SANDIK9806's SparkPeople Blog SANDIK9806's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Uh...Sandi, did you give up? You haven't posted a blog in a while...havent turned to the community thread...thats usually a very bad sign! I told you not to give up dang it! Well, NO I DIDN'T!!! :) I have logged my food each day (even on not so pretty days...need to add more to yesterday tho). I have lost 2.4 lbs in 3 weeks!! I have an amazing accountability buddy too! I have had a few non scale victories - yeah that dress that didn't fit right before and now it does and sleep pants who's drawstring I needed to ti... Sat, 23 Sep 2017 10:16:02 EST Hey you, yeah you - be selfish dang it! Yep, talking to myself again - because when I need real talk with out the fluff, I'll let me have it! <BR> <BR> Today, it's time to get real about being selfish! <BR> <BR> Let's be honest, you aren't doing this for your kids. You aren't doing this for your future grandkids (not the near future, ok J, T?!?). You aren't doing this because, if there is a person out there for you again, you want to be the best for! You are doing this for you. <BR> <BR> You are doing this for you t... Mon, 11 Sep 2017 12:47:56 EST Dear Sandi who wants to quit... Listen just did the math, it's not easier to put on weight then it is to take off! It took you 5 years, 60 months, to put on 38lbs...that's roughly .63lbs a month...when you are losing weight the right way you take off about 3 lbs a month. That means that in 12.5 (ish) months you will take off those 38 lbs...nearly 4 years shorter than the time it took to gain them! Also, chafing sucks...your left butt cheek meeting your thigh is proof...oh and having a friction burn on the left... Tue, 5 Sep 2017 22:27:21 EST Yet another 'It's Time' blog...this one has to stick! I have written so many blogs where I know it's time to change and yet I've only really followed that once...the first time. I really wish I could go back to that me in 2009 and get my mind right...but, alas, I cannot. Instead I must move forward. I've got the menu planned for the week...I've even prepped (ground turkey and eggs are already cooked!)! I am determined to get to the gym today. We have a Y membership but I usually end up going only once a week for a MIXXED fit class and may... Mon, 4 Sep 2017 09:54:06 EST 2017 This is THE year I know, I'm not the only one to say that...hell I've said that about many other years...but this year, I FEEL it. I feel it in every fiber of my being...I haven't had that in nearly 5 years. <BR> <BR> The first week is in the books and I've done remarkably good and with very little effort. <BR> <BR> Ok, so there's a lot of effort in to tracking all my food and ensuring that I have my shopping list ready, etc...but it doesn't feel like work. <BR> <BR> I realized, as of late, that all the ... Sun, 8 Jan 2017 15:01:03 EST Elephants...they suck No, not actual elephants, the ones jumping up and down on my cervix right now! <BR> <BR> I remember back in the day when I used to think girls in high school and even college were nuts when they complained of cramps because I never had them...never had them until after I had my now 8 year, now I can barely function right the first full dumb! I do function...I force myself, but it's very painful and sometimes I just have to sit still for a bit. It interrupts my home li... Sun, 5 Jun 2016 22:41:58 EST June 2, 3 and 4 <img src=""> <img src=""> <img src="">So I worked out on Thursday...went to Zumba at the Y and my right ankle started getting shooting and sharp pains. This happens sometimes when I Zumba at the Y, but this time I couldn't do anything without the pain, so I sto... Sun, 5 Jun 2016 01:19:38 EST June 1st So today starts anew and I feel great...well, tired right now, but that's to be expected, it's past my bedtime and today was CRAZY BUSY at work. On a very happy note I got to see my niece, who currently lives in Germany, as they are back to visit! On top of that I got to meet my newist Grand Niece!!! SO EXCITING! <BR> <BR> Today I granted myself one soda and that's all I have...didn't crave any more, didn't crave any more sugar...did good. <BR> <BR> We did go out to eat because of the go... Wed, 1 Jun 2016 22:59:55 EST It's go time...It's me time...It's about time It's been a LONG TIME! <BR> <BR> I've been gone for quite a while...I would sporadically log food, look at some things, but I never dedicated myself to being back...until now. <BR> <BR> A LOT has happened since I've been gone. On top of knee surgery I've had some pretty painful personal stuff happen...what does that have to do with anything? 25lb weight gain is what that has to do with it! <BR> <BR> Over the last few years I've struggled with things out of my control changing my life..... Tue, 31 May 2016 21:35:53 EST I went back tonight... I went back and read some old blogs tonight. I read how happy I was to be in the 180's then the 170's then size 14 jeans...and so on. <BR> <BR> I needed to remember how far I have come. I am so hard on myself because I'm in the mid 150's again...but I'm not going up, I'm just not going down as quickly as I want to. I am not making the best decisions, I'm not being as diligent as I need to be with tracking food and working out. <BR> <BR> I needed the refresher. I think it worked. Alth... Wed, 1 Apr 2015 20:57:02 EST Update and Carb it for me? First the update... <BR> PT has gone wonderfully. I've been doing jumps off and on boxes, jumps on the ground, stretching to the point I never thought I'd be and I even asked them to help me figure out why I can't remember how to jog! My favorite PT left this last week to go somewhere else and, if it wasn't in a city 45 minutes away, I would have followed him! I only have a few more visits at most so I will's just hard to say goodbye to someone who you trust and who has helped yo... Sun, 3 Aug 2014 09:52:15 EST Realization #5...there will be setbacks Yeah, I should know this as there are usually some sort of set backs with anything... <BR> <BR> I am beginning to realize (maybe this is realization number 6!) that I have this weird issue with not being able to do something when I have made up my mind. <BR> <BR> I am weaning myself off of pain meds...I've only ever taken half a dose and not as often as they told me too because, let's face it, I have an addictive personality (food addiction anyone?!) and I do not want to be addicted to pain... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 07:52:48 EST Finally feeling (somewhat) back to me again... I've had some major emotional mood swings and I hate them...but that's all part of recovery I guess! <BR> <BR> I will say that I am finally feeling (somewhat) back to me again. Since they cracked all the scar tissue in my knee up and I can actually move, even if it involves some sort of ache/pain, I finally feel me. <BR> <BR> I was given the ok to start back to Zumba again!!!!!! Ok, ok, at 25% and I can't do some moves and I can't do full squats (only 1/4 ones, if that), but I can go!! ... Thu, 5 Jun 2014 11:46:56 EST Realization #4...God talks to me in many different ways! I realize I'm the kind of person that needs to be smacked up side the head with something for me to realize it sometimes...but I'm learning! <BR> <BR> I have a great relationship with God. He knows me inside and out and He's there every minute of my life which means He knows every good and bad thing I do...and trust me, I'm totally human so there are some bad things. I talk to God multiple times a day...when something amazing happens I try and remember to thank Him...when my faith in human... Tue, 20 May 2014 09:34:00 EST Realization #3...I FEEL fat again I just realized this one yesterday. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, when I was at the Mud Factor and not participating because of this knee. I was a spectator and a bad one at that. I couldn't even chase my own child to take pictures of him. I didn't have the energy to psych myself up enough to brave much of the spectator ground. I felt trapped...again. <BR> <BR> Today, I feel it again, to the point of tears and some anxiety. I'm stuck in this stupid machine that bends my leg for me and when I ge... Sun, 18 May 2014 14:37:12 EST Realization #2...How I feel is how I look and vice versa This is so true for me! <BR> <BR> Sure, there are days that I just don't care. I throw on some yoga pants, a tshirt, a pony tail (or hat if it's a really lazy day) and don't care! Likely, I'm not in the 'take on the world' frame of mind that day and that's totally ok! What isn't totally ok, for me, is to be this way all the time! <BR> <BR> If I don't have to wear another pair of yoga pants or work out pants again, unless I'm doing yoga or working out, then I am A OK with that!! <BR> <BR... Thu, 15 May 2014 13:15:59 EST Realization #1...I take things for granted! So most of us do take things for granted right? I would like to think it's human nature and not me being shallow. I take for granted that my lights will turn on when I flip the switch or that my clothes will come out dry when I open the hot dryer...but there are times where the light switch doesn't work and the dryer has given all it's got. <BR> <BR> Well, since this surgery, I have realized a ton of things I take for granted. <BR> <BR> First and foremost I take walking for granted! Sure... Thu, 15 May 2014 12:50:53 EST Look who's back...back again Ok, so I'm no rapper...but I am back...ish...did I leave? <BR> <BR> In a nutshell, because if I don't do the nutshell version I will be on here all day and I have a Kindergarten Luau to get to! So, as I was saying, here it is in a nutshell. <BR> <BR> I finally decided to have my knee surgery to fix the tendon that had torn in my knee 21+ years ago. The surgery is not a routine surgery and is far more traumatic then most out there and it is taking forever to recover. The surgery was on Ma... Wed, 14 May 2014 13:27:57 EST Here I am again... I should be sad, I really should...somewhere deep down I know that I am, but what I've been feeling is more excitement... <BR> <BR> See, I'm here again. I'm up about 10lbs from where I want to be, and that's the 'again' part...but that's rather misleading. <BR> <BR> Even with 10 extra pounds, over the last 5 years I have lost and kept off this really isn't again. <BR> <BR> I am back to reminding myself to break the unhealthy habits I develop at the end of each year...I'm back ... Sun, 5 Jan 2014 16:01:43 EST So I've been MIA for 3 months! We have been busy!! <BR> <BR> Summer is a crazy time for us then add in a girls trip to see NKOTB, BoyzIIMen and 98degrees and then a trip to Seattle and summer is even busier. Then, add in the fact that my Mother In Law (MIL) is losing her battle with Cancer and you've got quite a trying time. <BR> <BR> Between the two vacations and the sheer craziness of it all, I have gained 7-10lbs from my maintain range. It really shocked me to see the number on the scale and it was like dipping my ... Mon, 12 Aug 2013 10:35:16 EST Who's an MFer?! Oh yeah, that's me!! It's not what you think, or maybe it is...depends on if you have ever heard of a little thing called the Mud Factor! <BR> <BR> The Mud Factor is a crazy 5K run in the mud with obstacles! Tall obstacles, trenches, lots of upper body strength and balancing stuff...and I did it! <BR> <BR> I haven't been doing the greatest at taking care of myself. I've been doing Zumba but I'm really slacking on giving my body what it needs food I was afraid of how this was all gonna turn out. <BR>... Sun, 5 May 2013 22:15:33 EST Sometimes, I just don't listen! I am stubborn sometimes, or, maybe it's lazy. Either way, when my body tells me things I sometimes don't listen...and man am I paying for it. <BR> <BR> I'm not paying for it in extra pounds (although there are a few) or injuries (knock on wood), instead, I'm sick. <BR> <BR> Let me say, I hate being sick! Other women complain about how their husbands are big babies when they are sick, well, mine is not, but I am! I whine and I whimper and I feel like I've been hit by a bus when I probably... Wed, 17 Apr 2013 07:29:12 EST The cook in me... I had no idea I would ever like to one is more shocked by this than I am!! <BR> <BR> I have had a great time following and adapting recipes, chopping things, mincing things and eating things!! YAY!!! <BR> <BR> I have a lot coming up as far as goals go... <BR> <BR> I want to get in to a size 6 in everything. I am a size 6 in a lot of things...some size 8's would not be acceptable because they would be too baggy...I'm kind of a size 7...that is my ultimate goal for sizes. I woul... Sun, 24 Mar 2013 19:33:35 EST 2 Dress Sizes! I was just reading old blogs on here, just to see where I was at a year ago, when I actually started Zumba, etc. <BR> <BR> I found out that I was about the same weight a year ago as I am now, but I was also 2 dress sizes bigger! Zumba really really works! Essentially, I'm smaller but weigh the same, which means I have more muscle. Yes, having more muscle means I burn more fat at a resting rate, but it also means that things are protected. <BR> <BR> My getting healthy journey started beca... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 17:28:00 EST The dreaded (yet much loved!) weekend! During the week it is so much easier to do things right! There are schedules, routines, time works... <BR> <BR> All work week long I look forward to the weekend (most people do right?!)...and then it hits. <BR> <BR> Friday's start hard because that used to be my 'super cheat' day. I'd eat what ever I wanted and as much as I the point I would make myself sick! I have learned that this just doesn't work, and, I don't like to feel sick. But...Fridays are still hard ... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 14:29:33 EST Let's recap shall we?? I weighed in on Friday with a huge 4lb gain!! I decided I didn't care and ate like poo for the rest of the weekend. <BR> <BR> Sunday I went to Zumba and realized how worn out I was from eating like crap. <BR> <BR> Monday I cut down to one can of diet soda a day (down from the 3-5 I was having) <BR> <BR> Tuesday I got, what I thought was, a bonus Zumba class in. <BR> <BR> Wednesday I tweeked my knee at Zumba for me. <BR> <BR> Thursday I got to work and got a call with a screami... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 07:37:46 EST I am an absolute genius! As I am Zumba-ing today, I notice that it's taking a lot more out of me than normal. Like it had from the last part of October until the first of the year. I haven't stopped going to Zumba (even after the weigh in debacle of Friday) I started thinking about it... <BR> <BR> Well duh!!!! I have put nothing but crap in my body since Thursday night. French Fries, cheese burgers, tater totes, pastries, pizza, onion rings, wonder my body can't keep up! <BR> <BR> I have no idea w... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 19:22:23 EST I've declared this week/weekend a loss... I stepped on the scale on Friday and I gained 4 lbs. FOUR POUNDS... <BR> <BR> Ok, ok, so at about 10 p.m. on Thursday I ate a large amount of nachos and tons of frosting and a cupcake...that could have something to do with it. <BR> <BR> I was pissed...really pissed. I tried not to care but I didn't do a great job, so I did the only thing that ever calms me down...I ate. <BR> <BR> I ate really crappy stuff consistently since that weigh in...granted, I have at half portions, but still...I'm... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 11:44:34 EST Again...I have to eat more... You would think I would have learned!!! <BR> <BR> I am really really bad at figuring in my fitness/calories burned, I don't think I've changed the 'how many calories do you plan on burning' thing since I've started. <BR> <BR> I put it in and holy added 350 calories a day to my nutrition tracker!!! It's been kind of hard to get all those calories in, but I'm trying to in the right way!! <BR> <BR> We will see what the scale says on's probably not going to show ... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 07:10:55 EST I hate stairs... I'm just sayin'...I really really do hate them! <BR> <BR> 30 flights and I can barely walk! Geesh! :) <BR> <BR> Oh well, go that work out in today, that's the important least that's what I'm telling myself! <BR> <BR> Now, to figure out a healthy snack before bed and watch the rest of this game. Not going to lie...kind of sad that football is almost over...less than a month and it's all done better less than 40 days pitchers and catchers report. Mon, 7 Jan 2013 21:39:21 EST Small accomplishment...yes! Just had to share... <BR> <BR> We had a gift card to a great Italian Steakhouse, so we went to supper...guess what?!?! I DIDN'T BLOW IT! :D :D :D <BR> <BR> I ate half of my meal and was wonderfully full...brought the other half home and my husband will eat it later. I remembered what it's like to enjoy great food and not stuff myself so full I am sick! <BR> <BR> Small, yet pretty huge accomplishment! :D <BR> <BR> Make it a great night all! Sat, 5 Jan 2013 20:13:32 EST January 2nd through 4th... January second was not bad...probably just as easy as the first because I was back to work and back in a routine! That always helps. <BR> <BR> I did great tracking my food, getting the right kinds of foods in, etc. I also got to Zumba again!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAY!!!!! <BR> <BR> That night we had ez calzones - a sparkrecipe...super yummy and the kids loved that they got to help make them! In the middle of supper I got a call from my husband (via a teammates phone) that his wallet and phone ... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 15:40:52 EST January 1st...redo day 1 Day one of redo wasn't horrible...I think I was phantom hungry sometimes...meaning not really hungry but wanted to eat. I didn't eat though. I drank some water and got busy doing something. <BR> <BR> I stayed in my calorie range, I planned out meals for today and I did a ten minute work out...which kicked my tail. 10 minutes!!! That's scary, I have a 45 minute Zumba class tonight...this should be interesting. <BR> <BR> So yesterday started with 148lbs on the scale...not pretty pictures... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 07:11:17 EST So it starts! Weigh in was bad...148lbs bad! I haven't seen that weight in nearly a here we go. <BR> <BR> I should blog at the end of the day, to recap how I've done and what is working, so I will...but I wanted to blog this now so I don't forget. <BR> <BR> I don't like that number, I don't like my belly (not gonna lie, I do like having some of my girls back, but that's one of the trade offs I guess) and I do NOT like feeling like I want to throw up at night from eating like crap. So, I'm sta... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 10:36:14 EST It's 2013...what that means... That means that 2012 is officially gone and we survived...even lived! <BR> <BR> 2012 was a good year, although I'm not sure where it went! Life in general was good to us...2013 is sure to be even better! <BR> <BR> See, life is going to happen, the good, the bad, the amazing, the ugly, the sorry, the joy, etc. etc. But I've learned that, what comes out of all of those times is the lessons and the blessings we get from them. So, I'm ready. <BR> <BR> I'm happy that I have more time wit... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 01:19:55 EST It's Christmas Eve Night and All Through The House... The Mikeys are watching Shrek 3 and I'm online! <BR> <BR> The day started with a great Christmas celebration at my in-laws. Then it was off to drop the older two kiddos off with their dad as he has them tonight and for the morning tomorrow. My husband, my three kids, my ex, his girlfriends 2 kids and I all ate lunch together and it was a good time! No shock, we have a very functional non traditional family-it works for us almost all the time. Then, we came home, played with some of the n... Mon, 24 Dec 2012 21:59:42 EST It's Official...My back is jacked again... and, it's my fault. On top of giving myself the ok to eat like crap, I've also stopped working out much at all... <BR> <BR> I've got it all...fatigue, skin that isn't as happy, pants that don't fit as know how it goes. <BR> <BR> Over the last few weeks my back has been slowly getting bad again. When I first felt it I started exercises right away but let it taper off when it felt better...the last few days, it's back with a vengeance! <BR> <BR> Before 4 years ago, I would hav... Sun, 16 Dec 2012 10:04:34 EST It's been a while...Jamaica was amazing It's that time of year...where there are so many things going on in my life I find myself coming and going. <BR> <BR> Jamaica was amazing...even hurricane Sandy wasn't bad, for us. Just one full day of gloomy and constant wind, but we got off lucky compared to those on the East Coast...thoughts and prayers are still with them. <BR> <BR> I gained 8 lbs on vacation, took it off and have put on and took off a steady 5 lbs a week since. Lots of celebrations this time of year, I've cut way bac... Tue, 27 Nov 2012 06:55:27 EST ummm guess who's... 1.4 lbs away from her goal weight... <BR> <BR> ME! ME! ME! ME!!!!!! <BR> <BR> Weigh in this morning...137.4! <BR> <BR> YAYAYAYAY! Fri, 28 Sep 2012 07:01:45 EST I finally did it!!! I broke in to the 130's!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> 139.2!!! 139.2!!!! 139.2!!!!! <BR> <BR> YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!! <BR> <BR> That is pretty much all I've got today! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!! Fri, 21 Sep 2012 07:12:29 EST blogging while biking I apologize now, this blog may be sloppy because I'm blogging while biking at the YMCA. I have been biking every morning that I don't Zumba at night. So far, this is a pattern I cam keep up!! <BR> <BR> That's what I always preach...find something you like and can keep doing for the rest of my life, or forseeable future....but I wasn't following up all the way... <BR> <BR> We, my husband and I, were in the pattern of eating good during the week, then binging on the weekends. I was gaining... Thu, 20 Sep 2012 06:25:58 EST Back again! Hey there!!! <BR> <BR> I have been MIA for a while, simply because of time. I've started going to the gym in the mornings a few days a week (on top of my Zumba) and then the other days I have slept that means I haven't been blogging. I have been tracking my nutrition though and it has helped. <BR> <BR> I joined a lose 5lbs by Labor day challenge and that didn't happen, but I did lose the 2.8lbs I put I'm happy I'm back at 140.0!! <BR> <BR> I'm telling ya, stress is wors... Fri, 31 Aug 2012 06:59:00 EST Just checking in... Today is my hubby's birthday!!!! He not only is the most amazing and hot husband...he's also my favorite number now! :D <BR> <BR> Know what he wants for supper? Turkey burgers! Ok, so he's trying to shape up too, so that's what he picked for tonights yay!! <BR> <BR> I don't get to Zumba today because I have to pick up my daughter from volleyball practice because her dads car, I will have to figure out another way to get movement in...hubby loves to go around the la... Tue, 21 Aug 2012 07:20:25 EST I gained the 2.6lbs I lost and joined a challenge This weekend I gained back the 2.5lbs I lost last week...go figure. I knew it was coming though. <BR> <BR> I also joined a challenge...lose 5lbs by Labor Day...FIVE lbs!! At this stage in my game that's a lot!!! <BR> <BR> So, I'm starting out at 142.8 (I think :) )...that means I need to break in to the 130's by Labor Day. The goal of the 130's has been alluding me for a while now and now I need to be at 137.8...YIKES! I'll give it my best effort and see where I'm at! <BR> <BR> We did ... Sun, 19 Aug 2012 22:39:29 EST 140.2 How'd I pull that off?! I was at 143.6 last Friday, I did weigh myself on Sunday to see what damage I did over the weekend and I had actually lost almost a pound - 142.8. <BR> <BR> I did stay in my nutritional ranges this week, but mid to high some of the week. I also had a soda a day except for Wednesday and Thursday...the point? I was pretty sure that I would not lose at all or very little. <BR> <BR> Imagine my surprise when I stepped on the scale and was at 140.2!!! I'll take it, but how I got there, I don't... Fri, 17 Aug 2012 07:34:25 EST A loss...barely Ok, ok...I know... <BR> <BR> I only ate with in my nutrition range 4 days this week AND I skipped Zumba twice and one of my other efforts was barely an effort at knew it wouldn't be great on the scale today. <BR> <BR> I guess I should be happy that I lost at all. I did close out last week with a bang! I binged all the way through Sunday and I did it BIG! So, I guess, I'm excited for any loss. <BR> <BR> I'm at 143.6...that hasn't been a 'normal' weight for me in some time. It's... Fri, 10 Aug 2012 06:50:13 EST 2.6lbs up I knew it would be a gain this week, that was a no brainer...I'm kind of surprised it was only 2.6lbs...funny how easy it is to put on. <BR> <BR> Monday is the day, I'll jump back off that bandwagon of eating bad and back on solid ground of good for me stuff, that tastes yummy too! :D <BR> <BR> Hope you all make it an amazing Friday! Fri, 3 Aug 2012 07:06:37 EST My pants are body is sore So, I blew it yesterday too...this seems to be the story of my week, so I've accepted that. Today is the first morning this week I haven't woke up craving a soda, that's a start. <BR> <BR> I know how this works, I know what this week is, I know the elephants are growing this week and are wanting everything in sight...Friday's weigh in is still going to suck. I know this. It's not going to be a big relief if I don't gain weight this week because my pants are tight, which is probably from t... Wed, 1 Aug 2012 07:00:33 EST Quick blog time... I have to go wake up my not so baby boy in a few minutes and I still need to log my food...but blogging seems appropriate. <BR> <BR> I have completely jumped on the drinking a soda a day bandwagon, sometimes more than one...darn it, detox is going to be horrible...and, even as I write this, I know I'm not going to stop drinking soda until next Monday. <BR> <BR> Here's my plan...I will stay in my nutrition range (ish, I have been not so great this week) and then, after this weekend, jump o... Tue, 31 Jul 2012 07:02:03 EST Quick blog time... I have to go wake up my not so baby boy in a few minutes and I still need to log my food...but blogging seems appropriate. <BR> <BR> I have completely jumped on the drinking a soda a day bandwagon, sometimes more than one...darn it, detox is going to be horrible...and, even as I write this, I know I'm not going to stop drinking soda until next Monday. <BR> <BR> Here's my plan...I will stay in my nutrition range (ish, I have been not so great this week) and then, after this weekend, jump o... Tue, 31 Jul 2012 07:02:03 EST