SARAJANE_82's SparkPeople Blog SARAJANE_82's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Milestone! 25 pounds gone!!!! I had to shout about it!!!! So excited. I'm a super happy girl this morning!!! <em>244</em> <em>224</em> Wed, 31 Jul 2013 08:57:45 EST Motivation musings. "People often say that motivation doesn't last. Well, neither does bathing, that's why we recommend it daily." <BR> <BR> I read this very popular quote today and it is so true and got me thinking about my own motivation. <BR> <BR> There are going to be many days where I am wondering where my motivation went. I know they are coming! They always do. Every day I want to be diligent in finding something motivating to keep in my mind. Sure I can muddle through a workout without any motivation ... Mon, 15 Jul 2013 13:52:56 EST Yummy supper. I had such fun cooking for my family tonight. It turned out so delicious! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Despite being super tired today I managed to do some cardio and eat well. Now, to make sure I get to bed on time tonight! I just started the last book in a series I have been reading....will be tempting to stay up late. But maybe if I read in bed I will fall asleep reading, I usually do that way. <em>334</em> Sat, 13 Jul 2013 20:37:51 EST Not enough sleep. I didn't sleep enough last night. Not happy about that. Always a mistake to stay up too late. It makes me tired and hungry. Despite that I am making sure to only eat what I usually do and no more. I know it is a false hunger from being sleepy. Hopefully I can catch a nap! <BR> Ghrelin the gremlim making me hungry! LOL <BR> Anyone ever read "YOU On a Diet" By Dr. Oz? I'm not a huge Oz fan but it was a good book, so much in it about how the body works. <BR> <BR> So, tonight, I WILL get to sl... Sat, 13 Jul 2013 18:07:19 EST Day 2 of "restart" I say restart though I didn't really quit, I just had some life stuff come up, stress, health issues and so I wasn't weight loss focused. I did still workout some, didn't overeat but I didn't concern myself too much if I had a slice of pizza or soda. It was only small amounts. I merely maintained my weight loss during my time away, didn't lose anymore. <BR> <BR> I'm ok with that. It was a time to relax, to focus on other things. I am excited to get back to it though and I knew SP would be t... Fri, 12 Jul 2013 15:50:59 EST I'm Back! Life happened, stress happened, busy busy busy as a bee! Today I was just thinking I kind of miss Sparkpeople! So, here I am! HI!!!! <em>213</em> <BR> <BR> And don't worry, I stayed active and didn't gain any weight back at all. <em>224</em> Thu, 11 Jul 2013 12:37:09 EST Getting back on that wagon. Been awhile since I have been on SP, weeks? A month? Sadly that means I also haven't been working on losing weight. Amazing how much just being on here makes me feel more motivated. <BR> <BR> So, I'm back. Now that I have gone through my oh so typical feelings of wanting to quit, I'm back. I'm not quitting, I knew I wasn't giving myself that option this time. But guess I had to work through the emotions of it even so. Still will get frustrated I am sure, but happy I didn't go and take a who... Fri, 21 Sep 2012 20:44:44 EST Beauty....thoughts, what do you behold when you look at yourself? Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. <BR> <BR> One day I find I see myself as fat and ugly. The next day I am feeling good and feel beautiful, sexy, confident. I look in the mirror and like what I see. If I am depressed and thinking negative thoughts I look in the mirror and see....ugly. Sad. Not good enough. <BR> <BR> I find I feel beautiful more and more each year. Not because I have changed physically, not because I am skinny (obviously not at the moment), but my view point has change... Sun, 9 Sep 2012 01:53:23 EST Stalled again. Weight stalled again. I am super frustrated with that. Makes me want to make the drastic changes I know would help but at the same time, I don't want to do that because so far this time around; drastic changes have equaled me quitting because those changes simply don't stick. Most all of the small changes I have made over time so far I have stuck with. I don't want to take any steps backward for sure. Sat, 8 Sep 2012 10:45:46 EST Veggies! YUM One excuse I can never have is that I don't like veggies because, I really do like them; a lot! I may not always be into trying new things. I may tend to stick to what I like best. But, I do like my vegetables. I have always enjoyed broccoli (raw or cooked), califlower, squash, green beans, lettuce, tomatoes, onions (green, white, or red!), peppers of all colors as well. YUM! <BR> <BR> Grant it, there are many times when I don't like one of my fave veggies and that is when it is overcooked.... Tue, 4 Sep 2012 23:51:30 EST Musings about my body image. In front of my treadmill is an area we have some pictures hanging. One is my wedding portrait, in this I was a size 4/6. A few others, some of me and my daughter when she was little, my husband and I at the wedding, and a few others. As I was walking today these pictures got me to thinking about my body back then. How I felt about it. <BR> <BR> I liked how I looked for the most part, but I remembered something important. I remembered that all too often as a young lady I would allow outside ... Fri, 31 Aug 2012 12:53:31 EST Just random thoughts I have had today. First, joy, joy that my weight is finally moving down again. Another pound gone. <BR> <BR> Then, frustration that my waistline isn't shrinking along with it. Boo hoo. Seriously. Anytime my waist doesn't shrink I feel really bummed. That is the one part of my body that bothers me most. <BR> <BR> Looking in the mirror thinking....well, my arms and face and neck all look smaller don't they? I think they do? Wish I had measured my neck and arms. Duh, why didn't I do that? Oh well, too late no... Wed, 29 Aug 2012 20:59:03 EST Looking back. I was reading an article about changing our relationship with food <link><BR>-to-Ending-a-Tortured-Relationship-wit<BR>h-Food.html </link> . It was a good informative article. I also read one about the adrenal glands <link><BR>Tell-If-Your-Adrenals-Are-Fatigued-Plu<BR>s-7-Ways-To-Support-Them.html </link> . <BR> <BR> I have for some time known my adrenals are not in the best shape. Excessive stress combined with a la... Fri, 24 Aug 2012 19:22:45 EST Cooking. I have never been a huge fan of cooking. As a wife and mother it can become quite mundane. This may of contributed to my weight gain, the desire for convenience and quick easy solutions to the questions of what to eat. <BR> <BR> Don't get me wrong, I consider myself an ok cook. I can even manage to whip up a whole meal in under thirty minutes. But I never really take the time to savor and enjoy the fruit of my own labor or make myself something special. <BR> <BR> I remember when I was a yo... Sun, 19 Aug 2012 15:45:59 EST Breakthrough moment! Night time, late, up.....used to be this meant eat something, anything that tasted/sounded good. Tonight, up, late, was thinking eating could be fun (tendency still there!)...... <em>480</em> <em>495</em> <BR> <BR> My very next thought...."No, wait, I am NOT hungry. I can't eat. I really just, don't even want to very much." I stand there with the fridge open I think about what each food taste like.....................NO, that could possibly taste good. But not THAT goo... Sat, 18 Aug 2012 01:14:27 EST There really are not any excuses left are there? All of my goals for my health, I am wondering how I ever made any type of excuse or reason to not take care of it immediately. Maybe I wasn't ready, but that of course is excuse number one! <BR> <BR> "I'm not ready." Nope, not true anymore, I AM READY. So, that is one excuse down and behind me. <BR> <BR> My goals: eat better, workout every day at least 10 minutes, walk more, take time to relax and deal with stresses that may come better, get adequate sleep...these are just a few but my MAI... Fri, 17 Aug 2012 20:18:37 EST Be who you are. After a long hard day of working out and resisting temptation I was going over my emotions, trying to understand them. <BR> <BR> Now, at the end of the day my thoughts are this. <BR> <BR> Be who you are and love who you are, nobody can take that away from you. Thin, fat, or in between (all depending of your own definition and goals of such terms!), you are who you are and you serve a grand purpose. <BR> <BR> I don't travel much, nor do I even get out much these days but I have met a ton... Wed, 15 Aug 2012 02:57:26 EST Thank you God for Sparkpeople! Really, I was having a gosh awful day. Feeling emotional about food and thinking what have I gotten myself into? I can't do this? I'm nuts. No, I have to do this, ups and downs and all around with those emotions today I tell ya! <BR> <BR> Honestly, if I hadn't been able to come here and post on some message boards, read some articles, track my food, etc, etc...I know what would of happened. I would of just given up for the day. I wouldn't of worked out. I wouldn't be drinking another glass ... Mon, 13 Aug 2012 17:24:39 EST The weekend. My weekend turned out to be a big old vacation from working hard at my goals. I did a few good things but I didn't do what I intended. I was tired, worn out, and admittedly stayed up way too late watching the meteor shower. But, it was a good weekend, the meteor shower was beautiful, amazing, and very much worth the lack of sleep! <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is Monday, typically I fail on my goals on Monday's. This has been a pattern I do not know why. Hoping to break it tomorrow. I am going to come... Mon, 13 Aug 2012 01:01:01 EST Sugar! I love sugar! I mean, who doesn't? Well, I love the taste anyway. <em>4</em> <BR> <BR> I am leary of telling myself "NO SUGAR" because soon as you tell me "no you can't have that" I want it! Usually telling myself I can't ever ever eat something doesn't work. But I want/need to work at reducing my sugar intake yet again. <BR> <BR> I did reduce my intake of sugar already. Even more then I did initially when I stopped the emotional eating madness. I feel I need to remember my past to make ... Sat, 11 Aug 2012 13:44:55 EST This, but then that, but then that other.... So much has happened these past three days as far as my weight loss journey that I don't even know what to start with. <BR> <BR> First thing I wanted to blog about was food again. I love food of course cuz that is how I got here. But I am referring to real food, healthy food. I bought a Wok and used it the other day. Chopped bunches of fresh veggies and cooked some rice and had a really super healthy meal full of spices and veggies. I was really thrilled with how delish it was. Grant it coo... Wed, 8 Aug 2012 21:33:57 EST Tracking my food is helping me understand what my body needs. I didn't even realize I was eating so little. I guess because I am overweight I had it in my head I must be eating way too much. But once I started putting in what I am eating and all the calories I have been burning it shocked me. So today after a lot of physical labor, sweating all day, doing exercise, I ended up feeling really weak and tired. Normally I would of just quit for the day or chalked it up to lack of endurance. But, I went ahead and ate some more protein, even though I had alr... Mon, 6 Aug 2012 21:17:24 EST Oh the time I have wasted.... Looking at the calender and seeing we are already 5 days into August shocked me. I remembered the beginning of summer, how long it seemed it would be until Fall. Living in Texas I have always looked forward to Fall weather a great deal. So, there summer was, seeming to start super early and it is still so hot and dry. <BR> <BR> But now, all of a sudden I find myself in August? Already? Where oh where does the time go? I remember last winter, before Christmas, thinking about how badly I want... Sun, 5 Aug 2012 17:32:41 EST This is typical. Ok, so 7 pounds into this, 4 waist inches gone and here I am getting frustrated. It is silly I know. I have to push through this. It happens every time these last four years. I get started, then inevitably I start to have bad thoughts. <BR> <BR> Frustrated with my wardrobe. My jeans fall off of me cuz they are too big but the next size down is too tight to wear for any length of time without getting a stomach ache. So I live in a world of elastic waist pants mostly. Shirts that are my favor... Fri, 3 Aug 2012 13:40:53 EST One more down.... FINALLY, another waist inch gone. My waist inch loss had stalled. I was still losing weight. I still was getting smaller elsewhere but my tummy is the worst part for me, I carry a lot of my weight there. I am fairly ok with my legs and arms how they look, it is my tummy that makes me really uncomfy with how I look so I am really happy to see this number move again!!! Wed, 1 Aug 2012 11:05:08 EST Today was amazing! I did so much work and I was able to keep going, all, day, long. <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> Those of you who said it just keeps getting better all the time were so right. Every day I find something else to be excited about. <BR> <BR> Today it was really hot, that is typical here. <em>198</em> But the humidity was also bad and usually this makes me very tired and I get out of breath much faster. <BR> <BR> Today I ran all my errands, in and out of the car, walking fast, parked far away, c... Tue, 31 Jul 2012 21:35:08 EST Today is off to a good start. I already did some movement this morning. I feel a lot better in the mornings then I used to. This is a big success to me! I get a lot done during the day, a LOT more then I used to without being miserable by the end of the day. I do get tired of course, and, some days are hard. Some days I can tell I did too much. But my endurance is growing daily. <BR> <em>334</em> Tue, 31 Jul 2012 12:00:47 EST Well, I did it! I swam in a regular swimsuit today instead of shorts and a T-shirt! And I had a great time too! <BR> <BR> Every girl there was of course smaller then me, LOL. And for a few moments I was tempted to feel down about how I looked in my swimsuit but keeping to my promise to myself to not be embarrassed I wasn't! I really just did my thing and didn't care what anyone thought. So yay! I am proud of the weight I have lost so far and even though I am still overweight and everyone can see that fact,... Sun, 29 Jul 2012 21:57:07 EST How can I not look how I feel.... You know those pictures like this? <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Yeah, I was reminded of this rather amusing photo a friend of mine had shared today. I was working out and I felt GREAT. I mean, I felt like I could kick butt. Like I was really doing well, working hard, sweat dripping, yeah. Really burnin the fat, getting stronger. Felt like a super star. Then, <BR> <BR> I walked by a mirror.....sigh. <BR> <BR> Why can't I look how I fe... Sat, 28 Jul 2012 20:09:40 EST Sometimes I feel stagnant. Good as things are going I still have these days where I either feel stagnant and icky OR I really just want to sit, sit, sit. I rather watch TV then get up and move. The idea of watching cool videos of people doing awesome things with hoopdance, running, weight loss success stories even or just to sit and watch a funny show. <BR> <BR> Yes, I have to confess to having this huge urge to sit and do NOTHING for the rest of my day....BUT, something IS different lately. I really don't want to tak... Sat, 28 Jul 2012 15:51:35 EST Wow, so this can be fun. Well, I didn't think it would happen. I didn't think I would be having any fun with this. But I really am. Even so I still have these lingering feelings of frustration. <BR> <BR> Yes, hooping has made working out super fun for me. It has given me a goal other then weight loss that I can focus on. Another reason to keep on working hard that is interesting and not just about my size. <BR> <BR> But, there is another part of me that is still worried, still frustrated. A part that keeps thinkin... Thu, 26 Jul 2012 14:35:14 EST Enjoying my hoops. The struggle I have had for the past...oh going on 4 years or so, with weight loss has been sticking to workouts. Why? Boredom with the workout. <BR> <BR> I have in the past lost weight by walking and using an exercise ball and I enjoyed it a lot. It was easy because at that time I hadn't been overweight that long and most of it was baby weight. I dropped the pounds so fast and I was totally new to natural health and healing and so everything was new and exciting. <BR> <BR> Fast forward t... Wed, 25 Jul 2012 18:26:42 EST