4838470 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/8/l582310719.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Right now I am smiling big because of my 4lb loss at the nutritionist's office. I have really been testing my perseverance. I'm really finding ways of keeping myself occupied. <BR> <BR> I recently purchased a teeth whitening kit from my dentist. I'm supposed to leave it on for 2 hours a night, and you can't eat or drink for 30 minutes after doing it, so it works out perfectly... I put my son to bed at 8pm, pop in ... Mon, 16 Apr 2012 22:33:44 EST Day 2.... 89 Days to go http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4835423 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/1/l416064202.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This contest may be just what I needed to get my butt into gear. Today was full of temptations successfully resisted. My family and I had gone to the MALL. The kids got cookies. Husband had delicious chinese food for lunch. I got a chargrilled chicken salad from Chick-Fil-A with Fat Free honey mustard dressing. Oh, and a bottle of water. <BR> <BR> For dinner I made a Southwestern Tex-Mex Chicken Chili with beans,... Sat, 14 Apr 2012 23:13:22 EST Day 1... 90 days to go! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4833535 The next 13 weeks are going to be tough. I entered a weight loss contest! The grand prize is $5,000 which goes to whoever loses the highest percentage of their starting weight. <BR> <BR> I have a couple of friends, as well as my husband, helping me out with this. <BR> <BR> My game plan as of right now is <BR> <BR> *Eat high protein, low carb, lots of veggies and fruits. <BR> *At least 20 minutes of cardio everyday except Sunday. <BR> *NO fast food, candy, or ice cream. <BR> *No night ti... Fri, 13 Apr 2012 14:02:10 EST Eating when hungry... what a concept! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4818533 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/6/l364084665.jpg"> <BR> <BR> So as many of you know, I have been seeing a nutritional therapist for about a month now. I believe Thursday will be my 4th visit. Have I learned anything new? A little.... Have I learned about myself? Oh hells yeah I have! <BR> <BR> There is something going on in this crazy brain of mine that somehow associates guilt or shame that I'm feeling into a need to eat. The food is a band-aid to cover old wounds or make ... Tue, 3 Apr 2012 12:32:32 EST Sexy Running sneaks and some bad cheats http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4798437 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1954417.jpg"> <BR> I have been drooling over these sneaks for a while, I had ordered them from Zappos.com and who knew? Adidas now run big! Historically, they had always run small.... I digress. I finally got them in my size yesterday and am sooooo jazzed to get them on and get my run on at the gym. My lovely pair o' K-Swiss Tube runners have no treads left on the bottom, plus I was getting shin splints and leg pain on the regular. This is a... Wed, 21 Mar 2012 17:04:22 EST Livin' and Rockin' http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4784027 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/5/l553193376.jpg"> <BR> Kudos to you if you know the band I'm referencing in the blog title there. They are my faves and I think if everyone listened to the messages in their music that the world would be a much happier and more positive place. I'll tell you who it is later, if you don't know. <BR> <BR> Well, as of Saturday I am officially down 16lbs since February 12! I am totally looking forward to my 1 month check-up with my doctor. Hopeful... Mon, 12 Mar 2012 15:55:22 EST When you just don't feel worth it.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4766274 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/1/l613009373.jpg"> <BR> <BR> It's time to prove yourself wrong. <BR> <BR> It's time to surround yourself with the most positive people you know. <BR> <BR> It's time to get down to the nitty gritty and figure out WHY? WHY do I feel this way? <BR> <BR> I could say I have no motivation until I'm blue in the face. But what the heck is motivation, anyway? Is it the same thing as will power? Because there are days, like today, that I think I do... Thu, 1 Mar 2012 22:50:07 EST I freakin' knew it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4764379 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/6/l363284056.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Work totally sucked today. I was basically in a bad mood there from 10am onward. The owner of our business encourages the 6 employees there to work as a team, and there's one person who will just never be a team player. That's the gist of it, but there's more drama to it than that. Today just made my blood boil. <BR> <BR> I think that normally I would have stopped at Chic Fil A and got myself a large milkshake an... Wed, 29 Feb 2012 23:21:51 EST I feel like Super-Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4762504 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/9/l498002341.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I AM SUPER-ME. I have just been feeling awesome about myself the last couple days. I don't want to confuse this with arrogance. <BR> <BR> It's more than just my weight on the scale or my appearance. I'm starting to notice some differences physically, and I'm not going to lie, I'm pretty proud of that. BUT the big thing for me has been my commitment to this journey. I am committed to the cause that is ME, that is ... Tue, 28 Feb 2012 23:20:23 EST I.Can't.Wait. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4757293 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/1/l413258254.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I can't wait to keep progressing. So, I caved in this morning and weighed myself. I was expecting about 5lbs or so. Since my initial doctors appointment, I am down 12 pounds! Whoa! I am super duper thrilled. I just gotta keep on swimming... well, biking, walking, lifting weights, and just getting my big booty to the G-Y-M. <BR> <BR> I've been checking out various motivators throughout the Spark site. Man, there ar... Sun, 26 Feb 2012 00:00:23 EST Spreading the Spark http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4755810 I came home from grocery shopping after work. It was another lovely day here in OK, and my daughter was outside playing with her good friend and neighbor, whose mom I took to the gym with me yesterday. The girls came running over to me, so I asked my daughter's friend, "How is your mom today? Was she sore?" and she said, "Yeah she was.. but she's down at the gym now!" <BR> <BR> I was so happy. This woman who was, just a few days ago, afraid to go to the gym went by herself after just one ti... Fri, 24 Feb 2012 22:48:07 EST Everything happens for a reason, even "bad" days... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4754155 Today is something I would have normally considered a bad day for eating. But right now, I don't feel that it was bad. I went about 200 calories over my max today. The impromptu bbq at work set me back at first, and then my late night craving got the best of me, but I only had a granola square. Not the worst thing in this house I could have gone to, for sure. And I felt satisfied after, so maybe I needed it. I exercised a lot this week. <BR> <BR> What made this day really great was finding ... Thu, 23 Feb 2012 22:54:51 EST Bored and bloated at work. Oops. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4753683 Well, today was the first "setback" in my efforts that I have had in weeks. Well, maybe I shouldn't call it a setback. The owner of the company made a beef brisket and brought it in for a big work picnic lunch. The brisket was deliccccious. I didn't have that much, I guess I have Phentermine to thank for that. But I had a little bit of everything: the brisket on a white bread roll, and some baked beans. Man, it was good. <BR> <BR> However, I have learned a lesson here today. That stuff is lo... Thu, 23 Feb 2012 17:00:26 EST The chocolate heart that moved me.... and other stuff http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4752284 I've known basically forever that I'm an emotional and compulsive eater. It's a sickness, really it is. The house is all quiet, kids are in bed, husband's either in bed or at work, and the kitchen is all mine. I can remember being so hungermotional that I would just grab whatever and stuff it in my face. One time I ate 6 slices of white bread. Yeah. It was that bad. <BR> <em>467</em> <em>467</em> <em>467</em> <em>467</em> <em>467</em> <em>467</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> Lately, I have been ... Wed, 22 Feb 2012 22:33:56 EST Cry, Scream, Shout, Let it Out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4474728 <em>234</em> <BR> I had a sh*t A$$ day today. My mood was just complete crapola. Yes, this may be one of THOSE blogs. You know what I'm talking about.... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/8/l583387715.jpg"> <BR> <BR> My day started with a craptastic weigh in... I was SO sure, SO certain, I would have been closer to 222. I was very proud of my last weigh in of 223, and I was super careful about sticking to my calorie range and tracking everything. Drank my water. H... Fri, 9 Sep 2011 00:00:09 EST Igniting another *spark* http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4461782 <em>26</em> <em>129</em> <em>26</em> <em>129</em> <em>26</em> <em>129</em> <BR> So this is the second week in a row that I have gone out on a late night run with my husband, Tim. I can't even begin to tell you what great motivation and inspiration we bring to each other. I think in all our years together (all 7 years), these runs of ours are probably the activity we get to connect on the most. It's our quiet time together... when we walk, we get to talk about stuff we don't or won't ta... Fri, 2 Sep 2011 00:41:52 EST Today is going to be a better day (B/c I SAID SO) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4445775 I had a really funny moment this morning. After a good old cry fest and a 5 month old with the sniffles up a good 2 hours in the middle of the night, I didn't get much sleep. So let's just say I woke up a little late. <BR> <BR> Apparently, everyone was a sleepy head. My 5 year old daughter groaned for 5 more minutes in bed, when I said, "No, it's time to get up" she pleaded for 3 more minutes... I repeated myself.... "Ok, Mommy... how about 1 more minute?" I couldn't help but laugh. So she f... Wed, 24 Aug 2011 11:47:50 EST Please help me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4444967 I swear, I'm my own worst enemy. I daydream about being a sparkmotivator and how my accomplishments will inspire someone, but I don't accomplish crap. I couldn't even stick to my goals for 2 days, nevermind any longer than that. I don't want to look like this. I hate how I feel. Is there a blog trophy for most depressing? <BR> <BR> I think my husbands depression is bringing me down. He refuses to go get help. He blames me for attacking him when I just want him to get help. He has an answer f... Tue, 23 Aug 2011 23:19:52 EST Humble Beginnings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4442926 Every success story begins with someone who feels like they're failing. That's me. I have been in a downward spiral for a long time. Granted, I have a newborn son, but that's not an excuse to eat a lot of candy or ice cream or get fast food all the time. So yesterday, I made up my mind that I was going to make small steps towards a better me. <BR> <BR> This weeks SMALL goals: <BR> -Use my food tracker on SP every day <BR> -Cook dinner every night <BR> -Wash my face every night <BR> <BR> T... Mon, 22 Aug 2011 23:09:56 EST