RESCUELADY99's SparkPeople Blog RESCUELADY99's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Blah.... Having a blah day... raining outside, cold dreary just like my mood today. I am feeling tired all the time lately and don't know what going on. <BR> I have also hurt my dang foot. Its at the ball of the foot behind the big toe area and hurts when I walk, but I can move it while sitting fine. I don't think its broken or anything. Maybe pulled something while doing the leg press machine last week. SO that has keep me out of the gym this week as well as limping around and getting asked what hap... Thu, 7 Nov 2013 10:41:27 EST Doctor visit #1 So I had my first 2 week check up today. It was actually only 11 days. I have lost 3 pounds. I guess I did not expect anything but was hoping for more. Strange how your brain plays those tricks on you. <BR> I though I had everything all planned out work outs foods all of it but when I went into to work on the 1st I was told to go home -- furloughed boy that was a stressful week but I did the best I could. Luckily I was called back this week and things are back to a little more normal, other ... Fri, 11 Oct 2013 12:15:42 EST October is the month Okay - here we go. <BR> <BR> I like the idea of a fresh start on the first of the month. I have been back taking my vitamins like I should for a few days. My doctor talked me into getting back on a very low dose of meds that I was taking. SO my journey starts again tomorrow. <BR> I have my work out stuff ready to go - going to stop and get more fruit and veggies and change slowly but surely. Its time heck it way passed time. I weighted in at my doctor and was depressed about that number bu... Mon, 30 Sep 2013 15:58:08 EST Balance I just wanted to say Thank you to all you guys out there who write blobs and share your story's with us. Many are inspiring and help everyone realize that we are not alone in this journey. Sometimes its good to know that someone else messed up this weekend along with you on those days when you feel like giving in its also nice to be able to share when something good happens a milestone or even just completing a healthy day. I am glad I found and came back to Spark.... <BR> With that said.. Ye... Mon, 23 Sep 2013 09:47:22 EST I think maybe I have had enough Enough of being fat... Enough of clothes not fitting right.... enough of feeling less than happy. <BR> <BR> There is a lady at work who has lost 67 pounds. I talked with her today. She looks great. She says that she is always worried about gaining it back and I guess I can understand. Its a heck of a batter to get it off once. Been there done that. <BR> I asked about what she ate and what exercise she did. She gave me some good ideas of things I could do and I want to implement those into ... Wed, 18 Sep 2013 19:19:45 EST Today I feel like I am going down hill. I have went from size 14 to size 16 now and yesterday they felt tight. <BR> I always start off really good for a few days and then just give up. But I know I have to do something and now. <BR> I have a doctor's appointment on the 26th. I am hoping she can help me with some of my issues. I am only 43 and in menopause. These mood swings and not being able to sleep is driving me nuts. Last time the Dr. put me on Efflexor which was great but it made me sick to ... Thu, 12 Sep 2013 12:47:10 EST That feeling you get when you see "THAT PICTURE" OMG I can't believe I am that big or look that way. I guess many of us have that moment when we see a photograph of ourselves and realize how big we have actually gotten. <BR> This just now happened to me. A picture from our company picnic. Holy cow I really really didn't know how big I had let me self get. I don't feel that big most times. This is not happening at good time. I ate very foolishly the last week. We took my daughter to move in at college and I ate and ate bad on top of that no... Mon, 26 Aug 2013 14:46:32 EST Thursday The good and the bad So .... I did really well yesterday by accident really but hey I will take what I can. I ate well and went to the gym then when I got home my daughter wanted to go for our walk. SO we walked two additional miles. <BR> <BR> Today on the other hand is not shaping up that way.... I tried to help my daughter out by borrowing a bit extra in student loans but when I did they took away some of her loan that she was going to get on her own. So by helping I sort of hurt us too and there was no takin... Thu, 8 Aug 2013 09:31:43 EST Tuesday Tuesday has went well At least so far... <BR> <BR> I got to the gym today and since it looked about to rain decided to get on the elliptical. HOLY COW.. I had been walking outside instead of in lately so when I got on that thing it really whipped me. I did a little over two miles in 30 minutes and did some strength training as well. I felt pretty good afterward. <BR> Have been staying on track so far with the calories. It was a good Tuesday. I am hoping I will see a little difference at th... Tue, 6 Aug 2013 16:39:45 EST Monday The weekend went pretty well. I know I ate/drank a bit too much on Saturday but Sunday was good and today is going good so far too. I took Sunday off from the gym/ walk but back to it today 2 mile walk after work. <BR> Having a yummy grilled chicken salad for lunch same as what I had for dinner yesterday. Amazing how many things you can add to plan salad for a difference. <BR> I hope everyone has a great Monday !! Mon, 5 Aug 2013 14:03:04 EST ITS FRIDAY!!! HAPPY FRIDAY to all!! <BR> <BR> Its been a long week and the first week I have stayed on track the whole time. I just need to watch it over the weekend, but usually I get so busy that I don't eat enough so I hope that won't be a problem. <BR> So, I weighed in this morning and lost a couple of pounds. I so wish it was more and the weight would just come off quicker but I know I have been down that road before and it didn't stay off so slow and steady and forever this time around. <BR> I di... Fri, 2 Aug 2013 08:20:28 EST Day two--- good Today has been pretty good, although I think I have early Alzheimer's I showed up for my doctor's appointment today when it was really not until tomorrow. They were really nice about it though and saw me today anyhow, after three hours and two different mammograms and a ultrasound I am normal!! I was pretty worried for a a while but at least its over for the year.. <BR> <BR> Eating I have been doing ok.. I ate a bit too much last night but at least I can pin point why. We had unexpected peop... Wed, 31 Jul 2013 17:07:38 EST Day one ---- Good I did good yesterday. All day until about an hour before bed but even eating 5 cookies I was under my calories. I actually went to the gym yesterday too. First time back in about 2 or so weeks. If I can just keep this momentum up things will hopefully fall into place. <BR> <BR> I am off to the gym again today (my lunch break) we have a gym here in the building, then veggies and humus for lunch. Day two ... so far so good. <BR> <BR> Thank you for the comments- makes me feel like I'm not al... Tue, 30 Jul 2013 10:25:39 EST Here's to new beginnings Today is a new day a new start. <BR> I think/hope I finally have it through my head I can't eat like I did when I was 20. When I went to the doctor the other day he mentioned my weight. I knew I had gained and hated to hear about it again. He told me that it had been long enough and to not use the excuse of quitting smoking. (its been 2 years now) <BR> I also saw that the bigger size that I hated to move up to was getting a little more snug that I liked. Lastly.. while he was doing my norma... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 08:37:47 EST ITS OKAY So I have decided that it is okay to screw up sometimes. This week has been pretty crazy emotionally for me and I have .... ate bad.... Seems I crave junk when life gets like that, but you know what that's okay as long as I can get back to where I need to be in a day or even a couple of days. I can't just keep saying "I'll start again next week" or next month whatever... <BR> Work has been a bit stressful lately and our year end is upcoming so I will be working 7 days a week for that month. ... Wed, 24 Jul 2013 12:46:55 EST BLAH.... So here I am again, The good news is I have lost a few pounds 4 to be exact and that is great don't get me wrong it just seems to take so long. I know that all the weight did not get here over night and it will take time to come off but I guess I am impatient. <BR> Right now I am fighting myself about going down and getting a candy bar. I really really want one. I tried gum.. water... peanuts.. nothing is really satisfying that craving. So if I do go maybe I can choose something that is the ... Tue, 23 Jul 2013 09:53:13 EST Looking Back Looking back at the blogs I see I have been doing this for a long time now. Back and forth loosing and then gaining. <BR> Today was the first day of my new way of life. I am not going all out just changing some things a little at a time that way maybe I will be able to keep it going. <BR> I went to the gym today walked about 2 miles. Its been a while since I went and I can feel the difference. I am going to make this a part of my everyday either here or at home or both. I am not getting any... Mon, 8 Jul 2013 16:34:43 EST Not so well Again I find myself back where I started. Stress family and job has landed me gaining the few pounds I had lost back and eating terrible again. <BR> I keep going back to about 5 years ago and how adkins worked so well for me. I lost 35 pounds felt pretty good but yes it did come back with a few of its friends no less. Has anyone been successful long term on adkins? I am thinking about doing that again out of just desperation. Veggies, meat and cheese I do that pretty well after I get past th... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 14:14:16 EST Frustrated <BR> <BR> I am a bit frustrated today. I had told myself I was not going to get on the scale just go by how my clothes fit and how I felt but what did I do this morning?? Yep I just could'nt resist and I stepped on that thing. I saw nothing no loss at all. I thought even a pound would make me happy but nope it was not to be. <BR> I know I did not gain this weight in one day and it will take time to take off but I have been trying really hard the past two weeks for not ever 1 pound. <BR> ... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 13:50:13 EST Birthday!! Well yesterday was my 43rd birthday. It was ok at least we were off work for MLK day. The girls here at work made me cupcakes and I did have one yummy but I also made it to the gym today. I set that eliptical on 40 minutes and try as I might I can't get 3 miles done. Oh its always close 2.6 or 2.7 but not the 3 that I am aiming for. Maybe someday I will keep trying until then. I also started doing some weights I noticed that if I do teh leg press before the eliptical I can go longer and futhe... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 16:26:47 EST No time So I am bogged down at work, did not have time to go to the gym because I have to take my daughter to the dentist at 3 today.. I have eaten well so far having a bit of trouble getting all that water down but working on it. <BR> Gonna try and do some small weights tonight and a few stairs at least its something right.... <BR> Till tomorrow.. ya'll have a great day Tue, 15 Jan 2013 12:54:00 EST So far so good.... Okay so I have officially started my journey to change my lifestyle today but I am doing good. usually by now i have found some kind of junk food to munch while sitting here at my desk but not anymore. <BR> I ate a pretty good breakfast (apple, hummus an pretzels) and a good lunch a big salad and a skinny cow bar, and have only used up 560 calories so far. I am planning on my cabbage or celery for afternoon snack and a taco salad for dinner. Trying to keep it under the 1200. <BR> I also did... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 13:27:57 EST Today is the 1st day SO my plan was/is to start my new lifestyle eating healther today.... I packed a healthly lunch, health snacks and brought my gym clothes. But as my luck goes I get a call and have to take my mother home from the hospital. She was suposed to go home yesterday (her best friend was going to take here but becuase she was jelous that I take my father to the doctor she decided to wait and have me pick her up). There is way more to that story but for anther time. SO I can't work out and prob. won'... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 10:43:16 EST Not ready?? Seems like I am starting over and over and over... I have figured out that I eat junk when I am angry not bored. If I am bored I will eat healthly snacks but boy if I am pissed I head for the cake, cookies, ice cream you name it. (Today is my first day back at work after being home for 11 days and I love the family but sometimes they drive me nuts) <BR> I did not go to the gym today for two reasons.. one it was packed... and I just was not ready to start again. I think I HAVE to be ready to ... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 15:52:16 EST Bad weekend So I got on the scale this AM and had .... Gained again. I kind of figured I would since I ate terible all weekend. My mom was in the hospital so it was grab whatever and go then we went to get our Christmas tree and with the kids wanting fast food I gave in. Sooooo.. today I got back to the gym and did 30 minutes/2.5 miles on the Eliptical and some weight training. I also ate petter well except for a sliver of birthday cake here at work. SO I am going to try to be good at home tonight and i... Mon, 10 Dec 2012 17:05:23 EST Getting back on track So if I have learned anything lately its one step at a time. So today I took the first step back to what I started long ago. I tracked food and have found that I eat out of bordem alot so for those time I have air popped popcorn or veggies with me. Breakfast is also a downfall if I am at work. So I am taking boiled eggs and a fruit now (any other reciepes ideas would be great:) I went back to the gym today too. Only walking but for 45 minutes at a pretty good pace. So here we go on this jour... Tue, 4 Dec 2012 15:19:00 EST Need to get going again I have been trying to figure out what is going on with me lately.. I can't get back on track. I feel tired a lot lately even though I am getting plenty of sleep. I am feeling a bit sickish but nothing major. I have gained again and I am so tired of it. My clothes are uncomfortable and I feel like a whale sometimes.. I always said that I would do what ever it took if I ever hit 200 well now I am over that and still doing nothing. I feel like I just keep putting it off day after day after day..... Tue, 27 Nov 2012 16:56:58 EST Down again I did so dang well last week. The scale showed a loss of 3.4 pounds. Granted it was prob. mostly water but still was nice to see. This week however, has been total over board. I don;t know what happened. I did not track my food like I should and ate a can of chocolate covered peanuts in two days, not to mention a Litte Debbie Swiss roll and a peice of homemade cake last night. The peanuts were just sitting here on my desk and I could not stop myself. Boy that sounds like Bullcrap does'nt it.... Thu, 15 Nov 2012 12:21:14 EST