RUBYREDIVY1's SparkPeople Blog RUBYREDIVY1's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Being gentle but firm! There's definitely a balance to strike when coming back after a while of being undisciplined... Go too easy and bad habits creep back. Go too strict and you cave in. At 70kgs the last thing I should be eating are biscuits. But since I am planning to eat everything in moderation I'll be eating them in small packs and incorporated into the range from day 1. At 125kcal per pack and giving me the chocolate and crunchy biscuit fix at once as well as being soothing with a cup of tea or java, i... Thu, 26 Feb 2015 14:10:14 EST The worst thing ever! It took me 2.5 years to go down from 73kgs to 63kgs since joining sparkpeople. <BR> <BR> The year 2014 has taken it's toll - with everything going wrong, it was the hardest year of my life. <BR> So hard that I am now back at 70kgs! <BR> <BR> My biggest question now is... will it take another 2 years for me to lose the weight again? <BR> <BR> I hope not. <BR> <BR> There is a sense of despair - a degree of pessimism right now which is sabotaging any progress - I take 2 steps forward and 3 s... Wed, 25 Feb 2015 13:34:38 EST First Binge of the Year... Emotional Eating... Need I say more? <BR> <BR> ;( Sat, 10 Jan 2015 13:14:19 EST Down to 65.8kg! Really glad right now - usually I stopped dead at 66.2kg and then to my dismay actually used to go right back up. Not this time. I've lost another 0.4kg! that's almost half a kg. <BR> <BR> Revved up and pretty determined to stick to this through anything! <BR> <BR> Yay! Tue, 30 Dec 2014 15:04:53 EST Lost 1KG after the longest Plateau ever! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I've been going on and off for a while now - trying to move in the right direction. Finally getting a result! <BR> <BR> I'm now 1 kg lighter than I was a week and a half ago! I am very delighted with this - it's only a small victory, but it's so refreshing to get the scale moving again after trying so hard for so long! <BR> <BR> My face is looking a lot lighter as above - and my clothes are also much more loos... Fri, 26 Dec 2014 12:11:12 EST Pictures! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Me at the very start of sparkpeople in 2012! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> October 2013 - looking more than a little different, yes? <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> December 2013 <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> January 2014 - at lowest wei... Mon, 22 Dec 2014 15:51:51 EST Up and Down Husbands are funny things. You can't quite figure them out sometimes... He can be very bitter and blunt one minute and terribly sweet or loving the next. I've learnt not expecting anything from him works to my surprise as he changes considerably from day to day... One minute he was mentioning how he thinks imagines living without me and a few hours later he'll be hugging me for no reason. He can't stay negative for long although I certainly can hold a grudge for months on end. Prob... Mon, 22 Dec 2014 00:36:39 EST Back with a vengeance! Good things spring out of the depths of darkness sometimes. Having cut myself off emotionally from my husband and only interacting on a practical and pragmatic level has set me free. I am concentrating wholly on what I want. I'm going to get it this time. This is for me. Only me. If he complains I will be ready for it. I will be happy with the new me I'm going to be very soon. Nothing can sway me now because I've been there and seen it all before. I'm almost 30 and time is not on my... Sat, 20 Dec 2014 20:59:42 EST Very Good at Promising, not so on Delivering! Reverse psychology. Only works when you don't want it to. <BR> <BR> No sooner have I started giving him the hard shoulder is he getting on the proverbial knee and making wild romantic promises. <BR> <BR> I won't fall for it. <BR> <BR> I always fall for it. <BR> <BR> I always get disappointed when the tables are turned and I find myself chasing him instead. <BR> <BR> Don't think so. <BR> <BR> I'm going to lose the extra weight and get down to my desired size, not what he thinks a woman ... Thu, 18 Dec 2014 15:52:04 EST Letting Go I have to face the facts. <BR> <BR> 9th Anniversary yesterday and my husband bribes me with a shopping trip so I leave him alone and let him work and we don't spend time together. <BR> <BR> Let's face it - it's not going to become what I want it to. Stop fighting it. Just take the good and ignore the bad. <BR> <BR> Make the best of whatever there is. <BR> <BR> Not everyone is blessed the same with romance, love and respect. <BR> Thu, 18 Dec 2014 04:33:19 EST Sorry, your excess baggage limit has been exceeded! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Stuck in a vicious cycle of negativity... <BR> <BR> Very much like all that baggage going round in the carousel at the keeps going around, unless someone comes and takes it away. <BR> <BR> I'm in a similar situation. <BR> <BR> My negative cycles come and go. For weeks on end I am the shining example of tenacity, hard work and optimism. <BR> <BR> At the slightest pindrop - gosh, it could be somethi... Sun, 14 Dec 2014 15:02:08 EST No more excuses I've done well. Yesterday. But that was yesterday. <BR> <BR> Today I blew it. <BR> <BR> Why? <BR> <BR> Excuses. When I want to go overboard I use temporary excuses. <BR> <BR> I have not been happy this entire year... <BR> <BR> I've had countless fights with my other half. ..big ones...those that still linger at <BR> the back of your mind. <BR> <BR> We moved house. ...bad choice...we moved my son's school also didn't turn out good. <BR> We're now in more of a mess than before. ... Sat, 22 Nov 2014 22:14:49 EST starting again It's been a bad year... Plenty of stress upheaval and disturbance to routines etc. Among the chaos and my own withering will to keep going I've lost many friends along the way. 1. Exercise Completely out if the picture like it never was... no time. No motivation. 2. Water Starting to get headaches before u realise I just needed water 3. Portion control Portion wha? Eating mindlessly 4. Comfort eating Eating when you don't need it... great 5. Sleep Losing out and getting hungrie... Fri, 21 Nov 2014 02:57:15 EST 1 week into getting back on track It's been 1 week now I have started in earnest. <BR> <BR> <BR> It's like coming off the motorway and suddenly realizing how fast you were going. <BR> <BR> I was eating mindlessly day in and day out - and it seems like time flies with it when you do that. Now that I'm watching my eating habits again, it does feel like each day has slowed down, waiting for my next meal to come. <BR> <BR> Sometimes i just feel the need to eat for no reason - No idea why. But when I'm done, it's the worst f... Thu, 25 Sep 2014 13:25:01 EST New Motivation I've had a rough time and plenty of binge time due to exam and assignment stress. It's like I need it to calm down when studying or preparing for exams. <BR> <BR> I understand a little is fine, but I go overboard. <BR> <BR> I need to stop - because now it's almost over and I need to concentrate on healthy eating. <BR> <BR> This is because i'm starting to get headaches from overeating. I can't cope - feeling unwell. So obviously I need to think about this as it will affect studying too. ... Thu, 21 Aug 2014 18:37:36 EST inches... I'm noticing that I'm checking my waist measurements every day and they are not changing at all. <BR> <BR> I am concerned, but shouldn't really be as I did have a couple of slip ups and officially restarted yesterday. <BR> <BR> It's so important to be precise with the counting of calories - it really does make a whole world of difference no matter how active you are. Also time of month is upon me and I'm telling myself it will show after this anyway so keep going. <BR> <BR> I also have ... Sat, 24 May 2014 05:33:04 EST Painful start While knowing things don't get back to normal overnight - I have realized my smaller portions are starting to satisfy me again - in contrast to a few weeks ago when I started to get back on track and I felt like I was eating "tiny" portions. In reality that's what you convince yourself to think because you've constantly overeaten and expanded your stomach. <BR> <BR> While today is day 5 - I can't see any visible difference (slimmer face, looser clothes, anything!) even though I've not passe... Mon, 19 May 2014 08:20:04 EST Enough is Enough! I've had it. <BR> <BR> <BR> All these failed starts... I'm going to be back where I was 2 years ago if i don't stop now. <BR> <BR> I have to take it seriously. <BR> <BR> I'm going back to basics now. <BR> <BR> Counting and exercise. <BR> <BR> Going back to: <BR> <BR> *Drinking a glass of water before each meal - as my portions have gone up recently - to counteract this. <BR> <BR> *Counting meticulously <BR> <BR> *Planning ahead <BR> <BR> *exercising 10 minutes a day at least - if n... Thu, 15 May 2014 05:54:33 EST Out of Hand Things have gotten so out of hand...I can't believe it. <BR> <BR> I'm so much heavier. I was once 62.8kg and now I'm verging on 67kg. I've got a chubby face and my clothes are tighter. <BR> <BR> How did it get this far? <BR> <BR> Becoming totally complacent and unbothered. "Do it later" sort of thinking. Or "Can't be bothered". <BR> <BR> This has to stop - because the road from here is only going to get uglier and uglier. <BR> <BR> And already I've tried re-starting 3-4 times without ... Wed, 23 Apr 2014 16:17:39 EST I feel falling off What is is with reaching goal that makes us so complacent? <BR> <BR> I keep falling off. I seem to have this pattern - good on Mon, Tue, Wed, Thu - then Fri, Sat, Sun I'm very bad... <BR> <BR> it's happening unconsciously! <BR> <BR> I need to work my calories around this then and make it work coz it seems to be a lifestyle thing. Mon, 17 Mar 2014 06:59:01 EST Happy Birthday Dear Husband! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This is my husband's birthday cake. It's his Birthday today and I wish him all the happiness in the world. <BR> <BR> <BR> I used Betty Crocker's Devil Food Cake mix, and Bet... Tue, 11 Mar 2014 12:37:08 EST Confusion There's been a bit of confusion lately about what I'm trying to achieve. <BR> <BR> I need to clear this up. <BR> <BR> <BR> I had a little bit of a relapse these past few weeks and went up. <BR> <BR> My scales aren't working and i'm too lazy to do anything about it. <BR> <BR> I'm measuring my vitals and keeping track that way instead. <BR> <BR> I'm currently taking some medication that is affecting my fluid levels and I'm feeling tired, cranky and swollen in general. <BR> <BR> Said medi... Mon, 10 Mar 2014 09:25:11 EST Make it an Occasion! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> It's only tea time right? <BR> <BR> Make your brew, and relax...unwind, get it done with. <BR> <BR> But no - I have started making a point of making every meal - every single morsel I put in my mouth a special occasion and enjoy the ritual of the whole experience. <BR> <BR> I could have just half-mindedly put the kettle on, made my brew in an ugly mug and grabbed the packet of special K - plopped mys... Thu, 6 Mar 2014 12:51:44 EST Healthy, Filling Breakfast <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Thought I'd share a snapshot of my breakfast today. <BR> <BR> Those slices are quorn turkey burger. <BR> <BR> It was really yummy! High protein, low fat and good fibre. <BR> Wed, 5 Mar 2014 07:03:07 EST How to control a disaster as it happens <img src=""> <BR> <BR> So you're doing well. It's been a good week you've been nice - and your naughty side is starting to get restless. <BR> <BR> You've been good all week. <BR> <BR> It's friday - you want to celebrate the beginning of the weekend, right? <BR> <BR> Something like this happened to me today. <BR> <BR> <BR> Hard day at work - lots of stuff done and feeling tired. <BR> <BR> Have my evening meal - feeling a little p... Fri, 28 Feb 2014 13:48:35 EST Eating healthy makes me happy <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> No kidding! <BR> <BR> The pic shows last night's dinner. <BR> <BR> I used Philladelphia's mushroom sauce - with wholemeal taglatellia pasta, chopped mushrooms and some minced quorn for extra protein. <BR> <BR> It was awesome - too delicious! I made a big batch and portioned it into 3 so I wouldn't overeat! That's how tempting... Fri, 28 Feb 2014 12:32:39 EST End of day reward strategy working like a charm! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This may look like a totally decadent dessert and really OTT - but it isn't. Not in the slightest. <BR> <BR> It's just a wave of inspiration on my part in my effort to get back on track and use my old tactic of "End of day Reward". <BR> <BR> I look forwa... Wed, 26 Feb 2014 16:42:34 EST Motivation <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Someone wind me up. <BR> <BR> For the past 5 weeks I've become very complacent about everything. <BR> <BR> Before I knew it - my scale was broken and I only went by the way my clothes fit - and the measuring tape. <BR> <BR> <BR> Seems I've gained 2 inches everywhere! Clothes are a pinch tighter. <BR> <BR> I'm glad I've caught it. <BR> <BR> But surprise surprise - I tried "restarting" 5 times du... Tue, 25 Feb 2014 17:34:19 EST An interesting Hobby Hi guys! <BR> <BR> I'm making my very own videogame using a software called rpgmaker 2003. It looks like those retro games we used to play back in the day. <BR> <BR> I've chosen to make it story-intensive - so it's a mystery game. <BR> <BR> It's also multiple options to decide what path you can take in the story - there's several different endings you can achieve through your choices. <BR> <BR> There's also the possibility to choose one of 6 guys who you can get romantically involved wit... Sat, 22 Feb 2014 04:19:24 EST Sparkpeople Quiz: How positive is your body image? How Positive is Your Body Image? <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Body image affects how you feel about yourself, how you project yourself, and how you care for your own health. Answer the following questions to find out where your body image stands now--and how you can improve it. <BR> <BR> Your Results You love your body. <BR> <BR> Congratulations! You have a positive, healthy image of your body and tend to treat it with respect. ... Sat, 8 Feb 2014 13:56:26 EST Chasing away the demons <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I've always battled a totally different kind of demon within myself which the average onlooker might not even realize. <BR> <BR> Over the years of hearing negativity about me from those around me I've become this strange person who has double standards for her own self. <BR> <BR> It's quite paradoxical really. <BR> <BR> I love what I see in the mirror - at the point I am right now - and when I reached this stage ... Thu, 6 Feb 2014 09:59:43 EST Finally at Peace <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> I've gone back up to 64kgs now. I'm finally where I want to be. <BR> <BR> I have now set my nutrition to maintaining - and am now setting myself a target to stay the same - give or take a few 100 grams and water fluctuations - for the next whole month. <BR> <BR> Once the month is reached and I've achieved my target I will reward myself with new clothes. <BR> <BR> The next target will be to maintain for 3... Tue, 28 Jan 2014 06:43:08 EST Oh boy, here we go! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> So...having reache the 10kg lost mark. I've noticed something. <BR> <BR> <BR> Eating healthy, losing slowly, drinking plenty of water, toning up all my problem areas. <BR> <BR> Last time I was closing in on this point I was met with ridiculous sag problem in the chest area. <BR> <BR> Surprise surprise - it's the same still. <BR> <BR> Why do I put myself through this torture? <BR> <BR> I know the answer, but ... Fri, 24 Jan 2014 04:59:47 EST Nearing the 10kg lost mark <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Today I weigh half a kg lighter than yesterday. <BR> <BR> I am now 63.2kg - my lowest ever. <BR> <BR> I'm now nearing the 10kg lost mark since July 2012. <BR> <BR> 73kg start - 63.2kg today. <BR> <BR> I have 1kg to goal. <BR> <BR> I've never been this excited! In the end, it does pay off, but the journey can be riddled with problems and a lot of FOG! <BR> <BR> <BR> I can't believe I'll be finally rea... Wed, 22 Jan 2014 09:24:29 EST It's a number's game <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> It's a strange number's game, this weight loss thing. <BR> <BR> While being 0.6kg up on the scale two days ago - today I'm back to my pre-splurge weight of 63.8kg again. Confusing - I overate by around 1300 - almost a day's worth of calories in 2 days - that's 0.2kg gain in fat - so why hasn't it registered aside from the initial fluctuation for water retention? <BR> <BR> I'm guessing the numbers aren't acc... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 12:44:43 EST 14 Day Roll <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Seriously...the longest time I've ever been on a roll. <BR> <BR> 14 days simultaneously. All blown away in one day. I went to a buffet. All you can eat. <BR> <BR> Yes I did try eating a little bit of everything, and yes I tried curbing my enthusiasm for desserts but..I know what damage has been done. <BR> <BR> I've retaining quite a bit of water from this one day. So my scale is half a kg up today. <BR... Mon, 20 Jan 2014 15:16:11 EST Quickest Recipe EVER - but low calorie, tasty and filling! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> You're short on time. You don't have time to THINK! You're in a hurry and you need QUICK food, low calorie plus full on flavour and satiety. What do you do? <BR> <BR> Keep 3 stock ingredients at home at all times: <BR> <BR> 1. Favourite flavour of Maggi noodles (mine's a tie between chicken and indian masala) <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Most ... Tue, 14 Jan 2014 06:00:32 EST Protective Jealousy - I did not believe it at first... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I'm shrinking and toning up. That's a fact. <BR> <BR> My OH does notice these things and was offering me some food yesterday that I didn't need. I had already eaten and wasn't due to eat for another 3 hours. <BR> <BR> I said I'm going to eat later. He said I should just have a taste or a bite. My determination this last past week over so many goodies being at home - waffles, kinder bonbons, cadbury chocolate... Sun, 12 Jan 2014 05:59:34 EST Weight loss of 0.4kg!!! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Is this for real? I was at my lowest point yesterday! I felt that I've been very very good for very very long and no result. But I told myself - what if the result happens tomorrow? What if the backlog of excess in the exam time hasn't shed yet? What if that's what you're paying for right now and eventually it'll come off? <BR> <BR> With that in mind, my resolve to eat healthy and still exercise didn't... Sat, 11 Jan 2014 05:55:13 EST Workout Routine <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I haven't really thought about a proper workout "routine" per se. I just go with the flow, really. When I'm doing kettlebells I just stick on some youtube video - do it a few weeks and switch to another youtube video and rinse and repeat. <BR> <BR> And for cardio, I just do some stationary biking in front of the tv when I think I need to - pretty basic stuff. <BR> <BR> I think I need to tailor it a bit more to... Fri, 10 Jan 2014 13:05:16 EST Fashion Models - Spot the difference! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This is a normal little girl <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This is a normal model <BR> <BR> <BR> Spot the difference? <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> (Answer: One started puberty, the other didn't! But they both look the same!) Wed, 8 Jan 2014 08:08:23 EST Feeling Revved up! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> After the water retention scare, I am feeling quite revved up and determined to meet my goal this time! <BR> <BR> So, in preparation I've bought a swiss ball and some resistance bands as well - I need to work on my upper back section and the sparkpeople wedding dress workouts seem to be quite good. <BR> <BR> <BR> I'll only know afterwards if it was worth it - but I know kettlebells are a blast anyway! So... Tue, 7 Jan 2014 14:03:16 EST The Tension with Water Retention <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Water retention. <BR> <BR> <BR> It drives me nuts! <BR> <BR> <BR> After a whole week of estimating calories - which I know isn't right, as I've established in my last post, I come off my tine of month, drink a ton of water for a few days and voila! <BR> <BR> I've lost 1 kg. How? It was just water retention. <BR> <BR> I can't believe how many times I go through this stupid thing and am never wiser. <BR> <B... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 09:09:15 EST Slipping, slipping, slipping! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Realizing you're slipping is sometimes an occurence too late. I am realizing it already, before any real damage has been done. <BR> <BR> Catching it in time is better than making up for it later once the damage has been done. <BR> <BR> I have gone back up to 65.1kg - which seems to be a weird sticking point for me. <BR> <BR> I had blissfully reached a 63.9kg a couple of weeks back and then the exam preparation... Sun, 5 Jan 2014 08:01:48 EST Exam Stress and relapses Exam stress is making me relapse. Not to mention being that time of the month. <BR> <BR> In any case I need to be clever. <BR> <BR> <BR> I just had an idea. <BR> <BR> I'm quite monotonous... I can literally eat the same thing again and again. <BR> <BR> Why not use that to my advantage instead of trying to be SO varied that it ends up being unhealthy fast food instead? <BR> <BR> So I'll now make batches of the same meal in advance and eat at a moment's notice when I'm hungry and need it... Fri, 13 Dec 2013 18:44:02 EST trimmer Today I've reached 63.9kg - which is a record for me. <BR> <BR> *feeling relieved* <BR> <BR> <BR> Need to keep going! Sun, 8 Dec 2013 10:33:14 EST Cut, Cut, Cut! I'm making progress.... but I think the whole strength training thing is getting in the way a bit. I need to cut the fat first and then work on strength... correct me if i'm wrong? Just feel like the water retention is dipping my mood a bit... Fri, 6 Dec 2013 05:56:33 EST Improved Form <img src=""> <BR> <BR> In all my negativity I had totally failed to cherish the progress I did make since using the kettlebells... I am terribly ungrateful. <BR> <BR> Problem areas: upper back, upper arms. <BR> <BR> Improved areas: waist, thighs (gap!?), chest (firm!), shoulders, neckline, neck, calves and not forgetting bum Wed, 4 Dec 2013 09:31:23 EST Ouch! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Watching a home video today and noticed my back and shoulders are way too chubby... need to go's so depressing seeing yourself look chubby when you try so hard to go down... I sometimes get delusional with my success and think I'm okay...but in fact I need to really go down or else I'll be chubby forever and not realize how awful I look. DH is no help at all as he's really into this sort of stuff so ca... Mon, 2 Dec 2013 08:57:43 EST Clear Goal in mind I have noticed in the past that my measurements are pretty well aligned. <BR> <BR> 44-34-44 - post baby <BR> <BR> 42-32-42 - very heavy <BR> <BR> 40-30-40 - heavy - still 10 inch difference between waist and hip/bust (68-70kg) <BR> <BR> 39-29-39 - at around 66-67kg <BR> <BR> 38-28-38 - right now (65kg) <BR> <BR> 37-27-37 - going to be in around 2kgs less from now (past experience) (63-64) <BR> <BR> 36-26-36 (prediction - not confirmed) (61-62) <BR> <BR> 35-25-35 (prediction - not conf... Thu, 28 Nov 2013 05:01:51 EST