SADAPARIBHUTA's SparkPeople Blog SADAPARIBHUTA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community A funny thing happened on the way to the Bat Mitzvah... I'm going to a Bat Mitzvah next week, so I gave my outfit a dress rehearsal, even though I'm wearing the same outfit as the last Bat Mitzvah, six weeks ago. <BR> Good. Thing. I. Checked. <BR> The dress SHRANK in my CLOSET! <BR> It's the only possible explanation! <BR> The little angel on my one shoulder said, "It'll be fine! Just wear some Spanx!" <BR> The little devil on my other shoulder said, "I'M ALREADY WEARING THE SPANX!" <BR> Okay, one shopping trip later, I have a backup dress. Jus... Sat, 16 Jan 2016 17:27:43 EST One thing leads to another---good or bad! Okay, not doing great with the lifestyle choices. I had an emotional shock and my birthday celebrations 2 weeks ago, but after the weeklong indulgence I should have gone back to living a life that made me feel good & keep on my weight-loss. <BR> But noooooo! I'm overindulging and not even bothering with my daily walks, which I think of as medicine--my anti-depressant! <BR> Add on some work stress, and I've got pretty close to the perfect storm brewing. <BR> Time to regain control of my own li... Sat, 26 Sep 2015 12:04:41 EST Recalibrating. I took a week to indulge shamelessly. <BR> And I am looking forward to getting back to normal! Also, last week, circumstances kept me away from the gym/exercise for days on end, so I want to get back to regular exercise. <BR> So, recalibrating my behavior and my goals. <BR> I had set my Goal Date for DP's birthday, at the beginning of December. But I have demonstrated a tendency to keep on plan until I yell, "GOOOOOOALLLL!" and then fall off the wagon. so I'm extending my goal date thru the ... Tue, 22 Sep 2015 07:12:50 EST It's just like riding a bike! Except, easier. I have never liked cycling. I've had several bikes, but they weren't fun or comfortable, even when I was a kid. The only time I rode consistently was on a trainer in my living room; no traffic, no balancing, and quit anytime without having to ride home! <BR> But now I have a mountain bike. The Domestic Partner (DP) is a longtime mountain biker, and still mountain bikes although he's pushing 60. I used to force myself to go with him, but not for the past couple of years -- I've been out of sha... Sun, 20 Sep 2015 08:06:33 EST Changing a plan, planning a change. I had planned an indulgent weekend, but had an unusual week, so the plan changes. I did not keep to my usual "careful eating & abundant exercise" plan during the week. I am scaling back the weekend, and Monday will return to completely on-plan. Fri, 18 Sep 2015 15:33:45 EST Planning ahead Next weekend is a special occasion & I am allowing myself to make a planned digression from my regular eating habits. Friday, Saturday, and Sunday, the 18th to the 20th, are going to be craaazy indulgence days. <BR> And then I will turn back into a pumpkin on Monday the 21st! <BR> <em>30</em> <em>147</em> Sun, 13 Sep 2015 19:23:55 EST Rethinking my weight goal I had set an aggressive weight goal that is achievable, but demanding total compliance and very little scope for spontaneity or celebration. <BR> On top of that, I set the goal date for the winter holiday season. <BR> I've reconsidered and decided to up my goal by 5 pounds. There is no earthly reason I have to be ultra-slender. I'm not a model or a ballerina. And I'd rather have fun now and then. Sat, 12 Sep 2015 09:41:53 EST When the thrill is gone... ...the habit remains. <BR> I was all excited about starting, and the gym and the food plan felt super-cool. <BR> Now it's become less of, "Woohoo, gym time!" and, "Protein shake! Ohhh, yeah!" and more of, "Yeah, I'm on my way to the gym," and, "Nah, I'll pass on the pizza." <BR> In other words, it's just my routine. <BR> But as Christine Lavin says, "It's a fine line between a groove and a rut." Right now, it's my groove. I still feel good about it. When it gets to be a rut, I'll change up s... Fri, 11 Sep 2015 08:16:31 EST The pizza is free money-wise, but costly in other ways. We have free lunch today at work! Yea! <BR>'s pizza. It is way off of my eating plan. If I'm going to indulge, this is not the mode that I'd choose. So I've made a solid decision to eat my regular lunch instead. <BR> Breaking the routine is a slippery slope for an all-or-nothing gal like me. <BR> Happy to say that, so far, I don't feel sorry for myself. This is not the last pizza on earth. There will be plenty more, another time! Wed, 9 Sep 2015 09:01:09 EST I went to a fabulous dinner party and all I got was one extra pound. Well, that was a great party! Lots of DP's old friends from his misspent youth! Lovely people, fabulous food, and pleasant conversation. <BR> I was not stringent, just mindful about what I ate, small quantities and a nice variety with lots of vegetables. <BR> I don't go to parties every day, so I treated myself to a tiny sliver of lemon custard pie, another sliver of pecan pie, and a serving of almond pound cake, all of which I loved, and could have had more, but mindfulness triumphed! <BR> ... Sun, 6 Sep 2015 09:33:26 EST Ratatouille! We are going to friends' house this evening for a large dinner party. The hosts are absolutely fantastic cooks--they could be restauranteurs! <BR> We always offer to bring a dish, so I am going to make my beloved, super-easy, adaptation of ratatouille. <BR> It's good to have a go-to recipe in my back pocket. Sat, 5 Sep 2015 10:38:40 EST Two week streak! I came back to Sparkpeople after our summer vacation, 2 weeks ago, and I'm building some good habits: <BR> 1. Sparkpeople: logging my food and exercise <BR> 2. Gym, 6 days per week. It doesn't matter what I do there--Just Go! <BR> 3. Morning walks--1/2 hour unless it's pouring (1/2 hour of yoga on rainy days) <BR> 4. Eating in a way that works for me <BR> First and foremost, tracking on Sparkpeople keeps me aware. This is a major success factor. Sat, 29 Aug 2015 07:16:04 EST Beginner's luck I am enjoying the honeymoon phase--the first week back to good habits, where the results kick in and the scale drops a little every day. I know it can't last--I already had a day where my weight went UP a little, but it plummeted again the next day, because honeymoon. <BR> Went to the gym 6 days, Sunday to Friday, and am taking the day off today in favor of a family birthday party--also to rest! My 30 minute walk and some easy yoga should help with the muscle soreness from yesterday's return... Sat, 22 Aug 2015 08:31:51 EST Sparkpeople may be habit-forming. In the best way possible!! <BR> I have gone to the gym every day after work. Sometimes I didn't want to, but I wanted to write it in on Sparkpeople. <BR> Also, logged all my food, even the sample of cake that I ate at the grocery store because free cake = all other thoughts disappear from my head. Must. Eat. Cake. <BR> But overall I've made excellent choices for food and exercise, because I have the structure & positive reinforcement of recording it on Sparkpeople. Fri, 21 Aug 2015 08:44:49 EST Back to basics. My Domestic Partner (DP) made fun of me for using Sparkpeople. He doesn't realize that it hurt my feelings & deterred me from a necessary resource. <BR> Since I fell out of Sparkpeople, I stopped recording my food and exercise. Without this structure/accountability, I also stopped being selective about my food and doing my exercise. Result: I weigh 35 pounds more than I want to. AAAHH! That's a lie. I weigh 38 pounds more. That's a lot for a short, small-boned person. <BR> So let's begin. I... Sun, 16 Aug 2015 09:15:46 EST Hard to believe, but... …yoga at the Senior Citizens' Center left me sore for two days! <BR> Astounding to realize that I am a senior citizen, according to our town. How on earth did this happen? In my mind, I'm only 28 years old--half my calendar age. Wow. <BR> <BR> <BR> Mon, 2 Mar 2015 09:13:25 EST Not my idea of a holiday weekend. I've been sick in bed since Friday. So my exercise minutes are zero, possibly fewer, and my calorie count is pretty close to that, too. I'm on the Diluted Gatorade and a Couple Bites of Banana diet. <BR> Pretty sure I'll have to call out of work tomorrow. <BR> But life is still good! <BR> <em>87</em> <em>67</em> <em>125</em> Mon, 16 Feb 2015 17:28:33 EST Back to Yoga! Hooray! Oh. My. Goodness. <BR> I went to "all levels" yoga with the Domestic Partner on Tuesday and Wednesday evenings. <BR> It Kicked My Butt! It felt like it was my first day of yoga. <BR> I am going to do my own yoga practice today. It's not going to be "All Levels." It's going to be "My Level." <BR> <em>403</em> Thu, 12 Feb 2015 08:58:59 EST Sparkpeople works! …when you use it. <BR> I have not been measuring, tracking, exercising, or eating for health. <BR> And guess what? I gained weight! <BR> I'm now almost 40 pounds above my goal--goal being what I weighed in the fall of 2013. <BR> That makes me officially overweight. <BR> I'm going to think of this as making my comeback. Mon, 9 Feb 2015 12:20:37 EST Don't take the bait. If I lived alone, there would not be cupcakes and ice cream in my house. But I don't live alone; I live with a skinny man. <BR> I realize that it is my responsibility to ignore the cupcakes and ice cream. I'm an adult, and I make decisions for myself, right? And my decision is that he's welcome to his snack treats, and I don't have to eat them just because they are here. <BR> It's hard, though. I like cupcakes. I like ice cream. But I also like fitting into the closet full of clothes that I ... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 08:22:22 EST Short-term S.M.A.R.T. goal I committed to teaching a yoga mini-workshop five weeks from today. Can I lose ten pounds in time for the workshop? <BR> Here is my SMART goal analysis: <BR> S=specific (ten pounds) <BR> M=measurable (I have a scale) <BR> A=attainable (2 pounds a week is feasible) <BR> R=relevant (yoga practice is easier when I am slimmer) <BR> T=timed (five weeks, baby!) <BR> Here is my plan of attack: <BR> Daily walk, 30 minutes; daily yoga, 30 minutes. More of each will be a bonus, but 30/30 is the commit... Thu, 21 Aug 2014 10:39:09 EST "The year that we were in shape" A few years back, when my youngest daughter lived at home, we committed to our fitness. We started with walking, the same 2-mile route that I walk now, before work every morning and after work every evening, Monday thru Friday. We still call that "the year that we were in shape." <BR> We also started taking yoga classes and joined a gym that summer (which becomes a whole 'nother story), but the walking habit is what got us in shape. We were darn near 100% consistent. My daughter wasn'... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 09:16:43 EST The last straw! I had to buy larger pants last weekend. Two sizes larger! <BR> Was it fun? Why, no…no it wasn't. <BR> Oh well, at least it galvanized me into performing better habits this week. <BR> Sat, 31 May 2014 12:48:23 EST Prioritize--then get it done. I have a number of tasks that I do not want to do. They are never as bad as they seem, once I get started. It's just awfully hard to get started. <BR> But this is just like my Elliptical Experiment from a few weeks ago. Getting to the elliptical was hard; staying on the elliptical was easy. <BR> I am applying this to the tasks that are on my list, making me uneasy every time I see them. Wed, 23 Apr 2014 09:24:51 EST Sugar Poisoning! I stopped eating sugar and all other sweeteners five weeks ago. <BR> But today, our friends brought us some homemade Easter sweets and I decided to indulge. Big mistake. <BR> My heart is racing, I am anxious, hyperventilating, and I feel like I'm going to faint. But I don't feel guilty for eating it. It was science. I recognize that the symptoms are not life-threatening, they will pass, and this was a worthwhile experiment. I have made myself ill before from overindulging in sugar, and this ... Sun, 20 Apr 2014 16:47:02 EST You can't out-train a bad diet. Not that I'm exactly "training…" <BR> Anyway. I formed the morning-walk habit. Yea me! It makes all the difference in the world that it's not, you know, sleeting any more. <BR> But. <BR> I've only lost ONE of the 21 pounds I gained in 4 months. <BR> Time to make some honest dietary changes. <BR> Yes, I gave up sugar, but I am realizing that I didn't eat much sugar to start with. <BR> I know what I have to do--get off the grains. Sigh. I love my carbs. <BR> But I don't like having only 2 ou... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 08:28:13 EST Plans don't get results--actions get results. I looooove to plan. <BR> I make really great lists and charts and if/then scenarios. I have notebooks and clipboards and stuff on the computer that outlines an idealized fitness protocol. I read and research and I have a clear picture of what a fitness lifestyle looks like. <BR> But for the past 5 months, what have I done about it? <BR> Bupkis. <BR> But today I did something. I took my regular walk. And, like my regular walk on Saturday, it made me feel good. It was 30 minutes well spent, a... Wed, 2 Apr 2014 09:13:11 EST I want a payoff for my good habits. Dollars would be good. Euros, pounds, whatever. <BR> Ha ha ha! Pounds! Get it? <BR> The obvious payoff is feeling better, but there is an economic component, too. I have a lot of nice clothing that I am currently unable to wear. When I get back to last year's weight, it will fit me again, and I won't have to struggle (psychologically) with investing in clothes that represent an uncomfortable body shape for me. <BR> Mon, 31 Mar 2014 09:33:40 EST Over the first hurdle in quitting sugar. Well, I successfully avoided the desserts at my book club this week! I didn't miss them at all. I had a cup of decaf & to make it a special treat, I had half & half in it, instead of my usual black coffee. And I honestly didn't miss the dessert, and nobody said anything about my not eating dessert. <BR> Good, that was pretty easy. I hope all the dessert occasions go this well. Thu, 27 Mar 2014 19:55:06 EST "If something is important, do it every day. If it's not important, don't do it at all." -Dan John Maybe "daily elliptical" was a little too ambitious for this time of year, when I am low energy and high stress. I thought it would be an easy week, but it was not. <BR> But I am sugar-free, and that was my largest ambition. I intend to keep non-sugaring myself for as long as I can. Maybe I'll go a whole year, and by then, it'll be a lifelong thing. <BR> I believe in this quote from Dan John. It helps me understand what matters to me. If it matters, I will do it every day. Sugar-free matters... Fri, 21 Mar 2014 07:18:37 EST My frenemy Mr. Scale So…when I weigh myself daily, I keep better track of my habits. When I don't weigh, I don't have any actual feedback on my habits until one by one, my clothes stop fitting. <BR> However, using the scale first thing in the morning is somewhat inconvenient for me because of its location, so I fell out of the habit. <BR> Time to grow up and stop using inconvenience as an excuse! <BR> <BR> Edited to add: So…I weighed myself. And sure enough, I was higher in weight today than the last time I we... Thu, 20 Mar 2014 06:26:34 EST Sometimes B+ is good enough. I have strong perfectionist tendencies, and that has been a downfall for me all of my life. I used to engage in binary thinking, such as, "Anything that's not an A must be an F." This is a recipe for unhappiness. <BR> Shedding this worldview can only make me happier. In the past 10 years or so, I have adopted the attitude that "Done is better than Perfect," and it has served me well. <BR> I'm on track to make a B+ for my goals this week. That's right, I'm not getting straight As. I... Wed, 19 Mar 2014 08:11:05 EST A week at a time--making it extra easy. I am so proud of me. I went to the gym and slogged along on the arc trainer for an hour. woohoo! (I'm not being sarcastic--it really was an accomplishment, seeing as how I haven't set foot in the gym since before the new year.) <BR> I decided that I would make a one-week goal: to get on the elliptical every day for a week. Doesn't matter how long I spend. Doesn't matter if I dial the resistance down to zero. It's totally binary--I used the elliptical, or I didn't. Five minutes is as valid as ... Sun, 16 Mar 2014 12:45:38 EST Exercise opportunities I have lots of opportunities for exercise. <BR> I could do my dumbbell routine with the dumbbells I keep in my solo office. <BR> I could go to one of the 3 or 4 different free gyms on the work premises. <BR> I could go to the gym I pay for but haven't been to in months. <BR> I could walk around the miles of sidewalk at our work premises. <BR> I could walk around the clean, safe sidewalks at home. <BR> I could do yoga in the yoga room at my house. <BR> I could use the dumbbells in my house. <... Thu, 13 Mar 2014 08:38:20 EST The unintended effects of yoga (not a pretty story). When I first started yoga, nine years ago, my friends noticed the psychological effect. They saw less anxiety in me. This was an unintended effect--I only started going to yoga for something to do. I didn't even go for the exercise, just as a pastime. <BR> And then I broke Rule Number One of yoga…I started dating the teacher, who is now my Domestic Partner (DP). Unintended effect #2. <BR> Nowadays, I don't go very often because yoga no longer seems like an outlet for me. I mourn my loss... Sun, 9 Mar 2014 11:54:49 EST The countdown has begun. I decided that I would cut out sugar completely and see how it went--maybe for a month, maybe for 100 days, maybe for a year, maybe forever. <BR> The "first day of the rest of my [month/100 days/year/life]" begins on March 17, just two weeks from now. <BR> There is a great article on kicking sugar on Krista Scott-Dixon's website,, and another good essay by Ryan Andrews on Precision Nutrition. Sun, 2 Mar 2014 21:20:32 EST true confession Today I admitted to my Domestic Partner that I have gained 20 pounds since September. In the past, he has been less than kind (to say the least) about my body when I gained weight, and obviously he has noticed, but putting a number on it was scary. <BR> Gaining 20 pounds in a few months, on a 5' 2" body, is an impressive feat. Let's see how long it takes to go in the other direction. <BR> Wed, 26 Feb 2014 09:31:37 EST Divide and conquer I am up to my highest recent weight--16 pounds above Grudgingly Acceptable Weight, which is my winter standard, or 21 pounds above Ideal Weight. <BR> I have only one thing left to wear, a pair of boot-cut Levis. My other trousers and all of my skirts are too tight. Let's not even discuss my shirts and dresses. <BR> Mon, 24 Feb 2014 08:38:35 EST thinking aloud I have not been living in accordance with what really matters to me. It is getting worse and affecting my entire life. <BR> I have to treat myself like I am important enough to warrant my best care. It is a matter of self-respect and self-preservation. <BR> Sat, 22 Feb 2014 19:09:47 EST How I made it through the even-more-snow season a few years ago We had a big-snow-season about 4 winters ago. Somehow, it was less soul-destroying than this year has been. Granted, I am going through a vulnerable phase right now, but something was different. <BR> Aha, I know what it was. In the year of the biggest snows ever, we had a "healthy living" contest at work for the whole month of January. We amassed points for eating 5 vegetables a day, drinking water, exercising, and other components of healthy living. And I came in first place! I won a gift ca... Wed, 19 Feb 2014 08:29:47 EST Spring is not far away (it's just underneath the snow, I guess) There are little bunches of daffodils in the supermarket already--that's good news, right? We are past the half-way mark of February, and March means spring. Or almost spring, anyway. Spring comes late in the northeast. <BR> DP is supposed to go to his dad's house for the weekend but the snow may delay him by a day. I hope he does not take the risk and drive anyway. <BR> I considered a supermarket run before the snow, but let's be honest--I just wanted the half-price chocolates. <BR> Maybe I... Sat, 15 Feb 2014 10:03:21 EST Try again later. Well, best laid plans and all that. <BR> Winter is not my season. My energy and ambition are at their lowest ebb. I have not been consistent nor motivated. <BR> I am not tracking any thing, except my exercise which happens maybe twice a week. My eating is completely unplanned and disorganized. <BR> It's all right. When I can, I will, but right now it is challenging enough to just manage my life, my family, my job. Not necessarily in that order. Sat, 1 Feb 2014 08:15:38 EST Resisting temptation, for as long as I can... Yesterday was our monthly coffee-and-dessert meeting at work. The dessert is usually some not-fancy cupcakes, which I pre-decided to skip. I planned to just have coffee with half-and-half (I drink black coffee except as a special treat). <BR> The caterers did not get the cupcake delivery today, so they sent a tray of pastries and mini-cheesecakes. I stuck to my plan anyway. Yea for me! <BR> But at 10:30 pm, I made an enormous bowl of frozen-banana "ice cream" with walnuts. I weighed it befor... Thu, 23 Jan 2014 08:45:59 EST Setting the home environment The DP wants to lose a few pounds too. Excellent! Maybe this means he won't need peanut butter and crackers, chocolate bars, and the other stuff he buys & I eat. <BR> But the best news is, he just ordered an exercise bike for the house. Have I mentioned how much I dislike the cold weather? I have not been outside to exercise since the clocks changed. Our old (like, 1970s old) exercise bike started making a horrible grinding noise and we could not fix it, so he gave it to the scrap-metal guy ... Wed, 22 Jan 2014 08:51:29 EST instant gratification I did an hour of cardio yesterday (should have done half an hour! I'm so out of shape!) and kept my calories low, no added sugar at all… <BR> …and the scale went down by half a pound. <BR> It's just a fluctuation, of course, but it did feel good to get a "reward" for keeping on plan for…let's see, how many days? Oh yeah--one. <BR> (Yes, I am a daily weigher. I know that it is not recommended, but it helps me stay on track. If I had weighed myself between Thanksgiving and yesterday, I probably... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 07:24:27 EST Setting the parameters and recommitting. I have gained 10.5 pounds since thanksgiving, which was my last weigh-in. <BR> I was already 2.5 pounds above Acceptable Winter Weight, so that makes 12.5 to lose. <BR> Acceptable Winter Weight is 5 pounds above Summer Weight, so I want to lose 17.5 pounds in total, starting today -- January 20 to May 20. A pound a week. <BR> Consistency is the key. Find my groove and stay in it. Mon, 20 Jan 2014 09:39:14 EST At least... It is not easy for me to keep a routine when I am away from home, but at least I have kept my sign-in streak. <BR> Sometimes, doing "the least" is as much as I can manage. <BR> I now recognize that that is why SparkPeople uses the 10-minute exercise principle. I have not kept to that, and it would be a good thing for me. I did not think I needed it because I used to do 2 hours of exercise per day, so what good would 10 minutes do? <BR> Note to self: "used to" is in the past and confers no be... Sat, 11 Jan 2014 10:26:36 EST Making my own health my priority. I cannot spend my life placating someone else. Thu, 9 Jan 2014 08:19:22 EST Best wishes to all for a healthy, happy new year. Today is a fresh new start. <BR> But so is every day. <BR> Here's to a year of happiness and strength. Wed, 1 Jan 2014 05:48:24 EST Today, I will take care of today. I have not been taking morning walks or packing my preferred lunch. <BR> Today I did both & feel the better for it. <BR> I often look at things in terms of "must do every day." <BR> But today I can only take care of today. <BR> I only have to take my morning walk today, and I only have to pack my lunch today. <BR> But every day that I do it makes it easier for the next day. <BR> Mon, 23 Dec 2013 11:10:46 EST