ROCKDOLL's SparkPeople Blog ROCKDOLL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community New NSV this week! I had to purchase new denim pants for one of my jobs today, as all my others were worn (and getting loose). I haven't seen a non-scale victory in awhile, so I was pretty excited when I could buy a pair of pants that were one size smaller than the last pair I bought! I was kind of aware of it already with my other pants getting a little loose and also having lost 8 pounds, according to my weigh-in the other day. Two awesome things this week! <BR> <BR> I met my weight loss goal for this last m... Sun, 9 Jul 2017 03:08:12 EST Did It All For Nothing??! So I've written before about how I'm hooked on weight-loss shows. It's so difficult to get upset watching them for all sorts of different reasons! <BR> <BR> Today I was bothered by something one of the subjects said. <BR> <BR> She was sent home by the doctor to lose 50 pounds in a month on her own and see if she could do it in order to be considered for gastric bypass. She lost 63! That was great! <BR> <BR> One comment she made when waiting for the doctor's decision was ridiculous: <BR> ... Sat, 6 May 2017 18:09:12 EST Finding Motivation Through American Weight Loss Shows I've been on a weight loss documentary kick for awhile. <BR> <BR> Some time back I found a show called Fat Doctor. It's a British show on medical weight loss through gastric bypass. <BR> <BR> I've found another show like it which is an American version, called My 600 lb Life. <BR> <BR> I can't get over the differences in attitude between the two. <BR> <BR> The British are way more positive and also don't blame others for their weight. The Americans do! <BR> <BR> They're not responsibl... Thu, 13 Apr 2017 14:24:17 EST My last dating experience. I recently broke up with someone who was not supportive of my new lifestyle, and since I still had some hope that I could find someone to have a happy fun relationship with, I joined an online dating site. I was very skeptical. I got a lot of messages starting out with "you're beautiful" or "what are you up to tonight?" Sounded like guys wanting to hook up to me. One guy though.... Knew all the right things to say. Within a few days of chatting through the site he had my number. A week late... Sat, 26 Nov 2016 17:43:33 EST Dump The Bad Influences I broke up with the guy I was seeing and now I'm seeing something else... <BR> <BR> I realized that the guy was hindering me in my goals and wasn't really making my life much better. We were having communication problems (ie. My asking a question and getting an answer to something I didn't even ask) and arguing a lot so much that I got apprehensive about thinking about reaching out and saying hello. I have recently been informed out of the blue that I "communicate well." So, wondering if I w... Thu, 17 Nov 2016 17:28:38 EST Excuses, excuses. I have a friend who has nothing but excuses for EVERYTHING. It's at the point where it's bothering me. I just can't wrap my head around it. Excuses for not working out: "I feel blah today." Well working out or getting some activity may change that. Give it a shot! He has pain in his shoulder which causes lots of discomfort and headaches. I've suggested many things such as dropping weight. My friend is over 100 pounds overweight and has poor posture. He can't even stand up straight, he has... Sun, 12 Jun 2016 03:52:08 EST Big and Dating Dating is difficult when you're trying to change your lifestyle. After I lost the first 70 pounds, I tried my hand at online dating. I ended up finding someone I enjoyed hanging out with. Turns out, he's obese and has no motivation to be healthy. <BR> <BR> He listens to me rant about how good or bad my workouts were, goes shopping with me for groceries and hangs out while I do meal prep. Though.... <BR> <BR> If I'm having a moment when I'm having a hard time fighting cravings for junk, he s... Sun, 15 May 2016 01:53:32 EST BBC Reality Weight Loss Show "Fat Families" I love this show. There are a couple other similar shows I like as well, but this one is so motivating! <BR> <BR> I'm 4 episodes in. Now, it's an old series I happened to come across online. So it's no longer, as far as I know airing new episodes. I wish I had BBC, but I don't watch much tv away from the laptop. <BR> <BR> Steve Miller hosts the show and actually motivates these families to lose weight! And everything he says in the show is so true. One that just rang out to me was, "I can't... Thu, 7 Jan 2016 18:35:31 EST Maintaining... I have to say that maintaining is one of the most difficult parts of weight loss. I've been trying to maintain for 2 months now, and so far, I've been doing a good job. Here is a list of things I find helpful to keep in mind: <BR> <BR> 1. Don't skip a workout. Like the saying goes,"The only bad workout is one that didn't happen." <BR> <BR> 2. Keep watching your caloric intake. <BR> <BR> 3. Don't stop using SparkPeople! It has great blogs, recipes, and the calorie counter! <BR> <BR> 4. Dri... Wed, 7 Oct 2015 18:21:44 EST NSV's (Non-Scale Victories) Honestly, last week is the first time I heard of the NSV. <BR> <BR> I had been really focused on the scale and measure tape numbers up until recently when I'd experienced other great things. <BR> <BR> In my last blog, I wrote about how for the first time on a plane I didn't have to squeeze my tushy into the seat and that this time I even had inches of room on my sides between my hips and the arm rests. I even didn't have to spill over into the seat of the person next to me. <BR> <BR> I've ... Tue, 2 Jun 2015 20:24:18 EST Fat and Flying. I used to get anxiety over getting on a plane. I'd try to be the first to check-in so that I could get an earlier seating. I felt that if I were one of the last ones on the plane, the other passengers would be looking at me try to get an open seat, put my bag away, judge me for being big. <BR> They'd think, "Oh my god! She probably had to buy 2 seats she's so big!", or "ok, the plane is not going to be able to take off with this lard-@$$ on it." Things like that. <BR> <BR> Then the thoughts... Fri, 22 May 2015 02:04:35 EST Secret Motivation: I find myself addicted to this show I find episodes for on Youtube. It's about people who are so large that they need gastric bypass. They just can't stop themselves from their eating. They can't walk around their homes. <BR> <BR> I have to say it's great motivation to curb my cravings for sweets and snacks. I listen to what these people say and watch what they do, and I think, "I'm so proud of myself for working so hard!" <BR> <BR> I have lost almost 70 pounds now, and still have some mor... Sat, 14 Mar 2015 15:19:36 EST Relationships and Weight-loss Ha! I just read this blog on that reminded me of my last relationship and how unsupportive some people can be. <BR> <BR> The name of the blog is "How Losing Weight Can Hurt Your Relationship." <BR> <BR> You'd never think that something like that can happen! It's a positive thing that both people would love, right?! <BR> <BR> Not always the case! <BR> <BR> The other partner can get really jealous. They might feel guilty they are not doing as well, fearful that they might l... Tue, 10 Feb 2015 12:59:23 EST Running Out Of Reasons to Workout? With all the run-around we have to do just to live our lives, it gets difficult to get workouts in. We have to work all day, then we have to go home and get things ready for work again tomorrow, feed the family, pay the bills, etc. Maybe some of us have 2 jobs! Excuses not to workout can be limitless! <BR> <BR> What we need to work on is coming up with REASONS TO WORKOUT. Now that would be an awesome list. <BR> <BR> Mine goes like this (and feel free to copy it if you like!): <BR> <BR> 1.... Thu, 5 Feb 2015 17:23:26 EST Sugar, sugar Aaww, honey, honey.... <BR> <BR> I had no idea how bad my addiction to sugar was! <BR> <BR> I work at a coffee shop at night for extra money, and I used to just help myself to the sweet stuff that I knew were going to just be tossed out at the end of the night. Most of us did. <BR> <BR> But wow. I look back now at it, and I can't believe how impulsive it was. I was addicted! It was in my face, SO I PUT IT IN MY FACE. <BR> <BR> I am doing way better with it now. I don't have sweets that ... Fri, 16 Jan 2015 02:56:05 EST I'm In A New Category. I'm feeling so much right now that I can't even explain it in words. <BR> <BR> I just weighed myself, and using that to calculate my BMI on Sparkpeople (for $h!^s 'n giggles), I was shown that my BMI is, well, not in the big OBESE category anymore. <BR> <BR> By 1 pound! <BR> <BR> I don't think I can remember the last time I was not in the obese range. <BR> <BR> I know that the BMI chart is not always accurate for each individual, but it would usually be spot on for me and always always ... Sun, 7 Dec 2014 19:35:56 EST Hit A Difficult Spot. So, my measurements have gone down an inch or so, but my weight and body fat % have stayed the same. <BR> <BR> I would think that I lost fat and gained it equally in muscle, but my trainer says I have also lost lean muscle. So what is it then? <BR> <BR> Could it be that there is a glitch somewhere in the calculations? I mean, we're using a bathroom scale. It could be off. I suggested putting a weight on it to see if it read the correct weight. That experiment was shot down. It could not be... Fri, 14 Nov 2014 02:26:20 EST Look @ My Ticker!! Oh my gosh! <BR> <BR> I just looked at my ticker and saw that the little bike icon I chose is just about half way through it! <BR> <BR> I've never had this much success before, and I'm almost in tears. But, no time for tears. I have a workout to get to before I go to my second job! <BR> <BR> Today is the day I started going strong again. Last month, I feel, I was just goofin' around and not taking my weight loss as seriously as I did in the beginning. <BR> <BR> Today I've been doing goo... Sat, 8 Nov 2014 17:37:38 EST A Letter Dear Fat Girl, <BR> <BR> I am writing this to tell you two things. <BR> The first thing is that I think you are a good person. You are very sweet, and you could never bring yourself to hurt anyone. I think your shyness is endearing, and your passion for certain things is touching. You couldn't be more eccentric! Don't worry, you will make that goal to one day read every Shakespeare play and other classic novels in your lifetime. I believe in you. Your creative Halloween outfits and passion f... Sat, 1 Nov 2014 01:16:39 EST How Did I Get This Way? I've recently come to a turning point in my weight loss. I've lost 35 pounds, and now to stop from plateauing (or get out of it rather), my calories have been decreased and exercise routines more intense. <BR> <BR> I've been working hard for almost 5 months, and I have a ways to go yet. I finally broke down the other day. <BR> <BR> Thinking now, I wonder how it is I became the way I am: overweight most of my life and with a great tendency to be sedentary. <BR> <BR> Other people are active... Wed, 15 Oct 2014 22:13:29 EST The "I'm So Fat" Song! I struggled today to get my calories down. I've been eating about 500 to 600 more a day than I should be, so my weight loss has slowed down a lot. <BR> <BR> [I lied to my trainer by stating my calories have been about 200-400 over only.] <BR> <BR> I get home tonight from work, and like habit, I want to eat something! I want to put the shows on that I like to watch and veg out with some snacks! <BR> <BR> Ugh! This fat girl in me sucks. <BR> <BR> So I made a song: <BR> <BR> "I'm So Fat! ... Tue, 7 Oct 2014 02:05:09 EST I Hate the Fat Girl In Me Rant #2 Fat Girl won again tonight....Ate Chinese food because I was craving it. It's not even my cheat day... <BR> <BR> I had 2 veggie egg rolls, white steamed rice, black pepper chicken, 2 fortune cookies(because one fortune is not enough), and a little bit of green beans with black bean sauce. <BR> <BR> I guess I didn't over do it on portions. I still have the left overs untouched, and I did not eat until I was stuffed. I ate until I was no longer hungry. <BR> <BR> I guess that's another point ... Tue, 23 Sep 2014 01:43:07 EST I Hate the Fat Girl In Me Rant #1 I am so ashamed! Yesterday I let that fat-girl in me take over and totally ruin my diet! I could have gone the whole day with a decent amount of calories, but she saw pastries and had to go for it! I hate her! Fri, 19 Sep 2014 17:25:57 EST Eating at a Party. I was invited to a party this weekend by a friend. I didn't want to decline the invitation for fear of insulting my friend, so I told her I would go. Why the hang up? <BR> <BR> Well, I know that parties have lots of yummy finger foods, especially when it is a child's celebration. ...And I wasn't wrong. There were lots of delicious things - And all seemed to be made with cream cheese in some way. <BR> <BR> What a nightmare when you're trying to eat clean! <BR> <BR> Again, I didn't want to b... Sun, 7 Sep 2014 18:11:37 EST Uh-oh! Weigh-in Day! Oh god! It's that time of the month I dread! To me, weight is the judge on how well I have been doing. Although I am told that weight can be tricky, if those numbers do not drop, I feel like I failed. My trainer tells me that I should look at the loss of inches and drop in %fat. Yeah, I can get that. But when you've been heavy forever - I mean "forever" - you want to see the number on the scale shrink SOOOOO BAAAAADDDDD!!!! <BR> <BR> I have a trainer, and she likes to weigh me! I know, I kno... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 18:54:02 EST The Counting Might Be Slow, But Be Excited Anyway! I just logged in today to track my nutrition and my fitness, and I got a little bit excited, for what's in that general area on the page is my current lbs. lost. 13! <BR> <BR> I never thought I would make it this far. I know, I know. Why doubt myself? Well, because I've struggled with my weight forever and never got a hold on it before. Of course I am drawn to being lazy and eating whatever I want. <BR> <BR> Shoot, I'm thinking about pizza RIGHT NOW! And a movie or good sitcom series to go... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 16:59:02 EST Changed My Rewards List I changed my rewards list. I felt like a 90 minutes massage for losing 15 lbs. was too much, so I changed it to 60 minutes. I also included new outfits, since I will have to buy new clothes for losing so much weight. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Thu, 12 Jun 2014 03:06:01 EST When You See Those Numbers Go Back Up... Today I saw the number on the scale, and lots of questions began running through my head. Lots of emotions as well. <BR> <BR> When you work really hard and start seeing some good results, it's difficult to see that you might have already gained weight back. <BR> <BR> I had lost 10 lbs., but at my weighing today I had shown to have gained a pound. <BR> <BR> I kept asking myself "how, why, how?" It really ruined my workout today. I was not in the high spirits, 'getter done' attitude. <BR> <... Thu, 12 Jun 2014 02:09:54 EST I Just Lost 9 lbs.! I just wanted to keep everyone up-to-date on my progress! <BR> <BR> I have really stepped up my fitness in the past 2 weeks. <BR> <BR> I got off the bike! [Well, I'll still use it sometimes.] <BR> <BR> What I was doing a year or two ago is not working for me now, so I had to find something that would. <BR> <BR> I'm using multiple machines for cardio, and I'm really focusing on the length of time I'm spending on them. Sure, I was riding the bike very intensely, but I was not spendi... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 23:04:59 EST Goals Box I just started a "Goals Box". <BR> <BR> My Goals Box is a box I put together and designed to my taste (penguin paper). I cut a small rectangular hole in the top afterward to do this: <BR> <BR> I will put $1 in the box for every <BR> - cardio workout <BR> - strength training <BR> - gym class <BR> <BR> I have the opportunity to put in $2 a day if I do cardio and strength training on that day, but if I do a class, it only counts as $1. I figure that if I do both on my own with no instruction... Wed, 14 May 2014 02:15:21 EST 24 or Bust(Out of My Clothes) Hey, guess what! I keep dropping out! <BR> <BR> I used to love riding the bike at the gym when I was a member of the YMCA. Now, the closest gym to me is 24 Hr Fitness. I don't know if it's the difference in atmosphere (because there is a huge one), or if I'm just in a rut still. <BR> <BR> Before my big changes with a failed relationship I drove all the way across the country to have, my journey back, and my setup in a new strange town I decided to try out, I was going to the gym at least 4... Wed, 14 May 2014 01:02:03 EST I fell off the bike again... I started up my cycling routine again in January. Not a resolution thing. I was just ready to start it again. I was doing so well before. A year and a half ago, I was at resistance 13 on the stationary bike. If you've read my other posts, you'd know that I moved out of state and things changed for me. I stopped working out. I gained more weight. Etc. I'm sure I'm not the only one in history to have this happen (do this to themselves). <BR> <BR> So, I wrote a blog about it a couple of months ... Tue, 11 Mar 2014 04:46:15 EST I'm Hopping Back Up On the Bike! I've been out of the routine for quite some time - ALMOST A YEAR, to be exact! If you've read my other blog posts, a little over a year ago, I was going to the gym frequently & challenging myself on the stationary bike. I had lost 11 pounds within 2 months. And, gosh, I was excited! <BR> <BR> I had a great routine going. I started at resistance 8 on the bike and set my goal to be able to do 12 miles in 45 minutes or less. Each day I went to the gym for 2 weeks, I would bike as hard as I cou... Thu, 6 Feb 2014 02:33:12 EST Setting New Goals I have had some time off from the gym, and I didn't know if I could make it back today. I have been down in the dumps, and eventhough I know that the feeling I get when I go to the gym (regularly) is a good feeling, I still couldn't make it to the gym. That wasn't motivation enough. <BR> <BR> Last night, I scolded myself for being so lazy. I was done giving myself the option to make excuses, but NO MORE!! <BR> <BR> So...I set my alarm 3 times. The first one for 6:45am, the second for 7:30a... Sat, 8 Dec 2012 16:00:15 EST 11 Pounds Lost! 11 pounds lost since I started logging my weight and started my fitness challenge with one of my groups. It's not a lot of weight, but when you fight yourself constantly on better choices and getting motivated, it's a great achievement! I am congratulating myself today, and I am definitely adding my money to my workout box!! <BR> <BR> Sun, 18 Nov 2012 18:16:48 EST 5 Pounds Lost 5 pounds doesn't sound like a lot, but when you're used to seeing the number on the scale rise, it feels amazing! Sure, I wish it were more lost, but in time..... <BR> <BR> I have to believe it now that I can do it and that the number on the scale is going to reflect how hard I am working. Fri, 16 Nov 2012 17:10:06 EST :::My Fitness Improvements on the Bike::: I start off small, like testing the temperature of the water with your toes before deciding to jump into the lake. <BR> <BR> I had acquired a back injury following a car accident a few years ago, and it was the worst pain and hell I had gone through physically. It limited me more than I had been. <BR> <BR> I had to learn to love exercises I previously thought were boring. I just couldn't do high-impact exercises like my kick-boxing videos or jogging down the street like I had done once upo... Mon, 29 Oct 2012 17:49:26 EST Summary of What I've Learned About Myself A Short Reflection: <BR> <BR> I put it on the back-burner. It has been a struggle. I manage to workout about 2 times a week (which is more than it used to be). It's a small amount, lasting about 45 minutes tops each time which includes stretching and the occasional minimal strength exercises, but when I workout cardio-wise it is intense. I push hard. <BR> <BR> I have learned that if I make small goals to reach, I am more motivated to work at it more often. I started out on the stationary b... Mon, 22 Oct 2012 16:23:09 EST How I Am Rewarding Myself... I have a difficult time keeping motivated. Of course, I want the results badly, but I do not work hard enough for them. I don't know why. I can be lazy. Maybe it's because I'm not hung up on aesthetics as much as many other people. I just like working out because it feels good. <BR> <BR> I want to lose weight now. I am getting older, and I know I need to lose a good 60 pounds. In a little more than a decade, I will be mid-life. It will be good to lose weight for my health, especially my back... Sat, 6 Oct 2012 04:48:29 EST It's Ok to Miss a Day. I have seen a couple of good results from working out this past month. I feel like the results are coming faster than I expected, so I'm getting into it more. I still need to work on my food selections, but I have made some progress there. Actually, as long as I am getting my workouts in, I don't crave the bad stuff as much as I used to. <BR> <BR> I missed 2 consecutive days this week so far. The first one was because of my work schedule and other things I had to do. I didn't have time befo... Tue, 4 Sep 2012 10:52:33 EST The People Around Us Hi Everyone, <BR> I just want to write a little something about how people can have an effect on us, especially those who are around us all of the time. We might live with someone (roommate, relative, partner) or more than one person whom are not good for us. This can bring us down emotionally, stress us out, make us eat, and their bad habits might fall onto us. If this is you, and it surely is me, I just want to remind you to do all in your power not to let it affect you. Some of us are in s... Thu, 30 Aug 2012 10:41:12 EST