REMEMBER2BME's SparkPeople Blog REMEMBER2BME's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Just venting, ignore me please Ok, I am crabby and it is not getting better. I tell myself to breathe but my DH irritates me so I am going to blog. I simply have a cold or something but it is making worn and having less patience and energy. <BR> <BR> So today.... I learn from yesterday. I will not sleep in until 6 and then walk the pups later. I did not walk them until 7:30 yesterday and it was a night,are (yes dramatizing) but what a pain in the rear when I did not have the energy or attitude to discipline Traveler ... Tue, 9 Feb 2016 06:28:05 EST TGIF <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Yesterday was another good but busy day. <BR> <em>313</em> Walked the pups after my coffee <BR> <em>387</em> off to work around 6:40 <BR> Meeting at 8:30 <BR> On the way home from work stopped at the grocery to pick up apples for a pot-luck that is today. Picked up other items of course, including chili. <BR> <BR> Got home around 6:15. <BR> Carried in the groceries. <BR> Fed the pu... Fri, 5 Feb 2016 05:20:35 EST Quick Blog - Happy Thursday <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It continues to be a busy week which is good. I just need to take the time to adjust my routine a bit. My boss, who I have always reported to as a consultant will soon be my real boss. This has changed the diatomic slightly. We are a bit more of a tighter team. This is good but... she is an evening person and I am a morning person. I start early and am fairly tired by end of day. <BR... Thu, 4 Feb 2016 04:52:25 EST Quick blog - Happy Tuesday! It was a busy but pretty good day yesterday. I did sign the job offer, now they are just doing the background check and such. The target start day as an employee is 2/16. Sounds good to me. <BR> <BR> I was able to throw in a turkey dinner for DH (from Harris Teeter) but my call ended up being an hour and a half. I pulled it out and threw it in the microwave to sit until I was off my call. DH seemed to enjoy it so I guess it was ok. I made myself a salad. I have not done that in a wh... Tue, 2 Feb 2016 04:59:31 EST Another good day. It was a good day. Breakfast at IHOP. I got the harvest grain pancakes. I ate 2 and have 2 here at home. I walked the pups before we left. We had a good day on the acreage. We got some work done but did not push. We were home by 3 or so. <BR> <BR> Walked the pups again. Folded laundry. I replied to LinkedIn messages I had received after wishing people a Happy New Year! It is a good way to say in touch with old co-workers and such. <BR> <BR> Oh and .... the button on my fitbit H... Sun, 31 Jan 2016 18:04:56 EST Remember to Be Grateful <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am so VERY GRATEFUL! I love to hear the sound of my boy's deep breath behind me. It was quite the scare yesterday so me. Nothing horrible but definitely a wake up call. <BR> <BR> We had a real good day on the acreage. We have lots of piles of limbs and tress and such and we have a shredder of sorts that turns it all into mulch. This is what we did. I tied the pups to trees with lon... Sun, 31 Jan 2016 06:30:56 EST Yes, I said, Yeah me <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am happy. Yesterday I got more info on the permanent position at TIAA-CREF. The person I currently report to worked through a process to get more $$ for this position, so the offer is high than expected. Additionally, <BR> - - annual bonus opportunity of 20% of my salary <BR> - - 401k - they match 3% <BR> - - Pension - they immediately start to put in approximately 11k annually and I ... Sat, 30 Jan 2016 06:15:14 EST Yeah me! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Yep, I got the job offer. I received an email this afternoon from the HR guy at TIAA-CREF. They are offering me the Project manager position under the person I am currently working for. <BR> <em>244</em> <em>250</em> They do not have the details yet, so I do not know $$ or anything but it is just VERY nice to know that they selected me. I do know it will be less than I am used to ... Thu, 28 Jan 2016 17:52:25 EST Sunday funday... who knows :) First thank you for your kind word on my last blog. It help me to blog I think. I did pretty good. It was a very busy work day. I barely got up. It is amazing to me. i got in less than 3000 steps. My steps are never that low, even when I am sick. Glad the day is over. <BR> <BR> Saturday, yesterday, was pretty good. I was able to take the pups for 3 walks despite the ice and snow that came Friday. Oh and I forgot to mention.... <BR> <em>40</em> <em>334</em> <em>213</em> DH ... Sun, 24 Jan 2016 07:29:03 EST Breathe Well, it is Friday and I thought I should blog real quick. It has rained and sleeted so it is a weird mix out there. I could go on. Who knows. I will work from home. <BR> <BR> It was a very busy work week and I liked it. I prefer being quite busy and feeling needed and useful. Maybe not quite this busy though. No biggie. Again, I could go on. <BR> <BR> But I am distracted. Today is the day. It is the 22nd, a year ago this evening Sierra passed. I feel it. Part of me really wi... Fri, 22 Jan 2016 05:38:52 EST Hello Tuesday Quick blog. Today is the start of the week for me. <BR> <BR> It was a good weekend. I got some stuff done. Groceries, laundry... <BR> Switched to Consumer Cellular. It will be a good savings. <BR> I cooked. Opps, I should have had to sit down first. Yes, I cooked. I am looking at 5 ingredient crock pot meals... just my speed. <BR> <BR> 2lb boneless beef chuck roast <BR> Onion <BR> Peper sause / tabasco <BR> diced fire roasted tomatoes <BR> cajun seasoning <BR> And TADA.... DH like... Tue, 19 Jan 2016 04:56:05 EST DH results are in Well the good news is that DH's numbers improved in 4 areas. They got worse in 2 and stayed the same in 1. <BR> <BR> Cholesterol - - from 219 to 206 (target 100-199) <BR> HDL - - from 50 to 48 (target more than 40-50) WooHoo! <BR> Sum Total - - from 114 to 111 (target 0-99) <BR> TRI - - from 274 to 236 (target 0-149) <BR> VLDL - - from 55 t o 47 (target 5-40) <BR> <BR> He was finally put on cholesterol meds the end of '09 (I think) after his cholesterol was 276 and Tri 455. I was upset... Sun, 17 Jan 2016 07:13:29 EST Friday <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Just kidding. No news yet. I am still waiting to hear about this permanent job. Who knows. I guess I am going to drag myself into the office today. Ug. I am such a whiner. It is just so nice to work from home and avoid the drive. Today it will be in the rain. My current boss wants up to see this speaker that is here today. I was not sure if I could simply listen and & that would be a... Fri, 15 Jan 2016 04:55:18 EST A bit of a funk I am in just bit of a funk. Not a big deal. It is nice to not to have to go into he office all 5 days this week. That was a bit much last week. I really enjoy being spoiled and being able to mix it up. <BR> <BR> I still have not heard back about the job. I think this is part of my funk. I just look forward to having this settled. I am hoping/thinking that I will get the permanent position job offer from my current boss. It will be a drop in pay for sure but a permanent position. I... Thu, 14 Jan 2016 04:46:54 EST Feeling sorrow? READ ME A friend posted this and it really hit home for me. I am hoping this helps a very, very special very very good friend of mine. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>with-grief/ </link> Wed, 13 Jan 2016 13:36:30 EST Continue to consider coffee a wonderful daily treat I just read this and it makes me happy. Coffee is the right thing for me, of course not necessarily everyone. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> The Final Scoop <BR> In moderation, caffeine can increase alertness, performance, productivity and may have some health benefits. Too much, however, can ove-stimulate the nervous system and bring about restlessness, irritability, and insomnia. Based on current evidenc... Sun, 10 Jan 2016 06:18:03 EST What a full week I think it was Monday that I got a job offer for a consulting position at Bank of America. It was a rate that was slightly better that what I am at now. My current contract end 3/31 so it is time to look. In this case, I actually was not looking but just received a phone call, interviewed and they made a quick decision. <BR> <BR> There is a permanent position at TIAA-CREF that I am interested in as well. However, it seemed like it may be a while before they figure out who they want to h... Sat, 9 Jan 2016 16:35:23 EST Happy New Year! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Yesterday I ended up making DH a nice meal. I bought a turkey breast that you put directly from the freezer into the oven. It actually turned out really good. I typically don't like turkey too much but it was really tasty. I made my Mom's recipe for green beans or something like it. It is the only way that I will eat them. Add bacon (turkey bacon this time and some bits) and vinegar. ... Fri, 1 Jan 2016 17:42:05 EST We MUST believe We'll be ok Well, not necessarily the blog I wanted to sent but it is what it is and maybe it will be important. Many of us have really done a good job hanging in there, pushing through and remaining positive (for the most part). Then..... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> we break into a million pieces and it feels like it will not stop. The pain of loss or mistakes or mistakes leading to loss is just so incredibly deep.... Thu, 31 Dec 2015 12:13:20 EST Happy Wednesday Hello there. I hope everyone is well. All this rain and flooding and snow and ice for some. We have more rain today. DH will be home today, skipping he acreage with all the rain. I got in 1 dog walk this morning and should be able to get in another. <BR> <BR> The pups got a new toy yesterday. I found these at Southern States. They were on sale and said 100% lifetime guarantee. Spot Play Strong Rubber Bone. Traveler loves it. <BR> <BR> <img src=" Wed, 30 Dec 2015 09:04:43 EST Happy Monday after Christmas I am finally starting to feel better. I was starting to feel sick on Christmas and today I am finally feeling better. I only did 1 walk yesterday and am trying to skip them all together today. It is a strict routine that I do for myself and for the pups. I feel guilty when I don't but I just do not know how to make this go away. I am hoping one more slow day will make this go away for good. <BR> <BR> DH has been going to the acreage a bit each day even thought it as been foggy and rainy... Mon, 28 Dec 2015 09:29:32 EST Well, today was a bit depressing We went to the acreage today. Right off, DH got frustrated with me. I was not in sync with him or something and the pups were barking some. He said, This is not relaxing and told me to go be with them and he will work. I took them away for a bit and came back and gave them each a raw hide. <BR> <BR> The other half of, this is not relaxing was... this is not like with Sierra. My heart broke. I know the pain all to well. I simple, I do NOT like this and nothing is going to change it. ... Sun, 20 Dec 2015 17:03:29 EST Where to start? I am good. I went into the office Monday and again yesterday. Ok, lets back up real quick. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This is the shed. The sheeting for the roof is on now. I don't think I ever posted pictures. We now have to put up paper, drip plates (or whatever they are called) and of course shingles and a vent. I am not sure when that will happen. It is tucked in tight with the tarps. <BR> <BR>... Fri, 18 Dec 2015 17:19:58 EST Road trip Looks like DH and I are going to take a road trip today. I think this will be good for us. DH mentioned wanting to go out yesterday. i was not in the mood. Dinner is nice but going to a bar just is not that appealing to me anymore. I do however going to Charleston or Folly Beach and taking in the relaxed atmosphere. We will end up at a bar getting several drinks but it is just more of a mini vacation than I don't know what. <BR> <BR> It will be a long day but that's ok. We are not go... Sat, 12 Dec 2015 08:20:56 EST Hello Hello there. Yep, taking some time to blog. Yeah me! The week has been up and down a bit. I guess I should learn to expect this. It is life right?!? There are good and not so good parts to every single day. The key is to focus on the positives right? <BR> <BR> The last audio book I listened to is Furiously Happy. Interesting. <BR> - - Jenny Lawson will seize the strangest and most glorious moments of her life while she stares down her depression, severe anxiety, avoidant personali... Thu, 10 Dec 2015 18:11:44 EST Me again It was a pretty good day overall. <BR> <em>48</em> I was up early <BR> <em>313</em> Good walk with the pups. <BR> <em>48</em> I was out of the house by 6:35, so time to grab coffee and oatmeal before an 8:00 meeting. <BR> <em>24</em> We had what was supposed to be a big meeting today. I did not go as I would have wanted it but I am proud of myself for not interrupting and saying... hello time is ticking and we need to get on with it so you can make some decisions. It is not ... Mon, 7 Dec 2015 18:33:26 EST Finally I really need to get into the routine of blogging. I almost did not now because I am a bit distracted. DH was just yelling at Traveler for barking. He does bark a fair amount. He hears noises and barks. <BR> <BR> So... <em>429</em> It was good. It was a weird week. I took a good deal of Wednesday off. I had a hair appointment and the outlet mall is there so I stopped in. I needed a new pair of short boots. I found a wonderful pair. I will likely go back for another color. I a... Sun, 6 Dec 2015 17:52:08 EST Quick update I worked from home today. It was a bit more productive than the last 2 days. I have when I lack motivation or can't get on a rollllll. <BR> <BR> Today I was on the treadmill initially for a mile while it rained. Then took 3 walks with the pups. No short ones today either. All over 20 minutes :) <BR> <BR> I looked at some job positing but did NOT update my resume and did NOT look at the refinancing info. I think we are all set there. I need to understand all the closing costs and de... Thu, 19 Nov 2015 17:49:55 EST 10 days since I last blogged Hey there. How are ya? I am hangin in there... on a bit of a roller coaster at times but not getting thrown off :) <BR> <BR> I have actually taken down some notes thinking that I would have blogged sooner. I tried to think about what I was doing right, encouraging myself. <BR> - - Walks in the rain <BR> - - Eating an apple to curb my appetite. I read that it is good to do this maybe 45 minutes prior to meal time. <BR> - - I had a person at work pull me aside to tell me about the pro... Tue, 17 Nov 2015 18:40:58 EST Hey there. I was just thinking how I was not feeling overly positive with all this rain but then... I can hear Traveler breathing. Something good washed over me. It is off but I just love hearing my pups breathe, always have. It is so basic and so peaceful. <BR> <BR> <em>234</em> Weight is up. Kind of frustrating but I am think I need to let this go for a bit. Not let me weight go but let go thinking about it and instead focus on fitness and getting more toned again. The weight will get unde... Sat, 7 Nov 2015 07:02:40 EST Yeah me, again :) I am remaining focused on little wins. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My somethings lead to more and lead to routine. This is what works for me. <BR> <BR> <em>48</em> I am blogging. <BR> <BR> <em>48</em> <em>194</em> I am drinking more water. <BR> <BR> <em>48</em> <em>313</em> I continue to walk the pups of course. Tired dogs are well behaved, happy dogs :) <BR> <BR> <em>48</em> <em... Thu, 5 Nov 2015 08:34:41 EST Yeah me Monday was crazy. I went into the office and stayed much longer than I wanted. It rained on the way in and all day. I realized that I am a .... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> BRAT. I have truly been spoiled by working from home. Nothing wrong with that... except when I become a crabby person because I can not head home early to miss traffic. It was a good reality check I suppose. <BR> <BR> I ended up wo... Wed, 4 Nov 2015 08:27:36 EST Lets do this... baby step style <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My weight is not where I want it but I am not in the perfect place to focus on it. I will try to do better but my heart is not 110% in it. I think I will focus on routine. This is what works for me. <BR> <BR> Oddly enough, I think the exercise routine (although very limited) made a significant difference in how I feel and look. After all muscle burns more calories that fat, right? I ... Sun, 1 Nov 2015 06:36:46 EST I am good I really, really want to get caught up and see what is going on with everyone. It feels like forever, after being sick last week and getting caught up on life this week. Today is my first day working from home this week. I look forward to when things slow a bit over the holidays and I can likley be home more again. I am lucky of course, no one tells me when to be in or work from home but I do what I think makes sense with meetings and such. <BR> <BR> Not sure if I mentioned that there w... Thu, 29 Oct 2015 13:06:13 EST Hello again <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Just have to get my act together. Nothing earth shattering, right? I am doing good just tired. I went to bed an hour early last night. That should have helped. I am supposed to go int the office today for a 9:00 meeting but I decided I will do it from home. I have actually been in the office more than home for maybe 2 months now. <BR> <BR> After both days on the acreage this weekend, I... Tue, 20 Oct 2015 05:55:39 EST Breathe <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Well, we got more rain Saturday. There was no way to go to the acreage and get any work done. Sunday too. I however ended up staying busy all weekend it seems. <BR> <BR> Sunday, I hit the grocery, made more Banana chocolate chip muffins, homemade pizza (for me) and stuffed shells. I was going all day. Not sure what got done anymore. We did go out to eat and had a nice meal. <BR> ... Mon, 12 Oct 2015 12:26:36 EST Life takes time I think I may have figured out why I just have not felt quite right mentally. I think I am hurrying too much and very focused on what I think I should have done for work. <BR> <BR> I took the pups to the vet this morning because Traveler has a rash all on his underside. I can try to deal with the itching and such but then I saw the rash. I had just gotten some spray in the mail but I still felt I should take him in. He is now on an antibiotic for 3 weeks and got a steroid shot. No mor... Wed, 7 Oct 2015 18:36:20 EST Be your own crazy hero today It is a good start so I must share. <BR> <BR> <em>27</em> I was walking in the actual rain moments ago. All the others days it was a very light rain, a mist. Today it is a light rain. I had the hood up and off we went. The kids needed it. Traveler threw up with morning and needed to snap out of it. He also had ants in his pants because he NEVER misses a morning walk. Well, I skipped it earlier. <BR> <BR> Anyway, almost home and a car is stopped with it's flashers on. The woman i... Tue, 29 Sep 2015 08:08:41 EST Tired I am tired. I went into the office today. I had a good meeting with the once guys I spoke with regarding continuing on as a consultant. It sounds like he will keep his eye out for a permanent position as well. It was positive I think. <BR> <BR> I came home at lunch because DH was home sick. I made him an early dinner. I am just so drained, not sure what it is. I am wondering of I really do need to get back on the treadmill. I think it has been 7 months (since we got Traveler). I th... Mon, 28 Sep 2015 18:25:27 EST I think I am ready <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I think I have been coasting because life has been fairly busy and I think I may have gone overboard on the per-diabetic think and when I do that I come to a complete stop. It is important to take baby steps and slowly gain momentum. <BR> <BR> <em>4</em> Anyway, my weight is way up and I know I can get it back down I am just eating more than normal. For example, I used to have a 2 (o... Sun, 27 Sep 2015 07:48:40 EST Quick blog Today was not bad at all. Went to work and <em>244</em> DH stayed home with the pups (called in sick). He was hitting his limit and I am glad he took time to take care of himself. <BR> <BR> I ate more than i should likley, but I did not eat the cake they had at work and I kept all quantities under control. I need to remember to eat more fiber in order to feel fuller. I need to eat the yogurt I bought. It just sits there. Apples too. <BR> <BR> Made a quick stop at the grocery o... Wed, 23 Sep 2015 18:57:39 EST Hello Hello there. It is Tuesday. I decided to stay home yesterday and today. I will be in the office tomorrow and Friday. I felt a little bad about it but o-well. I had a meeting this morning but that was really all. Work has been good. <BR> <BR> I got good news on yesterday. I wanted to tell you immediately but kind of did not want to jinks myself. We'll see. I scheduled a quick call with the person I report to in NY. I asked about a permanent position on the horizon or if not, if ... Tue, 22 Sep 2015 18:23:08 EST Dragging <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Yep, I am one tired pup :) <BR> <BR> I new it would be a full week at work. It is going well. I just did not get a restful sleep last night. the initial 4 hours is always good. I can be very thankful for that. I should feel better after I finish my coffee and walk the pups. <BR> <BR> I am drawing a blank. LOL. up at 4:15. I was thinking so I might as well get up. <BR> <BR> All ... Wed, 16 Sep 2015 04:50:43 EST Another good weekend :) Yesterday we ended up "taking the day off" which means not going to the acreage. AND means chores for me. I filled the tank, hit the grocery for a few things, made a stop at the consignment shot again :) laundry, 2 batches of choc chip cookies (with wheat flour and splenda brown and slenda regular sugar), 3 or 4 walks with the pups and who knows what else. <BR> <BR> We did go to dinner and I ate poorly again and also ate loads of the cookies I made. NOT good but I think I may have needed... Sun, 13 Sep 2015 17:37:14 EST Listen and be grateful What a busy week. Short weeks tend to be that way, right? Well, I knew it would be busy because I was preparing for next week at work. We have 25 or so people testing software we are using as we roll-out a new program at work. <BR> <BR> This of course meant getting up earlier (4:30) and the added drive daily. I was able to come home early to work. I also skipped the office Friday. I forgot. The engine and some other list (VSC) were on 2 days in a row so DH wanted me to stop by Auto ... Sat, 12 Sep 2015 07:34:44 EST A very good weekend Well it was a very good week. It mixes together a bit now. <BR> <BR> We went out to the acreage and have been working on the 'garage' for the boat that we started to build long ago. We then stopped to start working on a small shed instead. The thought was that we could learn from the small shed. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Well, there has been quite a bit of growth around the boat (which we have not u... Mon, 7 Sep 2015 17:02:03 EST Update & wonderful dog food experience I think I need to try to start blogging even if it is just a few sentences. I think it will help me to continue to feel connected here. It is a real busy time at work with the project I am working on. I love it. I am enjoying it most since I have been consulting here. <BR> <BR> I have been worrying lately about this "consulting". It is a natural process I am been going through for years and years. When will the project in? How long will they keep me? Will I work into 2016 here? I w... Fri, 4 Sep 2015 06:19:12 EST How about some pictures? I mentioned that we went to Lake Lure the other weekend for a few hours. This is lake Lure. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This is DH's Harley. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I talk about how DH and I thin. This is what I mean. Rather than walking through a forest, it is like walking through a park of sorts. DH has done a ... Mon, 24 Aug 2015 14:36:32 EST A good weekend for the most part First, my thoughts and prayers go to HICKOK-HALEY. I know her pain all too well. <BR> <BR> On that note, I very much enjoyed watching What If I Stay. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It is a book I considered reading and it was on Netflix. I thought it was great but part of it hit me hard. It was her choice to live or die. This brought back the whole Sierra situation. I had a feeling immediately that it w... Sun, 23 Aug 2015 16:22:03 EST Do what works & remember things happen for a reason I am better. My boy traveler is better. <em>41</em> <BR> <BR> Traveler has been growling a lot. I have been growling a lot. Yesterday we were both better. I feel better when he feels less growly and I think he feels better when I am less growly. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I have really, really, really needed this reminder. I am not sure why I don't do what works if I already know what works. Am ... Sat, 22 Aug 2015 06:40:00 EST