REMEMBER2BME's SparkPeople Blog REMEMBER2BME's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Lots to say I feel like I have lots to say so lets see how this goes. <BR> <BR> <em>28</em> DH got mad at me last week and that was no fun. It is still hanging with me a bit because I TOTALLY disagree. He was totally right in one way and totally incorrect in another. I think once again he was venting about something that was NOT the actual issue. I could go on and on and might in another blog. <BR> <BR> <em>213</em> Yes, I admit it. I have been working way to much over theist 2 weeks. I... Sun, 21 Jan 2018 07:50:11 EST How am I? Hanging in. DH was sort of sick most of last week and I was working pretty hard at work. I have a significant audit deliverable due on the 16th. I will be meeting with my manager on Monday to see what he thinks of it. I worked on to for about 3 hours yesterday. DH was supportive. I still got out to Lidle the new grocery here and picked up some veggies and such. <BR> <BR> <em>387</em> Anyway, back to work. I received word Friday from my 'internal source' telling me that they may b... Sun, 7 Jan 2018 07:16:25 EST New Year's Eve So DH and I are actually doing something for New Years Eve. We consistently don't make it to midnight on New Years Eve. Tonight will be different. It is hotel in south Charlotte NC that is having a party. There should be a DJ and/or band and such. We actually got a room so we will not have to drive. We have a pup sitter who will stay the night here. <BR> <BR> This led to some cleaning and organizing most of yesterday. We did have a nice breakfast out yesterday though. I finally clea... Sun, 31 Dec 2017 07:09:17 EST Hello again - Part 1 So how am I? Thanks so much to the folks that have reached out to check on me and/or provide supporting comments. You are all such good supportive friends, priceless. Not exactly sure why I was MIA the last quarter of the year, but that was then and this is now. Maybe that should be my mantra for the year. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Not bad. The thought would be to move forward and make the best of the yea... Sat, 30 Dec 2017 08:36:07 EST Last week <em>48</em> I did a bit better last week. I did not snack much and I stoped myself a few time. I am eating boat loads of carbs. Gotta narrow that a bit. I have never been one to watch carbs but still overboard is overboard. <BR> <BR> <em>4</em> I have truly been putting forth an effort to cook for DH and that is something I have struggled with. I made a wonderful mushroom and rice dish the week before last and tried at least 2 meals last week. One was a flop, artichoke quinoa cass... Mon, 23 Oct 2017 04:51:25 EST Quick update It was a good weekend. <BR> <BR> <em>387</em> Worked Friday from home. I got a lot of "paperwork" done, tracking meetings and such. Stuff I really don't like taking the time to do but really should. Work is going pretty good. <BR> <BR> Saturday we worked on "the wall". DH has been working on our larger building that will store the boat and many other things (I hope). We needed to fill holes with concrete. It is a lot of work for 1 person so I was glad to help this time around. ... Mon, 16 Oct 2017 04:43:25 EST Turning point Hey there, How are you. Great I hope. A good spark friend had to have her pup put down. Such a horribly difficult think to do. So many of us have been there. He half pint is no longer in pain, no longer suffering and our pups are of course welcoming with a hop, skip and wiggle. Still so hard for us though. I missed my Utah today. I will always feel that I let him down. I made a mistake. Nothing I can do about that. <BR> <BR> I am so blessed to have Traveler and Daffodil. We sti... Sun, 27 Aug 2017 16:32:27 EST Hey there Hey there. Hope you are doing well. First, everyone send positive thoughts to LIVINGLOVINLIFE and her pup. Her pup has run into some challenges and really needs some positive thoughts. <BR> <BR> My pups are great. I just love, love, love them. BLESSED2BEME has some pups I would love to get my hands on. LOL. <BR> <BR> Ok so how am I? Not bad. <BR> <BR> <em>387</em> Work is busy. I had a bit of a slow start yesterday and realized I would lose my mind if things were slow as t... Tue, 15 Aug 2017 07:03:43 EST Happy Friday So, yes, it is Friday. How nice. <BR> <BR> <em>387</em> Work has been as crazy busy as ever but that's ok. I emailed the gentlemen at TIAA who's position I asserted then decided not to. He was super nice and understanding. That mede me feel much better. <BR> <BR> Then yesterday I received an email from my old boss at TIAA letting me know that she is positing her full time position today. I sent her a long email explaining my situation. I hope she understands that I need to stay put... Fri, 11 Aug 2017 07:34:20 EST Craziness Hey there. So much happening on the job front and in generalities seems. So there was a "blow up" a while back when my DH kind of lot it. I began looking for a higher paying consulting jig. He simply is not ready to go back to work and I appreciate him sharing this with me. Long story short. I interviewed for 2 project management jobs TIAA. I loved the second. It sounded super exciting and had lots of opportunity for growth. The first was implementing a SEC regulation. The manger was... Sat, 5 Aug 2017 10:08:29 EST Howdy Hey there. Yes, I think of you all the time. How am I? The same :) all over the place, up and down a bit. <BR> <BR> <em>315</em> I had a great treadmill jog this morning. 2 miles, walk jog, walk jog. I jogged faster than usual though and it really felt great. I wish I could feel that way all day long. <BR> <BR> Not sure exactly where things are with DH and I think f course is where the stress comes in. The Sunday before last we had a good chat and things are better but still ... Tue, 18 Jul 2017 07:30:11 EST Super quick update I am hanging in. <BR> <BR> <em>542</em> kicked cleaning and decluttering into gear. I am trying to get something done each evening after work. <BR> <em>387</em> I have a applied to 25 positions this weekend; I realize most may not be a great fit, but I am getting my resume out there again <BR> <em>247</em> Traveler has been an amazing support system this week. <BR> I think I am going out o the acreage to work on the shed with DH. <BR> <BR> Missing you all a lot. <BR> <BR... Sun, 9 Jul 2017 09:34:04 EST Venting - Saying to much - Ignore this <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Boy oh boy did I need this. I signed in because something is telling me that I really, really need to blog and get some of this out. Then I saw a good friend posted this. WOW. It hit home. I will need to read it again. <BR> <BR> Not sure what to make of this blog. Part of me just wants to be irrational and think only about me and say what is coming to mind even if it is not real or ... Tue, 20 Jun 2017 18:00:49 EST Happy Friday to me Today is my Friday. I have lots to get straighten up and in order before we leave tomorrow for our mini-get away. One thing at a time, right? <BR> <BR> <em>387</em> Yesterday's interview went pretty well I suppose. It is so hard to tell. I think they have more interviews today and and if I am very lucky I will hear something tomorrow. Fingers crossed. <BR> <BR> We got DH's test results back from his annual visit with the doc. His A1C is up from 5.9 to 6.0. Pre-diabetic is 5.7 ... Thu, 15 Jun 2017 07:14:42 EST All over the place I am feeling all over the place at time and so much looking for a bit more direction. Lets see if I can get through the basics before the morning pup walk. <BR> <BR> <em>244</em> I am so very thankful that all is going well for BLESSED2BEME's DH. So grateful <BR> <BR> <em>213</em> Happy that KEKIKO's DS & DD continue to amazing. Great job on DS's scholarships. <BR> <BR> <em>48</em> Poison ivy is gone. I am using the prednisone as my excuse for poor eating, grazing really. I... Wed, 14 Jun 2017 04:29:40 EST So kind of you to check in on me It has been an interesting few weeks. My DH got something like poison ivy. It seems so long ago, maybe 2 or 3 weeks. It finally got so bad that he went to urgent care. He got a shot and anti-itching meds. Then he got a horrible looking rash and swelling. It was on the inside of he legs and later over his arms. He later went to urgent care again. Who knows. It all seemed to get worse. The weird thing though is that he said it never was blisters like mine. <BR> <BR> Mine appeared a... Fri, 26 May 2017 18:53:02 EST Monday Lets try for another quick one. I meant to make the time to blog all weekend. I am better. I read a image that someone posted and it hit home for DH and I. NOT my circus, NOT my monkeys. I love it. So true. <BR> <BR> Anyway, I am better. i supposedly offloaded some work but now the person I off loaded too is headed to Fl because his Dad is having heart surgery. I obviously offered immediate to continue on for another week. I will simply try to breathe, pace myself, get sleep and ... Mon, 8 May 2017 04:35:06 EST Let's see if I can get out a quick update To the point... I took on more work at work and love it. I am super buy though. Then they added a 45 day project to my load where the lead wants 100% of my time. I convinced folks not to take away my current load. Now I am drowning big time seems. Head is just above water. <BR> <BR> I did however make time to throw in 2 loads yesterday and empty the dishwasher. Then DH called and wanted me to come out to the farm. This was after starting work at 6:30 and ending at 5. I went out and... Thu, 4 May 2017 04:30:44 EST Good morning ok, lets see if I am do this. Of course, just not sure where to start. I will have to blog another day or later to catch up on the past 2 weeks. Anyway, Yesterday was May 1st. WooHoo a new month and I need that. I need this to be my month. I am sick of this weight hanging around my waist. <BR> <BR> <em>313</em> I start each day off at 4, get my coffee and a bar and spend few minutes on-line. I take the pups for a walk, about 3200 steps <BR> <em>315</em> then I jump in the ... Tue, 2 May 2017 04:35:05 EST Hello Second week in April (of 4) I start this way because I tell myself it is ok that I did not start the month out great. I need try hard to focus on positives. It is me. I am positive. I should not let things make me meditative. <BR> <BR> <em>48</em> I am back to spark. This is huge. I have such great friends here. I feel less alone as I struggle with things and you all motivate me. <BR> <BR> <em>521</em> I know I can, I have before. What am I talking about? hum, eating better! Yes I can. I know how. ... Mon, 10 Apr 2017 18:51:53 EST Quick update Let's see if I can post a quick update. First, thank you all so very much for your support. I am happy for April but really need to focus and make progress, most importantly on my home life. I am slacking already a bit. I have excuses but yes, they are excuses. <BR> <BR> <em>387</em> I turned down the job. I am reminding myself that work-life-balance is very important. May hours have gotten to be quite flexible where I am. I most often can drive home around 4. This helps. Yeste... Tue, 4 Apr 2017 04:33:41 EST Hello - taking a moment to actually blog a bit Let's get straight to the point. A close family member and I had a blow out several weeks ago. It is a depressing, frustrating, alarming discussion that happen every so often. It circulates around his being very very unhappy. This time he really expressed a lot and that was super helpful but also alarming. He has been on meds for depression but there are times were things are just super difficult for him and he expressed that at these times it is very hard for him and it does not seem li... Wed, 29 Mar 2017 04:52:25 EST Hi there Wow, me again. LOTS to do at work. Positive and negative people situation there too. Interesting. <BR> <BR> I am getting lots of calls and emails about other jobs. I think i need to sit down and think through clearly what I want and act this weekend. Hard to know when yo stay and when to seriously consider moving on. That is why I need to think though my 'criteria'. <BR> <BR> - Less expensive health coverage <BR> - good pay (the same or higher) <BR> - working from home 1 or 2 days... Fri, 3 Mar 2017 04:38:48 EST Super quick blog again Checkin in, as a good friend inquired. I am good, better in ways. Last weekend DH and I were not in sync and that was a bit odd. Nothing but but still. <BR> <BR> I dud that the pups put on Sunday and that was real nice. DH started to work a bit and I walked the pups around the acreage a bit. They love it and I do too. I went to the consignment tore and bought too much and it is not like I really need anything. O-well. <BR> <BR> I did struggle a great deal though trying on some t... Wed, 1 Mar 2017 04:42:05 EST Super quick update I thought I would listen to a super friend Blessed2BeMe and take a moment to blog real quick. I need to learn that this can be quick. <BR> <BR> <em>24</em> I have been too crabby lately and whiney too. Yuck. <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> Work is all over the place. My consulting group called and I thought I was going to get laid off. There were read flag but it seems to be all in my mind. Sure was stressful though. There is a meeting today that should hopefully set my mind at ease a... Tue, 21 Feb 2017 04:21:46 EST Tired and somewhat crabby Overall I am pretty good. I am feeling less bloated as of today. I am watching more what I eat starting in February. It seems to be working a bit so far. That makes me feel better. I have a new step goal of 12,000 and that seems to be doing pretty well too. I am making time to get it in. <BR> <BR> But my boss is making me crabby. So I think I need to vent a bit and then make an attitude adjustment. She just seems so unappreciative and it is a motivation killer. I am doing some wor... Wed, 8 Feb 2017 18:00:01 EST Checkin' in I should really try to start doing at least a weekly check in. Many f you are so good at this. Anyway, I am much better than last Sunday. <BR> <BR> Pups are good. They are really a Gods sent. They keep em active and just always keep things in perspective for me. Work was super busy again last week. I have 3 project plans due this week. I should have worked some today but decided to not. I know it is going to be a super busy week and decided I just need to take a break from it. I o... Sun, 29 Jan 2017 18:04:46 EST Roller Coaster Do "things" subconsciously hit us/me? <BR> <BR> It was a super busy work week. We had a new person start (sho seems super nice) and we met with out boss for long afternoon meetings/working sessions all week. Many stressful long days. Our boss is out next week and I will be working from home maybe 3 days or more, who knows. I hope to get a lot of work done. I have deliverables due by the end of the month and really need to perform to make a good name for myself. <BR> <BR> I did good o... Sun, 22 Jan 2017 07:15:34 EST Too long since I last blogged - pictures added It has been so long since I blogged. I really need to try harder to fix that. I am not sure why I do it. I don't really recall what I have told you so this will likely be all over the place. <BR> <BR> <em>104</em> First of all, I am so glad not to be sick anymore. It feels like it lingered forever. I still wake with a stuffy head and have a runny nose a lot. It could be allergies or who knows but I am so much better than before. It really makes me appreciate my health. <BR> <BR>... Sat, 7 Jan 2017 09:29:49 EST Sunday - Advise please :) I am doing pretty well. <BR> <BR> <em>48</em> Pups are happy and healthy and we all know that is most important :) It is amazing how much more social and happy Traveler is now that DH had been away from his job. I have just the best "kids" ever. I am so blessed. <BR> <BR> <em>19</em> Speaking of that I got a $25 amazon gift card for Aspen's Oncologist. I expressed the long lasting difference she made in my life, giving me 4 extra years with my girl. Priceless. I will be thank... Sun, 18 Dec 2016 07:22:27 EST Really need to blog I very much would like to relax and just go to sleep after watching some tv but I realize I really, really need to blog. DH decided to stay out at the acreage to sleep hoping that the bed there will help his back. He has been having some real issues. <BR> <BR> Ok, I will get right to the topic - the trip to visit my parents. I will try to keep this short and sweet but then I am not sure if I will get my message across and everything out. Better to try, right? I can always blog again. ... Tue, 13 Dec 2016 19:43:09 EST Wow, I have not been this sick in over 16 years, maybe ever I wonderful friend posted a great blog and she mentioned that she is now more healthy mentally, emotionally and spiritually then ever. Is that me too? Maybe, or at least getting there. <BR> <BR> In a way however, I have been the opposite. I have focused on good health all my life. I am not sure why. Actually I probably do know. It was the one thing I could "control". I used to have eating issues, where I ate to little and was not so healthy. It was a key for me, something I had con... Tue, 29 Nov 2016 07:26:48 EST Sunday It was nice to have Friday off. Oh and yes, I was in an accident on Thursday, so ended up working from home. This is another reason why it is so much better for me to go into work early. I find if I leave before 6:30 now, I hit far less traffic and therefore have less of the stop and go. I stopped Thursday but the woman behind me obviously did not stop quickly enough or have fast enough reflexes. <BR> <BR> I was in the fast lane. Ug. I was please though that I was able to pull over as ... Sun, 13 Nov 2016 07:07:33 EST All over the place I am feeling a bit all over. <BR> <BR> <em>24</em> Spending too much $ and time on Ebay. I must say, I have made some amazing inexpensive purchases though. I stopped all my followed searches so no more e-mail notifications. I purchase pants last night by accident. There was a coupon for $15 off a $60 order. I was going to stop at the end. I was trying to figure out of my items were eligible for the discount. They were and the purchase accidentally when through. Oh well, not earth... Thu, 10 Nov 2016 04:52:53 EST Finally a blog - Happy Halloween! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I think of you all al lot. I have simply not made the time to blog. Let's see if I can hit the high points. <BR> <BR> <em>535</em> I booked a trip to my parents. <em>40</em> <BR> Friday 11/18 through Sunday. I am not sure at all what I think of this. I booked it Friday night and as of Saturday morning I have had back pain. We ended up not working on the acreage because of it. ... Mon, 31 Oct 2016 04:52:57 EST Yesterday, Sunday Yesterday was a good day. Saturday was a good day too but we got less done. <BR> <BR> <em>4</em> Yesterday we went to Ihop <em>334</em> <BR> Always a great way to start the day. We had a good breakfast and talk too. We talked a bit about visiting my parents. I just need to figure out when it my be least expensive to go. <BR> <BR> Then we stopped at Southern States and were off to the acreage. We made great progress. <BR> <BR> <img src=" Mon, 17 Oct 2016 04:53:08 EST Thursday <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am even irritating myself with the whining. Ok, let me back up. <BR> <BR> Monday afternoon/evening, I was told that my laptop would not be ready. I was mot starting Tuesday. Ok, fine, we planned to work on the shed again. Tuesday at 9:30 when I am putting on my boots to go I get a call. Can you start at 11:30? Nope <BR> <BR> So I went to the acreage and we had a very productive d... Thu, 13 Oct 2016 18:47:21 EST Tuesday Well, it was an ok weekend I think. My days just mix together. We are still going very, very slow in the shed work. I do need to take some pics. It is just that we have never done siding before and for some reason it is taking us longer it seems to learn. I think it will go much quicker when we get one wall done. It does not help at all that our building is not perfectly square and all that fun stuff. You can imagine. We are slowly working through it though. <BR> <BR> This is where... Tue, 11 Oct 2016 05:33:00 EST Happy Friday Good morning. I slept pretty well last night, just one bad dream. I don't recall what it was and am fine with that. I just made myself wake up. <BR> <BR> <em>27</em> Just returned from a walk in the mist, then drizzle, then rain with the pups. We all 26 minutes I think each morning. We actually need the rain. I am between 3 and 4 hours from both Charleston and Myrtle Beach so plenty far from the coast. I am not far from Charlotte. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was good. I got in just 2 m... Fri, 7 Oct 2016 06:44:25 EST Hey there Well, life has been all over the place with ups and downs and YES... I should have blogged. It likely would have mede life a bit easier. First, I was squeezing things into my calendar just to cross them off the list, such as doctor, eye doc, then I decided to throw in another interview. <BR> <BR> These things led to delays in getting out to the acreage to work on the shed. There was an 'exposition' last friday because of this. I was throwing DH's schedule all off and stress started to ... Wed, 5 Oct 2016 06:29:41 EST Happy Friday <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Or tea <em>469</em> <em>30</em> for my good non-coffee drinking friends out there. <BR> <BR> I am a bit up and level (not down) but good. It seems to have been a fairly full week without doing a lot. LOL. Some times it just is that way. <BR> <BR> <em>104</em> YES, I found job in less than 2 weeks. YEAH ME! I am proud of myself. I am also establishing better habits for y ... Fri, 23 Sep 2016 07:00:08 EST Monday Well, yesterday was pretty great. We took the pups to the acreage and it really made me happy. They were so happy so I was happy. They were not perfect but pretty darn good. We just took one trip through the woods around the acreage, not sure how long we took. They were definitely hot and tired. We went in the morning before it was too warm and it was mostly shaded. <BR> <BR> DH took Traveler because we knew he would need to be in the lead with DH. I took Daffodil. She did great. ... Mon, 19 Sep 2016 14:14:42 EST Better <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I definitely did not mean to complain yesterday. I am truly blessed and I know it. This is simply positive stress. I need to however remind myself and repeatedly tell myself ... <BR> <BR> - I am doing what I am supposed to do by searching hard <BR> - I need to trust the process <BR> - Everything happens for a reason <BR> - This job situation will work itself out in time <BR> <BR> I may ... Sun, 18 Sep 2016 06:20:08 EST So, how am I now? I am hanging in there. Not bad, not great but that is to be expected. My days have all been quite full, no mid day breaks watching a movie, but that's ok. <BR> <BR> <em>48</em> I am working with several recruiters, 8 I think. I had 2 interviews on Tuesday and then was just completely spent and did not feel great on Wednesday. I assume it is all the stress. It is odd. It is not like I consciously feel it. I just push forward on a sort of auto-pilot, but I think my body knows. I h... Sat, 17 Sep 2016 05:01:31 EST Interview tomorrow Well, tomorrow will be one week since I have been on the job search and... I have an interview, two actually. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am not sure I am ready but will give it my best shot. I am happy to say I have a phone interview at 11:30 for a position I am not thrilled about. This will give me great practice, I hope. It has been a while since I last interviewed. <BR> <BR> Then I need to driv... Tue, 13 Sep 2016 17:42:45 EST So how am I? This is me.... and you by the way. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I just may be a bit tired from time to time. <BR> <BR> I hit the job search fairly hard last week. It was Tuesday that I found out that I was being laid off. I have reached out to recruiters and have boat loads of job searches. A good friend reminded me that important things, such as this, take time. I think next week will be a bit better. <BR> <BR... Sun, 11 Sep 2016 05:27:42 EST Wednesday - To new beginnings - Step 1 Well, I slept pretty well. I took one Advil PM. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I feel all over the place and not quite with it. I am hopeful I will be able to focus a bit later, at least when DH leaves for the acreage. <BR> <BR> I did tell DH immediately after he got home yesterday. He was shocked but handled it well. <BR> <BR> Today PRIORITY 1 is the resume. <BR> <BR> PRIORITY 2 is distribution t... Wed, 7 Sep 2016 08:46:40 EST Shock <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I was laid off today. Yep, my DH just resigned his position August 11th. I am not even sure if I am in shock or what. This occurred at 12:55, right before my 1:00 meeting, which of course did not occur. I did not get to say good-bye to anyone or send an e-mail. I guess this is how it happens at TIAA. An e-mail had gone out that there would be lay offs due to budget constraints. I of ... Tue, 6 Sep 2016 15:13:05 EST Happy Thursday! <em>387</em> So, I went into the office yesterday. I had a meeting from 9 to 11. It went better than expected. <BR> <BR> <em>204</em> I then had a noon hair appointment. I a perfectly along again. My roots actually were not showing much at all. I may be able to start extended my time between appointments again a bit. <BR> <BR> <em>39</em> I came home and DH was depressed. He was back to his old self. It is to be expected I think. He needs go to district office today to tu... Thu, 1 Sep 2016 05:07:35 EST Ok, let's try this again :) Lost my blog the other day. I likely rambled on too much anyway :) <BR> <BR> <em>46</em> So, it started with some terrible article I read on M&M's and how bad they are for you. There was something super bad in the coloring. I think this was specifically the dark chocolate that I had bought. Ug. <BR> <BR> <em>48</em> Then on to a a GREAT Friday. I had my biometric screening. I am in the healthy range for my cholesterol. I am not sure on weight. I was actually disappointed in... Mon, 29 Aug 2016 06:49:22 EST