SANDY1969's SparkPeople Blog SANDY1969's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Be nice. Man yesterday I could really tell I was in withdraw. It was a struggle to be nice to people. I am usually called Sunshine at work...yesterday not so much. <BR> <BR> Drank water, not a lot but no mountain dew either. A small Oatmeal cookie with a banana for breakfast. So the sugar was in control. <BR> <BR> I want the high that comes from seeing the scale go down, instead of the fake feeling from junking myself up! <BR> <BR> Have a great day, be KIND to people. I work in a pharmacy an... Tue, 9 Dec 2014 08:38:11 EST 309#s Yep that's my weight from this morning. Up about 10-15 pounds since October. Really surprised it's not more. Woke with a new determination to get back on track. I had to dig my scale out of a pile of paint boxes and put it in the hallway. <BR> <BR> Life's been hectic, but whose hasn't? I got made full time at work so I have typically 1 less day off per week. I haven't exercised in Lord knows how long, a couple months at least. <BR> <BR> Trying to get ready for Christmas. We put a new... Mon, 8 Dec 2014 07:35:03 EST Another day. Well I am mostly sickness free I think. At least my throat doesn't hurt, now I can swallow. <BR> <BR> I was really baby-ing myself too. Sure, you feel bad..go ahead and drink that nice Caramel frappe'. And that chocolate Frosty, yes they feel soooo good going down. *eye roll* <BR> <BR> Go ahead you can do it too. *eye roll*. Yesterday I got back on the bike and rode it about 35 minutes. I did not have time this morning, and tomorrow morning isnt looking good. <BR> <BR> Got some ... Tue, 21 Oct 2014 17:53:08 EST 292 or 291, THAT is the question. Ok this sickness is really getting on my nerves. Probably yours also. SO....moving on. <BR> <BR> Today I have to put the finishing touches on all the crafts I have ready to go then later today we are going to go set up at the church that the show is being held at. Tomorrow is the big day. Our first craft show this year. I'll post pics! <BR> <BR> Last year we did 5 or 6 shows, we just aren't as motivated this year or something. We have another show Nov 1 that is our favorite one an... Fri, 17 Oct 2014 10:05:41 EST Who woulda thought. That Id get up today (at 10 am mind you) and weigh myself and having a 3-4 pound loss? Yep the scale hit 292. I had not been drinking a lot of fluids, so I tried hard yesterday to drink lots of water. I was up 3 times in the night to GO. That and getting much needed sleep in between must have helped. I did rush around at work yesterday but I did not do any extra exercises. I ate regular. <BR> <BR> The only meds I am on is amoxicilan. My throat still feels like Im swallowing gravel. ... Wed, 15 Oct 2014 10:31:05 EST eh. Last blog I asked you to kick my butt. In answer, yes I did get on my bike that day although I dont think I got on the treadmill. <BR> <BR> I havent lost anything in the last couple of weeks, but I have been holding pretty steady. Yesterday I did dip down to 295 so I am claiming it even though today I was at 296. I will get there again! <BR> <BR> I have been sick, right now my tonsils as the size of grapes. ICK! Just very run down too. Money worries, job stress. I'll come around,... Tue, 14 Oct 2014 19:16:12 EST I need someone to kick me in the seat of my pants. This week I am dragging. My mood is horrible. Had a fight with the husband, it seems to be on the mend but my motivation is almost non existent. Sitting here with my sneakers on trying to will myself to ride the bike and walk the treadmill. Making up the sorry excuse for a blog even, to keep from doing it. UGGGHH!!!! I just want to go back to bed. Work at 11 today, till 7:30 tonight. Off tomorrow. The scale has not moved all week. The first time in months. NADA. <BR> <BR> OK I ran ... Thu, 9 Oct 2014 08:11:19 EST My next 100 and a super gross story. When I think of my weight I still catch myself saying I am 300something. I am NOT. Hopefully I never will be again. My subconscious hasn't caught up with my body. It better just hurry the heck up, aint nobody got time for that. <BR> <BR> I have never been one of those people that could tell you what I weighed when I was 18, or 21, or when my first child was born. I can tell you when I was about 19-20 years old I wore a size 24W in women's jeans. I can also tell you a couple of years ag... Tue, 7 Oct 2014 19:11:37 EST 100 day streak. Today marks the 100th day in a row that I have logged on to Spark People. During that time I have lost approximately 40 pounds. <BR> <BR> I have struggled, rejoiced, cried, been frustrated, name it. QUESTIONED myself is a big one too. But...I was here. <BR> <BR> Here's to the next 100 days! Mon, 6 Oct 2014 20:59:54 EST I feel a little discombobulated. I feel like I can't quite grasp where I am at right now. I don't know if it's amazement that I struggled struggled struggled and then woke up and here I was under 300 for the first time in who knows how long or what. I can't seem to settle on my next goal to shoot for. I know I have 199 in the distance...but the immediate future is saying, ok what now? What can I lose next? <BR> <BR> At the same time I am cheating myself. Feeling like I deserve chips or a soda after all my hard work a... Tue, 30 Sep 2014 10:01:14 EST Granddaughter/Fall pics I had a wonderful week last week and this weekend. Not only did I squeak into the 200's, it was fair week and I got to spend time with my grand daughter. <img src=""> <img src=""> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This week I am shooting for 295. Quite a chunk of change but it's something to strive for. <BR> <BR> Mon, 29 Sep 2014 08:11:28 EST WOOT! Guess who's in the 200's??? THIS GIRL! <BR> <BR> Today, I officially weigh LESS than what my driver's license says I do. lol. <BR> <BR> 299. During the county fair and During TOM. Typically if history repeats itself I will go back up a tiny bit next week, hopefully I can lose a couple more pounds that I can still stay under 300. <BR> <BR> Im claiming 2'VILLE, sticking a flag in it! <BR> <BR> :) Thu, 25 Sep 2014 06:40:23 EST just updating and accounting. I would have done really well today if it werent for all the FAT I ate today. Man I love cheese. Creamy Colby...mmmm. lol. Then we went out to eat for dinner. I logged it all. <BR> <BR> Spark says I did not go over number wise, just bad choices. <BR> <BR> I did work out for an hour this morning, then worked outside some, will post fall decor later. I got in over 16,000 steps today according to my fitbit tracker. <BR> <BR> All next week I plan to get in 1 whole hour of VERY active exe... Sun, 21 Sep 2014 21:49:00 EST -3 pounds! Morning's weigh in 301. I cant believe it. I was at 304 yesterday just hoping for a 1 pound loss to count as a maintain for the week, since last Friday I was 303. <BR> <BR> 2 pounds away from Twosville, although I am tired and did not sleep very well I am excited too! All that bad girl party food weight and water is gone! <BR> <BR> If it were not for the beep beep beep of someone backing into a driveway across the street I would still be asleep dreaming of going to the bathroom, lol. I ... Fri, 19 Sep 2014 08:38:26 EST Thursday. 1 pound to go and all my bad girl party weight will be gone *whew*! <BR> <BR> I have logged into Spark for 82 days in a row. Pretty darn good if I do say so myself. <BR> <BR> Last night while walking on the treadmill I tried small (and I mean SMALL) bouts of jogging. Enough to get my heart really pumping and my lungs REALLY working to the point that I remembered that feeling in Gym class in high school. Remember? When your lungs feel cold yet on fire at the same time and the feeling com... Thu, 18 Sep 2014 07:47:19 EST regaining my lead Is it really considered a weakness in a fat person to want to eat the same kinds of foods that everyone else eats? Isn't it our right to want to share in the celebration and the party and the FOOD without resorting to eating celery sticks while everyone else has cake? Why does eating a peice of cake make ME gain 4 pounds? Its UNFAIR I scream (internally where no one can hear me and call the looney wagon). <BR> <BR> Do you know what else is unfair? Water weight. I know IN MY HEAD that th... Tue, 16 Sep 2014 09:03:45 EST Bad bad girl. I haven't been very good the last couple of days. Thursday I did not hit my 10,000 steps :( Last night we went to pizza hut. :( :( I haven't blogged since TUESDAY! <BR> <BR> Scale is up, I am down. lol. I'll come out of it. Im sitting here in my nightgown and sweat shorts and tennis shoes, what a vision! Getting psyched up to get on my bike, then my treadmill, then I HAVE to do kettles today since I skipped those on Thursday and Friday too. My stomach is protesting the pizza hut like... Sat, 13 Sep 2014 08:09:48 EST Deflating Tuesdays This morning I am excited and scared and ready to go exercise. I have nervous energy. This morning I barely squeaked into 304...but hey the needle says Im in so Im taking it. 5 pounds to go in 13 days. Will I make it? (mini goal 299 by Sept 22) <BR> <BR> I am off work today. I know what this means for me. I will walk on my treadmill then I will sit. Walk some more, maybe ride my bike, then sit. Spurts of activity followed by facebook trolling. <BR> <BR> It's been a struggle these... Tue, 9 Sep 2014 07:53:37 EST Fat is as Fat does. This morning back to 306, whew! I still have a shot at this. <BR> <BR> Ya know when I started all of this I didn't so much think about my emotional well being. I never had an ah-ha moment, I just wanted to fit into cuter clothes. Hey Truth. What can I say? <BR> <BR> So whenever I hear the term "emotional eater" I really can't grasp that. I mean, I eat out of boredom sometimes but mostly I just love Love LOVE the taste of food. It's a pleasurable thing. It's definitely been a social ... Sun, 7 Sep 2014 11:03:17 EST Overwhelmed, thank you. Just a quick quick note on the heels of my previous blog. I am up 2 pounds, oh the joys of water weight. Weight because I ate SALT, that was on CHIPS that I shouldn't have had but IS a weakness for me. Ive drank sugar free lemonade, water and sugar free tea. Lots more going in than coming out. <BR> <BR> The replies to my last blog...OVERWHELMING! Thank you. <BR> <BR> Day before yesterday I went for a walk, OUTSIDE. I went over to the fairgrounds and walked around it. I felt slightl... Sat, 6 Sep 2014 07:33:07 EST Half Way. Milestone Moment. Starting weight 4+ years ago was 414. Today 306. Goal 199. Total to lose 215. I have lost 108 pounds. I have made it HALF WAY! <BR> <BR> It's been such a good couple of weeks for weight loss. I've really tried to concentrate in the intensity of my movements and not just getting up and hum drumming it through the grind of putting in my time. I've also tried to keep my carbs, fats and proteins within spark people's guidelines. <BR> <BR> I have also tried to lift my kettle bell every o... Thu, 4 Sep 2014 07:57:19 EST 9-3-14 Thanks to everyone for your comments on my previous blog, it means a lot :) <BR> <BR> I did comment on the wall of the group challenge, I never received any sort of reply or recognition so I will let it go for now. I lost, and I will continue to lose. No one is doing it for me so I'll go on and continue to do it for me :) <BR> <BR> The days are slipping by and the days between my blogs are getting farther apart. I NEED to blog to keep my head in the game. My "gumption" as I call it, som... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 09:52:55 EST Probably petty but still bothers me. Maybe this is wrong of me but I am one of those people that needs a little recognition for a job well done or I just lose the will to even try. <BR> <BR> I know it's silly but I joined this monthly challenge and the first month went well and I lost and I reported my losses and it was posted. I didn't really know anyone that well so no one really made many comments to me, I think 2 ladies did, cheering me on or responding to some little thing I'd put on the group forum. Super nice of them. ... Sun, 31 Aug 2014 10:40:48 EST Slap Happy Well my son is back in the good old US of A, thank goodness. Although still a thousand miles away from me. I'll take it. <BR> <BR> This month I lost 10 pounds and made it to 309. 309 was the lowest weight I reached about 3 years ago when I started so from here on out it's new territory. Yeah baby! <BR> <BR> Now I want to reach 299 by Sept 22. 10 pounds in 24 days. I hope this weekend doesnt derail me! <BR> <BR> My grand daughter is coming this weekend WOO HOO. I have to work tomorr... Fri, 29 Aug 2014 17:20:02 EST My heart weighs A LOT right now. I can't write what I really want to tell you about. There is a matter in my heart that weighs heavy right now. My son is in the Army, is supposed to be coming home. Not all are. Thats all I can say, probably not even that much. Thank you for your prayers. Thu, 28 Aug 2014 10:34:06 EST Putting it off. I will be honest, I am writing this blog to avoid walking on my treadmill. haha. <BR> <BR> My hips hurt this morning. I walked almost 2 miles yesterday on the treadmill, not counting my bike and at work. I am at the same weight I was last Saturday morning after a little upward swing in the scale. Hopefully I can get rid of at least 2 more pounds by Friday's official weigh in and the last weigh in of a challenge that I am in. <BR> <BR> I love having the weekends off but they hurt my we... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 07:11:30 EST 8/25/14 4 Months till Christmas! haha <BR> <BR> Started this week a little up on the scale, I will use my Lady-Time card here. I am working thru it and when it passes hopefully I will see a dip again towards the end of the week. My food wasn't the greatest on the weekend but I did my best to work out to burn it all back off again. At least according to the counters I was slightly higher on my burn than my intake. <BR> <BR> Really nothing much going on, just trying to extend my calorie burning b... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 18:19:36 EST 4 months <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src="">4 months. <BR> <BR> 4 months ago I decided that my downward spiral had to end and I was not going to be that person that gained all the weight back. I stopped myself and began again. I was back up to 345, from 309. Now 309 is still a big chunk of change. 414 is where I began. I am glad to say that I am back on the right path. Now, don't ge... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 08:18:30 EST 8/20/14 Went to work today, was supposed to work 5 hours 45 mins and come home at 2. They asked me to stay over, which means I get a lunch. Problem is, I did not pack a lunch. I ended up eating at Subway. Way too much. 12 inch spicy italian on wheat. SO that means maybe just a yogurt for supper tonight. <BR> <BR> I got in over 10,000 steps at work which was great. I did not make it out of bed early this morning. We had a storm come thru at 2am and made the electric flicker and the lights all... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 19:49:14 EST boo ha ha on that scale anyways Even though the scale says I gained a pound-pound and a half Im not gonna stress it, my clothes feel looser than ever. My t-shirts are starting to not gather at my hips but keep on going. <BR> <BR> I know that when I came home from work today I walked a mile on my treadmill, granted a long boring mile but it was still a mile, in 25 minutes. My endurance is growing, I am getting stronger. Last night I walked a mile and a half at one time, to reach my 10,000 steps a day, today I have in a... Mon, 18 Aug 2014 19:14:21 EST Rough waters I knew when I got out of bed today it wasn't going to be pretty. For one thing, I got up about 8. That's late for me. For another, my husband was up first and messing in the computer/exercise room so I just went right for the shower as I knew he wanted to go look at phones today. <BR> <BR> So no exercise this morning, and then I made him stop at the Dollar store and I went in to get a Mountain Dew. I havent had one in weeks. I have had tea and diet soda, very rarely. I just dont know w... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 19:07:13 EST Friday, but first day of a new week. Yesterday I ended up having a pretty high calorie day for me. About 1800-2000 all told. Needless to day I did not hit 314, so I have to be content with today's 315. Today is weigh in day. <BR> <BR> Today is the first day to try again. I have tried to remain active all morning and push myself. I have a fit bit zip that counts my steps. I think I was becoming falsely secure in steps = calorie burn. Not so much. This morning I amped it up. I did my own little circuit training. Bike,... Fri, 15 Aug 2014 11:00:37 EST 315-314 I want I want I want!!! 1 MORE POUND! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Do you see how close that is to 14??? Ive been trying to get there allllllll week. lol <BR> <BR> Thu, 14 Aug 2014 15:20:02 EST Just checkin in. Letting my dinner settle before once again jumping on the treadmill. Not a great dinner choice-wise but not the potato chips I really wanted either. <BR> <BR> Drove home from work hungry. Never got a lunch today. They can work you up to 6 hours and not give you a lunch, today I was scheduled 5 hours 45 mins. Totally sucks for weight loss. Not very many good things left to eat in the hous eas it is the day before pay day. Im sure some of you know how that is. <BR> <BR> Trying to stick... Wed, 13 Aug 2014 18:27:51 EST Non Scale Victories. This past week I have really begun to take notice of things. For starters, some of my shirts are starting to hang past my hips. I have to wear this really uncomfortable smock at work in the pharmacy and when I got it, it was tight in the shoulders, belly and for some odd reason, the right arm. Now I feel it sort of hang around my butt when I walk to break. OK yeah it makes me feel good that I feel it on my butt. lol. OK that possibly is not the right wording. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I pull... Sun, 10 Aug 2014 20:10:55 EST first day fit bit zip tracking. Today was the first day that I got to wear my fitbit zip tracker at work, the whole day. I started off with a 30 min bike session at home this morning, got ready for work, went to work, WORKED and and now home. My tracker (that I clipped to my shoe) says I have walked over 5 miles, have over 12,000 steps and have burned more than 3200 calories for the day total (thats what I burn just resting and then while active). Today was a 9.5 hour shift. A long day. <BR> <BR> Im pretty stoked wit... Sat, 9 Aug 2014 20:06:38 EST Back to the Future. I may never get to Europe. I would LOVE to see parts of Europe, but more than likely I will never get there. That makes me sad. It's just a fact. Im a simple country person and you can tell me if I strive for it I can do it, but I just don't think I'll ever get there. <BR> <BR> What got me thinking about this was wondering where I will be in 20 years. Will I even be HERE in 20 years. Will I be alive I mean. Once you hit a certain age you start wondering about things like this. Im 45,... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 10:25:19 EST zzzZZZzzz Last night I went to bed at 8:45 pm. Totally unheard of from me. Im 11-midnight person and can only get 6-7 hours of sleep a night and up at 6 and read to go. This morning at 6 when the alarm went off I was freaking way. I dozed for another hour off and on. Then I made myself get up so I could get in at least 30 minutes on my bike. My hair didnt get exactly "done". Oh well. <BR> <BR> Had an 8.5 hour shift today, then shopped a little bit. Made myself stay away from McDona... Wed, 6 Aug 2014 20:04:26 EST All fired up. Don't ask me why but today I am all fired up and ready to burn some calories. I did some bike and treadmill before I went to work, was super duper busy DURING work and now that I am home again I have been off and on the bike and treadmill a few times this evening. Total burn (according to Spark) a little over 1600 calories, not counting work. <BR> <BR> My goal for this month is to lose 12 pounds or more. 307 or less. Just a stepping stone to where I want to be. I'll try not to look too ... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 19:04:46 EST pop and candybars oh my. I bought a pepsi yesterday. A 20 ounce bottle. I logged it. I was going to drink that baby. I am not done with it yet. I thought I wanted it. I do WANT it, I just want to meet my goals more. Truthfully I bought 2 candy bars also. I ate a snickers. I logged it. The other is still in the fridge. Isnt that odd? It sort of, kinda freaks me out. <BR> <BR> Will wonders never cease? <BR> <BR> So, I have upped my calories a tiny bit and really I have not been going at the exercise too s... Thu, 31 Jul 2014 18:57:06 EST Is that light I see? I could have really blown it. I was close. I mean I was one pizza away from food suicide. Somewhere I decided to work through it and come out the other end in a better place. I jumped up (in 2 days) to 325 from 320. YIKES! WHAT?!? <BR> <BR> Ive been watching what I eat, but I can still do better. I think I actually need to eat a tad bit more, and get in some more veggies and GOOD fats. Ive exercised but I havent done as much as I was. Another indication I was doing too much for what... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 08:51:00 EST You'll get through this. Well I had to do it. There was no getting out of it. I had to post my weigh in on a challenge and I had gained a pound. I did not exercise at all yesterday, unless you count the time I was on my feet at work. My body is too sore and my spirits low. Ive got to build up that momentum again. (My lower back is screaming No NO) Find a level of calories right for me and just do this thing. <BR> <BR> I ran a report on my weight loss. Last month at this time I had a 10 pound gain. SOOO...hop... Sat, 26 Jul 2014 08:00:38 EST tmi info/struggling Was looking forward to getting up this morning and FINALLY seeing a loss on the scale since I have not had one all week. Did it happen? noooo. *#&$! I just thought for sure I'd see a 2 pound drop. YES Im nuts. <BR> <BR> What is wrong with me? Im trying to figure out the dates and see if it's the onset of TOM or if I just am not eating enough. Why is this so dang difficult? <BR> <BR> I am trying to persevere though and just keep going. I work this morning for about 5 hours then ho... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 07:00:06 EST No Walking. Ok I really need the scale to move downward, like seriously! All week it's been pretty much the same. I did not walk today on my treadmill. I do not plan to. Maybe I am just looking for an excuse NOT to, but I found when I added in the walking, the scale stalled. <BR> <BR> Frankly my first goal is to lose weight. To lose weight to be able to do more. So, maybe it's an excuse for now but lets see if the scale moves. Maybe I wasnt eating enough? <BR> <BR> I think I need a heart rate ... Thu, 24 Jul 2014 11:07:18 EST Why now? <img src=""> <BR> My grand daughter Aubree She is 14 months. <BR> This is the reason for my new spark. <BR> <BR> I will be in better shape for her. I just grew and grew and grew after I had my kids. It's not that I didn't care, it's that I had no clue. No direction. I was oblivious. <BR> <BR> Now, as I age, I have reached a point where I want MORE from my life and I want to give more to those that I love. <BR> <BR> I am taking to... Wed, 23 Jul 2014 09:14:12 EST Tues. July 22, 2014 The last 2 days have been hard, really really hard. I must have developed a few good "habits" though because even though I didn't really want to exercise, somehow I found it in myself to do it. 8 straight days of walking at least a mile each night. <BR> <BR> At first it was yeah, look at me doing this. WOO HOO! By the third day it had worn off and I was more like, "yeah big whoop...trudge trudge...weak yay...God I don't want to do this!" <BR> <BR> I have never liked to walk. EVER. I... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 15:50:55 EST Even stevens. Sunday evening and believe me when I say, my calories have SUCKED today. I ate a big ole cheeseburger and then I had a soda (no refills) Then I had a sweet tea and then...on the way home from taking my daughter back to her dads (150 mile round trip) I stopped and bought some potato chips that I can not find in my neck of the woods that I absolutely LOVE. <BR> <BR> So the last thing I wanted to do was come home and exercise right? Right. <BR> <BR> But I did it anyway. <BR> <BR> There'... Sun, 20 Jul 2014 19:09:12 EST Saturday night It's Saturday night but it feels like Sunday around here today. The weather was a bit dreary so no one went anywhere. My husband has been in the garage all day today making a few things to put in the Cattleman's Association booth this year at the Ohio State Fair. <BR> <BR> I have been spending a good bit of my time today with my grand daughter. She's 1 and we've been working out. I even got down on the floor today and we rolled around together and did leg lifts. It was so cute and fun... Sat, 19 Jul 2014 20:45:27 EST almost NOTHING to do with weight loss. My daughter has been down to her dad's for the past 2 weeks. (about 75 miles away) <BR> <BR> Barely a facebook status, text and no phone calls from her since she left. She has my grand daughter down there with her, as well as her BF. I havent allowed her BF to stay here with her so I guess she's went down there because they allow it. The BF isnt the baby daddy. I dont know him that well. He seems nice but I wish he'd get a job. He's in the Army reserves. <BR> <BR> My grand daughter is... Fri, 18 Jul 2014 09:31:51 EST Work frustrations. Today's been a good day. I got up early, 5:30 am early and rode my bike before I had to go to work. <BR> <BR> Work's been, well work. I work in a pharmacy. Apparently someone in a land far far away decided what was best for all of us and designed a graph. This graph tells us when we need to be scheduled. This graph cut me from 33-34 hours a week to about 20. This graph sucks. <BR> <BR> Have you ever been in a pharmacy on the 1st of the month? Yeah well the guy in a land far far away ... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 17:48:27 EST