ROWDYRILEY's SparkPeople Blog ROWDYRILEY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community How Many Times Can You Star Anew? Well, I guess as many times as it takes to finally stick.... <BR> <BR> This year started with my husband's health scare. Attempt #1 for me....this year. Fell off and got back on a couple of times. 2011 has been mostly a year of me taking care of other people and not on myself. <BR> <BR> A couple of months ago, I started noticing my heart feeling funny as well as my breathing. "I'm out of shape and overweight. I need to do something" I'd tell myself. "I'll start tomorrow". I'd do that for a ... Wed, 28 Sep 2011 09:43:03 EST Hubby Health Update Feeling so very blessed. It's been a very crazy and stressful time since my last blog entry. Took hubby to a cardiologist who did an echocardiogram and said his heart was performing at 15%, body so swollen with edema that he was drowning in his own fluid. He sent us to a hospital. We spent almost a week in the hospital. <BR> <BR> Bad news: he's been diagnosed with congestive heart failure. Which by the way, WAY more common than you would think. Good news: not diabetic, normal thyroid, norma... Sat, 22 Jan 2011 20:35:13 EST Husband's Health Scare Since my husband and I met 6yrs ago, we've watched each other go from this skinny cute couple to pleasantly plumb and beyond. The past 6 months or more have had me concerned about my husband. I've watched his legs swell and a cough develop. And, like most men, if I say anything to him or ask him to go to a doctor, he refuses to acknowledge that anything is wrong and will dig his heals in even more. So I say nothing and worry more. <BR> <BR> Last Wednesday, he took himself to a clinic convinc... Mon, 10 Jan 2011 06:55:46 EST It's been a while It's been 6 months since I've logged on to Spark People. Six months since I've done anything about my health. A lot has happened but the biggest has been my decision that I'm going to live my life differently. Not just concerning my health but all aspects of my life. I've been unhappy for a few years now. I'm done! I've had enough! New priorities are in place. Stay tuned folks! Mon, 3 Jan 2011 08:00:48 EST Rainy Days, Job Rejection and Introspection So rainy days always make me introspective and since Alex has been dropping rain on us for the last 3 days I've been doing lots of thinking and seeking. On top of that, it's been a week since my interview and I haven't heard anything. I've posted below a few excerpts from a well worn book of mine "That Which You Are Seeking Is Causing You To Seek" by Cheri Huber..... <BR> <BR> "We often approach ourselves with ideas about improving, changing or getting rid of various aspects. We are so condi... Fri, 2 Jul 2010 09:52:28 EST So nervous and anxious....... My husband is a videographer who has been out of work for almost a year now. A friend of his works for a local newspaper and is helping hubby make a pitch to the editor-in-chief for adding video pieces to their online editions. I'm so nervous and anxious. We need this.....HE needs this! God, please have her call and offer him a job......If she doesn't, I don't know what we're going to do. He just had the rug pulled out from underneath of him with 2 of the odd jobs he's been doing. Tue, 15 Jun 2010 06:20:20 EST Are the planets starting to align? WAHOO!!!! Got a phone call this afternoon <em>334</em> My principal is going to be able to keep me on her campus <em>104</em> So now I don't have to go to a different school!!! And that also means that if the science department chair resigns, I can slip into that spot. YES!!! The planets are starting to align my friends.... Fri, 4 Jun 2010 19:56:35 EST For June Trying to get my focus back on healthy habits after just losing it last month. So here's the plan for June.... <BR> <BR> * exercise 50 - 60 minutes a day (up from the usual 20) <BR> * drinking 8 glasses of water <BR> * track food and stay within calorie range Wed, 2 Jun 2010 06:51:46 EST Glad May is over Looking back over the events of this month...May has been a tumultuous month. For those of you who have read the previous blogs, here's the latest with my job situation.... <BR> <BR> The science department head is hoping to resign and if everything would work out, I could take her spot. However, her husband is in the field of off shore drilling. If he gets laid off, obviously, she can't resign. I was watching the news Thursday morning and learned of the moratorium on off shore drilling until... Mon, 31 May 2010 07:53:44 EST ARGH! Okay, my panties are in a wad right now so I'm gonna bitch a little so I can move on.... <BR> <BR> I'm a science specialist on a middle school campus. Every middle school has one in my district. In a money saving effort, the district has decided that my campus and another one will share a specialist. So the two of us have been hanging in limbo for months waiting to hear which one of us was going to get the position. <BR> <BR> I found out yesterday that the other specialist will get the pos... Thu, 20 May 2010 06:46:20 EST Hitting the Reset button It's been building for the last 10 months when hubby lost his job. The condensed Reader's Digest version is hubby lost job (no unemployment benefits), tried starting 2 businesses with disappointment after disappointment, putting in applications but getting no response and doing NOTHING to help out around the house. Meanwhile, I'm in a job I don't like or agree with what they're asking us, the specialists, to do and then in January the district starts talking about firing employees because of ... Mon, 17 May 2010 06:31:22 EST Thinking of a hair cut.... Okay, I've been trying to grow my hair out. But I've got crazy hair. Curly in some places, wavy in others and board straight in others. So on a good day, my hair would be described as a hot mess. <BR> <BR> Here is the current.... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Here is what I'm thinking of..... <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img sr... Thu, 29 Apr 2010 08:13:50 EST The trick to taking supplements What's the trick to being able to take supplements without getting an upset stomach? I've tried them at different meals, with plenty of food and water and no matter what I do, I always have that upset tummy. Any advice out there? Wed, 28 Apr 2010 08:08:08 EST To My Fellow Sparkers.... Here was something that was sent to me today and thought I would pass it along. Please read, watch, enjoy and pass it on.. <BR> <BR> The definition of success is a very personal thing. What works for you may not work for me and vice versa. But there are some common denominators for achieving success in your life and that's what this beautiful 3 minute movie is all about! <BR> <BR> So, sit back, turn up your speakers and...prepare to be inspired. Copy and paste the website address below. <B... Mon, 26 Apr 2010 10:56:51 EST The Good News is also the Bad News <em>244</em> <em>9</em> <em>244</em> <em>321</em> <BR> <BR> We're going to dinner tonite at a friend's house. I haven't seen them for a couple of years so I want to make sure I look good. So I go shopping in my closet. I try on a cute pair of pants, sure they're not going to fit right because they're my smallest size I own. <em>104</em> They fit!!!! I try on a couple more and they all fit!!!!! Super excited!.........Then it hits me. These are the smallest size pants I own. I know I'm ... Sun, 25 Apr 2010 09:37:33 EST 50 Random Questions f you are reading this, you have the honor of copying all these goofy questions and writing your own responses! paste these instructions in the body of your blog. Copied mine from VIBEHONEY21 <BR> <BR> <BR> 1. What time did you get up this morning? 6:45am because it's a weekend. Weekdays is 3:45 am <BR> <BR> 2. How do you like your steak? blech! <BR> <BR> 3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Kick Ass. Definitely not what I was expecting. <BR> <BR> 4. What is your favorite TV... Sat, 24 Apr 2010 09:08:07 EST Unexpectedly.... Couple of things happened yesterday to give me a couple of boosts to my ego.... <BR> <BR> On my way to work, I needed to pick some things up at the store. I thought to myself "I think I'd like a donut. Just sounds good and it would be a small cheat and I can stop at that." So off I walk to the bakery section. Looked at the donuts and unexpectedly found myself craving fruit instead <em>277</em> <em>104</em> So I headed to the produce section patting myself on the back <em>334</em> <BR> <... Fri, 23 Apr 2010 06:51:30 EST Pleasantly Surprised I'm back on the exercise train after taking 4 days off due to the back pain I was having. Definitely learned my lesson and not going to over do it with the weights. I was a little hesitant to get on the scale this morning. I gave myself a little pep talk before stepping on. <em>244</em> I was so sure that there would be no loss but low and behold, down 1.4 pounds! FINALLY have said <em>253</em> to the 190s. <BR> <BR> Hopefully, this is a sign of things to come this week. After finding ... Mon, 19 Apr 2010 06:30:20 EST Is it too soon? Okay, I'm not a very patient person. I hate this waiting to find out what others are deciding about my future. I had a screening interview on April 1st. This interview determines if I'm put on "The List" of eligible candidates for principals to call for open assistant principal positions. At the end of the screening interview, the panel explained that letters would be sent out to let you know if you made "The List". <BR> <BR> Well, it's now April 14th and no letter yet. I talk it out. There... Wed, 14 Apr 2010 06:43:58 EST Refocusing I've been seeing some steady progress. Scale is going down. I work out and am active during the day. I drink water. I've started getting compliments. I've even been told that I need to quit wearing the baggy clothes to work. (Wish I could. the smaller sizes are still a little too tight). But all of this has caused me to be a little lax when it comes to tracking my food. Actually, lax doesn't really describe it. I haven't tracked at all. This has caused me to not really pay attention to what i... Sun, 11 Apr 2010 20:49:18 EST Finally starting to see it So I've been at this healthier lifestyle since Jan. 4 of this year. Over the course of these last 3-4 months, I've noticed many things. My behaviors have changed. No more sodas. Veggies and fruits are staples of my diet now. No more processed foods. My fitness levels have improved. No more huffing and puffing up the stairs. I can easily hop up from the floor during my exercise routines. My closet has changed. As the pants got to big, they were changed out for skirts. <BR> <BR> Today was the... Wed, 7 Apr 2010 20:52:40 EST In spite of a bad attitude I don't know what my deal is today but I just woke up with a bad attitude. I did NOT want to work out this morning. I wanted to sit like a bump on a log. But I made myself workout anyways. Boy does your attitude have a big impact on your workout. It was so hard to push my way through BFBM. It's a tough workout but it was tougher today. I kept wanting to quit but at the right time, Jillian would say "Don't phone it in" or "Don't you dare quit". I'd cuss her but keep on chugging along. I made i... Sat, 3 Apr 2010 09:06:39 EST Nerve racking day So all of the middle school principals in my district are meeting with HR and the Assistant Superintendent to find out what positions are going to be reduced on their campuses. Some time today, Hopefully, they'll be told not just about their teacher positions but also their specialist positions (that's me). In other words, I'll be finding out just exactly how important tomorrow's screening interview is going to be. <em>24</em> I just can't hang with the anticipation....... Wed, 31 Mar 2010 06:52:04 EST Closet Goal I have a sign hanging in my closet that has one of my goals "Having a wardrobe that reflects my personality rather than my size". For years, I haven't liked what I saw in the mirror not just because of my size but because I hated the clothes I was wearing. Very blah and boring. <BR> <BR> I went "shopping" again in my closet this weekend and noticed something. Not only were more smaller sizes fitting but I was smiling. Not just because of the size but because these are my clothes. They ref... Mon, 29 Mar 2010 07:07:19 EST In between sizes. Argh! So I'm having some issues getting dressed in the morning for work. The nice thing is that I'm bringing smaller sizes out of storage <em>334</em> But I can't tell if they really fit. <BR> <BR> The biggest item I can't tell are my shirts. I'm used to my shirts being long and boxy. I'm 5'2" and there are very few petite and wide options especially for shirts. My smaller sizes are from the petite section so they're shorter and more fitted, as they should be for someone my height. But when I pu... Fri, 26 Mar 2010 07:08:12 EST The Next Challenge This morning I finished day 30 of the 30 Day Shred. I remember first buying the DVD (almost a year ago!) and watching it thinking "I was smokin' crack when I bought this! There's no way I'll ever be able to do this stuff!" So I put it away. Feeling very accomplished today as I finished level 3! <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> I joined a spark team called Jillian Michael's Sparkers. On there I found a 30 Day challenge. I must have been smokin' a lot of stuff because as I dug through my large colle... Thu, 25 Mar 2010 07:09:06 EST Wahoo! So if you read my previous blog "Spring Break Mighta Broke Me", you know that I'm facing the possibility of losing my job by the end of the school year. Well, back in January, I submitted an application for Assistant Principal in a school district. I hadn't heard anything so I figured I didn't make "The List". I got an email yesterday from that district saying that they wanted me to come in for a screening interview <em>334</em> Granted, it's not for an actual school but would hopefully put ... Wed, 24 Mar 2010 06:39:11 EST whew! I was really nervous to step on the scale this morning. Last week during spring break, I didn't track my foods and knowingly ate too many cheat foods. Thankfully, it seems that my workouts and trying to be active beyond that every day (except the rainout day) kept the gain from being too much. Only a 4 ounce gain. <em>198</em> Whew! <BR> <BR> Back to the grindstone and making sure I'm tracking again. Mon, 22 Mar 2010 06:36:30 EST Spring Break Mighta Broke me Monday is my weigh-in day and I'm a little nervous to get on the scale. I haven't been drinking my water like I should be and have been. I really haven't been eating right at my meals like I should be and have been. I have been active though. Working out and working in the yard. <BR> <BR> The main thing I've been doing wrong is the stress eating. My husband is going on 6 months of being unemployed (no unemployment benefits). We've been trying to make a go of starting 2 businesses. Trying to ... Sat, 20 Mar 2010 11:59:22 EST You can teach an old dog new tricks It might be slow going but I am learning new habits and I love it! <BR> <BR> I'm on Spring Break now and have the opportunity to sleep in as late as I want to. Instead, I WANT to get up early and work out. Not because I love to exercise. It's still not a favorite thing of mine to do. However, I do really like the way that it gets me going in the morning. I'm mentally preparing for the day while I'm working out. I feel energized and more capable of tackling the day after exercising. I also li... Mon, 15 Mar 2010 09:22:28 EST The dreaded laundry day..... I used to hate laundry day. Not just because it's a chore but also because of the implications. My pants are going to be snug. My shirts are going to need to be stretched out....Or are they? Laundry was yesterday. So I'm preparing myself for my snug fitting pants. Huh?! They're not snug. They're actually a little loose! My top? No stretching required. Maybe laundry day isn't so bad after all <em>334</em> Sat, 13 Mar 2010 15:27:38 EST When darkness falls.... I'm on the edge of that slippery slope. It happened 3 times last week and already twice this week. I do great during the day. I get my water in, watch my calories, exercise, the whole 9 yards. However, when darkness falls, my resolve starts to follow suit. Most evenings, I am able to fight it. Slowly though, I've started to creep closer and closer to the edge of the slope. How close can I get before I lose my footing and take a header to the bottom? <BR> <BR> I keep hearing in my head the on... Thu, 4 Mar 2010 12:46:35 EST Looking at food differently When I came home yesterday, my husband decided he wanted to go out for dinner. I wasn't excited about it but if we could go somewhere I could get a healthy dinner I was okay with it. So off we went to one of my favorite local restaurants, Sandie McGee's. I think, great! I'm set. I know exactly what healthy things to get. They offer a platter where you can choose which 3 items you want. I ordered a scoop of chicken salad, pasta salad and spinach salad. All of them are small scoops so not too m... Wed, 3 Mar 2010 06:14:41 EST 28 Day Challenge completed. A new Me is beginning. Back in December, I turned the Big 4-0. I was the last of my friends to turn 40 and probably the only one who was okay with it. I feel comfortable with who I am….Well, for the most part that is. Everybody is a work in progress right? The task that lays ahead for me is (and has been for some time) my health. <BR> <BR> My health is in the crapper. I’ve been suffering from joint pain. I had gotten to the point where I couldn’t bend over and tie my shoes. If I tried, I couldn’t breathe. Walking ... Mon, 1 Mar 2010 06:06:32 EST Why I was late to work yesterday Every woman knows and lives through the "What the heck am I going to wear today?!" morning routine. Yesterday was no different for me. I stand there in the closet and look at the options. Of course, there's nothing I want to wear. As I'm contemplating, my eyes wander over to a rarely touched section of the closet. You know that section that holds the clothes you used to fit in. The ones we're hoping to fit in again. For me, they're also the clothes that I want to one day call my "fat clothes"... Thu, 25 Feb 2010 07:49:56 EST another victory One my epiphanies that I needed to get healthy was the fact that I couldn't go up the stairs at work without collapsing. That was January 4th. Today, I RAN up the 2 flights of stairs. <em>104</em> To top it off, I could actually BREATHE once I reached the top! <em>244</em> Mon, 22 Feb 2010 11:16:22 EST in search of a new reward What a week! Full of highs and lows. Great news first. My mom's blood work came back all normal! So no kidney disease <em>104</em> So relieved because I had no idea how we were going to cope if she did. Praise God! <BR> <BR> More stressors with work. My husband still hasn't been able to find work. It's going on 6 months now. Then to top that off, my job is in jeopardy. I always thought that jobs in the public schools were recession proof. Every kid has to go to school. My position as a Scie... Sun, 21 Feb 2010 08:47:54 EST Taking Stock Just doing a mid-point check of the 28 Day Challenge. <BR> <BR> New Habits Formed <BR> * drinking 6-8 glasses of water during the week <BR> * working out 6 days a week. (I've even been doing multiple workouts a day. I do my usual morning routine. Then one of the ladies I work with and I walk around our building twice a day. Each time we do about 1.5 miles) <BR> * added veggies into my diet each day <BR> * tracking my food (breakfast, lunch and snacks) <BR> * Focus is still on my healthier ha... Thu, 18 Feb 2010 08:01:46 EST When did I know it was working? So I saw this message thread asking something about how you knew when Spark was working for you.....I got to thinking about it and thought I'd do my blog about it. <BR> <BR> So here's how I know that the Spark is working for me this time.... <BR> <BR> * I'm able to be in the teacher's lounge with all the sweet treats and not want any <BR> * I can be in the house with chips and not want them <BR> * when I have my cheat meal, I can't eat as much as I used to (i.e I used to be able to eat an ... Sat, 13 Feb 2010 18:59:59 EST I broke something! I really have been making sure that all of my goals and rewards are based on my behaviors not what the scale says. I use the scale as a way of checking to see if the goals are appropriate/working. Well, it seems to be working because........wait for it........because I broke something..........I broke 200lbs!!!!!!! <em>334</em> <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> Unfortunately, today isn't my weigh in day so hopefully the scale doesn't tilt back the other direction by then. But it sure feels good toda... Thu, 11 Feb 2010 06:48:25 EST love-hate relationship with the weekends Everybody loves the weekend right? It's freedom. No alarm clock. No schedule to follow. No dress code to follow. Can go run and play with your friends and family. All the things I love about the weekend too. <BR> <BR> But no schedule to follow means the routine is thrown out of whack. Playing with family and friends means temptation being waved in your face. The things that make me shudder at the thought of the weekend. I like some of the structure that the work week gives me. It makes it e... Mon, 8 Feb 2010 07:16:19 EST Day 1 28 Day Challenge Wahoo! First day of the challenge and I'm ready <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> Fast Break Goals <BR> 1) do flexibility routine 3x week <BR> 2) drink 6-8 glasses of water <BR> 3) eat fruits & veggies <BR> <BR> Starting weight 203.4 <BR> <BR> Vision Collage <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Hanging in the kitchen where I'll see it the most. <BR> <BR> Spark Time <BR> It's the start and end of each day. In the morning, I track my fitness and blog. In the even... Mon, 1 Feb 2010 06:42:03 EST January recap taking a moment to look back over the month to think about all that I have accomplished. <BR> <BR> For the month I have: <BR> * worked out 6 days a week <BR> * resisted junk food (with the exception of the 1 cheat meal a week) <BR> * been able to walk into a grocery store while hungry and not buy junk food <BR> * drank 6-8 glasses of water a day <BR> * increased the intensity of my workouts each week <BR> * kept my focus off the scale and on instilling better habits <BR> <BR> As a result, I... Sun, 31 Jan 2010 10:11:27 EST glad I've resisted So today is my day of "offs". If I exercise from Saturday thru Thursday, I get Friday morning off. If I eat healthy meals Saturday thru Friday lunch, I get Friday dinner as a guilt free cheat meal. <BR> <BR> I've been doing great so far this month with that. Today for some reason, I've been tempted to start the cheat earlier. I got handed a small bag of Doritos today and I thought "Oh, okay. I'll save this for my cheat meal this evening." Well, they've been sitting in my office staring at m... Fri, 29 Jan 2010 13:09:28 EST progress report This perspective change that I've had seems to be working. Last week's goals were: <BR> * workout 6 days (30 min. aerobic, weight training 3 days) <BR> * no junk food (minus 1 meal) <BR> * 6-8 glasses of water <BR> <BR> All goals met <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> This week's goals: <BR> * workout 6 days (40 min. aerobic, weight training 3 days) time and intensity changed <BR> * no junk food (minus 1 meal) <BR> * 6-8 glasses of water. <BR> <BR> While my focus is on habits and not numbers, the num... Mon, 25 Jan 2010 06:31:17 EST Proud It's the little things right? It might not sound like much but I'm proud of myself. I decided to sleep in this morning because I've been feeling under the weather. Well, all day I've felt very disappointed in myself for not working out in the morning like has been my goal. So when I got home from work today, I did my workout <em>104</em> In the past, I would've just let myself feel disappointed and guilty. Then go home and pig out on junk food. The fact that I didn't makes me feel like I mig... Wed, 20 Jan 2010 20:20:24 EST progress report Starting week 3. So far, I've been keeping up with the goals of exercising 6 days a week and avoiding junk food except for the one cheat meal. The goal of drinking 6-8 glasses of water has been more challenging than I had thought. It's not that I'm tempted to drink other things. It's actually drinking anything. At work, I get so busy, I don't drink anything at all. <BR> <BR> I'm adding to my goals this week, to add some weight training at least 3 days a week. Still working on the water goal... Mon, 18 Jan 2010 09:41:20 EST The real end goal I was talking yesterday with some of my co-workers and we were sharing our goals for the year. Of course, many of them centered around losing so many pounds. I shared my weekly goals and how I was trying not to focus on a number. One of the women said "But isn't your end goal really to lose so many pounds so you're still focused on a number...." <BR> <BR> It made me think. She was right. I might have my weekly goals set up that aren't focused on what the scale says but ultimately, it still ... Wed, 13 Jan 2010 07:39:09 EST week 1's goals met So my goals for the first week were 1) get up before work 6 out of the 7 days to exercise and 2) to not eat junk food (exception of 1 meal). <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> This week's goals 1) add 10 minutes and some intensity to the workouts and 2) get 6-8 glasses of water in a day. <BR> <BR> I saw a news segment at the beginning of year about helping people keep their New Year's Resolutions. They said to start small and go slow to sustain yourself. For example, if you start off exercising 2 hrs... Mon, 11 Jan 2010 06:22:16 EST 1/6 Okay, so I know it's only day 3 but I'm proud of myself. 1) even though it's so cold in the morning and I really want to stay in bed, I get up anyway to exercise. 2) even though it's been a stressful couple of days and I've been tempted to eat junk/comfort food, i've resisted. So pat on the back <em>104</em> Wed, 6 Jan 2010 06:52:18 EST