RHEASWEIGH's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=RHEASWEIGH RHEASWEIGH's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ I'm Back!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5932556 <em>524</em> <BR> <BR> It's been over a year and a half since I've been on spark. Not much has happened since I've been gone. I tried myfitnesspal for a bit but for the most part I struck out on my own. I'm sure you can guess what a rousing success that way. Not even one bit. My bestie recently restarted SparkPeople so I figures why don't I? Sometimes you just need someone on the journey with you. <BR> <BR> <em>193</em> <BR> <BR> I weighed in for the first time in I don't know how... Fri, 22 May 2015 13:11:24 EST Halloween Prep http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5501516 One of my friends is having a Halloween party this year. Originally I was thinking of doing Princess Leia because I’ve always wanted to dress up as her but with the costume and the shoes it’s a bit over my price range. So I’m putting together a costume from my own wardrobe. I have this burgundy lacy sleeveless top that looks sort of Gothic if worn in the right outfit so I’m going to wear it with a black skirt and black boots. With the right makeup and accessories I’ll be the perfect vampire. ... Tue, 1 Oct 2013 14:47:04 EST Clean Eating Challenge Day 7 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5447510 <em>17</em> <BR> Tracking your food not only is a great way to know how many calories you eat but also how you are doing in other areas as well. I have been tracking consistently for about two weeks now and I have realized three things: 1) I don’t eat that many carbs, 2) without a multivitamin I don’t get that much iron, and 3) I need more calcium. <BR> <BR> The calcium bit is tricky. During this past year I had to break up with dairy. You see, while I love it, it doesn’t love me back. I... Wed, 7 Aug 2013 10:43:26 EST Weekend Review http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5446243 I was going to post an update yesterday but it was completely crazy at work and I left my laptop at my parent’s house. <BR> <BR> Weekends are the bane of my healthy living journey. This past weekend was no different It was a clean eating bust. It didn’t happen. There was pizza, bear, and ice cream. I felt it Monday morning too. I was sluggish and bloated. Serves me right. <BR> <BR> I’m not giving up though. The challenge is only lost if I end the month and there is no change. The road to ... Tue, 6 Aug 2013 09:56:00 EST Day One/Two http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5442078 Beginning Weight: 238 <BR> <BR> I forgot to weigh in yesterday so I am using today’s weight as my beginning weight. I will weigh in again at the end of the month. This isn’t a challenge where the goal is to lose weight; it is becoming a healthier eater. I believe that weight loss with be a natural side affect to changing the way I eat. <BR> <BR> Day one did not go well. There was a snickers bar and some brownies. That’s okay. One bad day is not gong to knock me out. It’s a process. It's ab... Fri, 2 Aug 2013 09:50:04 EST August Eating Clean Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5439913 I love summer. From Memorial Day to Labor Day the dress code at work changes from business casual to casual and I get to spend three glorious months wearing jeans, t-shirts, and tennis shoes. Every Memorial Day I pack away my trousers, khakis, skirts, and dresses in the hope that by the end of the summer I will find them too big. <BR> <BR> This is never the case and I am tired of it. Tomorrow I am starting a personal challenge. For the entire month of August I will eat as clean as possible (... Wed, 31 Jul 2013 14:23:07 EST Weekend Review http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5437252 This weekend was horrible nutritionally speaking. I just didn't care. That sums up my weekend. I did nothing but lay around and read most weekend. My moments of laziness were broken up by bouts of fly chasing. (They are seriously invading my apartment.) <BR> <BR> Today I am exhausted. Who knew that doing nothing could be so tiring? It probably doesn't help that I'm not good about taking my vitamins and I haven't been getting enough iron in my diet. Never a good idea for me. <BR> <BR> The ... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 11:16:08 EST If Only, If Only http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5432049 I have been over my calorie goals the past two days. I know what the problem is. I always know what the problem is. Knowing the problem is not the issue. The issue is my apparent ineptitude to do anything about it. <BR> <BR> I went over my calories because I was not mindful or intentional about what or how much I was eating. My plan looked great. It was spot on and healthy but as the day progressed and changes were made the calories went higher and higher. <BR> <BR> If only I paid more at... Wed, 24 Jul 2013 15:34:47 EST Back Once Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5429322 I feel like I am trapped on a hamster wheel—gaining and losing the same few pounds, never getting anywhere. I always start with so much resolution. I become dedicated to this lifestyle of healthy living but it never last long. Something comes along and derails me. <BR> <BR> Why can I not stay dedicated? Where has my resolve gone? Why can I not just pick myself up? Why do I stay down? <BR> <BR> I don’t need more knowledge. I know the shoulds and shouldn’ts. I know what I need to do to get t... Mon, 22 Jul 2013 11:50:04 EST A bump in the road http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4875426 I have come to a bump in the road. It arrived sooner than I expected. I knew that changing my lifestyle would not come without its challenges and that I would have to learn how to navigate them, unfortunately I was not prepared for it. I have been derailed and am struggling to get the train back on its tracks. I’m eating mostly healthy—though I could do with out the bowl of oil-popped cheese popcorn at night—and have yet to jump back into my workouts. <BR> <BR> Spiritually, whenever I feel o... Thu, 10 May 2012 11:36:35 EST Happy May Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4861506 REVIEW: <BR> I met my goals from last month! I tracked Monday-Friday and I worked out at least 3 days a week. I will be going out Friday morning to by a new dress before I head to Pennslyvania for the weekend. In the process of tracking my food I started making better choices. It was a nice byproduct. <BR> <BR> WEIGHT <BR> I finally hopped on a scale this month. At mid month I had the sudden desire to know what I weighed just so that I had some sort of reference point. It was 5 pounds less ... Tue, 1 May 2012 15:30:18 EST It Finally Clicked http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4842477 I have been dieting on and off for 7 years. It hurts to think about really because if I had just stuck to it the first time around… I’m sure that many of us have these kinds of thoughts. <BR> <BR> But it’s different this time. <BR> <BR> This time I’m not dieting; I’m changing my habits. I don’t even care what the scales shows, because right now it doesn’t matter. All that matter is that I turn my life around and start being healthy. <BR> <BR> In doing so I’ve noticed a few differences tha... Thu, 19 Apr 2012 11:38:54 EST I Can Do This http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4828615 I had the most amazing realization today on my way to work: I can do this. <BR> <BR> I can live a healthy lifestyle. I can eat and enjoy a diet of fresh produce, lean proteins, whole grains, and healthy fats. I can get up in the mornings for a cardio workout. I can have a happy, healthy, and balanced life. <BR> <BR> I can do this and more than that I want to do this. <BR> <BR> In the past it was always, “I’ll try my best.” I should have heeded the words of the great Jedi Master, Yoda who s... Tue, 10 Apr 2012 11:33:46 EST Overdue Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4807561 I hadn't realized how much time has passed since my last post. Crazy. <BR> <BR> BALANCE <BR> I do feel much more balanced now than I did at the end of 2011. My apartment is in order and make sure to keep it that way. My finances are getting in order. Next month is the real test on that. I’m not obsessively focused on losing eight, nor have I given up. I am spending more time doing things I love and wasting less time, though I still have work to do on that front. I haven't been working on m... Tue, 27 Mar 2012 15:23:01 EST Disinterested in food? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4712138 I don't know what's going on right now, but I find myself disinterested in food right now. I should count my blessings right? I should be thankful for this, but I find myself puzzled by this change. What has brought this on. Even when I am watching what I eat and eating healthy food is usualy the number one thing on my thoughts. <BR> <BR> Take Saturday. I slept in because I had gone into the city (NYC) the night before with the college ministry to hand out sleeping bags to the homeless and ... Mon, 30 Jan 2012 11:55:10 EST I have no idea what I weigh... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4701595 I haven't stepped on a scale in months and frankly I have no intention of doing so any time soon. I think that I get derailed too easliy when the scale does not reflect my efforts or does reflect my lack of effort. Maybe in a few more months. Right now I just want to focus on creating healthy habits. This month the focus is working out. It's been awhile since I had a regular workout routine so I'm starting off slow by doing SparkPeople's Beginner Walking Workout. It starts you our doing a 5 ... Tue, 24 Jan 2012 16:48:55 EST 2012 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4657490 My…theme I guess you could say…for 2012 is BALANCE. I want to live a more balanced life spiritually, emotionally, mentally, and physically with God at the center of everything because He is the one that holds everything together. Without Him my life tends to fall apart. <BR> <BR> SPIRITUALLY…I need to make time to nourish my spirit whether through prayer, meditation, stillness, reading the Bible, singing songs, etc. <BR> <BR> EMOTIONALLY…I need to stop being afraid to let my emotions show. ... Wed, 4 Jan 2012 16:50:25 EST The art of procrastination http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4568593 So I’m doing this little thing called NaNoWriMo (read about it here: www.nanowrimo.org) and the goal is to write a 50,000 word novella or 50,000 towards a novel in 30 days. <BR> <BR> Basically it’s a practice in procrastination….I mean discipline. Yeah. <BR> <BR> Here’s the thing, while I am an organized person and very fastidious (good word huh?) about scheduling my time I am also a procrastinator. The problem is that I am easily distracted and this is never as apparent as it is in Novembe... Fri, 4 Nov 2011 16:35:40 EST Weigh In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4558492 Last Weigh in: 244 <BR> Current Weight: 242 <BR> Lost: -2 <BR> Total Lost: -3.5 <BR> <BR> I'm a day late with my weigh in because I sort of forgot that it was yesterday. I was of work the last two days and it has really thrown my schedule off. <BR> <BR> Week in review: Despite the fact that I did lose 2 pounds this week, it wasn't a good week. I didn't exercise at all and I hardly tracked anything that I ate. I think my saving grace was that my eating habits are changing, but they can g... Sat, 29 Oct 2011 10:42:40 EST Weigh in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4546404 Last Weigh in: 246 <BR> Current Weight: 244 <BR> Lost: -2 <BR> Total Lost: -1.5 <BR> <BR> I¡¯ll take it. <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> Week in review: I did go over my calorie range twice this week, once being yesterday. I also struggled with getting up early to exercise. Getting out of bed is really hard. I just don¡¯t want to do it. I¡¯m working on that. <BR> <BR> I didn¡¯t make any goals for this week which was silly of me. Goals are good. It gives you something to work towards other than th... Fri, 21 Oct 2011 11:34:50 EST Thankful Thurday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4545133 1 Thessalonians 5:16 NLT “Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus.” <BR> <BR> Today has been kind of a crappy day. I’m not in the best of moods, I am so bloated I feel like I’m ten sizes larger than I am, I had to pull out a ton of stitches on this thing I’m cross stitching for my dad for Christmas, I feel like I might burst into tears at any moment, my face is all broken out because it’s that time of the month, and I forgot my make up at h... Thu, 20 Oct 2011 15:07:49 EST Building a Routine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4543156 I am struggling to build up a routine. Last week I did awesome. I woke up at 6:45 every weekday morning and got a workout in and I entered in everything I ate. This week though I feel like I have no sense of time. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/6/l464543039.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have only gotten in one workout so far, which isn't too bad considering it is only my third day. I am struggling to get out of bed. Even when I've had enough sleep I just don't want to get ... Wed, 19 Oct 2011 11:10:08 EST Weigh In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4534971 <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> I gained. Yes it was only half a pound but I gained. I think I somehow knew this was going to happen. I have been preparing myself for not seeing the results I wanted. Yes I've only been back on track since Monday and I've been working out lots all week. Yes I could be retaining water from all the working out. Yes I know the scale lies. ( <link>www.healthdiscovery.net/articles/sca<BR>le_lies.htm </link> ) I know there are other ways to judge if I'm losing or not. (I r... Fri, 14 Oct 2011 08:00:50 EST Small steps lead to big changes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4530494 In chapter four of the Binge Eating and Overeating workbook says that “changing the way you eat is a process not a contest.” It’s not about changing as much as you can as fast as you can. It is about making small attainable changes. Once those have become habits you make more small attainable changes. Eventually all those small changes will add up to a complete change in how you are eating. <BR> <BR> That’s my problem. I am always so motivated in the beginning of my journey that I try to do ... Tue, 11 Oct 2011 14:56:13 EST Being Proactive http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4527958 Weight loss doesn't happen just by wishing it or willing it into existence. Believe me. I've tried. <em>20</em> It helps to be a little proactive. <BR> <BR> That is where I am this week. I have taken steps to be more proactive about my weight loss journey. I have planned out my meals for the week and have them already entered into the nutritional tracker. The same with my workouts. <BR> <BR> I even got out of bed at 6:30 to workout. Yes it wasn't the 6 a.m. I was aiming for but it was sti... Mon, 10 Oct 2011 08:02:07 EST Being Proactive http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4527957 Weight loss doesn't happen just by wishing it or willing it into existence. Believe me. I've tried. <em>20</em> It helps to be a little proactive. <BR> <BR> That is where I am this week. I have taken steps to be more proactive about my weight loss journey. I have planned out my meals for the week and have them already entered into the nutritional tracker. The same with my workouts. <BR> <BR> I even got out of bed at 6:30 to workout. Yes it wasn't the 6 a.m. I was aiming for but it was sti... Mon, 10 Oct 2011 08:02:07 EST Perspective http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4526882 You know that I don't every really know how fat I truly am until I look at myself in the mirror. Really look I mean. Thankfully I do not have a full length mirror or I would fall to pieces every morning. I do however have a mirror above my dresser (that came with the apartment) that does show quite a bit. Normally I don't pay it that much attention, which is why so often in the afternoon I look at what I am wearing and wonder how I ever left the apartment wearing it. In my mind I'm not as big... Sun, 9 Oct 2011 14:16:38 EST Forming Habits http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4523864 I've been thinking about the idea of forming habits. There are habits I want to form, which I have mentioned before, and every time that I do one of them I am stregthening the habit to keep doing. The opposite is also true. <BR> <BR> Take waking up early to do devotions and exercise. Every time I don't get out of bed at 6:15, every time I hit the snooze button, I'm just stregthening the habit to stay in bed until 7:40. What I need to do is get out of bed at 6:15 to strengthen the habit to ge... Fri, 7 Oct 2011 09:51:14 EST Mindfullness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4508707 When it comes to eating I need to start using my head to make decisions more than I use my heart. Often I eat because I’m bored or I’m upset or just because I want to. I also need to use my head more when choosing what to eat; most of the time I select foods on the basis of what sounds good or what I feel like eating. More often than not what I feel like eating and what I should be eating are miles apart. I need to be more mindful of my choices. <BR> <BR> To be mindful is to be attentive, aw... Wed, 28 Sep 2011 14:06:03 EST Disordered Eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4502034 A couple of weeks ago I got The Binge Eating & Overeating Workbook: An Integrated Approach to Overcoming Disordered Eating. I'm only two chapters in, mainly because the first week I left it at my parents house. After reading the first chapter I am definitely one or the other, not exactly sure which one but either way I am a disordered eater. I do not have a normal or healthy relationship with food. According the the book recognizing this is the first step on my road to recovery and healing. I... Sat, 24 Sep 2011 18:44:23 EST Discipline http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4475418 Discipline: Orderly Training or Conduct, Training, Control <BR> Self-Discipline: discipline and training of oneself, usually for improvement <BR> <BR> On this journey, discipline is key. Problem is, as much as I am a creature of habit, I don’t have any discipline. I just float through life. Not the best way to live as I am coming to see. I need to be a bit more proactive. <BR> <BR> There are several habits that I would like to develop that would be extremely helpful in my on my journey to a... Fri, 9 Sep 2011 11:37:36 EST And Many More http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4471432 It’s been a long time since I updated this blog, but expect it to be busy the next 12 months. <BR> <BR> Two days ago I turned 29. It passed calmly and quietly just the way I like it. It isn’t that I was sad about entering the last year of my twenties—in fact I am looking forward to my thirties. My twenties have been full of ups and downs: my parents moved away; I became an emotional and disordered eater; I graduated with an Associates in Applied Science in Business Administration; I moved to... Wed, 7 Sep 2011 11:50:18 EST Ten Pounds http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3763740 <em>9</em> <BR> I have officially lost 10 pounds today. It has been five weeks since I started on my fresh weight loss journey, and so far it hasn't been too bad. It isn't consuming my life this time but it has become a part of my life. I am re-learning how to eat correctly. Yes there have been some bumps, some slight over eating, but on the whole I am much better at listening to my body when it tells me that it is hungry and when it has had enough. <BR> <BR> It would be awesome if I coul... Fri, 5 Nov 2010 10:01:46 EST Weighing in and other news http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3723151 Sorry for being so quiet the last few days. I didn't lose anything last week, but I didn't gain either.Friday I got involved in a story and I couldn’t stop reading until I finished it because I wanted to find out how it ended. Before I knew it, it was 3 a.m. Saturday I hung out with various friends. Yesterday I was at my parents house most of the day, and then watched Iron Man 2 when I got home. I didn’t read any blogs all weekend, so I have a lot to catch up on. <BR> <BR> My eating wasn’t s... Mon, 18 Oct 2010 11:53:53 EST Two Weeks Ago http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3715501 Two weeks ago I decided to start fresh. Though I have been dieting off and on for 5 plus years, I have made no significant headway. My mother started a low-carb diet about a month and a half ago due to becoming pre-diabetic and after many conversations about health I finally decided to starting taking things seriously. <BR> <BR> I lost 6 pounds my first week, but I was also sick so that helped a little bit. <BR> <BR> In the past I had been on Weight Watchers, but decided that as part of my ... Thu, 14 Oct 2010 16:07:32 EST