REVANGEL's SparkPeople Blog REVANGEL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Accepting my body I think one of the greatest things that confuses me when it comes to weight loss is how to accept my body and at the same time want to lose weight. If I love the body I'm in, why would I want to change it? I think that was one of my problems before when I stopped losing and started gaining back what I lost. Both times there was an event that maid me get distracted from my goals (like a vacation) and at that time I was pretty happy that I was thinner than before even if it wasn't yet ideal and... Fri, 3 Apr 2009 10:08:21 EST This week was not so good, need help. Once more I'd like to complain about how easy it is for me to stick with the exercising routine, but how hard it is for me to follow my nutrition plan and stick within my calorie range. This week I did very poorly with my calories and went over my range every day but one. Granted, I didn't go over by a whole lot each day and I think I'm still under the calories needed to maintain my weight each day (about 2,400) but this still isn't good at all. <BR> I want to lose my weight by June 1st and ... Fri, 27 Mar 2009 13:26:53 EST Yay! I haven't had much time for an update, but I just want to briefly mention a couple of things. <BR> I weigh myself weekly and this week I hit 158lbs! So not only did I meet my first goal (with a reward of a nail polish and a necklace), I am also a healthy BMI! I was super excited about this and it gave me extra motivation for this week. I was at a standstill for so long, finally I've made tangible progress! <BR> I've also been doing really well with my calories and exercises. My new lunch time... Wed, 18 Mar 2009 13:59:41 EST Progress and not usual As per usual, I always do well in one way but bad in others. I wish for once I could just do everything right! <BR> So this week I was doing pretty well calorie-wise. I managed to stay in range most of the days....until yesterday. My bf's family had a huge super-sized family back of m&m peanuts. He and a friend were doing homework while I was watching tv and they brought the bag down. It was horrible...I think I ate 3 normal sized bags. Whoever invented the huge bag was a terrible person! Nee... Fri, 13 Mar 2009 09:44:41 EST Weekends Still a HUGE problem for me is WEEKENDS! It's so frustrating! I do great during the week when I have some structure to my meals. On the weekends I either stay at my parents house or at my bf's and at both places I don't have regular meals, and there is the temptation of so many foods that I'd never have at my apartment. I also end up going out and eating out a lot too. My brain also switches to the mentality that it's the weekend, so I should be able to relax and enjoy myself. I end up being ... Mon, 2 Mar 2009 12:49:05 EST Sick with the Stomach Flu I was very sick last week with the stomach flue. I missed 2 days of work and was still feeling sick for about 2 more days. Of course this meant no workouts, and no keeping track of nutritional info. I HATE the stomach flue so much! It's painful, it's exhausting and it's so tough to get better because you can't eat or drink anything. <BR> On the plus side, I lost 4 lbs because of it. I am probably more happy than I should be about this. I guess I should just try to keep those 4lbs off and keep... Mon, 23 Feb 2009 12:44:57 EST Thanks EE! I've been feeling a bit down lately about my diet. I'm at a stand-still right now and it's very frustrating and I"m sure most of you guys can relate to it. I've been doing really well with my exercises but not so well on the watching my intake part. I just can't seem to adjust to the free meals I get at work. They're a huge temptation and are screwing my diet up completely. And the temptation at work makes me tend to give in to temptation elsewhere. It's a never-ending cycle. One option is to... Wed, 11 Feb 2009 22:01:51 EST Getting there Things are going pretty good right now. I'm regularly going to the gym. Most of the time I will walk either to work or from work (20min walk one way). I also got new workout videos that I enjoy from my sister. They're called Skinny Bitch and they seriously kick your butt. My legs were sore for 2 days after I did they 20min leg workout the first time. <BR> The main problem I guess is food intake. I'm tracking my calories really well, that's not the problem. The problem is I still don't really... Fri, 6 Feb 2009 12:39:32 EST Terrible Sooo I knew I wasn't going to track my stuff over the holidays...I planned for that. I also planned to keep exercising and still make healthy eating decisions. Did it work? No way....I've gained weight (not sure how much exactly, I'm afraid to look. I think probably 5lbs at least), I've barely exercised, I've been eating all of those stupid chocolate gifts, I've been letting myself go. <em>234</em> I looked at myself in the mirror today and saw how round my face had gotten and it made me rea... Fri, 16 Jan 2009 08:29:43 EST Exams So my exams have been going really well so far. I think I will end up with an 80 average which I am so excited about. It will definitely be my best post-secondary semester yet! The teachers did warn us that the semesters ahead will get harder and harder so I will have to try hard to keep it up. <BR> My good marks are partially attributed to not as much workout time. I feel so much more blah because of it. I really do feel a lot better and have more energy when I work out. I still managed to ... Thu, 11 Dec 2008 19:02:54 EST Doesn't FEEL like I'm making progress... So this week I've done really good when you look at the numbers. I've lost at least a lb so far, stuck to my workout schedule, and have stayed within my range. So it's all good right? Somehow it doesn't feel like it. I've come out on the top of my range a few times and for some reason I'm disappointed.....I talked to my EE team about it and they understand where I'm coming from. It's like the lower on my range, the better I feel about it. I know in my head that anywhere in my range, and even ... Thu, 4 Dec 2008 18:49:11 EST Progress and Encouragement I must say, joining the spark team Emotional Eaters was a great decision on my part. You can tell by looking at my sparkpage just how encouraging they are! The members are their to support and totally get everything I'm going through. I'm not a huge emotional eater but it still is a downfall of mine. I'm also a mindless eater, which is related. I will definitely be able rely on this Spark team! <BR> <BR> So I made a lot of progress this week. Currently I use the gym at my college. I visit my... Sun, 30 Nov 2008 01:32:08 EST Getting Worried I'm worried that I'll slack off just after I started being committed again. I'm ALWAYS thrown off my diet by exams, holidays and vacations.December is going to be a tough month for me because ALL of that is happening! <BR> <BR> <em>17</em> Next week and the week after I have a total of 8 tests/exams/practicals. I will be studying non-stop and will hardly have a chance to go the gym. I know I have to fit in my workouts somehow but at the same time I need to focus on my studies. Plus I find ... Fri, 28 Nov 2008 20:13:34 EST On the road again I was bad and got out of the swing of things and stopped using sparkpeople. I think that was my downfall.....I was doing so well and since I stopped I gained back a lot of weight. I've been seriously dieting but it hasn't been goinig as well as when I used sparkpeople so I think I will be using it again. The sad thing is that I will have to move my counter up 10lbs <em>46</em> . I have a lot of work to do but hopefully I will stick with it this time. What helps is that my bf is now on his ow... Wed, 26 Nov 2008 11:48:14 EST Easter Weekend Just a fairly general update. Lately I've been wanting to snack a lot and the problem is that I've been over at my bf's place a lot. Although I love it there, they generally don't have healthy snacks to munch on. I keep asking my bf to write out a list of food for them to buy especially so he can use it for lunches. He says he will but he never ends up doing it and it's very frustrating. I would buy my own and bring it there but I have little time and little money. I don't know, perhaps I'm b... Wed, 19 Mar 2008 14:17:25 EST False start and complaint I thought things were going well last week but I was delusional. I worked out only twice and made excuses about the rest of the time. Before my vacation, when working out was a habit there wasn't even the question of copping out. I just need to get into the habit again. This week has been loads better. I've gone to the gym every day and I've been watching what I eat again. It's been a lot easier because my bf has been encouraging me in his unconscious ways. He came to the gym once with me (fi... Wed, 12 Mar 2008 11:53:26 EST Getting back into the swing of things Last week was reading week for my college. Mom mom took me to California to see my cousins. I decided while I was there I wouldn't be rude, and would eat the food that they were making me or order something nice from the menu so they felt they were treating me. A whole week of little exercise and great big meals. I know for sure I have gained a couple of lbs but I haven't measured myself yet. I've been a bit scared to. This week I should have been good starting monday....that was my goal. In... Wed, 5 Mar 2008 15:13:55 EST Success and more good news! Finally it feels like I've been making progress. I've made the mistake of weighing myself on different scales and on different surfaces. One scale showed that instead of losing any weight, I gained 3 lbs! Sooo I'm sticking to my roomate's scale, and using it on our hardwood floor, at some point mid-afternoon. It's tricky because I feel weird asking for it and she's rarely home at this time. At any rate, I finally was able to weigh myself today and I lost 5lbs! Which means I get to buy a dvd =... Wed, 6 Feb 2008 14:53:57 EST Difficulties Funny, I totally forgot about finishing that last entry. At any rate, I'm struggling with my diet. I keep craving sweets and junk food and am depressed that I really shouldn't eat it. I need to find a healthy substitute (or at least a low cal one) that will still satisfy my cravings. Also, My emotions have taken their toll lately. I'm depressed about my weight and feel very fat and gross. I think it has something to do with seeing all the perfect bodies at the gym. It makes me wonder why I ca... Wed, 30 Jan 2008 11:48:47 EST Mindset I'm at the stage in fast break where I really need to put myself in the right mindset. At times my mood towards this diet changes from being excited about my progress and about sparkpeople to being depressed that I have to do this. <BR> <BR> will edit later Tue, 22 Jan 2008 11:38:03 EST Calming Down I've calmed down a bit with my obsession to this website but I'm still as dedicated as ever. Yesterday was tough though. My family celebrated my Oma's bday yesterday and really German food is so unhealthy for you. I tried to watch what I ate but I failed a bit when it came to eating of the white buns (I love buns, wayyyyy tooo much) and cookies (my other weakness). It's so bad that I don't want to log in how much I ate or the calories (how do you find out how much cal is in traditional food a... Mon, 21 Jan 2008 19:44:11 EST Obsession I've become obsessed with SparkPeople. It's a healthy obsession, I know. I'm frequently updating and checking out recipes and doing everything I can on this extremely useful website. My fear is that it won't last though. If things go the way most of my obsessions go though, I will visit Spark quite often for a while and then I will just lose interest and stop. I need to make a commitment to this website. So far so good though, not worries yet. I mean, a journal page every day since I joined i... Thu, 17 Jan 2008 20:22:22 EST Speedbumps, written Jan 16th I know I'm not supposed to worry about the ups and downs but wow today sure had both. So I hadn't weighed myself since mid-holidays and I was at my 175lb mark that I recorded as my start weight for my Spark adventure. Today I was so curious as to what I am now that I snuck my roomate's scale out when she wasn't here and weighed myself and I was 165lbs! Success! I was so impressed with myself. My bf insists that I either remember the other weight wrong or I read the scale wrong. Either way it... Thu, 17 Jan 2008 11:10:52 EST The Begining....Not the Hardest Part They say the beginning is always the hardest. Taking that first step is challenging, yes, but I disagree overall when it comes to dieting or healthy lifestyle changes. I found Sparkpeople very easily and since it looked like a great site I joined yesterday. I've been on here quite a bit since then because Spark has quite a lot of interesting resources. So far I've truthfully kept track of my nutrition and exercise and have made hopefully the right choice as to what my goals are. Sounds great ... Wed, 16 Jan 2008 15:34:24 EST