SANDY1969's SparkPeople Blog SANDY1969's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community just updating and accounting. I would have done really well today if it werent for all the FAT I ate today. Man I love cheese. Creamy Colby...mmmm. lol. Then we went out to eat for dinner. I logged it all. <BR> <BR> Spark says I did not go over number wise, just bad choices. <BR> <BR> I did work out for an hour this morning, then worked outside some, will post fall decor later. I got in over 16,000 steps today according to my fitbit tracker. <BR> <BR> All next week I plan to get in 1 whole hour of VERY active exe... Sun, 21 Sep 2014 21:49:00 EST -3 pounds! Morning's weigh in 301. I cant believe it. I was at 304 yesterday just hoping for a 1 pound loss to count as a maintain for the week, since last Friday I was 303. <BR> <BR> 2 pounds away from Twosville, although I am tired and did not sleep very well I am excited too! All that bad girl party food weight and water is gone! <BR> <BR> If it were not for the beep beep beep of someone backing into a driveway across the street I would still be asleep dreaming of going to the bathroom, lol. I ... Fri, 19 Sep 2014 08:38:26 EST Thursday. 1 pound to go and all my bad girl party weight will be gone *whew*! <BR> <BR> I have logged into Spark for 82 days in a row. Pretty darn good if I do say so myself. <BR> <BR> Last night while walking on the treadmill I tried small (and I mean SMALL) bouts of jogging. Enough to get my heart really pumping and my lungs REALLY working to the point that I remembered that feeling in Gym class in high school. Remember? When your lungs feel cold yet on fire at the same time and the feeling com... Thu, 18 Sep 2014 07:47:19 EST regaining my lead Is it really considered a weakness in a fat person to want to eat the same kinds of foods that everyone else eats? Isn't it our right to want to share in the celebration and the party and the FOOD without resorting to eating celery sticks while everyone else has cake? Why does eating a peice of cake make ME gain 4 pounds? Its UNFAIR I scream (internally where no one can hear me and call the looney wagon). <BR> <BR> Do you know what else is unfair? Water weight. I know IN MY HEAD that th... Tue, 16 Sep 2014 09:03:45 EST Bad bad girl. I haven't been very good the last couple of days. Thursday I did not hit my 10,000 steps :( Last night we went to pizza hut. :( :( I haven't blogged since TUESDAY! <BR> <BR> Scale is up, I am down. lol. I'll come out of it. Im sitting here in my nightgown and sweat shorts and tennis shoes, what a vision! Getting psyched up to get on my bike, then my treadmill, then I HAVE to do kettles today since I skipped those on Thursday and Friday too. My stomach is protesting the pizza hut like... Sat, 13 Sep 2014 08:09:48 EST Deflating Tuesdays This morning I am excited and scared and ready to go exercise. I have nervous energy. This morning I barely squeaked into 304...but hey the needle says Im in so Im taking it. 5 pounds to go in 13 days. Will I make it? (mini goal 299 by Sept 22) <BR> <BR> I am off work today. I know what this means for me. I will walk on my treadmill then I will sit. Walk some more, maybe ride my bike, then sit. Spurts of activity followed by facebook trolling. <BR> <BR> It's been a struggle these... Tue, 9 Sep 2014 07:53:37 EST Fat is as Fat does. This morning back to 306, whew! I still have a shot at this. <BR> <BR> Ya know when I started all of this I didn't so much think about my emotional well being. I never had an ah-ha moment, I just wanted to fit into cuter clothes. Hey Truth. What can I say? <BR> <BR> So whenever I hear the term "emotional eater" I really can't grasp that. I mean, I eat out of boredom sometimes but mostly I just love Love LOVE the taste of food. It's a pleasurable thing. It's definitely been a social ... Sun, 7 Sep 2014 11:03:17 EST Overwhelmed, thank you. Just a quick quick note on the heels of my previous blog. I am up 2 pounds, oh the joys of water weight. Weight because I ate SALT, that was on CHIPS that I shouldn't have had but IS a weakness for me. Ive drank sugar free lemonade, water and sugar free tea. Lots more going in than coming out. <BR> <BR> The replies to my last blog...OVERWHELMING! Thank you. <BR> <BR> Day before yesterday I went for a walk, OUTSIDE. I went over to the fairgrounds and walked around it. I felt slightl... Sat, 6 Sep 2014 07:33:07 EST Half Way. Milestone Moment. Starting weight 4+ years ago was 414. Today 306. Goal 199. Total to lose 215. I have lost 108 pounds. I have made it HALF WAY! <BR> <BR> It's been such a good couple of weeks for weight loss. I've really tried to concentrate in the intensity of my movements and not just getting up and hum drumming it through the grind of putting in my time. I've also tried to keep my carbs, fats and proteins within spark people's guidelines. <BR> <BR> I have also tried to lift my kettle bell every o... Thu, 4 Sep 2014 07:57:19 EST 9-3-14 Thanks to everyone for your comments on my previous blog, it means a lot :) <BR> <BR> I did comment on the wall of the group challenge, I never received any sort of reply or recognition so I will let it go for now. I lost, and I will continue to lose. No one is doing it for me so I'll go on and continue to do it for me :) <BR> <BR> The days are slipping by and the days between my blogs are getting farther apart. I NEED to blog to keep my head in the game. My "gumption" as I call it, som... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 09:52:55 EST Probably petty but still bothers me. Maybe this is wrong of me but I am one of those people that needs a little recognition for a job well done or I just lose the will to even try. <BR> <BR> I know it's silly but I joined this monthly challenge and the first month went well and I lost and I reported my losses and it was posted. I didn't really know anyone that well so no one really made many comments to me, I think 2 ladies did, cheering me on or responding to some little thing I'd put on the group forum. Super nice of them. ... Sun, 31 Aug 2014 10:40:48 EST Slap Happy Well my son is back in the good old US of A, thank goodness. Although still a thousand miles away from me. I'll take it. <BR> <BR> This month I lost 10 pounds and made it to 309. 309 was the lowest weight I reached about 3 years ago when I started so from here on out it's new territory. Yeah baby! <BR> <BR> Now I want to reach 299 by Sept 22. 10 pounds in 24 days. I hope this weekend doesnt derail me! <BR> <BR> My grand daughter is coming this weekend WOO HOO. I have to work tomorr... Fri, 29 Aug 2014 17:20:02 EST My heart weighs A LOT right now. I can't write what I really want to tell you about. There is a matter in my heart that weighs heavy right now. My son is in the Army, is supposed to be coming home. Not all are. Thats all I can say, probably not even that much. Thank you for your prayers. Thu, 28 Aug 2014 10:34:06 EST Putting it off. I will be honest, I am writing this blog to avoid walking on my treadmill. haha. <BR> <BR> My hips hurt this morning. I walked almost 2 miles yesterday on the treadmill, not counting my bike and at work. I am at the same weight I was last Saturday morning after a little upward swing in the scale. Hopefully I can get rid of at least 2 more pounds by Friday's official weigh in and the last weigh in of a challenge that I am in. <BR> <BR> I love having the weekends off but they hurt my we... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 07:11:30 EST 8/25/14 4 Months till Christmas! haha <BR> <BR> Started this week a little up on the scale, I will use my Lady-Time card here. I am working thru it and when it passes hopefully I will see a dip again towards the end of the week. My food wasn't the greatest on the weekend but I did my best to work out to burn it all back off again. At least according to the counters I was slightly higher on my burn than my intake. <BR> <BR> Really nothing much going on, just trying to extend my calorie burning b... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 18:19:36 EST 4 months <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src="">4 months. <BR> <BR> 4 months ago I decided that my downward spiral had to end and I was not going to be that person that gained all the weight back. I stopped myself and began again. I was back up to 345, from 309. Now 309 is still a big chunk of change. 414 is where I began. I am glad to say that I am back on the right path. Now, don't ge... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 08:18:30 EST 8/20/14 Went to work today, was supposed to work 5 hours 45 mins and come home at 2. They asked me to stay over, which means I get a lunch. Problem is, I did not pack a lunch. I ended up eating at Subway. Way too much. 12 inch spicy italian on wheat. SO that means maybe just a yogurt for supper tonight. <BR> <BR> I got in over 10,000 steps at work which was great. I did not make it out of bed early this morning. We had a storm come thru at 2am and made the electric flicker and the lights all... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 19:49:14 EST boo ha ha on that scale anyways Even though the scale says I gained a pound-pound and a half Im not gonna stress it, my clothes feel looser than ever. My t-shirts are starting to not gather at my hips but keep on going. <BR> <BR> I know that when I came home from work today I walked a mile on my treadmill, granted a long boring mile but it was still a mile, in 25 minutes. My endurance is growing, I am getting stronger. Last night I walked a mile and a half at one time, to reach my 10,000 steps a day, today I have in a... Mon, 18 Aug 2014 19:14:21 EST Rough waters I knew when I got out of bed today it wasn't going to be pretty. For one thing, I got up about 8. That's late for me. For another, my husband was up first and messing in the computer/exercise room so I just went right for the shower as I knew he wanted to go look at phones today. <BR> <BR> So no exercise this morning, and then I made him stop at the Dollar store and I went in to get a Mountain Dew. I havent had one in weeks. I have had tea and diet soda, very rarely. I just dont know w... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 19:07:13 EST Friday, but first day of a new week. Yesterday I ended up having a pretty high calorie day for me. About 1800-2000 all told. Needless to day I did not hit 314, so I have to be content with today's 315. Today is weigh in day. <BR> <BR> Today is the first day to try again. I have tried to remain active all morning and push myself. I have a fit bit zip that counts my steps. I think I was becoming falsely secure in steps = calorie burn. Not so much. This morning I amped it up. I did my own little circuit training. Bike,... Fri, 15 Aug 2014 11:00:37 EST 315-314 I want I want I want!!! 1 MORE POUND! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Do you see how close that is to 14??? Ive been trying to get there allllllll week. lol <BR> <BR> Thu, 14 Aug 2014 15:20:02 EST Just checkin in. Letting my dinner settle before once again jumping on the treadmill. Not a great dinner choice-wise but not the potato chips I really wanted either. <BR> <BR> Drove home from work hungry. Never got a lunch today. They can work you up to 6 hours and not give you a lunch, today I was scheduled 5 hours 45 mins. Totally sucks for weight loss. Not very many good things left to eat in the hous eas it is the day before pay day. Im sure some of you know how that is. <BR> <BR> Trying to stick... Wed, 13 Aug 2014 18:27:51 EST Non Scale Victories. This past week I have really begun to take notice of things. For starters, some of my shirts are starting to hang past my hips. I have to wear this really uncomfortable smock at work in the pharmacy and when I got it, it was tight in the shoulders, belly and for some odd reason, the right arm. Now I feel it sort of hang around my butt when I walk to break. OK yeah it makes me feel good that I feel it on my butt. lol. OK that possibly is not the right wording. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I pull... Sun, 10 Aug 2014 20:10:55 EST first day fit bit zip tracking. Today was the first day that I got to wear my fitbit zip tracker at work, the whole day. I started off with a 30 min bike session at home this morning, got ready for work, went to work, WORKED and and now home. My tracker (that I clipped to my shoe) says I have walked over 5 miles, have over 12,000 steps and have burned more than 3200 calories for the day total (thats what I burn just resting and then while active). Today was a 9.5 hour shift. A long day. <BR> <BR> Im pretty stoked wit... Sat, 9 Aug 2014 20:06:38 EST Back to the Future. I may never get to Europe. I would LOVE to see parts of Europe, but more than likely I will never get there. That makes me sad. It's just a fact. Im a simple country person and you can tell me if I strive for it I can do it, but I just don't think I'll ever get there. <BR> <BR> What got me thinking about this was wondering where I will be in 20 years. Will I even be HERE in 20 years. Will I be alive I mean. Once you hit a certain age you start wondering about things like this. Im 45,... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 10:25:19 EST zzzZZZzzz Last night I went to bed at 8:45 pm. Totally unheard of from me. Im 11-midnight person and can only get 6-7 hours of sleep a night and up at 6 and read to go. This morning at 6 when the alarm went off I was freaking way. I dozed for another hour off and on. Then I made myself get up so I could get in at least 30 minutes on my bike. My hair didnt get exactly "done". Oh well. <BR> <BR> Had an 8.5 hour shift today, then shopped a little bit. Made myself stay away from McDona... Wed, 6 Aug 2014 20:04:26 EST All fired up. Don't ask me why but today I am all fired up and ready to burn some calories. I did some bike and treadmill before I went to work, was super duper busy DURING work and now that I am home again I have been off and on the bike and treadmill a few times this evening. Total burn (according to Spark) a little over 1600 calories, not counting work. <BR> <BR> My goal for this month is to lose 12 pounds or more. 307 or less. Just a stepping stone to where I want to be. I'll try not to look too ... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 19:04:46 EST pop and candybars oh my. I bought a pepsi yesterday. A 20 ounce bottle. I logged it. I was going to drink that baby. I am not done with it yet. I thought I wanted it. I do WANT it, I just want to meet my goals more. Truthfully I bought 2 candy bars also. I ate a snickers. I logged it. The other is still in the fridge. Isnt that odd? It sort of, kinda freaks me out. <BR> <BR> Will wonders never cease? <BR> <BR> So, I have upped my calories a tiny bit and really I have not been going at the exercise too s... Thu, 31 Jul 2014 18:57:06 EST Is that light I see? I could have really blown it. I was close. I mean I was one pizza away from food suicide. Somewhere I decided to work through it and come out the other end in a better place. I jumped up (in 2 days) to 325 from 320. YIKES! WHAT?!? <BR> <BR> Ive been watching what I eat, but I can still do better. I think I actually need to eat a tad bit more, and get in some more veggies and GOOD fats. Ive exercised but I havent done as much as I was. Another indication I was doing too much for what... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 08:51:00 EST You'll get through this. Well I had to do it. There was no getting out of it. I had to post my weigh in on a challenge and I had gained a pound. I did not exercise at all yesterday, unless you count the time I was on my feet at work. My body is too sore and my spirits low. Ive got to build up that momentum again. (My lower back is screaming No NO) Find a level of calories right for me and just do this thing. <BR> <BR> I ran a report on my weight loss. Last month at this time I had a 10 pound gain. SOOO...hop... Sat, 26 Jul 2014 08:00:38 EST tmi info/struggling Was looking forward to getting up this morning and FINALLY seeing a loss on the scale since I have not had one all week. Did it happen? noooo. *#&$! I just thought for sure I'd see a 2 pound drop. YES Im nuts. <BR> <BR> What is wrong with me? Im trying to figure out the dates and see if it's the onset of TOM or if I just am not eating enough. Why is this so dang difficult? <BR> <BR> I am trying to persevere though and just keep going. I work this morning for about 5 hours then ho... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 07:00:06 EST No Walking. Ok I really need the scale to move downward, like seriously! All week it's been pretty much the same. I did not walk today on my treadmill. I do not plan to. Maybe I am just looking for an excuse NOT to, but I found when I added in the walking, the scale stalled. <BR> <BR> Frankly my first goal is to lose weight. To lose weight to be able to do more. So, maybe it's an excuse for now but lets see if the scale moves. Maybe I wasnt eating enough? <BR> <BR> I think I need a heart rate ... Thu, 24 Jul 2014 11:07:18 EST Why now? <img src=""> <BR> My grand daughter Aubree She is 14 months. <BR> This is the reason for my new spark. <BR> <BR> I will be in better shape for her. I just grew and grew and grew after I had my kids. It's not that I didn't care, it's that I had no clue. No direction. I was oblivious. <BR> <BR> Now, as I age, I have reached a point where I want MORE from my life and I want to give more to those that I love. <BR> <BR> I am taking to... Wed, 23 Jul 2014 09:14:12 EST Tues. July 22, 2014 The last 2 days have been hard, really really hard. I must have developed a few good "habits" though because even though I didn't really want to exercise, somehow I found it in myself to do it. 8 straight days of walking at least a mile each night. <BR> <BR> At first it was yeah, look at me doing this. WOO HOO! By the third day it had worn off and I was more like, "yeah big whoop...trudge trudge...weak yay...God I don't want to do this!" <BR> <BR> I have never liked to walk. EVER. I... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 15:50:55 EST Even stevens. Sunday evening and believe me when I say, my calories have SUCKED today. I ate a big ole cheeseburger and then I had a soda (no refills) Then I had a sweet tea and then...on the way home from taking my daughter back to her dads (150 mile round trip) I stopped and bought some potato chips that I can not find in my neck of the woods that I absolutely LOVE. <BR> <BR> So the last thing I wanted to do was come home and exercise right? Right. <BR> <BR> But I did it anyway. <BR> <BR> There'... Sun, 20 Jul 2014 19:09:12 EST Saturday night It's Saturday night but it feels like Sunday around here today. The weather was a bit dreary so no one went anywhere. My husband has been in the garage all day today making a few things to put in the Cattleman's Association booth this year at the Ohio State Fair. <BR> <BR> I have been spending a good bit of my time today with my grand daughter. She's 1 and we've been working out. I even got down on the floor today and we rolled around together and did leg lifts. It was so cute and fun... Sat, 19 Jul 2014 20:45:27 EST almost NOTHING to do with weight loss. My daughter has been down to her dad's for the past 2 weeks. (about 75 miles away) <BR> <BR> Barely a facebook status, text and no phone calls from her since she left. She has my grand daughter down there with her, as well as her BF. I havent allowed her BF to stay here with her so I guess she's went down there because they allow it. The BF isnt the baby daddy. I dont know him that well. He seems nice but I wish he'd get a job. He's in the Army reserves. <BR> <BR> My grand daughter is... Fri, 18 Jul 2014 09:31:51 EST Work frustrations. Today's been a good day. I got up early, 5:30 am early and rode my bike before I had to go to work. <BR> <BR> Work's been, well work. I work in a pharmacy. Apparently someone in a land far far away decided what was best for all of us and designed a graph. This graph tells us when we need to be scheduled. This graph cut me from 33-34 hours a week to about 20. This graph sucks. <BR> <BR> Have you ever been in a pharmacy on the 1st of the month? Yeah well the guy in a land far far away ... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 17:48:27 EST My Bike. <img src=""> What I had to contend with last night. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> About my bike. My husband bought my bike and it sat a whole year in my house before I ever got on it. A YEAR. One day, at over 400 pounds I thought, let's try this sucker out. 5 minutes and I was huffing and puffing, BUT I did it 3-4 times a day. Then 10 mins each time. Now I do it 30-45 mins at a time, and I do the program that simulates going up 4 hills th... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 09:42:15 EST whatever will be will be, but I feel good about it. They say you have to pay to play. Who is they? uhhh. Well I said it to hubby when we got home from the party. <em>15</em> <BR> <BR> I ate 1 plate of food, but 2 cupcakes and a small bowl (3 small scoops slightly bigger than a walnut) of home made ice cream. <BR> <BR> I had a pulled pork sandwich <BR> Mac n cheese (truly evil I know) <em>18</em> <BR> mashed potatoes (loaded somehow) <BR> cole slaw <BR> some potato pepper dish I didnt like so I didnt eat. <BR> <BR> A diet dr pepper ... Sat, 12 Jul 2014 23:53:19 EST win/win I have a huge pot of green beans from the garden on the stove. I plan to go find myself a few big garden tomatoes today at the Amish market and that will be my lunch. We have a party to go to later today. A belated graduation party. TONS of food. I will try to behave. *oh who am I kidding?* lol <BR> <BR> I have thought, I am going to eat I deserve this and then I have thought, I should prove to myself I can overcome this and be a good girl. I do not know which one of me will win. <BR... Sat, 12 Jul 2014 09:31:18 EST Get off yer keester. Isn't Robert Redford the dreamy-ist man to ever walk on earth? lol <BR> <BR> Out of Africa is on TV. Yes take a moment. Ahhhh. <BR> <BR> Anyway. <BR> <BR> Always searching on here to stories similar to my own, ways people have had successes. Things I can do to achieve my goals. Searching around today at groups with people of a similar weight to mine one thing kept popping up. MEDICAL issues. <BR> <BR> I was reading a blog yesterday about being a healthy fat person. Well so far ... Fri, 11 Jul 2014 10:23:36 EST Already weekend goal weight?!? I had a significant dip on the scale this morning so something is adding up and working right. I walked a mile today on the treadmill. Will try and increase my distance over time and in the spring look out 5K here I come. <BR> <BR> Have some personal stuff I am dwelling on. My daughter is at her dad and stepwitches house, with my grand daughter. Not sure when they will be back here to "visit". Seems thing have shifted from them living here to living there. Worried she wont get back ... Thu, 10 Jul 2014 11:41:22 EST Hump Day. Extreme weight loss last night Extreme Weight Loss last night. <BR> <BR> I have to say this one got to me and made me cry. David had such a great attitude through everything. No whining (at least on TV). If you havent watched it I wont ruin it for you but you'll love it. <BR> <BR> Last night I blogged about whether it was going to end up a good day or a bad day. It was a good day. I did 50 minutes on my bike. A bit more because I knew I had to work off the pizza. Then as I watched the show on TV last night I did m... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 11:16:56 EST Is this going to be... A bad day or am I going to salvage it and make it a good day??? <BR> <BR> So far: I set my alarm for 5 this am to get up a half hour early to exercise. It did not happen. I just couldnt. I reset the alarm for 5:30 and went back to sleep. I had to be at work by 7:30 this morning. Breakfast was good, lunch was great. Dinner was frozen pizza. <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> I worked over. I am tired. I feel EXTRA tired and hurting. TOM is coming, what other excuses can I think up? I WANT... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 18:38:39 EST Being stronger. I did the 4 hills of Hell this morning. <em>18</em> That's how I refer to them now. 4 hills on my bike, my exercise bike. The program to end all programs, the 4 hills that I am going to laugh at someday. Someday mind you, just not today. <BR> <BR> I feel my legs getting stronger. At a resistance of 2 I was chugging along when I began, now I don't feel like I am even doing anything if I don't begin at least at a 3 to 4. <BR> <BR> I did things in a little different order this morning.... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 09:15:23 EST Jus chillin. Sunday weigh in 327. Wanted more gone but okie dokie! Today I got up, exercised and now my husband and I are unloading a bundling up tobacco sticks. We have THOUSANDS. Going to "try" to eat good today. <BR> <BR> Not really much going on, just chillin. <BR> <BR> Goal for next Sunday : 324 or lower. Sun, 6 Jul 2014 10:58:28 EST Thursday part 2. People in another "place". I read once that the people that you love that have passed away, in some way "contact" you. You night hear a familiar tune that only means something to the 2 of you, you might hear a sound, or see an object that makes you connect with this person. When you see or hear this, and it reminds you of them, they are letting you know they are watching over you. <BR> <BR> For me, it is the number 226. This was my post office box number for years. It was my Dad's PO Box for even longer than that.... Thu, 3 Jul 2014 21:42:14 EST Thursday part 2. People in another "place". I read once that the people that you love that have passed away, in some way "contact" you. You night hear a familiar tune that only means something to the 2 of you, you might hear a sound, or see an object that makes you connect with this person. When you see or hear this, and it reminds you of them, they are letting you know they are watching over you. <BR> <BR> For me, it is the number 226. This was my post office box number for years. It was my Dad's PO Box for even longer than that.... Thu, 3 Jul 2014 21:42:10 EST Thursday I usually dont blog first thing in the morning but here I am. I feel SO tired today. Last night at work was a near nightmare. They have cut back staff so drastically that it was almost impossible to get it all done. For the first 4 hours I went all out. We are supposed to get a break around the 2-2.5 hour mark...ha! Got mine 4 hours in. While at break I called my son back as I saw where he'd tried to call me. He's in the Army. He told me that they are shipping them to Nigeria next we... Thu, 3 Jul 2014 06:43:06 EST