SANDY1969's SparkPeople Blog SANDY1969's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Happy Loser So, I was gone for 9 days vacation. When I say gone I mean just off Spark and fitbit aps, doing my own thing, not tracking and heck not even doing extra exercising, but I was sort of watching what I ate. <BR> <BR> We had more of a staycation. I did have to go to a funeral the first day about 2 hours away so that was alot of sitting. The next 3 days we spent at the county fair watching my husbands family show animals, and took my granddaughter. Walked a bit with her but nothing to brag ... Thu, 5 Oct 2017 09:22:52 EST re-focus I have been slipping a little, I have to get it in gear again and just start planning better. It's been 6 months and 50 pounds. I am proud of that but I am still sitting at 298. 2 pounds under what my drivers license says lol. I have been working with weight machines 1-2 days a week, so that's a little different for me. I was exercising EVERY day, now I take 2-3 days off, which I don't know if that's a good thing or not. I just mostly have to go back to making better food choices and s... Thu, 14 Sep 2017 09:18:44 EST 9-5 Ok so I have touched 300 twice in the past few weeks but then always go back up a couple pounds, like it's toying with me, or I'M toying with me. <BR> <BR> Today 307, but I admit I sat around all day yesterday and did nothing. I watched Netflix and zoned out. <BR> <BR> I woke up today with vertigo. A little dizzy and a little nauseous. A strange thing for me, I don't think I've ever had this. Weird! <BR> <BR> So today I go into work late but I have my shoes on this morning, ready to bi... Tue, 5 Sep 2017 09:03:52 EST whats your dream dress? <img src=""> it's everything I can not wear...yet. tight, sleeveless..tight. lol Would love to wear this some night and rock my husbands world. Tue, 22 Aug 2017 10:35:08 EST intro to the gym and losing. It's been a long time my friends but I am still at it. In the past month I have started going to a gym and seeing a trainer in a group and having some one on one time also. They gave me a free 6 months with the program I am on through the Dr's office. So If anyone is going to Mercy Weight Management in Cincy give a shout out! lol. <BR> <BR> The first night I went he put me on the bike. I was like (in my head) all of the machines you got in here and I have to bike? I do that at home. I... Fri, 18 Aug 2017 08:01:02 EST I WILL WIN. Guess I better confess. <BR> <BR> lol that's what I sometimes secretly refer to Blogging. <BR> <BR> I want to sit down and write this masterpiece of inspiration, for myself and others but it usually comes out something like, I ate pizza. ha! <BR> <BR> I have been at this for over 8 years. Over 8 years I first logged on to Sparkpeople. During that time (several times, different times, different phases) I lost about 125 pounds. <BR> <BR> Did it stay off? Noooo. Did it come on when I to... Wed, 26 Jul 2017 08:17:40 EST weight loss surgery...nope, drugs, yes please. Over the course of the last few months I have been exploring other options. Weight loss surgery for 1. My husband and I had thought that he was covered and I was not. He has underlying health issues and I don't really have any. Turns out that he is not covered either. So we BOTH will be going different routes. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I had a monthly checkup and I lost 11 pounds all on my own since last visit. I figured it would be about 6, so I'll take it gladly. <BR> <BR> After a consult... Tue, 18 Jul 2017 18:55:04 EST under and other garments? ;) So I know what my reward to myself will be when I hit 299.....SPANX! :) I almost ordered some a little while ago but Im really close to getting the next size down so I will wait until I have a little more to support, a little more to hold in. <BR> <BR> What other garments would you suggest for a little jiggle here and there? See I have huge upper arms and I will NOT wear short short sleeves, which sucks but hey that's me. I wont get over it, I hate the way it looks, I have too much flap.... Sat, 15 Jul 2017 18:33:40 EST Monday Battle Rope Try Out <img src=""> This is a battle rope. (hope the pic posts) I bought one the other day. I just did it for about 5 minutes in the living room. Yeah 5. OY! It is HEAVY! I really need to have it outside but I don't really want to put on a show for the neighbors. Gives me something besides the bike. <BR> <BR> Got my heart rate up to 110-120. <BR> <BR> Mon, 10 Jul 2017 13:18:32 EST Just me checkin in and Riced cauliflower :) Hi! I haven't blogged in a while, usually I am just about ready to run out the door to work when I log into Spark to Spin The BIG Wheel! I have a few minutes this morning just to check in. <BR> <BR> Today is my 8th Wedding Anniversary, YAY me. I made it another <BR> <BR> I am sitting at 320 after being off work and going out to dinner on Saturday, (Friday I was at 319) Not too shabby. Down 29-30 pounds since March. <BR> <BR> Trying to be MINDFUL...yeah that's my new "go ... Tue, 27 Jun 2017 08:02:48 EST Not the right's my time. Yesterday was a deadline at work to put in for a lead position. I had been interested, it would meaning having to learn more, being responsible for the training plans of others at times. I just could not bring myself to put in for it. (there is also a co-worker there that has been there longer than I that is far more suited to it than I am and should get it and probably will) I just don't think I can handle it right now. My other co-workers seemed to really want me to do it, but I don't t... Wed, 7 Jun 2017 08:22:14 EST June 1, -4#'s new month. I fell today. I fell in the yard. I knew I was going down, so I just gave in to it. So I am on the ground and of course the dogs are all over me and start barking. I know there is a neighbor weed eating somewhere and I think, as I am sitting there...PLEASE don't let them think I fell on my ass, yes, yes I am playing with the dogs. Go about your business...Yes my butt end is headed down the grassy slope of yard but I know I look totally natural right? WRONG. <BR> <BR> Then I think, how t... Thu, 1 Jun 2017 18:09:12 EST Make it count! I always think I have a lot to talk about but I always leave blogging till last when I have like 7 minutes before I have to head out the door. I found that if I blog before exercise I just sit here and try to gather my thoughts and I don't do as much exercise so I guess that's a good lesson to take away from that. <BR> <BR> I had another sleep study last night so a CPAP is in my future soon. Hopefully I wont have to use it long as I am working to get this weight OFF. <BR> <BR> We have bee... Wed, 31 May 2017 08:59:20 EST Checking in. So the minute I started talking about and setting future goals, my weight started going back up. At the beginning of the month I was at 329. Over the course of this month, the month that I wanted to be 319 or under I went back up to around 335...and today 330, SO! I am not going to say I "could" have a small loss this month after all. *crossing fingers* <BR> <BR> OK, so enough about goals, I wont even think about that. 1 day at a time. <BR> <BR> <BR> Wed, 24 May 2017 07:36:07 EST May 10, 2017 So...the last time we talked I mentioned my granddaughter's birthday. CAKE. where to start, or where to end. We STILL have some in the fridge. Not for lack of trying to eat it all I assure you. <BR> <BR> I really need to start thinking about why I eat, and why I eat what I eat. I can't "really" say I am an emotional eater. I just LOVE the tastes of all the bad foods. <BR> <BR> I have been exploring different options. Mashed Cauliflower for mashed potatoes. Wasn't bad, will do th... Wed, 10 May 2017 11:19:22 EST Went for a sleep study and other things in life. <img src=""> Happy 4th Birthday to my granddaughter Aubree today, isn't she gorgeous? :) <BR> <BR> Gonna go have a party today and play nice with the ex and his wife...or just totally ignore. Yes that's it just totally ignore. <BR> <BR> Even though it's Saturday I made sure to ride the bike today because I LOVE BIRTHDAY CAKE. I even had nutrigrain waffles this morning with no syrup in prep for the cake later... Sat, 6 May 2017 09:37:47 EST accountable Just over 40 days back, and I am down about 20 pounds. I didn't weigh myself this morning, had a bad food day yesterday, ate lunch out and then a party last night. I can say that I skipped the burger on a bun and had a grilled chicken wing minus the skin, but I bet the salt was off the charts in the green beans I had. 1 plate, no dessert (red velvet cake and home made ice cream). So back at the exercise this morning, then heading to work. <BR> <BR> I WILL make good choices today. <BR> ... Sun, 30 Apr 2017 07:52:11 EST Yesterday was good after all. Yesterday didn't defeat me. I made smoothies for supper. I had half a sub from subway for lunch (unsweet tea and 2 cookies...I know but I can't pass them up) so I was trying to even things out. <BR> <BR> I did not exercise yesterday but still managed to get in over 12,000 steps YAY! <BR> <BR> Today, up early, weird 5 hour shift. 9-2, no lunch. This is gonna suck. lol. At least while working I can't go grab something except on my 15 minute break. <BR> <BR> I'm off tomorrow, get to hav... Thu, 27 Apr 2017 07:51:32 EST starving I am trying to decide what to have for supper. I thought on my way home I'd make a smoothie out of a protein drink, ice and frozen fruit, sit on the deck and relax. Right now I am starving. lol Hubby's been mowing the grass, think he's done. Let's see what happens. Wed, 26 Apr 2017 19:02:27 EST Lost sight of what I want most, for what I wanted right now. So yesterday was not the greatest. <BR> <BR> Was not speaking to hubby for the past few days and finally just broke down and said what the heck. <BR> <BR> Sausage and eggs for breakfast, 2 pieces of wheat bread. Wendy's for late lunch after shopping 4 hours (retail therapy). I had Dr. Pepper. Lots of it. It didn't even taste that great. Then for dinner and I ha half a large bag of M&M's lol but not so funny. Geeez. <BR> <BR> I did not exercise, I MAYBE broke 4,000 steps, maybe. <BR>... Sun, 23 Apr 2017 07:45:57 EST 31 days in. Weigh in today after exercise of 339, so thats a little up (after Easter) but a 10 pound loss for the month (past 31 days). Also noticing (NSV?) my work smocks hanging a little looser around my hips. Definitely getting some muscle in my legs. I ride a recumbent bike with resistance and I have been walking A LOT. <BR> <BR> 31 days of Spark People. 30 of them soda/pop free. <BR> <BR> Hang in there! Get moving! <BR> <BR> Have a great day. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Tue, 18 Apr 2017 07:12:32 EST Ive changed, for the most part. Now if I can just stay this way. It's been weeks since Ive had pop (soda). I don't turn to a high carb snack when I am hungry. Upping my protein and water and WAIT FOR IT... <BR> <BR> I WALK on my 2 15 minute breaks. <BR> <BR> I do feel better. Ive made other changes, but tonight it's pizza. Instead of making 2 though for husband and I we are making 1. <BR> <BR> My grocery list, low fat, 1%...flat out flat bread (low carb and calories) chips! <BR> <BR> Premier Protein drin... Fri, 14 Apr 2017 19:09:19 EST weight loss surgery reject So, I've been at this for like 7 years. On spark and trying to lose weight. Back in 2010 I finally came out of my stupor and looked at myself and I want more from my life. I have had pretty good success (a one time weight loss of up to 125 pounds) But this past year I have had little to no motivation and have slipped up about 50 pounds. Starting weight at about 414 in 2010, 349 on Mar 20th, and today (after almost a month back at it) I am about 335. <BR> <BR> Years ago I ha... Thu, 13 Apr 2017 18:08:39 EST Today I feel low I got the BLAHs. <BR> <BR> Ive been sick the last few days but I've tried to push through, now I think I just need to re-energize. <BR> <BR> I also forgot to take my meds yesterday which includes vit B, so that's dragging me down I think. <BR> <BR> Got to take the meds, get some vitamins in me, make great food choices today to get the most out of my calories. <BR> <BR> I've lost 14 pounds in the last 3 weeks, a lot of that water in the beginning. <BR> <BR> Still got to go to work though ... Fri, 7 Apr 2017 07:18:31 EST Being accountable Day 19 (I think) in a row logging on to Spark...yay. Ive only had soda (pop) 1 day out of those 19. Double Yay. <BR> <BR> I forgot to weigh myself this morning before I started drinking coffee, darn it. BUT After breakfast and coffee I weighed myself and still had a slight loss so BAM! lol <BR> <BR> Right now I am trying to get myself to get on my bike. I have a late work day today so I get cleaned up and head in to the job in a little bit. Watched TV this morning, I have been up sinc... Wed, 5 Apr 2017 11:38:38 EST Monday Fighting the urge to eat a pop tart this morning...or 4. Ugggh! Im off work today. Did 35 minutes on my bike, but plan on doing more throughout the day. <BR> <BR> Took meds and vitamins, drinking water, eating a protein bar. I didn't do a whole lot over the weekend. I worked Saturday, kinda lazy Sunday but determined to make the week count. <BR> <BR> We have a new puppy. So today I will be cleaning carpets :) <BR> <BR> Have a great week. Mon, 3 Apr 2017 08:00:05 EST Denial The medical center called me today and told me that the insurance would not cover weight loss surgery. I guess I am just too darn healthy, although I weigh 345 pounds. So, now what? I guess the next step is visit the Dr. I have also taken the first step to look into getting a CPAP. Ive been told by my husband that I need one. He uses one. They are SO attractive. <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> Day 3, no pop and getting up and exercising before work. WATER WATER WATER...I get up constantl... Wed, 22 Mar 2017 18:56:31 EST Fire it up. Trying so hard to think of healthy the end of a pay period HA! Pay day is Thursday thank goodness. I have a list somewhere of low carb/high protein foods, we are switching from 2% milk to 1%. Trying so hard to log everything. <BR> <BR> Got to get fired up! No flash in the pan...keep it burning... <BR> <BR> :) Tue, 21 Mar 2017 19:13:09 EST weight loss surgery Cincy area anyone? Every day I think, yes I will make good choices...that never happen. <BR> <BR> A little background on me. I started this about 7 years ago...the most Ive lost is about 125 pounds from when I started at about 414. I got down to 292. Since then I have slowly gone up. Its 3 steps up and 2 back....until now I just don't know if I can do it again on my own. Right now I am about 340ish. I havent weighed myself in about a month. <BR> <BR> My husband and I have gone to a seminar discussing ... Mon, 13 Mar 2017 11:08:37 EST A week later... Today I put my fitbit back on after probably not wearing it for 6 months. Last week I weighed myself. YUCK! <BR> <BR> This past week I have been trying to make better choices but I still have not exercised outside of what I get at work. I wake up each morning and feel groggy and I don't want to get out of bed. I used to be such a morning person!!! <BR> <BR> My exercise bike is still buried under some jeans, a winter coat, a box of apples, and various other boxes. (my throw all room... Thu, 12 Jan 2017 11:30:51 EST Day 2 or 2,000 Day 2, weighed myself this morning. I wasn't going to, I was going to wait until tomorrow because that's when I dig out the old bike and start exercising. But then hey I figured I have already began, time to wrap my head around it, bite the bullet and see what's what. In 6 months I have gained 7-10 pounds roughly. At least my last weigh in was 333 last year and today I was 340. <BR> <BR> I don't think that's too terrible. I am so OUT of shape though. Oh I have always been OUT OF SHAPE ... Thu, 5 Jan 2017 07:51:43 EST O M G. It's been so long since I have been back here. Excuses, my fitbit wasn't charged...for like 5 months. Funny yet not funny. <BR> <BR> I started on new medication that is mood controlling (fluoxetine) yet also leaves me not wanting to be a morning person any more. I plan on discussing this with the Dr. on my next visit. <BR> <BR> I just plain didn't want to do it anymore. There I said it. I was SO tired of thinking about everything that went into my mouth. I was so tired of trying to do the math in my head. <BR> <BR> Now I am so t... Wed, 4 Jan 2017 11:52:25 EST Aug 3rd truths. Over the last year or so, or maybe since I began this several years ago I have done a lot of soul searching. I would say more so in the last year though. When I began it seemed EASY. I weighed over 400 pounds. I ate right I exercised and I could have a set schedule that made getting into a groove and this whole thing very doable. I lost close to 100 pounds. <BR> <BR> The last couple of years, not so much. Up and Down. <BR> <BR> I work retail pharmacy. I can go in at 8am or 3pm. I co... Wed, 3 Aug 2016 10:48:53 EST Bacon. I fried 4 slices of bacon. 4. That's a record for me. I usually fry half the package. I got out 2 slices of wheat bread. 2. That's a record for me. I usually go for 4. I had a big ole garden tomato. The tomato I can splurge on. <BR> <BR> I made 1 sandwich for breakfast. 1. Bacon, tomato and bread. <BR> <BR> Yes I am a little obsessive this morning. BACON is serious stuff. <BR> <BR> I logged my 4 slices of bacon, 2 slices of bread and 2 huge slices of tomato. <BR> <BR> It ... Tue, 21 Jun 2016 08:58:05 EST Sunny days Flower bed replanted, pulled out the Iris and added in new perennials. Much prettier and will bloom longer. Moved the iris's a little further down the garage line. Required shoveling, spading, bending, dragging the hose out and sweating! LOL. <BR> <BR> Then I came in and got on my bike for 32 minutes. So I feel really good about this morning. I have to clean myself up and go to work in a little bit. 8 Hours there trying to keep moving. <BR> <BR> Yesterday we cut lawn fabric and mulch... Mon, 20 Jun 2016 10:18:29 EST I take you with me. Well I just don't know what to do with myself this morning. It seems like I have been having better luck at weight loss by only exercising a few times a week than every day. <BR> <BR> LUCK. Ha! <BR> <BR> It's a racket I tell you, plain and simple! <BR> <BR> Over that past year I know I have been here for a month, then gone for a few weeks, back again then gone...and so on and so on. During that time my Spark Friends have wandered away. :( I don't blame them I did the same thing. ... Thu, 16 Jun 2016 08:24:13 EST Yesterday I almost gave in to that same voice in my head that always says, "you're having a rotten day, wouldn't FOOD make you feel better?" <BR> <BR> It's been a rough last 7-10 days. My sisters fiancee drowned in a pond. Visiting my sister and then visitation at the funeral home, 5 hour round trips. Eating out twice, sitting around, riding in a car. A few pounds came back on. <BR> <BR> Night before last woke up in the middle of the night and was awake for hours, my mind wandering. KNOWING it was going to facto... Wed, 15 Jun 2016 07:33:49 EST little of this, little of that. Things seem to be going well this past 6 days. I am down about 9 pounds. I started taking metformin and spironolactone for possible PCOS. I have been watching what I eat but I haven't been perfect. I haven't even exercised every day but Im trying to stay active and when I have to walk around at work, to walk faster, get the heart rate up. I have consumed gallons of water. GALLONS. <BR> <BR> I bough bunches of fruits and veggies yesterday. Trying to plan ahead. <BR> <BR> Sad news this m... Wed, 8 Jun 2016 07:58:22 EST June 2, 2016 First day back at it AGAIN. Finished round of dr. appointments and everything is pretty good actually. Today I started metformin and spironolactone for possible pcos. So new beginning. Starting weight 330. Goal for June lose at least 15 pounds. Never been great setting goals. In fact I suck at them. But there it is in writing. *still ignoring cake*. Thu, 2 Jun 2016 12:49:42 EST Update on ME. Fast. Wow at least 3 weeks totally off track. Several days of "I will start over tomorrow". Tomorrow is here. <BR> <BR> Real short blog. I don't want a long drawn out explanation that is totally useless to cut into my *get back at it time*. <BR> <BR> Gained like 11 pounds in the last 3 weeks. I know half of it is water, I feel so sluggish and lack energy. <BR> <BR> Having issues with my feet BIG time. Bone spurs in my ankle and "significant" heel spurs. Major pain at the end of the day, ... Mon, 23 May 2016 08:03:38 EST Sunday! Yesterday did NOT turn into a rest day. I went and rode my bike for 40 minutes because I knew we were having a carry in dinner at work. So the end of the month I am right back where I started at 321. This month though, here I come. It's a day off so I wont get in as many steps probably but I am up, showered, dressed and ready to do SOMETHING even if it is just go get all sweaty again. <BR> <BR> Oh yeah and trying real hard not to think about French Toast. <BR> <BR> Sun, 1 May 2016 09:32:01 EST Friday April 29th. Really contemplating a rest day today or at least put the bike off until after work. Really tired after a week of drinking so much water and endless late night trips to get up and go potty. <BR> <BR> Feeling like an excuse. Struggling! lol I have to be at work at 9 this morning. I have been getting out of the house later and later each morning. I am off at 2 today though so let's see how well I juggle this day. <BR> <BR> I've had a good week. Was really close to tripping up last nigh... Fri, 29 Apr 2016 06:51:55 EST Ohio killings near me. Today's blog has absolutely nothing to do with weight. <BR> <BR> As most of you in the US has probably heard, 8 people were murdered in Ohio a few days ago. I live fairly close to the area where these people died. I know I have seen some of these people, but did not know them. I have friends on facebook that were friends with them. <BR> <BR> When it was first reported it shocked me. Then I followed the news pretty hot and heavy trying to see, like everyone else what in the world, ho... Thu, 28 Apr 2016 08:35:02 EST 3 more days... to make this month count for something. <BR> <BR> The last few months I have started out well and then fallen in the middle and ended right where I started. If I weighed 150 pounds I would be delighted but I don't. I weigh 300+ pounds and that just plain sucks. <BR> <BR> I've had a few Dr appointments and a mammogram since my last blog. Nothing conclusive on Thyroid, cholesterol...feet yet until I see the Dr again in about 2 weeks. The mammogram worried me since I got a look at one of t... Wed, 27 Apr 2016 11:04:05 EST Having a good week. AND having drama. Ok so far I'm having a pretty good week I can not complain. Funny how that happens when you put in the effort and don't sit on your butt eating potato chips huh? <BR> <BR> Update on the lady that called me a "b" day before yesterday. Well yesterday she came back. I was at the window talking to a co-worker and told her I'd had a long day yesterday and what happened and she said, oh I took a phone call from her earlier and it was such a bad connection I could not understand half of what she... Thu, 7 Apr 2016 07:42:39 EST part 2 to day 3 Just thought about this and wanted to share it since I remembered it after reading my part 1 of Day 3 about being a good person. <BR> <BR> Last night I got called a bitch at work by a customer. Let me share the story. <BR> <BR> I work as a pharmacy tech. I was at the drop off window and a lady (I use this term loosely) came to the window and put a bottle on the counter. I said you need a refill...oh this is from (another pharmacy). I looked at the clock and it's after 6:30pm. I told he... Wed, 6 Apr 2016 11:47:58 EST Day 3 I have a late day at work today so I am trying to stay very active this morning and get my steps in. I also have only a 5 hour shift at work which means no lunch break for me. I will get a tiny 15 minute break in there around 7 tonight, which sucks. Too late to eat a lot and go in too early to eat a good dinner. <BR> <BR> Had a not so great breakfast. I opened the fridge door and saw 2 pieces of left over pizza which, honestly...I can not pass up. But I counted the calories, teamed it w... Wed, 6 Apr 2016 11:28:33 EST 2 day roll and trading off So Im on day 2 of a 2 day streak...woo hoo! lol. <BR> <BR> Exercising, logging food and drinking water, check, check, check! <BR> <BR> I even picked up a weight yesterday for a few minutes, I'm smokin! haha. <BR> <BR> Here's today's thought or my issue or struggle or whatever you want to call it. My schedule at work sucks. It's all over the place. For someone that works retail and does this and keeps a clean house I bow to you, you are my hero. <BR> <BR> I work in a retail pharmacy. ... Tue, 5 Apr 2016 09:10:36 EST Just BLAH In the past month I have lost my will. I am barely hanging on by a thread. I joined a 5% challenge but it's all I can do to report my weigh in once a week. I just don't know what's wrong with me I have never felt quite this way. I have only exercised a few times. <BR> <BR> The last time you heard from me I was getting ready to go to a theater and see Jeff Foxworthy and Larry the Cable Guy. I started about 2 months before and lost around 20 pounds. I was SO worried I would not fit in th... Sun, 3 Apr 2016 09:52:13 EST wild ramblings. Today I hit 100 pounds lost. Don't cheer yet. Ive been here before. Ive been here before at least 4 times. I started at 414 today I am 314. I have dipped as low as 292 I think. Then up I go again. <BR> <BR> Here is my struggle. I get comfortable. My clothes fit better. My back is straighter (from strutting...hey I lost 100 pounds right?) HA! I can go in a store and buy clothes. Im ok now right? I feel almost THIN. Yes I said that. I wonder what in the hack 199 pounds would feel... Thu, 10 Mar 2016 08:16:18 EST