RUROUNIGIRLL's SparkPeople Blog RUROUNIGIRLL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Beginning again... So, sometime during last summer I lost my way. I fell off program, and by the fall term I had fallen off healthy eating almost completely. I never got quite as bad as I used to be (no family bags of doritos with tubs of sour cream), but I wasn't living the healthy life I wanted. I know that the stress of school didn't help me control my eating habits, and I felt like I was working about 30 hours a day (ok, maybe it was only like 9-10 hours) which left me feeling too exhausted for working out.... Thu, 2 Jan 2014 13:51:33 EST Back on track The last couple of weeks I have been a bit off track. I didn't fall entirely off plan, but I haven't really been on plan either, and it's showed in the fact that my numbers haven't really changed at all for a couple weeks. I've basically just been hovering around 198, which is still pretty great, since it does mean I've lost more than 35 pounds since the start of March. <BR> <BR> But now I'm done letting things slip by. Went for a jog again, and eating was on track today. No more letting the... Mon, 8 Jul 2013 22:31:31 EST Onderland! That's right, I've made it to Onderland! I weighed in today at 198.2! I honestly don't have much to say about, because I'm still a bit in shock about it. I knew it was coming, but now it's here. It's almost a bit surreal, like even though I knew I would reach Onderland, I think some part of me still didn't really believe it. <BR> <BR> But this really is a fantastic way for me to start off the summer. I'm feeling charged up and ready to keep on going! Thu, 20 Jun 2013 12:45:23 EST Get out of the way, Life... It seems like my life just keeps getting in the way of me living this week. Getting behind in school, then getting sick and thus more behind, and all the stress and anxiety those have caused means that this has been a rough week for me. <BR> <BR> I have managed to mostly stay on plan, and even my off plan choices were pretty healthy. I had an egg and cheese sandwich instead of just eggs for one meal, but I think two pieces of whole grain bread and a slice of low-fat provolone aren't going to... Thu, 30 May 2013 18:26:44 EST I am Overweight I am "overweight." <BR> <BR> Now, normally this sounds like a negative statement. But compare it to the following: <BR> <BR> I am "obese." <BR> <BR> The first sentence sounds a lot better, doesn't it? <BR> <BR> Saying I am "overweight" sounds pretty amazing to me when I compare it to the fact that yesterday I had to say I am "obese." Today I weighed in at 202.4, losing all my water weight from Aunt Flo and then some. When I checked what this meant in terms of my BMI, I saw 29.9. Which me... Mon, 27 May 2013 15:01:11 EST Blah... I managed to clock in a 0.8 pound gain this week (thanks Aunt Flo <em>101</em> ). But I know it's gonna be gone by next week, so I guess it's okay. <BR> <BR> It's still been rainy, so the hubby and I are still doing the treadmill thing for our jogs. We're in Week 3, and Thursday will be the third of our Week 3 jogs. And I have not had any real trouble completing the jogs this week, so I don't think we'll have to repeat any days. I also got some new shoes, so jogging was actually even bette... Tue, 21 May 2013 18:18:53 EST The Truth Rainy this morning, which meant that for the first time the hubby and I did our morning jog using the treadmills in our apartment complex's gym. I was used to the river path, so it was definitely different, but once I got used to the treadmill it was actually kind of nice. And the interesting thing, as I looked at my reflection in the like 8 hundred thousand mirrors they seem to have, I thought I looked pretty awesome. <BR> <BR> Sure, I was beet red, and I certainly still have a lot of weig... Thu, 16 May 2013 13:57:31 EST Let's keep on keepin' on... on plan, that is Back on plan, and it's time to keep on pushing that number on the scale (and those numbers on the measuring tape) down. Official weigh in was 206.6 this morning, and Onderland is so close. I'm pretty happy because it looks like I'll make my goal of Onderland by summertime. Which also means I will be out of the obese range for bmi! Overweight certainly sounds better than obese, and it means I'll be that much closer to healthy. <BR> <BR> Now I'm gonna do a mini rant (well not really a rant, mo... Tue, 14 May 2013 19:28:36 EST In-Laws Visited My in-laws came into town last Thursday and stayed through the weekend. They are great, and it was a nice visit, but still pretty stressful. It was a bit hard to stay on plan over the weekend. <BR> <BR> We went out on Saturday to a vineyard, where we did some wine tasting (not on plan, but delicious, and I kept my tastes pretty moderately sized), and we went to lunch afterward. The hubby's step-dad wanted a simple burger and fries type place, so we ended up going somewhere where all they ha... Mon, 13 May 2013 13:51:06 EST C25k week 2 and hobo pants Today I finally managed to make through all six 90 second jogging intervals that are part of the c25k program in week 2. The first time I tried it I could only do four of them for the whole 90 seconds. The second time I managed five. Third time's the charm, right? <BR> <BR> Just two weeks ago I could barely handle jogging for 60 seconds, and now 90 seconds, while it's hard, it actually feels pretty good. And even though I'm taking a little longer on the program than it's normally scheduled (... Thu, 9 May 2013 14:51:42 EST Under 210! I weighed in this morning at 209.8. So I'm now under 210, and feeling pretty good about that. Went out for a jog again this morning with the hubby. He wasn't feeling well, so originally we were just going to walk, but I was feeling pumped up, so I did my jogging anyways. Now I jog so slowly, and he walks so quickly, that we were still going at pretty much the same pace. I did manage to do a stretch of faster jogging, where I actually outpaced him (only by a bit), and it felt really great. <B... Tue, 30 Apr 2013 17:03:10 EST Making it feel real I've lost over 20 pounds at this point. 22.4 pounds, to be exact. But sometimes it doesn't feel like anything has actually changed. It feels like I still have so far to go, and the fact that I'm still technically obese (not overweight, but actually obese) doesn't help. But whenever I start feeling like that, I take a minute to recount all the changes I have actually made in my life: <BR> <BR> - I started a completely different diet (my food rehab), and have stuck with it for almost 5 weeks n... Sun, 28 Apr 2013 15:26:41 EST Second C25k Down Hubby and I did the second jogging session of the couch to 5k program this morning. It was even harder than the first session because my muscles were still complaining about what I did to them on Thursday. But I still did it, and I feel pretty good about it. I think I'm going to try to start doing strength training on Sundays and either Wednesdays or Fridays. That way I'll be jogging three times a week and doing strength training at least twice a week. <BR> <BR> I have also at this point off... Sat, 27 Apr 2013 18:32:08 EST 4 weeks down Wow, I can't believe it's been four weeks now and I've pretty much stayed on plan. I had an off day this past Tuesday because Aunt Flo made me feel a bit miserable, and all I wanted was toast. But still, this is probably the longest that I've ever actually stuck with such a major change. <BR> <BR> Last week was not a big loss for me, only about 0.8 pounds down on my official weigh day, which was of course Tuesday when I felt miserable. But I'm okay with that. I'm already down more since Tues... Thu, 25 Apr 2013 16:08:05 EST "I miss bread" That's what I told my husband yesterday: "I miss bread." <BR> <BR> This past week and a half has been really stressful for me. I was feeling very down, and school has just been piling more and more on top of me. I felt like I couldn't handle it all, and all I wanted to do was hide away and eat a loaf of bread, then down some chips, and maybe finish all that off with some cookies. <BR> <BR> But because of my plan, I couldn't do any of that. I have told myself that I will follow this plan, an... Tue, 16 Apr 2013 15:42:40 EST I have a waist! So, for the most part I have been pretty lucky with my weight gain, in that I tend to gain weight equally over my whole body. My hips and bust have generally stayed about the same size as each other, and my waist has always been smaller than them. Unfortunately this may be part of why I became overweight, because for a long time I still felt like I didn't really look it (or if I did, I didn't notice, which was good enough for me). <BR> <BR> But once I was above 200 and kept climbing up, I no... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 11:49:56 EST 3 more pounds bite the dust Week 2 is done, and I'm down to 218. I did manage to avoid having any pizza or junk food through the whole visiting weekend, though I did have a beer and a hard cider Friday evening, which is technically off plan for me. Still, I think I did pretty well compared to how I've handle these types of events in the past (stuffing myself to the brim with pizza, but trying to be discreet about it so no one would notice I'd just grabbed my fifth slice). <BR> <BR> The week has been rough though. The n... Tue, 9 Apr 2013 14:22:23 EST Week 1 done! In my first week on program, I've lost 4.8 pounds, which is pretty awesome! 221 is the lowest I've been in a while, and I know that number is going to just keep going down. If I count what I lost before starting my new program, I'm down 13 pounds so far! And I have to go buy a belt because the pants I got just a month ago are practically falling off! <BR> <BR> But I have my first big obstacle coming up. At my department in grad school, we are having a visiting weekend for new prospective stu... Wed, 3 Apr 2013 18:09:07 EST Retraining Fast forward from last August, and not much has changed for me. My last attempt at weight loss died pretty much completely when school started. But I'm trying something different now. It's a pretty strict program, where I don't have to make many choices on my own in the beginning. Which is good for me, because I've come to learn that at least right now, my addiction to junk food is such that if I have a choice, I will find a way to rationalize making the unhealthy choice, even when I know it'... Thu, 28 Mar 2013 15:46:09 EST Goals and Rewards I've decided to make a list of goals and rewards for myself. I decided my goals based on losing weight in increments of 5% of my starting weight. I'll probably reevaluate these down the road, but here's my starting list: <BR> <BR> <BR> Starting Weight: 233 <BR> 5% = 11.65 (~12) <BR> <BR> 5% Increment Goals and Rewards: <BR> <BR> 221: Pedicure <BR> 209: Bragging to my mother (It may sound petty, but it works for me, and will hopefully motivate her.) <BR> 197: A new dress (I should hopefull... Mon, 27 Aug 2012 15:53:23 EST It's too easy to get off track Last week I felt sick for a couple days. Nothing major, just a little cold. But of course since I wasn't feeling well, I didn't work out. And since I didn't work out, I didn't get my morning energy boost. So I just felt worse. That made me want to eat my comfort foods instead of planning out healthy meals. And then, since I didn't eat right, and hadn't exercised, I didn't track anything for about three days. <BR> <BR> But on Saturday morning I told myself, "Get up now Leila, and go work out... Mon, 27 Aug 2012 15:02:51 EST Seven days straight Today makes the seventh day in a row that I've gone and worked out. Before going I was tired and grumpy and didn't really feel like getting off the couch much less working out. I slowly went and put on my workout clothes, and even then I still sat around for a little while. But, I did it, I got up and did my half hour interval course on the elliptical, and then did some arm strength work and some crunches. <BR> <BR> As I was on the elliptical I realized something. This is one of those machi... Tue, 14 Aug 2012 18:11:43 EST So I did something a little crazy... At least it was a little crazy for me. Today I went out, in public, in a bikini. <BR> <BR> Not a bikini with clothes on top that I kept on the whole time. No, my hubby and I biked a bit over to the river and I went in wearing a reasonable modest bottom and a simple bikini top. I was horribly embarrassed when I first took my shirt and pants off, but then my husband reminded me of something that I almost always forget: People don't really care. <BR> <BR> It might sound bad to put it like th... Sun, 12 Aug 2012 19:27:27 EST I wish I could see into the future I wish I could see what I'll look like when I reach my goal weight. This is partially out of pure curiosity, but mostly I just want to know that I will really lose the weight. I've reached the point that I always seem to quit at in the past, where I feel like I've been doing things long enough that I should see a change, but I know now I was just bein impatient, and was probably just looking for a reason to give up. <BR> <BR> But not this time. I'm writing this in the morning, and while I'm... Sun, 12 Aug 2012 12:45:31 EST Exercise is becoming fun I'm really starting to like this whole exercise thing. Just did another hour in the gym, and I'm feeling so energized that the hubby and I have decided to bike the two miles or so to the mall to watch a movie. Considering the fact that I previously would have wanted to drive or take the bus, I think the fact that I'm looking forward to biking is a small victory in and of itself. <BR> <BR> Now the next step I know I need to take is getting back into tracking my food. For some reason I seem t... Thu, 9 Aug 2012 17:50:13 EST I'm Back So, between preparing to move across the country, and then actually moving across the country, I sort fell completely off track. I still did Aqua Yo-Lates each Friday during the month of July, but that was about it health wise. Of course I obviously stopped tracking everything, and with a week long drive from Maryland to Oregon where pretty much all I did was sit in a car and eat junk food, I shouldn't really be surprised that I gained a few pounds. <BR> <BR> But I'm trying to not let it ge... Thu, 9 Aug 2012 01:58:01 EST Today was awesome I hope everyday can be like today. <BR> <BR> This morning I ate a pretty healthy breakfast, and the went off with my sister to our first Aqua Yo-Lates class. It's an hour long class that combines Yoga and Pilates in the pool. It was a lot of fun, and I was able to do moves and poses that I'm sure I could never do on dry land. <BR> <BR> After class, we watched a movie at my house, and I had a healthy lunch, with fruits and veggies even. After the movie, we then went to my parents house and t... Fri, 15 Jun 2012 20:37:23 EST A year later... So, a year after my first brief venture into the world of SparkPeople, and not only have I managed to not lose any weight, but I have actually gained 20 pounds. I want to say enough is enough, and that I'm going to make a real change this time, but I don't know. I don't know how to keep motivated, how to continue with something for more than a week. But still, I can't give up, I know that. Now, more than ever, I need to be healthy. My husband and I plan to start trying for our first child in ... Thu, 14 Jun 2012 12:23:58 EST