RISINGBLUESTAR's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=RISINGBLUESTAR RISINGBLUESTAR's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Dear doctors http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6380222 Dear doctors, why can't you listen to your patients for two minutes instead of assuming you know everything? There are too many patients that remain sick or who get dismissed and then find out that something serious was going on. Labs matter but they cannot tell you everything. Just because you haven't found something wrong, it does not mean someone is "fine" or that something is not wrong. Just because you went to school and wear a white coat doesn't necessarily mean you know a condition bet... Tue, 27 Jun 2017 05:39:29 EST The last 6 weeks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6380220 During the last 6 weeks, I have been making changes. To be honest, my journey has had a lot of stops and starts and as frustrating as that is, that's okay. There's no giving up. Just getting back up and trying again! The first change I made was significantly reducing wheat. It is not something I recommend for everyone unless it makes you feel sick. I can't breathe well when I eat it or I just don't feel well overall. The second change was steering clear of soda. I also added more greens to my... Tue, 27 Jun 2017 05:21:29 EST She blamed all her stress on me! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6329902 Someone stopped talking to me months ago. Now, most people would let it go and say "forget them." I, on the other hand, simply wanted to know why. Some people think someone is extending a kindness when they are silent. I am a straightforward kind of person so would rather have someone just blurt it out instead of leaving me wonder if I did or said something wrong. Sure, it might still be painful, but silence is much more hurtful. So after a while, she finally told me the reason. The funny thi... Wed, 8 Mar 2017 17:35:44 EST Car accident and healthy living http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6294790 Hey everyone! Hope you are well. About two weeks ago, my mom and I were in a car accident. Everyone is okay, though mom and I were a bit sore and going through whiplash. I have to wait until some neck pain subsides before getting back to the gym. The good news is I have had a successful week with healthy eating. The goal is to make sure you are including healthy things you like. I have been doing well with using the food tracker. It's such a helpful tool! It took me a long time to find motiva... Mon, 9 Jan 2017 18:30:40 EST The gift of an ugly number! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6290527 The holidays are over and the numbers are in. They are ugly! There are many reasons that some deem as excuses, but it's important to understand <BR> <BR> how and why healthy habits get off track. I didn't just get off track. There was no train in sight! Hey, there wasn't even a wagon to hop back on. Even if one appeared, it still may have been missed! After facing the dreaded scale and bursting into an emotional fit for a few minutes, deep breaths were taken. I had two choices. The first wa... Tue, 3 Jan 2017 16:17:31 EST Holiday Favorites http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6283688 Favorite beverage: Hot Chocolate. Favorite Candy: Chocolate Caramel squares from See's Candy. Favorite Holiday Creature: Penguins! Favorite Holiday Decoration: Reindeer! Favorite Christmas songs: The First Noel, Walking in a winter Wonderland, Rocking around the Christmas tree, Baby, it's cold outside, Do You hear why I hear and many more. :) Favorite Holiday movies: A dog named Christmas, Naughy and Nice, Rudolph the... Wed, 21 Dec 2016 08:59:48 EST A December to remember http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6283257 Hello everyone! This has been a stressful time. I ended up in the ER twice. The first time it turns out I was dehydrated and the second time, they asked me if I had a history of smoking, drinking, drug abuse, or any religious restrictions. I was getting really dizzy. They found nothing, but my thyroid level has jumped quite a bit. In other news, it has been a struggle to be in the Christmas spirit. Some days, I am happy singing Christmas songs and looking at Christmas lights. I even saw the H... Tue, 20 Dec 2016 08:37:44 EST No internet for a while http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6267308 We will be trying to find a different Cable/internet service but until then, it has to go. It may be a while because the Provider has bought all of their competitors out. :/ <BR> <BR> Keep sparking. Stay healthy. :) <BR> <BR> Tue, 15 Nov 2016 12:19:50 EST Unraveled plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6263642 Admittedly, I like structure. No, that's not accurate. I need structure. <BR> <BR> None of us planned to get fat, or lose a job or be promoted to a different department that we have zero training for. <BR> <BR> Sometimes structure unravels. It's never noticed how attached we are to our plans until our plans take 3 left turns and we end up on a highway lost and in the town of What Now? <BR> <BR> Some handle this gracefully and find there way out of town Now What? Some try and try and try... Tue, 8 Nov 2016 04:07:08 EST Plans for the day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6262271 This season does not like me. Last month, I had a fever and a burning throat and ears and then a sinus infection as well. This month, I catch a cold. My head is stuffed up and the congestion and sinuses are intense. No headache right now but so that's good . As soon as the wind swoops in, that's it. 95% of the time, it ends up with a sinus flare or some sort of allergy attack. Hopefully, this cold won't last too long. I live in a warm climate. If I lived in the freezing cold, my head wouldn't... Sat, 5 Nov 2016 10:55:18 EST What an amazing show/Serving a purpose http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6259598 Note: Excuse the errors because typing on a mobile device can make someone sound a little less intelligent than they actually are. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I absolutely love animals. They are everything that is right with the world. <BR> <BR> Earlier this month, a new showed aired on Animal planet. It's called "Life at Vet U." It's about fourth year vet students at the University of Pennsylvania. It's interesting to see the challenges they have to face and their passion and knowledge is... Mon, 31 Oct 2016 05:23:12 EST Anxiety stigma http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6254225 I have been trying to find the right medication for anxiety. Ell, actually, When I was in school, I took two medications that helped but the doctors now are reluctant to prescribe one of them because "there are too many drug addicts." I understand but at the same time, it is unfortunate for people who take medication correctly and who benefit from it. Even just talking to the primary care doctor ended up being really stressful because he said they just overreacted buyt I have tried to tell hi... Wed, 19 Oct 2016 22:05:30 EST Possible surgery http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6240010 There is nerve damage in my sister's ear and she may need an operation to repair it. She has struggled with being able to hear well ever since she was in a terrible car accident five years ago. <BR> <BR> My sister's car was totaled. She was driving a GMC Jimmy at the time. The car that slammed into her was a Toyota Camry! The impact was intense. Her car had to be towed to the house and she is blessed and lucky thst she was able to walk away from the car accident. <BR> <BR> she is upset. ... Thu, 22 Sep 2016 06:27:17 EST Yard punks and other happenings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6239434 Hi everyone. Thank you so mch for all of your comments and support! You will never know just how much it is appreciated and it is deeply appreciated! :) <BR> <BR> In the early hours, 3 AM, my gut told me to look out of the bedroom window. Well, at first, I couldn't see anything. Then, I thought I saw a shadow against the garage but it was hard to see and it's an attached garage so that made it even more challenging. At first I thought it was just from being overly tired but it wasn't. There... Wed, 21 Sep 2016 03:40:19 EST Feeling so low http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6238886 Typed on a mobile device -some of it wont make sense sorry. :/ <BR> In 2009, I had a bout of depression. It lasted for 7 months. Then, everything was okay until 2010 and I had anxiety and thyroid problems. I mention them together because it is my belief that they impacted one another for the worse. There were normal worries because around this time, I was just transitioning into adulthood. Normal fears became crippling fears. I did have goals but they changed and then they'd rested more fear... Tue, 20 Sep 2016 05:56:04 EST Encouragement for you today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6238418 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/4cf3da2b-654f-4547-a800-f0628ef69e56.jpeg"> Mon, 19 Sep 2016 10:25:20 EST A true funny story http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6237656 When we moved into this neighborhood, my sister and I were talking and joking. We wondered what the neighbors were like and I pointed to next door and said, "That neighbor's name is "Bob." My sister laughed and said "You haven't even met him, you don't know his name!" Well, I told her it was true and it was left at that. <BR> <BR> About a month after we moved in, there was a knock on the door. My sister opened the door and a tall, bald man introduced himself as the neighbor and he said his ... Sun, 18 Sep 2016 00:07:00 EST I don't want to get out of bed today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6237242 Sometimes, anxiety and depression get he best of me, especially with losing "friends" because I don't have others I can turn to. :( I know I need to eat vegetables more often and exercise but how am I suppose to get the motivation to drag myself out of bed in the moments when I don't have to be? <BR> <BR> I tried anti anxiety and and antidepressant medication. They did help but I had to try so many to get to the right one and that helped pile n more pounds and make me more depressed. Also, ... Sat, 17 Sep 2016 07:35:24 EST Why I hate alcohol http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6236659 Alcohol is such a remedy to stress and a doorway to good times for a lot of people. In moderation and with responsibility, that's fine. There is nothing wrong with that. <BR> <BR> When you decline or politely let someone know you don't drink, June Cleaver probably pops into their mind and all the fun that was in your personality gets sucked out. <BR> <BR> It's because they don't understand. <BR> <BR> Alcohol to them is fun and exciting and a bandaid to put over life's stresses for a lit... Fri, 16 Sep 2016 04:03:05 EST Autumn is almost here! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6236148 What do you love about Fall? <em>422</em> <BR> <BR> I love: <BR> Pumpkin spice cappuccino from the 7/11 <em>426</em> <BR> and once in a while, pumpkin muffins! <BR> Starbucks is too fancy no no just kidding. I like the items from 7/11 and they are half the price. :) <BR> <BR> The cooler weather though it's not cool until night. <BR> -The return of my favorite shows and some classic movies <em>275</em> <BR> <BR> Hot chocolate on a rainy day. <BR> Layering clothes <BR> I wo... Thu, 15 Sep 2016 07:00:24 EST Too many brownies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6235557 Oops. The stress from this past week has just been way too much to handle. There's part of me that is angry that I will never have answers for how I was treated for so many years and they will never admit to wrongdoings. Everything I have done wrong or that they have perceived in the wrong way is like a Scarlet letter. Sometimes, we will never know why people decided they were going to be less than welcoming. People have the right to not like someone but not the right to be mean spirited and ... Wed, 14 Sep 2016 05:41:27 EST Why did I care? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6235025 I wrote about the death of a friendship the other day. Before I wrote that blog and realized that it was silly to care about all of that, I did try one more time to make amends but if went horribly but that's for the better. The stuff I sincerely apologized for was thrown back in my face and basically I am dead to her. Yes, I am letting it go but I write about stuff. It's not easy for me to just forget when it hurts deeply. For this blog, she will be referred to as "J" <BR> <BR> <BR> See, i... Tue, 13 Sep 2016 07:34:44 EST Shaking the Kidneys http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6234464 A couple weeks ago, when I went to the doctor, the doctor (actually a PA) did a few simple tests like reflexes. <BR> <BR> Well, I was there because I hadpersistennt lower stomach pain. He listens to my back and then he takes one hand and balls it into a fist and places it on my back. He takes his other hand and hits his fist REALLY HARD and it hurt a little. Then, he did that to the other side of my back too! It hurt a little but before I left the house, I had taken some ibuprofen. Later... Mon, 12 Sep 2016 08:32:38 EST Death of a friendship http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6233206 Excuse the errors, this was typed on a mobile device. <BR> <BR> When I was in middle school, I met a girl who was nice and kind. She is a little different than most of us. I will talk about why later on in the blog. <BR> <BR> We became friends and had late night chats. We had both been bullied and we had the same career goal so we clicked. <BR> <BR> As time went on, we grew apart. I never really was invited to spend time with her outside of school. She was always "busy" or "super busy." ... Sat, 10 Sep 2016 05:23:23 EST What a momzilla! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6230303 This weekend, I went to the bridal shop with my friend so she could pick out her wedding dress. It was fun and she found a dress pretty quickly! She fell in love with the third dress! She tried on just a handful. <BR> <BR> I was unaware of any tensions between the families. Well, her mother in law to be made it crystal clear who was paying for the wedding. She even blurted out how much she was shelling out for the event. She repeatedly said she wants contracts for the wedding and will sue a... Mon, 5 Sep 2016 01:37:40 EST Learning to overcome perfectionism http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6222098 Nobody's perfect but we all strive to be our best. Some people set high standards for themselves but what happens when we don't do as well as aspected or reach our goals? <BR> <BR> It's challenging. <BR> <BR> Step 1: Try to stop comparing yourself because everybody's life and circumstances are different. You are an Apple. They are an orange, and even if they were an apple, there are green apples, red apples, pink lady apples. You get the point. :) <BR> <BR> Step 2: Don't be so hard on ... Sun, 21 Aug 2016 18:18:24 EST Not adventurous http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6216023 Some people like to go on roller coasters and sky diving. Not me. There are fun, adventurous things I want to do but I have never been a thrill seeker. I would go zip lining or learn to surf. It's interesting how everyone is so different. I admire risk takers even though some of their choices are insane. I <BR> <BR> I inherited my tame personality from both of my parents. They are not adventurous at all. Bring an adventure up to my mom and she will focus on the terrifying aspect. <BR> Surfi... Thu, 11 Aug 2016 08:58:55 EST California Oregon Arizona Washintgton Nevada http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6212411 One day, I might move to a different state or stay in my home state but not in this location. If you live Or have ever lived in one of the mentioned states, what is your opinion? Of course I would visit myself but it is still nice to see what others say. <BR> <BR> California: We don't worry about hurricanes and it never snows. There is minimal rain (where I live). Southern and Northern California are very different. If you want to know about Northern California, you will have to find someon... Thu, 4 Aug 2016 21:43:04 EST Good progress so far! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6205267 Well, I began getting back on track a couple of weeks ago. Usually, I just maintain my weight and don't lose weight but this time, the numbers are going in the right direction! So far, 6.5 pounds down! Woohoo! <BR> <BR> I have an appointment in 1 month. I told the doctor I would try to lose 4 lbs per month. He wanted to to aim for 10 lbs per month and I told him he was insane! With the endocrine issues, I lose weight at a slower pace and at is okay but there is no way I'm setting unrealist... Sat, 23 Jul 2016 09:26:27 EST Don't you dare not try http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6204707 Making changes can be discouraging at times. It can be difficult seeing other people lose 20 pounds in a month while you lost a whopping 4! I hate that weight loss is an incredibly slow process for me. Having a thyroid problem and getting tired easily means I have to work a bit harder and think about things more, meaning being conscious of what goes in my body and what I have to walk away from. I'm not saying other people don't have to do that but they do have a bit more wiggle room. That's o... Fri, 22 Jul 2016 06:31:00 EST I don't miss them http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6203533 There are people in life who will bring you down. You can do 5 million kind things for them but they will only notice what you don't do right. You can be there for them in the middle of a struggle but they will run away from yours. At first, it is upsetting and you will experience strong feelings of anger and sadness. It lingers for a while but then something happens. You wake up one day feeling lighter and happier. That is the weight of being treated poorly falling off of your shoulders! <... Wed, 20 Jul 2016 04:07:11 EST healthy habits http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6201811 1. Drinking water in the morning and right before bed. It's very refreshing and relaxing. Grab a glass, fill it with ice and pour! :) <BR> <BR> 2. Staying away from or reducing other drinks like soda and caffeine. Oh, I still drink tea and cappuccino but not all of the time. Plus, if you have to have coffee or cappuccino, buy it from the store and make it at home. Avoid chains where they add tons of sugar, whipped cream, etc. <BR> <BR> 3. Eating a banana in the morning. This helps me stay... Sun, 17 Jul 2016 05:06:00 EST Emotions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6201436 What is your least favorite emotion? <BR> <BR> Mine is loneliness. I have never really fit in. There are 2 groups who I understand. They are: <BR> <BR> 1. Animals. Animals are awesome and if people were like animals, the world would be awesome. They do not care about appearance, race, religion, etc. All they care about is being loved, fed, and treated well. :) <BR> <BR> 2. Elderly people. I guess I am an old soul at heart. <BR> <BR> A crazy Saturday night for most people my age is go... Sat, 16 Jul 2016 11:11:19 EST Your budget is NOT their budget. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6201298 I see this all the time. A lot of people venting that they want to eat healthier but they are highly concerned about the costs. Then there are those people who say they could afford it if they "wanted to." <BR> <BR> I find it kind of disgusting to be honest. If someone feels they don't make much but they find a way, that is awesome but they never think that there are people who could make significantly less than them. Or they tell people to save but after some people pay rent/mortgage and b... Sat, 16 Jul 2016 06:24:27 EST My 2 rescues http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6198890 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/526ddd07-d361-4011-8a28-d7e7134f0dd7.jpeg"> <BR> <BR> They are both rescue dogs. Tinkerbell (left) Kola(right). <BR> <BR> Tinkerbell needs to lose 2 lbs. She does not like being told so. Haha. She likes to spend time with someone and then retreat to her "room" under someone's bed. She loves to be outside and soak up the sun. She is definitely an independent lady. <BR> <BR> Kola loves being outside and exploring as well as playing with toys... Mon, 11 Jul 2016 20:50:28 EST Everything, just everything http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6198454 Exhausted is the word for this week. <BR> <BR> A lot has been happening and a lot took place in this week alone. <BR> <BR> A "friend" started saying mean stuff to me and then had the nerve to say I was starting stuff. That was a few days before my sister's surgery. <BR> <BR> My sister had her surgery. She was incredibly nervous and we had to keep reminding her that the surgeons do this all of the time and that complications are rare, etc. My dad was able to get the day off so he could go... Mon, 11 Jul 2016 06:22:07 EST Bye Bye boyfriend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6197864 I broke up with my boyfriend because we would make plans and he wouldn't follow through. Well, he would go minus me. I deserve fabulous. My weight is never going to make me feel like I have to settle for less. I don't and neither do you. Actually, there is not a single reason you have to settle for less. <BR> <BR> I see people put up with craziness because they want to be married so badly or they fear ending up alone. Personally, if marriage was never in the picture, I am okay with that. Mo... Sun, 10 Jul 2016 04:21:25 EST Surgery is over! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6197344 My sister had her surgery. It went well. Thanks to everyone who sent positive comments, sent well wishes, etc. The operation only lasted for 30 minutes then it was time to go to recovery. My sister was able to come home after a couple of hours in recovery, She said all of the doctors and nurses were nice. :) <BR> <BR> She has declared that she is never getting another operation again. I hope that is true. :) <BR> <BR> <BR> Stay healthy! :) <BR> Sat, 9 Jul 2016 05:25:02 EST Fat skinny person.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6193825 A "Fat" skinny person is someone who has bad eating (and possibly bad exercising) habits and should weigh much more than they do. <BR> <BR> They eat greasy stuff and never gain a pound while you are trying to make healthy choices and trying your best not to kick the scale across the room. <BR> <BR> We all know at least one "Fat" skinny person. <BR> <BR> They aren't necessarily healthy but they look it. They can go to a restaurant and not get one dirty look (except for the one you give th... Sat, 2 Jul 2016 22:01:25 EST sister's surgery. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6191353 My sister is going to get her surgery dare sometime this week. She is soooo nervous. I keep telling her that it is a routine surgery and not to worry but she has had surgery before that was routine and it did not go well at all. The surgeon said it was his fault. He waited 9 hours to take out her appendix because he was allowing studen doctors to "learn" and there were 8 or 9 of them. Her appendix ruptured while she was in surgery and they had to drain the toxins out. Later on, she was releas... Tue, 28 Jun 2016 19:29:40 EST My mirror must have a medical degree too...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6190698 We all know extra weight has bad implications. Still, even if I engage in healthy habits all month, I won't be magically thin. So while we are working on our health, what if something goes wrong? What if we get a mysterious medical issue and need help? <BR> <BR> The sad reality is that if we are fat, that help may never come. Doctors are so blIndeed my our fat, that they can't see or think of anything else and sadly, they think they don't have to. Isn't it sad they they feel that they don't... Mon, 27 Jun 2016 16:34:50 EST Firing my doctor(s) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6189524 My thyroid tests came back "normal." The doctor said they were "perfect." <BR> <BR> I'm still not feeling well. The Physician's assistant just lectured me about my weight and calories because when doctors and medical professionals can't find anything, that is their scapegoat. I am not saying having extra weight doesn't cause issues. I am saying it is not the cause of every issue. It's not even just overweight people. Sometimes, they will tell people they are too thin. <BR> <BR> I feel lik... Sat, 25 Jun 2016 18:15:05 EST Dear heart http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6187808 Dear heart, <BR> I have not been a good friend to you and I'm sorry. You deserve so much better. <BR> You work hard, pumping every day and I have complicated your job. All of the stress I put on you and then losing motivation to engage in healthy habits has been rough on you. Heart, I don't want you to get sick. It's important to me that you are healthy. <BR> <BR> Since I don't want you to be sick, I set some goals to help you. You will be very happy with them. You won't have to wor... Wed, 22 Jun 2016 19:18:41 EST Favorite healthy food and favorite unhealthy food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6187444 One of my favorite healthy foods are strawberries. They are sweet without being overbearing and they are delicious! :) <BR> <BR> My least favorite has to be Spinach. Another is beets. Beets are disgusting. That's just one opinion. <BR> <BR> Favorite unhealthy food is chocolate <BR> <BR> Least favorite unhealthy food has to be doughnuts. They are sticky and unappealing. <BR> <BR> <BR> What about you? <BR> <BR> <BR> :) <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Wed, 22 Jun 2016 08:39:33 EST PCOS and Whitney http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6185015 I have PCOS and it is one of the most misunderstood conditions. <BR> <BR> What is it? <BR> First of all, if you don't know, you are lucky and I envy you! :) It's a condition that causes hormonal imbalances and many unfortunate and serious consequences. :( <BR> <BR> Is it rare? <BR> 10% of women suffer from it so it's not as rare as you might think. <BR> <BR> Does weight gain cause it or does PCOS cause weight gain? <BR> Untreated PCOS can cause weight gain. Gaining weight can exacerb... Sat, 18 Jun 2016 06:32:35 EST Faced the scale. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6183787 Faced the scale. The number isn't pretty. I'm not angry at the scale though. <BR> <BR> I have not been particularly active and have not been consuming nutritious mills so it's not rocket science. On top of it, the doctors think my thyroid may be throwing a tantrum so that doesn't help. <BR> <BR> For a while, I didn't care about being healthy. Mostly because I was so worried about a million other things and being anxious doesn't exactly lead to good habits. <BR> <BR> Now, I'm trying to b... Thu, 16 Jun 2016 02:59:10 EST Noise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6183227 Every night, I hear gun shots going off like mad....5, 6, 7 or more times. It's not directly outside of my window but in the surrounding neighborhoods. This city has not been safe for a long time but it's getting worse and worse. If I could move right now, I would without hesitation. <BR> <BR> It doesn't help that when other cities "clean up" their neighborhoods, they are sending the violence here. <BR> <BR> This is not the California you see on TV. <BR> <BR> The shots only used to be ... Wed, 15 Jun 2016 07:41:55 EST The greatest gift you can give yourself is http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6181828 The greatest gift you can give yourself is peace. Peace From self doubt, past failures, imperfections, worries, etc. <BR> <BR> I am an imperfect person and that's okay. I grant myself peace to acknowledge that perfectionism is overrated and it's okay to be imperfect. <BR> <BR> I am anxious sometimes but I grant myself peace to accept the positive and focus on the optimistic situations/evens more than fear and other events. <BR> <BR> I am doubtful sometimes but so is everyone else. I gran... Mon, 13 Jun 2016 06:11:16 EST Weight=inside out stress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6180533 My sister has her consult with the surgeon next week! It has taken 4 months to get here. I don't know when her surgery will be scheduled but hopefully, it won't be too much longer. :) <BR> <BR> It's a good day but I have not felt well lately. My entire body feels sore like someone punched me all over the place and I'm so exhausted. My thyroid levels always come back normal. I have an appointment on Monday so I will address it then. It's NOT the flu. <BR> <BR> I read comments on a poll th... Fri, 10 Jun 2016 21:19:18 EST The new layout http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6176603 I wish they would change it back. Not a fan of this layout. It seems less organized <BR> this way. I loved how my whole entire page was one color. Do you guys like this layout? <BR> Sat, 4 Jun 2016 22:40:38 EST