RUTHIE74's SparkPeople Blog RUTHIE74's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community A letter to Lane Bryant. Dear Lane Bryant: <BR> <BR> I want to thank you for the past 10 years of clothing me in beautiful clothes that made me feel like a "regular" woman and not like a huge cow. You aren't the "fat ladies store" that my mom used to frequent...filled with stretch pants and elastic waist bands and dowdy clothes made simply to fit over the body. Your clothes are lovely, flattering and you do a great service to women who have very few other options...even though much of it is overpriced. <BR> <BR> ... Fri, 19 Feb 2010 14:24:33 EST Fear and loathing in Chicago Weight has stayed the same again (another plateau) but I've learned not to worry...also I started my cycle yesterday so it's not too big of a surprise. <BR> <BR> Friday night I went to a party where I saw friends who hadn't seen me in a few months. Bearing in mind that in my head I look the same as always...I don't really see a change. I know there is one (please see previous blog the truthiness of my pants) but when I look at myself in the mirror I still see the same gelatinous goo I've g... Tue, 9 Feb 2010 16:25:17 EST I got by with a little help from my friends! Thanks to everyone who gave suggestions and told me to keep going! I decided Friday not to give up hope and I drank more water and thought at the very least I was going to finish this thing just to say that I had! <BR> <BR> Sure enough, 2 lbs Saturday. Another pound Sunday. 1.5 lbs Monday and 1.5 lbs Today. The scale and I had a showdown and I won! I can scarcely believe I've lost another 6 lbs! I have no idea if it's the water or if it was just waiting or if it was the Melba toast I cu... Tue, 2 Feb 2010 16:10:27 EST Screeching Halt Well this week I've lost 2 lbs. I've come to a screeching halt on the weight loss progress. Today Im trying that whole "apple day" thing to see if it helps so I'm crabby. (Crab appley?) I hope it jump starts me. If it doesn't I'm going to whine piteously. I was really hoping to be in the low 180s before the competition. <BR> <BR> I'm trying to think positively. A month or two ago I would've been leaping for joy at being 192. I should be happy but I can't help but think 150 would be ev... Wed, 27 Jan 2010 10:45:12 EST The scale hates me but my clothes are falling off part 2 Again this morning with the scale giving me a thousand different answers (yes, even from the same spot) and me giving the scale the stink eye. I truly hate the thing. I'm pretty sure it was telling me that I've not lost any but who knows. <BR> <BR> I look in the mirror and think I more or less look the same. I'm angsty about it. Because ONE day out of 14 I haven't lost any weight. So silly. <BR> <BR> But here comes the truth part... <BR> <BR> Belly dancing costumes are VERY expensive.... Thu, 21 Jan 2010 15:10:18 EST So long back fat! Don't let the door hit you on the way out! So I'm definitely not thin yet. I look in the mirror and I say "You, Ruth, are not yet a thin woman. Do not get excited yet." However, I find myself at work examining myself in the mirror and when I think no one is coming in or out, lifting my shirt a little and craning around to see my back. <BR> <BR> Are you paying attention? This is important. <BR> <BR> I have begun to see the skin "wrinkles" underneath where the fat is disappearing from 20 years of hanging off my back. You guys kn... Tue, 19 Jan 2010 15:09:04 EST My scale is a dirty liar, but my pants are honest! So I have this digital scale...I think it is relatively accurate however I have to stand on it several times and take the average because it will give me a different number between 1 or 2 lbs every time I stand on it. <BR> <BR> This morning I got on and it looked up to me and said 199. I said great, a 1 lb loss is good! I've broken even (I had finally reached 199 just before the dreaded holidays). Let's try again to make sure. 199. 199. So, as is my custom I moved it a bit to the right... Fri, 15 Jan 2010 10:45:16 EST What if it works? So 7 days in and I've lost 10.5 lbs. I still haven't passed my lowest weight of last year (thank you holidays for messing up THAT streak!) but I'm willing to bet by tomorrow or the next day I will be the lowest I've been in probably 15 years. <BR> <BR> What happens if it works? What if this is the diet that actually fixes my body and my food addictions? What am I going to do with myself if I end up being 140 lbs again for real?! <BR> <BR> I know this sounds so silly, but for the first ti... Tue, 12 Jan 2010 15:26:56 EST So far so good! Well in total since Tuesday I'm down 3.5 lbs. Not really an excessive amount in my opinion but definitely a nice loss and I'll take it! I'm not feeling hungry though I do miss sitting in front of the tv with a bowl of chips and hummus!! At least I got a lot of work done last night. <BR> <BR> Next step is to increase the water in take and get a little bit more exercise in. Of course I have rehearsal tonight so that will take care of today. I just need to make sure I'm doing something on ... Fri, 8 Jan 2010 12:35:44 EST My greatest accomplishment thus far today... Cutting a grapefruit with a plastic slightly serrated butter knife. <BR> That's all I wanted to say. Thu, 7 Jan 2010 16:29:57 EST HCG Day 3...And so it begins, the long dark tea time of the soul! I can not believe after everything I ate yesterday that I am down a pound. I think maybe it is some sort of weird fluke or that I didn't eat enough. I swear I couldn't eat anymore...I'm so excited not to eat today though I know I'll be singing a different tune a week from now. <BR> <BR> I went grocery shopping last night and got all my stuff. I weighed my turkey raw last night for lunch today and put it in a "sealed" container. It leaked turkey juice all over my stuff so now I'll proba... Thu, 7 Jan 2010 10:50:52 EST And now for something completely different! (HCG) So yesterday I started the HCG Protocol...if you are unaware of what it is I would recommend googling it. Here's a brief description: <BR> "hCG (Human Chorionic Gonadotropin) is a natural hormone produced in large quantities during pregnancy to ensure proper nutrients to a developing baby. hCG is what triggers the hypothalamus to mobilize stored fat into the bloodstream to be used as "food". It is believed to reset your metabolism and to protect your body’s good fat and keep muscle tissue fr... Wed, 6 Jan 2010 18:30:40 EST Holiday Weekend I neither did terrible nor great on the July 4th weekend. I hate chicken instead of burgers and I tried to limit the 'extras'. So I think for all 4 days I lost 1 lb...which is better than gaining 4 lbs in 1 day ha! <BR> <BR> So we're back to the straight and narrow this week. I'm missing bellydancing on Wednesday because I'm going to see George Michael in concert. It should be fun but I'm concerned about going to a place with food (we have skybox seats) versus going to a place to exercis... Mon, 7 Jul 2008 10:59:26 EST Keep on keeping on So yesterday I managed to stay in my calorie range though the substance of what I ate wasn't very good. I think it equaled out since I took that long walk. <BR> <BR> Today I'm doing much better, both with water drinking and with eating. I haven't taken a super long walk yet but I have bellydance class tonight so that should make up the difference. <BR> <BR> I'm a bit concerned about the holiday weekend but I don't have anything too outrageous planned so hopefully I can control the urge to... Wed, 2 Jul 2008 15:47:24 EST The Daily and Weekly Goals! 1. Enter in EVERYTHING I eat. <BR> 2. Be in bed before midnight every night (I'm a night owl...any earlier than that seems ridiculous...starting small) <BR> 3. 30 minutes of walking (or walking substitute) everyday. <BR> 4. Water (not putting a definite amount for this...just going to drink as much as I can whenever I can) <BR> 5. Bellydance practice for minimum 15 minutes every day, more on days before class <BR> 6. Post in my blog at minimum 3 times a week so I can update where I am an... Tue, 1 Jul 2008 15:50:05 EST Still fat...still hating it... Ok so I haven't posted since January, I haven't really been working out, I haven't really been counting calories and I've been going out to get togethers and parties with some regularity. I also haven't lost any more weight (insert shock and amazement here). <BR> <BR> I started reading the YOU: On a Diet makes good sense and I've managed to cut out a lot of the "bad for you" stuff but I need to do better. The biggest issue I'm having is time. It's the time involved in actually c... Tue, 24 Jun 2008 16:58:31 EST Gamer Chick Buys Elliptical...News at 11! about I actually post a blog entry?! I can't believe I haven't posted anything since September! Terrible!! Here's what's been going on... <BR> <BR> I joined a student belly dance troupe and in addition to my personal daily practicing I've been taking my weekly class and my weekly rehearsals so I've really just jumped right into this whole belly dance thing wholeheartedly...or you might say I shimmied right into this whole bellydance thing wholeheartedly ;) <BR> <BR> I got a... Tue, 29 Jan 2008 11:05:59 EST Whinefest 2007 incoming... Ugh I'm feeling blah. I had determined YESTERDAY that I really needed to pick things up again as I've plateaued again...but of course today at lunch (I really held out a long time eh?) I went and got myself a HUGE cheeseburger and fries and now I feel like going in a corner and sleeping somewhere. I keep trying to not beat myself up about it (I mean honestly...whatever could've moved me to order a cheeseburger!?) but the fact that I'm feeling lethargic as a result of my poor choice is doing... Wed, 5 Sep 2007 15:15:58 EST Just Checkin' In! I haven't blogged in awhile so I thought I'd check in. I've been really watching my calorie intake so I'm down another 1.5 lbs or fluctuates between the same .5 lb but I'm patient. Eventually it will go down and stay down. I went to check out a gym last night and it was a nice enough place but didn't really make me excited about going. I think I'd be more excited if I just went ahead and did some research and bought some equipment for the that's my next project, an elli... Wed, 22 Aug 2007 15:51:29 EST Too Soon to Hope? I hadn't stepped on the scale for a couple days...after all, it hadn't moved but a pound in weeks. This morning though it looks like I'm down another pound! It could be anything though so I'm not going to get TOO excited...but I did change my spark scale. I did the same thing when I finally got down to 209 and it stuck so I'm in perhaps a supersticious manner, going to continue that trend. Wish me luck!! Wed, 15 Aug 2007 12:30:00 EST Queen of the Hotties! I've been so MIA from my fellow sparkies that I've felt a bit like I've been out of control even though my eating habits have been ok and I've still been doing dancing. I'm not losing any weight's been about a month that I've been sitting at 209. I'd jump for glee if I only went down 1 lb!! <BR> <BR> At any rate, it's been an exciting week. I'm planning a luau party in two weeks so I went out and bought a new me crazy but I bought a two piece. Yeah it's a tank... Tue, 7 Aug 2007 15:53:31 EST Shock from the Family As way of background info, I send out regular emails from my Kodak Gallery with images of my son who is now a year and a half. He is generally the only subject matter in the pictures as when he's around I get quite camera happy...and with good reason, the kid is cute (if I do say so myself). At any rate, this time my husband took some of the pictures and I was in a couple. I didn't think they were particularly good pictures so I didn't think anything of it. Today, however, I received an e... Tue, 31 Jul 2007 11:08:51 EST Back to Basics I've been sick for the past 2 days so I haven't been doing much of anything and I came into work today thinking that I had to jump back on the wagon. Fortunately, Spark came through for me again with a timely "Lifestyle Change" that happened to remind me that the best way to get back on track and to get over a plateau is to go back to the original healthy lifestyle adjustments I started with and make sure I'm still on track with some of those. So along with the two new challenges I'm workin... Fri, 27 Jul 2007 11:23:22 EST On the road again! I went for my run last night...and I could be imagining it but it seemed like maybe it was a little easier! My husband is doing the program's slightly easier to begin with for him since he used to be a runner and he's carrying about 100 lbs less than I am (well almost), but he commented that it was much easier the second time. He had muscle soreness after the first time and seemed to have none after last night. It's good news to me that what I'm doing seems to be encouraging him t... Fri, 20 Jul 2007 11:51:26 EST Rollercoastering Well...this week started out well (if you include Saturday as part of a new week). I started the whole "Couch to 5k" thing and did pretty well. It was pretty amazing to me that I actually went out and did it. I didn't find it too bad with the podcast going...though I got to the part where the guy says "Great work! You're about halfway through!" and I was like "HALFWAY???!!" but nevertheless I survived. <BR> <BR> That being said, I haven't been eating as well as I should so I've plateaued... Thu, 19 Jul 2007 00:22:45 EST In the Words of Quincy: "I CAN NOT BELIEVE IT!" I hit my first goal! I'm under 210 :) I couldn't believe it when I stood on the scale this morning. Now I just need to lose 9 more and I'll be just ridiculously happy. <BR> <BR> The crazy thing is I'm really enjoying my new lifestyle. My whole family is benefiting from it! It isn't really work anymore to fit some exercise in because I get bored when I don't do it (see previous blog entry). I did a couple of work out videos this weekend and I actually felt less's so unfathoma... Mon, 9 Jul 2007 16:38:28 EST Feeling Lethargic ...and bored. <BR> <BR> For the past week I've felt an overwhelming amount of boredom. Anytime I could be doing something constructive, I've just sat my ass down in front of the tv and complained about how bored I am. I kept having this feeling like something is missing and being really irritated by the fact that I wasn't sure what it was. <BR> <BR> Remarkably it suddenly dawned on me...this is the first week in a month that I haven't had a bellydance class. There was a week break becaus... Fri, 6 Jul 2007 15:24:18 EST THEY FIT! So I've been a bit has been kicking my ass and I've just been too tired and out of it to blog as much as I should but I did want to tell everyone this very special exciting story. <BR> <BR> Every so often my company has a jeans day to support a charity. Friday (June 29th) we had one. I knew it was coming and in my head a month ago I thought that it would be a fun treat if my favorite pair of especially funky jeans fit me. These jeans (please indulge me while I describe them to ... Mon, 2 Jul 2007 10:49:03 EST Body says: What are you doing to me? I hurt. Not a lot but in all my major muscle groups. I spent the entire weekend painting (and I'm not finished). Then last night was my third belly dance's really getting hard! I enjoy it immensely and highly recommend it to anyone who especially wants to tone their arms. My arms were KILLING me when I walked out of there last night. <BR> <BR> More painting tonight! Weeee :) Tue, 19 Jun 2007 18:19:57 EST Quotes So I'm on stage 3...and one of the first things I'm supposed to do is come up with a good Quote for motivation. These are the ones I've found so far (thought I'd share): <BR> <BR> It's not that I'm so smart, it's just that I stay with problems longer. <BR> Albert Einstein <BR> <BR> When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on. <BR> Franklin D. Roosevelt <BR> <BR> When everything seems to be going against you, remember that the airplane takes off against the wind, not wi... Thu, 14 Jun 2007 17:22:41 EST Bellydance Lesson 1 My first lesson in bellydancing taught me a few things last night: <BR> <BR> 1. I am not as coordinated as I thought I was. <BR> 2. I have some flabby weak arms. <BR> 3. I shimmy like a champ but my hips aren't the only things that jiggle when I do it. <BR> 4. When one shimmies, one should make sure their hip scarf is securely tied or one might find it around one's ankles. <BR> 5. My stomach is a gooey mass of non-muscle. <BR> 6. I need a good sports bra. <BR> <BR> All that being said... Tue, 5 Jun 2007 11:50:32 EST Shake it like a polaroid picture! I'm SO excited...and a little nervous. Today is the long awaited first day of my belly dance training! I couldn't get any of my girlfriends to go with me so I'm going solo. And why not? I'm that girl you see at clubs that is the first out on the dance floor, even if she's dancing all by herself. So what if this is a little different and I'm going to be a bit out of my element? Dancing is in my blood! <BR> <BR> I've been trying to come up with another form of exercise that will appeal t... Mon, 4 Jun 2007 11:47:01 EST Back in the saddle? OHHHH! Memorial Day Weekend wasn't a complete disaster...I didn't gain any weight which is a small victory. I spent most of the weekend in a vegetative state from which I realized that I was doing nothing but could not seem to wake myself up enough to do anything let alone practice all of my carefully accumulated life changes. However, I have come to realize that my mindset has changed in the month and a half that I've been on Two months ago, after a long weekend like that, by Tu... Wed, 30 May 2007 16:16:39 EST Goal Rewards It came to me suddenly what two goal rewards were missing on my list!! I've been dying for a Coach purse. It's not a big deal, but this will help justify the expenditure to the husband ;) Second, I've ALWAYS wanted a belly button piercing. I have two tattoos but I always said if my stomach was less jiggly, I'd get a belly button ring. What a perfect reward! I might add a few smaller ones in there and I think I should add one in for 210, <BR> but my list is fairly complete now. <BR> ... Wed, 23 May 2007 16:05:18 EST Whew! So for those of you following my saga, you'll be pleased to know that I managed to get out of breakfast entirely! The kiddo took his morning nap and was still asleep when they all got up to go so I dropped the "mommy" card. I had a bowl of cereal and did my stretches and relaxed and read a book. I was quite proud of myself. <BR> <BR> Overall, the weekend didn't go too badly. I overdid it on lasagna the last night I was there and I think I'm up half a pound as a result of the debacle but ... Mon, 21 May 2007 10:37:26 EST Breakfast...BREAKFAST??! So I'm going away tonight to my grandmother's house. My brother and his wife are meeting us there and my cousin and her mother live there as well so it'll be a nice family get together. My immediate family (namely my husband) know what I've been doing (and how I've been doing) with SparkPeople...but I don't want to share any of it with the rest of my family. I don't like feeling like I'm being observed or judged and my family has a way of making me feel that way sometimes...especially my c... Fri, 18 May 2007 16:20:03 EST Hark! Is that some baggyness in the pants I see! I wonder if I'm imagining it and yet my pants to seem a little looser. I keep forgetting to take my measurements. I guess I figure it's only 10 lbs and I haven't really started exercising yet...but I swear my pants are looser. There are these jeans that I ADORE which I'm holding off on trying on for another 5 lbs or so...but the thought that my current pants are loose on me makes me think maybe I should just bite the bullet and try them on. They were a bit tight on me but fit the last tim... Thu, 17 May 2007 15:03:08 EST Plague! Sick again... Wow, I thought I was sick last time but I had the cold sweats this time. I didn't have any interest at all in food, so you KNOW I was sick! I feel much better today so I can get back on track with my journaling! I got on the scale this morning and I think my scale must be wacky because I got 3 different readings. Once it was as low as 215 which I just knew wasn't right. It ended up staying at 216.5 but I still don't believe it so I put my weigh-in at 218 since I've been sick and even if ... Wed, 16 May 2007 13:06:31 EST Wonders Never Cease I'm down another 2 lbs! I had to blink twice and stand on the scale again to believe it. Of course I know this is how it's SUPPOSED to work, but after the past year of struggling with that pregnancy weight, this is the first time I'm seeing results I feel somewhat happy with. And the truth is, I've been so sick lately that I KNOW I could be doing much more. I haven't hardly felt a dent in my lifestyle at all. This is definitely the way to go...who knew it could be so easy? <BR> <BR> I d... Wed, 9 May 2007 13:00:25 EST Still sick but no bigger! I've maintained the weight I lost last week so I think I own it now! I really need to step up my workout activities though and hopefully I can do that this week. My cold is still pretty harsh though and I've not felt much like moving. One thing at a time...that's what the Spark is all about I think. At least that's why I think it's going to work this time. Slow and determined will make it happen this time. Mon, 7 May 2007 15:42:46 EST Sick... I've been crazy sick the past few days. I feel pretty miserable but the truth is it's been nothing but good! Generally when I'm home sick I snack out...I'm like the opposite of most people in everything...I eat when I'm stressed (instead of not), I eat when I'm emotional (instead of not), and I eat when I'm sick (instead of not). Maybe by "most people" I mean my girlfriends...I'm the only one of my married friends who gained before their wedding...all the others lost weight because they we... Thu, 3 May 2007 11:35:01 EST Today I ROCKED. No was a completely successful goal day. I did everything I was meant to do. At first I thought I hadn't because I didn't get my 10 min walk in because of the rain...but then I took the kid through Babies'r'us for an hour...anyone who's ever done that knows how much walking is involved there! <BR> <BR> I am quite pleased with myself. HIGH FIVE TO ME! Thu, 26 Apr 2007 22:21:59 EST Am I ready to take two steps forward? I was so pleased day before yesterday because my new friend the water bottle is actually helping me drink more! For the first time I actually got all 8 glasses of water in without hardly ever thinking about it. Then of course yesterday my company had a gathering for Administrative Professionals Day which I was invited to go to (I'm actually more a Marketing Coordinator but they put all 'support' functions under the same umbrella). It was again with the drinking and the eating. But I didn'... Thu, 26 Apr 2007 11:46:27 EST Belly Up to the Bar This weekend, I was undone. It was a bachelorette party...and to start with we went to a restaurant called Maggianos that I had never been to before. I was prepared for my choices to be difficult...but what I wasn't prepared for was the fact that I wouldn't have any choices at all! The restaurant is "family style" which means the whole table chooses what we have for dinner. Of course the choice of the greater number always wins and there was little (including in the salad category) that w... Mon, 23 Apr 2007 16:40:35 EST Just drop me off here please! I'm pretty proud of something I did yesterday. I had been running late for my train home so I jumped in a cab. It became clear though that I was going to miss the train anyway so I had the cab drop me off at the next corner and I walked the rest of the way to the train station. It isn't a long walk or anything but it would've been just as easy to stay in the car so I'm glad I wrestled myself into a healthier choice! <BR> <BR> Of course I ended up getting home and playing WoW til late in t... Tue, 17 Apr 2007 11:10:19 EST Feelin' the Flow So it was a hard weekend showers always make for difficult food choices. I didn't do so great however, I managed to not eat dinner when I got home as the shower ran late...I called it a late lunch/early dinner situation and drank my tea and water for the rest of the night. I'm still awake because I was keeping myself busy playing WoW (I'm such a nerd) but whatever works! I also took some time to go on my walk, finish my exercises from Saturday and take my measurements. I ... Mon, 16 Apr 2007 01:43:40 EST to work it in... I went out last night...which since the baby was born I don't get to do as often as I used to. I realized some time ago that my tendancy to drink socially was greatly contributing to my weight but it's something I really enjoy and I doubt seriously I could stick to a diet if I thought I had to completely curtail it so I need to plan ahead for it. Last night, as per usual, I went overboard...I managed to drink diet coke with my rum, but I'm fairly certain that the amount of empty calories I ... Sat, 14 Apr 2007 11:03:17 EST sneaky devil! So...I went to Portillo's today (a Chicago favorite) and I am only on day 2 of this whole thing...I'd been low carbing it before that...listen to me try and make excuses! At any rate, I got this salad which had bacon on it, and upon returning I entered it into my nutritional thingy and lo and behold, aren't those 3 slices of bacon (approx.) that were on that salad more than my daily requirement of calories and fat all on their own. I can't tell you how much bacon I've eaten while low carbin... Fri, 13 Apr 2007 15:01:15 EST Starting Over... After taking every diet known to man this year and since the baby was born...and just feeling stuck and not knowing where to go next, I've spent the entire afternoon searching the web for possible places that could help me without having me spend SO much money. Why is dieting so expensive?? At any rate, someone had suggested this site to me ages ago so I dug up their email and here I am...delighted to find an entire community that appears to be free for a change. <BR> <BR> I'm just so tire... Thu, 12 Apr 2007 17:31:19 EST