RISINGBLUESTAR's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=RISINGBLUESTAR RISINGBLUESTAR's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Good progress so far! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6205267 Well, I began getting back on track a couple of weeks ago. Usually, I just maintain my weight and don't lose weight but this time, the numbers are going in the right direction! So far, 6.5 pounds down! Woohoo! <BR> <BR> I have an appointment in 1 month. I told the doctor I would try to lose 4 lbs per month. He wanted to to aim for 10 lbs per month and I told him he was insane! With the endocrine issues, I lose weight at a slower pace and at is okay but there is no way I'm setting unrealist... Sat, 23 Jul 2016 09:26:27 EST Don't you dare not try http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6204707 Making changes can be discouraging at times. It can be difficult seeing other people lose 20 pounds in a month while you lost a whopping 4! I hate that weight loss is an incredibly slow process for me. Having a thyroid problem and getting tired easily means I have to work a bit harder and think about things more, meaning being conscious of what goes in my body and what I have to walk away from. I'm not saying other people don't have to do that but they do have a bit more wiggle room. That's o... Fri, 22 Jul 2016 06:31:00 EST I don't miss them http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6203533 There are people in life who will bring you down. You can do 5 million kind things for them but they will only notice what you don't do right. You can be there for them in the middle of a struggle but they will run away from yours. At first, it is upsetting and you will experience strong feelings of anger and sadness. It lingers for a while but then something happens. You wake up one day feeling lighter and happier. That is the weight of being treated poorly falling off of your shoulders! <... Wed, 20 Jul 2016 04:07:11 EST healthy habits http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6201811 1. Drinking water in the morning and right before bed. It's very refreshing and relaxing. Grab a glass, fill it with ice and pour! :) <BR> <BR> 2. Staying away from or reducing other drinks like soda and caffeine. Oh, I still drink tea and cappuccino but not all of the time. Plus, if you have to have coffee or cappuccino, buy it from the store and make it at home. Avoid chains where they add tons of sugar, whipped cream, etc. <BR> <BR> 3. Eating a banana in the morning. This helps me stay... Sun, 17 Jul 2016 05:06:00 EST Emotions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6201436 What is your least favorite emotion? <BR> <BR> Mine is loneliness. I have never really fit in. There are 2 groups who I understand. They are: <BR> <BR> 1. Animals. Animals are awesome and if people were like animals, the world would be awesome. They do not care about appearance, race, religion, etc. All they care about is being loved, fed, and treated well. :) <BR> <BR> 2. Elderly people. I guess I am an old soul at heart. <BR> <BR> A crazy Saturday night for most people my age is go... Sat, 16 Jul 2016 11:11:19 EST Your budget is NOT their budget. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6201298 I see this all the time. A lot of people venting that they want to eat healthier but they are highly concerned about the costs. Then there are those people who say they could afford it if they "wanted to." <BR> <BR> I find it kind of disgusting to be honest. If someone feels they don't make much but they find a way, that is awesome but they never think that there are people who could make significantly less than them. Or they tell people to save but after some people pay rent/mortgage and b... Sat, 16 Jul 2016 06:24:27 EST My 2 rescues http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6198890 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/526ddd07-d361-4011-8a28-d7e7134f0dd7.jpeg"> <BR> <BR> They are both rescue dogs. Tinkerbell (left) Kola(right). <BR> <BR> Tinkerbell needs to lose 2 lbs. She does not like being told so. Haha. She likes to spend time with someone and then retreat to her "room" under someone's bed. She loves to be outside and soak up the sun. She is definitely an independent lady. <BR> <BR> Kola loves being outside and exploring as well as playing with toys... Mon, 11 Jul 2016 20:50:28 EST Everything, just everything http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6198454 Exhausted is the word for this week. <BR> <BR> A lot has been happening and a lot took place in this week alone. <BR> <BR> A "friend" started saying mean stuff to me and then had the nerve to say I was starting stuff. That was a few days before my sister's surgery. <BR> <BR> My sister had her surgery. She was incredibly nervous and we had to keep reminding her that the surgeons do this all of the time and that complications are rare, etc. My dad was able to get the day off so he could go... Mon, 11 Jul 2016 06:22:07 EST Bye Bye boyfriend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6197864 I broke up with my boyfriend because we would make plans and he wouldn't follow through. Well, he would go minus me. I deserve fabulous. My weight is never going to make me feel like I have to settle for less. I don't and neither do you. Actually, there is not a single reason you have to settle for less. <BR> <BR> I see people put up with craziness because they want to be married so badly or they fear ending up alone. Personally, if marriage was never in the picture, I am okay with that. Mo... Sun, 10 Jul 2016 04:21:25 EST Surgery is over! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6197344 My sister had her surgery. It went well. Thanks to everyone who sent positive comments, sent well wishes, etc. The operation only lasted for 30 minutes then it was time to go to recovery. My sister was able to come home after a couple of hours in recovery, She said all of the doctors and nurses were nice. :) <BR> <BR> She has declared that she is never getting another operation again. I hope that is true. :) <BR> <BR> <BR> Stay healthy! :) <BR> Sat, 9 Jul 2016 05:25:02 EST Fat skinny person.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6193825 A "Fat" skinny person is someone who has bad eating (and possibly bad exercising) habits and should weigh much more than they do. <BR> <BR> They eat greasy stuff and never gain a pound while you are trying to make healthy choices and trying your best not to kick the scale across the room. <BR> <BR> We all know at least one "Fat" skinny person. <BR> <BR> They aren't necessarily healthy but they look it. They can go to a restaurant and not get one dirty look (except for the one you give th... Sat, 2 Jul 2016 22:01:25 EST sister's surgery. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6191353 My sister is going to get her surgery dare sometime this week. She is soooo nervous. I keep telling her that it is a routine surgery and not to worry but she has had surgery before that was routine and it did not go well at all. The surgeon said it was his fault. He waited 9 hours to take out her appendix because he was allowing studen doctors to "learn" and there were 8 or 9 of them. Her appendix ruptured while she was in surgery and they had to drain the toxins out. Later on, she was releas... Tue, 28 Jun 2016 19:29:40 EST My mirror must have a medical degree too...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6190698 We all know extra weight has bad implications. Still, even if I engage in healthy habits all month, I won't be magically thin. So while we are working on our health, what if something goes wrong? What if we get a mysterious medical issue and need help? <BR> <BR> The sad reality is that if we are fat, that help may never come. Doctors are so blIndeed my our fat, that they can't see or think of anything else and sadly, they think they don't have to. Isn't it sad they they feel that they don't... Mon, 27 Jun 2016 16:34:50 EST Firing my doctor(s) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6189524 My thyroid tests came back "normal." The doctor said they were "perfect." <BR> <BR> I'm still not feeling well. The Physician's assistant just lectured me about my weight and calories because when doctors and medical professionals can't find anything, that is their scapegoat. I am not saying having extra weight doesn't cause issues. I am saying it is not the cause of every issue. It's not even just overweight people. Sometimes, they will tell people they are too thin. <BR> <BR> I feel lik... Sat, 25 Jun 2016 18:15:05 EST Dear heart http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6187808 Dear heart, <BR> I have not been a good friend to you and I'm sorry. You deserve so much better. <BR> You work hard, pumping every day and I have complicated your job. All of the stress I put on you and then losing motivation to engage in healthy habits has been rough on you. Heart, I don't want you to get sick. It's important to me that you are healthy. <BR> <BR> Since I don't want you to be sick, I set some goals to help you. You will be very happy with them. You won't have to wor... Wed, 22 Jun 2016 19:18:41 EST Favorite healthy food and favorite unhealthy food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6187444 One of my favorite healthy foods are strawberries. They are sweet without being overbearing and they are delicious! :) <BR> <BR> My least favorite has to be Spinach. Another is beets. Beets are disgusting. That's just one opinion. <BR> <BR> Favorite unhealthy food is chocolate <BR> <BR> Least favorite unhealthy food has to be doughnuts. They are sticky and unappealing. <BR> <BR> <BR> What about you? <BR> <BR> <BR> :) <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Wed, 22 Jun 2016 08:39:33 EST PCOS and Whitney http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6185015 I have PCOS and it is one of the most misunderstood conditions. <BR> <BR> What is it? <BR> First of all, if you don't know, you are lucky and I envy you! :) It's a condition that causes hormonal imbalances and many unfortunate and serious consequences. :( <BR> <BR> Is it rare? <BR> 10% of women suffer from it so it's not as rare as you might think. <BR> <BR> Does weight gain cause it or does PCOS cause weight gain? <BR> Untreated PCOS can cause weight gain. Gaining weight can exacerb... Sat, 18 Jun 2016 06:32:35 EST Faced the scale. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6183787 Faced the scale. The number isn't pretty. I'm not angry at the scale though. <BR> <BR> I have not been particularly active and have not been consuming nutritious mills so it's not rocket science. On top of it, the doctors think my thyroid may be throwing a tantrum so that doesn't help. <BR> <BR> For a while, I didn't care about being healthy. Mostly because I was so worried about a million other things and being anxious doesn't exactly lead to good habits. <BR> <BR> Now, I'm trying to b... Thu, 16 Jun 2016 02:59:10 EST Noise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6183227 Every night, I hear gun shots going off like mad....5, 6, 7 or more times. It's not directly outside of my window but in the surrounding neighborhoods. This city has not been safe for a long time but it's getting worse and worse. If I could move right now, I would without hesitation. <BR> <BR> It doesn't help that when other cities "clean up" their neighborhoods, they are sending the violence here. <BR> <BR> This is not the California you see on TV. <BR> <BR> The shots only used to be ... Wed, 15 Jun 2016 07:41:55 EST The greatest gift you can give yourself is http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6181828 The greatest gift you can give yourself is peace. Peace From self doubt, past failures, imperfections, worries, etc. <BR> <BR> I am an imperfect person and that's okay. I grant myself peace to acknowledge that perfectionism is overrated and it's okay to be imperfect. <BR> <BR> I am anxious sometimes but I grant myself peace to accept the positive and focus on the optimistic situations/evens more than fear and other events. <BR> <BR> I am doubtful sometimes but so is everyone else. I gran... Mon, 13 Jun 2016 06:11:16 EST Weight=inside out stress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6180533 My sister has her consult with the surgeon next week! It has taken 4 months to get here. I don't know when her surgery will be scheduled but hopefully, it won't be too much longer. :) <BR> <BR> It's a good day but I have not felt well lately. My entire body feels sore like someone punched me all over the place and I'm so exhausted. My thyroid levels always come back normal. I have an appointment on Monday so I will address it then. It's NOT the flu. <BR> <BR> I read comments on a poll th... Fri, 10 Jun 2016 21:19:18 EST The new layout http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6176603 I wish they would change it back. Not a fan of this layout. It seems less organized <BR> this way. I loved how my whole entire page was one color. Do you guys like this layout? <BR> Sat, 4 Jun 2016 22:40:38 EST The new layout http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6176602 I wish they would change it back. Not a fan of this layout. It seems less organized <BR> this way. I loved how my whole entire page was one color. Do you guys like this layout? <BR> Sat, 4 Jun 2016 22:40:38 EST Too tired http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6170512 Hey everyone. I have been so exhausted lately. It's difficult to explain or to understand if you don't have chronic pain or a chronic illness. It is way more than just being tired from everyday life. I'm still working on getting sleep on track. I need to get moving too. My mind knows it, now I just have to apply it. <BR> <BR> I think some people get overweight, realize it and just do what they have to do and succeed. Then, for some of us, we have a lot to work through first. That's okay. ... Thu, 26 May 2016 04:26:16 EST Spark break. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6161788 Hello. Hope you are all doing well. <BR> <BR> I am in the midst of taking a break from sparks but decided to interrupt it and write this blog. :) The break officially ends on Monday. :) <BR> <BR> Lack of sleep and stress were the main reasons for the spark break. The combination is terrible. Getting sleep on track has been going pretty well. <BR> <BR> <em>213</em> Thu, 12 May 2016 22:16:22 EST Some flowers take more time to grow http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6155122 Today, I stumbled upon a video where a this young lady was discussing late bloomers. This applies to health, fitness and so much more! She was talking about the criticism and opinions that come with doing things later in life. <BR> <BR> <BR> Some people come on this site and in a few months they will reach their goal weight or maybe in just a year, they will make tremendous progress. Some of us have been on here for years and the weight isn't coming off or it's not where we want it to be a... Mon, 2 May 2016 21:49:23 EST NO DIET PILLS! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6152582 A "friend" sent me messages about how confidence and happiness are directly related and how she would set up a weight loss plan for me. She said she would tell me what to eat each day and what exercises to do. That was irritating but not even the worst part. She told me I needed to buy two bottles of two different diet pills. NO! She kept pushing and pushing and pushing. She said it was worth it. I told her no and I don't have the $ for it amd even if I did, it wouldn't go to some lame quick ... Fri, 29 Apr 2016 04:39:50 EST Dear self: Get your act together! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6145415 1. You feel way better when you eat healthier! Bad foods=sluggishness and that's not cool! <BR> 2. Those things attached to you called arms and legs are meant for moving so move more! <BR> 3. Sleeping at the right time is a must! <BR> 4. You're making good improvements but you know you are capable of much better! <BR> 5. Just breathe sometimes <BR> 6. Go outside more. You love it out there! :) <BR> 7. Don't forget to take your thyroid pill in the morning! That should go first but at leas... Tue, 19 Apr 2016 03:43:37 EST Birthday Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6141052 My celebration began yesterday. My sister and I both did my makeup. She did the eyeshadow and chose the colors and I put on the mascara, eyeliner, and lipstick/gloss. She Painted my nails a pretty pink color. What is life without out a little pink? She did an excellent job. If it wasn't for her when we were younger, I probably wouldn't even care about makeup. :) <BR> <BR> My boyfriend took me out to lunch at an Italian Restaurant. We ordered garlic shrimp fettuccine. It came with soup and b... Tue, 12 Apr 2016 21:58:49 EST Don't feed your scars http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6138060 The title says it all. I will allow some images to speak today. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/ee25a417-94ec-4d2e-a8a2-dfe30b0c8151.jpeg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/73a6271a-7b29-4449-b0a7-ac7829201e64.jpeg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/83a8bb69-16f9-4fe9-a62f-d883a973403c.jpeg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/efa78498-0961-48ac-a726-3c537061e104.jpeg"... Fri, 8 Apr 2016 19:24:05 EST Move, it's April! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6132505 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/ca49fb7d-4e14-47d6-954b-855db2f19db5.jpeg"> <BR> <BR> My goal for April is working out and starting to feel as good as I can. I used to enjoy exercising but somewhere along the way, that spark and interest was lost. <BR> <BR> Improving sleeping habits and reducing stress are the other goals. <BR> <BR> :) Happy April! What is your main goal for the month? <BR> <BR> Fri, 1 Apr 2016 11:26:24 EST The most important things are... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6123357 The most important things are: <BR> -Mental clarity and health <BR> -Physical health <BR> -Motivation <BR> -Determination <BR> -Persistence <BR> <BR> Spring Goals <BR> -Work on Motivation <BR> -Slowly begin exercise again. Stopped due to excruciating pain a while ago. <BR> -Keep drinking water and increase the amount. <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/b8e1585e-3270-4a75-a33a-55e9fb4e7010.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.... Sun, 20 Mar 2016 07:48:06 EST His heart made me smile today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6120371 My boyfriend works two demanding jobs. I am so proud of him for being hardworking and determined. He got off at midnight and he was saying goodnight but I was upset about something and he stayed up a bit longer to make me feel better. It meant a lot to me. He has such a good heart and soul. <BR> <BR> Of course,we have been friends for a very long time before we went out. Sometimes,mwe teach each other lessons. He believes in me and was ts to see me succeed with my goals. <BR> <BR> <BR> ... Wed, 16 Mar 2016 05:49:09 EST Finally, my sis has an appointment! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6119383 My sister has a doctor's appointment in early April. It was the soonest they had. From there, she will have a surgery date scheduled. I told my sis this afternoon that we are going to have to get stuff done and not wait. The dumb hospital didn't write down the right number for her to call but luckily, I was able to help her find it and success!! <BR> <BR> If she gets sicker in the meantime, she will go back to the ER. We keep thinking they are going to schedule her surgery on my bday. That... Mon, 14 Mar 2016 21:24:48 EST Sister update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6115561 My sister is awaiting her surgery. The date is up in the air. Still up in the air and all just due to insurance taking their sweet time. She has a gallstone the size of a bouncy ball. If it explodes, and then part of her intestines "explode", she could die. :,( <BR> <BR> She is terrified of the surgery. The surgeon the hospital recommended to her has horrible reviews. She cut this one woman's nerves and now that woman cannot eat at all and vomits every day uncontrollable. She has other bad ... Wed, 9 Mar 2016 21:57:53 EST Uh, no! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6115479 So, a few years ago, I found a friend from middle school on Facebook. She seemed nice at first but then It became clear just how different we are. I will only text her once in a while now because a lot of her behavior is concerning. <BR> <BR> For example, when she goes to the movies, she will pay for one and sneak into four. That bothers me. It is stealing and not something I would ever do. She justifies it by saying that movies cost too much and get billions but theaters get most of their ... Wed, 9 Mar 2016 20:25:19 EST Scale war! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6113507 For nearly a month, my family and I have been eating healthy. It is a total turn around for my family but yesterday, I decided to see if it was paying off and it is not. I know, so impatient. I declared I was just going to forget this new lifestyle but then Had a change of heart. <BR> <BR> I have to remember that it takes longer with hypothyroidism and the endocrine issues I have. <BR> It is a real struggle to see numbers go up when you feel better and know your choices are better. Everyon... Mon, 7 Mar 2016 13:29:26 EST Beautifully different. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6112252 Spark has so many different people from different walks of life and that is what makes it interesting. I read so many blogs about different topics. Blogging helps whether it is directly related to weight loss or not. Personally, I do not care that you ordered your salad sans the carrots but that is cool if you want to share it because it is important to you and others might find it interesting. <BR> <BR> Some people discuss faith in their blogs because they find it helps them In their pers... Sat, 5 Mar 2016 23:14:11 EST Date night and a fright http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6111851 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/e1db630c-cf99-4a42-a179-d49a8e021edc.jpeg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Well, I went out yesterday. Actually, it was in the morning. My boyfriend is always late because he gets a little lost. We went to see Zootopia. It is a really cute movie. Adventurous and funny. Hey, you are never to old to go see an animated movie! He paid for Rpx seating. I didn't even know what that was but it was nice and I told him that the normal theater area would b... Sat, 5 Mar 2016 12:01:41 EST Dr. Seuss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6109543 Dr. Seuss was born on March 2nd, 1904. He had such a great impact! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/d1162059-3ba4-4b3b-aa6f-82ca3686a5fb.jpeg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> What is your favorite Dr. Seuss book or quote? <BR> <BR> <BR> Wed, 2 Mar 2016 14:12:21 EST Cleaning binge and missing your blogs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6105840 Typed on an iPad. If something does not make since, blame autocorrect. Haha. It doesntveven get words close to what you were trying to write! Okay, another story for another day! Lol. <BR> <BR> Today, I went on an organizing and cleaning binge. I feel like I can think more clearly and make better decisions in an organized space. My room looks good! It just needs a bit of extra dusting. Okay, I will admit that if I need to call the firemen, I don't want them to see a tornado of a place but ... Sat, 27 Feb 2016 04:49:25 EST New weight loss show http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6100996 There is a new weight loss show. It's called "Fit to fat to fit." <BR> <BR> A trainer gains about the amount of weight that their client wants or needs to lose and then loses the weight with their client. The purpose is to show the trainers that weight loss is psychological and not just physical and simple. <BR> <BR> First of all, I think it's good to be able to sympathize or better, empathize with someone but to go and gain weigh ON PURPOSE? That is unhealthy and ridiculous. I'm sure the... Sun, 21 Feb 2016 03:53:52 EST Gallbladder http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6100982 It turns out that my sister needs her gallbladder out. So far, no infections, so they are scheduling it in an outpatient setting. She is so scared and it makes sense because she already had one "routine" operation that went horribly wrong and almost killed her. :( That was her appendix. We are just waiting for her surgery to be scheduled. <BR> <BR> My sister will have to have a whole new diet and it's not just some changes, it's everything. <BR> We tried rice cakes and they tasted like syr... Sun, 21 Feb 2016 02:54:33 EST Why is he a nurse? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6097180 I know there are a lot of Excellent nurses. I met one today, he was so nice and I asked him if he always wanted to be a nurse while he was placing in an IV in and doing a blood draw. <BR> <BR> So, this is how it started. I began vomiting at 12:30 yesterday. It was continuous and I couldn't hold down water or Gatorade or anything. Earlier in the day, my mom drove my sis to the hospital because she was so ill. She has to get her gallbladder removed. When they got here, my mom took my temperat... Tue, 16 Feb 2016 09:28:44 EST Valentine's Day, interrupted http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6096149 So, the plans were to go to dinner and then go see a view of the city with the boyfriend but that didn't happen. We made the plans for Saturday because he has to work on Sunday's at 2 different jobs. <BR> <BR> Very early in the morning, my sister began a journey into what we suspect is food poisoning. She was in the bathroom for 5 hours and for the last two days has been on the couch barely moving. We have been making sure she is hydrated and keeping an eye on her temp. She might have to go... Mon, 15 Feb 2016 03:21:08 EST Broken hearts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6095444 Don't worry, my heart is not broken. Not in the sense that there was a breakup or anything. Granted, my Valentine's Day plans did not go as planned but that would be a different blog. <BR> <BR> Remember how we are all recovering? Well it is because something broke our heart, mind, and/or spirit. A broken heart cannot just be fixed with a tune up like a car may be able yo be. It takes a lot to mend ourselves back together. <BR> <BR> First, we have to find out the why/what or how that shot r... Sun, 14 Feb 2016 05:01:46 EST No body shame campaign lie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6094128 Whitney Thore has a no body shame campaign. She struggles with PCOS and she is funny and like able most of the time. <BR> <BR> On her website, she models some clothing. She weighed about 382. Maybe she lost some weight now. Anyway, on the site it says the size of the clothes she is modeling. She is not tall and most women with PCOS (like me) have the most weight in their mid section. <BR> <BR> She has a good 70 lbs on me. On her website, the tshirt shook pretty fitted and it says she is m... Fri, 12 Feb 2016 07:40:56 EST Hey, look...a ramble! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6094039 For some reason, I was overly sensitive yesterday. When people told me I shared a lot, it made me feel bad but I understand that was nobody's intention at all. I don't know why I took it that way in that moment. Just a bad day I guess. I am just going to face that I ramble in good times and in bad. <em>334</em> <em>220</em> <em>247</em> <BR> <BR> I was having a good day the other day because I paid off the charge I owed financial aid and now they are smacking me with more charges.... Fri, 12 Feb 2016 02:49:11 EST Oops....too many rambles. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6093102 Guess I rambled too much last night. Most people just stick to their food and exercise goals. Some people share some stuff and some people not at all. I took the blog where I rambled way too much down. Maybe I am just being extra sensitive. <BR> <BR> I do not think I will be rambling as much anymore. There are other ways I will stop the wheels in my mind from spinning when I cannot sleep. <BR> <BR> Hope you did your best and made the healthiest choices today! <BR> <BR> Wed, 10 Feb 2016 22:24:53 EST To the people with private pages http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6092457 Thank you for your support. Sine I cannot return the support by giving you a goodie, commenting on your page or blogs, this is where I am going to tell you how appreciated your comments and support are! <BR> <BR> I understand why some people choose to have a private page and have considered it myself. There are many pros and cons in my opinion but you deserve to be thanked as much as everyone else. It is too much to send everyone spark mail so I hope many of you get to see this and know you... Wed, 10 Feb 2016 06:36:36 EST