RENEEW2010's SparkPeople Blog RENEEW2010's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Grief derailed me for a time, but not for good As I logged on to Spark People for the first time in a very long time I realized that my last status was written the day that my mom passed away. I was 2 weeks into the Spring into Shape boot camp and working very hard at that time on my weight loss. Losing my mom was very sudden and unexpected. Since that time I have really done nothing in the area of eating healthy or exercising. I have pretty much gained back most of what I had lost. It has been almost 4 months since that time and the... Wed, 29 Aug 2012 13:40:45 EST Weight gain is such a let down when you are expecting a loss! I am not very good at this blogging thing, but decided it has been too long. I am feeling a little bummed today. I just got going on Spark again 2 weeks ago. I was really good all week last week, but had a weekend trip planned for my husband and I's anniversary along with another couple. I had decided that I wasn't going to worry about what I ate and drank over the weekend and that I would hit it hard this week to make up for it. I ate at the low end of my calorie range all week, joined ... Fri, 4 May 2012 18:11:13 EST The reality of it for me... Well, I figured it was probably time to do this. As I have sat and read my blogs from last year I can see the progression of complete excitement at the beginning of the year (well, March, since that is when I joined SparkPeople) to when I quit logging in altogether. <BR> <BR> It makes me sad... I truly felt that my life was changed forever when I started this journey. I was learning things I have never learned before about nutrition. I felt better than I had in a very long time. All o... Sat, 8 Jan 2011 12:40:07 EST How do you do the part of this journey called "lifestyle change"? I truly don't know... if I am not hitting this hardcore and logging every single thing I eat, I slowly back peddle until I am living the "old" lifestyle... Albeit, I have definitely changed a few things permanently like eating smaller servings, not using mayo on sandwiches, etc... but if I am not on here hardcore I don't eat the right amount of fruits and veggies, I don't drink enough water and I DO NOT stay in my calorie range. On the scale I have lost and gained the same 3 pounds for the... Mon, 30 Aug 2010 13:22:51 EST How do I stay motivated? I am at that point... I seem to have lost the excitement that I originally had when I started this. I have done this before. It seems like when I begin to make bad choices "getting started" again is sooo hard. I wake up each day to "this is a new day... I can start over". I track at the beginning of the day, I have the best intentions. But I obviously have not made the "lifestyle change" yet, because by the end of the day I have eaten things I didn't want to and not gotten the exercise I... Sat, 10 Jul 2010 13:06:32 EST Nearly lost it, but back on track Wow... things nearly got away from me... I spent the last 3 days eating absolutely anything I wanted to and I didn't work out at all (oh, and I didn't track at all). I was beginning to think I had gone back to my old ways and was feeling very discouraged. But I spent the evening last night reading people's blogs and message board posts and woke up today right back on track again. Making good food choices, tracking, and I went for a 3 mile walk. Whew! This really can be a lifestyle change... Mon, 31 May 2010 20:10:53 EST I want to make it a lifestyle! I realized this morning that I have not blogged since April 28th.... it is time. I have been on this journey since March 1. I am at the point (or past it) when normally I would have been "done" with whatever diet I was doing. By this time I would have slipped back into old eating patterns and been disappointed with myself or I would have lost a little weight and been happy with that and gone back to "normal". What I have learned is that I can make this a daily thing... I can have a bad da... Thu, 27 May 2010 12:38:46 EST I hate those hidden calories!! It makes me so mad when I go out to eat and think I know approximately how many calories are in something, only to find out when I track it that it is much more than I thought. Case in point, I thought choosing honey mustard dressing for my sandwich today was a good choice. Did you know that at Quizno's the honey mustard dressing for a small sandwich has 110 calories in it! Ugh!! Just when you think you're getting the hang of it! Wed, 28 Apr 2010 18:17:01 EST Day 52 So here I am on day 52 of this journey and can definately say it has been an exciting experience. I feel like I have learned so much about health and nutrition. I am so much more knowledgable about what is in different foods. There have been good days and bad days, but I can say all in all I have been really good about staying in my calories each day and working out 3-4 times per week. My hope was to reach a certain weight by the time my husband and I go to Vegas next week to celebrate ou... Wed, 21 Apr 2010 11:14:25 EST I just made an amazing Greek wrap! I love hummus! I decided to buy some even though in the past I have been know to sit down and eat a whole container of it by myself. Well I was trying to decide what to eat it on/with and started going through my fridge. Here's what I put together... I took a frozen turkey burger and poked a couple of holes in the wrapper and stuck it in the microwave for 5 minutes. While that was cooking I took out a carb balance tortilla, spread it with 2 tablespoons of hummus. When the turkey was done... Fri, 9 Apr 2010 16:55:40 EST It is hard to remember daily that this is a lifestyle change... Not a diet! I had some challenges over this past week... out of town company, my birthday, Easter... and there were a few days that I did not eat perfectly. But what I have to remind myself is that I still didn't eat as much as I would have in the past, I still got to the gym 4 times this week, and I tracked everything I ate, including my bad days. Everything I put in my mouth is a choice. Every choice I make will not be perfect, but every perfect choice I make will make a difference. To... Mon, 5 Apr 2010 13:20:45 EST Day 30! Well, I am on my 30th day of this journey! I have to say I am really proud of myself... I have been very consistent and have not even missed one day of tracking ALL of my food and my exercise. Even on the couple of off days I have had I tracked what I ate. Yesterday I went out to eat with out of town company and I had decided to order something low cal and when I got there totally threw caution to the wind and ate over 1000 calories... I can honestly say that I was ok with that and I am no... Tue, 30 Mar 2010 13:34:07 EST Beginning second phase Well, today is the last day of my first phase... last day of week 2. Tomorrow I will weigh in and I have to say I am a little nervous. I did really well all week long, but the weekend not so much. Not that I was bad the whole weekend... just made some not as great choices. And Saturday I totally blew it. I went to a party Saturday night and ate too much and didn't pass on the things I should have. I am not beating myself up about it, though. Today I have eaten light and I made sure to... Sun, 14 Mar 2010 20:05:37 EST First official weigh in after week 1 Well, today was my first weight in. I was a little nervous about it and kept saying "as long as the scale has moved down at all I will be happy." I lost 4.5 pounds my first week! I am soooo excited! That will keep me motivated for sure! So I will continue this journey the way I started it, very thrilled to have found a tool that will help me get back on track. Mon, 8 Mar 2010 13:30:43 EST Week 1 down! Well, I have officially made it throught week 1. Tomorrow I will weigh in for the first time... I am a little nervous and just praying that the scale moved down... I feel really good about my week, I followed my plan to the T. Today was the first day that I struggled with hunger at all. I ate more today than I've eaten all week, but I still stayed within my limits on everything. I did walk 4 miles today. So I guess we will see when I weigh tomorrow. Sun, 7 Mar 2010 22:58:26 EST Day 5 It is Friday and the sun is shining! Can you ask for a better start to a day? My husband is leaving today for two weeks in Florida with work. I will miss him, but it will be easier for me to eat the things I need to, and maybe I will find more time to exercise! Hoping to lose 4 pounds while he is gone! Fri, 5 Mar 2010 13:12:54 EST