REV_6000's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=REV%5F6000 REV_6000's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ YAY!!! more weigth loss :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2465282 I'm not sure why my body has decided to be nice to me haha, maybe its cause I'm being nicer to my body? But I weighed myself this morning again and I'm down another 1.2 pounds! Bringing me to 198.6 pounds!!! and my grand total loss to somewhere around 14 pounds :) <BR> <BR> I'm not complaining but it doesnt make much sense that I've lost 14 pounds in the last month and a half. I dont usually eat breakfast, somedays all I eat is dinner, and I usually end up eating a lot of fudgesicles. I mea... Fri, 9 Oct 2009 09:33:51 EST UPDATE TIME! (and long overdue!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2454725 Okay so i'm not doing so well at keeping my blog or info up to date. I've been extremely busy with school and such. I don't love my classes right now. My english teacher bores me, but im holding a 93% average in it. My math is sitting at a 78% average. Its hard for me. Very hard sometimes. But i'm doing my best. New classes start November 9th, so only a month left of these classes. YAY! <BR> <BR> Now, as for physical activity I would say I am doing quite well. I dont always walk to and from ... Mon, 5 Oct 2009 16:37:03 EST First day of school and such! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2362266 Sooo my night last night ended with a text message walk/jog with a friend of mine from alberta, that was about an hour. then today we got up at 5:30 am and did another hour, then i got ready for school. I was reallly nervous when i got there. But my english class homework is done, I did it at lunch. And now I only have math homework! I even met someone to talk to haha. I really like my math teacher, but Im already having trouble and its the first day so im definately going to have to go to tu... Mon, 31 Aug 2009 18:20:56 EST And Again I'm Back!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2359487 Okay so I ahve not had internet in a verrry long time. However, I am not liviing in Saskatoon, with my uncle and his family, and going to school! I am doing upgrading so I can apply for university next fall. And considering my parents took my car away, I have to walk or bike ride everywhere I want to go, which is both good and bad. <BR> <BR> So for any of you who are still subscribed to my blog, Soooooo Sorry I havent been in touch, it wasnt intentional, just very difficult when I didnt hav... Sun, 30 Aug 2009 21:13:20 EST I DID IT!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1708517 okay so although i REALLLY didnt do anythign active today, i stayed within my calorie ranges!! i went slighty over in the fat department but only by 7 so thats not too bad, and i blaqme the Quesadilla's i ate for dinner to celebrate my dad!!! He is officially eqivilant to a commercial transport mechanic ticket, he only has to write the exam!! we've been waiting for months to see if he got it and he did so we went to celebrate!! Im super excited and proud of him! <BR> <BR> And i did do first ... Fri, 16 Jan 2009 23:43:37 EST 2009 begins http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1666954 And i begin my weight loss goals AGAIN. But hey i havent fully given up yet!!! <BR> <BR> So heres what has been happening. I got fired for telling off the loaderoperator at work for harassing me, and ive been unemployed for abotu a month and a half. I ahve done nothing, beat myself up mentally, and eaten horribly. But seeign as it is the beginnign of a new year, and i start my new job in a week, im finally ready to start AGAIN!!! <BR> <BR> Today was simple,. i went for a 30 minute walk with... Wed, 7 Jan 2009 00:36:24 EST Freeezies!!! my marvelous plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1554247 so in the last hour since i have woken up i have had 2 smokes, bringing my total to 3 smokes in about 13.5 hours. When i went downstairs to find something to much on, as i always do, in my freezer are FREEZIES!! (popsicles that arent on a stick lol) <BR> <BR> Soo considering it is the hand to mouth aspect that i have sooo much difficulty with, Whenever I want a smoke, I am just going to eat a freezie :D they are easy to eat, yummy, dont smell bad liek smokes, and will help kill the hand to m... Fri, 7 Nov 2008 15:33:53 EST todays blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1553667 Well i am skipping exersize today because i am extremely sore and exhausted, maybe later if i wake up intime with some energy to spare. But the good news is i made it 8.5 hours without smoking. the bad news is i blew it! but ive only had one so im gunna sleep and NOT smoke when i wake up!! I CAN DO IT!!! and im wayyy under calories and starving but i need to sleep liek asap so my body will have to deal with it Fri, 7 Nov 2008 09:57:54 EST Persevenance!!! (sp?) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1552393 Well, i did it, day 4 is a success!! I was talking to pumkin (heather) on yahoo this morning, and although i should be sleeping ill head back to bed soon, but i was telling her how tired i was but that i wouldnt go to bed till i worked out or i wouldnt do it, so she told me 40 minute workout today and I did it!!! <BR> <BR> the second i started running the stairs my body was like NO ENERGY!!! but i told it to shut up and keep going im super happy. Eventually ill be back up to an hour of worki... Thu, 6 Nov 2008 12:39:28 EST Exhuastion alert!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1552244 Well my last 3-4 weeks of not sleeping properly have caught up to me. My stress levels are through the roof, therefore ic ant sleep properly, let alone for 8 hours!! sooo im HOPING my workign out ill help. My body officially went into my exhaustion mode last night, you know the one where you are wide awake and then 20 minutes later you are ready to pass out and you feel like your bouncing when you walk, then you feel like you are going to hurl or something?? Ya that was me last night, not a g... Thu, 6 Nov 2008 11:27:24 EST Wahooo!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1550877 I did it, i got off my lazy butt and worked out. 35 minutes today!!! 8 minutes more than yesterday!!! okay so it doesnt sound lieka lot, but it feels really good, even though im all sweaty and gross im super happy!!! I kow it doesnt make up for the chocolate bars i ate but i will just pack a super healthy lunch. no more junk food. no more energy drinks,. <BR> <BR> Im going to try tea, because that seems to be a common factor with ppl i know who ahve lost their weight. Tea, healthy foods a... Wed, 5 Nov 2008 16:30:01 EST grrrrr im mad at me!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1550703 its the 5th now. day 3, i didnt do anythign yesterday except sleep cause my body actually let me!!! today im going to do another workout, at least 30 minutes, and i actually want to make the 30 minutes this time. i am working on my quitting smoking plan. <BR> <BR> But i woke up this mornign all stressed so what did i do, ate 2 chocoloate bars...not one but TWO!!! im trying to figure out how i did this before. i mean i actually did fairly good last time, it was only 3 months but i still did ... Wed, 5 Nov 2008 14:49:04 EST Day 1 of starting over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1547183 So i did about 15 minutes of strength training and 11 minutes of cardio...rough estimate, i kind of intertwined the two. It wasnt a lot, and it was HARD for me but i will get better!!! I will keep pushing till its not so hard and i dotn feel like dying afterward. <BR> <BR> I think for lunch i am going to pack my usual banana, my apple, whatever other fruit i can find, a bunch of veggies and my 2 salmon sandwhichs. That should be healthy enough right?? I mean realistically i only need like ... Mon, 3 Nov 2008 18:25:02 EST OKAY TIME TO START AGAIN!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1547113 so i realized today, im dissapointed in myself. I need to start workign out again, and eating healthier. realistically for the work i do, i dont needs to be eating what im eating. Im eating chocolate and chocolate and ice cream and ice cream and doing nothing!!!! so starting today i am going to get back on track. I am 200 pounds again, not cool. I have workout equipment down stairs i can use but its just sitting there. <BR> <BR> So starting today i am goign to go into strict diciplinary acti... Mon, 3 Nov 2008 17:28:52 EST Ohhhhhhh boy! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1506872 So i went out with Jer last night. We went out to the bar with a couple of my friends and it was GREAT. I spent the night at his palce, and being that I was drunk I dont know when to keep my mouth shut, this time it was a good thing. We are officially dating. Apparently he likes me as much as i like him and we are gunna try this long distance thing. <BR> <BR> He told me i stress too much about things and to just relax, and i am. its kinda nice haha. My sister wasnt too impressed but thats o... Sat, 11 Oct 2008 20:24:37 EST and the personal life side of things. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1499911 Soooooo Im super confused with ym life!!! <BR> <BR> I have no friends in grand cache now, but thats okay i really dont mind. Its overly childish bs that i really dont need to have in my life. <BR> <BR> But as always with me its guys. <BR> <BR> This one is also a J, but this one is Jer. He is the ex fiance of my ex friend. Got that? okay lol. He has 2 kids with her, faith 2 and amy 6 months. They are amazing kids. He is an amzing guy. Anyways I've had a thing for him for 3 years, and appar... Tue, 7 Oct 2008 14:17:15 EST STARTING AGAIN http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1499881 So I went home this weekend, and i realized that because I havent done any real physical excersize for the 3 months ive been in alberta, I havent gained weight, but ionstead im losing muscle and gaining size. Well that just isnt appropriate for all the hard work ive done to get to where I am and I refuse to let myself just stop like i always did and say I dotn have time like I've been doing. <BR> <BR> So I bought some dvds and workout equipment for my home here in alberta, and im going to b... Tue, 7 Oct 2008 14:04:22 EST Too Cocky http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1455851 <BR> Last night I realized how dangerous my job actually can be. Everyone told me its a pretty dangerous job but im stubborn and dotn listen. It was raining so hard last night we had rivers coming down the road of the mountains, and when I went to dump the load of coal I had on, I was on a bad angle and the BOX of my truck flipped. they are designed so that the cab stays on the ground level and the box will flip over. Ill post a pic when I get that far lol, they are on Mikes camera. Anyways ... Fri, 12 Sep 2008 18:46:28 EST Just a Quick one!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1449613 Im sorry to everyone for not being very active. Man am I tired. I worked 12 straight, had 22 hours off switchinf from nights to days and then ahd 3 off and tonight im starting 25 straight, then ill have 2 off again. It will be intense but I can do it!!! <BR> <BR> I havent been excersizing or eating very well this last week. But i am about done with ym partying thing for a while. Gotta start paying off that car now. I want that bike!! Work is GREAT now that we have a new loaderman who doesnt ... Tue, 9 Sep 2008 12:34:27 EST HEY! ITS ME! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1392190 Sooooo I realized something yesterday when I was home sick in bed. I am great!!! I like me just the way I am. I dont need or want a man right now, I like being single and being able to just do what I do, no questions asked. Not having to take care of anyone else, I dont have to worry that my bf might get upset with me going to the bar or on roadtrips or whatever all the time. Its a lot of work haha. Not saying i wouldnt try it with Mike if it came to that but I dont NEED it. I am goig to chec... Sun, 10 Aug 2008 13:40:17 EST Updated!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1387901 So I havent seen Mike in a few days, hes at a different part of the mine right now so I dotn see him at shift change but hats okay. Apparently he wants to come camping with me, chrystal and marissa on sat. Im not gunna tell him no. Unfortunately I dont know where he stands with me and him but whatever happens if it works it works if not ill survive. He has to make sure he has the weekend off though, at least sat night haha. <BR> <BR> Nothing else is new, I'm getting really sick of two co wo... Thu, 7 Aug 2008 23:31:01 EST Did it help?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1383488 SO I decided seeign as I dotn get to see Mike till the weekend at the earliest I would send him a message on facebook. This is what it said: <BR> <BR> "So Chrystal told me today you think Peter and I are together. We arent. We are good friends, and yes I can sleep in the same bed as him, I foudn out today apparently about the only one who sleeps in the same bed as their guy friends when they are single. Its normal in Prince George for me and my friends. Heres the thing though, Peter is like ... Tue, 5 Aug 2008 23:19:56 EST And I somehow screw everythign good up. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1381073 Okay so Peter came to town this weekend and got right hammered with me ad Chrystal, Mike couldnt come cause he is having some issues with his kidneys. Anyways Everythign seemed fine to me, Peter and I have a very different friendship. Neither of us are attracted to each other, We both just wanna be friends, but we will sleep in the same bed and cuddle on the couch and hold hands, hes almost like a girl to me. Just one of those guy friends that remind you of a girl you know? Well anyways back ... Mon, 4 Aug 2008 22:50:39 EST Totally Lost!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1374745 So remember a couple blogs back, there was this guy? Well I decided I wanted to stay single but I cant make up my mind. This Mike guy has me totally floored. But hes different than other guys so im never sure what to say or do and I have never been like this around any guy other than JP. He makes me so nervous when hes around. I was sitting there in the truck last night and we were talking it up about kids and marriage and such. It was different lol. This morning he gets my attention to point... Fri, 1 Aug 2008 17:26:18 EST Finally have time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1364241 So I dont work until tonight so I have time to fuly let everyone know whats up :D I'm sad tis morning because my brother went home this morning. Man I never realized how much I miss him until he showed up. I wish he would come here for work. But he has his life there. <BR> <BR> My life is great, I'm happy all the time. I dont have time to do much except weekend and I'm usually exhausted or working extra shifts when I can. But its totally worth it. I have 2 friends that live here which is go... Mon, 28 Jul 2008 11:29:52 EST MY weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1363052 So there isnt a lot to do here in good ol grand cache its a pretty tiny town so Crystal and I went to Grand Prairie and went to the bar and hung out with ym friend peter. I Have decided its too much work to have a relationship and that I want to focus on me so I'm staying single. My little bro came up here this weekend its awesome having him here. He even went to work with ym dad in the mine halping him today, yes he was allowed haha. Makes me sad that he is leaving tomorrow I didnt realize h... Sun, 27 Jul 2008 21:53:17 EST IM BACK http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1359096 Well life is great here in Grand Cache. I have a couple friends, I LOVE my job, Its amazing. I dont have a lot of time so my exersize has been suffering but im still eating well. According to the scale ive lost 4 pounds in 3 weeks, not bad haha. Went for my final training appointment and had my body composition test, i weighed 203 pounds, 33 pounds overweight and 179 brings me to healthy, so my goal is 175 now. Ive lost 23 pounds of fat and gained 10 in muscle, I also lost 5.5 inches off my b... Fri, 25 Jul 2008 15:27:12 EST My Goodbye (for now) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1309540 Seeign as In 2 days I wont have the internet for a while..31.5 hours from now to be exact, and I am emotional I wanted to write somethign to a few specific Sparkfriends. <BR> <BR> MSTELZER -You are AMAZING beyond words. Nothing I can type can tell you how much you have helped me. You have been there for me through countless breakdowns and I miss JP moments, and my strong and angry moments, basically every emotion I could ever have and never judged me for what I said you just helped me the be... Thu, 3 Jul 2008 04:41:40 EST everything thats bugging me tonight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1307243 1. My friend Kim, I love her and we have been through some amazing things. But she has been makign mad money for like...2 years now? and really wants to go to Vegas for new years. dont get me wrong I would lvoe to go to vegas for New years, but even with all the money I will soon be making, I have other higher priorities, paying off my car and credit cards for one, and saving for my bike. and now she is all upset cause I am not going. Its just not my style to go spend 5 days in vegas and blow... Wed, 2 Jul 2008 03:51:42 EST The last week... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1304689 Wow So i havent even blogged in a week! Thats insane for me. I feel better today. I havent been feelign well for the alst week, so i ahvent been working out, i couldnt eat or drink withotu feelign sick, but today I feel better even when I eat or drink, so i brought my workout clothes to work with me, I'm sure ym trainer isnt happy that i missed todays appointment and havent been to the gym in a week but I plan on doing a really intense workout today followed by a great sleep. then work, work... Tue, 1 Jul 2008 02:15:16 EST I'm not scared anymore http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1289887 It's my Dads Birthday today. He is 46. So I'm still at work basically killing time and I called him to tell him Happy Bday. I'm not scared to go there anymore. I am going to work monday to friday weekends off and im within 6 hours from the three main cities my friends live in. Plus I have my parents and talkign to my Dad this mornign reminded me that no matter where I am in the world I will be okay and I will find a way to succeed...It's what he taught me how to do. <BR> <BR> My mom being t... Tue, 24 Jun 2008 07:51:20 EST Scared of moving! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1287338 Yes im excited, great job, get to be with my parents and it will be awesome... <BR> <BR> But I am scared. What if people dont like me? What if they think I'm wierd and dont belong? I'm not going to know anyone my age there, the only people I will know are my parents. And I lvoe them but im not a very confident person, I'm actually very shy for the most part...I dont like people not liking me. And i hate being the new person and havign attention on me im going to feel sooo awkward!!!! Like ex... Mon, 23 Jun 2008 06:41:25 EST GRRRR http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1286568 Thanks for lsitenign to MSTELZER I have decided to blog about my anger right now. <BR> <BR> My brother in law is a jerk, flat out. I could call him worse names but spark wont let me lol. <BR> <BR> His brothers call during the day all the time, and while I can sleep through a phone no problem, unless its my cell usually, my little brother Trevor cant. He wakes up so when he is on night shift (he rotates 4 on 4 days off 4 on the opposite shift) he gets woken up constantly by the phone and it... Sun, 22 Jun 2008 18:55:24 EST Im getting there! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1286424 I weighed myself today, i know my clothes i wear to the gym weigh 2 pounds...so i am officially 190 pounds!!! Which means ive lost 16 since i started with my trainer, and before my trainer i was like 212-215 pounds depending which scale i asked, the one ive been using said 215 so i guess ill go with that one... <BR> <BR> Which means sicne i started spark ive lost 25 pounds!!! that makes me happy!!! <BR> <BR> Plus i can fit into a pair of jeans ive always had to fight with, that also makes ... Sun, 22 Jun 2008 17:03:06 EST SOOOOOOOOO EXCITED!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1283347 on top of losing another pound this week I got the job!!! I am moving in 2 weeks!!! I start my new job july 5th. I'll miss all my friends and my little bro but thats okay because i cna come home every now and then. 5 on 2 off $20.23 an hour which means i can pay off all my bills and everything and go to vegas if i choose to, pay off ym car and buy my motorcycle next summer <BR> <BR> I wotn have a gym but thats okay ill fidn a way to keep workign out, ill see if my trainer will make a progr... Fri, 20 Jun 2008 17:39:19 EST Good Things Happen to those Who Wait! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1277411 My dad called me today. As some may know they dotn lvie here, they live about 6 hours away. Right beside and surrounded by the Rocky Mountains and some other mountains in one of the most gorgeous towns I've ever been to. <BR> <BR> Dad got me a job there. I have to call the lady tomorrow but if everythign goes as planned I will be up there in 2.5 weeks. I am soo happy. Not only do I get to leave but I get to be with my mom and dad, and I get to end up debt free, and I will be able to go to v... Wed, 18 Jun 2008 01:21:29 EST My today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1275111 So my days a re a bit off haha but thats okay. Went to the gym monday morning for a workout with ym trainer, did an hour and a half of carido roughly. it felt good haha...and i slept like a baby afterwards. <BR> <BR> I did 15 inutes on the treadmill runnign for 8 minutes straight of that :D yay!!! I'm getting better!!! Then i did 5 on the elliptical and remembered I had my music so i went and put it away, stretched out and did 15 minutes at a higher level and intensity on the bike than i usu... Tue, 17 Jun 2008 07:07:51 EST Quitting smoking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1272491 I decided I have one thing I can appreciate about quittign smoking, I dotn have horrible nicotine withdrawls, its simply the habit I need to break, this time and last time I quit i didnt care about the nicotine, i barely noticed the withdrawls, it was the finding somethign else to do with my hands... <BR> <BR> But because I'm bored and I ahve more than enough lip chap on my lips Im writing yet another blog. And i ate, so i know that wotn help, and i drank lotsa water, and I text my friend an... Mon, 16 Jun 2008 06:20:57 EST Smoking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1272378 So I was thinking tonight on ym way to work about why I started smoking...And I figured it out...When I was 17 I had NOTHING in common with my parents as far as I was concerned, my friend gt me started smoking cigars, then I started smoking smokes lol. <BR> <BR> Well I didnt realize it until tonight but when I started smoking I spent more time with my parents, sit at the table have a smoke, watch a movie, have a smoke... <BR> <BR> Now I have things in common with my paarents, so I no long... Mon, 16 Jun 2008 02:04:37 EST Feeling like a failure. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1270743 So i didnt excersize today, even with all intentions of doign it. I got in a fight with my sister, went home, watched a movie and slept alll day. Im exchausted physically and mentally. So realistically that means i need a day off..However i only did 5 days in a row! <BR> <BR> I dont know how people do this 7 days a week. i feel like Im runnign myself into the groudn to do 5 days a week, and maybe thats enough for right now, but im really aiming for 6-7 days a week. I just cant seem to do it!... Sun, 15 Jun 2008 02:16:05 EST Exercize Goals for today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1269333 So I need to pump myself up today as yesterdays workout didnt feel liek it was hard enough after I finished with my trainer, it was hard to do it but I just knew I could do more, instead I went home to bed. <BR> <BR> today Will be different. I will go home, go for a 30 minute rollerblade, then head to the gym, and do an hour cardio workout there 40 minutes on the elliptical, and 20 either on the treadmill or bike, not sure yet. I kind of want to do the stairmaster too so maybe I will do tha... Sat, 14 Jun 2008 05:02:26 EST Starting Over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1269306 So i relaized today when I was tired when I woke up that I'm not doing this the right way anymore. So i logged my food for the first time today, put myself back in stage 1, and am going to start over. <BR> <BR> My eating habits have been bad for the last, just over a week i guess? Not horrible but not good. So I am goign to concentrate on getting that back to the way it should be (it will help now that I have money for groceries lol) and concentrate on quitting smokign and excersizing at lea... Sat, 14 Jun 2008 03:14:56 EST Quitting smoking Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1267336 This Time i will do it, i will not give in to the pressures of smoking. Id liek to be able to breathe again, and not smell bad, and have the extra money, Not age my skin more than I ahve already, not walk into my house of smllyness or car smelling of smoke. <BR> <BR> So it is my first hour of quitting :D And i ate breakfast (im at work haha) and i grabbed a sucker. It tastes gross, but i figure if i relate the taste of this sucker to smoking maybe i wont want one...I know it taste better tha... Fri, 13 Jun 2008 02:15:35 EST Jogging, even though I dont want to! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1265236 So today was a ver lazy day aside from the 10 laps i did aroudn midnight i did absolutely nothign as far as excersizing today. So Now I am going for a jog with ym friend from another town via text message again. Its great haha, dark field, text to amke sure we are both still okay, music, and relaxing darkness...But that doesnt mean I want to do it, ive been fighting with myself for 20 minutes to go to get my mentality to where it needs to be to go cause I know ill feel better afterwards <BR> ... Thu, 12 Jun 2008 03:44:53 EST Im not sure?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1263007 So im sitting here tonight and I realized soemthing, I have done 4 hours of workouts and exercizinf in the last 29 hours...And im spending the day at the lake in the morning and then going to the gym tomorrow night. <BR> <BR> I'm not quite sure when this happened but instead of makign excuses as to why I coudlnt go for a ncie relaxing night time run tonight I left my house at 11:30 pm and went for a jog at the nearby school...Then I attempted to go rollerblading but i forgot the road i rolle... Wed, 11 Jun 2008 04:40:22 EST I'm DONE!!!!!!!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1262959 I watched a chick flick tonight, 27 dresses to be exact, and usually they make me miss JP, but tonight I think I realized its done. I dotn miss him. <BR> <BR> I miss the fun times we had and I'll always have those memories, but its funny not matter how much I loved him and the way he looked at me, the way he smiled and everythign else I loved, I dont miss it. <BR> <BR> Dont get me wrong I miss the happiness, but I dont miss the pain. That feels really good to be gone. I know hell always ... Wed, 11 Jun 2008 01:53:01 EST Vegas for new years? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1260890 How awesome would that be? I just got invited to go to vegas for new years. I would have to get a second job to pay for it...But seriously a week in vegas at my goal weight, shopping, clubs, and a bunch of girls? Holy im like anxious already. I ahve 3 places to apply for second jobs today. Seriously I cant even imagine how great it would be to be down there for new years....Granted id rather be in daytona beach but thats okay vegas would be wicked awesome too!!! <BR> <BR> Ive never left Can... Tue, 10 Jun 2008 08:24:08 EST My today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1260707 Well first I got off work, called my best guy friend to see when he was leaving town, hung out with him for about 4 hours, then watched Resident Evil 4 with ym brother and sister, then went to sleep for about 5 hours then went to the gym for an hour cardio workout. <BR> <BR> Elliptical for 35 minutes including cool down, bike for 10 minutes, treadmill for 15 minutes walking/jogging (i think it was jogging speed was 4.9?) <BR> <BR> then i streathced and came to work... <BR> <BR> Now im work... Tue, 10 Jun 2008 02:49:49 EST I noticed!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1258230 So i went to the bathroom, and turned sideways in the mirror expecting to see what I always see which usually makes me dissapointed but work harder....Tonight I seen somethign different! <BR> <BR> I know I still have a logn way to go but I noticed my weight loss for the first time in a more than just a well i think i lost a little here <BR> <BR> I have lost under my boobs, and from my stomach, and from my legs, im even starting to get a butt!!! like a definable one!!! <BR> <BR> I'm super e... Mon, 9 Jun 2008 01:40:56 EST Dun dun duhn http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1256543 Yes i blog to mcuh for peoples own good, and possibly my own haha. <BR> <BR> I did it, I found ways to excersize at work more than just crunches. I did shuffles for cardio for 3.5 minutes each time across the room, then i did lunges and squats and the other kind of squats where you feet point out, and i did crunches and it feels good...Although i am a bit sweaty now haha.... <BR> <BR> How wierd is it that i excersize for 10 minutes and i feel better...I LOVE happy endorphins...I wonder if i... Sun, 8 Jun 2008 06:52:04 EST