SAMSMOM60's SparkPeople Blog SAMSMOM60's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community trying to get back on track Well, I've gained weight back and want to nip it in the bud. I'm totally frustrated with myself but I know circumstances and life get in the way sometimes. Even my own self-sabotaging habits keep me from being who I really want to be. So, with that said, I am starting over to lose the extra 30 lbs I put back on. It seems like it came on overnight but I know it was in the past year so I should not expect to lose it overnight. I'm going to be positive about this and I am using the new spar... Tue, 3 Sep 2013 13:37:42 EST 'You is kind. You is smart. You is important.” My oldest daughter recently wrote this to me in a graduation card. It was my graduation from college with my bachelor of science degree. I graduated summa cum laude which is highest honors. I am 58. I have been working on that as a personal goal for my whole life. I had many stops and starts given how life sometimes gets in the way but I kept on trudging along a little at a time when I could because it was important to me. I always felt inferior to other people. I always felt that I wa... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 21:42:38 EST Trying to get back on track I went to see RNY gastric bypass team today. I had a metabolic test done. It shows how many calories my body is actually burning at resting stage. It was better then I thought it would be which means I've been a bad girl. I was hoping to blame it on a slow metabolism even though I'm taking meds for hypothyroidism. <BR> <BR> To be honest with myself and with everyone who read my board, I know what puts the weight back on better than anyone. First and foremost, wine. I love it. It does... Wed, 20 Feb 2013 20:44:20 EST Being at goal is not the end of the journey. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It truly is a happier day than most. I don't participate in the treat-giving anyway although my hubby loves to. He is out of town this Halloween so I'm just going to be a real witch and not pass out the regular sugar-laden snacks. <BR> <BR> If I could pass out whole grains, fresh fruit and veggies, then maybe I would. Nawh! I still don't like going to the door. <BR> <BR> Now that I've surpassed my origin... Mon, 31 Oct 2011 10:49:51 EST Below goal weight! Well, it's been awhile since I posted here so I just wanted to update everyone. <BR> I am now at 127 lbs which is 3 lbs below the goal I set for myself. I'm going to keep eating healthy and just see if I can get down to what I was in high school which was 120 lbs. We'll see. <BR> <BR> The main thing is i feel better and healthier. I am so happy about that. <BR> Another thing is that from my highest weight, I have lost a total of 103 pounds and never thought that I would ever see that ha... Mon, 23 May 2011 16:59:47 EST 6 pounds to go until goal! I'm now at 136 and can't believe it. Some of my lessons learned during this journey to goal through weight loss surgery: <BR> The scale still plays mind-games with me. I have learned to weigh myself so that I can guage my progress but not look at the scale as the source of success. I have learned that just paying attention to what I eat is part of that goal. To eat a healthy diet of whole grains, lean meats, and fruits and veggies is my mainstay. I also judge my success based on how my ... Mon, 28 Mar 2011 00:11:08 EST Update and new goals for 2011 Update 01-16-2011 <BR> Well, after many days of trial and setbacks with my health and issues with my bypass surgery, I am finally feeling better and taking better care of me. My goals for the year are to try and balance all areas of life including stress management above all. I look for any and all suggestions that any of my friends here offer. What has worked for you. My ideas include getting regular massages and trying to look into meditation. I am not a religious person. I am more of ... Sun, 16 Jan 2011 13:07:13 EST weigh is still slowly going down. OK, my weight is going down slowly but it's going down so i'm happy with that. <BR> Something is working right anyway. Before I had my RNY, I could not get the scales to budge. I knew I needed help but could not get my doctors to understand that. I actually went in to see my PCP once because I felt like I had low thyroid since I was postmenopausel and cold all the time (NOT normal for me). I would diet and could not lose the weight no matter what. I was so frustrated by it all. <BR> <BR... Sun, 10 Oct 2010 11:39:46 EST I crossed my legs! I went to my PCP this morning and while waiting for him to come into the office, I accidently crossed my legs! It was a surprise! I have not been able to do that in ages! <BR> <BR> My next goal? I am looking forward to the day that the water covers my belly while taking a bath. That's a big goal for me. I measure things in funny ways sometimes but I look forward to the day that I can actually take a bubble bath and have the water and bubbles completely cover my belly. <BR> <BR> For t... Tue, 28 Sep 2010 09:54:54 EST hungry all the time OK, my gastric bypass surgery is not working the way I had planned. I physically feel hungry all the time. I'm 7 wks out almost and should not be feeling hungry. i'm drinking my water and eating my portions as prescribed. But, an hour or less afterwards, I'm hungry again. My doctor said it is too much acid but we have tried all the meds for that and still hungry. <BR> my next step is to have an endoscopy which i'm trying to arrange now. i have a feeling that something inside is not wo... Fri, 24 Sep 2010 12:17:03 EST First experience with dumping syndrome! Well, chicken does not like me yet. I had about 1/2 ounce of chicken breast for dinner and 2 oz of mashed sweet potato that I baked. I had prepared more but could not finish it. Then I felt ill. I was determined that I was NOT going to throw up because, well, I just don't like that. LOL <BR> <BR> Did I have a choice? NO! My husband is working the local HS football game so it was just me with the dog. He came running to see what was wrong with me as if he could help. He's so sweet. ... Fri, 3 Sep 2010 19:45:10 EST feeling down today I just got back from taking my baby girl to college for the second year away from home. I know she is close enough to get to if she needs help. I guess it's just the quietness of home again that brings me down. <BR> <BR> Also, I'm bored with my choices of food lately and feel like if I look at another protein shake, I'll just puke. I'm also tired from my trip today...12 hours on the road. <BR> <BR> I guess I just need to get some rest and rethink my food choices tomorrow. Actually, ... Sat, 28 Aug 2010 20:48:23 EST feeling better today I'm feeling better today. Still sore but not as bad. I'm paying more attention to my food and drink again as well as other remedies that I seem to need after my surgery. My body is just different so I have to listen to it. I think that is the key. Sometimes, I have selective hearing so I guess I need to listen every minute of the day to my body. So, I need to journal and keep track of what i'm eating and when; also, when I drink and when to stop drinking before and after meals. <BR>... Wed, 25 Aug 2010 11:35:23 EST feeling pain today Well, today I seem to be having pain on the left side. I think I did too much at work yesterday. But, I've also had problems going to the bathroom this week with the addition of some new meds my doc put me on for acid. I'm on Nexium and another med to take before meals. <BR> Work has really left me tired every day. I did learn that I'm going to have to take my lunch away from my desk in order to relax. I usually eat at my desk which is distracting for me since I have so many interrupti... Tue, 24 Aug 2010 21:29:50 EST What I've learned in 3 weeks. Today is my 3 week surgiversary. I have learned many things and am surprised at how much my body tells me now. Things are certainly different but all for the better. <BR> <BR> I've learned not to eat too fast and to chew slowly or else my eyeballs feel like they need to throw up. That was a wierd feeling. I've learned that water and milk of mag are my friends. <BR> <BR> I've learned that I seem to be happier already. <BR> I'm losing weight and feel healthy. Mon, 23 Aug 2010 16:24:31 EST Two week post-op I'm two weeks out from gastric bypass surgery and I'm having a good time. Today, I got to eat some real food...non shakes. I had tuna to start off with because it is easier to digest than chicken they say. It was good. Just plain ole tuna and lowfat mayo. I still feel stuffed even though it was only 2.5 oz total for lunch. Protein amazes me. <BR> <BR> I have always been supportive of low-carb diets and eating plans. So, this eating / surgery change is good for me. Protein is good for ... Mon, 16 Aug 2010 16:55:09 EST Mixed Feelings Today, my tummy doesn't know if it's hungry, nauseated, or what. I did learn one thing. "Do not talk to mother on phone while *sipping* on chocolate protein shake." Sun, 8 Aug 2010 14:31:08 EST Four days Today is my 4th day after my gastric bypass surgery. I am so happy that I made that decision. I can't believe the results I'm seeing already. <BR> The surgery was rough and took 3 hours and then they had a hard time waking me after the procedure. Well, I'm no dummy. I knew I was going to wake up in pain so I guess I just wanted to rest while I could. After all the preop nervousness and fear and happiness, I can honestly say that I did the right thing. I am happy I did it and have alre... Fri, 6 Aug 2010 11:04:08 EST 1st day of preop diet Well, today is the first day of my preop diet for RNY (gastric bypass) surgery. I have been on just about all of the diet programs and decided that this tool would be the one to help me finally reach and maintain my goals. I know how to eat healthy. The problem with me has always been the brain/food/emotion connection. It's more complicated that you might think. At least when an alcoholic has to quit drinking, he/she can live without the alcohol. When your addiction is food, you still h... Wed, 28 Jul 2010 10:23:31 EST Here I am again! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This time I am determined to make my goal a reality. What I have learned over the years and through sparkpeople and my friends is that each "lifestyle" is not a "one-size-fits-all" program. Each of us are different and we use what tools are available to us to help us reach goals. <BR> <BR> I will be posting my journey through weight loss surgery and my doctor's eating program here. Yes, it does seem drastic. Y... Tue, 20 Jul 2010 15:29:46 EST Feeling down today. <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> I'm just down about my weight today. It just doesn't seem to want to come off in a timely manner these days. I know it's my own fault too. If I could just stay on track with healthy eating, I know it would come off. I stay within my calorie range most days of the week. Occasionally on weekends, I slip up. My food choices are not always healthy even though I'm staying within a healthy range of calories. I also know that I need to exercise each day. I get really... Tue, 9 Jun 2009 10:05:18 EST Going through my old blogs I was reading old blogs and they left me with mixed emotions. I'm trying to stay positive and move forward without looking back. I am so sick of yo-yo dieting and here I am again. How did I get here again? I was healthy and about 50 pounds lighter this time last year. Now, I can barely get out of bed in the mornings due to a stiff and sore lower back. <BR> <BR> This aging thing sux but I guess it's better than the alternative. Do I know what I did wrong? yes. <BR> <BR> If anythin... Tue, 2 Jun 2009 09:33:34 EST Bit off more than I can chew Well, here it is April already. I'm making small changes but nothing has caught on yet since I lost focus last year. I will get there though. I'm just doing too much with working full time, being a mother and wife, and going to school full time to try to finish up a bachelor's degree that I have been working on since 1986. <BR> In the meantime, life stills goes on and I tend to reach for the quick-fix when it comes to my diet because I'm so short on time these days. That is not an excus... Wed, 8 Apr 2009 09:52:30 EST A new page and new me. I was bored with my spark page so decided to give it a new look and in the meantime decided that it was time for me to get a new look also. I've been struggling so long and been so wishy washy about my health. I'm going to use this site for my blogging and monitoring. <BR> <BR> I am not going to weigh myself since my new weight is liable to depress me too much. I am just going to measure my waist for starters as a way to measure my progress. After all, the scale is not the only measure o... Tue, 19 Aug 2008 10:49:39 EST What does your conscience tell you? Well, today's quote hit home to me and I rarely pay attention to them for long. But this one was definitely for me. <BR> <BR> Conscience is the inner voice that warns us that someone might be looking. <BR> <BR> - HL Mencken, author, critic and newspaperman <BR> <BR> First of all, as far as my health is concerned, the only person looking is me. I know when I'm not doing right. I know exactly what I should be doing. I would never ever ever turn out a half-@ssed project in my professional lif... Tue, 3 Jun 2008 09:25:09 EST jogging and blogging I have not participated online here much lately because it's been busy at my house. I've tried to stay on track and get down on myself alot. I am getting my exercise from taking Zumba classes and working out in my yard cleaning it up and pulling weeds and cutting brush and getting it cleaned up so I can redecorate it with new shade-loving plants. <BR> <BR> It is very therapeutic anyway. I love SparkPeople so much that I had to limit my time on here. I can't lose weight if I sit in fron... Wed, 28 May 2008 14:55:51 EST Nature and Weight Loss I really feel the need to just get outside and lose the weight and connect with nature again. My newest projects will be to work in my yard and make my backyard my haven to relax in . <BR> <BR> It's time to roll up the sleeves and get out the gardening tools and gloves and just get to work on my new fitness plan...gardening. There is alot of work to be done out there so I know it will be a chore but I'm taking it just like I did my weight loss...a little bit at a time. I will just plan to... Fri, 9 May 2008 13:21:59 EST The Naked Truth I weighed today just because I wanted a new weight for the swimsuit bootcamp contest and to give me a grip on my eating / drinking patterns. <BR> <BR> It was not a pretty site. I gained back 11 lbs of what I lost last month. Why do I do this ? It's the wine. <BR> <BR> Ok, so I decided to take my measurements also and then discovered that although I gained pounds, my measurements all went down! What is up with that?! I have decided it was a combination of two things...the good ole wat... Sun, 4 May 2008 09:06:33 EST OMG! Weighed In OK, I have been struggling since before Thanksgiving to get back down to what I was then. I was working on counting calories most of all. I have been working out with weights and doing cardio for over 8 mos now...even before I joined SP. <BR> <BR> My problem was that I would drink too much wine even though I stayed within my calorie ranges. I also ate too many starchy carbs even though they were whole grains. So, I'm 54 yrs. old now and I know what really works for me. I avoided it like... Fri, 18 Apr 2008 11:03:44 EST Boot Camp Workout I burned off a couple of calories with this workout today. <BR> 5 minutes of stretching all muscles <BR> Then 9 sets of all of these exercises as directed by the coach. <BR> Running back and forth up and down the gym for a few minutes until he blew his whistle. Then, we would drop and do 10 crunches with knees up at 90 degree angle and elbows to knees. Then we would get up again and run until he blew the whistle and do the crunches...we did that 3 times...then ran and did push ups and rever... Thu, 17 Apr 2008 15:49:43 EST Doctor Visit and You On A Diet OK, i went to see my doctor Friday mainly because I wanted help losing weight. I have read the book, You On A Diet and Dr. OZ talked about some meds for helping with cravings, etc. Anyway, on page 272, he talks about topiramate (Topamax) which is supposed to help with weight control and has a calming effect. sigh. So, I went to see my doctor who is a female and I really like her. She is over 60 and you would never believe it to see her. She did not agree that I should be on that drug. ... Sun, 13 Apr 2008 18:39:00 EST Thinner Peace I love SparkPeople because it is so full of information and self-help articles and tools. There is no other place like it on the internet for free. <BR> <BR> I love the message boards and have met so many great people here. But, my head is swimming with so much information! My brain feels like it's in overload mode (not that I had that much room in it anyway). <BR> <BR> What I'm longing for is less stress and more peace. It seems that I constantly have to reassess my diet and my li... Fri, 4 Apr 2008 12:50:25 EST Starting Over...Again! I'm starting over again on my program. I have a new resolve to finish getting the fat off while also eating healthy foods and exercising regularly. <BR> <BR> I would love to keep this resolve. It seems like whenever I make up my mind to do something that there is always someone or something that comes along to try to make me fail. Why is it that there are just some people in the world who do not want us to succeed? I get so irritated when people tell me that maybe it's not meant for m... Mon, 31 Mar 2008 15:58:44 EST Eating while on a road trip One of my favorite things to do while on a long road trip is to eat breakfast. I guess I could eat breakfast any time of the day. It's especially nice if someone else does the cooking. One of my favorite places to stop is Waffle House. I have learned that all Waffle Houses are not the same. On my recent trip back home from Florida, we stopped at a Waffle House somewhere in Louisiana. It was at about 3:00 AM. We were just stopping so my hubby could get some coffee and wake up a little. ... Wed, 26 Mar 2008 14:26:28 EST Determination and Starting over I'm back from spring break and from breaking my diet or eating plan. So, how do I get my determination back? <BR> <BR> I found this quote online today that helps me go in that direction. I was thinking so hard about it that I just wore my brain out. Why do we tend to make things so complicated at times. I promised myself that I was going to use the KISS (keep it simple, stupid) principle this year and so I shall. <BR> <BR> The only thing I need to do is plan my work and work my plan. ... Mon, 24 Mar 2008 11:50:04 EST Even if I never lose weight... If I never lose another pound...if I never get to the goal I have set for myself...I am not a loser. I have gained so much here at SparkPeople. I have gained friends. I have met so many people who have inspired me. I have met those who are real to me even tho we have never met. <BR> <BR> I love the fact that we can be honest here. I have found that if you can not be honest online, you are probably never going to be honest in real life. There is no point in pretending here. WE can po... Tue, 11 Mar 2008 23:18:22 EST Ch Ch Ch Changes It's not the strongest of the species that survive, nor the most intelligent, but the ones most responsive to change. <BR> <BR> This quote is definitely one I need to ponder on for a moment. I am not the strongest or most intelligent person in the world and I have resisted change my whole life. I resist it. Sometimes, I can not avoid it. I resisted computers when they first arrived and hated them with a passion. I did not want to learn to use them. Today, I can not live without them. Technol... Sun, 9 Mar 2008 13:15:06 EST What I can learn from my dog. Booker is my 4 year old Basset Hound. When we bought our house in 2005, I decided it was time for a family pet. I had missed having my cat who died in 1999 at the age of 18. My new hubby was not fond of cats and was allergic to them. I decided we should compromise and get a dog. I had never had a dog because I was a cat person. <BR> <BR> I had done research on dog breeds and had my favorites picked out. My number one choice was a red miniature dachshund. I really wanted two so I cou... Sat, 8 Mar 2008 14:34:59 EST Temptation is everywhere Why is it when you finally commit to something and you feel like you are strong and you can just ignore all temptation, is when it seems to come streaming towards you? If it's not one thing, it's another. Today it was cake. It was just a cake for a baby shower we gave to a coworker but it was cake. I went to the shower and did not eat any. Then people came into my office to talk to me. I guess I'm lucky they like to congregate and talk to me and with each other in my office but do they ... Wed, 27 Feb 2008 16:35:22 EST To all my female friends and family. Phenomenal Woman <BR> <BR> <BR> Pretty women wonder where my secret lies. <BR> I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size <BR> But when I start to tell them, <BR> They think I'm telling lies. <BR> I say, <BR> It's in the reach of my arms <BR> The span of my hips, <BR> The stride of my step, <BR> The curl of my lips. <BR> I'm a woman <BR> Phenomenally. <BR> Phenomenal woman, <BR> That's me. <BR> <BR> I walk into a room <BR> Just as cool as you please, <BR> And to a man, <BR>... Sat, 23 Feb 2008 12:40:19 EST Perspective When I get discouraged about a number on the scale, I always have to have a talk with myself. Usually, it's because I did not lose as fast as I wanted to. Of course, I wish there were a magic wand that would just take the fat away immediately. *poof* <BR> <BR> That is not going to happen. Are there any genies out there? <BR> <BR> Well, that's when I have to stop and do a little bit of math. If the scale this week or month is disappointing to me, I get out a pen and paper and look how far... Sat, 23 Feb 2008 11:00:19 EST Things I'm Looking Forward To: I decided to start this blog as an add-on blog so I will be adding things to it as they come to me. <BR> <BR> Being able to look down while standing and actually see my feet. <BR> <BR> Being able to take a bubble bath and have the water cover my belly! <BR> <BR> Hiking in the mountains! <BR> <BR> Hiking in Ireland! or Scotland even! Hmm. I just realized that I love to hike and see beautiful country. What a nice way to lose weight and get exercise. I need to plan a trip! <BR> <BR> Run... Fri, 22 Feb 2008 10:38:41 EST Milestone A diagnosis from my doctor last summer for neck and shoulder problems I'd had for 7 years finally revealed that I had arthritis and bone spurs which they are not going to do anything for. I was diagnosed with arthritis in my cervical spine also which leaves me really stiff. Last year was when I also decided that I was going to take my health into my own hands. <BR> <BR> I got tired of going to doctors and having tests and more tests that showed I had heart and lung problems and high bloo... Thu, 21 Feb 2008 22:01:40 EST Balance Balance in all areas of my life is what I keep striving for every year when New Year's comes around. I keep that foremost in my brain every year as I try to think of a new resolution. I don't like making resolutions for the most part because I think they are just made to break. I like to look upon it as a reflection instead...a reflection of where I have been and what I need to do to get me in the direction I want to go. <BR> <BR> My life and self are much more than just weight-loss eve... Sat, 16 Feb 2008 15:20:23 EST How I see myself vs. what others see Yesterday, I saw a picture of me with my friends on my Spark Page and I had to look at it twice. Then I thought that I'm really not as fat in that picture as I see myself in my head. Granted, I have been slimmer and I have been alot bigger too. It seems strange that my brain cannot see me as others do. I wonder if it will ever catch up to reality. Even when I was my skinniest, I never saw myself as being slim. <BR> <BR> It also reminds me of what someone said on Biggest Loser this week... Thu, 7 Feb 2008 09:57:55 EST A love/hate relationship with exercise Well, yesterday I was feeling like a slug and grumpy to boot. I did not want to talk to anyone and everyone seemed to annoy me. It was also my day for my intermediate weight training class that I dread every Tuesday and Thursday. I actually entertained the thought of not going and just dropping the class. <BR> <BR> I decided to just suck it up and go so that I could work out some of the meanness I was feeling. He certainly worked it out of me and everyone else in the class. I thought, "... Wed, 6 Feb 2008 13:01:46 EST A New Month and Setting New Goals Ok, it's Feb 1. I will set some new goals for this month that do not include what I see on the scale. My plan is to measure my activity and food. I plan to make a definite exercise plan for each day and check off the exercises as I go. By focusing on activities, I can stay focused on my plan without worrying about what a silly scale says. I plan to only weigh once a month now as long as I am sticking to the plan. I also plan to do some menu revising and try new veggies this month. One v... Fri, 1 Feb 2008 11:10:40 EST Weigh In day Today, I am 159.5 down 3.3 lbs. Yay. Tonight is my party night so I have worked off the calories that I plan on spending on light beer. My DH will help me monitor my drinking since he will be my designated driver to and from my favorite Irish Pub!! Fri, 11 Jan 2008 10:12:22 EST today I managed to get in two treadmill workouts today for a total of 585 calories burned. Yippee. I'm burning off my beer that I plan on having tomorrow night at my favorite Irish Pub, McCool's. We are going to a bon voyage party for Arianna, my favorite opera student and beautiful diva. Here's to you and your new life in Vienna, Arianna! YOU ROCK! Thu, 10 Jan 2008 21:54:06 EST exercise Treadmill 5% incline for 30 minutes = 270 calories burned <BR> Do 30 minutes of this per day. <BR> Create a motivation page. What motivates me? Nothing right now. <BR> Tue, 8 Jan 2008 22:33:50 EST