SANDY1969's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SANDY1969 SANDY1969's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Bacon. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6186798 I fried 4 slices of bacon. 4. That's a record for me. I usually fry half the package. I got out 2 slices of wheat bread. 2. That's a record for me. I usually go for 4. I had a big ole garden tomato. The tomato I can splurge on. <BR> <BR> I made 1 sandwich for breakfast. 1. Bacon, tomato and bread. <BR> <BR> Yes I am a little obsessive this morning. BACON is serious stuff. <BR> <BR> I logged my 4 slices of bacon, 2 slices of bread and 2 huge slices of tomato. <BR> <BR> It ... Tue, 21 Jun 2016 08:58:05 EST Sunny days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6186200 Flower bed replanted, pulled out the Iris and added in new perennials. Much prettier and will bloom longer. Moved the iris's a little further down the garage line. Required shoveling, spading, bending, dragging the hose out and sweating! LOL. <BR> <BR> Then I came in and got on my bike for 32 minutes. So I feel really good about this morning. I have to clean myself up and go to work in a little bit. 8 Hours there trying to keep moving. <BR> <BR> Yesterday we cut lawn fabric and mulch... Mon, 20 Jun 2016 10:18:29 EST I take you with me. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6183876 Well I just don't know what to do with myself this morning. It seems like I have been having better luck at weight loss by only exercising a few times a week than every day. <BR> <BR> LUCK. Ha! <BR> <BR> It's a racket I tell you, plain and simple! <BR> <BR> Over that past year I know I have been here for a month, then gone for a few weeks, back again then gone...and so on and so on. During that time my Spark Friends have wandered away. :( I don't blame them I did the same thing. ... Thu, 16 Jun 2016 08:24:13 EST Yesterday I almost gave in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6183221 to that same voice in my head that always says, "you're having a rotten day, wouldn't FOOD make you feel better?" <BR> <BR> It's been a rough last 7-10 days. My sisters fiancee drowned in a pond. Visiting my sister and then visitation at the funeral home, 5 hour round trips. Eating out twice, sitting around, riding in a car. A few pounds came back on. <BR> <BR> Night before last woke up in the middle of the night and was awake for hours, my mind wandering. KNOWING it was going to facto... Wed, 15 Jun 2016 07:33:49 EST little of this, little of that. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6178837 Things seem to be going well this past 6 days. I am down about 9 pounds. I started taking metformin and spironolactone for possible PCOS. I have been watching what I eat but I haven't been perfect. I haven't even exercised every day but Im trying to stay active and when I have to walk around at work, to walk faster, get the heart rate up. I have consumed gallons of water. GALLONS. <BR> <BR> I bough bunches of fruits and veggies yesterday. Trying to plan ahead. <BR> <BR> Sad news this m... Wed, 8 Jun 2016 07:58:22 EST June 2, 2016 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6175150 First day back at it AGAIN. Finished round of dr. appointments and everything is pretty good actually. Today I started metformin and spironolactone for possible pcos. So new beginning. Starting weight 330. Goal for June lose at least 15 pounds. Never been great setting goals. In fact I suck at them. But there it is in writing. *still ignoring cake*. Sigh...lol. Thu, 2 Jun 2016 12:49:42 EST Update on ME. Fast. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6168598 Wow at least 3 weeks totally off track. Several days of "I will start over tomorrow". Tomorrow is here. <BR> <BR> Real short blog. I don't want a long drawn out explanation that is totally useless to cut into my *get back at it time*. <BR> <BR> Gained like 11 pounds in the last 3 weeks. I know half of it is water, I feel so sluggish and lack energy. <BR> <BR> Having issues with my feet BIG time. Bone spurs in my ankle and "significant" heel spurs. Major pain at the end of the day, ... Mon, 23 May 2016 08:03:38 EST Sunday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6153897 Yesterday did NOT turn into a rest day. I went and rode my bike for 40 minutes because I knew we were having a carry in dinner at work. So the end of the month I am right back where I started at 321. This month though, here I come. It's a day off so I wont get in as many steps probably but I am up, showered, dressed and ready to do SOMETHING even if it is just go get all sweaty again. <BR> <BR> Oh yeah and trying real hard not to think about French Toast. <BR> <BR> Sun, 1 May 2016 09:32:01 EST Friday April 29th. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6152626 Really contemplating a rest day today or at least put the bike off until after work. Really tired after a week of drinking so much water and endless late night trips to get up and go potty. <BR> <BR> Feeling like an excuse. Struggling! lol I have to be at work at 9 this morning. I have been getting out of the house later and later each morning. I am off at 2 today though so let's see how well I juggle this day. <BR> <BR> I've had a good week. Was really close to tripping up last nigh... Fri, 29 Apr 2016 06:51:55 EST Ohio killings near me. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6151995 Today's blog has absolutely nothing to do with weight. <BR> <BR> As most of you in the US has probably heard, 8 people were murdered in Ohio a few days ago. I live fairly close to the area where these people died. I know I have seen some of these people, but did not know them. I have friends on facebook that were friends with them. <BR> <BR> When it was first reported it shocked me. Then I followed the news pretty hot and heavy trying to see, like everyone else what in the world, ho... Thu, 28 Apr 2016 08:35:02 EST 3 more days... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6151401 to make this month count for something. <BR> <BR> The last few months I have started out well and then fallen in the middle and ended right where I started. If I weighed 150 pounds I would be delighted but I don't. I weigh 300+ pounds and that just plain sucks. <BR> <BR> I've had a few Dr appointments and a mammogram since my last blog. Nothing conclusive on Thyroid, cholesterol...feet yet until I see the Dr again in about 2 weeks. The mammogram worried me since I got a look at one of t... Wed, 27 Apr 2016 11:04:05 EST Having a good week. AND having drama. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6136903 Ok so far I'm having a pretty good week I can not complain. Funny how that happens when you put in the effort and don't sit on your butt eating potato chips huh? <BR> <BR> Update on the lady that called me a "b" day before yesterday. Well yesterday she came back. I was at the window talking to a co-worker and told her I'd had a long day yesterday and what happened and she said, oh I took a phone call from her earlier and it was such a bad connection I could not understand half of what she... Thu, 7 Apr 2016 07:42:39 EST part 2 to day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6136298 Just thought about this and wanted to share it since I remembered it after reading my part 1 of Day 3 about being a good person. <BR> <BR> Last night I got called a bitch at work by a customer. Let me share the story. <BR> <BR> I work as a pharmacy tech. I was at the drop off window and a lady (I use this term loosely) came to the window and put a bottle on the counter. I said you need a refill...oh this is from (another pharmacy). I looked at the clock and it's after 6:30pm. I told he... Wed, 6 Apr 2016 11:47:58 EST Day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6136282 I have a late day at work today so I am trying to stay very active this morning and get my steps in. I also have only a 5 hour shift at work which means no lunch break for me. I will get a tiny 15 minute break in there around 7 tonight, which sucks. Too late to eat a lot and go in too early to eat a good dinner. <BR> <BR> Had a not so great breakfast. I opened the fridge door and saw 2 pieces of left over pizza which, honestly...I can not pass up. But I counted the calories, teamed it w... Wed, 6 Apr 2016 11:28:33 EST 2 day roll and trading off http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6135399 So Im on day 2 of a 2 day streak...woo hoo! lol. <BR> <BR> Exercising, logging food and drinking water, check, check, check! <BR> <BR> I even picked up a weight yesterday for a few minutes, I'm smokin! haha. <BR> <BR> Here's today's thought or my issue or struggle or whatever you want to call it. My schedule at work sucks. It's all over the place. For someone that works retail and does this and keeps a clean house I bow to you, you are my hero. <BR> <BR> I work in a retail pharmacy. ... Tue, 5 Apr 2016 09:10:36 EST Just BLAH http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6133849 In the past month I have lost my will. I am barely hanging on by a thread. I joined a 5% challenge but it's all I can do to report my weigh in once a week. I just don't know what's wrong with me I have never felt quite this way. I have only exercised a few times. <BR> <BR> The last time you heard from me I was getting ready to go to a theater and see Jeff Foxworthy and Larry the Cable Guy. I started about 2 months before and lost around 20 pounds. I was SO worried I would not fit in th... Sun, 3 Apr 2016 09:52:13 EST wild ramblings. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6115828 Today I hit 100 pounds lost. Don't cheer yet. Ive been here before. Ive been here before at least 4 times. I started at 414 today I am 314. I have dipped as low as 292 I think. Then up I go again. <BR> <BR> Here is my struggle. I get comfortable. My clothes fit better. My back is straighter (from strutting...hey I lost 100 pounds right?) HA! I can go in a store and buy clothes. Im ok now right? I feel almost THIN. Yes I said that. I wonder what in the hack 199 pounds would feel... Thu, 10 Mar 2016 08:16:18 EST March 9. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6115084 It's been a while since my last blog (or at least for me it was) but I HAVE been here. In fact my goal for February was to have perfect attendance and I did! I logged in every day. I did not have a lot of success in weight loss however. The month consisted in the beginning of a lot of travel and not much exercise. Then I did well, then bad eating, then I did well...it was a roller coaster but through it all I was here every single day. I came out even. But I came out stronger. <BR> <B... Wed, 9 Mar 2016 10:27:59 EST Active Nothingness. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6096229 This past weekend has been sort of a wash. It was our weekend to (Friday) go to Louisville KY. I live in SW Ohio. About 2.5-3 hours away. We went to the Farm Machinery Show. We WALKED. But not power walk, more like strolling, except in the parking lot, it was freezing! Over 11,000 steps. Lots of Car sitting, snacking and no exercise. (Biking) <BR> <BR> Saturday we turned right around and went to Illinois (About 4.5 hours away) to deliver cattle to someone out there, pick up a bull a... Mon, 15 Feb 2016 07:19:59 EST Feelin good. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6089808 Last night was supposed to be the night that I get caught up on all of my sleep. I went to bed shortly after 9 and just laid there. For the first hour I had to try and drown out the sound of my husbands TV show about these men searching for bigfoot or the swamp gas monkey or something. They are idiots. I am questioning my husband. :) <BR> <BR> This past week has been great. All the wheels have been turning the right way and I am down to 312. I am down 9-10 pounds for the week. <BR> ... Sun, 7 Feb 2016 06:46:35 EST Satisfied vs. Stuffed. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6088664 Having some pizza cravings today. I have a cold, stuffy head, worked this morning and now I want comfort. Comfort=food. <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> I came home, passing up fast food. Mentally counting calories. Struggling with myself. Rationalizing my need for comfort. Again <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> I came home and ate a healthy choice dinner, cottage cheese, and even though its not that great for me, some ritz crackers with some cheese ball dip. Instead of grabbing the container thou... Fri, 5 Feb 2016 15:30:28 EST Feb day 3. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6086642 So I read this post yesterday that was just so spot on. First this person said...in a round about way, Who am I to tell you how to eat and what to eat? <BR> <BR> I mean he'd lost weight and regained (who hasn't?) and is now on the path to lose again. So he's right along side me as an "equal" so to speak. <BR> <BR> But, what got me is he said, in the beginning you go out and you buy all these frozen low cal meals in the hopes of not having to deal with food prep. Because you just want... Wed, 3 Feb 2016 09:56:36 EST Tony Posnanski http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6081257 Today's weight is 323. This is not where I want to be in my life. I am discouraged, and have been for the last week. No matter what I was doing the scale isn't moving, except to go UP today. The Monday after Christmas I was at 333. I lost 15 pounds QUICKLY after restarting. <BR> THEN....For the past few weeks, no matter what I ate or how much I exercised I was 317-319. It's building muscle I said, eventually you'll see a loss I said. Work through it I said. THEN...maybe I am not con... Thu, 28 Jan 2016 07:43:30 EST 47 today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6073369 It's mah Birthday! 47 today. <BR> <BR> 2 pounds up from my last weigh in like a week ago. Just keep going...that's what I am telling myself. Hopefully it's muscle. <em>344</em> I've tried to shake things up a bit and just did the treadmill yesterday instead of the bike, today I will do the bike. <BR> <BR> I've been drinking water but I've had a few slip ups with food like donuts and pizza. I need more fiber too. <BR> <BR> I'm going to keep going. <BR> <BR> Tue, 19 Jan 2016 06:39:13 EST Monday, back to work. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6072387 Right now the scale is just not moving. I freely admit that I have not eaten very good things always but still the scale SHOULD be moving if you count calories in vs calories out. SO, time to dig down deep and figure this out. <BR> <BR> Time to tighten the belt and eat better foods always (at least for a this week, one day at a time) and to get that heart rate UP! <BR> <BR> NSV= I find it much easier to haul myself up out of a chair or steps. My legs are stronger so I know I am must be g... Mon, 18 Jan 2016 06:38:11 EST quietly screaming http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6069148 I wanted to get up, weigh myself (looking forward to it actually) and see at least a half to 1 pound drop. I had a half pound GAIN! <BR> <BR> Just telling myself "Keep working through it Sandy, just keep working though it." <BR> <BR> I know there are a number of contributing factors but it's not food in vs energy out (simple math) 'cause I have been doing that. It's physics or metabolic energy or nuclear science...or a woman's period (sorry guys). lol. <BR> <BR> ARRGGGHHHH!!! <BR> <B... Thu, 14 Jan 2016 08:47:18 EST 1-12-15 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6067914 No blog for what? A week, yet still going strong. <BR> <BR> The scale hasn't moved much, but I had the weekend off and I wasn't as active, although I still exercised, I missed my activity at work. The only bad thing about having time off work! <BR> <BR> Also, got women things going on so I am just going to work through it and hope at the end the water leaves and the muscles I am gaining from walking my treadmill at a slight slope (sore legs!) help me have a loss at the end of the week. <B... Tue, 12 Jan 2016 19:46:40 EST Morning Routine. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6062848 Sitting here drinking my water and savoring my yoplait greek 100 calories whips yogurt that is supposed to taste like a vanilla cupcake. Not bad. Not a cup cake, but not bad. <BR> <BR> I try and get a little facebook, spark time in as a sip my first bottle of water. Somehow I got it into my head that I am oiling my muscles up for the coming exercise. <BR> <BR> Hopefully I can go in to the store a little early and get some apples. <BR> <BR> Wow this is a really boring thing to read. l... Thu, 7 Jan 2016 07:37:29 EST So Stoked! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6062217 So stoked to turn those previous ounces lost into pounds lost. I got a lot and I mean a LOT of sleep last night. I ended up going to bed at 8:30pm and was up around 10:30, 3:30 and then up for good about 7 this morning. 4#s lost. 4. FOUR. *Happy Dance* <BR> <BR> I have a late work day today. I rode exercise bike for 42 minutes and a total of 25 minutes on my treadmill. <BR> <BR> I still ate the last of the left over taco salad today though but I did try and keep the chips down to the... Wed, 6 Jan 2016 14:15:09 EST Ok this just got harder. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6061332 The past few days I am just losing mere OUNCES. BLAH! lol. I eat great all day long and then at supper time BAM! I am starving! Trying to get in water, trying to get in protein but oh if I could just curb the hungries that strike me after I walk in the door at night. <BR> <BR> After that meal though Im good for the rest of the night. Tonight I ate, then walked a bit on the treadmill. Usually saving the workout for the morning. Today I had to be at work at 7:30 AM. I got up at 5:30... Tue, 5 Jan 2016 17:59:28 EST 1-1-2016 Happy New Year. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6056666 Starting this year in at 323. Ive been at this since Jan 2010 when I weighed in (roughly) at 414. Total loss of 89 pounds. Oh but I have lost way more than that and re-gained it. I have been playing with the last 30 pounds or so. Like a kitten with a string. I swat it and it's jerked back again. My lowest was 292 about a year ago for a total loss of 122#'s. <BR> <BR> WHY WHY WHY did I become comfortable with that??? <BR> <BR> Time to get rid of it again and put it in my past and neve... Fri, 1 Jan 2016 09:02:28 EST MOD part 2 and Fit Bit HR http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6055248 MOD I believe is Motivator of the Day? <BR> <BR> Well, Day 3 is here. I have a late work day so I get to piddle until about 3pm. Got my sweats on, water bottle and a protein bar. Like I thought I am down about 7 pounds in the last couple of days. Mostly water weight so I have to stay after it. <BR> <BR> I would SO like to be back in the 200's by mid-March. Let's shoot for it! <BR> <BR> Got to get moving...just sitting here letting my new gadget recharge that I got for Christmas. Hu... Wed, 30 Dec 2015 09:52:12 EST MOD? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6053799 Sorry but if I was chosen to be a MOD then that's just bogus. I don't mean to be negative and I haven't a lot of time but there is one thing that I chose to do from the very beginning and that's lay it ALL out there. Record my weight, post pics, blog about my success and my failures...and has this last month been such a failure. <BR> <BR> I am back today. I am not sure what tomorrow brings. One day at a time. <BR> <BR> This past month I have done nothing to challenge myself to do bett... Mon, 28 Dec 2015 07:26:53 EST Don't delay! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6022476 Get up early in the morning and exercise before your body knows what it's doing. I am finding out that (since I have extra time today) that this is entirely true. <BR> <BR> I got up, weighed myself and put my socks on (to eventually add the shoes). Then I sat here. At the computer. Goofing off. <BR> <BR> I added my Coke points...to eventually get enough for a gift card for a Christmas present. My husband is a diet Coke drinker. ick. <BR> <BR> Then I was off to Victoria Secret w... Wed, 28 Oct 2015 08:41:28 EST Some good, some bad. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6022253 I love how when you are entering your food for the day and you just get started and it like cuts in...like...are you through yet??? <BR> <BR> Uh no just being honest here. <BR> <BR> Tonights meal wasnt the best but at least it was at home and not pizza. I am not over calories, was active all day so if the scale rises a little in the morning BLAH! <BR> <BR> Im doing a good job darn it. Ive gotten up every morning for the last 9 days and rode my bike, even at 5:30 in the morning. Tomorrow... Tue, 27 Oct 2015 20:59:31 EST Heavy. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6020794 Life is doing its best to beat me down again. I came home last night from work, the electric was out so dinner was not great. I did not get in a few more minutes of bike time. I have my grand daughter, she woke up at 2...and we were up watching Barney until about 4. Back up at 7...but I rode my bike. Im drinking my water and instead of splitting the last huge blueberry muffin I am having a protein bar. <BR> <BR> I am trying. <BR> I am showing up for the party. <BR> I know I can do thi... Sun, 25 Oct 2015 09:18:08 EST 10-21-2015 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6018622 My body is breaking down. Bouncing back just isnt as easy. Taking those little side trips off course and then finding my way back...its getting harder. <BR> <BR> I need focus. I need determination and I need drive...because right now my body hurts from this weight. <BR> <BR> Im having issues with my feet, the left in particular. There's something going on with my back. Do I rally on and hope my body gets stronger? Do I have a no excuses plan of action? I dont know. <BR> <BR> I hav... Wed, 21 Oct 2015 08:26:08 EST Feelin...un... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6003839 Today is the first day of my "vacation". Actually my vacation is all next week but I have a nice boss that I think actually see's how much I work so when I asked for the weekend before and the weekend after he actually gave it to me and threw in today as well. So folks that's 10 days total. <BR> <BR> And <BR> I <BR> Am <BR> Overwhelmed. <BR> <BR> What to even start on first??? We don't have any plan except for next week is the county fair so we will be there practically all week and th... Fri, 25 Sep 2015 10:35:39 EST How I'm doing...and how I'm doing it. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6003158 I don't know what's going on. Every day this week I have lost 2 pounds and a total of 10 pounds in 6 days! <BR> <BR> I set my calories to 1500-1700 a day. <BR> <BR> I drink at least a 20 ounce bottle with 2 teaspoons of sugar free metamucil in it each morning. <BR> <BR> I hit my water all day long. (about 60-80 more ounces of water and sugar free lemonade) <BR> <BR> I hit the bike every morning for about 33-37 minutes and burn at least 200 calories (according to what it says...I know f... Thu, 24 Sep 2015 08:05:47 EST 2 with a Sharpie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6002586 As posted yesterday each day I am putting a number on the back of my hand as a constant reminder to WORK at this, and what my goal is. So far this past few days it's been a 7, a 6, a 4 and today it is a 2. 2 pounds to go to reclaim (yes folks once AGAIN) my hundred pound badge! The great part about today already is...I had to write a 2 on my hand twice because I sweat the first one off :) <BR> <BR> I feel so stoked! <BR> <BR> I just need to keep doing what I am doing. I haven't been per... Wed, 23 Sep 2015 09:11:51 EST 9 22 15 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6002079 Just checking in from work. Its been a great few days. I feel full of energy. The last 2 mornings I had to get up a little after 5 to get in my bike time before work. I've been food good. Water is great. I want to loose 4 more pound by Monday. I have been writing a number on the back of my hand that cor responds with how much I need to go, like a count down. I can do this, then on to the next challenge. Have a great day! Tue, 22 Sep 2015 13:11:31 EST Non relaxing Sunday morning. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6000611 Hello Spark World! <BR> <BR> 7 am on a Sunday morning and Im drinking my water, dressed in work out clothes ready to hit the bike, treadmill, hill, stairs and whatever else I find! <em>316</em> Totals goal is to just try and stay active today and get in 12,000 steps even though I am off work today. OY! <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> I have to get on a roll here. The past year I have had many goes and more stops. Time to get the momentum! <BR> <BR> I am arming myself with smaller goa... Sun, 20 Sep 2015 07:13:52 EST no gumption. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5994087 Why do all of my blogs lately feel like confessions? UGHH! <BR> <BR> Back up to 322 today. So this past 30 days, no difference in weight, only I lost and gained, lost and gained. 2 months ago I was at 309. I've been lower. I even dipped into the 290's once and I could just kick myself for giving in and getting complaisant. I didn't weigh myself for over a week because I was ignoring it. I restarted once again yesterday and I just did not want to see what I had done to myself. I know ... Wed, 9 Sep 2015 11:24:38 EST Swing batta batta batta SWING! *nothing to do with baseball, lol http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5989441 Rough couple of days but still hanging on. Got in an hour of exercise this morning, to make up for the cookies and pizza of the past few days. Although I know it doesn't REALLY make up for it. I have a goal in mind for the end of Sept and just like all of my goals I find myself doing a little self sabotage. I really don't understand why I do that. At least I am beginning to recognize it DURING instead of getting to the end and saying "Hey wait a minute...what?" <BR> <BR> Monthly visitor... Wed, 2 Sep 2015 08:59:01 EST let's get it. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5986200 I wish I could say I had a salad at taco bell yesterday. Uhhh but I didnt. Beef burrito supreme and a crunchy taco...EEEK! BUT, I did NOT eat the donut that I could have had. I did not eat bad for supper. I did not stop at McDonalds on the way home I ate an apple. Im a real person Im gonna eat some not great things. It doesnt mean I am not serious about this, it just means I struggle and I may "fail" in some people's eyes but I do get back up. <BR> <BR> Yes I have been at this a long ... Fri, 28 Aug 2015 08:29:20 EST 8 27 2015 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5985878 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/7832b8af-cb88-4a42-b8ea-7de32ac6eeda.jpg"> Still doing fairly well. Made myself exercise this morning before taking my daughter to PT. Was really hungry after so went to taco bell. Now I am having a small meal this evening to make up for it. See pic. Closing tonight. Ugggh. Have a good one! Thu, 27 Aug 2015 17:26:13 EST 8 26 15 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5985091 Things are great! Got in bike and treadmill. Just 50 minutes total but I feel so much better going into the day. Lunch is packed with goodies. Water bottles chilling in the lounge fridge. Off at 730 tonight, temptations will be high. Help me be strong! :) Wed, 26 Aug 2015 10:51:25 EST 8-25-15 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5984301 Success is determined by how many times you get back up right? <BR> <BR> Lord have mercy if it hasnt been one thing it's another this year. Today is the first day in over a week that I havent had to get up and blow my nose. I has some viral infection that just sort of had to work itself out. <BR> <BR> Today I have my hair up, shoes on and water in hand. Going to either get on the bike or treadmill. I have about 30-40 mins before I have to get ready for work. I only gained 3 pounds wh... Tue, 25 Aug 2015 06:44:10 EST 8-15-15 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5978238 Yesterday was blah. Exercise yay! Food not so great. Up this morning and I even have work out clothes on. Got to get in something before I have to get ready for work. <BR> <BR> Thank you all for your support and not forgetting about me. I can't believe how much better I do and how more motivated I am just by opening the page up and seeing someone that jogs and jiggles and is proud of it! lol. <BR> <BR> May you all have a jiggle day today! Sat, 15 Aug 2015 07:38:01 EST 8-(13 and 14)-2015 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5977682 lol@ "ok Mammaw" on that last blog comment. Day 4 and 5 and going well. Husband got up at 4:30 this morning, Holy Moly! He got an early start. I tried to go back to sleep but could not. Just put in 35 minutes on the bike now time to shower and head to work. Hope to get in some walking this evening. <BR> <BR> Have a great weekend!! <BR> <BR> Fri, 14 Aug 2015 07:30:48 EST