REYA-RLYEH's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=REYA%2DRLYEH REYA-RLYEH's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Looking back at a bit of binge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5416862 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1339020069.jpg"> <BR> I've started journaling on Tumblr daily in a private password protected journal - getting me in the habit of writing - daily - in hopes that someday I might be able to actually factually complete one of my goals in life: NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month). It also serves as great documentation that I can turn into my new doctor saying "Oh look - this is what I do - this is what I feel." Today, as I sat down to jou... Wed, 10 Jul 2013 14:48:11 EST I think I'm broken. It's ok. It's the start on a journey to answers. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5413506 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/0/l907175481.jpg"> <BR> (It's so strange that I kinda look like the "poster woman") <BR> <BR> <BR> I guess I'm ok with coming out to SparkPeople because it's a group of people that I really don't know. I have a few people that I know on here but not as many as say FaceBook. I don't even know if I *need* to come out with stuff yet because it's just the beginning. I've come out from some interesting things over the years - I told my parents tha... Sun, 7 Jul 2013 18:47:40 EST Zombies, Run! Sam Yoa-ZA! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4882602 I have a serious crush on a fictional character... <BR> <BR> His name is Sam Yao - a former 4th year engineering student at Uni before the "fall of civilization" and now the Comms Operator at Abel Township. <BR> <BR> Today's mission was one of the most personal - I'd run out of scanner range - but could hear Sam. He was worried that I was dead... or worse - undead. He rambles on for the entire mission about how he considers me a friend and was that ok - shared bits of his life - and had I n... Tue, 15 May 2012 12:54:59 EST I missed the gym... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4882234 Working out - out of the house really is MY time. It's the time that I get my head on right and where I have only one thought... myself. It might sound self-centered but for the last two years - I've barely been alone (the first 9 in my pregnancy - I was NEVER alone and the last 15 with him being out and about). My boy is still at the age where he wants to be WITH me all the time. Mama is going to the bathroom - Why not stand on her feet while she's trying to do so? Mama is cooking dinner - W... Tue, 15 May 2012 09:30:14 EST Where I took a mis-step... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4875130 "Life is short and you are hot..." Billy Shipton *Doctor Who - Blink!* <BR> <BR> At the end of March, I saw this whole "Scale Free April" thing going around. It was to show us as women that we were more than the numbers on the scale, we had meaning, etc. So I signed up - I got out of my usual grove of getting up, weighing, working out, having fab foods during the day, drinking water and getting lots of rest because working out came early. LOL. A friend of mine had been bugging me to stop dai... Thu, 10 May 2012 08:32:13 EST Been a dark two weeks... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4856297 My husband has been out of work since the beginning of January... we've used up our savings and are now at a place that we're borrowing money. Yesterday morning the perfect (and I mean PERFECT) job came across his job-notice thing. So he's applied... we're asking for prayers/energy/etc again. <BR> Me... I'm a wreck. LOL. <BR> I've had two very very very dark weeks where I've done basically nothing. I haven't logged into SparkPeople that entire time and I've eaten what I've wanted, barely exe... Sat, 28 Apr 2012 13:45:43 EST Yep... it's a RANT! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4833350 Happy Friday the 13th - I aim to anger some people off today... I think. (pulls out soap box) Ya know what?!? I'm tired of the petty size-ist, weight-ist bullpucky. I'm kinda glad that we're pretty much over the race poop - or at least on my news feed - but this REALLY ANNOYS ME OFF. I'm especially tired of when its done by people who claim to be tolerance. Sorry folks - putting "COExIST" on the back of your car makes you no more tolerance than putting a fish on your car makes you a Christian... Fri, 13 Apr 2012 11:48:11 EST BACK... And ready to get going! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4829374 I'm exhausted... it's amazing! I'm BACK! Just completed my first mission from ZOMBIES, RUN! 1.76 miles on the street in 38 minutes - with like 20-30% grades! OMG! I feel amazing. My legs hurt - my butt hurts - my back hurts and I'm ready for tomorrow mornings workout at the gym! I've been gone for a week - and back with a vengeance! (bounce, bounce, bounce, bounce) WOOHOO! Tue, 10 Apr 2012 21:18:12 EST Been too long... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4816657 Eeeeps. It seems like way too long since I've written a blog - so here goes. This last week has been great AND it has given me a HUGE place to improve. I drank my dinner last Thursday night - Friday ended up at the gym still a little drunk - Saturday met old college friends of the hubby - and yesterday, dear 'Verse, yesterday... had an absolute mental break and pretty much made poor choices in eating and barely exercised at all. Last night/this morning(?) I woke up with one of the most "amazi... Mon, 2 Apr 2012 11:38:04 EST About a month later... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4804638 I took my first "this is the whole of me" in a sports bra and leggings on the 28th of February with the goal of doing a photo on the 28th of every month... I couldn't wait. The photo looks super similar but I think the change in measurements are really the thing that gets me. <BR> <BR> -14.6 pounds <BR> Waist: -2" <BR> Hips: -4" <BR> Thighs: -1" <BR> Arms: -2.5" <BR> Bust: -5.5" <BR> <BR> I've ridden 273 stationary miles and walked (intentionally) 27.41 <BR> AND I've done all of this at hom... Sun, 25 Mar 2012 21:42:02 EST Tired of tangled headphones? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4799651 <link>www.apple-cores.com/ </link> <BR> I ordered two of these today! They are BRILLIANT! <BR> I had planned on getting a black one but then I thought - Reya! Silly - everything you have is black and your gym bag is black - why not get GREEN or ORANGE so you can see them in there?!? Thu, 22 Mar 2012 11:29:01 EST For money or good thoughts... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4795724 <link>www.gofundme.com/hhdz8 </link> <BR> So - I never thought that I would be at a point in my life where I would be asking for help from friends, neighbors and strangers... I know that I can't do this fitness thing on my own (I tried) - but I'm REALLY going out on a limb and asking for you to financially support me as well. My husband has been out of work since the beginning of January - I can keep us fed, the lights, heat and shelter are provided for us... but there is no way I can fit ... Mon, 19 Mar 2012 21:04:53 EST MAIL TIME! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4795421 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/9/l296342205.jpg"> <BR> WooHoo! I <em>26</em> LOVE <em>26</em> getting mail and today was a FANTASTIC mail day! A friend of mine sent a HUGE package of wonderful and super-great healthy stuff! She also sent me a uber-cute bag that she made - with a little not suggesting that I put in a dollar for every 20 miles that I ride... once I get $100 or so, I should buy myself something smexy! ::girl giggle:: She's awesome! Mon, 19 Mar 2012 17:08:17 EST The Fresh Market http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4793654 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/8/l787386797.jpg"> <BR> 2207 Colonial Ave SW, Roanoke, VA * 540.344.5490 <BR> <link>www.thefreshmarket.com/index.html </link> <BR> <BR> So... after a very disappointing and frustrating day yesterday I was ready to go home, cook dinner and go to bed. I spent hours at my MILs house and was just DONE. Hubby missed our turn home and I was in the mood to say "Just go with it." We had a Red Lobster gift card and I was so hungry and tired I was r... Sun, 18 Mar 2012 17:11:41 EST Short blog: Changing a goal... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4790706 6 weeks ago I set a goal of riding my bike 1 mile EVERYDAY... I thought it was going to be a struggle - with the baby, with the husband out of work, with all the stuff going on with everything... I guess I was wrong. <BR> <BR> I finished out 24 miles yesterday... and rode 12 this morning before 8am. Everyday for the 6 weeks I've done a minimum of 3 miles a day. Sick or not. Feeling it or not... <BR> I've made progress. <BR> <BR> Week 1 (5 days) - 30 miles <BR> Week 2 - 41.33 miles <BR> Wee... Fri, 16 Mar 2012 13:29:47 EST From FaceBook: More firsts... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4788436 Ok. So I might have never EVER EVER jogged for like 10 minutes without stopping - IN MY LIFE… until today. I was able to deal with the HORRIBLE flashback to Elementary School and the Presidents Fitness Award where I was forced to run a mile and was kept on the playground until I did it. I believe it took me close to 3 hours to “run” that mile. I just finished 1.38 miles in 10 minutes. WHAT!?! (and… I can now use my Wii Balance Board without modification) <BR> <BR> It really is interesting to... Thu, 15 Mar 2012 05:05:41 EST My first FaceBook Challenge... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4785023 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/6/l866824701.jpg"> <BR> So... I posted this photo yesterday afternoon and put a cut-off at 5am EST since that is when I had plans to ride... I ended up with 16 likes! <BR> <BR> WooHoo! Just finished 17 miles in 80 minutes! <BR> I'm 8 miles away from my 250 stationary mile goal! <BR> (does a little happy dance) <BR> <BR> Not ashamed to say that I'm proud of myself. LOL. <BR> I want to thank everyone for their support - its hard to believe tha... Tue, 13 Mar 2012 07:50:04 EST Changes... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4783616 One month into this and it seems that I'm actually committed to making this change. I'm ready to turn things back over to the more "real" me... Not hiding behind a different name (MALaCroix) and different email. I'm going to be linking this to my real Facebook and am ready to be honest. <BR> <BR> Hi. My name is Reya. I'm a 31 year old SAHM of a 1 year old son (Nikola - named for Nikola Tesla: WooHoo Mad Science!). Everywhere else in the world I'm known as "SideshowMama" since as a family we... Mon, 12 Mar 2012 11:51:00 EST Proud of dinner tonight... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4779790 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/6/l666430388.jpg"> <BR> That is my 382 calorie - Chicken Sausage Spinach Pasta! <BR> <BR> It hit me today while I was check out at the grocery store... <BR> "M.A. - Why in the world has our grocery bill been so little?!?" <BR> I thought... and thought and then ZWAP! <BR> <BR> 1 pkg of Chicken Sausage $3 <BR> 1 bunch of spinach $1.50 <BR> 1 box of Garden Delight Pasta $1.50 <BR> 1 small block of mozzarella cheese $1 <BR> $7 for 2 meals for the... Fri, 9 Mar 2012 20:55:18 EST After four days of absolute garbage... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4777300 I just finished my 201nd stationary mile on my bike. <BR> Sometimes you need that pick-me up. Thu, 8 Mar 2012 11:33:54 EST Such a shocking announcement - or so it seems.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4774262 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l204594334.jpg"> <BR> None the wiser that the "meat" in his dinner never mooed, clucked or oinked. <BR> <BR> Last week - some time - I posted the question "I wonder what my in-laws would think if we went vegetarian..." on my FaceBook. The reaction I got was interesting. My Mom joked that since Dad is pretty much a carnivore - he might disown me. I've had people show me support, send me awesome recipes, question why I was interested and eve... Tue, 6 Mar 2012 18:28:45 EST December 31, 2009 (Really? 2 years ago?) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4769133 Notes on Stationary Recumbent Cycling... (The beginning) <BR> * For Christmas this year - Elias' Mom - Nancy sent us a great gift... Christmas Monies. I spent part of mine on my girls at work, bought some new clothes and the best present of all... my new recumbent stationary exercise bike! <BR> * Elias put it together for me yesterday and I just had to log some time and distance. <BR> I figured that I would start posting some distances of places that I could have gone if I had actually cycled... Sat, 3 Mar 2012 21:01:08 EST I like visuals... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4766700 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/6/l864590838.jpg"> <BR> <BR> When I first started riding my bike - back before I got pregnant - so it has been a while... I would keep track of how many miles I had "gone" and posted what town, etc I was "visiting" that day. I had set a goal of riding to Alaska by the end of the year... I think I might have gotten out of Missouri (where I was living at the time) but not by much. My Auntie asked me the other day, as a blog reply, where I as "at... Fri, 2 Mar 2012 08:24:35 EST Update: Last couple days... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4766150 The House of LaCoix has been sick... Super sick. <BR> It started with my hubby, then moved to my son and yesterday it magically manifested in EVERYONE at the ExACT same time - so we were all having nasty joint pain, cough, headaches, etc. <BR> <BR> It did give me the opportunity to do something that I hadn't - in the last month that I've been working out/eating better... take a rest day. I did just over my minimum goals and I'm ok with that. I took it easy - ate ok. <BR> <BR> Just found out... Thu, 1 Mar 2012 21:38:00 EST A day of firsts.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4761822 Longest ride distance in one session (10 miles) <BR> Longest ride time in one session (46 minutes). <BR> Ate a 'bad' lunch and couldn't finish it - YUCK. <BR> Took pictures in a sports bra and legging. Tue, 28 Feb 2012 15:19:16 EST LadyTime and choice... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4759940 I took it easy today with a 3 mile ride... will be doing my Biggest Loser Challenge today and walk a bit. I would normally not do anything during my "LadyTime" but then it hit me... What a stupidly pampered woman I am. <BR> <BR> My great-great grandmother came here from Ireland. She worked a huge farm in Iowa. Every day. She was responsible for the animals on the farm - while the guys tended to things like the fields, orchard, processing, etc. She had to all the house stuff, milk cows, milk... Mon, 27 Feb 2012 14:24:05 EST Another motivational idea... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4757421 This time from The Doctor. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/7/l971348409.jpg"> <BR> <BR> So much RUNNING! Sun, 26 Feb 2012 03:18:30 EST Zombieland Rule #1 - Cardio. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4756127 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/7/l279219044.jpg"> <BR> I really hope those Zombies wait a year... at the moment, I'm so Undead Chow. Sat, 25 Feb 2012 07:59:44 EST Short and sweet... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4756106 Woke up feeling like poo. <BR> Rode my bike anyway. <BR> Still feel like poo. <BR> <BR> Did measurements. <BR> Average loss: .75" except hips and calves <BR> Total weight loss in the last 21 days: 8 lbs. <BR> <BR> For the first time, I see myself meeting my goals. <BR> Not bs - not flowery psycho-babble, that I'm oh, so good at. <BR> I will make my goals. Nothing will stop me. <BR> Especially not me. Sat, 25 Feb 2012 07:38:49 EST Productive... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4755269 Rode my bike... 3 miles with higher resistance. <BR> Played Walk It Out... 5000 steps. I'm getting good at that game! <BR> Reworked my workout area in the living room... by hiding the stuff on my bookcase by covering it with curtains. <BR> Solved the problem of having too fat arms for MP3 armbands - Velcro cinch strap works just as well - and for like 3rd of the price. <BR> Drank a TON of water. <BR> Almost completely forgot lunch. LOL. <BR> When presented with temptation at Walmart today - I... Fri, 24 Feb 2012 15:01:30 EST First 100 miles - DONE! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4752812 17 days <BR> 101.00 miles <BR> Average ride: 5.05 miles <BR> Average speed: 5:01 minute mile <BR> Total time: 8:26:26 <BR> Average ride time: 0:25:19 <BR> <BR> Time to click up the resistance. Thu, 23 Feb 2012 08:51:05 EST Day 17... Struggling. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4752671 Would rather die than quit, so close to a HUGE goal. Having hopes that this throat thing that is going on doesn't turn into whatever my hubby had yesterday/has. *growls* <BR> If they won't let me cuss - I'll do it in Firefly. <em>20</em> <BR> Honestly I feel like a jung chi duh go-se dway. <BR> <BR> This doesn't mean that once I'm done with this blog post that I'm not going to walk over to that Ta Ma Duh bike - get on it and ride 6 miles (most likely at a very low pace) and get my first 10... Thu, 23 Feb 2012 07:33:30 EST Running late... LOL (See what I did there? Eh?) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4750876 I forgot to plug my phone in last night so I woke up late but fantastically I wasn't frazzled. Toady is my son's first birthday - so as Mama, I made the executive decision to let everyone sleep late - which is super for Hubby since he seems to be getting a head cold. <BR> <BR> Drank water. Took vitamins. Did intervals - adding a 7th set in the 30/30 work/rest bit in the middle so it stretched it another minute. I added another minute of cool-down and finished up my biking with 4 miles in abo... Wed, 22 Feb 2012 08:36:58 EST Super early morning... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4748913 Went to bed early last night - tossed and turned - was up and down and rambled and rumbled and now I'm up and out of bed before 6am. I need to start sleeping. (sigh) I can't keep on getting only 3-5 hours of sleep a night and pretending that I can function on that throughout the day - especially wanting to go farther and harder on my bike and working out. SO... last night for the first time ever I took melatonin. So far, I have to say that I'm not a fan - I was stupid groggy and I think I wok... Tue, 21 Feb 2012 06:08:38 EST Week 2 over & starting Week 3... RAWR! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4746168 Yesterday: Began intervals for the first time - OMG! Thought I was going to die but it was absolutely amazing once it was over. I was ready to take on the day and ready to go! WOOHOO! Mileage: 3.33 miles in about 16 minutes! <BR> <BR> Today: Worked on a little bit of endurance today. Rode 8.67 miles in 42 minutes! I am super excited to mix things up. Trying to keep the motivation going. Two weeks done and I think that this is the longest I've ever worked out in a stretch - especially with fo... Sun, 19 Feb 2012 13:55:25 EST What the ex had to say... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4743043 This morning I posted this very cool (or so I thought) self-motivational bit to FaceBook (especially since I really didn't want to get up or ride today)... 'I will not slack off... Slacking off is what got me here. Tired or not, sore or not, crabby or not.' <BR> <BR> About three miles into my ride, I get a reply to this post (from my ex-husband): 'carne asada gor me here' <BR> <BR> WHAT?!? REALLY F*&$%R!?! You turned my motivational status into a f'ing JOKE!?! YOU REALLY ARE AN A'HOLE! <BR>... Fri, 17 Feb 2012 09:19:35 EST Hard push... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4741295 Yesterday was the longest and hardest I've worked out... EVAR. I started the day with a 7 mile hard push on my bike - did like 9 million steps on the Wii (Ok, it was only 850 in 10 minutes) - and THEN got back on my bike for another 4 in the afternoon. My musical choices of late have helped to bring my tempo up so I'm spending less time getting the distances I want - sounding more like that steam-train and wanting to die sooner - but I keep going. <BR> <BR> The baby was up early today so tha... Thu, 16 Feb 2012 07:18:49 EST Some really great feedback. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4738904 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/7/l273152067.jpg"> <BR> After just over a week of cycling I took this screen capture and posted it on my FaceBook - I am proud of myself and the progress I've made even in this little amount of time. I've gotten off my ass and done something. <BR> <BR> I was kinda worried since I have a TON of friends who are uber-thin, fantastically gorgeous and super physically fit... here I am posting a shot of my first week working out. Almost immediately ... Tue, 14 Feb 2012 17:48:21 EST One week into this adventure... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4736337 I WANT TO THANK EVERYONE FOR READING AND COMMENTING! <BR> <BR> I'm a week into this and have calmed down a bunch. I figured out this morning that once I got on my bike in the morning few things could stop me... most of them having to do with the guys or cute things in my house. The last thing that I need is a kitten or toddler caught in the peddles - and guys just distract me. LOL. <BR> <BR> My hubby and I talked about where I want to be, etc - some basic goal setting stuff - on the way ov... Mon, 13 Feb 2012 08:40:31 EST Up SUPER EARLY! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4731819 The day has started stupidly early... 7 miles ridden on my bike before 630am. We bought a Wii last night and I kick started my workout with a leg aching experience. LOL. <BR> <BR> This morning I tossed on Netflix and have been enjoying Maynard James Keenan's documentary about his wine making. :) Ok... The baby's hidden the iPod. <BR> <BR> Going to be getting more ink today. STARS! Fri, 10 Feb 2012 06:28:16 EST Added another 7 miles to my fitness log! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4730173 Woohoo! Woke up to a fantastically supportive text message from a friend of mine that pushed me out of bed and onto the bike. My goal was 34 minutes and as far as I could go... hopefully with a gain in mileage since I was adding 2 extra minutes. I got wrapped up in the music and ended up riding for 37 minutes and did another 7 miles! <BR> <BR> Now to shower and start the day! Thu, 9 Feb 2012 08:20:18 EST Pandora is my friend... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4728497 Holy chao. I'm awake. More than that - I'VE WORKED OUT! *gasps* MrMan (hubby) and the baby are both still asleep and I'M READY TO GET GOING AND DOING! I'M ENERGIZED! <BR> <BR> MrMan moved my stationary recumbent cycle back into the living room so I can do a "serious"/workout ride in the morning and spin while we're watching TV at night. <BR> <BR> I rode 30 minutes last night - before bed - that was silly for: 4.7 miles <BR> <BR> This morning I pushed it to 32 minutes but with the focus on... Wed, 8 Feb 2012 08:51:17 EST Kinda freaking out... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4726444 So I just went to the CDC website to do a quick double check on where I should be with my BMI - where I am at the moment and my target zone. <BR> <BR> "For your height, a normal weight range would be from 129 to 174 pounds." <BR> <BR> *blink, blink* Um... that is loosing half of me. Like another whole person. <BR> <BR> *takes a deep breath* Ok. So since my goal isn't based specifically on numbers, 174 shouldn't freak me out - BUT IT DOES. OMG! I don't think I've been 174 since like element... Tue, 7 Feb 2012 04:41:00 EST