SANDICANE's SparkPeople Blog SANDICANE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community First Ride Today was the first boat ride of the nice...even the rain that fell on us while on the river couldn't dampen my spirits. Today the 2nd boat ride happened as well...DH took GS and friend and her GS and me out this evening. <BR> <BR> What a nice day. Wed, 9 Jul 2014 21:27:21 EST Another pound I've been reading a bit about binges lately...never thinking they were my problem...but they ARE! Gosh, 58 years old and just figuring that out!!! Better late than never. <BR> <BR> Anyway, I'm down another pound this onward I go to more healthy eating. Mon, 7 Jul 2014 07:07:37 EST Grilled cauliflower...yum I've heard about grilled cauliflower. I heard it doesn't taste like cauliflower. I've heard it's really yummy. I've heard it's amazing. <BR> <BR> Well, I finally made some for lunch today and everything I heard was CORRECT! Oh my, it certainly was yum. Brushed with a bit of olive oil and sprinkled with salt and pepper then grilled...oh my...delish and filling too! Thu, 3 Jul 2014 15:04:14 EST Thursday night Last night was my friend Ana's daughter's graduation from high school. When Ana was diagnosed, it was the one thing she wanted to make it to...her daughter's graduation. What a bittersweet night it was as her daughter received numerous awards including 3 scholarships. oh oh oh Ana would have been SO proud. Fri, 27 Jun 2014 12:51:39 EST New skill I'm a good worker. I'm a REALLY good worker. Time to cultivate other skills. Tue, 24 Jun 2014 09:14:22 EST 5 lbs down. I'm 5 lbs down...2 lbs this past week. I will build on my successes and learn from my non-successes. Mon, 23 Jun 2014 07:45:53 EST dr oz In my newspaper yesterday there were 6 tips for weight loss from dr. oz. One of which was calories are the most important part of weight loss. <BR> <BR> Sat, 21 Jun 2014 08:29:30 EST NEVER I won't take friends for granted...ever. The in-person ones are great. The on-the-phone ones are great. The on-line ones are great. The walking ones are great. The cooking ones are great. <BR> <BR> They all make a difference in my life... Thu, 19 Jun 2014 11:20:44 EST Back to the garden Well, gardening certainly makes us tired enough to sleep, so onward I go to tackle my front flower bed. <BR> <BR> Wed, 18 Jun 2014 08:56:05 EST Healing I'm off to "heal" in my garden again....cheers to all. Tue, 17 Jun 2014 09:05:33 EST good start egg, kale and coffee without sugar for breakast...gardening day today. It's a start. Mon, 16 Jun 2014 11:00:58 EST oh I'm back again. What a long series of unfortunate events 2014 has brought to me. Well, it's time to pick up the pieces and start to smile again. I can't thank my SparkFriends enough for their loving support over the past few broken heart is very grateful to you all. <BR> <BR> My body is asking for lean protein and lots of green veggies, and my brain seems to have stopped screaming for carbs and sweets, so tomorrow I'll begin anew. <BR> <BR> Blessings to you all, <BR> Sandi Sun, 15 Jun 2014 10:25:25 EST Gone already Those little arms are gone already, but they sure felt good while they were here. <BR> <BR> Gonna do a bit of work today and then gonna read and rest...and breathe. Sun, 1 Jun 2014 08:03:02 EST Coming today Three year old grandson coming for a visit today. I can hardly wait to feel those little arms around my neck... Sat, 31 May 2014 08:20:27 EST Walk Went for a 45 minute walk this morning with a friend. It's the first walk since I hurt my leg on January 31st. How lovely it was to get out into the fresh air and do the activity I love so much!!! Fri, 30 May 2014 10:25:02 EST Funeral today Having Ana's family here yesterday for dinner was like having my own family here. They ate, they thanked, they laughed and they insisted on cleaning up. Yes, it was good to be able to do something for them b/c in situations like this, we all feel so helpless. If love could stop cancer, Ana would still be alive and healthy. I've said goodbye to Ana many times over the past 2 weeks but today I'll listen to her family say goodbye and we'll all cry together again at the loss of ... Thu, 29 May 2014 06:00:52 EST Visitation today Visitation is today. Ana's family of 30+ are coming to my home in between visitations. It'll be nice to see them...wish it wasn't under these circumstances. Wed, 28 May 2014 07:00:02 EST Day 29 No words... Mon, 26 May 2014 09:21:10 EST Day 27 On Friday, May 23rd around 7:15 p.m., the world lost a beautiful, kind, caring, thoughtful person. My friend Ana is gone. She was 51. She had wanted to live long enough to see her daughter graduate from high school, which will be on June 26th but she couldn't stand the pain long enough to make it. That terrible disease we call cancer stormed her body, ravaged it and took her away. <BR> <BR> So very sad. Sat, 24 May 2014 00:47:22 EST Day 25 Yesterday I just wanted to eat sweets. I know sweets won't make ANYTHING better, but I ate some anyway. Today, I'm not hungry at all. Strange the way emotions affect eating differently. Thu, 22 May 2014 07:23:31 EST Day 23 No desserts again today. <BR> My friend wants me to start walking with her again...I said we'd try Thursday. <BR> <BR> Today "Nana duty" and "friend duty" calls...but no overeating for me and NO DESSERTS! Tue, 20 May 2014 07:38:35 EST Day 22 no words words. Mon, 19 May 2014 11:00:08 EST Day 21 WHEN??? When will I accept my food addiction? A little bit of dessert leads to more dessert, leads to more weight gain, or no weight loss. A little bit of sweet, leads to a lot more! <BR> <BR> When am I going to accept this? <BR> <BR> Sun, 18 May 2014 07:33:03 EST Day 20 Onward I go... <BR> Onward I go... <BR> Sat, 17 May 2014 12:24:00 EST Day 19 Today is day 19. I can't believe it has been almost 3 weeks that I've been back on track. At this point I wonder why I didn't start before this, and then tell myself not to go there...just do it now. <BR> <BR> So here's to a quietly "on-plan" day. <BR> Fri, 16 May 2014 08:31:48 EST Day 18 It was an ok day...I'm ready for bed...I'm ready for bed. Thu, 15 May 2014 21:24:01 EST Day 17 All meals are planned. Again, I'm going to stair climb before breakfast. Even if I don't succeed in getting a grip on my emotions, I will not let them rule my eating today. Wed, 14 May 2014 08:21:50 EST Day 16 Quietly ready to climb the stairs before breakfast....quietly going on. Tue, 13 May 2014 10:00:54 EST Day 15 I am quietly ready for day 15. <BR> <BR> As a Nana now, I didn't think I would ever wake up on Mother's Day to a little one in the house again. But my daughter allowed her 3 year old son to sleep over Saturday night, so we watched cartoons before we had our favourite breakfast of french toast with fruit. <BR> <BR> He's gone home now, but the glow is still here. <BR> <BR> I'm going to climb my stairs before breakfast and onward I go to a good day. Mon, 12 May 2014 06:53:37 EST Day 14 - Mother's Day Happy Mother's Day to all. <BR> <BR> I'm planning to celebrate by being happy and grateful for my family. Sun, 11 May 2014 08:48:51 EST Day 13 Life threw me a curve or 2 or 3 yesterday. I did high fat sugary foods...just too much and waaaaaaaaaaaaaay too many carbs for my body. <BR> <BR> This may sound like an excuse, but it's's just a fact...I give myself a "by" for yesterday... There were no other choices to be made...I am not perfect. <BR> <BR> Today is a new day. <BR> <BR> Sat, 10 May 2014 09:09:12 EST Day 12 I'm ready for day 12. No extra calories, NO over eating today. I will also hold my emotions close today. Fri, 9 May 2014 05:03:24 EST Day 11 I am quietly ready for day 11. I'm serving at a luncheon today and will eat NO SWEETS. Today I choose not to eat any sweets. Thu, 8 May 2014 08:01:58 EST Day 10 Quietly ready for day 10...on-plan chocolate...calling the doctor... <BR> <BR> Wed, 7 May 2014 07:54:44 EST Day 9 I'm quietly ready for another good eating day and my first stair climb since I wrecked my ankle on Jan 31st. Tue, 6 May 2014 07:20:24 EST Day 8 I am quietly ready for day 8. It's Monday and I'm down 3 lbs from my start day, but I will not celebrate that fact, nor bemoan the fact it isn't more. I will accept what is and am quietly ready to go through today. Mon, 5 May 2014 06:51:49 EST Day 7 What a nice day today. Went to church, heard a really good message about being kind to fellow human beings, worked a bit, sat on the dock, had a nice visit with an old friend, and had a good eating day.... <BR> <BR> Really, what more can I ask for....nothing.... Sun, 4 May 2014 21:57:04 EST Day 6 Today was my "not so strict" eating day. Tomorrow, back to being back. <BR> <BR> Sat, 3 May 2014 21:12:14 EST Oh it was a day Oh it was a day. <BR> <BR> Today I drove a friend to a cancer hospital in Toronto and she had a tough day....a really tough day...I'm tired, but I was numb all day and am still numb. <BR> <BR> <BR> That's all I can say. <BR> <BR> Sandi Fri, 2 May 2014 21:22:22 EST Day 4 Nice sleep last night...looking forward to a quietly successful day 4. Thu, 1 May 2014 06:53:22 EST It was... It was a tough, anxiety filled night, but I made it through and am ready for a quietly good healthy eating day today, Day 3. <BR> <BR> Wed, 30 Apr 2014 06:47:10 EST Day 2 I stayed in bed all night.... <BR> I didn't eat.... <BR> I'm ready for a quietly successful day 2. <BR> Tue, 29 Apr 2014 07:37:48 EST Day 1 - again. It's day one...again. My phrase and focus for the day is "quiet vigilance". Mon, 28 Apr 2014 10:37:46 EST Tomorrow I renew my efforts I've fallen. Winter was a series of unfortunate events for me. Jan 31st I missed the last step in a flight of stairs and suffered a high ankle sprain. I spent 3.5 weeks living day and night in our lazyboy chair. I was finally able to sleep in a bed and slept on the main floor for another 3 weeks. Then came the abscessed tooth....which had to be removed, after which the entire left side of my head swelled up for a week. Then came the sinus and bronchial infection. To say I turned to foo... Sun, 27 Apr 2014 08:55:32 EST Tonight I'm tired Tonight I'm tired...tired of everything...tired. REALLY tired of this weight tired. <BR> <BR> I'm supposed to bake a cake for my SIL's birthday, but if I do it tonight, I also believe I will eat it all. <BR> <BR> So, I'm gonna do the smart thing and go to bed now. Tomorrow I will purchase a cake and make sure she takes the left overs home. <BR> <BR> SparkFriends...please send strength...I'm in need of strength... Thu, 22 Aug 2013 21:53:51 EST Quite the 2nd day Time for BED!!!! Tue, 20 Aug 2013 21:44:53 EST Quite the day It was quite the day...time for bed... Mon, 19 Aug 2013 22:54:30 EST Day 10 Gotta thank all me SparkFriends for their comments and suggestions. I want to be a 5% er sooooooooooooo's really hard to fall down. But, onward I go...onward I go....if I never give up, I will be a 5% er.... <BR> <BR> Exercise: house cleaning; gardening <BR> <BR> Food: breakfast: grapes from my garden Lunch: tomato/basil salad with chick black beans Supper: Steak, cucumber salad and sweet potato. <BR> <BR> Weight: 145 Thu, 15 Aug 2013 09:21:28 EST Day 9...just when I think I've got it alllllll together.... Oh gosh...I've been so good. I've learned so much, I have community, I have success, I have desire. So why with all these things would I have a binge???? It's a good thing to think about and learn from in an effort for it to re-occur as infrequently as possible... <BR> <BR> Exercise: Stairs <BR> Food: Breakfast: eggs, feta and kale. Lunch Tomato/basil salad. Supper: Tilapia boiled new potatoes and salad (not taco) <BR> <BR> Weight: 147 <BR> <BR> p.s. After I wrote the blog abo... Tue, 13 Aug 2013 07:06:13 EST Day 7 Oh what a day...I'm pooped...I love gardening but tonight my back is saying "you overdid it today"!!! <BR> <BR> Anyway, I had a good eating day <BR> <BR> Weight was 145 this morning. Mon, 12 Aug 2013 22:43:36 EST