RISINGBLUESTAR's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=RISINGBLUESTAR RISINGBLUESTAR's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Firing my doctor(s) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6189524 My thyroid tests came back "normal." The doctor said they were "perfect." <BR> <BR> I'm still not feeling well. The Physician's assistant just lectured me about my weight and calories because when doctors and medical professionals can't find anything, that is their scapegoat. I am not saying having extra weight doesn't cause issues. I am saying it is not the cause of every issue. It's not even just overweight people. Sometimes, they will tell people they are too thin. <BR> <BR> I feel lik... Sat, 25 Jun 2016 18:15:05 EST Dear heart http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6187808 Dear heart, <BR> I have not been a good friend to you and I'm sorry. You deserve so much better. <BR> You work hard, pumping every day and I have complicated your job. All of the stress I put on you and then losing motivation to engage in healthy habits has been rough on you. Heart, I don't want you to get sick. It's important to me that you are healthy. <BR> <BR> Since I don't want you to be sick, I set some goals to help you. You will be very happy with them. You won't have to wor... Wed, 22 Jun 2016 19:18:41 EST Favorite healthy food and favorite unhealthy food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6187444 One of my favorite healthy foods are strawberries. They are sweet without being overbearing and they are delicious! :) <BR> <BR> My least favorite has to be Spinach. Another is beets. Beets are disgusting. That's just one opinion. <BR> <BR> Favorite unhealthy food is chocolate <BR> <BR> Least favorite unhealthy food has to be doughnuts. They are sticky and unappealing. <BR> <BR> <BR> What about you? <BR> <BR> <BR> :) <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Wed, 22 Jun 2016 08:39:33 EST PCOS and Whitney http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6185015 I have PCOS and it is one of the most misunderstood conditions. <BR> <BR> What is it? <BR> First of all, if you don't know, you are lucky and I envy you! :) It's a condition that causes hormonal imbalances and many unfortunate and serious consequences. :( <BR> <BR> Is it rare? <BR> 10% of women suffer from it so it's not as rare as you might think. <BR> <BR> Does weight gain cause it or does PCOS cause weight gain? <BR> Untreated PCOS can cause weight gain. Gaining weight can exacerb... Sat, 18 Jun 2016 06:32:35 EST Faced the scale. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6183787 Faced the scale. The number isn't pretty. I'm not angry at the scale though. <BR> <BR> I have not been particularly active and have not been consuming nutritious mills so it's not rocket science. On top of it, the doctors think my thyroid may be throwing a tantrum so that doesn't help. <BR> <BR> For a while, I didn't care about being healthy. Mostly because I was so worried about a million other things and being anxious doesn't exactly lead to good habits. <BR> <BR> Now, I'm trying to b... Thu, 16 Jun 2016 02:59:10 EST Noise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6183227 Every night, I hear gun shots going off like mad....5, 6, 7 or more times. It's not directly outside of my window but in the surrounding neighborhoods. This city has not been safe for a long time but it's getting worse and worse. If I could move right now, I would without hesitation. <BR> <BR> It doesn't help that when other cities "clean up" their neighborhoods, they are sending the violence here. <BR> <BR> This is not the California you see on TV. <BR> <BR> The shots only used to be ... Wed, 15 Jun 2016 07:41:55 EST The greatest gift you can give yourself is http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6181828 The greatest gift you can give yourself is peace. Peace From self doubt, past failures, imperfections, worries, etc. <BR> <BR> I am an imperfect person and that's okay. I grant myself peace to acknowledge that perfectionism is overrated and it's okay to be imperfect. <BR> <BR> I am anxious sometimes but I grant myself peace to accept the positive and focus on the optimistic situations/evens more than fear and other events. <BR> <BR> I am doubtful sometimes but so is everyone else. I gran... Mon, 13 Jun 2016 06:11:16 EST Weight=inside out stress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6180533 My sister has her consult with the surgeon next week! It has taken 4 months to get here. I don't know when her surgery will be scheduled but hopefully, it won't be too much longer. :) <BR> <BR> It's a good day but I have not felt well lately. My entire body feels sore like someone punched me all over the place and I'm so exhausted. My thyroid levels always come back normal. I have an appointment on Monday so I will address it then. It's NOT the flu. <BR> <BR> I read comments on a poll th... Fri, 10 Jun 2016 21:19:18 EST The new layout http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6176603 I wish they would change it back. Not a fan of this layout. It seems less organized <BR> this way. I loved how my whole entire page was one color. Do you guys like this layout? <BR> Sat, 4 Jun 2016 22:40:38 EST The new layout http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6176602 I wish they would change it back. Not a fan of this layout. It seems less organized <BR> this way. I loved how my whole entire page was one color. Do you guys like this layout? <BR> Sat, 4 Jun 2016 22:40:38 EST Too tired http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6170512 Hey everyone. I have been so exhausted lately. It's difficult to explain or to understand if you don't have chronic pain or a chronic illness. It is way more than just being tired from everyday life. I'm still working on getting sleep on track. I need to get moving too. My mind knows it, now I just have to apply it. <BR> <BR> I think some people get overweight, realize it and just do what they have to do and succeed. Then, for some of us, we have a lot to work through first. That's okay. ... Thu, 26 May 2016 04:26:16 EST Spark break. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6161788 Hello. Hope you are all doing well. <BR> <BR> I am in the midst of taking a break from sparks but decided to interrupt it and write this blog. :) The break officially ends on Monday. :) <BR> <BR> Lack of sleep and stress were the main reasons for the spark break. The combination is terrible. Getting sleep on track has been going pretty well. <BR> <BR> <em>213</em> Thu, 12 May 2016 22:16:22 EST Some flowers take more time to grow http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6155122 Today, I stumbled upon a video where a this young lady was discussing late bloomers. This applies to health, fitness and so much more! She was talking about the criticism and opinions that come with doing things later in life. <BR> <BR> <BR> Some people come on this site and in a few months they will reach their goal weight or maybe in just a year, they will make tremendous progress. Some of us have been on here for years and the weight isn't coming off or it's not where we want it to be a... Mon, 2 May 2016 21:49:23 EST NO DIET PILLS! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6152582 A "friend" sent me messages about how confidence and happiness are directly related and how she would set up a weight loss plan for me. She said she would tell me what to eat each day and what exercises to do. That was irritating but not even the worst part. She told me I needed to buy two bottles of two different diet pills. NO! She kept pushing and pushing and pushing. She said it was worth it. I told her no and I don't have the $ for it amd even if I did, it wouldn't go to some lame quick ... Fri, 29 Apr 2016 04:39:50 EST Dear self: Get your act together! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6145415 1. You feel way better when you eat healthier! Bad foods=sluggishness and that's not cool! <BR> 2. Those things attached to you called arms and legs are meant for moving so move more! <BR> 3. Sleeping at the right time is a must! <BR> 4. You're making good improvements but you know you are capable of much better! <BR> 5. Just breathe sometimes <BR> 6. Go outside more. You love it out there! :) <BR> 7. Don't forget to take your thyroid pill in the morning! That should go first but at leas... Tue, 19 Apr 2016 03:43:37 EST Birthday Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6141052 My celebration began yesterday. My sister and I both did my makeup. She did the eyeshadow and chose the colors and I put on the mascara, eyeliner, and lipstick/gloss. She Painted my nails a pretty pink color. What is life without out a little pink? She did an excellent job. If it wasn't for her when we were younger, I probably wouldn't even care about makeup. :) <BR> <BR> My boyfriend took me out to lunch at an Italian Restaurant. We ordered garlic shrimp fettuccine. It came with soup and b... Tue, 12 Apr 2016 21:58:49 EST Don't feed your scars http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6138060 The title says it all. I will allow some images to speak today. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/ee25a417-94ec-4d2e-a8a2-dfe30b0c8151.jpeg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/73a6271a-7b29-4449-b0a7-ac7829201e64.jpeg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/83a8bb69-16f9-4fe9-a62f-d883a973403c.jpeg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/efa78498-0961-48ac-a726-3c537061e104.jpeg"... Fri, 8 Apr 2016 19:24:05 EST Move, it's April! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6132505 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/ca49fb7d-4e14-47d6-954b-855db2f19db5.jpeg"> <BR> <BR> My goal for April is working out and starting to feel as good as I can. I used to enjoy exercising but somewhere along the way, that spark and interest was lost. <BR> <BR> Improving sleeping habits and reducing stress are the other goals. <BR> <BR> :) Happy April! What is your main goal for the month? <BR> <BR> Fri, 1 Apr 2016 11:26:24 EST The most important things are... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6123357 The most important things are: <BR> -Mental clarity and health <BR> -Physical health <BR> -Motivation <BR> -Determination <BR> -Persistence <BR> <BR> Spring Goals <BR> -Work on Motivation <BR> -Slowly begin exercise again. Stopped due to excruciating pain a while ago. <BR> -Keep drinking water and increase the amount. <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/b8e1585e-3270-4a75-a33a-55e9fb4e7010.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.... Sun, 20 Mar 2016 07:48:06 EST His heart made me smile today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6120371 My boyfriend works two demanding jobs. I am so proud of him for being hardworking and determined. He got off at midnight and he was saying goodnight but I was upset about something and he stayed up a bit longer to make me feel better. It meant a lot to me. He has such a good heart and soul. <BR> <BR> Of course,we have been friends for a very long time before we went out. Sometimes,mwe teach each other lessons. He believes in me and was ts to see me succeed with my goals. <BR> <BR> <BR> ... Wed, 16 Mar 2016 05:49:09 EST Finally, my sis has an appointment! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6119383 My sister has a doctor's appointment in early April. It was the soonest they had. From there, she will have a surgery date scheduled. I told my sis this afternoon that we are going to have to get stuff done and not wait. The dumb hospital didn't write down the right number for her to call but luckily, I was able to help her find it and success!! <BR> <BR> If she gets sicker in the meantime, she will go back to the ER. We keep thinking they are going to schedule her surgery on my bday. That... Mon, 14 Mar 2016 21:24:48 EST Sister update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6115561 My sister is awaiting her surgery. The date is up in the air. Still up in the air and all just due to insurance taking their sweet time. She has a gallstone the size of a bouncy ball. If it explodes, and then part of her intestines "explode", she could die. :,( <BR> <BR> She is terrified of the surgery. The surgeon the hospital recommended to her has horrible reviews. She cut this one woman's nerves and now that woman cannot eat at all and vomits every day uncontrollable. She has other bad ... Wed, 9 Mar 2016 21:57:53 EST Uh, no! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6115479 So, a few years ago, I found a friend from middle school on Facebook. She seemed nice at first but then It became clear just how different we are. I will only text her once in a while now because a lot of her behavior is concerning. <BR> <BR> For example, when she goes to the movies, she will pay for one and sneak into four. That bothers me. It is stealing and not something I would ever do. She justifies it by saying that movies cost too much and get billions but theaters get most of their ... Wed, 9 Mar 2016 20:25:19 EST Scale war! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6113507 For nearly a month, my family and I have been eating healthy. It is a total turn around for my family but yesterday, I decided to see if it was paying off and it is not. I know, so impatient. I declared I was just going to forget this new lifestyle but then Had a change of heart. <BR> <BR> I have to remember that it takes longer with hypothyroidism and the endocrine issues I have. <BR> It is a real struggle to see numbers go up when you feel better and know your choices are better. Everyon... Mon, 7 Mar 2016 13:29:26 EST Beautifully different. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6112252 Spark has so many different people from different walks of life and that is what makes it interesting. I read so many blogs about different topics. Blogging helps whether it is directly related to weight loss or not. Personally, I do not care that you ordered your salad sans the carrots but that is cool if you want to share it because it is important to you and others might find it interesting. <BR> <BR> Some people discuss faith in their blogs because they find it helps them In their pers... Sat, 5 Mar 2016 23:14:11 EST Date night and a fright http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6111851 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/e1db630c-cf99-4a42-a179-d49a8e021edc.jpeg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Well, I went out yesterday. Actually, it was in the morning. My boyfriend is always late because he gets a little lost. We went to see Zootopia. It is a really cute movie. Adventurous and funny. Hey, you are never to old to go see an animated movie! He paid for Rpx seating. I didn't even know what that was but it was nice and I told him that the normal theater area would b... Sat, 5 Mar 2016 12:01:41 EST Dr. Seuss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6109543 Dr. Seuss was born on March 2nd, 1904. He had such a great impact! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/d1162059-3ba4-4b3b-aa6f-82ca3686a5fb.jpeg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> What is your favorite Dr. Seuss book or quote? <BR> <BR> <BR> Wed, 2 Mar 2016 14:12:21 EST Cleaning binge and missing your blogs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6105840 Typed on an iPad. If something does not make since, blame autocorrect. Haha. It doesntveven get words close to what you were trying to write! Okay, another story for another day! Lol. <BR> <BR> Today, I went on an organizing and cleaning binge. I feel like I can think more clearly and make better decisions in an organized space. My room looks good! It just needs a bit of extra dusting. Okay, I will admit that if I need to call the firemen, I don't want them to see a tornado of a place but ... Sat, 27 Feb 2016 04:49:25 EST New weight loss show http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6100996 There is a new weight loss show. It's called "Fit to fat to fit." <BR> <BR> A trainer gains about the amount of weight that their client wants or needs to lose and then loses the weight with their client. The purpose is to show the trainers that weight loss is psychological and not just physical and simple. <BR> <BR> First of all, I think it's good to be able to sympathize or better, empathize with someone but to go and gain weigh ON PURPOSE? That is unhealthy and ridiculous. I'm sure the... Sun, 21 Feb 2016 03:53:52 EST Gallbladder http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6100982 It turns out that my sister needs her gallbladder out. So far, no infections, so they are scheduling it in an outpatient setting. She is so scared and it makes sense because she already had one "routine" operation that went horribly wrong and almost killed her. :( That was her appendix. We are just waiting for her surgery to be scheduled. <BR> <BR> My sister will have to have a whole new diet and it's not just some changes, it's everything. <BR> We tried rice cakes and they tasted like syr... Sun, 21 Feb 2016 02:54:33 EST Why is he a nurse? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6097180 I know there are a lot of Excellent nurses. I met one today, he was so nice and I asked him if he always wanted to be a nurse while he was placing in an IV in and doing a blood draw. <BR> <BR> So, this is how it started. I began vomiting at 12:30 yesterday. It was continuous and I couldn't hold down water or Gatorade or anything. Earlier in the day, my mom drove my sis to the hospital because she was so ill. She has to get her gallbladder removed. When they got here, my mom took my temperat... Tue, 16 Feb 2016 09:28:44 EST Valentine's Day, interrupted http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6096149 So, the plans were to go to dinner and then go see a view of the city with the boyfriend but that didn't happen. We made the plans for Saturday because he has to work on Sunday's at 2 different jobs. <BR> <BR> Very early in the morning, my sister began a journey into what we suspect is food poisoning. She was in the bathroom for 5 hours and for the last two days has been on the couch barely moving. We have been making sure she is hydrated and keeping an eye on her temp. She might have to go... Mon, 15 Feb 2016 03:21:08 EST Broken hearts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6095444 Don't worry, my heart is not broken. Not in the sense that there was a breakup or anything. Granted, my Valentine's Day plans did not go as planned but that would be a different blog. <BR> <BR> Remember how we are all recovering? Well it is because something broke our heart, mind, and/or spirit. A broken heart cannot just be fixed with a tune up like a car may be able yo be. It takes a lot to mend ourselves back together. <BR> <BR> First, we have to find out the why/what or how that shot r... Sun, 14 Feb 2016 05:01:46 EST No body shame campaign lie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6094128 Whitney Thore has a no body shame campaign. She struggles with PCOS and she is funny and like able most of the time. <BR> <BR> On her website, she models some clothing. She weighed about 382. Maybe she lost some weight now. Anyway, on the site it says the size of the clothes she is modeling. She is not tall and most women with PCOS (like me) have the most weight in their mid section. <BR> <BR> She has a good 70 lbs on me. On her website, the tshirt shook pretty fitted and it says she is m... Fri, 12 Feb 2016 07:40:56 EST Hey, look...a ramble! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6094039 For some reason, I was overly sensitive yesterday. When people told me I shared a lot, it made me feel bad but I understand that was nobody's intention at all. I don't know why I took it that way in that moment. Just a bad day I guess. I am just going to face that I ramble in good times and in bad. <em>334</em> <em>220</em> <em>247</em> <BR> <BR> I was having a good day the other day because I paid off the charge I owed financial aid and now they are smacking me with more charges.... Fri, 12 Feb 2016 02:49:11 EST Oops....too many rambles. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6093102 Guess I rambled too much last night. Most people just stick to their food and exercise goals. Some people share some stuff and some people not at all. I took the blog where I rambled way too much down. Maybe I am just being extra sensitive. <BR> <BR> I do not think I will be rambling as much anymore. There are other ways I will stop the wheels in my mind from spinning when I cannot sleep. <BR> <BR> Hope you did your best and made the healthiest choices today! <BR> <BR> Wed, 10 Feb 2016 22:24:53 EST To the people with private pages http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6092457 Thank you for your support. Sine I cannot return the support by giving you a goodie, commenting on your page or blogs, this is where I am going to tell you how appreciated your comments and support are! <BR> <BR> I understand why some people choose to have a private page and have considered it myself. There are many pros and cons in my opinion but you deserve to be thanked as much as everyone else. It is too much to send everyone spark mail so I hope many of you get to see this and know you... Wed, 10 Feb 2016 06:36:36 EST Bad eating and a new relationship http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6086464 Hi guys! How are you doing? First, let me say ignore typos. I am not typing from a laptop and sometimes, I go back and see ridiculous errors that make me cringe! Lol! <BR> <BR> Well, I asked my friend to look up the myths of depression. He came over a week later and was telling me he looked that up and agreed that he was wrong. We had so much fun laughing and talking after that. <BR> <BR> He told me about a couple things that were weighing on his mind and I told him that I have an anxiety... Wed, 3 Feb 2016 04:43:14 EST We are all recovering http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6084448 I truly believe everyone is recovering from something. Not just necessarily the burden of weight or an eating disorder but also problems that triggered those problems. I am going to share the experience of dealing with anxiety because there are millions of people who suffer through it and feel alone because others make them feel "crazy." <BR> <BR> People with anxiety worry excessively and they cannot just make it stop and as much as they try and wish! <BR> <BR> I always had some level of ... Mon, 1 Feb 2016 00:49:07 EST Went to the baby shower! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6083499 I ended up getting a set of 3 bibs...so cute and two onesies. Onesie had a fire truck and beanie and came with gray pants. The other one had a skull and a cute quote. The honoree is really into skulls, Halloween and Jack Skellngton so that was the reasons for that choice. <BR> <BR> I wish I had pics but I was running late and had to hurry! :) <BR> <BR> She doesn't look pregnant even at 8 months but she got gastric bypass a couple years ago and I know that is a tough journey. I am glad she... Sat, 30 Jan 2016 22:06:34 EST The new barbies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6082811 When I was little, Barbies were my favorite toy! Every birthday or Christmas, I was lucky and received a Barbie. They made me happy. I do not feel the original or the 90's barbies had a bad impact on body image or self esteem. Maybe for some girls, they do but that was never the case for me. I loved having that imaginary world. My mom did get me dolls with brown hair even if I wanted a blonde doll (not always) because she wanted me to know that having brown hair was a positive too. <BR> <BR... Sat, 30 Jan 2016 00:59:55 EST Life and stuff http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6080998 Thank you guys for all of your kindness! <BR> <BR> I am feeling a lot better today and have an upcoming appointment with a PA. Hopefully, it will go well. <BR> <BR> I dropped the crazy stressful class. She was telling us to expect bad grades and she was talking and talkIng and talking but not teaching. Good professors should be challenging but not expect failure. That is what I believe. <BR> <BR> Now, I might either have to do a different program or something but that's okay. I didn't r... Wed, 27 Jan 2016 21:21:15 EST More pain :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6079138 The pain I have has been extending down into my legs. Sometimes, it is a cramping pain and other times, it's not. My sister feels it could be Fibromyalgia because if someone pokes my shoulder just playing, it is painful. I have been becoming weaker for a while. I used to be able to help my dad lift heavy stuff like dressers, etc. It wasn't challenging for me and now I can barely carry the vacuum to another room. :( <BR> <BR> Today, I can barely walk. The doctor just says lose weight and tru... Mon, 25 Jan 2016 20:50:33 EST Women=Stress and Men don't http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6074598 I can't tell you HOW MANY TIMES that I have been told to "take care of myself" or "get some rest" and that the pain is related to stress. How many of you (women) have suffered through this too? The answer is probably most of you and it has to stop. <BR> <BR> If Men go to the doctor or tell someone about their pain, they are believed, no questions asked. <BR> All of us are human so why is it that men are believed and women are not? You can have the same presentation of symptoms and we're se... Wed, 20 Jan 2016 13:46:31 EST Oh no! More/continued health issues.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6074163 Today was so difficult to get through. The pains were really bad today! Then, I felt pressure in my pelvic area that was building up and squeezing. It was on the left side. Usually, the pain is on the right. Then, I couldn't eat right. I was so nauseated, more than I can ever remember and there are pinching pains in my stomach but not lower stomach, although that hurt too like when you hold in your pee for too long. The pinching pains are way higher. There is pinching on the left and the righ... Wed, 20 Jan 2016 00:11:47 EST Baby Shower http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6073074 I was invited to a friends baby shower. I haven't seen her since high school and have no idea what to get for her baby: A boy! I can't spend a lot but want to get something useful and decent that she will be happy with. <BR> <BR> The shower is at the end of the month. Time is running out. Suggestions? Mon, 18 Jan 2016 20:20:37 EST Happiness Jar http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6072321 I read somewhere, instead of making resolutions that often make us feel disappointed and as though we have failed, we should create happiness jars for the year instead. This is an idea that I love. It's feasible, reasonable and affordable! At the end of the year, you are suppose to dump it out and reflect upon the year you had. It highlights all of the positive stuff that has happened. Sometimes, we go through tough things. Sometimes, for a moment and other times, continuously so this is an e... Mon, 18 Jan 2016 01:33:02 EST He's nice and genuine but that upset me.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6071567 My friend and I (who are deciding if we want to date) were having a conversation and talking about our families and the frustration with our families. We all love our families but we all get frustrated at times too. <BR> <BR> He was speaking about his younger brother and how lazy he is. He has a job but still, my friend said his brother is lazy. He had mentioned to me about a week ago, his brother dealt with depression. Then when I brought that up, he told me he wasn't depressed anymore be... Sun, 17 Jan 2016 06:32:50 EST Health issue part 2: A promise! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6070707 Thanks to all of you for your support and encouragement. I'm not going into any other details but if/when I find out what is wrong or what has been going on, I promise I will post about it because I don't want other women to suffer through that kind of pain or maybe it will help someone who is struggling. <BR> <BR> <BR> Have a healthy weekend! :) <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Sat, 16 Jan 2016 04:15:17 EST Thanks spark friends and a major non scale victory! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6069948 Thank you all who commented on my last blog. I was so hesitant to write about that pain because ouch and that can be embarrassing, even though it shouldn't be. Women have to speak up more because we can help each other and I am also grateful to the men who believe us when we are in pain. <BR> <BR> <BR> Okay, now the Non-scale victory. I have been taking more pictures this year and allowing more of my body to be in the pics. Not because I lost any weight but because I gained the bravery and ... 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