REMEMBER2BME's SparkPeople Blog REMEMBER2BME's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community 2 blogs in 1 day :) Tattoo? What do you think? NOTE THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH SPORTS. THIS HAS TO DO WITH MY GOLDENS PASSING. <BR> <BR> 1st where to put it? This might not be bad or maybe around front on my ribs. Thoughts? <BR> <BR> 2nd What? Which do you like or do you have other thoughts? I am not sure about writing. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> ONE <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> TWO <BR> <BR> <... Sun, 21 Sep 2014 10:17:19 EST Sunday and plans for next week <img src=""> <BR> <BR> How am I? <BR> <BR> Pretty darn good. You know my one downfall, weight on my shoulders... my missing Utah. I saw a Great Dane on our walk this morning and noticed that Utah jogged just like him, all clumsy. Adorable. It does not go away. I decided on my walk with Sierra that I should be patient and give it a year. Utah passed March 29th. I was wondering how people get passed loosing a loved one. <BR> ... Sun, 21 Sep 2014 07:49:55 EST YIPPEE!!! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Yes, I received a consulting gig on Friday for Ingersoll Rand. It is however 45 miles away. <BR> <BR> TODAY, I got a different job offer! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It is a contract to hire job at TIAA CREF. <BR> It is better pay. Good pay. <BR> It get me more experience in Banking, which makes it easier for me to find my next position. <BR> ... Mon, 15 Sep 2014 12:35:37 EST I can handle this right? Thoughts? Happy Sunday! <BR> <BR> Tomorrow will likely be a big day for me so I figure I need to blog before I lose my mind or eat a cake or something. <BR> <BR> Sorry this will be a boring blog. <BR> <BR> I realize this is not losing Utah or rocket science or anything. I just have difficulty letting people down. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> HUM? <BR> <BR> I have a consulting gig through RGP, the company I "work" for. I got the t... Sun, 14 Sep 2014 16:39:55 EST Crazy week with mixed emotions - Happy Saturday! So much craziness. I am not sure where to start. I could go on and on forever. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I have a mix of emotions. It has been a crazy week. <BR> <BR> <em>313</em> <em>315</em> I have done very well with walking Sierra & getting on the treadmill. <BR> <em>4</em> Eating is fair. I am eating more fruit and paying attention to my snacking. <BR> <BR> <img src=" Sat, 13 Sep 2014 07:44:57 EST Wednesday <img src=""> <BR> <BR> We can try right?!? It is what it is. <BR> <BR> <em>304</em> to Puppywhispers - You are right. I did 4 miles mostly walking on the treadmill after walking Sierra and I threw in some jogging intervals. <BR> I think it helps. <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> Recap... <BR> - - Still waiting to hear back what seems like a good Wells Fargo opportunity. I will follow up again today before my 2:00 doctor's appointmen... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 10:58:11 EST Hangin in there :) I am doing better today. <BR> <BR> Yesterday ended on a wonderful note, or more accurately on the perfect note. <BR> I received a WONDERFUL reminder. <BR> PMA - Positive Mental Attitude. <BR> <BR> It has helped me today. <BR> <em>313</em> I walked Sierra before breakfast. <BR> <em>315</em> Got on the treadmill for 3 mile walk after breakfast. <BR> <em>48</em> Laundry <BR> <em>313</em> Then... I took Sierra to the "River Walk". I think we both really enjoyed it. <B... Tue, 9 Sep 2014 14:38:43 EST Not quite the update I want to give... Well, I definitely need to blog. <BR> <BR> Last Friday I had 3 "meetings". <BR> - - First was a meeting with a really nice guy I may work with. Bla Bla Bla. <BR> <BR> - - Second ended out just being a phone call, but it ended out going great, at least from my point of view. It was with a person from Mindseekers, a consulting group I met with the other week. Anyway, she is a high level consultant at Wells Fargo and she needs help. She has a team of 4 I think but she needs sometime to ... Mon, 8 Sep 2014 14:08:36 EST Hello Tuesday <img src=""> <BR> <BR> In response to my good friend WINE4Girl... how am I? Good question. <BR> <BR> I am hanging in there. I am trying to remain positive and trying to not think too much. This can be a challenge for me. I am definitely a thinker. <BR> <BR> Saturday - We went to the acreage. We got a bit of work done on the shed but had to stop because out last 2x4 was very warped. It was a good day. <BR> <BR> Sunday - We to... Tue, 2 Sep 2014 11:09:29 EST Friends <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Make it a great weekend! <BR> <BR> Maybe pictures next blog on today's progress :) Sat, 30 Aug 2014 06:10:39 EST Patience and updates <img src=""> <BR> I am being patient. It seems that things on the job from just might be popping. I have met with & spoken to several recruiters this week. Below are potential opportunities. <BR> <BR> 1 - - TIAA CREF - PMO Lead - I think I am most interested in this position. They are submitted my resume today. <BR> <BR> 2 - - Duke Energy - Mgr. Proj. Change Management -- I applied for this position on-line. I don;t even have a co... Thu, 28 Aug 2014 11:32:55 EST The latest and greatest Well the weekend was not as productive as I imagined but it was good with some relaxation mixed in. <BR> <BR> DH and I put together another sign for the acreage. <BR> <em>259</em> It was cookin' Saturday. <BR> <BR> Sunday was much better but my DH's back was really bothering him. He has purchased a trailer thing that attached to the 4-Wheeler. It took a while to put it together but we did it together so that was good. <BR> <BR> Sunday evening I ended up having to take the trail... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 12:13:17 EST A good day :) Today was the good day that I was waiting for. I read on someone blog or somewhere the power of positive thought or actually I think it was a reminder of envisioning the positive. I thought about that today. <BR> <BR> I tried to slow myself down from time to time to think, to make sure I was not forgetting anything. I decided to go to the acreage and pick up the small trailer this morning rather than stick with my normal routine. So after Sierra and my morning walk I got ready and we (... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 16:28:56 EST Hangin on this roller coaster ride <em>304</em> <em>304</em> <em>304</em> <em>304</em> <em>304</em> <em>304</em> <BR> <BR> I have such wonderful Spark friends. I thank you for checking in on me. Yes you, PuppyWhispers and Kekeiko. I truly appreciate it. I was actually feeling alone earlier today and thought to myself, 'you have your spark friends. You are not alone.' <BR> <BR> I am not 100% sure how I am. I continue on this roller coaster ride. <BR> <BR> I should start from the beginning but t... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 12:43:20 EST What NOT to do if you want to lose and updates :) <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <em>40</em> Because your DH is having his usual dose of ice cream... be creative for yourself and heat up some chocolate then add some vanilla ice cream on top. It is great. No worries about developing this new craving. (What was I thinking and right before bed too!) <BR> <BR> My DH is on a crazy schedule and sometimes skips dinner soooo I am thinking... I am not that hungry, just eat a meal bar (180 calori... Fri, 15 Aug 2014 06:43:49 EST How am I? I am hangin' in there. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> NOPE, this does not really apply to me at all but I just saw it and thought it was great. <BR> <BR> Anyway, I am getting better in terms of dealing with the wall I ran into the other day missing my boy Utah. I am home alone now with DH back to work starting yesterday. I used to love when I could just spend time with him. <BR> <BR> ANYWAY... How am I? <BR> <BR> I am slowly... Thu, 14 Aug 2014 15:47:03 EST A bit of a rollercoaster I am starting out in a bit of a funk so I should blog and I should get on the treadmill. I only did 1 mile on the treadmill yesterday, that may be why I did not fully get out of my funk. Who knows. <BR> <BR> So many things going on in my head. <BR> <BR> YESTERDAY <BR> <BR> We went to look at shingles for the shed. Sunday I did some pretty good research on how to move forward with the roof. Sheeting, drip plates, felt, shingles. All sorts of fun stuff. I need to do more research t... Tue, 12 Aug 2014 06:32:49 EST Happy Saturday and updates Well, where to start? <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <em>27</em> It's raining. I was not able to get in my walk with Sierra. I went upstairs to put my hair up and came down and it was already raining. I must say it is kind of a peaceful noise though. Sierra is laying right beside my desk here. She hates thunder. None of that yet. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was a new day. <em>41</em> <BR> <BR> Thursday was good in that I ... Sat, 9 Aug 2014 07:33:17 EST Good and nutral news <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My first mammogram is done. I did not notice the no caffeine recommendation until today so caffeine yesterday. I was in the door and out within 30 minutes. It was a super nice facility and I luckily ran into no issues. I know some have had very significant issues and other have had none. I am grateful that my procedure was uneventful. I should hear back results within 2 weeks. No issues just 46 now and past ... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 10:42:56 EST Updates... kind of Well, where to start? Let's start with the fun stuff. <BR> <BR> Yesterday we got the new spreader loaded onto the tractor but we were missing a tool so the actually spreading of lime had wait until today. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It was quite cool. My DH spread eight 40lb bags I think. <BR> We then shifted gears to the shed. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <em>3... Wed, 6 Aug 2014 16:14:18 EST Updates and Potential Opportunities <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Today may be different than I envisioned. DH mentioned last night that maybe he will just go out to the acreage today and mow and spread whatever it is he is spreading. I forget. <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> This means I would be able to catch up on things around here. <BR> <BR> - Fold and put away laundry <BR> - Run a load of la... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 06:26:09 EST Work (none), shed, and thinking too much :) <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It is Monday right? I loose track these days without work. Ug. <BR> <BR> <em>387</em> I checked this morning, it had been 4 weeks sense I ended my last project. I was starting to feel the stress yesterday. It really feels longer than 4 weeks. <BR> <BR> Prior to yesterday, I have had the general feeling that I am getting this time off to work with my DH on the shed AND.... that I would get a new assign... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 06:21:37 EST Lost last blog, maybe a simple picture blog... LAST WEEKEND <BR> <BR> We spent a good deal of time figure out the center beam for the rafters on the shed. Part of the figuring was slope and such. Also, we decided to use a 2x8 rather than a 2x6. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> MONDAY <BR> We took a road trip to Chattanooga, TN. LONG day. We left a 6AM and did not get home until 11PM. It took fo... Sun, 3 Aug 2014 07:52:34 EST Happy Saturday - Other updates Just a few updates I think. <BR> <BR> <em>313</em> Up around 5:15. Went to bed early. Took Sierra for her walk this morning. Foggy out there. <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> We are off to the acreage today to work on the rafters. This is totally new to us. Hope it goes well. We only have 2 days of good weather. <BR> <BR> <em>52</em> I forgot to update you on the puppy situation... there are no updates. DH has stopped looking I think and I have not looked either. I am giving i... Sat, 26 Jul 2014 06:47:15 EST Hello - Quick update Just thought I would check in. <BR> <BR> <em>313</em> I am still consistently walking Sierra each morning. I can't imagine this changing. Aspen taught me this so many years ago. They are what is most important to me. Therefore, I need and want to show it. :) <BR> <BR> <em>315</em> I am touch and go with this, every other day mostly. Not bad, not perfect. I do find (as usual) that I feel better when I get in 2 or more likley 3 miles. <BR> <BR> <em>4</em> This is still up ... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 09:51:15 EST Get it together please. I needed to blog yesterday. I think I would have gotten more done. I have the habit of following my DH's lead and he has days where he does not accomplish much at all. Other days he moves mountains. I am the person who need to typically stay at more of a constant balance I think. I was thinking yesterday that I need to blog about my plan. I always need some sort of plan in order to move forward. <BR> <BR> Not a big deal. I am ok with taking days off but I would like to accomplish a ... Sun, 20 Jul 2014 06:56:33 EST A HUGE Spark Benefit - Thank you Friends! I am all over the place. Doing well spending more time with my DH and growing a stronger relationship with Sierra. <BR> <BR> <em>4</em> FOOD choices however have been really poor. This is NOT like me or I at least like to think that this is NOT like me. <BR> <BR> I felt bad this morning and yesterday morning feeling guilty for overeating each day prior. I did better yesterday until it came to dinner and I could not keep myself from teh stupid dinner rolls. <BR> <BR> ANYWAY, bac... Thu, 17 Jul 2014 18:21:57 EST Stress, Weight gain & Remaining Positive Let's see where to start. <BR> <BR> <em>102</em> For the past several nights I feel as though I am working in my dreams. It may be project management work for building or who knows what. It is not necessarily bad dreams. It is simply tiring. <BR> <BR> <em>193</em> My weight is definitely up. <em>46</em> <BR> It is frustrating but definitely not unexpected. I am grabbing <em>493</em> and yesterday even <em>495</em> . This is not my typical behavior. We went out fo... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 07:10:44 EST Our project. Too many pics. :) A long time ago my DH had a vision. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am missing adding in the pictures where we dug for the foundation and the poured. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkp... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 17:56:15 EST If we see stress coming can we control it? Woke up at 5:30. Not bad. I would like to stick to a good routine and not start sleeping in. As soon as I do, I will be back to work needing to get up earlier. <BR> <BR> <em>313</em> Took Sierra for her morning walk. Super humid but ok. I got back to find an e-mail regarding the Greensboro project. "I spoke with the client late yesterday and it looks like they are going with a candidate from another firm that is local." <BR> <BR> Then same... <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sp... Fri, 11 Jul 2014 08:57:12 EST Happy Thursday - Another all over the place update <em>313</em> Only one dog walk so far <BR> <em>315</em> 2.5 miles walked on the treadmill <BR> <em>52</em> I scheduled a dental appointment for Monday. I know I need a crown but my last dentist wanted me to get something done in addition. Very $$$$. We'll see what this new dentist says (referral from a guy at work) and go with it. <BR> <em>52</em> My DH schedule a colostomy for the 21st. This is what got me going with scheduling my appointments. Poor thing. It can't me fun... Thu, 10 Jul 2014 18:09:01 EST All over the place & a smile for you too This really made me <em>334</em> I love, love, love it. <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Ok now onto business. <BR> <BR> <em>24</em> Day 3 not working; between assignments. I checked in with the woman who is checking into the Greensboro assignment. She said her contact was out yesterday. She is meeting with him this afternoon. I was pleased that she responded. I like to know what's up. <BR> <BR> <em>313</em> Sierra and I took two walks, 5000 ste... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 10:42:23 EST Walking helps - Pondering Work Sorry friends, I need to blog through this I think so the initial topic and maybe only topic today will be work. <BR> <BR> I joined RGP, Resource Global Professions just over 2 months ago in Charlotte, NC. I was consulting more or less independently prior to that. Years ago I worked for PWC, Price WaterhouseCoopers for 8 years. That required loads of travel (4 days a week every week). This took a huge tole on my marriage without my even knowing it. My DH was always super supportive so... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 07:36:01 EST So, how am I? Good question. I am hangin in, learning. <BR> <BR> <em>313</em> My days are still starting off with a walk with Sierra. Today was about 3000 steps. That's good. She really needs it and so do I. I have not gotten back to my evening walks and I feel it. I am going to try to make myself this week, just a very short one. <BR> <BR> <em>315</em> Not a lot of treadmill time and this needs to change too. <BR> <BR> <em>193</em> Weight remains up <em>46</em> up today, NOT go... Sun, 29 Jun 2014 07:17:10 EST Maybe today is the start of a slow New Beginning I tied to sleep in. Woke to a weird, somewhat upsetting dream at 5:00. Laid around trying to rest. Got up at 6:15 I think. Fed Sierra and we went for our walk. <BR> <BR> On the walk I thought, as I normally do. <BR> <BR> I thought about what a good, very knowledgeable friend had said... Work is work, a means to an end. This has not typically been the care for me. Work at times has been incredible, exciting, rewarding and it used to be where I felt most confident. I am not so sure... Sat, 14 Jun 2014 07:29:50 EST Finally an update on life Wow, it has been a long time (for me) since I have blogged. I guess I am not sure what to say. I realize I should blog anyway because the words always start flowing. So how am I? <BR> <BR> This is week 2 with being under the weather. I am better though, much. It started with a sore throat, then just feeling crummy. I stayed home Monday from work and took the day off. That helped a great deal I overdid it yesterday walking too much. <BR> <BR> I think what bothers me so much is that ... Fri, 13 Jun 2014 11:49:09 EST Hello - Quick update Not blogging much lately. I think I am not the only one. There are likely several reasons. It is a bit challenging throughout the work week. <BR> <BR> <em>41</em> I am working remote today. It is heaven. I finished two loads of laundry. <BR> <em>313</em> 2 walks with Sierra <BR> <em>315</em> 2 miles on the treadmill <BR> <em>4</em> Chicken with whatever I could find in the crock pot <BR> <em>387</em> and getting some work done as intended <BR> <BR> I have been a bi... Fri, 30 May 2014 13:49:54 EST Trust the Process <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am doing ok. I love the above image. It reminds me to trust the process and that is important. If I was supposed to learn something from Utah's passing I will in time. <BR> <BR> <em>334</em> I have been able to work from home all week so that has been wonderful. It helps so very much with the treadmill miles and steps. <BR> <em>331</em> I think I have averaged about 13,000 steps daily over the la... Fri, 23 May 2014 13:08:13 EST My New Plan and many, many, many reminders to self It is time to <em>227</em> <em>227</em> <em>227</em> <em>227</em> <BR> <BR> It is time for ... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am blessed and I simply need to remember that. Also, I fully trust my guardian angle up there. I need not question what has happened. If there is a lesson to learn I will learn it but not by being sad and lonely. ... Tue, 20 May 2014 18:47:44 EST Monday update Well, I am hang in there. Life has simply been a ... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I blogged Friday morning that I felt good then Friday night, <em>46</em> <BR> I was missing my boy so very much. I thought I might burst. <BR> <BR> It has been 7 weeks. I had the new job then the PMP to get through to keep my mind busy. Now I think I am just feeling. There is an emptiness. His just being filled my world with happiness and p... Mon, 19 May 2014 18:12:10 EST A glimpse of my boy Limited time so I will get straight to the point. <BR> <BR> <em>102</em> I woke up to the alarm which is not like me at all. Also woke up grinding my teeth. <BR> <em>24</em> Not overly motivated. Gotta go into the office today. I often am spoiled and work from home on Friday's. Anyway... <BR> <em>313</em> I took Sierra for a long walk. She is full of energy. <BR> THEN... a jogger jogs by and she is on it. She wants to jog with him. This is NOT my girl. She never has a ca... Fri, 16 May 2014 06:03:02 EST Super quick note Just thought I should quickly check in (via iPad so short). <BR> <BR> All is fine. <BR> <em>313</em> getting in our morning and evening walks, so Sierra stays sane. <BR> <em>4</em> eating too much but have a plan so I feel better about this. <BR> <em>48</em> it looks like my contract at Wells Fargo may have been extended to July. I meet with my boss tomorrow so we'll see how that goes. <BR> <em>30</em> he will not be in the office Friday or all of next week so I am hoping to... Wed, 14 May 2014 20:12:23 EST Happy Mother's day and an update <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Well, I was in a bit of a funk this morning but after a nice walk with Sierra (3000 steps), 2 treadmill miles wogged and part of a TV show I am feeling better. Oh and 2 cups of coffee too. <BR> <BR> I have been a very good Mom. It feels good to know that. <em>41</em> <BR> <BR> I am at an interesting turning point. I felt it again yesterday evening. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.c... Sun, 11 May 2014 09:05:09 EST So much to say, so little time First I went to a good friends post & this was there... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It of course really hit home. So VERY true. <BR> <BR> SATURDAY will be 6 weeks since my boy passed and <BR> 3 years since Aspen's passing. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This is Aspen and Kanyon. Just look at that little girl. They were the best friends ever. I am happy that Utah ... Fri, 9 May 2014 13:42:40 EST Quick update. Have a GREAT day! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It is Wednesday. I am working from home today, tomorrow & Friday. I have several calls for work lined up and plenty to do but I am hoping to get in some study time. My "boss" does not mind my not working a full 40 this week. I need to make time to study and I would like to get in 2 more practice exams before Saturday's PMP exam. <BR> <em>40</em> It would really help to get 2 additional practice exams in a... Wed, 7 May 2014 05:44:04 EST Quick Sunday update. I pretty much said it all on yesterday's e-mail :) <BR> <BR> I ended up staying home today and DH really overdid it on his own out on the acreage. Don't know why he does that. He just can't stop himself. He was exhausted when he finally got home. <BR> <BR> I had a good day. <BR> <BR> <em>313</em> Walked Sierra. <BR> <BR> <em>387</em> Finished reviewing a few things then took my 200 Question Project Management Practice exam. I scored 87%. WOOHOO! I was thrilled. I also fi... Sun, 4 May 2014 19:06:46 EST General updates. Have a GREAT weekend! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Well, this is not exactly how I am feeling but let's go with it. <BR> It is a good goal for the day. <BR> <BR> It has been a week almost since I blogged. Life has been busy and just tiring in general. Not bad. It was actually a pretty good week. I just feel more tired in general at the end of the day and first thing in the morning. This is just not like me. <BR> <BR> <em>102</em> I am getting in my ... Sat, 3 May 2014 06:54:55 EST This, that and the other thing :) Hope you had a good weekend. So much to blog about but what continually comes back to me is this song. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> It throws me because it is a love song but it reminds me so much of Utah. I am starting to understand (I think) more as time passes. <BR> - Initially, I felt guilt that I did not give my all to him in the end. <BR> - The imperfection piece is his epilepsy and his crooked tail.... Sun, 27 Apr 2014 16:17:12 EST What a mess I am I was able to "work" from home today. I found absolutely no motivation to work on work. <BR> <BR> <em>313</em> I started with a short dog walk <BR> <em>315</em> Then 4.5 miles on the treadmill with quite a bit of easy jogging. <BR> I was sitting at my desk by 9:00 but just could not get motivated for anything. <BR> <em>313</em> I took Sierra for another walk hoping that I would snap out of it. <BR> <em>388</em> I ended up spending loads of time printing another 15 of 2... Fri, 25 Apr 2014 14:36:45 EST Just remembered :) I was talking with my DH and he was giving me trouble about a celebrity who was getting "older", 43. LOL. I am 46. Anyway, I was thinking, where is Utah when I need him, to bite you in the butt? Then I remembered that Utah at one time used to literally bite my in the rear. They were little nibbles. He thought I was a pup, his friend that he wanted to play with in the kitchen. My crazy, lovable, perfect kid. We did have some fun times. <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I told my DH about th... Wed, 23 Apr 2014 19:49:48 EST