ROBB1N's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=ROBB1N ROBB1N's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ The Magic of Music http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5279968 It's amazing to me how powerful music can be. It can soothe you when you're feeling low. It can motivate you when you need that little boost. Yesterday my legs were feeling tight and my arthritis in my feet was hurting and I really wondered if I were up to a fast walk. I thought I'd try it anyway and just stop if it got too bad. I turned on my mp3 player and lo and behold the music was little slower than it had been the rest of the week. It was enough that I could finish my walk. Anot... Sat, 9 Mar 2013 10:27:36 EST Back to Routine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5267683 One more day to enjoy with my daughter and grandson. I will miss them a lot, but I do look forward to getting back into my routine. I'll be able to do my walking and stair climbing. I'll have my food all planned out. And hopefully I'll start losing weight again instead of just maintaining what I've lost. Thu, 28 Feb 2013 20:07:09 EST The Perfect Breakfast http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5266392 I think I found the perfect breakfast. It's hot oat bran with a little local honey, fresh ground cinnamon, ground chia seeds, and ground flax, and a poached egg on rye toast. I feel full at breakfast and not hungry the rest of the day. I don't have the urge to snack or if I do snack at all it's a lot less. And it's quick to fix too! Wed, 27 Feb 2013 19:21:27 EST Taking a vacation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5260054 Officially I'm on vacation from work this past week and next. The vacation is to help my daughter after the birth of my grandson. What I'm finding is that I'm also taking a vacation from my walking and being more active. It wasn't on purpose. I just find I don't have the time to walk. However, that doesn't mean I've been vacationing from healthier eating habits and I have tried to be as active as I can. Meanwhile, my FitBit is giving me sad little flowers instead of the long leafy one. ... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 13:12:38 EST The changes are amazing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5251926 I started on this weight loss journey thinking just to rid myself of excess fat. I didn't realize all the changes that would come with it. I started cooking more from scratch and found it really didn't take that much more time than a prepared dish from the grocery. And it tasted a thousand times better. I also didn't realize that once I started eating healthier it would kill most of the cravings for the unhealthy processed foods. In fact, the processed stuff tastes so unflavored, I wou... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 18:55:48 EST Happy Saturday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5243999 Today I stepped on the scale and found I had lost 4 pounds! Doesn't seem like a lot, but it's the lowest I've weighed in years. The best part is that it only took a little extra effort on my part. A little effort that I can keep doing and doing. Suddenly all the weight I want to lose doesn't seem so overwhelming. Sat, 9 Feb 2013 13:30:01 EST Back on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5243228 After a couple of days with a limited amount of physical activity, I was able to get in my walking again. It felt so good and I can actually tell a difference when I don't get the walking in. Fri, 8 Feb 2013 19:21:49 EST Life is Looking Good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5241831 Life is looking good right now. I've been able to eat well, but without a lot of calories. It's surprising how once you start eating healthy, you don't really crave all the bad for you foods. And even when you slip, they don't taste nearly as good. I've lost another pound. <BR> <BR> Things are good on the home front. There's been a big change in the amount of love and affection being given. I've needed that very badly. I don't know if something in me changed or in him or a combinati... Thu, 7 Feb 2013 16:15:56 EST Grandson is here; time to make him proud of Grandma http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5240702 My grandson was born yesterday. I now have a new reason to get rid of this excess weight. Besides wanting to be a grandma he can be proud to be seen with, I want him to learn to eat healthy and stay active. I better practice it now so when he's older and more aware, he'll be more apt to pay attention. Wed, 6 Feb 2013 20:15:31 EST Big Changes this Week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5236453 My first grandchild is coming this week and I am so excited! I can't wait to hold him and play with him. Mon, 4 Feb 2013 00:23:24 EST Working through my allergies. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5230777 Ok, so my allergies have really been acting up this week. Unfortunately, this has a domino effect on keeping my goals. I feel tired because of the sinuses. Feeling tired, I really don't feel like going all out on my extra activity..in fact I don't feel like doing my extra walking at all. No extra walking means I feel hungry. Feeling hungry means I eat. Thankfully, I've been able to manage the hungry part. But not feeling up to walking has had a very noticeable affect. Tomorrow, I'm go... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 20:29:38 EST Made It Through the Weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5225957 Ok, I met my challenge head-on and I won! I kept active and I monitored my food and I still enjoyed my weekend! Now for the week ahead. Hopefully, by this time next week my grandson will be here. Sun, 27 Jan 2013 18:16:31 EST Made It Through the Weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5225955 Ok, I met my challenge head-on and I won! I kept active and I monitored my food and I still enjoyed my weekend! Now for the week ahead. Hopefully, by this time next week my grandson will be here. Sun, 27 Jan 2013 18:16:15 EST His Mood Swings Affects My Eating? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5224146 Well no more. I finally figured out that when he goes into his cold, distant mood where he withholds affection and pleasantness, I ate. I guess I was trying to fill that empty space where his love should be. Now I that I have realized that I can concentrate on not eating for that reason. I'll find some activity like going up and down the stairs. I'll get that good feeling from the activity and it will burn some calories too! Sat, 26 Jan 2013 09:51:03 EST Challenges Ahead http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5223522 Ok, so now it's the weekend and time for the biggest challenge. Will I be able to keep some eating the wrong things? Will I be able to find a place to walk? Right now, I'm staying motivated. I did pretty good last weekend so this weekend will be better.. .. Fri, 25 Jan 2013 19:17:01 EST Still Hanging In There http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5222397 Ok, so yesterday I ate a couple of things I really shouldn't have. I didn't go over my calories by much, but I still shouldn't have eaten them. I am proud to say though that today I did much better, and I felt better. I got my walking in and I walked over 10,000 steps. And yes my FitBit is still motivating me. I can't wait until our Biggest Loser contest starts at work! Thu, 24 Jan 2013 23:24:52 EST Keeping a Streak Alive http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5220703 I'm really starting to get into this. I'm finding delicious food that isn't fattening. I've cut out a lot of the bad carbohydrates. It's funny how when you replace the bad carbs with good carbs and good protein you don't crave the bad ones. My boyfriend is finally starting to see that criticism is not support and just adds to the problem. And we are going to have a "Biggest Loser" contest at work which will give me extra motivation. Life is good right now. Wed, 23 Jan 2013 20:40:11 EST Motivation High http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5219367 I am keeping my motivation high. I'm eating much better and don't get hungry. Thanks to my FitBit I'm moving more and things are going so much better at home. It's amazing how much harder it is to stay motivated when someone is being negative. I just hope his mood doesn't swing toward negative again. Tue, 22 Jan 2013 22:52:12 EST E-Cigarettes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5216352 I started using an E-Cigarette to stop smoking. What I didn't realize was that it would become a weight loss tool also. I must have an addiction to that hand to mouth action. When I smoked and I was somewhere I couldn't smoke (especially at home) I used food as a substitute. Now I just use my Ego-T and I am not eating all those extra calories. I feel so much better and it's so exciting that I can go up stairs without getting winded. Mon, 21 Jan 2013 00:01:42 EST How can being overweight be more important than a terrific character? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5214656 How do you respond to someone who tells you you're perfect except you're fat? And the fat exception is more important than you being absolutely perfect? I don't know. I really don't get it. If you find someone who you trust completely, who loves you better than you've ever been loved, who treats you better than you've ever been treated and is otherwise completely perfect for you, how can being overweight be more important? I'm still trying to figure that out. Sat, 19 Jan 2013 19:12:28 EST New (for me)Way to Exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5210511 I recently purchased a FitBit. It's amazing what one little gadget can do. It has motivated me better than anything else to get up and move. I thought about walking,but it's really cold out and I don't do well in the cold. Then I thought...why don't I walk around each floor of the library (where I work). I would get my walking in and going up the stairs from the lower level up to the upper level would give me a little intensity. So far it is working great! Wed, 16 Jan 2013 19:18:19 EST Starting Over Again for Good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5197685 Okay, so I lost weight and then put it back on plus more. It's time for it to come off for good. I think I've got it down this time. I've learned more about nutrition and what foods to eat and in what combo. I can eat in such a way that I don't miss any food and I don't feel hungry. I just have to make sure I have it ready. <BR> <BR> Now the next part is exercise, fitness whatever you want to call it. I've started with parking further away and walking more. It's time to increase it... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 20:55:42 EST Starting Over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2043146 With all the stress at work I fell off trying to get healthy again and I've ended up with a heart arrhythmia. So I've decided to start over and really get healthy this time. I weigh more than I've ever weighed in my whole life. I've just got to focus and not make excuses. Maybe it will help all the stress with work. Thu, 7 May 2009 18:32:17 EST Celebrating the Joy in Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=806540 Right now I need to keep reminding myself to find the joy in life. Things are so stressed at work, difficult heartbreaking decisions at home..... Luckily my cat and the two stray cats that sleep on our porch help to remind me. And the "high" I feel after walking helps too. I just wish could get the dark to quit blocking all that sunny feeling. Mon, 29 Oct 2007 21:12:12 EST Believing in Yourself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=803930 Nothing makes me madder than people who find all kinds of excuses to NOT do anything rather than do something to help themself. I'm running into this a lot with someone close to me. They are handicapped with MS right now. They just started with a new neurologist who has outlined a course of treatment that according to the doctor will have them walking again in about 6 months. Instead of being happy about it, they are expressing all the reasons why it won't work....and they are right....wh... Sat, 27 Oct 2007 18:36:33 EST Roadblocks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=798983 I have to admit I'm very proud of myself tonight. I actually ate healthy despite having a week from hell. And that's about the only bright spot so far. Family, friends and work are all pushing me to my limits of tolerance and patience this week. I'm just about ready to forget being nice and become the bitch from hell. I just have to keep telling myself that this too will pass and it will get better. Maybe if I tell myself that often enough I might really believe it. <BR> <BR> In the ... Tue, 23 Oct 2007 21:40:54 EST Being flexible http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=793834 I always try to be very flexible. I've always heard it about trees too...they have to be strong enough to bend otherwise they will break. That's how I feel about life too. Being flexible means accomodating other people and actually hearing and listening to what they are really saying and feeling. It also means finding new ways to do things. Fri, 19 Oct 2007 19:32:31 EST Living a Meaningful Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=792414 My favorite movie is "It's a Wonderful Life". I so love the message that something nice that we do without really thinking about it can touch someone else and make a big difference in their life. Whenever I get down I think about this message and I feel so much better. I've been fortunate too in that there have been a couple of instances where someone has mentioned something I've said or done that's made a positive difference in their life. The amazing thing too is that it doesn't even ha... Thu, 18 Oct 2007 17:13:56 EST Own all of your choices http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=779800 Owning my choices is not something I have a problem with. Overall, I'm pretty happy with the choices I've made....there's not a whole lot I would change. <BR> <BR> My problem now is I have a major life changing choice to make. There are so many repercussions - both good and bad with whichever choice I make, and unfortunately either choice is going to hurt - not just me, but someone else too. <BR> <BR> I've tried talking it out with a neutral party, but neither choice became clear. In ... Tue, 9 Oct 2007 17:45:08 EST Everyday Gratitude http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=774524 This is actually something I already do everyday. I am thankful that I am able to walk and exercise without physical handicaps to inhibit my ability. I'm grateful for my job. I am so very very grateful for my friends and especially my family. <BR> <BR> I was even grateful for a call from my son at 2:30 this morning! Thankful, it wasn't because he had had an accident. And very grateful that when he was feeling totally stressed and depressed, I was the first one he turned to. <BR> <BR> A... Fri, 5 Oct 2007 17:13:46 EST Taking Care of Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=773341 I've got to remember that if I push myself just a little to exercise instead of allowing myself to feel tired or sick, I may actually be making myself feel better. Sometimes it's so hard to remind myself how much better I feel after I walk - that the tiredness, feeling down etc may actually go away with walking. <BR> <BR> I don't know why that's such a hard concept to sink in. <BR> <BR> Maybe if I keep remininding myself it will finally become permanently affixed in my brain and become ... Thu, 4 Oct 2007 18:53:12 EST Trying to Stay Healthy under Stress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=771888 I'm under way too much stress at work...and even though I'm letting that go sometimes I just can't. I'd have to not care about my work at all and I just can't work that way. On top of that I've got some major personal issues that require some really really difficult decisions. Ones that's going to be wrong no matter which way I decide. It's making it so hard to try to maintain a healthy lifestyle. I barely have enough energy to get up in the morning let alone get up and walk 1- 4 miles. ... Wed, 3 Oct 2007 19:33:02 EST Smallest Deeds http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=768469 I've learned the hard way to just do the smallest do instead of some grandiose plan. In fact, it seems like doing the smallest works better than the greatest. When I hadn't been exercising I started with walking 15 minutes and ended up working up to 4 - 5 miles. Even now, if I'm not feeling so hot if I decide to only walk a mile I'll usually end up going much further. <BR> <BR> I also will check with my next door neighbor (she's 89 years old and pretty much homebound) if she needs somet... Mon, 1 Oct 2007 17:34:41 EST Who I Am Keeps Surprising Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=760356 I am so very surprised when I actually stop and take stock of myself. I am blessed with 2 terrific kids. We have a great relationship and they are people that I can be and am so proud of. I must have done a few right things as far as parenting them! <BR> <BR> At work, I'm someone that others call on when they're not sure what to do or who to ask. <BR> <BR> Ok....so I'm overweight and my health could be better....I'm working on it...and I will succeed! Tue, 25 Sep 2007 16:49:26 EST Getting Up the Good Work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=752597 I admit I haven't weighed myself or taken my measurements lately, but my clothes seem so much looser. It's great! I actually enjoy eating healthier. I'm finding all kinds of new foods and combinations that are low fat, low calorie and healthy and taste terrific! Finding healthy foods is fun!! Now if I could only make exercise so much fun! Wed, 19 Sep 2007 20:23:45 EST Weekends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=749339 I must have done well this weekend. I was very busy and didn't get to track my food and exercise (or even actually exercise) like I normallly do. For some reason though I have felt thinner today than I normally do. What a nice feeling! That doesn't mean I'm stopping tracking etc....just that it's nice to not feel like a big marshmallow walking around. I didn't get a chance to check my weight today, but just to feel thin was nice. Mon, 17 Sep 2007 17:40:51 EST Treadmills http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=742773 I wish I could find a way to walk on the treadmill for more than 2 days in a row without my legs bothering me. Today, I only made 2 miles instead of 4 because my legs especially my calves were hurting so bad. If I don't stop, my legs and feet kind of go numb and I can't even tell if my foot is raised or not. I've been walking for a few months now and it hasn't eased up. If I take a couple of days off they don't bother me on the next day I walk. Oh well....I'll just keep at it and maybe t... Wed, 12 Sep 2007 17:57:55 EST Trade Offs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=741221 This must be my day for trade offs. I'm so overworked at my job that it's a constant tradeoff of what will get done versus what won't. Unfortunately, the higher administration just refuses to acknowledge that my job is too full for 1 person. At home I trade off an extra hour or so of sleep for 4 miles on a treadmill... time spent with my significant other or with my kids (they're 22 and 20) and time relaxing or getting things set up for the next day at work (snacks, lunch, water etc.) I s... Tue, 11 Sep 2007 18:46:22 EST Positive Word http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=737906 I really appreciate the positive affirmations I get from my SparkPeople friends, but sometimes (ok most of the time) I would really love to get something positive from home. I worked really hard cleaning today and all I got was what I missed or didn't do. It's not like I'm a slob that just lets things go. I'm not talking about my eating habits etc. It jsut seems no matter what I put an effort to it's either questioned or made fun of and I'm really getting tired of it. I know I shouldn't... Sun, 9 Sep 2007 18:32:26 EST Happy Days Are Here Again? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=736576 The last few days I have been really really deep down depressed. For some reason today everything looks a whole lot brighter. I'm not sure why -nothing has changed. Maybe it was a drop in hormones except I'm all through those hormonal changes (thank god!). <BR> <BR> On the even brighter side, despite being down on myself I didn't use that as an excuse to do unhealthy things. YEAH me! Sat, 8 Sep 2007 14:36:38 EST After the holiday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=730848 Well, I guess I didn't do too bad through the long weekend. I did keep active which helped. Even though I ate too much, I did make much healthier choices such as hummus. The bad thing is I had to go back to work. <BR> <BR> It's so frustrating. I've increased circulation over 75% each year since I began, but I don't get any staff dedicated to Interlibrary Loan. I have some help from various staff here and there but no one person(s) dedicated just to Interlibrary Loan. Our patrons reall... Tue, 4 Sep 2007 17:50:37 EST Labor Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=729464 Well, I made it through this extended weekend without going over my limits too badly. At least I kept up with the walking and I did stop myself from eating too much. I could have done better I guess, but I know I could have done a whole lot worse! Mon, 3 Sep 2007 21:17:45 EST Small Victories http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=723361 I saw the nutritionist this afternoon for the last time...unless I need a kickstart again. I've lost 8 pounds in the last 6 weeks! I think the walking is really starting to pay off. Hopefully I can keep the momentum going. And on an even brighter note, my significant other caught himself and said something nice when I told him about the six pounds - usually he comes back with some kind of smart ass comment. Maybe I should go buy a lottery ticket...lol. Wed, 29 Aug 2007 20:52:28 EST Non-support http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=721975 I am so hurt. I was so proud of myself. When I first started walking for fitness at the end of June, I walked 2 miles in a little less than an hour. The last two days I've walked 4 miles in about 70 minutes. I thought I was doing so well. I mentioned my achievement to my boyfriend. Instead of saying hey that's great...or I'm proud of you or anything positive he hits me with ...Yeah, I can feel the whole house shaking the whole time (I use a treadmill). And now he can't understand why t... Tue, 28 Aug 2007 23:13:05 EST Weekends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=654497 I find it hard to keep to my daily goals on the weekends. Most of the time we stay in bed late and that's our quality time together. When we get up, I go for my usual walk. By the time I get home it's almost time for lunch so I've missed breakfast and a snack. In the afternoons I'm usually running errands so I miss another snack. Also for some reason we generally eat dinner later than usual. I hope this isn't messing up my metabolism. Sun, 15 Jul 2007 18:00:12 EST Walking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=626585 Well, I finally started walking without getting shin splints. They hurt! I actually made it 2 miles in 40 minutes without too much stress. I wish my boyfriend would actually believe me when I say I really am trying to lose weight. It' s just not wanting to come off. Oh well, I'll keep trying and eventually it will. Hopefully I'll get the job I applied for and get rid of the stress of my current job. Wed, 27 Jun 2007 17:18:36 EST