SANDICANE's SparkPeople Blog SANDICANE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Beck Day 12 Today Beck wants us to learn a tolerance for hunger. She says that without this key element, weight loss and weight maintenance are very difficult. I concur. <BR> <BR> I wasn't being very successful in my journey to get back to goal weight, until Steve Siebold pointed this out in his 21 day free program at Yes, that information was a key turning point. Once I learned that my hunger wouldn't kill me and that most thin people experience numerous feelings of hunger daily, wi... Sat, 25 Oct 2014 07:47:02 EST Beck Day 11 Beck wants me to determine the difference between hunger, desire and cravings. My brain is screaming "it doesn't matter"! If I'm trusting the process (and I am) then apparently it does, so I'm going to work on figuring out which of my feelings is which. <BR> <BR> In order to get back down to my goal weight, I have learned to make hunger my friend. I have embraced hunger, welcomed hunger, withstood hunger and slept with hunger. I'm not afraid of hunger any more and I never will be. It'... Fri, 24 Oct 2014 06:47:04 EST Beck Day 10 Oh yes, this is my 2nd blog of the day...the first was to announce that as of this morning I'm back at my goal weight. Now, I'm going forward to continue to work on the rest of my life with maintenance. <BR> <BR> Beck Day 10 is Set a Realistic Goal. Of course Beck is talking about weight loss but since this program came into my life when I was almost back at my goal weight, after yo yo-ing for my entire life, for me the goal is forever. <BR> <BR> In one way "the rest of my life" does... Thu, 23 Oct 2014 08:19:41 EST Back to Goal Weight as of Today I interrupt my Beck blogs to announce that as of this morning, I'm back to my goal weight. There will be no celebration at my house. No cake. No candles. No going out for dinner. Not even a celebratory sandwich!!! <BR> <BR> But there is some relief as this time seemed exceptionally hard to get the weight off, which is why I am so grateful Beck, Watermellen, Icedemeter and all you SparkFriends have come into my life. Now I'm on to uncharted territory...MAINTAINING! But honestly Spark... Thu, 23 Oct 2014 06:56:48 EST Beck Day 9 Today Beck urges me to select an exercise plan, so I have. Years ago a personal trainer set up a very quick, very effective strength training program for me, to be used in 10 minutes every morning (then before work). In the past, every time I reached goal weight I stopped doing them. In my current journey to get back to goal weight, I haven't included now I will. In addition, for the winter I'll walk 3 hours a week, preferrably outdoors, but on our treadmill if weather dictates.... Wed, 22 Oct 2014 07:24:26 EST Beck Day 8 Today's focus is about making time in our lives for dieting. Yep, time to plan meals, time to purchase healthy foods, time to prepare those foods, and time to eat those foods (slowly and sitting down). <BR> <BR> I'm retired. Yes, I have a wanna do "3 lifetimes long" and growing, but I have time. And, I do make time. I am 1 lb from goal weight this morning so I have made time...time for it all. The interesting thing about today's task, is me relating it to maintenance. As a life-long yo... Tue, 21 Oct 2014 04:33:21 EST Beck Day 7 Yesterday was our family thanksgiving dinner. When I take the time to "pre-plan" exactly what I will eat in in what quantity...things go very well. So too did yesterday. I had been thinking about appetizers, which I was going to choose not to eat, and lo and behold...they didn't serve any! The universe was on my side! And all the choices and quanities went well....good for me. Good for me. There was even very little obsession in my brain about having 2nds...that was nice too. <BR> <BR... Mon, 20 Oct 2014 09:31:35 EST Beck Day 6 I did a good job of sitting down to eat yesterday. <BR> I did a good job exercising. <BR> I did a good job making healthy food choices. <BR> I did a good job eating slowly (but I always do, but still, I do it well!!!) :-) <BR> The universe has rewarded my efforts toward health and freedom from obsession with food by sending me a FABULOUS Coach!!! <BR> <BR> I'm soooooooooooooo grateful. <BR> I'm soooooooooooooo very, very grateful. Sun, 19 Oct 2014 08:44:43 EST Borrowed the book from the library So, I'm following Watermellen along while she re-does The Beck Diet Solution...just to solidify her knowledge. She's blogging daily and today is day 5. Wasn't going to bother getting the book, but decided this morning that if one of my local libraries had it, then I'd borrow it. The 2nd library did, so I'm off to read after I: <BR> -re-affirmed why I want to lose weight and keep it off forever Day 1 <BR> -solidified my eating program Day 2 <BR> - ate sitting down Day 3 <BR> -ate sitting d... Sat, 18 Oct 2014 13:27:16 EST The scales are up...and I'm dealing with it. My DH has been getting on the scales each morning lately too. Yesterday he noticed the needle (no we don't have a digital scale) was quite a bit below zero before he got on, so he adjusted it. OH OH OH! <BR> <BR> I've been eating saltier foods than normal, so OH OH OH! <BR> <BR> And, you know how when you put food into your body, it's supposed to come out of your body? Well, it's not for the past 3 days I've increasing my fibre. OH OH OH! <BR> <BR> All those OH's trans... Wed, 15 Oct 2014 08:53:48 EST Today is Thanksgiving...and I'm thankful! Today I am thankful for having lost 27 of my 31 re-gained pounds. <BR> Today is thanksgiving dinner at my house. I am not worried about what I'll eat at all. I've cooked carbs, carbs and more carbs for all those in the family who choose to eat them. <BR> I have "pre-chosen" what I will eat. I've given no thought at all to what I will NOT eat...only to what I WILL eat and in what quantities. <BR> <BR> This is how I handle going out to eat as well...I pre-choose my dinner and think ab... Mon, 13 Oct 2014 14:13:38 EST SMILING Wednesday What a great morning this is! The sun is shining. All the kale from my garden is safely tucked into my freezer along with the last of the green beans, pumpkin for winter pumpkin custard, and tomatos for winter chili-making! <BR> <BR> Life is! Wed, 8 Oct 2014 07:56:27 EST Morning "Wanna Do" list Recently I've adopted the practise of making a morning "Wanna Do" list. This is not to be confused with the "To Do" list I used to make myself every morning before I retired. This truly are "wanna do" things. They may appear that way to an outsider (e.g. paint the hardware, cook pumpkin, exercise) but they are. I find that in retirement, way often leads on to way so my "wanna do" list keeps me going in the direction I truly want to go. <BR> <BR> I'm 2 lbs from goal now, so on my "wanna d... Tue, 7 Oct 2014 07:38:39 EST I will NOT stop! I had hoped to be back at my goal weight by my birthday. Nope. <BR> I had hoped to be back at my goal weight by the end of September. Nope. <BR> I had hoped to be back at my goal weight by Thanksgiving. It realistically can't happen. <BR> <BR> So, this morning, being 2 lbs from being back at my goal weight, I reset the time frame to be there by Halloween. If it happens, great. If not...I will not stop until I'm there. <BR> <BR> And then, I will NOT stop! Onward I go.... Sat, 4 Oct 2014 07:50:27 EST Why? Oh I was going along so nicely...4 lbs from goal, and then it happened...I started eating more than I want to. Nope, no pig out! Nope, no crazy-out-of-control mowing down on food. Just more food and different food than I would like to be eating to get me back to goal weight. Well, perhaps I needed a wee break? Perhaps I fear getting to goal and what will happen after that? I'm not sure. <BR> <BR> What I do know is that I will eat another piece of french toast for breakfast with my 3 ye... Sat, 27 Sep 2014 20:54:54 EST The home stretch I'm on the home stretch now. 6 lbs to go to goal. Don't know how long it will take me to get there, but whenever it is, I'm not looking forward to pizza, pop, donuts, cake, cookies or any other sickly sweet stuff this time. <BR> <BR> This time: <BR> I'm looking forward to continuing to exercise. <BR> I'm looking forward to building some more muscle. <BR> I'm looking forward to spending the time to determine how many calories/carbs I can eat per day and maintain my weight. <BR> I'm looking ... Wed, 17 Sep 2014 20:20:27 EST Get rid of my skinny jeans????!!!! Gee, there was a SP article this morning about 5 reasons why I should get rid of my skinny jeans. HELL NO! Wanting to fit back into my goal-sized skinny jeans is my #1 reason for wanting to get back to my goal weight!!! Gosh, I got all new clothes last year...wonderful, wonderful clothes and now I want to fit back into them FOREVER! <BR> <BR> It's my plan. That's what my "on-plan" eating is all about. We each gotta do what works for us...this works for me. I even put them on yesterday ... Sat, 13 Sep 2014 07:13:32 EST Getting restless and getting real. Fall is here...I'm getting restless. I notice there are things I'm REALLY not happy about. This is sooooooo silly. I mean really, if I can do something about them, I should do it if it's important enough to me to complain about (even if it's just in my own head)!!! <BR> <BR> If I can't do anything about it...well, what the heck! What a waste of time and energy to complain about (even if it's just in my own head) things I have no control over. <BR> <BR> So, I miss my friend Ana. Time to... Thu, 11 Sep 2014 18:35:02 EST Cake or no cake? That is the question. Ok, so I've been on a pretty good go of weight loss. It's slow, but steady. My birthday is Saturday and I've been thinking about having a cake or not having a cake. Hmmmmmmmm. Last year my birthday cake was so yummy that it started me on a binge that ended this summer and 31 pounds up. <BR> <BR> So I'm thinking my possible "good" choices are: <BR> a) a cake I don't like <BR> b) some other desserty thing that isn't cake <BR> c) cupcakes with my commitment to throw away any that are left a... Thu, 4 Sep 2014 09:06:21 EST My head is changing The scales are not the only thing that is changing in my head is too. Today I'm 9 lbs from goal. My DD, SIL and littlest GS were here for 2 days. Yes, I cooked food. Yes, I ate food. <BR> <BR> But, the biggest difference is that FOOD was not the focus. Yes, I said that...FOOD was not the focus in MY head. It's a place I've waited all my life to be. Don't know how long I'll be in this place but I have no expectations. Just enjoying the moment, enjoying the freedom, enjoyin... Mon, 1 Sep 2014 09:57:43 EST No wonder we can't say no and keep coming back for more!!!! Some people know I have recently adopted the habit of pre-planning my food intake, especially when I'm going out to eat. At home is not so much of a problem b/c my home is fairly "clean" of foods I would consider unhealthy choices. <BR> <BR> Well, yesterday as I was surfing the net, I found this article, even though it was written March 2013. It's an eye-opener and the info in it makes me feel angry at the food industry. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>-engineere... Fri, 29 Aug 2014 04:30:26 EST Taking life in stride. Just received a phone call that oldest GS is not coming today. I had been looking forward to seeing him, playing with him, swimming with him, taking him out on the boat. His momma cancels me A LOT so even though I had been looking forward to these things, I knew in the back of my mind that they might not happen. And now I know they won't. So, I'm planning a good day doing other things (or maybe the same things) with other people. <BR> <BR> All is well. <BR> <BR> Oh yes and the scales sa... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 08:28:06 EST That Monday Morning Smile Last night's going to bed with a smile translated to greeting the scale with a smile this morning. Yep, I'm down 2 pounds from last Monday and am now 11 lbs from goal. <BR> <BR> Onward I go friends...onward I go.... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 08:09:52 EST Another weekend VICTORY! Yep, tomorrow is weigh in day. Whether I'm up, or whether I'm down, having Monday's as weigh in days is the #1 reason for on-plan weekends. <BR> <BR> We had company alllllllllllllllllllllllllllll weekend long! Lots of fun, lots of family, lots of kids, lots of activity and all on-plan eating for me. Why? b/c I could picture the scales between my toes on Monday morning. Yep, all weekend long...when they were eating pasta salad, chips, cookies, ice cream sandwiches...I could picture the s... Sun, 24 Aug 2014 21:24:39 EST OH GOODNESS!!! Oh goodness, one VERY VERY VERY BUSY weekend in almost here! I must remember to breathe, eat ON-PLAN, and do some exercise if the company hasn't kept me busy enough!!! <BR> <BR> Oh yes and, I'm going to try pressure canning for the first time in my life! I have my new pressure canner still in the box, with instructions waiting for me to read them. Wish me luck! <BR> <BR> Thu, 21 Aug 2014 15:55:19 EST 19 lbs gone, 12 lbs to go. Yes, it's true. 19 lbs gone...12 lbs to go. The most interesting thing to me about this is I do not feel that the end is 12 lbs away. I'm not looking forward to mowing down on cake, cookies, tarts, breads or any of those other things I tend to "take back too quickly" when I get to goal. <BR> <BR> Nope, not this time. I'm not excited about being 12 lbs from goal...this time the future looks seamless. Weight loss phase will blend into maintenance life by adding a bit more volume of the he... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 07:14:53 EST Monday Weigh In's (again) Quite soon after I set Monday as my weigh-in day, I noticed what a difference it made to my weekend eating. Weekends are traditionally the time when we eat for and with fellowship of friends and equate eating with fun. <BR> <BR> With having Monday's as weigh in day, I don't even entertain the idea of over-eating or eating for fun b/c I really do want to be able to see the scales down on Monday. That's my get back to goal and stay there. <BR> <BR> But who knew that such a simp... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 08:59:15 EST EXPECTATIONS!!! Oh, my darn expectations can make me or break me. Better to expect nothing, then when something's a gift. I believe this goes along with mental toughness. Developing the ability not to expect takes mental toughness and practise. <BR> <BR> Anyone else have an opinion on expectations?????? Thu, 14 Aug 2014 16:48:34 EST Interval Yesterday I started interval training....yep, me! <BR> <BR> I LOVE it! I LOVE LOVE LOVE it! <BR> <BR> Tue, 12 Aug 2014 13:00:59 EST Monday morning...weigh in day I was down 1.5 lbs this morning over last week. It's my reward for having made good "on-plan" choices all week. Now, having said that, I am fully prepared that one Monday morning the scales will not reflect my efforts of the previous week, and that will be ok. I will go onward with my "on-plan" choices b/c they are my CHOICES! <BR> <BR> When I'm feeling like not much is happening, it's good for me to notice I've lost 12 lbs in the last 8 weeks. It's my CHOICE! <BR> <BR> As for some ot... Mon, 11 Aug 2014 06:24:55 EST Family pool party/bbq over Well, it's all over. Gosh, just imagine not having any home made cookies, nor dessert. Just imaging no snacks in the chips, no dip. Can you imagine it? I can...I lived was FABULOUS! Tonight I want to shout to the world: I DID IT! I WON! I PUT ME FIRST! <BR> <BR> (I'm pooped...) Sun, 10 Aug 2014 21:30:41 EST Stunned Today, I am stunned. New knowledge has brought a pondering of my life...and I am stunned. Sat, 9 Aug 2014 08:45:25 EST Grateful Today I'm grateful for not having not overeaten once in the past week. <BR> I'm grateful that friends and family who had "proceedures" are all doing well. <BR> I'm grateful for SP and SparkFriends. <BR> I'm grateful that my new dress will soon fit perfectly. <BR> <BR> Happy day to one and all!!!! Fri, 8 Aug 2014 08:34:56 EST I could write forever... This morning I could write forever on my blog, but DH has left town for a few hours so gotta go get some "me" time! <BR> <BR> Yesterday on Dr. Oz, he did a segment on diet pop and how now it's been proven how bad it is for us. Yes, apparently it increases the risk of heart attack, stroke, increases belly fat, and increases the risk of sudden death. And, all that with just a couple of cans a day!!! <BR> <BR> Really??? Yep, really. I'm never sure how this stuff gets approved by the FDA... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 09:22:43 EST It's a new day. I love mornings. They are full of fresh beginnings and I often wonder what today will have in store for me. Well, this morning I was down the 1/2 lb needed to be 1/2 way to my goal. Nice. Shared the news with DH, who was so proud. Also nice. <BR> <BR> Then DH said I made it look easy. I MADE IT LOOK EASY???????? That made think about how that could possibly be. And then it hit me, yep, things have changed inside me. Every other time I've been in weight loss mode, I could hardly ... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 14:34:01 EST Feeling FAT is a sign of my success I've been down this road more times than I care to admit, and right about now in the weight loss thing, I start to feel like I'm really, really fat. Yep, it's a sure sign of success and I just have to hold on tight to move onward. <BR> <BR> I've got 16 lbs to go to goal. I'm going there. <BR> <BR> What I really want is to remember how much I don't ever EVER want to go down this road again, which means NO MORE REGAIN! Ok, time for sleepy-sleep. Nana is pooped. Mon, 4 Aug 2014 22:52:23 EST I need a best friend!!! Oh my gosh, I need a best friend. You know, one that you can call up to yack about what to wear and how to do your hair and ask over for coffee...and stuff. I miss Ana sooooooooo much today...oh lordy, good friends are few and far between so I've got a BIG hole in my life. <BR> <BR> My Aunt died and I'm trying on clothes to wear to her funeral...there's no one to call to say Hey this, or Hey that. When best friends leave, they do leave such a big hole in our lives.... <BR> <BR> Thu, 31 Jul 2014 17:28:23 EST I received an e-mail today, how to lose 60 lbs! I received an e-mail this morning telling me how to lose 60 lbs or more! <BR> So my computer knows I'm losing weight..what's new, there are spys everywhere! <BR> I didn't even have to read it. It's simple, right?! Choose an eating plan and STICK TO IT! I can lose as much weight as I want!!! Thu, 31 Jul 2014 07:24:06 EST Slowly "re-thinking" everything My usual drip coffee maker isn't working well so it's time for a replacement. I was "googling" coffee makers and found that most of this style contain BPAs! Really??? Oh my goodness...even things we are soooooooooooooo familiar with need to be re-thought. So now I'm looking for a ceramic cone or a Melitta Coffee Maker, Porcelain 6 Cup Pour- Over Brewer. It seems that, other than a french press, this is one of the only coffee brewers that does not contain plastic which comes in contact w... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 06:06:43 EST Supper by the water I'm so looking forward to cooking supper by the water tonight. The BEST part about this is that I'm planning lean meat, salad and grilled mushrooms. Gosh, life is good when our emotions agree with our brains!!! No fighting...just peace. <BR> <BR> And I want to thank the universe for a good night's sleep last night too, as it was the first one in a week! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, life is good..... <BR> <BR> Hoping your Sunday is good too. Sun, 27 Jul 2014 09:06:59 EST Yesterday Thank you to all my SparkFriends who shouted out encouragement as I "held on tight" yesterday. I did. Yesterday was a day of roller coaster emotions and "stuff" and I just held on tight. <BR> <BR> I think that's the key. Things happen in every life. Ups and downs and some days more downs than I think I can handle. But really, if I just "hold on tight" today passes to yesterday without any more grief than necessary. <BR> <BR> So there was no over-eating at my house yesterday. There... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 07:43:57 EST Imagine that! So, Monday's are weigh in days for me, however I did step on the scales this morning b/c the mirror told me there had been a change in my body. And yep, the scales were down 2 more lbs from Monday. Now, not knowing if it were cheating to post my weight again this week, I asked for advice from someone we trust and she said, Yep, you got it, you take it today! <BR> <BR> So I'm woo hoo-ing and quietly happy...and onward I go friends. Onward I go. <BR> <BR> Wed, 23 Jul 2014 13:20:59 EST Monday Weigh Ins I've never had Monday as my weigh in day before. You know what??? It makes the weekend sooooooooooooooo much easier. If I want the scales to be down on Monday, I have to eat "on-plan" all weekend long. There's no stress about what little extra bits I can eat, b/c there are NO extra little bits I can eat if I want to lose this weight for the last time, and I do. I will do whatever it takes to get back to my goal weight and stay there. <BR> <BR> Yep, it's Mondays for me forevermore!!! Mon, 21 Jul 2014 22:03:34 EST Gratitude Grateful for SparkFriends' support. <BR> Grateful for DH. <BR> Grateful for being able to "do it again". <BR> Grateful for having quit smoking for 20 years now. <BR> Grateful for home. Sun, 20 Jul 2014 09:15:33 EST 100% compliance Ok...100% compliance. Whether I feel like it or not....100% compliance. Whether I'm hungry, sad, lonely, angry, bereaved or tired. 100% <BR> <BR> Hey, I had to be 100% compliant to be smoke-free now! It worked...on January 1 1994 I made a decision to do whatever it took to quit smoking...whatever it took! 100% compliance is what it took! <BR> <BR> So too now with food...100% Sun, 13 Jul 2014 14:34:56 EST First Ride Today was the first boat ride of the nice...even the rain that fell on us while on the river couldn't dampen my spirits. Today the 2nd boat ride happened as well...DH took GS and friend and her GS and me out this evening. <BR> <BR> What a nice day. Wed, 9 Jul 2014 21:27:21 EST Another pound I've been reading a bit about binges lately...never thinking they were my problem...but they ARE! Gosh, 58 years old and just figuring that out!!! Better late than never. <BR> <BR> Anyway, I'm down another pound this onward I go to more healthy eating. Mon, 7 Jul 2014 07:07:37 EST Grilled cauliflower...yum I've heard about grilled cauliflower. I heard it doesn't taste like cauliflower. I've heard it's really yummy. I've heard it's amazing. <BR> <BR> Well, I finally made some for lunch today and everything I heard was CORRECT! Oh my, it certainly was yum. Brushed with a bit of olive oil and sprinkled with salt and pepper then grilled...oh my...delish and filling too! Thu, 3 Jul 2014 15:04:14 EST Thursday night Last night was my friend Ana's daughter's graduation from high school. When Ana was diagnosed, it was the one thing she wanted to make it to...her daughter's graduation. What a bittersweet night it was as her daughter received numerous awards including 3 scholarships. oh oh oh Ana would have been SO proud. Fri, 27 Jun 2014 12:51:39 EST New skill I'm a good worker. I'm a REALLY good worker. Time to cultivate other skills. Tue, 24 Jun 2014 09:14:22 EST