RUN2MYDREAMS's SparkPeople Blog RUN2MYDREAMS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Thoughts... <img src=""> <BR> Thoughts...they creep up on you when you least expect it. "You're not good enough!" or "You'll never reach your goals!!" or "Why are you even bothering? You won't stick with it!!!" I think the hardest part of the journey is allowing those thoughts to take a hold of you at night or in those early hours of the morning. One of the things I've found and am still learning, is that this is a process.... Tue, 14 Jun 2016 06:07:08 EST If Not Now, When?!?! <img src=""> <BR> So a couple of days I came back to Spark after having been gone for quite a number of days...579 days to be specific. I was hesitant to do it but at friend's suggestion, I logged back in. Part of the reason I made a break from Spark was because I found Facebook. It was very convenient. But I truly enjoyed the connections I found here. I have made some amazing friendships with people I met here. I... Wed, 1 Jun 2016 21:44:53 EST Nothing Changes if Nothing Changes... I'm not in a good place. I am having a lot of mental debates and the things I say are not so pretty. I try to be positive on the outside but even that has started becoming a bit of a struggle at times. <BR> <BR> I weighed myself this morning and I knew that it was not going to be pretty. I have put on close to 50 since early spring. This CANNOT continue. My old feelings and insecurities and aching joints along with other areas, have returned. If this continues, I will be at my post pre... Sun, 12 Oct 2014 08:33:25 EST I'm Never Giving Up! How About You?!?! I love the month of October. It brings us closer to the beautiful changes in the leaves. I love the amazing and vibrant colors before winter arrives. <BR> <BR> Today is my day off from work and I have been very reflective. I have been off my game as far as nutrition is concerned, for quite some time. I can't really pinpoint an exact time as to when it happened. I just know that I have gotten worse and worse with my eating. <BR> <BR> I was in my cousin's wedding in May and I fit int... Wed, 1 Oct 2014 20:22:32 EST Refocusing On What's Important... My 3 F's... <BR> <BR> FAITH: <BR> <BR> I went to church this morning after being away for a month. Between a conference, vacation, half marathon and chest muscles pain I have been away for far too long. I was happy to be there. <BR> I have been struggling for quite some time trying to figure out where I can best serve with my talents. I am also restructuring-in my mind-what my priorities should be in the church. I need to put more of my heart there and less in other areas of my life. <... Sun, 14 Sep 2014 14:41:42 EST Slow & Steady... My Three F's... <BR> <BR> Faith: <BR> Early this evening I read this moving story of a prominent Christian speaker, Christine Caine. She wrote about the day her doctor told her she had cancer. It was a beautiful written piece and it really made me look at my faith. Hers seems unshaken and just...WOW!!! That is the impression she left on me. Here is the link to her moving blog: <BR> <link><BR>of-healing/gjm8iw </link> <BR> <BR> Fitness: <BR> Tonight ... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 00:21:50 EST I Have 3 F's... I've discovered I have three F's on this journey: Faith, Fitness and Fuel. Without my Faith, I will accomplish absolutely nothing with my Fitness and Fuel <BR> <BR> Faith: <BR> On this journey, what I have found is that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. So I know that my faith is the building stone of my journey. For me, without it, I will accomplish nothing. My priorities are sometimes jumbled but it all starts here! <BR> I had some pains in the sternum area when I... Sun, 7 Sep 2014 14:08:36 EST Planning With A Purpose... I have spent the past couple of days figuring out my goals. I had pretty much decided the day I finished the Rock n Roll half that I wanted to do a 5 Miler at the beach just before Christmas. Then my next thoughts were that I needed to actually be running those 5 miles! So I went to my Runkeeper app to try and find a training plan but there wasn't one for 5 miles. There were 5K, 10K, half and full marathons but no 5 miles. SO what did I choose? A half plan! And of course that led the w... Sat, 6 Sep 2014 21:58:40 EST Where To Go From Here... Forward is where I go from here... <BR> <BR> It is hard to believe I have not blogged since the beginning of March. And here it is the beginning of September! That's SIX months!!! So much has happened but mainly this past summer. <BR> <BR> Earlier today I went back and reconfigured my weight goals. I reset my ticker and I made today's lovely scale weight of 303.4 as my starting point. Today, as far as the scale is concerned, I start fresh and don't look back. Am I thrilled with this #?... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 21:01:17 EST March 1st...Still Working on Strengthening & Connecting! OMG...It's the first of March! I can't believe it's been 2 months exactly since I last blogged. I started my change in eating on 1/5 with a starting weight of 297.4. As of this morning I am at 275.0. It's hard for me to believe I am down 22.4 lbs since the beginning of the year. I have made it my goal to reach 193 by December 1. WOW, that's 9 months from today! <BR> <BR> So while I have made some progress in the past 2 months-new eating habits, tracking on an app on my smart phone for ... Sat, 1 Mar 2014 09:42:48 EST 2014...Strengthening and Connecting So it's January 1st and that means, no matter where people have been, it's time for the obligatory blog <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> Last year, for 2013, my motto was: Expect Amazing. And God gave me amazing. I read my daily devotionals by reading 1) most of the Bible in a year and 2)Rick Warren's daily devotional. I pushed myself to do more walking than I ever had and added in lots of running splits. I connected with family, sometimes in times of sadness and sorrow, sometimes in times of ... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 17:41:17 EST Thanksgiving A&I Blog... This week's question: What are some Thanksgiving traditions you have done or now do with your family? <BR> <BR> My Thanksgiving's have always been unique as my Mom is French and obviously they do not celebrate the holiday. Also, Mom & I have never been very big turkey lovers. My Dad passed away in 2001 and from that point on, Thanksgiving became even more nontraditional <em>246</em> <BR> <BR> When my Dad was living, and I was an adult, I remember him having me help cut up veggies for ... Fri, 15 Nov 2013 15:58:27 EST Struggling... Today I find myself struggling. It has been brought on by poor food choices and not really following my November plans (see previous blog). I will say I've had way too many bread, pasta items. Yesterday when I was off, I had Nature Valley granola bars, pumpkin spice bagels, pierrhogies and not enough water. <BR> <BR> Today I think I will take it one breath at a time. I will focus on my completion of 3 liters of water and not having any of the bagels. I need to focus on progress, not p... Thu, 14 Nov 2013 09:29:17 EST New Month...Fresh Start Part 2 My assignment for my A&I team is to blog about my October progress and November goals. I had already covered October in my previous blog (dated November 1) so that is why this part 2 <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> To be perfectly honest, I really have not given much thought to my goals for this new month with the exception of fitness. But as the saying goes, when you fail to plan, you plan to fail!! <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> 1. Nutrition-This is an area I really need to work on! With finances ... Sat, 9 Nov 2013 08:35:31 EST New Month...Fresh Start As I reflect on October as a whole, it is with mixed emotions. On my side of the family, I had an elderly cousin admitted to the hospital and then to hospice. My Mom is also going through some hard times. On DH's side of the family, he lost a maternal aunt and maternal grandmother within a week and a half of each other. <BR> <BR> On the other hand, I remember that in October I ran an entire lap at the track for the first time. That was a memory I will keep etched in my mind for some time... Fri, 1 Nov 2013 09:46:33 EST Stressful Moments Lead To Stress Eating... The past couple of days have been a bit stressful. Monday evening I got news that a cousin is in the hospital. This was after finding out DH's aunt is in the hospital and they are planning to turn off life support. They were going to do it yesterday (they are in South Carolina) but it hasn't happened yet. I feel for DH because his aunt is a like a sister to him. He is definitely one to internalize-opposite of myself who wears emotions on her sleeve. So we are waiting to hear news today ... Wed, 16 Oct 2013 11:40:44 EST Colder Weather and Exercising... Week 2 A&I Blog assignment: Now that colder weather is here do you find it more difficult to get your exercising in or do you find transitioning to more indoor exercising difficult to do? <BR> <BR> I actually for the first time am looking forward to exercising outside this year. I have always avoided extreme temperature changes prior to this year. But this summer, I surprised myself several times and went walking after work on some of the hottest days of the year. I am proud for those ac... Sat, 12 Oct 2013 08:46:15 EST Focusing On What's Important... Today I am feeling blah. I don't like feeling this way. I was in a good mood. I sometimes allow other people's lack of response affect my mood. I need to be in better control of my emotions <em>334</em> There that helps. LOL <BR> <BR> I am looking forward to next month when we will be headed to the beach for a few days. I have missed the beach so much. Due to some poor planning on my part, we were unable to go this summer. But I am grateful and blessed that we will go in November. ... Tue, 8 Oct 2013 12:02:28 EST September Progress Leads To October Goals... So for September I ended with 17 days of exercise, 557 fitness minutes. My eating was not the best but I am a work in progress <em>4</em> I was at least 80% consistent on my water so I proud of that effort. I had wanted to have no processed sugar in the month of September. I succumbed to the sugar temptation last Fri, Sat and Sun. But I am trying to look at the bigger picture and not let it bring me down. <BR> <BR> Now it's a new month...OCTOBER. My plans for October??? <BR> 1) Drink ... Sat, 5 Oct 2013 07:41:10 EST Positive Early Morning Thoughts Lead To A Return To Sparking... WE'VE GOT THIS....That's what a good friend said to me on Facebook early this morning. This is a phrase I've used countless times over the past months and years. But I haven't said or thought that more recently. <BR> <BR> Now my exercise was really good this month. I was shooting for 5 days a week. That did not happen every week however, I did have one week that it did! I also had some 2 weeks where I had 4 days and one week with 3 days. But I will not beat myself on this. I have been ... Sun, 29 Sep 2013 07:05:32 EST Moving Forward, Tired of Moving Backwards!! So about a month ago I was getting ready to go on vacation. But before it had even started, I had already decided to throw in the towel. I derailed from an eating plan that had been working for me for the most part. A month ago I was working out and sweating a ton and loving it. Then about three and half weeks ago, I stopped that routine as well. <BR> <BR> Now I know some feel that when you go on vacation you are supposed to go off your diet or lifestyle change. That may work for others... Sat, 17 Aug 2013 19:17:20 EST Renewed Passion For My Journey... So the Biggest Loser Challenge went from 4/1 to 7/1....I am happy to report that I lost just under 20 lbs!!! Below are the my before pics (gray bra) and my after (black bra): <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> So on Monday we are starting the next challenge (it's not a Biggest Loser) and it will be a summer into fall challenge that will run until 9/30. I'm looking forward to it. I am feeling renewed passion for my journey because of re... Wed, 3 Jul 2013 21:49:12 EST April Recap... I am proud to say that I ended the month of April with a loss of 6.2lbs! I am proud of myself for this accomplishment. I did have a gain at one point of 3 lbs but I lost 2.2 of what I gained so GO ME! <BR> <BR> As for exercise, I completed 21 out of 30 days of exercise! WHOOP WHOOP! I would've completed more if not for back pain. I had to stop doing the Bootylicious Challenge because it began affecting my back and I had some spasms. I got in 16 consecutive days of some sort of exercise... Thu, 2 May 2013 16:29:26 EST Week 1 Biggest Loser... This morning was my first weigh in after working hard the past week. I am down 5lbs! I am proud of me. I exercised 7 out of 7 days! GO ME <em>9</em> I did cardio everyday but yesterday. I started a Bootylicious Challenge for April that someone posted on Facebook and did 6/6 days(Saturday is a rest day). It's composed of squats, plie squats, donkey kicks and hip lifts to tone up my booty. I told DH that come 5/1 my booty best be looking bootylicious and that he better tell me it look... Mon, 8 Apr 2013 14:51:41 EST Making Changes And Getting Excited... Monday starts a new challenge for me. I am taking part in a Facebook Biggest Loser event. It's the first time I've taken part in one and I'm quite excited about it. In preparation, I ordered a brand new scale from Kohls. I needed to get my WI by today and I am happy to say it arrived today. I decided to go ahead and WI despite the fact that I had already eaten a pretty large lunch. On Tuesday, Emma took my before pics as I needed to send both those and my starting weight to the event co... Thu, 28 Mar 2013 16:33:19 EST Learning To Accept Myself... Yesterday I watched a video of my wedding. It was 10 yrs ago next month. In it, I weighed over 350 pounds. Every time I see myself in that video I cry and how I let myself get that large. I cry for person I was. However, I know for a fact, it was indeed one of the happiest days of my life! <BR> <BR> I think we are always harder on ourselves than on others. I found myself being harder on that happy girl in the video, than I would EVER be on friends who are overweight. If they were I ... Sun, 24 Mar 2013 07:16:06 EST Never Giving Up... I cannot figure out why it's so hard for me to consistently post on SP. I think they need a SP app that includes blogging. Then I'd be SO all over that <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> Since my last blog, I've made some progress with my mindset and what direction I want to take my life. I have made some personal, family and career goals. I completed the PUSH 30 day challenge and it helped me a lot. I attended a conference for Tastefully Simple (my other job) at the beginning of February and dec... Sun, 17 Mar 2013 21:13:40 EST Breakthrough This Morning... I woke up this morning feeling a moment of intense depression and tears. I figured out that it had to do with the fact that I had eaten some Chinese food-on Friday night. Now, what I ordered was a bit better than what I would've in the past. It was Chicken & Broccoli and Sesame Chicken. I ate no rice. But at the end I overindulged in the Sesame Chicken. Normally I would've had Combination Lo Mein & Sesame Chicken. So for me, this was a big step. And I had leftovers-but I threw out wh... Sun, 13 Jan 2013 14:04:18 EST Nervous Yet Excited For My First WI In about an hour I will know how I did on my first week of WW. I'm a bit nervous as I decided to basically <em>225</em> I didn't and don't want to let the squarish box with the telling #'s rule my life. I know I need to add in how my clothes fit, measurements and how I feel. That box does NOT have to play such a huge role in my life. <BR> <BR> I've decided that I want to have more of the Simply Filling foods instead of counting up points. I feel I've done pretty well when I'm off, b... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 08:56:51 EST It's A New Week... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> But I STILL....EXPECT AMAZING! I have been feeling great. I went to get some grocery shopping done on Friday night and yesterday morning. I made some Taco Soup... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It's a WW recipe that I've made before. It got good reviews from DH & me. Emma said it was good with bread. <em>246</em> All I know is that it's healthy... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 09:51:38 EST Expect AMAZING Day 2 Still feeling psyched after yesterday's blog! I woke up this morning, painted my face and headed to WW for the first WI! It was good. I loved the whole set up at the new location. My friend stayed and decided that she was going to join WW online for right now with her busy schedule. She treated me to lunch at Chili's where we shared an appetizer and I had a bowl of chili. I wasn't perfect but I wasn't as bad as I once would have been. Now to figure out how to track the appetizers:/ <BR> ... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 15:49:46 EST Expect AMAZING!!!!!!! I heard that quote on the new Weight Watchers 360 commercial and knew I just had to adopt it as my mantra for 2013! I just updated my Sparkpage and decided that quote was my theme for this year. Last year I had "2012...No More Excuses". I stopped the sugar completely as of 1/23, I cut back dramatically on eating food from work and started bringing meals from home. It made a tremendous difference in my life physically and financially. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I watched the WW 360 commercial an... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 18:28:23 EST Looking At Life Through Different Eyes... I have to be honest...I haven't been following any kind of diet or exercise plan since the middle of summer. However, I have lost some weight. I think that at some point, or having hit 40, something changed-my focus maybe-and I lost the weight. I read a friend's blog a few weeks ago about Intuitive Eating. It's a book. I started to buy and then I said, no let's get it from the library because your track record with book reading hasn't been real great lately. So as I read the first chap... Wed, 12 Dec 2012 09:37:45 EST Just Realized I've Been MIA For Over 2 Months... Life really passes when you aren't paying attention! Mostly it's been passing through some major computer changes at work. <BR> <BR> I've made a commitment with my one of my SP buds, LESLIES537 to get healthier. We made a pact via text this past weekend through the end of the year. We want to focus on eating healthier and not on a number on the <em>11</em> . We will work on adding more exercise and better food choices-eliminating fast food. I said I wanted to blog once a week-hence t... Wed, 14 Nov 2012 20:22:08 EST OMG OMG OMG!!!! Yesterday I was talking with DH and happened to touch my collar bone area. It felt bonier and I said I would have to weigh myself this morning. Now, it's not official as I couldn't get a consistent #-I think I need new batteries on my <em>11</em> . But every time I weighed myself....I WAS UNDER 300lbs!!!! I haven't since Twoterville in about 3 or 4 yrs so I'm so happy!!! <BR> <BR> After a conflicting day yesterday (non food related) this was quite a pleasant shock for me. Oh, and I ha... Thu, 20 Sep 2012 08:01:12 EST Rough Day... Today started out well.  At the last minute, I decided to walk to the grocery store instead of driving my car at 0600 this morning. I needed to get fixings for Emma's lunch and I wanted to get my walk in. So I killed 2 birds with one stone. Everything I purchased except one item was for Em. It was that one item that turned my day into a rough one: a bag of Doritos-family sized no less.  <BR> <BR> So I dropped Emma off to daycare, came home and made my protein shake with Vi shape mix, strawbe... Wed, 5 Sep 2012 18:08:55 EST Pleasant Start To My Week... My daughter is starting first grade tomorrow.  It's so hard to believe how much she has changed.  We went to Walmart and picked up shoes to go with her first day of school outfit.  I will have to post pics in my next blog. <BR> <BR> Today I've been working on cleaning up the carp at builds up on my side of the room. I decided to try on a pair of jeans I haven't worn since the summer of '07.  I was shocked to discover that I could put the jeans on. I thought my thighs wouldn't fit in at all. ... Mon, 3 Sep 2012 18:28:47 EST Build A Bridge And Get Over It... This week I had some emotional setbacks but it's time to do as I said a bridge and get over it! <BR> <BR> While my plans went slightly awry for my first week, I am not giving up yet. I finally started my shakes on Thursday. I had 2 that day. I have put together a binder with a quote and a picture Emma drew in the the clear sleeve on the front cover. I started putting pen to paper a little last night. I need to review my goals daily and I can't do that if I don't have a wri... Sat, 1 Sep 2012 11:37:50 EST Starting The Morning Off Right... Woke up this morning, piddled for 20 minutes and then got dressed, laced my shoes and went for a quick 20 minute walk. What a great way to start off my morning. No heat or humidity. It was great. I'm thinking of trying to do the same this weekend and maybe add a little run/jog to it. While walking I was thinking I should invest in those sneakers that form fit and even have toes? But I need to price them. Would love to hear anyone's experiences with them-good or bad. <BR> <BR> I have t... Wed, 29 Aug 2012 07:32:31 EST Setbacks But Moving Forward... Guess I should call them self induced setbacks. I was to start my shakes on Saturday but it didn't happen. I decided to get more junk in and then start today. So I make my shake this morning with strawberries & bananas. Then I leave for work. I'm about 30 min into my drive when I realize I've left my shake sitting on the counter and I didn't pack my Ezekiel bread for a snack. NOT GOOD <em>234</em> So I've bought bfast again and did I make the best choice? No, of course not, but I am n... Mon, 27 Aug 2012 08:57:44 EST Making Me A Priority... Yesterday my daughter finished her swim classes. She is able to do many things in the pool with assistance but will need to have some private lessons next month. While watching her at the rec center, I started watching the aquatics classes and found there were a couple of teachers I really liked. I am considering taking 2 classes a week. I did have a naysayer say, you need to wait because Emma will be back in school. Yes, she will. But I have to put myself first at some point if I am goi... Fri, 24 Aug 2012 13:13:30 EST Grateful Heart... I woke up and as I drove into work, I was having a hard time feeling positive. However, now, as I start reflecting, I have a grateful heart for all that God has blessed me with. For the most part, I try to be positive. It's not always easy-especially at work. But I'm a work in progress. <BR> <BR> I did get up yesterday and go for a 22 minute walk first thing. I felt good and I walked very briskly. I felt good breathing in the fresh air and thankful that I could be walking. <BR> <BR>... Thu, 23 Aug 2012 09:40:09 EST Shift In The Air Leads To Some Goal Setting... I have been reflecting on the changes I've made since the beginning of the year. About 90% of the year thus far, I've brought food from home. That has not only helped my waistline, but my bank account. I have stopped eating sugar-except for fresh or frozen fruit. That's not to say I haven't wanted sugar. I have. But I stayed strong and the moment passed. <BR> I started thinking about where I started because I feel like now I need to bump up a change in my life. Last month, I turned 40. ... Tue, 21 Aug 2012 13:37:09 EST Slow & Steady...One Step At A Time... It's hard to believ it's already June! Time flies while we're having fun <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> On Tuesday I had my WI and Hubster took my measurements. Since I started the 90 Day Body By Vi challenge 4 weeks ago, I've lost 14.2 lbs and 8.75 inches <em>9</em> There have been discrepancies on my hip/butt measurements so I am probably down there but not really sure of what the exact # is now. I've lost 2.25 from my chest and 2.25 from my ribcage. My mother told me a couple weekends ago ... Thu, 7 Jun 2012 12:48:34 EST I Feel GOOD... I feel so good this morning. I can't give an exact reason. I just feel positive and upbeat. I feel blessed for all that God has given me and for all the positive & encouraging people He has brought into my life. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was a great day...I was exhausted by late morning but the day was great just the same. I weighed in and I was down 10.4lbs and I've lost 3.5inches. After dropping my daughter for school, I got in a challenging 2 mile walk and felt terrific. I thought I might... Thu, 17 May 2012 08:47:52 EST Come On Ride The Train... For some reason this song is going in the back of my mind as I sit here at work. I'm feeling happy, positive and upbeat! AND I LIKE I LIKE I LIKE <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> This morning I spent some time working on my Spark page. I never really filled in anything on the goals/my program side of my page. <BR> <BR> Last Wednesday, I started a 90 day challenge. I hope to blog at least weekly about my results as DH will be taking measurements on Tuesday nights and I will weigh in every Wedne... Mon, 14 May 2012 13:36:36 EST Friends & Other Ramblings... I just noticed that it's been quite some time since I blogged, let alone sparked. I remember when I first joined Spark almost 3 yrs ago. I was so committed to logging on here and checking in on all my friends. I had people who friended me and people I friended. I had people who would friend me but not say a word to me on my page or in sparkmail so I knew nothing about them. I felt like I was just added to be a number. Then after awhile, I started looking at all my friends and realized t... Wed, 2 May 2012 11:30:01 EST My Name Is Simone... and I am a compulsive overeater. Last Sunday, the 22nd, I made a life changing decision. I decided to attend my first Overeaters Anonymous meeting. I took a leap of faith and will not look back. A good friend of mine here on SP, emailed me to tell me of the changes she <BR> had made in her life and how she'd begun attending OA meetings for a couple of weeks. <BR> <BR> I am so glad that I took that leap of faith. I have attended online everyday except this past Friday. Some days, I've a... Tue, 31 Jan 2012 21:23:28 EST My Week 1 In Review And New Goals For Week 2... Review of Week 1 <BR> <BR> 1. Bring food from home to work every day <em>248</em> 4/4 days of work I brought in breakfast and lunch and did not buy a thing from the deli that I had frequented! I want to continue this trend! <BR> 2. Exercise 30 minutes for the week <em>248</em> I got in a 35 minute walk with PINKFITCARLA yesterday afternoon. It was a beautiful day for it <em>259</em> It was in the 60's! <BR> <BR> New Goals for Week 2 <BR> <BR> I set up Fast Break goals-something I h... Sun, 8 Jan 2012 08:51:05 EST OMG! What Did I Just DO?!?!?!?! <em>249</em> Tonight I signed up for the Eat Clean Makeover Challenge. I had a good friend take pictures & my measurements, I filled out the online entry form and now it's time to get to work! I can't believe I've done this. But I'm definitely excited and up to this challenge. <BR> <BR> Here's the link if you are interested in learning more about it: <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Here are my starting pics that I submitted for the challenge: <BR> <im... Mon, 2 Jan 2012 19:01:20 EST