SADIEMAE32's SparkPeople Blog SADIEMAE32's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Making it Through the Stress I did it! I must admit that I have horrible test anxiety that comes when I have to sit for any timed exam. I was so stressed out yesterday that there were certain times during the day that I had trouble breathing. I know all the relaxation techniques; I've heard of just about everything a person can try to calm oneself down. I even know that I can always take the exam again -- it is what it is. Yet, as much as my brain knows this, my body refuses to respond and horrible anxiety takes over. <B... Fri, 5 Feb 2016 19:32:23 EST February Challenges I have decided to start up two challenges this month. They are small challenges, so I am pretty sure that I can handle them both and make great strides in creating new habits. <BR> <BR> The first challenge is simply a crunches challenge. It wasn't set for a leap year, so I should conclude my challenge by doing 100 crunches on February 28. To go along with this, I have joined a strength training challenge which offers the flexibility of tailoring it to fit my needs. I decided to go for certa... Tue, 2 Feb 2016 21:48:13 EST Back Home Again I'm back home again and almost back on schedule. I didn't actually get a great workout in today, but I did take a 2 mile walk later in the evening. It's a slow start, but slow is what I'm feeling right now. I don't want to jump back into workouts and fizzle out because I try to do too much too fast. <BR> <BR> I hope to get to bed a bit early tonight. I would like to begin short morning workouts, even though it is so hard to wake up early when it is so cold out. I really just want to snuggle... Sun, 24 Jan 2016 21:11:49 EST Loving the Family I have been super busy this week, with little to no time for myself each day. Out of pure kindness, my brother prepared dinner for me tonight. He baked some potatoes along with an artichoke chicken recipe. A small side salad accompanied the meal. <BR> <BR> I really am grateful because I am starting to get burnt out. In fact, I even broke down and devoured a pack of nutty buddy bars before my last meeting of the day (which ran over so long that I still there when the sugar crash hit). The he... Wed, 20 Jan 2016 22:08:27 EST Away from the House Well, I'm not actually on vacation even though I'm not living at home right now. I always thought that I would slack off during vacation times, but not during the rest of the year. It never occurred to me that a simple change up could throw such a wrench in my plans. <BR> <BR> My friends have left the frigid cold to spend a little over a week in a much warmer climate. I'm sure they are enjoying wonderful luaus and trekking around in flipflops while I stay at their place and struggle with th... Sun, 17 Jan 2016 21:43:49 EST Lacking Energy - Winter Woes I'm not sure if it is the biting cold or perhaps a less restful sleep than I thought, but my energy has been zapped all day. I haven't reached my 10,000 steps yet today, and I'm ready for bed an hour earlier than normal! Even worse, I just remembered that I forgot to pack my lunch for tomorrow, and I cannot imagine getting up to do it now. <BR> <BR> Classes start up again for me tomorrow, so it is going to be a long day. I feel bad not getting everything done today, being a bit lazy tonight,... Mon, 11 Jan 2016 21:48:17 EST Breaking My Streak Just before the beginning of the new year, I broke my streak. Well, I actually did it for the sole purpose of changing my streak. I have been doing quite well with getting a minimum of 10 minutes of activity in each day. Even if I only got in a stretching routine, I still logged my ten. Now, I feel like I need to up the ante. <BR> <BR> <BR> I have started a new streak -- 20 minutes of activity each day, no excuses. <BR> Today marks the 12th day of my new streak. <em>408</em> <BR> <BR>... Sat, 9 Jan 2016 20:52:51 EST Weighing In with BCA The guy who does the Body Composition Analysis came in to my workplace again today. Last time he was around was back in May. I was very discouraged by the results those many months back. But, it really prompted me to create some healthy habits and work my butt off this summer. <BR> <BR> I know that had he been there back in the beginning of October, I would probably be loving my results. I did put in a lot of work. Unfortunately, he wasn't around and I know I have been off the wagon for the... Tue, 1 Dec 2015 21:22:54 EST Stopped by a Head Cold I'm back on the wagon, I've recommitted, I'm ready to go! <BR> <BR> Well, I was. The motivation is still in me, that's for sure. My knee is feeling much better, and I have brand new running shoes to try to minimize further injury. I even felt the desire to kick my feet up into a jog for the first time in about a month and a half (I really couldn't do more than speed walk with my knee). And, just as I was prepared to kick it up a notch... my head plugs up. <BR> <BR> It's okay though. I sti... Mon, 30 Nov 2015 22:49:10 EST Almost a Month Later... Almost a month has passed since I was last active on this site. I have tried to log in daily, but I have lost my log in streak a couple times over this month. I have tried to set aside time to check in, but I haven't been able to keep up with my friends or with the happenings on my key teams. I have had thoughts of making healthy choices at meals, but I have not kept up any consistent tracking. <BR> <BR> What have I done? I have stayed at a flat line. When I got on the scale this morning, I... Tue, 24 Nov 2015 22:47:54 EST Knee Issues Earlier in the month I made a choice that was... not so wise. It was the last day of my week out of town, and knowing that I had not been hitting my daily step goals, I decided to continue using the stairs while packing up to leave. I was staying on the fourth floor, so I took the stairs often during the week. It was becoming much easier to go up and down. Loaded with luggage, going up would have still be a strain, but going down seemed easy-peasy. <BR> <BR> In any case, on my trip to the g... Mon, 2 Nov 2015 19:32:35 EST Day 100 - Breaking the Plateau I just got back into town after a little over a week away, and SP informed me that I officially hit Day 100 of my spark streak. I have not always hit the intensity that I would like. I have not always hit the time limit would like. However, I have kept consistency in being active for at least 10 minutes everyday for ONE HUNDRED days!! This I celebrate. <BR> <BR> In addition to this awesome accomplishment, I have also achieved another personal goal. As it was my first morning back at home, I... Tue, 6 Oct 2015 21:57:22 EST Awareness I didn't have the best week last week. This week did not start off that great either. It doesn't have to stay this way though. Life is full of stressful and busy weeks, and focusing energies in other directions can sometimes be unavoidable. The key is to bounce back as quickly as possible. <BR> <BR> It is so easy to fall into a rut. It would not be hard at all to revert back to bad habits even though I have hit some days with a lighter load. I could just relax, take it easy, lounge around a... Wed, 16 Sep 2015 20:30:28 EST A Healthy Lifestyle is Possible <img src=""> <BR> <BR> For close to a month now, I have been worrying about how on earth I am going to keep up with my workout routine and dealing with the fear that I will let all of my hard work fall by the wayside as I drown in my old habits. I understand that some concern is healthy, as it can be used as a motivator to keep me on track. However, my initial concern has turned into stress. This is a problem. <BR... Thu, 3 Sep 2015 22:58:36 EST 100 Squat Challenge I have recently taken on the 100 squat challenge. This week, the fifth week of the challenge, I am up to 50 squats a day. I am almost halfway there! <BR> <BR> This is the second time I have tried this challenge. I first took it up early this summer. I diligently worked my way through the 10 squats a day the first week, 20 the second week, 30 the third week, and began to falter the week of 40 squats a day. It is not an excuse, but I started putting the challenge on the back burner when I star... Tue, 1 Sep 2015 23:05:43 EST First Week of Classes First class down. I'm doing okay keeping up with my new workout schedule so far. Yesterday, I did not have a chance to really workout (though I got in a lot of walking at work and the fitbit read 28 active minutes by the end of the day). I can also say I took the stairs multiple times throughout the work day. Today, since I did not have a physical class, only classwork, I worked out as soon as I got home. I even kicked my jog up in pace and made it a full continuous mile. <BR> <BR> I'm not ... Wed, 26 Aug 2015 21:04:51 EST Super busy, but made time with a foam roller I cannot believe how quickly today has passed. I am exhausted, and I cannot say that I have met my goal of preparing for class to start on Tuesday. I had all these great new ideas from last semester, so I got it into my head that I really wanted to revamp my class. Talk about time and energy! I figured summer would give me the opportunity to fully prepare, but I'm still down to the wire. <BR> <BR> I have most everything ready, except for a few loose ends. I had hoped that I would finish tod... Sun, 23 Aug 2015 22:43:45 EST Following up with planning Well, I stayed off the treadmill today and attempted a shorter workout. Unfortunately, I did not care for the specific video I found. So, I followed it up with some fun time. I busted out my hoop and enjoyed an extra 20 minutes. Not much, I know, but I was trying to keep my workout to only 20 minutes or less so that I don't feel guilty not putting in the time next week. <BR> <BR> Now, I am debating on whether to try out another video Thursday, or just start my own routine. I want something ... Tue, 18 Aug 2015 22:19:37 EST One day at a time We are gearing up for another semester. My time is already being crunched with an excess in the workload. Classes begin next week, which means I really need to be in my new routine by then for the best chance of success in my journey. <BR> <BR> My jogging has taken a step backwards. I was hanging in strong with a continuous 1.5 mile stretch. However, it seems that the heat has really gotten to me in the past two weeks, and my length has dropped greatly. Now, it is a push to make it a full mi... Mon, 17 Aug 2015 22:16:47 EST Late Night Energy I am so tired. The last few days I have become so tired around 8pm that I contemplated just going to bed right then and there. However, I figure if I go to bed that early, then I will wake up in the middle of the night and not fall back asleep. So, I stay up until my usual bedtime around 10-10:30pm in hopes that I will get a good night sleep. <BR> <BR> It hasn't been working very well.Right around 10pm or so, I have been getting a second wind. Next thing I know, I'm lying in bed and cannot ... Wed, 12 Aug 2015 21:49:54 EST Cleaning out the closets... again I know it is a horrible habit to keep a stock of clothing that I have outgrown in belief that one day I will fit back into them again. I know that cleaning out the closet and donating clothes that are too small is therapeutic and representative of cleaning out all of one's mental struggles, etc, etc. I just can't seem to fully give it all up though. <BR> <BR> Today, I am working my way through all of my clothes. I'm about halfway through it all now. I realize that if (no WHEN) I do lose the... Sun, 9 Aug 2015 15:39:40 EST Changing up the Routine I love my routine exactly the way it is now. But, I know that when classes start up again in a few weeks, there is no way I will be able to keep up with it. I always do well in the summer, but the school year never fails to throw me down a winding tunnel of failure. Every year I slowly begin to slack off until there is not even a semblance left of my workout routine. <BR> <BR> I refuse to let it happen again this year! I've learned a lot from past mistakes, and I know that what I need more ... Fri, 7 Aug 2015 21:12:16 EST Checking In I told myself I would make an entry today because I have not been very consistent with it the last few months. Thus, I scheduled it into my planner to ensure it gets done. I'm doing pretty well knocking things off my list if I have them scheduled. <BR> <BR> I didn't sleep well last night, so I have been unusually cranky today. I kept to my workout after work, though thankfully today was just a walk day. I did finally bust out the scale yesterday because I figure I need input an updated weig... Wed, 5 Aug 2015 21:33:22 EST Chugging Along I had a bit of a bad week last week. I came down with a cold and was knocked out resting on Tuesday and Wednesday. I did workout to keep up my streak, but I barely made it to the 10 minute mark. I did not make near to my 10,000 steps a day goal, and my daily average steps took a major hit on my fitbit. <BR> <BR> However, I came out of that cold on top! I jogged on Thursday and made it .75 miles before I stopped so as not to overdo it. I was back to 1.15 miles on Friday, and took my Saturday ... Mon, 3 Aug 2015 21:35:27 EST Rocking the Week After my workout this evening, I updated my calendar for the week. I passed my goal of 10 miles in workouts a week by 1.75 miles! Not only that, I made it the full week with no red X's and jogged for 5 out of the six days :) <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I have become slightly concerned about getting enough protein since I've started jogging again. Thus, I decided to try out some protein powders. I've never re... Fri, 24 Jul 2015 20:54:54 EST Moving Forward Another day down, another mile ran. I am thankful that I took it easy yesterday. And, I am thankful for music. I almost petered out as I neared .85 miles during my jogging stretch today. But, I turned up the volume on my iPod and kept pushing. <BR> <BR> It was hard today. And, I know exactly why it was so hard. Yesterday, on my easy day, dinner was pizza out with family. I know I shouldn't have eaten it, but I made the choice to. Thus, I have no room to complain over a hard workout today; i... Thu, 23 Jul 2015 22:13:44 EST Mile-stone Tomorrow I will take it easy and just go for a walk or stroll after work. I had this planned because today was supposed to be my third day in a row of jogging for 3/4 a mile. However, as I hit the mark, knowing that tomorrow I would be going light, I made the snap decision to try to hold out for the other quarter mile. <BR> <BR> And I made it! I kept up a continuous jog for a full mile :) It was difficult at the end, but it was more a mental game than anything. I don't think I would have mad... Tue, 21 Jul 2015 22:24:43 EST Feeling the Desire to Sleep All the Time Last week I began to jog again. I can only last for three quarters of a mile at a snail's pace, but it's a start! I'm excited that I'm hitting my peak heart rate zone for a bit, and can easily keep it in cardio zone for the rest of my workout. I jogged three days of my workout last week, and hit three fourths of a mile again yesterday and today. <BR> <BR> My heels are still sore, but not as painful as I expected them to be when I first decided to start jogging again. My problem is that I am ... Mon, 20 Jul 2015 22:15:40 EST Feeling Guilty I should not be feeling this way. There is no reason for it at all! I hit my 10,000 steps today. I took a couple walks. Okay, so they were more like strolls. I made sure to get one of those walks in after work, during my new habitual workout time. And, I even planned on having an easy day because I worked out so hard the last two. <BR> <BR> The problem is that I have been inactive since dinner. I watched an hour long television episode on Netflix, surfed the net a bit, called a friend and c... Tue, 14 Jul 2015 22:08:38 EST Visual Motivations It is often when things are right there in my face that I am most motivated to work harder at whatever my goal happens to be. For a while, I have been trying my hardest to ensure that I reach at least 10,000 steps a day. As the weeks have gone by, this seems to be getting so much easier. Thus, new goals to strive for! <BR> <BR> Right now, I am attempting to hit a target goal of 10 miles a week reached during workouts. Hanging on my wall, in a location where there is not but bare walls around... Sun, 12 Jul 2015 16:23:08 EST Going Strong My body is holding together :) <BR> <BR> I have really upped my daily step count this month. i have even spent a couple workouts where I jog for miniscule amounts of time. My achilles tendons have been bothering me (my left ankle more so than my right), but it has not stopped me. I limp from time to time, and it pains me, but I continue to stretch it and walk with a full breadth of movement. It has not reached its extreme; my body has not failed me yet! <BR> <BR> Though I do not feel that ... Thu, 9 Jul 2015 21:29:50 EST Hitting New Personal Bests Ever since I purchased my fitbit back in March, I have been working towards hitting an average of 10,000 steps plus per day. Some days I have really good days, and some days not so much. Considering the average daily steps are calculated based upon the average of a 7 day week, I have found it a bit difficult to reach that goal. Until this week, that is! I surpassed the 70,000 steps a week and am now at an average of just over 10,500 steps a day :) <BR> <BR> This week, I have also hit a new p... Mon, 6 Jul 2015 20:13:10 EST Joyous July I didn't do so well keeping track of Junk Free June in blog form. It was a rough and tough month in regards to my workload the last few weeks. I had expected things to slow down during the summer months, but unless July settles down my summer will be over and classes back in session before I know it! This craziness is one of the reasons I have chosen to spend my time this month focusing on finding the joy in little things. <BR> <BR> Another reason comes from speaking with one of my colleague... Wed, 1 Jul 2015 20:24:10 EST Junk Free June - Cleaning out the Email I am working on my pledge from last night to use my time more wisely. After checking in with my teams, friends, and bloggers, I find I don't have much time left of that which I set aside as Spark Time. That's okay though. Short blog it is. <BR> <BR> Today, I have also set aside time to clean out the junk in my email. I have so many notifications and promotional emails that come to me that my email really gets cluttered. Because of this, I sometimes miss important emails, or I tell myself I w... Thu, 11 Jun 2015 20:36:18 EST Junk Free June - Getting Rid of Time Junk I had great plans for what all I would do this summer. Plans I made during the busy semester believing that summer would slow down. Yet, now that summer is here, it seems to be flying by so fast. I am as busy as I was when classes were in session! <BR> <BR> I have decided I need to reevaluate how i spend the hours of my day. I have started keeping a schedule of what I wanted to do this summer. Since then, I have been successful at knocking things out slowly. More, however, keeps being added ... Wed, 10 Jun 2015 20:21:51 EST Junk Free June - Ridding Myself of the Guilt Yesterday was a bad day both dietary and physical activity wise. A really bad day. Yet, I knew it was going to be, and even made the conscious choice to allow it to be. <BR> <BR> My brothers and I took our annual sibling road trip over a few states to pick up a load of fireworks for the 4th of July. They are not the kind of people who like to take stops for much of anything except emergency bathroom breaks (yes, that means hold it until you can't any more). I knew weeks in advance that head... Thu, 4 Jun 2015 20:23:04 EST Junk Free June I truly feel that focusing on being more mindful in life last month was a major success for me. It helped me stayed motivated. It helped me stay positive. It helped me stay focused. <BR> <BR> In keeping with the month long goal, I have decided to make this month Junk Free June. It is not just my diet I am looking to rid the junk out of. It is more than that. I pledge to spend this month decluttering my life. <BR> <BR> Today, I spent a lot of time at the office reorganizing my files and col... Mon, 1 Jun 2015 21:25:03 EST MindfulMay -- Weighing In I cannot believe that it is Wednesday once again. It is not just another Wednesday, but also very near the end of the month of May. I am very happy that I chose to be more mindful of my body throughout this entire month. I have seen many changes, nonscale victories to be more precise. Today, as the last Wednesday of the month, there is one particular area which I feel I must weigh in on. My hair. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I became fully conscious of how my hair now appears to be thriving. It was ... Wed, 27 May 2015 20:53:08 EST Mindful May -- Pushing On I came home from work today simply exhausted and with a tummy grumbling for dinner. I ending up picking up lunch at the cafeteria today since the holiday through me off and I did not have my weeks worth of salads prepared to grab this morning. I know that threw me off. The soup was good, the fruit was sweet and the beets were tasty, but I felt like I was missing something. I guess that's what I get for eating salads every day, even though I vary up what I put in them. <BR> <BR> In any case, ... Tue, 26 May 2015 20:27:31 EST Mindful May -- Additional Body Baseline I decided to take a SP Friend's advice regarding NSVs. I have been focusing a lot this month on my body and how well it is feeling, even though the scale has not been moving much at all. In addition to these little body changes I can feel, she suggested I take some body photos as a base comparison so I can visually see how my body is altering during my journey. I loved the idea... but I didn't love what I saw. <BR> <BR> I took some pictures on my computer this morning: frontal, side view, a... Mon, 25 May 2015 12:34:08 EST Mindful May – Weighing In with BCA I am not sure how to record my weight today. I followed through with my normal Wednesday jump-on-the-scale-first-thing this morning, and the the same scale I have been using throughout my weightloss journey indicated that I had lost 1.6 pounds. Not too shabby. I'm one step closer to breaking back into One-derland! <BR> <BR> My issue is that today I had a Body Composition Analysis (BCA). According to their high powered scale, I weigh exactly what I weighed in at last week. Could it be that my... Wed, 20 May 2015 22:28:58 EST Mindful May -- Noticing a Difference Losing weight takes time. It is just in the beginning of the third full week in May, and I have been noticing a slight difference. When I say slight, I do mean very slight. Some days I see more than others, as if all it happens to be is how much I am bloating on a particular day. My clothes seem to slide on easier, but then there are days like today where I feel as if my round stomach is pushing out a bit further than it should be. <BR> <BR> <img src=" Mon, 18 May 2015 22:29:52 EST Mindful May -- Feeling Productive I had quite the day today. Last night, I made good on my promise to myself and scheduled a list of things to do today. Of everything I had listed on there, there were only a few items that I did not get to. For two of them, I should have known better. One was to finish the book I am reading, and the second was to get through chapter one of a new book, one I have been dying to crack open. <BR> <BR> Unfortunately, I overestimated how much was left in the book I have yet to finish. I know ther... Sun, 17 May 2015 22:28:17 EST Mindful May -- Lists and Schedules There are so many things I want to do this summer. I need to sit down and make a list of everything, but I know that there is not going to be enough time to accomplish it all. I just worry about getting even one thing checked off that soon to be made list. <BR> <BR> I have been focusing a lot on taking the time out of my day to hit the treadmill after work each night. I know this is good for me. I'm glad I am able to spend my time this way. It just seems like I wake up in the morning and je... Thu, 14 May 2015 23:01:09 EST Mindful May – Weighing In My day did not start off on a great note. Since it is Wednesday, the only day I jump on the scale, I started my morning routine by checking in with the number of the week. Unfortunately, I did not lose any weight at all. On a different note, I did not gain any either. I maintained up to the exact tenth of a pound. <BR> <BR> My initial reaction was one of frustration. I had cut out all daily sweets, only indulging on my weekend relax (cheat) day. I had made sure to be active everyday this pa... Wed, 13 May 2015 21:02:33 EST Mindful May -- First Virtual 5k It sometimes amazes me that there is still so much about SP that I do not know. Hunting around for a new challenge yesterday, I spent quite a bit of time on SP looking around for something that would intrigue me enough to motivate my workouts. I found a couple challenges (one of them I'm not sure I'll be able to complete, but I'm sure going to give it my best!) and started tracking them for accountability today. <BR> <BR> What struck my fancy the most was the SparkPeople Virtual Races. <BR... Sun, 10 May 2015 23:11:21 EST Mindful May -- Feeling Tired I know I have been working out a lot this week. I know this because I have a calendar hanging on the wall in front of my treadmill. I purchased it at the dollar store, along with some colored sharpie markers so I could motivate myself. It has been amazingly motivating this past week! I use my green marker to log how many miles I have walked on the treadmill each day. On the days don't get in a workout, or chose to take a rest day, I use my red marker to draw an X across the day. <BR> <BR> I... Fri, 8 May 2015 20:29:33 EST Mindful May – Weighing In It has been six days since I reworked my weightloss strategy, deciding to focus on my inner being rather than my outer. It is Wednesday, the day I chose to be the only day of the week that I would step onto the scale. I didn’t have a major loss, but I did weigh exactly 1 pound less than I did last week. I know, no ending in a decimal .2 or .4, but exactly one pound. <BR> <BR> I cannot say that I am overly happy about this loss, but at the same time I am in no way disappointed. I will always ... Wed, 6 May 2015 21:46:34 EST Mindful May -- Cravings Coinciding with Irritation <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am craving sweets today. Well, not today exactly. The cravings really only kicked in tonight. I am fighting them off right now actually. How? With a tall glass of water and surfing SP. I can't say that it is in any way stopping the cravings, but I am doing pretty well fighting them off by keeping my hands busy on the keyboard. <BR> <BR> The only problem is that there is this unique irritation that is coinciding... Tue, 5 May 2015 21:11:42 EST Mindful May -- Rethinking the 10,000 Steps a Day In late March, I finally broke down and bought a fitbit. I had been wanting one for quite a while, but was afraid to spend the money on it until I knew that it functioned as well as the company’s marketing team claimed. I read reviews and blog posts from people who had them, but it wasn’t until some friends voiced their opinions after wearing theirs for a few weeks that I was completely sold. I have been wearing mine ever since. <BR> <BR> When I first got it, excitement over the product help... Mon, 4 May 2015 22:14:12 EST