ROSEPETAL80's SparkPeople Blog ROSEPETAL80's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Keep it up and log everything I've noticed that every time I get off track, it's when I fail to log everything. <BR> <BR> The app is a great tool but putting something down in my notebook tends to keep me more accountable. I realize that may not make much sense but maybe it's because my notebook is a tangible thing and I can't erase it LOL. either way, it seems to work for me. <BR> <BR> I've also found that I need a set schedule. So, in my planner, I write/plan out everything I intend to do for exercise. I'll let you k... Tue, 9 Jan 2018 12:22:12 EST bullet journalling as a tool I've been on again/off again for many years now. I just wanted to share what has helped me the past couple of months. I've started bullet journaling. I've set up my own logs and trackers in my notebook, along with my planner and other agendas. I have pages for rewards and goals as well. Sparkpeople is a GREAT tool but it's nice to have something in writing for when I'm off the grid (so to speak), at work for example. Not only that, but digital is wonderful, but something about having it in wr... Fri, 8 Sep 2017 09:08:38 EST Body Image <img src="">I'm sure I'm not the first to post this but I watched this today and I am without words. If I do not love my body, what am I doing this for? I don't need to be a size 2. I strongly recommend that you watch this documentary. The part where she meets with the plastic surgeon absolutely left me speechless. <BR> <BR> We need more "real women" in the media. <BR> <BR> How much of this body image issues a... Sun, 7 May 2017 05:49:25 EST confidence I've come to the conclusion that I'm in this for more than just the weight loss. Why do I have to dress frumpy to hide myself with oversized clothes? Why shouldn't I look and feel great despite my size? <BR> <BR> I splurged and revamped some of my wardrobe, bought some chunky heels and am working on feeling good about myself throughout this journey. <BR> <BR> I've noticed that no matter what my weight is, I always feel more confident throughout the day when I get up on time, exercise, and ... Wed, 3 May 2017 09:07:47 EST Day 2, feeling good Just did my strength training today. I'll be walking on my break today to fill in some cardio. I felt good yesterday. Had a few times that I felt hungry but stayed on track. Tue, 2 May 2017 04:19:28 EST Haitus OVER! Back again. I need to pull myself back together and get on the right track to healthy. I don't want to be afraid of growing old. I want to be healthy enough not to be scared. I want to make sure I have a lot more time ahead of me. <BR> <BR> I know in my head that 36 is not old, but the closer I get to 40, the more freaked out I get. <BR> <BR> I don't want to be that way. Mon, 1 May 2017 09:07:20 EST 40 lbs happy dance <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Hit a small bump in the road between the loss of my uncle and getting sick, but I did it. Down 40 lbs! Wondering how likely it is that I may be down 50 by the end of the year. Tue, 10 Nov 2015 06:16:24 EST Keeps Getting Better Slowly getting back into the swing of things. I'm having hearing issues because of my sinuses but outside of that I'm starting to feel better. I'll admit, while I was feeling crummy I let my workouts slide. I know in theory that as long as the cold isn't in my chest I'm still ok to workout. The want to wasn't there. I just wanted to rest. Evidently I needed it. But, I was still losing while this was going on so I cannot really complain much. <BR> <BR> Thanksgiving is coming so fast. I was di... Mon, 2 Nov 2015 06:37:08 EST Funeral I'll be attending my uncle's funeral today. It's been a tough week. He was only 52 years old. He was living along and they believe he had been gone for several days before he was found. He died in his sleep of what they believe was a heart attack. I messaged my brother's to tell them I loved them. I can't imagine how my father and other aunts and uncles feel right now losing their baby brother. <BR> <BR> I'll be back tomorrow sparking. I needed this time to grieve. Wed, 21 Oct 2015 06:00:48 EST RIP I'll be back sparking soon. Lost one of my uncles this week. Dealing with the loss and will be back after. Sat, 17 Oct 2015 18:20:32 EST Hanging in there I'm beginning to wonder if I'm wearing myself to thin. I'm trying to help someone, trying to work extra hours, trying to keep up with everything. I'm wondering if that's why I've been so tired. Once things settle down a little bit, I'm going to tone it down. Tue, 13 Oct 2015 05:44:54 EST Up 3 lbs Not proud but not going to be hard on myself. I'll pick things back up this week. Mon, 12 Oct 2015 19:55:07 EST Still tired I slept in this morning. If I didn't know better I would think I was pregnant. (definitely not pregnant) I didn't work out today but I did work out the rest of the week. I have a feeling I'm not going to have a good weigh in on Monday but that's OK. I'll be fine next week. Fri, 9 Oct 2015 06:12:06 EST Mommy Duty I definitely left a message for the teacher to get back to me about my daughter's damaged things. Again, the items were replaceable but that wasn't point. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I wound up dozing briefly after my workout. Moms out there, does this happen to you? Why is it that the day I try to doze a little, everyone in the house decides it's time to get up early? Normally I have to drag my 5 year old and my husband out of the beds, yesterday while I was snoozing they both got up, my daughter i... Thu, 8 Oct 2015 05:48:34 EST Really? So my daughter had to make a "me box" for school. She had to put 3 things in it that were special to her. She came home with it yesterday and I cannot understand what happened. She said when it was her turn to talk about it, her box was empty. The things were eventually found but...there was a flower pin in there from when she was the flower girl at my brother's wedding, it was broken. There was a photo of my nephew, it was ripped in half and looked like it had been balled up. The other thing... Tue, 6 Oct 2015 05:35:49 EST Restful weekend I'm so glad I rested up this weekend. I still got in a workout on Sunday and didn't spend the whole time lazing around, but I did relax some. <BR> <BR> BTW, when did the movie theaters get comfortable? Recliners? My biggest excuse aside from the cost was why go to a theater when I can just watch the movie in the comfort of our own living room. Anyhow, my daughter had a great time and was pretty well behaved. I told my husband how reasonable the prices were at this theater so we may do that ... Mon, 5 Oct 2015 05:26:42 EST Goal 2 Happy Dance! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Woohoo! 2nd Goal met! I am so glad I planned 5% at a time. The smaller goals are really gratifying. Time to set my ticker up for goal number 3! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I'm still not 100% better but it seems to be out of my head if it makes any sense. I'm still sniffly but I'm not woozy anymore. I woke ... Sun, 4 Oct 2015 06:17:26 EST Rest day I slept in this morning and it felt great. I definitely needed the rest. I'll make it up tomorrow morning. Hope everyone else is having a great weekend. Sat, 3 Oct 2015 20:04:02 EST Working out sick I'm getting hit with a cold. It has not drifted into my throat or chest yet so I'm still getting in my workouts. I am however, going to bed earlier to get in some extra rest. I'm hanging in there hoping that it doesn't get too much worse. <em>527</em> <BR> <BR> Yesterday I actually took a short nap after my workout. I evidently needed it. If this keeps up, I may wind up taking a weekend break from the workouts. Fri, 2 Oct 2015 05:39:16 EST Need to laugh Another need a laugh day. Enjoy. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <img src=""> Wed, 30 Sep 2015 05:56:43 EST Changes I'm sticking with my calorie range but I've noticed that I'm feeling more satisfied and sometimes I'm searching for more to eat just to fill it in. I've started leaving a couple of hundred calories unplanned for on the go snacks. <BR> <BR> Things are still a little hectic here but I'm hoping for good news by the end of the week. It's mostly having to do with my mother and where we live. I know everything will work out but the drama involved is ridiculous. I've lived here for over 15 years an... Tue, 29 Sep 2015 05:49:46 EST Delegation Who would have thought that the solution to stress was so simple. Delegation. I've actually asked for help....(I hate asking for help). It's such a huge relief that I have a couple of family members to help share the load with helping my mother and grandmother. I've encouraged my mother to hire a property manager to help ease the burden. She has way too much stress between the properties and dealing with my grandmother's Alzheimer's. I'm hoping these changes will help in the long run. <BR> <... Mon, 28 Sep 2015 05:32:53 EST Brownies I have to share. I made brownies using just a box of cake mix and one 15 oz can of pure pumpkin. I had a friend try them without telling her and she thought they were great. No eggs, no butter, just cake mix and pumpkin. Super easy. I looked around for the nutritional info to share but it looks like someone already posted these on Spark. I highly recommend them, I'm also considering small add ins here and there to make different kinds. <BR> <BR><BR>et... Sun, 27 Sep 2015 06:45:51 EST Baking day today Today I'm going to bake my banana bread and maybe some healthified chocolate muffins. I usually spend my Saturday's running around and doing errands but I've decided today is going to be a stay at home day. Maybe I'll make some cookies to share too. I realize I'm throwing a lot of temptation my way but I've noticed that I have a LOT more control now. While I was watching my grandmother, I gave her an ice cream in the afternoon. (at this point in her we try to give her some of her favorite fo... Sat, 26 Sep 2015 05:47:12 EST Getting there So I'm very close to having lost 30 lbs. The last time I lost 30 lbs, I wound up starting to gain back and then some. I don't remember if I got stuck or just lazy. I'm not going to let myself do that again. <BR> <BR> Fri, 25 Sep 2015 05:51:47 EST Banana Bread I'm definitely making banana bread this weekend. We were smelling candles in the store and my daughter smelled a banana bread one. She asked me if we could "pretty please" make some. How can I resist a 5 year old "pretty please"? I'm so glad it's cool enough for me to bake again. <BR> <BR> I've been making a 3 ingredient fruit cobbler recipe the past couple of weeks. I like it better than pie. I can't say that it's "healthy" but I've found that having that one dessert a couple of days each w... Wed, 23 Sep 2015 05:26:51 EST Hmm I must be worse on the weekends than I thought. It seems that Monday (my weigh in day) is always worse than what I get on Tuesday. I'm going to be more meticulous about my weekend tracking and measuring. Maybe I'll find something I'm missing. <BR> <BR> I'm going to be having a busy week. I'm going in early all week so I can leave early to help out my mom with my grandmother on Thursday. <BR> <BR> I did read through the comments yesterday, I definitely think planning a rest day on Sundays f... Tue, 22 Sep 2015 05:27:13 EST Lazy Day Yesterday, for the first time in 7 1/2 weeks, I did not exercise. I'm not proud of it but I'm also not berating myself. I got up first thing this morning and got my lower body exercise and cycling. <BR> <BR> I tried on all my smaller size jeans, and they all fit except for two pairs that ran small. I got rid of the bigger size jeans except for one pair (the look where I came from pair). <em>9</em> <BR> <BR> I realize it will take me a while to get into the next smaller size but I can'... Mon, 21 Sep 2015 05:41:42 EST Down one size I decided I didn't want to wear the too big pants. So I went back to my room to change and the smaller size fit! They were more fitted than I prefer but it's so much better than pulling them up all day, even with a belt on. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Fri, 18 Sep 2015 05:38:56 EST Thursday You have to love living with a 5 year old. It amazes me to hear her sometimes. She sounds like such a little adult. She has an answer for everything and her own logic which makes sense 90 % of the time. Sometimes it's so hard to keep a straight face. She asked me about one of my coworkers the other day. She wanted to know if he sat at the desk next to me. Without thinking, I said he works on the floor. (he works in the shipping area) She said, "he works on the floor next to you, why doesn't h... Thu, 17 Sep 2015 05:35:10 EST Stress So I mentioned a little stress going on in my life. The fact is, it's not really my situation that's stressful but someone else's. It's something that I have nothing to do with but it involves someone I care about. At the end of it, it's not a life threatening situation and it's something that will work out fine in the end. It's just going to take some time and headaches. I made a decision last night not to stress over it. I can still be supportive without being anxious over it. <BR> <BR> I... Wed, 16 Sep 2015 05:48:21 EST a little off I was supposed to do strength again today but I wound up doing an extra long bike workout. I'm planning on making it up tomorrow. I woke up 15 minutes before my alarm this morning so I just got up and got started. <BR> <BR> There's a lot of stress going on right now at home. Hopefully things will clear up soon. I just don't understand why people would be so scummy. I can't really get into it too much here but let's just say some of the neighbors are really just trouble. <BR> <BR> In the me... Tue, 15 Sep 2015 05:26:31 EST Another week I lost 1 lb. I'm not going to cry that it's "only 1 lb" because as much as I'd like to see a bigger loss, I'm glad I'm still losing. I'm accepting the calorie increase from adjusting my workout plan (by minutes, not burned). Between throwing in strength and eating a little more, I'm sure it will take a little while for my body to adjust. <BR> <BR> I ordered a little bit of clothing yesterday one size smaller than I've been wearing. The tops should fit without an issue. The pajamas (I love th... Mon, 14 Sep 2015 05:52:37 EST Sunday Hope all is well for everyone. <BR> <BR> I was pretty busy yesterday and did a lot of running around. Hopefully today is more relaxing. I've had a couple of days this week where I woke up tired and just didn't feel like exercising but I definitely pushed myself to do it. <BR> <BR> The scale was all over the place this morning. I've got to stop stepping on it more than once a week. It gave me 4 different weights all over the place. I'm hoping it's just nice to me tomorrow. Sun, 13 Sep 2015 06:22:49 EST Ha! So after stewing over the whole calorie thing, I looked at my settings. It looks like my nutritional information was based off of me burning a LOT of calories. I have no doubt that I'm burning a lot of calories but I don't think it's quite as high. The thing is, it was causing my calorie range to start at 2600 calories to nearly 3000. I've been eating between about 1500 to 1900 without feeling hungry or deprived. After taking out the calorie burned goal and leaving the planned minutes, I woun... Sat, 12 Sep 2015 06:03:44 EST Mildly Concerned So I'm really trying not to focus on it because I know I'm doing everything right but the scale has barely budged this week. It's only down 1/2 a lb since Monday where usually I see more movement. Monday is my official weigh in day so I probably shouldn't be looking at it anyway. Over the next couple of weeks if I'm not seeing any movement I'm going to revamp my goals. I don't want to increase my calories but I will if I have to. It's probably because I added strength and there's probably not... Fri, 11 Sep 2015 05:35:31 EST Update So apparently, my grandmother's loopy behavior was a side effect of a bladder infection. Combined with the Alzheimer's, she just had a really bad episode. The past couple of nights have been incident free so I'm hoping for a better week for my mom. I'm not sure how last night went yet, my grandmother slept until pretty late in the day. <BR> <BR> Today was a no strength day so I did an extra few minutes on the bike. I'm hoping to get a better walk in on my morning break. The last couple of d... Thu, 10 Sep 2015 05:21:47 EST So far Still waiting on information or instructions from my grandmother's doctor. I put up door alarms for my mom just in case my grandmother tries to get out of the house at night. <BR> <BR> I'm wearing clothes today that I haven't worn in a long time because they were too tight. They're still on the snug side but they are not as tight as my jeans used to be and I still wore those to work. (part of the reason I really started pushing myself. I can't afford to keep buying new clothes). So I'm feeli... Wed, 9 Sep 2015 05:32:18 EST Changes My grandmother's Alzheimer's hit another stage this weekend. She is either hallucinating or having waking dreams. She insists that my 2 year old nephew was sitting on top of her dresser talking to her. She got dressed up and told my mother that my grandfather was picking her up to bring her to a wedding. She tore up the house at 3 am looking for a dog that wasn't there. My mother will be talking to the doctor today about it. I'm afraid that my mother will have little choice but to put her int... Tue, 8 Sep 2015 05:31:57 EST Down 25 lbs Even at the fair eating fair food, I'm still down. I wound up doing so much walking some of it was counted as a workout on my SPAT. <BR> <BR> Having a small cookout later today, I've already planned what and how much I'm going to eat. <BR> <BR> I'm still a little sore from the strength training but that's ok. I'm glad I started it up. In the past I've definitely seen better results when I added strength. The plan right now is two days on and one day off. The DVD set I have has several di... Mon, 7 Sep 2015 05:36:41 EST Changing the routine Today I added strength training. I've restarted my Jillian Micheals set. It felt good and a lot easier than I remember. Not saying I didn't work hard, but I definitely didn't struggle as much as I had the last time I tried it. I may have to go back to getting up earlier in order to fit in my whole hour on the mini bike. If that doesn't work I'll split it into half an hour increments. One in the morning and the next in the evening. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow we're going to head to one of the local f... Sat, 5 Sep 2015 06:14:38 EST TGIF I'm so glad this week is over. I'm just plain tired. I'm excited for the long weekend. <BR> <BR> I was a little bad last night. I didn't order out like I used to do when I indulge. (there's a wing place that I LOVE. My go to meal from there is usually honey mustard tenders with fries) I heated some chicken tenders instead of having my planned healthier meal. So, it wasn't my greatest meal but it was a better choice than I normally would have made. I think I'm going to search for a healthier ... Fri, 4 Sep 2015 05:46:52 EST And so it begins A couple people at work already have colds. Time to break out the sanitizer and hope for the best. I just hope I can avoid it and not share it with my daughter. <BR> <BR> Bryanna has been having a great time at school so far. She's starting to adjust to the schedule. She's still very tired at the end of the day but not near as exhausted as she was the first couple of days. <BR> <BR> My week has been ok. I've been uncomfortable with some cramps and bloating but I still continued my workouts... Thu, 3 Sep 2015 05:44:16 EST Labor Day Weekend We're making plans for a small cookout on Monday. I'm still thinking and planning out my calories for that day. I'd like to have a little bit of everything without going crazy. But, if I'm planning on a small indulgence then I really need to be on point with my calories the rest of this week. Again, one indulgent meal will not make me gain back the 22 lbs lost already. <BR> <BR> Furthermore, I need to keep an eye on and prepared for the holidays. I'm not going to overdo it and eat three tim... Wed, 2 Sep 2015 05:25:05 EST First day of September Ok so now that it's September, I'm officially done with summer. (Fall is my favorite season). This weekend's project is getting all the fall decorations out and candles. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was my daughter's first day of all day kindergarten. She had a great time but she's so tired. I know it will take her a little while to get used to the schedule. <BR> <BR> Does anyone have any good ideas for more filling kids lunches? She was so hungry when she got to my mother's she asked for a sandwic... Tue, 1 Sep 2015 05:53:17 EST Uncomfortable If you happen to be a guy, just stop reading, you don't really want to know. <BR> <BR> So the scale was nicer to me when I checked in midweek but I still lost on my official weigh in. I'm so cramped up and I'm sure it's my TOM that's the problem because I've been doing everything else right. I'm still down 22 lbs and hopefully next week when I'm back to normal I'll see a better number. <BR> <BR> This week my husband's new schedule starts. He'll be going into work later so he can get Bryanna... Mon, 31 Aug 2015 05:31:44 EST Food So, I keep getting this message that I'm burning more calories that I had planned and I need to adjust my goals. The thing is, when I did that it added a LOT more calories than I feel comfortable eating. I've been eating pretty much the same thing for a few weeks now and I'm still losing. I'm very tempted to just leave it alone and continue until I hit a plateau. I've gotten used to eating what I've been eating and I don't want to start adding lots of calories until I really need to. <BR> <B... Fri, 28 Aug 2015 05:37:06 EST What a day! Yesterday was crazy. My daughter was very excited to go to school. She had her backpack on and told me she was ready half an hour early. Then she tried to tell me that she thought it was show and tell day so she should bring her toy to school. The bus picked her up on time with no issues. Evidently she tripped at school after getting off the bus and scraped her knee but had a good day afterwards. <BR> <BR> I left work to go meet her after school. What I didn't know, (as well as two other par... Thu, 27 Aug 2015 05:46:11 EST Overslept Big time! I woke up around midnight to go to the bathroom and just couldn't get back to sleep. When I finally did, I wound up turning off my alarm in my sleep. I woke up too late to put in my hour on the bike. This is the first in 25 days that I missed. <BR> <BR> So here's the plan, stay on my feet as much as possible today and use my bike after my little one goes to bed. Even if I don't manage this, missing one workout will not put the 20 lbs back on. <BR> <BR> <em>386</em> <em>521</... Wed, 26 Aug 2015 05:08:08 EST Sitter search I received a no from the school on getting the short bus to pick up my daughter. I posted an ad on for transportation, hopefully I'll get something. In the meantime my job is working with me until I sort this out. Please wish me luck, this is something we will need for the next 3 years until she can walk to the stop by herself. <BR> <BR> The belts I ordered came in and do not fit. <em>24</em> I'm hanging onto them because they will fit soon I hope. My jeans are loose but I can't... Tue, 25 Aug 2015 05:40:17 EST