SADAPARIBHUTA's SparkPeople Blog SADAPARIBHUTA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Hard to believe, but... …yoga at the Senior Citizens' Center left me sore for two days! <BR> Astounding to realize that I am a senior citizen, according to our town. How on earth did this happen? In my mind, I'm only 28 years old--half my calendar age. Wow. <BR> <BR> <BR> Mon, 2 Mar 2015 09:13:25 EST Not my idea of a holiday weekend. I've been sick in bed since Friday. So my exercise minutes are zero, possibly fewer, and my calorie count is pretty close to that, too. I'm on the Diluted Gatorade and a Couple Bites of Banana diet. <BR> Pretty sure I'll have to call out of work tomorrow. <BR> But life is still good! <BR> <em>87</em> <em>67</em> <em>125</em> Mon, 16 Feb 2015 17:28:33 EST Back to Yoga! Hooray! Oh. My. Goodness. <BR> I went to "all levels" yoga with the Domestic Partner on Tuesday and Wednesday evenings. <BR> It Kicked My Butt! It felt like it was my first day of yoga. <BR> I am going to do my own yoga practice today. It's not going to be "All Levels." It's going to be "My Level." <BR> <em>403</em> Thu, 12 Feb 2015 08:58:59 EST Sparkpeople works! …when you use it. <BR> I have not been measuring, tracking, exercising, or eating for health. <BR> And guess what? I gained weight! <BR> I'm now almost 40 pounds above my goal--goal being what I weighed in the fall of 2013. <BR> That makes me officially overweight. <BR> I'm going to think of this as making my comeback. Mon, 9 Feb 2015 12:20:37 EST Don't take the bait. If I lived alone, there would not be cupcakes and ice cream in my house. But I don't live alone; I live with a skinny man. <BR> I realize that it is my responsibility to ignore the cupcakes and ice cream. I'm an adult, and I make decisions for myself, right? And my decision is that he's welcome to his snack treats, and I don't have to eat them just because they are here. <BR> It's hard, though. I like cupcakes. I like ice cream. But I also like fitting into the closet full of clothes that I ... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 08:22:22 EST Short-term S.M.A.R.T. goal I committed to teaching a yoga mini-workshop five weeks from today. Can I lose ten pounds in time for the workshop? <BR> Here is my SMART goal analysis: <BR> S=specific (ten pounds) <BR> M=measurable (I have a scale) <BR> A=attainable (2 pounds a week is feasible) <BR> R=relevant (yoga practice is easier when I am slimmer) <BR> T=timed (five weeks, baby!) <BR> Here is my plan of attack: <BR> Daily walk, 30 minutes; daily yoga, 30 minutes. More of each will be a bonus, but 30/30 is the commit... Thu, 21 Aug 2014 10:39:09 EST "The year that we were in shape" A few years back, when my youngest daughter lived at home, we committed to our fitness. We started with walking, the same 2-mile route that I walk now, before work every morning and after work every evening, Monday thru Friday. We still call that "the year that we were in shape." <BR> We also started taking yoga classes and joined a gym that summer (which becomes a whole 'nother story), but the walking habit is what got us in shape. We were darn near 100% consistent. My daughter wasn'... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 09:16:43 EST The last straw! I had to buy larger pants last weekend. Two sizes larger! <BR> Was it fun? Why, no…no it wasn't. <BR> Oh well, at least it galvanized me into performing better habits this week. <BR> Sat, 31 May 2014 12:48:23 EST Prioritize--then get it done. I have a number of tasks that I do not want to do. They are never as bad as they seem, once I get started. It's just awfully hard to get started. <BR> But this is just like my Elliptical Experiment from a few weeks ago. Getting to the elliptical was hard; staying on the elliptical was easy. <BR> I am applying this to the tasks that are on my list, making me uneasy every time I see them. Wed, 23 Apr 2014 09:24:51 EST Sugar Poisoning! I stopped eating sugar and all other sweeteners five weeks ago. <BR> But today, our friends brought us some homemade Easter sweets and I decided to indulge. Big mistake. <BR> My heart is racing, I am anxious, hyperventilating, and I feel like I'm going to faint. But I don't feel guilty for eating it. It was science. I recognize that the symptoms are not life-threatening, they will pass, and this was a worthwhile experiment. I have made myself ill before from overindulging in sugar, and this ... Sun, 20 Apr 2014 16:47:02 EST You can't out-train a bad diet. Not that I'm exactly "training…" <BR> Anyway. I formed the morning-walk habit. Yea me! It makes all the difference in the world that it's not, you know, sleeting any more. <BR> But. <BR> I've only lost ONE of the 21 pounds I gained in 4 months. <BR> Time to make some honest dietary changes. <BR> Yes, I gave up sugar, but I am realizing that I didn't eat much sugar to start with. <BR> I know what I have to do--get off the grains. Sigh. I love my carbs. <BR> But I don't like having only 2 ou... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 08:28:13 EST Plans don't get results--actions get results. I looooove to plan. <BR> I make really great lists and charts and if/then scenarios. I have notebooks and clipboards and stuff on the computer that outlines an idealized fitness protocol. I read and research and I have a clear picture of what a fitness lifestyle looks like. <BR> But for the past 5 months, what have I done about it? <BR> Bupkis. <BR> But today I did something. I took my regular walk. And, like my regular walk on Saturday, it made me feel good. It was 30 minutes well spent, a... Wed, 2 Apr 2014 09:13:11 EST I want a payoff for my good habits. Dollars would be good. Euros, pounds, whatever. <BR> Ha ha ha! Pounds! Get it? <BR> The obvious payoff is feeling better, but there is an economic component, too. I have a lot of nice clothing that I am currently unable to wear. When I get back to last year's weight, it will fit me again, and I won't have to struggle (psychologically) with investing in clothes that represent an uncomfortable body shape for me. <BR> Mon, 31 Mar 2014 09:33:40 EST Over the first hurdle in quitting sugar. Well, I successfully avoided the desserts at my book club this week! I didn't miss them at all. I had a cup of decaf & to make it a special treat, I had half & half in it, instead of my usual black coffee. And I honestly didn't miss the dessert, and nobody said anything about my not eating dessert. <BR> Good, that was pretty easy. I hope all the dessert occasions go this well. Thu, 27 Mar 2014 19:55:06 EST "If something is important, do it every day. If it's not important, don't do it at all." -Dan John Maybe "daily elliptical" was a little too ambitious for this time of year, when I am low energy and high stress. I thought it would be an easy week, but it was not. <BR> But I am sugar-free, and that was my largest ambition. I intend to keep non-sugaring myself for as long as I can. Maybe I'll go a whole year, and by then, it'll be a lifelong thing. <BR> I believe in this quote from Dan John. It helps me understand what matters to me. If it matters, I will do it every day. Sugar-free matters... Fri, 21 Mar 2014 07:18:37 EST My frenemy Mr. Scale So…when I weigh myself daily, I keep better track of my habits. When I don't weigh, I don't have any actual feedback on my habits until one by one, my clothes stop fitting. <BR> However, using the scale first thing in the morning is somewhat inconvenient for me because of its location, so I fell out of the habit. <BR> Time to grow up and stop using inconvenience as an excuse! <BR> <BR> Edited to add: So…I weighed myself. And sure enough, I was higher in weight today than the last time I we... Thu, 20 Mar 2014 06:26:34 EST Sometimes B+ is good enough. I have strong perfectionist tendencies, and that has been a downfall for me all of my life. I used to engage in binary thinking, such as, "Anything that's not an A must be an F." This is a recipe for unhappiness. <BR> Shedding this worldview can only make me happier. In the past 10 years or so, I have adopted the attitude that "Done is better than Perfect," and it has served me well. <BR> I'm on track to make a B+ for my goals this week. That's right, I'm not getting straight As. I... Wed, 19 Mar 2014 08:11:05 EST A week at a time--making it extra easy. I am so proud of me. I went to the gym and slogged along on the arc trainer for an hour. woohoo! (I'm not being sarcastic--it really was an accomplishment, seeing as how I haven't set foot in the gym since before the new year.) <BR> I decided that I would make a one-week goal: to get on the elliptical every day for a week. Doesn't matter how long I spend. Doesn't matter if I dial the resistance down to zero. It's totally binary--I used the elliptical, or I didn't. Five minutes is as valid as ... Sun, 16 Mar 2014 12:45:38 EST Exercise opportunities I have lots of opportunities for exercise. <BR> I could do my dumbbell routine with the dumbbells I keep in my solo office. <BR> I could go to one of the 3 or 4 different free gyms on the work premises. <BR> I could go to the gym I pay for but haven't been to in months. <BR> I could walk around the miles of sidewalk at our work premises. <BR> I could walk around the clean, safe sidewalks at home. <BR> I could do yoga in the yoga room at my house. <BR> I could use the dumbbells in my house. <... Thu, 13 Mar 2014 08:38:20 EST The unintended effects of yoga (not a pretty story). When I first started yoga, nine years ago, my friends noticed the psychological effect. They saw less anxiety in me. This was an unintended effect--I only started going to yoga for something to do. I didn't even go for the exercise, just as a pastime. <BR> And then I broke Rule Number One of yoga…I started dating the teacher, who is now my Domestic Partner (DP). Unintended effect #2. <BR> Nowadays, I don't go very often because yoga no longer seems like an outlet for me. I mourn my loss... Sun, 9 Mar 2014 11:54:49 EST The countdown has begun. I decided that I would cut out sugar completely and see how it went--maybe for a month, maybe for 100 days, maybe for a year, maybe forever. <BR> The "first day of the rest of my [month/100 days/year/life]" begins on March 17, just two weeks from now. <BR> There is a great article on kicking sugar on Krista Scott-Dixon's website,, and another good essay by Ryan Andrews on Precision Nutrition. Sun, 2 Mar 2014 21:20:32 EST true confession Today I admitted to my Domestic Partner that I have gained 20 pounds since September. In the past, he has been less than kind (to say the least) about my body when I gained weight, and obviously he has noticed, but putting a number on it was scary. <BR> Gaining 20 pounds in a few months, on a 5' 2" body, is an impressive feat. Let's see how long it takes to go in the other direction. <BR> Wed, 26 Feb 2014 09:31:37 EST Divide and conquer I am up to my highest recent weight--16 pounds above Grudgingly Acceptable Weight, which is my winter standard, or 21 pounds above Ideal Weight. <BR> I have only one thing left to wear, a pair of boot-cut Levis. My other trousers and all of my skirts are too tight. Let's not even discuss my shirts and dresses. <BR> Mon, 24 Feb 2014 08:38:35 EST thinking aloud I have not been living in accordance with what really matters to me. It is getting worse and affecting my entire life. <BR> I have to treat myself like I am important enough to warrant my best care. It is a matter of self-respect and self-preservation. <BR> Sat, 22 Feb 2014 19:09:47 EST How I made it through the even-more-snow season a few years ago We had a big-snow-season about 4 winters ago. Somehow, it was less soul-destroying than this year has been. Granted, I am going through a vulnerable phase right now, but something was different. <BR> Aha, I know what it was. In the year of the biggest snows ever, we had a "healthy living" contest at work for the whole month of January. We amassed points for eating 5 vegetables a day, drinking water, exercising, and other components of healthy living. And I came in first place! I won a gift ca... Wed, 19 Feb 2014 08:29:47 EST Spring is not far away (it's just underneath the snow, I guess) There are little bunches of daffodils in the supermarket already--that's good news, right? We are past the half-way mark of February, and March means spring. Or almost spring, anyway. Spring comes late in the northeast. <BR> DP is supposed to go to his dad's house for the weekend but the snow may delay him by a day. I hope he does not take the risk and drive anyway. <BR> I considered a supermarket run before the snow, but let's be honest--I just wanted the half-price chocolates. <BR> Maybe I... Sat, 15 Feb 2014 10:03:21 EST Try again later. Well, best laid plans and all that. <BR> Winter is not my season. My energy and ambition are at their lowest ebb. I have not been consistent nor motivated. <BR> I am not tracking any thing, except my exercise which happens maybe twice a week. My eating is completely unplanned and disorganized. <BR> It's all right. When I can, I will, but right now it is challenging enough to just manage my life, my family, my job. Not necessarily in that order. Sat, 1 Feb 2014 08:15:38 EST Resisting temptation, for as long as I can... Yesterday was our monthly coffee-and-dessert meeting at work. The dessert is usually some not-fancy cupcakes, which I pre-decided to skip. I planned to just have coffee with half-and-half (I drink black coffee except as a special treat). <BR> The caterers did not get the cupcake delivery today, so they sent a tray of pastries and mini-cheesecakes. I stuck to my plan anyway. Yea for me! <BR> But at 10:30 pm, I made an enormous bowl of frozen-banana "ice cream" with walnuts. I weighed it befor... Thu, 23 Jan 2014 08:45:59 EST Setting the home environment The DP wants to lose a few pounds too. Excellent! Maybe this means he won't need peanut butter and crackers, chocolate bars, and the other stuff he buys & I eat. <BR> But the best news is, he just ordered an exercise bike for the house. Have I mentioned how much I dislike the cold weather? I have not been outside to exercise since the clocks changed. Our old (like, 1970s old) exercise bike started making a horrible grinding noise and we could not fix it, so he gave it to the scrap-metal guy ... Wed, 22 Jan 2014 08:51:29 EST instant gratification I did an hour of cardio yesterday (should have done half an hour! I'm so out of shape!) and kept my calories low, no added sugar at all… <BR> …and the scale went down by half a pound. <BR> It's just a fluctuation, of course, but it did feel good to get a "reward" for keeping on plan for…let's see, how many days? Oh yeah--one. <BR> (Yes, I am a daily weigher. I know that it is not recommended, but it helps me stay on track. If I had weighed myself between Thanksgiving and yesterday, I probably... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 07:24:27 EST Setting the parameters and recommitting. I have gained 10.5 pounds since thanksgiving, which was my last weigh-in. <BR> I was already 2.5 pounds above Acceptable Winter Weight, so that makes 12.5 to lose. <BR> Acceptable Winter Weight is 5 pounds above Summer Weight, so I want to lose 17.5 pounds in total, starting today -- January 20 to May 20. A pound a week. <BR> Consistency is the key. Find my groove and stay in it. Mon, 20 Jan 2014 09:39:14 EST At least... It is not easy for me to keep a routine when I am away from home, but at least I have kept my sign-in streak. <BR> Sometimes, doing "the least" is as much as I can manage. <BR> I now recognize that that is why SparkPeople uses the 10-minute exercise principle. I have not kept to that, and it would be a good thing for me. I did not think I needed it because I used to do 2 hours of exercise per day, so what good would 10 minutes do? <BR> Note to self: "used to" is in the past and confers no be... Sat, 11 Jan 2014 10:26:36 EST Making my own health my priority. I cannot spend my life placating someone else. Thu, 9 Jan 2014 08:19:22 EST Best wishes to all for a healthy, happy new year. Today is a fresh new start. <BR> But so is every day. <BR> Here's to a year of happiness and strength. Wed, 1 Jan 2014 05:48:24 EST Today, I will take care of today. I have not been taking morning walks or packing my preferred lunch. <BR> Today I did both & feel the better for it. <BR> I often look at things in terms of "must do every day." <BR> But today I can only take care of today. <BR> I only have to take my morning walk today, and I only have to pack my lunch today. <BR> But every day that I do it makes it easier for the next day. <BR> Mon, 23 Dec 2013 11:10:46 EST Exercise goals I listed a goal of 12,000 minutes of exercise in 2013, but I kept quiet about my actual goal of 24,000 minutes--400 hours of exercise in a year. <BR> Somewhere around late October, I realized that I was not going to make 24,000, but I settled on 20,000 as a marker of success--333 hours a year. Looks like I will just about make it. <BR> Next year's goal will be 21,900 minutes, the equivalent of one hour per day. I would like to exceed my goal, but if I make an hour a day, I will be pleased and... Sat, 21 Dec 2013 11:07:05 EST Woohoo, vacation. Plans are finalized for going on a beach vacation in January. <BR> Obviously, this is delightful. <BR> As vacations go, it is affordable (staying home is cheaper, but DP really needs this). <BR> Throw a couple of swimsuits and sundresses in a carry-on, and away we go. <BR> Fri, 20 Dec 2013 09:56:18 EST They're holi-DAYS, not holi-WEEKS. We might be going on a beach vacation. <BR> In three weeks from now. Three holiday weeks. <BR> We all see the problem with this, right? <BR> I'm not even talking about the money (don't get me started on that). I'm talking about wearing my skimpiest clothes at my plumpest time of year. <BR> But it would be a mistake to allow a few pounds to ruin my fun (and DP's--after all, I'm doing this primarily to make him happy). <BR> I will use this as a wake-up call to get back on track, to get some e... Mon, 16 Dec 2013 05:51:34 EST one baby step Last week, I went to my usual 90-minute yoga class on Sunday, and that was all of my exercise for the entire week. I skipped every single day of yoga. <BR> I completely quit taking morning walks when the clocks changed, I do no gym cardio, and my strength training (aside from the body-weight aspect of Ashtanga yoga) is nonexistent. So no yoga class = no exercise at all. <BR> Today's yoga class was cancelled because of weather, so I did my 30-minute standing practice at home…in the dedicated ... Sun, 15 Dec 2013 10:14:06 EST Allowing for circumstances. Thanksgiving. done <BR> Hanukkah. done. <BR> DP's birthday. done <BR> Bar mitzvah. done <BR> Christmas eve. <BR> Christmas day. <BR> New year's eve. <BR> New year's day. <BR> Four holidays down, four to go. I am already a few pounds over my preferred winter weight, and I have not been getting any exercise. Yoga doesn't really count as exercise to me, although I log it on my tracker. I want to get back on the elliptical and the weight floor. Inertia is holding me back. Wed, 11 Dec 2013 07:51:56 EST How do you make God laugh? Tell Him your plans. Yeah, so guess what I did on Thanksgiving. <BR> I ate everything in sight. <BR> And on Friday and Saturday we went out to the diner. <BR> And we got desserts after that. Sun, 1 Dec 2013 12:04:51 EST Weighing in and rethinking goal Well, for some reason I thought I was still gaining weight. My clothes have not been tight, but I assumed they were just stretched out! <BR> My weigh-in showed that I am at a very reasonable 2 pounds over Grudgingly Acceptable Weight, which is a perfectly nice weight for me. <BR> From observing my own rhythm of weight and lifestyle, I think it makes sense to set different goals for the change in seasons. Grudgingly Acceptable Weight makes a lovely winter goal weight. It is five pounds higher... Wed, 27 Nov 2013 09:15:04 EST One more holiday--I mean, two more! I almost forgot that DP's birthday is next week! <BR> That means…well, I don't know what that means. Falling between two weekends that are busy with his family stuff, I don't know when he wants to celebrate. He works evenings during the week, so it gets a little complicated. <BR> Add on another high calorie day! <BR> I just realized that Hanukkah starts this week, too. I only make latkes once a year, and it might not be for Hanukkah this time. It might have to wait for, I don't know, New Yea... Mon, 25 Nov 2013 07:14:41 EST Keeping the holiday(s) in perspective My dress for the bar mitzvah is a little tight around the hips, and the bar mitzvah is in 13 days. And one of those days is Thanksgiving. <BR> The keyword here is "one." For ONE day, I plan to eat whatever I like. We travel for thanksgiving, but we are bringing some food & doing some cooking together at the host's house. It'll be fun! And I'll be able to fit into the dress for the next weekend, because I am eating responsibly and exercising more on Every. Other. Day. between now and then. <BR... Sun, 24 Nov 2013 11:31:12 EST Weekend ahead. I will set a goal to fill 4 boxes of clothing and household items to donate. That seems reasonable and I will be able to chip away at some of the excess in my life. <BR> I will maintain my exercise schedule on the weekends, which is usually consistent, barring family emergencies. <BR> I will manage my consumption, probably better than I do during the week. <BR> And I will get full nights of sleep…maybe. This will be the hardest. Fri, 8 Nov 2013 08:16:18 EST Seasons change, situations change. I am learning to accept that I cannot simultaneously perform all of my roles to the best of my ability. I cannot exercise 2 hours a day and have a full-time job and grad school and a house and a domestic partner and a family and friends and, and, and... <BR> Maybe it is all right to run at maintenance level--a reasonable amount of exercise and a reasonable way of eating. So I will not be the slimmest woman in the room. Do I really care? Wouldn't I rather finish my education and see my friends... Thu, 7 Nov 2013 07:53:14 EST Quotation that I should get tattooed on myself. "It is the greatest of all mistakes to do nothing because you can only do a little. Do what you can." <BR> --Sydney Smith <BR> Wed, 6 Nov 2013 07:16:05 EST I must learn to say NO! I have an obligation today that I could easily have avoided by saying NO! <BR> But saying "no" to anyone makes me feel guilty--as though I exist only to meet other people's wishes. <BR> This obligation takes me out of my comfort zone & uses time that I need to delegate elsewhere. It was not an unreasonable request, by any means, but I should have put my OWN wishes ahead of my sense of obligation, and made a graceful refusal. <BR> <BR> Tue, 5 Nov 2013 07:58:35 EST Gratitude and appreciation for my life The sun is out earlier, which is the very best thing about the clock change! <BR> I woke up in a warm house with plenty of food to eat. <BR> My body is healthy enough and strong enough to do everything necessary in my day. <BR> I am blessed to have a reasonably secure job that provides a decent living in a safe environment. <BR> My family is safe and secure, with homes and food and work of their own, and their health is not in jeopardy. <BR> When I start feeling petty and cranky over DRESSES ... Mon, 4 Nov 2013 07:34:20 EST Adjusting to the change in time. You wouldn't think one little hour would make that much difference, would you? But it always messes me up. Spring and fall, I'm extra-tired and low on energy when the clocks change. But maybe this year I will beat it. I stayed up crazy-late on Saturday--I was taking care of my grand-boy while my daughter went out & didn't get home until 1:00, then couldn't get to sleep until 3:00--so actually it was 2:00 with the clock change. <BR> Awake again by 6:45, so not much sleep, but I feel all right.... Sun, 3 Nov 2013 08:11:37 EST