RHEASWEIGH's SparkPeople Blog

A bump in the road

Thu, 10 May 2012 11:36:35 EST

I have come to a bump in the road. It arrived sooner than I expected. I knew that changing my lifestyle would not come without its challenges and that I would have to learn how to navigate them, unfortunately I was not prepared for it. I have been derailed and am struggling to get the train back on its tracks. I’m eating mostly healthy—though I could do with out the bowl of oil-popped cheese popcorn at night—and have yet to jump back into my workouts.

Spiritually, whenever I feel o...

Happy May Day

Tue, 1 May 2012 15:30:18 EST

REVIEW:
I met my goals from last month! I tracked Monday-Friday and I worked out at least 3 days a week. I will be going out Friday morning to by a new dress before I head to Pennslyvania for the weekend. In the process of tracking my food I started making better choices. It was a nice byproduct.

WEIGHT
I finally hopped on a scale this month. At mid month I had the sudden desire to know what I weighed just so that I had some sort of reference point. It was 5 pounds less ...

It Finally Clicked

Thu, 19 Apr 2012 11:38:54 EST

I have been dieting on and off for 7 years. It hurts to think about really because if I had just stuck to it the first time around… I’m sure that many of us have these kinds of thoughts.

But it’s different this time.

This time I’m not dieting; I’m changing my habits. I don’t even care what the scales shows, because right now it doesn’t matter. All that matter is that I turn my life around and start being healthy.

In doing so I’ve noticed a few differences tha...

I Can Do This

Tue, 10 Apr 2012 11:33:46 EST

I had the most amazing realization today on my way to work: I can do this.

I can live a healthy lifestyle. I can eat and enjoy a diet of fresh produce, lean proteins, whole grains, and healthy fats. I can get up in the mornings for a cardio workout. I can have a happy, healthy, and balanced life.

I can do this and more than that I want to do this.

In the past it was always, “I’ll try my best.” I should have heeded the words of the great Jedi Master, Yoda who s...

Overdue Update

Tue, 27 Mar 2012 15:23:01 EST

I hadn't realized how much time has passed since my last post. Crazy.

BALANCE
I do feel much more balanced now than I did at the end of 2011. My apartment is in order and make sure to keep it that way. My finances are getting in order. Next month is the real test on that. I’m not obsessively focused on losing eight, nor have I given up. I am spending more time doing things I love and wasting less time, though I still have work to do on that front. I haven't been working on m...

Disinterested in food?

Mon, 30 Jan 2012 11:55:10 EST

I don't know what's going on right now, but I find myself disinterested in food right now. I should count my blessings right? I should be thankful for this, but I find myself puzzled by this change. What has brought this on. Even when I am watching what I eat and eating healthy food is usualy the number one thing on my thoughts.

Take Saturday. I slept in because I had gone into the city (NYC) the night before with the college ministry to hand out sleeping bags to the homeless and ...

I have no idea what I weigh...

Tue, 24 Jan 2012 16:48:55 EST

I haven't stepped on a scale in months and frankly I have no intention of doing so any time soon. I think that I get derailed too easliy when the scale does not reflect my efforts or does reflect my lack of effort. Maybe in a few more months. Right now I just want to focus on creating healthy habits. This month the focus is working out. It's been awhile since I had a regular workout routine so I'm starting off slow by doing SparkPeople's Beginner Walking Workout. It starts you our doing a 5 ...

2012

Wed, 4 Jan 2012 16:50:25 EST

My…theme I guess you could say…for 2012 is BALANCE. I want to live a more balanced life spiritually, emotionally, mentally, and physically with God at the center of everything because He is the one that holds everything together. Without Him my life tends to fall apart.

SPIRITUALLY…I need to make time to nourish my spirit whether through prayer, meditation, stillness, reading the Bible, singing songs, etc.

EMOTIONALLY…I need to stop being afraid to let my emotions show. ...

The art of procrastination

Fri, 4 Nov 2011 16:35:40 EST

So I’m doing this little thing called NaNoWriMo (read about it here: www.nanowrimo.org) and the goal is to write a 50,000 word novella or 50,000 towards a novel in 30 days.

Basically it’s a practice in procrastination….I mean discipline. Yeah.

Here’s the thing, while I am an organized person and very fastidious (good word huh?) about scheduling my time I am also a procrastinator. The problem is that I am easily distracted and this is never as apparent as it is in Novembe...

Weigh In

Sat, 29 Oct 2011 10:42:40 EST

Last Weigh in: 244
Current Weight: 242
Lost: -2
Total Lost: -3.5

I'm a day late with my weigh in because I sort of forgot that it was yesterday. I was of work the last two days and it has really thrown my schedule off.

Week in review: Despite the fact that I did lose 2 pounds this week, it wasn't a good week. I didn't exercise at all and I hardly tracked anything that I ate. I think my saving grace was that my eating habits are changing, but they can g...

Weigh in

Fri, 21 Oct 2011 11:34:50 EST

Last Weigh in: 246
Current Weight: 244
Lost: -2
Total Lost: -1.5

I¡¯ll take it. 30

Week in review: I did go over my calorie range twice this week, once being yesterday. I also struggled with getting up early to exercise. Getting out of bed is really hard. I just don¡¯t want to do it. I¡¯m working on that.

I didn¡¯t make any goals for this week which was silly of me. Goals are good. It gives you something to work towards other than th...

Thankful Thurday

Thu, 20 Oct 2011 15:07:49 EST

1 Thessalonians 5:16 NLT “Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus.”

Today has been kind of a crappy day. I’m not in the best of moods, I am so bloated I feel like I’m ten sizes larger than I am, I had to pull out a ton of stitches on this thing I’m cross stitching for my dad for Christmas, I feel like I might burst into tears at any moment, my face is all broken out because it’s that time of the month, and I forgot my make up at h...

Building a Routine

Wed, 19 Oct 2011 11:10:08 EST

I am struggling to build up a routine. Last week I did awesome. I woke up at 6:45 every weekday morning and got a workout in and I entered in everything I ate. This week though I feel like I have no sense of time.

I have only gotten in one workout so far, which isn't too bad considering it is only my third day. I am struggling to get out of bed. Even when I've had enough sleep I just don't want to get ...

Weigh In

Fri, 14 Oct 2011 08:00:50 EST

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I gained. Yes it was only half a pound but I gained. I think I somehow knew this was going to happen. I have been preparing myself for not seeing the results I wanted. Yes I've only been back on track since Monday and I've been working out lots all week. Yes I could be retaining water from all the working out. Yes I know the scale lies. ( www.healthdiscovery.net/articles/sca
le_lies.htm ) I know there are other ways to judge if I'm losing or not. (I r...

Small steps lead to big changes

Tue, 11 Oct 2011 14:56:13 EST

In chapter four of the Binge Eating and Overeating workbook says that “changing the way you eat is a process not a contest.” It’s not about changing as much as you can as fast as you can. It is about making small attainable changes. Once those have become habits you make more small attainable changes. Eventually all those small changes will add up to a complete change in how you are eating.

That’s my problem. I am always so motivated in the beginning of my journey that I try to do ...

Being Proactive

Mon, 10 Oct 2011 08:02:07 EST

Weight loss doesn't happen just by wishing it or willing it into existence. Believe me. I've tried. 20 It helps to be a little proactive.

That is where I am this week. I have taken steps to be more proactive about my weight loss journey. I have planned out my meals for the week and have them already entered into the nutritional tracker. The same with my workouts.

I even got out of bed at 6:30 to workout. Yes it wasn't the 6 a.m. I was aiming for but it was sti...

Being Proactive

Mon, 10 Oct 2011 08:02:07 EST

Perspective

Sun, 9 Oct 2011 14:16:38 EST

You know that I don't every really know how fat I truly am until I look at myself in the mirror. Really look I mean. Thankfully I do not have a full length mirror or I would fall to pieces every morning. I do however have a mirror above my dresser (that came with the apartment) that does show quite a bit. Normally I don't pay it that much attention, which is why so often in the afternoon I look at what I am wearing and wonder how I ever left the apartment wearing it. In my mind I'm not as big...

Forming Habits

Fri, 7 Oct 2011 09:51:14 EST

I've been thinking about the idea of forming habits. There are habits I want to form, which I have mentioned before, and every time that I do one of them I am stregthening the habit to keep doing. The opposite is also true.

Take waking up early to do devotions and exercise. Every time I don't get out of bed at 6:15, every time I hit the snooze button, I'm just stregthening the habit to stay in bed until 7:40. What I need to do is get out of bed at 6:15 to strengthen the habit to ge...

Mindfullness

Wed, 28 Sep 2011 14:06:03 EST

When it comes to eating I need to start using my head to make decisions more than I use my heart. Often I eat because I’m bored or I’m upset or just because I want to. I also need to use my head more when choosing what to eat; most of the time I select foods on the basis of what sounds good or what I feel like eating. More often than not what I feel like eating and what I should be eating are miles apart. I need to be more mindful of my choices.

To be mindful is to be attentive, aw...

Disordered Eating

Sat, 24 Sep 2011 18:44:23 EST

A couple of weeks ago I got The Binge Eating & Overeating Workbook: An Integrated Approach to Overcoming Disordered Eating. I'm only two chapters in, mainly because the first week I left it at my parents house. After reading the first chapter I am definitely one or the other, not exactly sure which one but either way I am a disordered eater. I do not have a normal or healthy relationship with food. According the the book recognizing this is the first step on my road to recovery and healing. I...

Discipline

Fri, 9 Sep 2011 11:37:36 EST

Discipline: Orderly Training or Conduct, Training, Control
Self-Discipline: discipline and training of oneself, usually for improvement

On this journey, discipline is key. Problem is, as much as I am a creature of habit, I don’t have any discipline. I just float through life. Not the best way to live as I am coming to see. I need to be a bit more proactive.

There are several habits that I would like to develop that would be extremely helpful in my on my journey to a...

And Many More

Wed, 7 Sep 2011 11:50:18 EST

It’s been a long time since I updated this blog, but expect it to be busy the next 12 months.

Two days ago I turned 29. It passed calmly and quietly just the way I like it. It isn’t that I was sad about entering the last year of my twenties—in fact I am looking forward to my thirties. My twenties have been full of ups and downs: my parents moved away; I became an emotional and disordered eater; I graduated with an Associates in Applied Science in Business Administration; I moved to...

Ten Pounds

Fri, 5 Nov 2010 10:01:46 EST

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I have officially lost 10 pounds today. It has been five weeks since I started on my fresh weight loss journey, and so far it hasn't been too bad. It isn't consuming my life this time but it has become a part of my life. I am re-learning how to eat correctly. Yes there have been some bumps, some slight over eating, but on the whole I am much better at listening to my body when it tells me that it is hungry and when it has had enough.

It would be awesome if I coul...

Weighing in and other news

Mon, 18 Oct 2010 11:53:53 EST

Sorry for being so quiet the last few days. I didn't lose anything last week, but I didn't gain either.Friday I got involved in a story and I couldn’t stop reading until I finished it because I wanted to find out how it ended. Before I knew it, it was 3 a.m. Saturday I hung out with various friends. Yesterday I was at my parents house most of the day, and then watched Iron Man 2 when I got home. I didn’t read any blogs all weekend, so I have a lot to catch up on.

My eating wasn’t s...

Two Weeks Ago

Thu, 14 Oct 2010 16:07:32 EST

Two weeks ago I decided to start fresh. Though I have been dieting off and on for 5 plus years, I have made no significant headway. My mother started a low-carb diet about a month and a half ago due to becoming pre-diabetic and after many conversations about health I finally decided to starting taking things seriously.

I lost 6 pounds my first week, but I was also sick so that helped a little bit.

In the past I had been on Weight Watchers, but decided that as part of my ...