RICHARJ's SparkPeople Blog RICHARJ's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community WAIT A MINUTE Wait A Minute <BR> Taste & See <BR> <BR> That the one looking back in the mirror <BR> Is You and Is Me <BR> <BR> R we worth it to run this Race <BR> Or is it just the food we Taste <BR> <BR> Does it Matter that we tried and we failed <BR> Or do we just run like the dog does with his tail <BR> <BR> I don't know some times we come and we go <BR> But the scale won't move O don't we know <BR> <BR> Its frustrating, it crazy I been eating right for weeks <BR> But that darn thing won't move tow... Wed, 13 Aug 2014 16:47:20 EST The Buck Stops HERE: For years your teachers told you to settle down and sit still.... YOU CAN STOP NOW! <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> This is one of the SparkPeople funnies that I relate to the most. Isn't that the truth tho? As kids we moved fast and furious, but didn't call it exercise. We were running, jumping, playing and now its like we have a bowling ball attached at the hip. At least for me that is. <BR> <BR> On any given day, I would rather just sit there, and think about exercising, preferring to ... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 11:24:30 EST How Did We Get Here I am not a routine type person....I'm just not and God knows I've tried. For me it was when I just found out what I needed to do (via SparkPeople) and started implementing them S L O W L Y....& hear this, didn't worry about it that I am now 6 months later hearing people say. Are you losing weight? and I go....I don't know <BR> <BR> ...because I have not been jumping on the scale daily or weekly. I have just been coasting along making the appropriate changes constantly and slowly <BR> <BR>... Tue, 10 Sep 2013 10:59:25 EST Just Keep Living There is something about living to fight another day that is so inspiring to me. I guess its because I have been through so many challenges over the last 5 or so years including weight challenges, I feel so free right now as those issues are one by one dissipating. It has been a long time coming and not a moment too soon for me. I feel happy now and I am starting to feel healthy too. I am not what I should be in the healthy eating area but I sure am not what I used to be. I have many fam... Tue, 11 Jun 2013 13:37:17 EST Food Fight <img src=""> <BR> The latest of my contentions is graduation parties. There is so much food it is obscene. As many of you know I live in down south Louisiana and it is crazy the amount of carbs at a party. There is always jambalya and the new thing is crawfish rice too. Shrimp fetuchhnni and potato salad and sweet potato pies out the kazoo. I received some great advice from a fellow sparker to eat before I go to an event and quite fr... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 11:14:43 EST This close to giving up I am the type person, I can motivate others All day Every day, but me....just can't seem to do it consistenly enough to really make a difference for myself. <BR> <BR> Today, on the way to work, I was saying to myself, you know what, I am going to take a break from SP and just regroup on my own cause I .....(you fill in the blank with some foolishness that one might tell oneself before giving up).. <BR> <BR> Then, I don't know, I had a SparkMessage from someone who I had never spoken to or s... Mon, 6 May 2013 11:04:34 EST Do I play with my Food? I just read a blog from one of the Sparkters that I deeply admire and subscribe to her blog on SparkPeople "Nelljones" The blog written today is called Playing with my food and goes on to talk about being a kid and playing with your food and now she still plays with food, in the sense that preparing it and spicing and dicing it is a a form of playing with your food. <BR> <BR> This blog started me wondering about a little more in terms of my playing with my food in terms of how it affects my... Thu, 2 May 2013 11:48:44 EST Louisianans Kickin it with Food or Excuses? <img src="">I have to say being from Louisiana and moving away and returning has been my greatest weight loss challenge. When I moved away, I missed the food soooo much and now that I am back and 80 lbs heavier, I feel like I am making up for lost time with some of the greatest loves of all. Gumbo, redbeans & rice, Jambalaya, How bout Pastalya. (which wasn't around when I left but boy do I love it), where was I Fried Catfish, and ooooh ... Mon, 22 Apr 2013 11:21:33 EST What a Beautiful Day I am feeling so good today. I just think that God is shining all around us every single day and we don't even realize it or take the time to smell the roses. How bout looking around you today and being thankful for the little things...being alive for one, the car you drive, (or your bus route) your mind, your body (big or small), your journey to health, your family, your friends, your good days and your bad for they make you appreciate the good ones, at least they do for me. You've all he... Wed, 3 Apr 2013 09:53:34 EST I am my Own Star Playa - Finally Its been since September 2010 that I joined SparkPeople and Today is the first day that I have had the Courage to put a picture up of myself. Is it because I reached a momentous Goal? - No. Is it because I am happy and centered now?...YES. I owe it all to SparkPeople and I am on a journey with Oprah and Depak where we are on a 21 day Meditation together (this is day 11) which I feel has helped to give me the shift in thinking on self focus that nothing else has. I felt it important to docum... Thu, 21 Mar 2013 11:29:51 EST Even if I wanted to I can't Recently I had a conversation with a coworker who is thin and she told me to not worry about losing weight so much...just be happy with yourself. My response was even if I wanted to do that I wouldn't be able to cause you can't turn on the tv or the radio or seeing a chonic dieter at the office always puting pressure on us to lose weight....The pressure is on...whether its a gym member ship, an exercise show or a yogurt commercia or even a moviel...the pressure is there to always be somethin... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 14:48:26 EST Better Attitude Today Its February: <BR> <BR> I am here to report that I have a better attitude regarding my personal weight loss fight. I have decided that today is the 1st day of a new month and is also the first day of the rest of my life. What brought on this new attitude you might ask? It has something to do with the fact that my best friend lost her niece yesterday. This young woman, who is 12 years my junior and whom I have known all of her life has coincidently been overweight all of her life. <... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 08:51:22 EST Dialing up High Stress My 2 daughters cars broke first, one 2 weeks ago the other on Wednesday of last week...As I was going to pick up the 1st daughters car (who lives and goes to school out of town) , my car suddenly wouldn't let me give it gas...thank God for triple A...which by the way expired on the 26th of January. I rented a car - which was not a pleasant experience when all they had was a full size van...u probably can imagine the debacle that was when I drive a Malibu... <BR> <BR> did I mention that wi... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 14:30:33 EST Its been a while I almost hate to write a blog....It just seems as if its just empty words. Me lying to me...I always start off gung ho...I am gonna do this and I am gonna do that...just to retreat back into my same ol same ol.... <BR> <BR> It just can't be that hard....after all I am a believer that I can do ALL things thru Christ who strengthens me...and yet when it is time to put my food where my mouth is....I do ok for a day...a week....a month....well a week... <BR> <BR> It's like James Brown's song s... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 10:26:10 EST I Just Wanna Stay Faithful I have been blessed so much over the last month. For 10 years, I have been struggling with my weight on a whole new level since my thyroid surgery. I am one of those people who believes that God can do anything. So for those 10 years, I have believed that God was gonna one day make a way for me to become me again and lose all this weight. A few months ago, a girl asked me you still walking? What she meant was and I caught it was, goodness gracious you must have given up...At l... Tue, 31 Jul 2012 10:27:48 EST Spark On I am so thrilled to report for the 1st time in a long time. I have actually begin to lose weight. I thought I couldn't lose weight after gaining 80 lbs in one year after my thyroid surgery and being told by my endo that my metabolism is in a coma. <BR> <BR> My new Dr. an, internist gave me the jolt I needed for me to finally start dropping pounds and to date I have lost 14 pounds. First I have a new diagnosis to go with my thyroid issue and that is insulin resistance. When I went in to... Wed, 25 Jul 2012 11:58:27 EST Still in i am still in this fight....and glad that I have the will to try it again. I just want to keep on keepin on..I can't stand the startin and stoppin....Its not ez,but nothing least nothing worth having that is! Thu, 31 May 2012 10:16:19 EST I feel Lately every time I start and stop my healthy living, I feel so embarrassed and feel like such a failure. This is the only thing in my life that has just beaten me down where I feel like I cannot win....but yet I am trying it again and hopefully, prayerfully, willfully, this time I will win. I sure hope so.... Thu, 2 Feb 2012 14:27:56 EST Don't Give Up Don't Give In It has been a while since I have entered a blog entry. Today I felt it was important to write something down. I have been with SparkPeople was a year now and to my surprise, I am still with it. I was too frustrated most of the time to work the program because I was so dang depressed and down and out and all of that because of my thyroid issues. I convinced myself that no matter what I did, I was not going to lose any weight so why bother and then on certain days I would get a spark and tr... Thu, 6 Oct 2011 11:31:57 EST Keeping Motivated Why is staying motivated so hard? One day you are gung hoe and the next you don't have the strength to hardly get out of bed. I wonder about these things because somehow, I let them stand in my way. I wish to be healthy and fine and they say, but I get more frustrated than motivated. I wish I could keep it going and keep it moving and some day I can, but most days I can't or won't. I don't know. I want to be motivated. I want to have it all together, but for some reason I don't and I w... Mon, 25 Jul 2011 14:10:29 EST I quit again....but I'm back Yeah that's right...I got frustrated AGAIN and Quit AGAIN and Feel bad about myself AGAIn.... <BR> <BR> I really have no excuse, except that I got sick and tired of the battle and not seeing the scale move and it seems that I get bigger instead of better, so I haven't done Zumba in 2 months that I supposedly loved, I haven't drank water, I havent' done veggies and I haven't done anything except gain weight...SURPRISE..... <BR> <BR> I have been walking now and then over the last 2 weeks, but... Tue, 14 Jun 2011 10:25:19 EST Zumba Anyone What a crazee dance craze. I love it. I don't go to the club anymore, but I still love to dance and Zumba is the perfect solution. Its a group of people and we are all getting down with the get down and movin and groovin and it is all that. <BR> <BR> This is my first week and I completed my 3rd class last night. My 20 year old daughter even went with me....and loved it. Now to get my 18 year old to go.... <BR> <BR> U don't understand, I have gove from a coach potato last week, who wal... Fri, 1 Apr 2011 09:41:40 EST Feeling Good Today I participated in a daily question of what motivates you. I so enjoyed reading the resp0nses from all the daily sparklers. It was 90 % of the things that motivate me. Good health, a compliment, feeling good, looking good, going to a special event. <BR> <BR> I like feeling good. It is a wonderful thing. I like looking good, it is a precious thing. I like being 160 pounds, it is a pipedream thing. lol <BR> <BR> I don't know if I will EVER be 160 pounds again. I am scared to dre... Mon, 28 Mar 2011 17:24:05 EST Tell Me Tell me things are going to be different this time <BR> Tell me that I am going to really follow my eating plan <BR> Tell me that I am sincere <BR> Tell me that my mouth will do what my mind says and not eat carbs <BR> <BR> I know that it is what I want <BR> Isn't it? <BR> Then why do I constantly sway back and forth <BR> I know what to do <BR> I know the routine <BR> My mouth says the words <BR> My mind thinks the thoughts <BR> but when it comes down to it <BR> Sometimes I get up in the mor... Thu, 24 Mar 2011 11:53:18 EST I Am In It to Win It I have had so much trouble convincing me that I am worth the sacrifice that it takes to limit the things that I love to eat in order to lose weight. I have hypothyroid (which means I have no metabolism, am tired all the time etc), which makes losing weight darn near impossible. However through SparkPeople, I have come across others who are in spite of their Hypothyroidism are losing weight and are happy and living the lives that they want to live. How dare these people take away my crutch?... Wed, 2 Mar 2011 10:07:26 EST What a Difference A Day Makes I started out the day feeling lousy. about everything....but now I have been sharing with some Sparkers and reading some blogs and I am feeling pretty good right now. <BR> <BR> This battle of the bulge is just that an all out war, but with us all working together lifting each other up and motivating and sharing we have a chance to win. We must continue to fight no matter what. We can never give up and we must constantly help others even when we ourselves are down. It may be that pull th... Tue, 1 Mar 2011 15:50:33 EST This is IT A Good Day, no A Great day. since I have had 2 cars with engine problems since Thanksgiving. One came out of the shop last week and is running great. the other I sold and am buying another car tomorrow. I look forward to the future with all its turns and curves and highs and lows. I have some choices to make and I can and I will do what is right for me finally. <BR> <BR> In fact I look forward to it...Keep on Keeping on because this is it, the beginning of our journey. Make it count.... Thu, 10 Feb 2011 14:18:02 EST EverLasting Arms As a youngster in the baptist church in Hillaryville, LA, our junior choir used to sing this song. Leaning on his everlasting arms. I have a 18 year old and a 20 year old. My 20 year old goes to school and my eighteen year old stopped after high school. I am having trouble wrapping my arms around the fact that my 20 year old won't let go of the money train, or should I say chocho. She comes up with all of these absorbedent bills and I am supposed to cover them, no problem. We get one fi... Tue, 1 Feb 2011 09:17:20 EST Prayer! Fasting! Angels? Has the last few days, no weeks, no months been taxing. I have had so many financial issues come up it ain't even funny. Getting my daughter enrolled in another school closer to home and the "official" transcript not arriving in a timely manner means that I have to pull $1250 out of my blankety blank blank by Monday. The fact that I only went back to work in Oct 2010 after being laid off for 15 months, so if you will do the math, this means I am struggling to play catch up, much less have ... Thu, 20 Jan 2011 09:32:58 EST Totally New I am fifty years old now and have been thru a lot as many of you have. I am here to tell the story though and if I can help someone else, that is what I am willing to do. I feel a newness coming over me, a new dawning of the day. I feel great but I don't look great, but I know that is coming too. I am happy today and will make the best of this time. No things aren't all going my way, but I feel a turn around occuring in the spirit. I know God has my back and I am satisfied with that. S... Thu, 13 Jan 2011 12:06:41 EST sappy I really started out today as a good day and then I got mad, for something stupid. My weight is bothering me since my relatives are here and I feel ashamed. I can't take that out on somebody else for real. I am happy till they come cause I know how they talk about people and I feel self conscious, especially today because somebody else bought candy and oh my God.... Enough is Enough. I feel ok now, I need to get some anti freeze before I hit the road, so that is a challenge unless I go n... Mon, 20 Dec 2010 16:29:34 EST Today Today is here. WOW. With it I have 2 cars with engine problems and the "good car" the shift is sticking and here I am just starting to work after being laid off for 15 months. At least my youngest daughter has a job where she makes about $250 every 2 weeks. that helps, my college student doesn't seem to get that she needs to bring something to the table as well because her car will cost $1500.00 to fix, my youngest car will probably cost around $500.00 "the good car" and o my truck, well ... Wed, 15 Dec 2010 09:35:36 EST Thanksgiving Its Thanksgiving Time and the holiday spirit is in the air. That food spirit. I talked to one of my good friends this weekend and she is on the glutin free diet. She has lost 16 pounds and she says it costs her $1000 a month for the food just for her. That is not doable. I have made a major attitude adjustment though since I joined the Spark in September this year. I have decided new theme is: DON'T LET WHAT YOU CAN'T DO STOP YOU FROM DOING WHAT YOU CAN DO. I am so motivated since I f... Mon, 22 Nov 2010 12:43:03 EST Its Good but it Ain't Great I don't know what is wrong with me. I do not do nothing. I don't exercise, I don't eat right, but I cry about it well though. I love FourLocos. I say I am willing to change, until it is time to change, then, I don't do it. Just like when I started Spark People, I was down with the program. I even told about 6 or 7 people about it. Life is good right now and usually when life is good, I can follow my diet and do everything I am suppose to do because I am happy. I am happy. I swear I a... Wed, 27 Oct 2010 16:29:36 EST Blog Blog Blog Blog today I am frustrated, I had a cheat day on friday, but since then, I am still cheating. I bought a whole big bag of peanut M & M's when the craving hit for chocolate and in 2 days, they are gone with 1600 calories to show for it. allin the same day when I went to the store and bought bananas and grapes for the sweet tooth along with kettle corn. I hate this. this is a bad day. I have lost only 2 lbs since Sep 16. Can't really say I was serious in the beginning, kinda of just enjoyed th... Tue, 12 Oct 2010 12:58:27 EST Its Here I am feeling pretty good about myself lately. I don't think I've lost any weight to speak of, but my attitude has changed, and when my attitude changes my weight normally does too. I am finally about me a little bit and not feeling guilty about it. My life has taken a turn where I feel I am about to start working to really have a career again. After not working for a year, it really throws you off target. I finally got my MBA after a long hard fight. I got Arri graduated and the job is ... Fri, 8 Oct 2010 10:07:06 EST What a Difference a day makes 4 real. 2 days ago, I was frantic, I was upset, I was hopeless almost. Now today, I have set what I feel are attainable goals and I really want to assist in my own sucess. Who is is gonna do it, if not me>? I feel pretty good today and I know that I have the strength to carry this through. even though I just ate 3 stuffed bell peppers for lunch and snack today. whoops Thu, 30 Sep 2010 16:36:37 EST Today is the first day of the rest of my Life I gotta be honest. This is one of those days when I would rather put my head back under the covers. My daughter's car is broken again and she is 4 hours away. Its a long story. I am trying to refocus on me and I find myself doing everything but. Because of that, I feel like I can't get a hold on my weight. I was at the barber beauty salon on Saturday and the conversation was that I used to be a bombshell back in the day. My stylist commented, "that's what they say". I felt like they w... Tue, 28 Sep 2010 11:32:22 EST