SADAPARIBHUTA's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=SADAPARIBHUTA SADAPARIBHUTA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Don't take the bait. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767897 If I lived alone, there would not be cupcakes and ice cream in my house. But I don't live alone; I live with a skinny man. <BR> I realize that it is my responsibility to ignore the cupcakes and ice cream. I'm an adult, and I make decisions for myself, right? And my decision is that he's welcome to his snack treats, and I don't have to eat them just because they are here. <BR> It's hard, though. I like cupcakes. I like ice cream. But I also like fitting into the closet full of clothes that I ... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 08:22:22 EST Short-term S.M.A.R.T. goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5764199 I committed to teaching a yoga mini-workshop five weeks from today. Can I lose ten pounds in time for the workshop? <BR> Here is my SMART goal analysis: <BR> S=specific (ten pounds) <BR> M=measurable (I have a scale) <BR> A=attainable (2 pounds a week is feasible) <BR> R=relevant (yoga practice is easier when I am slimmer) <BR> T=timed (five weeks, baby!) <BR> Here is my plan of attack: <BR> Daily walk, 30 minutes; daily yoga, 30 minutes. More of each will be a bonus, but 30/30 is the commit... Thu, 21 Aug 2014 10:39:09 EST "The year that we were in shape" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5762752 A few years back, when my youngest daughter lived at home, we committed to our fitness. We started with walking, the same 2-mile route that I walk now, before work every morning and after work every evening, Monday thru Friday. We still call that "the year that we were in shape." <BR> We also started taking yoga classes and joined a gym that summer (which becomes a whole 'nother story), but the walking habit is what got us in shape. We were darn near 100% consistent. My daughter wasn'... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 09:16:43 EST The last straw! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5707479 I had to buy larger pants last weekend. Two sizes larger! <BR> Was it fun? Why, no…no it wasn't. <BR> Oh well, at least it galvanized me into performing better habits this week. <BR> Sat, 31 May 2014 12:48:23 EST Prioritize--then get it done. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5678534 I have a number of tasks that I do not want to do. They are never as bad as they seem, once I get started. It's just awfully hard to get started. <BR> But this is just like my Elliptical Experiment from a few weeks ago. Getting to the elliptical was hard; staying on the elliptical was easy. <BR> I am applying this to the tasks that are on my list, making me uneasy every time I see them. Wed, 23 Apr 2014 09:24:51 EST Sugar Poisoning! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5676474 I stopped eating sugar and all other sweeteners five weeks ago. <BR> But today, our friends brought us some homemade Easter sweets and I decided to indulge. Big mistake. <BR> My heart is racing, I am anxious, hyperventilating, and I feel like I'm going to faint. But I don't feel guilty for eating it. It was science. I recognize that the symptoms are not life-threatening, they will pass, and this was a worthwhile experiment. I have made myself ill before from overindulging in sugar, and this ... Sun, 20 Apr 2014 16:47:02 EST You can't out-train a bad diet. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5670324 Not that I'm exactly "training…" <BR> Anyway. I formed the morning-walk habit. Yea me! It makes all the difference in the world that it's not, you know, sleeting any more. <BR> But. <BR> I've only lost ONE of the 21 pounds I gained in 4 months. <BR> Time to make some honest dietary changes. <BR> Yes, I gave up sugar, but I am realizing that I didn't eat much sugar to start with. <BR> I know what I have to do--get off the grains. Sigh. I love my carbs. <BR> But I don't like having only 2 ou... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 08:28:13 EST Plans don't get results--actions get results. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5662451 I looooove to plan. <BR> I make really great lists and charts and if/then scenarios. I have notebooks and clipboards and stuff on the computer that outlines an idealized fitness protocol. I read and research and I have a clear picture of what a fitness lifestyle looks like. <BR> But for the past 5 months, what have I done about it? <BR> Bupkis. <BR> But today I did something. I took my regular walk. And, like my regular walk on Saturday, it made me feel good. It was 30 minutes well spent, a... Wed, 2 Apr 2014 09:13:11 EST I want a payoff for my good habits. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5660665 Dollars would be good. Euros, pounds, whatever. <BR> Ha ha ha! Pounds! Get it? <BR> The obvious payoff is feeling better, but there is an economic component, too. I have a lot of nice clothing that I am currently unable to wear. When I get back to last year's weight, it will fit me again, and I won't have to struggle (psychologically) with investing in clothes that represent an uncomfortable body shape for me. <BR> Mon, 31 Mar 2014 09:33:40 EST Over the first hurdle in quitting sugar. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5658075 Well, I successfully avoided the desserts at my book club this week! I didn't miss them at all. I had a cup of decaf & to make it a special treat, I had half & half in it, instead of my usual black coffee. And I honestly didn't miss the dessert, and nobody said anything about my not eating dessert. <BR> Good, that was pretty easy. I hope all the dessert occasions go this well. Thu, 27 Mar 2014 19:55:06 EST "If something is important, do it every day. If it's not important, don't do it at all." -Dan John http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5652955 Maybe "daily elliptical" was a little too ambitious for this time of year, when I am low energy and high stress. I thought it would be an easy week, but it was not. <BR> But I am sugar-free, and that was my largest ambition. I intend to keep non-sugaring myself for as long as I can. Maybe I'll go a whole year, and by then, it'll be a lifelong thing. <BR> I believe in this quote from Dan John. It helps me understand what matters to me. If it matters, I will do it every day. Sugar-free matters... Fri, 21 Mar 2014 07:18:37 EST My frenemy Mr. Scale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5652112 So…when I weigh myself daily, I keep better track of my habits. When I don't weigh, I don't have any actual feedback on my habits until one by one, my clothes stop fitting. <BR> However, using the scale first thing in the morning is somewhat inconvenient for me because of its location, so I fell out of the habit. <BR> Time to grow up and stop using inconvenience as an excuse! <BR> <BR> Edited to add: So…I weighed myself. And sure enough, I was higher in weight today than the last time I we... Thu, 20 Mar 2014 06:26:34 EST Sometimes B+ is good enough. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5651349 I have strong perfectionist tendencies, and that has been a downfall for me all of my life. I used to engage in binary thinking, such as, "Anything that's not an A must be an F." This is a recipe for unhappiness. <BR> Shedding this worldview can only make me happier. In the past 10 years or so, I have adopted the attitude that "Done is better than Perfect," and it has served me well. <BR> I'm on track to make a B+ for my goals this week. That's right, I'm not getting straight As. I... Wed, 19 Mar 2014 08:11:05 EST A week at a time--making it extra easy. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5649129 I am so proud of me. I went to the gym and slogged along on the arc trainer for an hour. woohoo! (I'm not being sarcastic--it really was an accomplishment, seeing as how I haven't set foot in the gym since before the new year.) <BR> I decided that I would make a one-week goal: to get on the elliptical every day for a week. Doesn't matter how long I spend. Doesn't matter if I dial the resistance down to zero. It's totally binary--I used the elliptical, or I didn't. Five minutes is as valid as ... Sun, 16 Mar 2014 12:45:38 EST Exercise opportunities http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5646776 I have lots of opportunities for exercise. <BR> I could do my dumbbell routine with the dumbbells I keep in my solo office. <BR> I could go to one of the 3 or 4 different free gyms on the work premises. <BR> I could go to the gym I pay for but haven't been to in months. <BR> I could walk around the miles of sidewalk at our work premises. <BR> I could walk around the clean, safe sidewalks at home. <BR> I could do yoga in the yoga room at my house. <BR> I could use the dumbbells in my house. <... Thu, 13 Mar 2014 08:38:20 EST The unintended effects of yoga (not a pretty story). http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5643552 When I first started yoga, nine years ago, my friends noticed the psychological effect. They saw less anxiety in me. This was an unintended effect--I only started going to yoga for something to do. I didn't even go for the exercise, just as a pastime. <BR> And then I broke Rule Number One of yoga…I started dating the teacher, who is now my Domestic Partner (DP). Unintended effect #2. <BR> Nowadays, I don't go very often because yoga no longer seems like an outlet for me. I mourn my loss... Sun, 9 Mar 2014 11:54:49 EST The countdown has begun. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5638042 I decided that I would cut out sugar completely and see how it went--maybe for a month, maybe for 100 days, maybe for a year, maybe forever. <BR> The "first day of the rest of my [month/100 days/year/life]" begins on March 17, just two weeks from now. <BR> There is a great article on kicking sugar on Krista Scott-Dixon's website, stumptuous.com, and another good essay by Ryan Andrews on Precision Nutrition. Sun, 2 Mar 2014 21:20:32 EST true confession http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5634164 Today I admitted to my Domestic Partner that I have gained 20 pounds since September. In the past, he has been less than kind (to say the least) about my body when I gained weight, and obviously he has noticed, but putting a number on it was scary. <BR> Gaining 20 pounds in a few months, on a 5' 2" body, is an impressive feat. Let's see how long it takes to go in the other direction. <BR> Wed, 26 Feb 2014 09:31:37 EST Divide and conquer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5632272 I am up to my highest recent weight--16 pounds above Grudgingly Acceptable Weight, which is my winter standard, or 21 pounds above Ideal Weight. <BR> I have only one thing left to wear, a pair of boot-cut Levis. My other trousers and all of my skirts are too tight. Let's not even discuss my shirts and dresses. <BR> Mon, 24 Feb 2014 08:38:35 EST thinking aloud http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5631080 I have not been living in accordance with what really matters to me. It is getting worse and affecting my entire life. <BR> I have to treat myself like I am important enough to warrant my best care. It is a matter of self-respect and self-preservation. <BR> Sat, 22 Feb 2014 19:09:47 EST How I made it through the even-more-snow season a few years ago http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5628090 We had a big-snow-season about 4 winters ago. Somehow, it was less soul-destroying than this year has been. Granted, I am going through a vulnerable phase right now, but something was different. <BR> Aha, I know what it was. In the year of the biggest snows ever, we had a "healthy living" contest at work for the whole month of January. We amassed points for eating 5 vegetables a day, drinking water, exercising, and other components of healthy living. And I came in first place! I won a gift ca... Wed, 19 Feb 2014 08:29:47 EST Spring is not far away (it's just underneath the snow, I guess) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5624631 There are little bunches of daffodils in the supermarket already--that's good news, right? We are past the half-way mark of February, and March means spring. Or almost spring, anyway. Spring comes late in the northeast. <BR> DP is supposed to go to his dad's house for the weekend but the snow may delay him by a day. I hope he does not take the risk and drive anyway. <BR> I considered a supermarket run before the snow, but let's be honest--I just wanted the half-price chocolates. <BR> Maybe I... Sat, 15 Feb 2014 10:03:21 EST Try again later. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5611847 Well, best laid plans and all that. <BR> Winter is not my season. My energy and ambition are at their lowest ebb. I have not been consistent nor motivated. <BR> I am not tracking any thing, except my exercise which happens maybe twice a week. My eating is completely unplanned and disorganized. <BR> It's all right. When I can, I will, but right now it is challenging enough to just manage my life, my family, my job. Not necessarily in that order. Sat, 1 Feb 2014 08:15:38 EST Resisting temptation, for as long as I can... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5603114 Yesterday was our monthly coffee-and-dessert meeting at work. The dessert is usually some not-fancy cupcakes, which I pre-decided to skip. I planned to just have coffee with half-and-half (I drink black coffee except as a special treat). <BR> The caterers did not get the cupcake delivery today, so they sent a tray of pastries and mini-cheesecakes. I stuck to my plan anyway. Yea for me! <BR> But at 10:30 pm, I made an enormous bowl of frozen-banana "ice cream" with walnuts. I weighed it befor... Thu, 23 Jan 2014 08:45:59 EST Setting the home environment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5602071 The DP wants to lose a few pounds too. Excellent! Maybe this means he won't need peanut butter and crackers, chocolate bars, and the other stuff he buys & I eat. <BR> But the best news is, he just ordered an exercise bike for the house. Have I mentioned how much I dislike the cold weather? I have not been outside to exercise since the clocks changed. Our old (like, 1970s old) exercise bike started making a horrible grinding noise and we could not fix it, so he gave it to the scrap-metal guy ... Wed, 22 Jan 2014 08:51:29 EST instant gratification http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5600914 I did an hour of cardio yesterday (should have done half an hour! I'm so out of shape!) and kept my calories low, no added sugar at all… <BR> …and the scale went down by half a pound. <BR> It's just a fluctuation, of course, but it did feel good to get a "reward" for keeping on plan for…let's see, how many days? Oh yeah--one. <BR> (Yes, I am a daily weigher. I know that it is not recommended, but it helps me stay on track. If I had weighed myself between Thanksgiving and yesterday, I probably... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 07:24:27 EST Setting the parameters and recommitting. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5599840 I have gained 10.5 pounds since thanksgiving, which was my last weigh-in. <BR> I was already 2.5 pounds above Acceptable Winter Weight, so that makes 12.5 to lose. <BR> Acceptable Winter Weight is 5 pounds above Summer Weight, so I want to lose 17.5 pounds in total, starting today -- January 20 to May 20. A pound a week. <BR> Consistency is the key. Find my groove and stay in it. Mon, 20 Jan 2014 09:39:14 EST At least... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5590085 It is not easy for me to keep a routine when I am away from home, but at least I have kept my sign-in streak. <BR> Sometimes, doing "the least" is as much as I can manage. <BR> I now recognize that that is why SparkPeople uses the 10-minute exercise principle. I have not kept to that, and it would be a good thing for me. I did not think I needed it because I used to do 2 hours of exercise per day, so what good would 10 minutes do? <BR> Note to self: "used to" is in the past and confers no be... Sat, 11 Jan 2014 10:26:36 EST Making my own health my priority. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5587783 I cannot spend my life placating someone else. Thu, 9 Jan 2014 08:19:22 EST Best wishes to all for a healthy, happy new year. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5577412 Today is a fresh new start. <BR> But so is every day. <BR> Here's to a year of happiness and strength. Wed, 1 Jan 2014 05:48:24 EST Today, I will take care of today. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5570439 I have not been taking morning walks or packing my preferred lunch. <BR> Today I did both & feel the better for it. <BR> I often look at things in terms of "must do every day." <BR> But today I can only take care of today. <BR> I only have to take my morning walk today, and I only have to pack my lunch today. <BR> But every day that I do it makes it easier for the next day. <BR> Mon, 23 Dec 2013 11:10:46 EST Exercise goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5569260 I listed a goal of 12,000 minutes of exercise in 2013, but I kept quiet about my actual goal of 24,000 minutes--400 hours of exercise in a year. <BR> Somewhere around late October, I realized that I was not going to make 24,000, but I settled on 20,000 as a marker of success--333 hours a year. Looks like I will just about make it. <BR> Next year's goal will be 21,900 minutes, the equivalent of one hour per day. I would like to exceed my goal, but if I make an hour a day, I will be pleased and... Sat, 21 Dec 2013 11:07:05 EST Woohoo, vacation. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5568590 Plans are finalized for going on a beach vacation in January. <BR> Obviously, this is delightful. <BR> As vacations go, it is affordable (staying home is cheaper, but DP really needs this). <BR> Throw a couple of swimsuits and sundresses in a carry-on, and away we go. <BR> Fri, 20 Dec 2013 09:56:18 EST They're holi-DAYS, not holi-WEEKS. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5565352 We might be going on a beach vacation. <BR> In three weeks from now. Three holiday weeks. <BR> We all see the problem with this, right? <BR> I'm not even talking about the money (don't get me started on that). I'm talking about wearing my skimpiest clothes at my plumpest time of year. <BR> But it would be a mistake to allow a few pounds to ruin my fun (and DP's--after all, I'm doing this primarily to make him happy). <BR> I will use this as a wake-up call to get back on track, to get some e... Mon, 16 Dec 2013 05:51:34 EST one baby step http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5564767 Last week, I went to my usual 90-minute yoga class on Sunday, and that was all of my exercise for the entire week. I skipped every single day of yoga. <BR> I completely quit taking morning walks when the clocks changed, I do no gym cardio, and my strength training (aside from the body-weight aspect of Ashtanga yoga) is nonexistent. So no yoga class = no exercise at all. <BR> Today's yoga class was cancelled because of weather, so I did my 30-minute standing practice at home…in the dedicated ... Sun, 15 Dec 2013 10:14:06 EST Allowing for circumstances. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5561901 Thanksgiving. done <BR> Hanukkah. done. <BR> DP's birthday. done <BR> Bar mitzvah. done <BR> Christmas eve. <BR> Christmas day. <BR> New year's eve. <BR> New year's day. <BR> Four holidays down, four to go. I am already a few pounds over my preferred winter weight, and I have not been getting any exercise. Yoga doesn't really count as exercise to me, although I log it on my tracker. I want to get back on the elliptical and the weight floor. Inertia is holding me back. Wed, 11 Dec 2013 07:51:56 EST How do you make God laugh? Tell Him your plans. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5554137 Yeah, so guess what I did on Thanksgiving. <BR> I ate everything in sight. <BR> And on Friday and Saturday we went out to the diner. <BR> And we got desserts after that. Sun, 1 Dec 2013 12:04:51 EST Weighing in and rethinking goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5551357 Well, for some reason I thought I was still gaining weight. My clothes have not been tight, but I assumed they were just stretched out! <BR> My weigh-in showed that I am at a very reasonable 2 pounds over Grudgingly Acceptable Weight, which is a perfectly nice weight for me. <BR> From observing my own rhythm of weight and lifestyle, I think it makes sense to set different goals for the change in seasons. Grudgingly Acceptable Weight makes a lovely winter goal weight. It is five pounds higher... Wed, 27 Nov 2013 09:15:04 EST One more holiday--I mean, two more! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5549663 I almost forgot that DP's birthday is next week! <BR> That means…well, I don't know what that means. Falling between two weekends that are busy with his family stuff, I don't know when he wants to celebrate. He works evenings during the week, so it gets a little complicated. <BR> Add on another high calorie day! <BR> I just realized that Hanukkah starts this week, too. I only make latkes once a year, and it might not be for Hanukkah this time. It might have to wait for, I don't know, New Yea... Mon, 25 Nov 2013 07:14:41 EST Keeping the holiday(s) in perspective http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5549042 My dress for the bar mitzvah is a little tight around the hips, and the bar mitzvah is in 13 days. And one of those days is Thanksgiving. <BR> The keyword here is "one." For ONE day, I plan to eat whatever I like. We travel for thanksgiving, but we are bringing some food & doing some cooking together at the host's house. It'll be fun! And I'll be able to fit into the dress for the next weekend, because I am eating responsibly and exercising more on Every. Other. Day. between now and then. <BR... Sun, 24 Nov 2013 11:31:12 EST Weekend ahead. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5535565 I will set a goal to fill 4 boxes of clothing and household items to donate. That seems reasonable and I will be able to chip away at some of the excess in my life. <BR> I will maintain my exercise schedule on the weekends, which is usually consistent, barring family emergencies. <BR> I will manage my consumption, probably better than I do during the week. <BR> And I will get full nights of sleep…maybe. This will be the hardest. Fri, 8 Nov 2013 08:16:18 EST Seasons change, situations change. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5534607 I am learning to accept that I cannot simultaneously perform all of my roles to the best of my ability. I cannot exercise 2 hours a day and have a full-time job and grad school and a house and a domestic partner and a family and friends and, and, and... <BR> Maybe it is all right to run at maintenance level--a reasonable amount of exercise and a reasonable way of eating. So I will not be the slimmest woman in the room. Do I really care? Wouldn't I rather finish my education and see my friends... Thu, 7 Nov 2013 07:53:14 EST Quotation that I should get tattooed on myself. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5533605 "It is the greatest of all mistakes to do nothing because you can only do a little. Do what you can." <BR> --Sydney Smith <BR> Wed, 6 Nov 2013 07:16:05 EST I must learn to say NO! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5532662 I have an obligation today that I could easily have avoided by saying NO! <BR> But saying "no" to anyone makes me feel guilty--as though I exist only to meet other people's wishes. <BR> This obligation takes me out of my comfort zone & uses time that I need to delegate elsewhere. It was not an unreasonable request, by any means, but I should have put my OWN wishes ahead of my sense of obligation, and made a graceful refusal. <BR> <BR> Tue, 5 Nov 2013 07:58:35 EST Gratitude and appreciation for my life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5531598 The sun is out earlier, which is the very best thing about the clock change! <BR> I woke up in a warm house with plenty of food to eat. <BR> My body is healthy enough and strong enough to do everything necessary in my day. <BR> I am blessed to have a reasonably secure job that provides a decent living in a safe environment. <BR> My family is safe and secure, with homes and food and work of their own, and their health is not in jeopardy. <BR> When I start feeling petty and cranky over DRESSES ... Mon, 4 Nov 2013 07:34:20 EST Adjusting to the change in time. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5530711 You wouldn't think one little hour would make that much difference, would you? But it always messes me up. Spring and fall, I'm extra-tired and low on energy when the clocks change. But maybe this year I will beat it. I stayed up crazy-late on Saturday--I was taking care of my grand-boy while my daughter went out & didn't get home until 1:00, then couldn't get to sleep until 3:00--so actually it was 2:00 with the clock change. <BR> Awake again by 6:45, so not much sleep, but I feel all right.... Sun, 3 Nov 2013 08:11:37 EST Seeing the good side of a good/bad situation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5529835 Good side: Overall, I have I lost 10 pounds since May <BR> Bad side: In September, I was down 16 pounds <BR> Good side: I can usually shed 6 pounds in 6 weeks <BR> Bad side: Thanksgiving, Hanukkah, and a Bar Mitzvah during those 6 weeks <BR> Good side: I can make smart decisions & recover from planned indulgences <BR> Bad side: I have nothing to wear at this in-between size <BR> Good side: NORDSTROM'S!!! Sat, 2 Nov 2013 07:37:15 EST Scales lie to us and to each other. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5528977 I went for medical tests yesterday and my weight was several pounds lower than it is at home, and a couple of pounds lower than at my primary care doctor's office. <BR> So I celebrated by eating 5 pieces of halloween candy. <BR> Oops. Fri, 1 Nov 2013 08:07:04 EST Serenity NOW! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5528120 It's been a beeotch of a week so far, but I think it will be all right from here on out. <BR> I have some medical tests today, a little concern there, but getting them over with will be helpful, and if further action is needed, then I am on the right road. <BR> Got through with a major undertaking at work yesterday, and I feel good about the result. <BR> And I think stuff at home will get better. <BR> So now I just have to think about my education, and about getting back on track here at Spa... Thu, 31 Oct 2013 08:50:39 EST Educational dilemma http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5527150 My advisor found two courses that would be good for me, but I am nervous about having another bad semester, so I want to curl up and hide from them. <BR> Do I take the class(es) and catch up with my cohort? <BR> Do I keep the program on hold until my life is more settled? <BR> Do I cower away from doing the work on both my life and my program? <BR> Door Number Three is obviously the worst choice, but it sure would be easy, in a way. <BR> But hiding from difficulty just ensures that it will... Wed, 30 Oct 2013 07:52:05 EST