REMEMBER2BME's SparkPeople Blog REMEMBER2BME's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Yesterday, Sunday Yesterday was a good day. Saturday was a good day too but we got less done. <BR> <BR> <em>4</em> Yesterday we went to Ihop <em>334</em> <BR> Always a great way to start the day. We had a good breakfast and talk too. We talked a bit about visiting my parents. I just need to figure out when it my be least expensive to go. <BR> <BR> Then we stopped at Southern States and were off to the acreage. We made great progress. <BR> <BR> <img src=" Mon, 17 Oct 2016 04:53:08 EST Thursday <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am even irritating myself with the whining. Ok, let me back up. <BR> <BR> Monday afternoon/evening, I was told that my laptop would not be ready. I was mot starting Tuesday. Ok, fine, we planned to work on the shed again. Tuesday at 9:30 when I am putting on my boots to go I get a call. Can you start at 11:30? Nope <BR> <BR> So I went to the acreage and we had a very productive d... Thu, 13 Oct 2016 18:47:21 EST Tuesday Well, it was an ok weekend I think. My days just mix together. We are still going very, very slow in the shed work. I do need to take some pics. It is just that we have never done siding before and for some reason it is taking us longer it seems to learn. I think it will go much quicker when we get one wall done. It does not help at all that our building is not perfectly square and all that fun stuff. You can imagine. We are slowly working through it though. <BR> <BR> This is where... Tue, 11 Oct 2016 05:33:00 EST Happy Friday Good morning. I slept pretty well last night, just one bad dream. I don't recall what it was and am fine with that. I just made myself wake up. <BR> <BR> <em>27</em> Just returned from a walk in the mist, then drizzle, then rain with the pups. We all 26 minutes I think each morning. We actually need the rain. I am between 3 and 4 hours from both Charleston and Myrtle Beach so plenty far from the coast. I am not far from Charlotte. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was good. I got in just 2 m... Fri, 7 Oct 2016 06:44:25 EST Hey there Well, life has been all over the place with ups and downs and YES... I should have blogged. It likely would have mede life a bit easier. First, I was squeezing things into my calendar just to cross them off the list, such as doctor, eye doc, then I decided to throw in another interview. <BR> <BR> These things led to delays in getting out to the acreage to work on the shed. There was an 'exposition' last friday because of this. I was throwing DH's schedule all off and stress started to ... Wed, 5 Oct 2016 06:29:41 EST Happy Friday <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Or tea <em>469</em> <em>30</em> for my good non-coffee drinking friends out there. <BR> <BR> I am a bit up and level (not down) but good. It seems to have been a fairly full week without doing a lot. LOL. Some times it just is that way. <BR> <BR> <em>104</em> YES, I found job in less than 2 weeks. YEAH ME! I am proud of myself. I am also establishing better habits for y ... Fri, 23 Sep 2016 07:00:08 EST Monday Well, yesterday was pretty great. We took the pups to the acreage and it really made me happy. They were so happy so I was happy. They were not perfect but pretty darn good. We just took one trip through the woods around the acreage, not sure how long we took. They were definitely hot and tired. We went in the morning before it was too warm and it was mostly shaded. <BR> <BR> DH took Traveler because we knew he would need to be in the lead with DH. I took Daffodil. She did great. ... Mon, 19 Sep 2016 14:14:42 EST Better <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I definitely did not mean to complain yesterday. I am truly blessed and I know it. This is simply positive stress. I need to however remind myself and repeatedly tell myself ... <BR> <BR> - I am doing what I am supposed to do by searching hard <BR> - I need to trust the process <BR> - Everything happens for a reason <BR> - This job situation will work itself out in time <BR> <BR> I may ... Sun, 18 Sep 2016 06:20:08 EST So, how am I now? I am hanging in there. Not bad, not great but that is to be expected. My days have all been quite full, no mid day breaks watching a movie, but that's ok. <BR> <BR> <em>48</em> I am working with several recruiters, 8 I think. I had 2 interviews on Tuesday and then was just completely spent and did not feel great on Wednesday. I assume it is all the stress. It is odd. It is not like I consciously feel it. I just push forward on a sort of auto-pilot, but I think my body knows. I h... Sat, 17 Sep 2016 05:01:31 EST Interview tomorrow Well, tomorrow will be one week since I have been on the job search and... I have an interview, two actually. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am not sure I am ready but will give it my best shot. I am happy to say I have a phone interview at 11:30 for a position I am not thrilled about. This will give me great practice, I hope. It has been a while since I last interviewed. <BR> <BR> Then I need to driv... Tue, 13 Sep 2016 17:42:45 EST So how am I? This is me.... and you by the way. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I just may be a bit tired from time to time. <BR> <BR> I hit the job search fairly hard last week. It was Tuesday that I found out that I was being laid off. I have reached out to recruiters and have boat loads of job searches. A good friend reminded me that important things, such as this, take time. I think next week will be a bit better. <BR> <BR... Sun, 11 Sep 2016 05:27:42 EST Wednesday - To new beginnings - Step 1 Well, I slept pretty well. I took one Advil PM. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I feel all over the place and not quite with it. I am hopeful I will be able to focus a bit later, at least when DH leaves for the acreage. <BR> <BR> I did tell DH immediately after he got home yesterday. He was shocked but handled it well. <BR> <BR> Today PRIORITY 1 is the resume. <BR> <BR> PRIORITY 2 is distribution t... Wed, 7 Sep 2016 08:46:40 EST Shock <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I was laid off today. Yep, my DH just resigned his position August 11th. I am not even sure if I am in shock or what. This occurred at 12:55, right before my 1:00 meeting, which of course did not occur. I did not get to say good-bye to anyone or send an e-mail. I guess this is how it happens at TIAA. An e-mail had gone out that there would be lay offs due to budget constraints. I of ... Tue, 6 Sep 2016 15:13:05 EST Happy Thursday! <em>387</em> So, I went into the office yesterday. I had a meeting from 9 to 11. It went better than expected. <BR> <BR> <em>204</em> I then had a noon hair appointment. I a perfectly along again. My roots actually were not showing much at all. I may be able to start extended my time between appointments again a bit. <BR> <BR> <em>39</em> I came home and DH was depressed. He was back to his old self. It is to be expected I think. He needs go to district office today to tu... Thu, 1 Sep 2016 05:07:35 EST Ok, let's try this again :) Lost my blog the other day. I likely rambled on too much anyway :) <BR> <BR> <em>46</em> So, it started with some terrible article I read on M&M's and how bad they are for you. There was something super bad in the coloring. I think this was specifically the dark chocolate that I had bought. Ug. <BR> <BR> <em>48</em> Then on to a a GREAT Friday. I had my biometric screening. I am in the healthy range for my cholesterol. I am not sure on weight. I was actually disappointed in... Mon, 29 Aug 2016 06:49:22 EST Better <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am trying to trust the process. It is typically not too difficult a thing for me but this is a significant change. I wanted to make a few comments. I can definitely talk with DH about our finances and future plans but at the time of my last blog it had not been a week since his resignation. I am thinking that this must be so very stressful for him. It is great in a huge way but also ... Sun, 21 Aug 2016 07:06:42 EST Hum Well, I think it is hitting. I think I figured out on my walk this morning that I need to give myself a break. I need to give myself until maybe Thanksgiving to figure things out. I have been putting a good deal of pressure on myself to figure out finances with DH "retiring". <BR> <BR> What are our monthly bills? I pulled the last 6 months and averaged them to come up with a monthly total. Then, how do I lower that amount? Bra, blah, blah. I them flipped yesterday to ... how much money... Thu, 18 Aug 2016 06:46:59 EST Closure may be coming soon Well, DH finally got a call from District office Tuesday at 1:00. They wanted to schedule an appointment to come in and he would get his assignment. We took this as a good thing. I took it as a great thing. He was not fired and they would likely either transfer him to a different school as requested, or offer the same school. If offered the same school with the same principal, he would quit. I was thinking positive that maybe he would go to a different school and have a positive experie... Thu, 11 Aug 2016 06:04:06 EST Finally an update Let's start with most important. <BR> <em>334</em> Pups are happy and healthy. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Just look at that precious little boy. LOL My 'little' boy. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> The little girl is always connected to DH. <BR> <BR> <em>234</em> Then there is DH. He is totally stressed to the max. She starts i... Tue, 2 Aug 2016 06:27:07 EST Tuesday Well, I am a bit all over the place. It is "that" week. Does this really impact me? I do know I ate everything in sight yesterday. Hate that. Today is a new day but it is still frustrating. Also, I had bee doing so great on my steps and yesterday I started out good on the treadmill. Then I just worked and worked at my laptop and barely moved. I must stay in a routine with this. Routines are so good for me. Just do, don't think. <BR> <BR> Anyway, DH finally received a letter from th... Tue, 26 Jul 2016 06:09:02 EST Friday :) So how is the week with out DH. It was just Tuesday that he left for his cycling trip so it has not been long. Work has kept me busy. I copied the list I posted previously on the things I wanted to do/accomplish. <BR> <BR> <em>42</em> - - Relaxing bath - - Nope, not yet <BR> <BR> <em>48</em> - - Rent the Martian and maybe American Soldier - - Moments ago I held for pick up 'Miracles from Heaven' and Max. I added others to my Redbox wish list so I can easily pull them up. I may g... Fri, 22 Jul 2016 06:43:33 EST I am good Well DH made it to Winchester, VA safely yesterday. It took the time planned but was a long trip. He met with the cycling guy for about an hour and a half then went to dinner. Not sure you actually care about the play by play, but there it is. <BR> <BR> Today he starts cycling. The description is as follows: <BR> July 20: A loop ride from Winchester will take you approximately 53 miles through rural Frederick, Clark and Warren counties following the Shenandoah River and back to Winche... Wed, 20 Jul 2016 06:34:22 EST DH leaves on his trip today Well, lets see, where to start... the typical question. <BR> <BR> Still no word from my parents, which makes sense. I doubt my Dad is checking his e-mail after just getting out of the hospital. I think I am going to email again and let them know that they can call. Not even sure they have my #. I did not however reach out to my sister in anyway. I did talk with DH. His focus was directly on my sis and what an attention hound she is. So at this point, I am sticking with communications... Tue, 19 Jul 2016 05:06:07 EST Unexplainable feeling yesterday Well actually a form of shock may be the feeling. Not sure where to start or how o explain. I have not seem my family for 16 years+. It has only been fairly recently that I started communicating with my parents via e-mail. I am enjoying it. <BR> <BR> My parents and DH never clicked. They thought he pushed met much when he suggest/supported I go to grad school. I honestly black out the details. DH remembers them all. My family has drama that we did not need. My brother named his do... Sun, 17 Jul 2016 05:29:32 EST Staring the day right again <img src=""> Step 1 Coffee. My pups are so very good, they even wait for me to have my cup of coffee before they go out. I love my morning starts. I log into spark with a wonderful cup of coffee. <BR> <BR> <em>313</em> Step 2 - Walk the pups. We saw a deer this morning. I love that. We turn around to try to give him some space of course. <BR> <BR> <em>315</em> Both yesterday and today I jumped o... Fri, 15 Jul 2016 07:50:07 EST First nights away in 5 years We went to Folly Beach, SC. It is close to a 4 hour drive, not bad at all. The two days prior, I worked like a dog so I was not packed or ready. We left at 11. It worked out well. Check in was 4:00 but they had a room ready when we arrived. DH selected the top floor, 9th. All rooms face the water. I was very pleased with the room. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> We went out the first evening and drank ... Thu, 14 Jul 2016 11:21:35 EST Thinking too much <em>3</em> Today I am thinking too much. So much in my head. <BR> <BR> Summer will be over in a heartbeat and we still do not know what is going on with DH's job. I am not sure what ew want to happen either. <BR> - He get fired? Likely not the case, but anything is possible. <BR> - He stays at the same school but the principal get transferred? <BR> - He gets transferred to a different school with high hopes that it is a much healthier, happier atmosphere but starting a new? <BR> <BR>... Sun, 26 Jun 2016 07:36:27 EST Wow, way to long since I blogged last Life is good. I am blessed. <BR> <BR> <em>433</em> <em>67</em> The most significant news is that we planned a mini vacation. We have not stayed over night anywhere in the last 5 years. I had 115k sky miles that I was either going lose or would need to pay $150 to keep. We looked at trip stop Jamaica or wherever. All of these were possible with that many miles but then there was the hotel stay and such. <BR> <BR> So..... we ended up using the miles for just a 2 day stay at a s... Mon, 13 Jun 2016 06:42:06 EST Life is good <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am happy to report that Life is good. I think my positive attitude is mostly back. It only took 2 visits to the treadmill. Crazy huh? <BR> <BR> <em>315</em> I got on the treadmill Sunday and Monday. I did not have a goal in mind just walked and jogged until it seemed like time to stop. I took yesterday off because I was taking a long lunch. I did not want to take the time. <B... Wed, 25 May 2016 09:15:15 EST Rude awakening First I will back up a bit. Thursday was a challenge. I woke up stressed at 3:30 wondering if I should go to work. I blogged and decided to work from home. I then went in. Crazy. I know. It was a long day. Friday I went in as well and it was not quite as long. It was better. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was nice. I did not have the feeling of being rushed. I had mentioned to DH that I wanted to go to breakfast at some point so we went yesterday. Cracker Barrel. Great Pecan pancakes :) <BR... Sun, 22 May 2016 08:06:45 EST It is only 5:07 but I am ready to turn this day around Work at 3:30 stressed from work. Do I really need to go into the office or can I work here and try to get done a bunch of the work I did not get done yesterday. So I lay there and try to sleep, exhausted. <BR> <BR> I finally am ready to give in and give up at 4:25 when the alarm is supposed to go off. It is raining. I did not realize that it was raining so hard and it is going to continue. It will take forever (or feel like it) to get into work and home. Oh and there is a "happy hour... Thu, 19 May 2016 05:15:25 EST I have a new understanding of the challenges of losing weight Life happened. Stress happens. <BR> <BR> Life has been a whirlwind and I appreciate your checking on me. Let's see if there is nay way to keep this short and sweet. <BR> <BR> My DH is a grade school guidance counselor. He has been miserable at his job for 4 years due to the principle. The last straw happen a few weeks ago. My DH was pulled in with no notice to give teachers their "planning period". He did a Stranger Danger presentation of sorts that he had done many times over the... Wed, 18 May 2016 06:28:26 EST Again, not sure where to start Actually, I will be honest, I do know where to start. I am VERY thankful to hear that a great friend is remaining on Spark... for now at least. She brings up a great point though. I think it is in our power to make what we want of Spark if we are really ready. For me, I need love and support and I get that here. <BR> <BR> Anyway, lots of ups and down. There was another exposition but I again learned and clearly that is what I need to do. Additionally, I am reminding myself in these s... Thu, 28 Apr 2016 17:23:16 EST Not sure where to start Last weekend I think DH and I had a good conversation. I mentioned that I had gotten the names of some counselors and he was super surprised. He said that he did not think I/he did need a counselor. I told him that I take this seriously. I do not like this cycle where every several years he getting super unhappy (after things build and build) and then the divorce thought comes up. I do not want that. <BR> <BR> He said that I get tunnel vision. We have had this conversation a hundred t... Sun, 17 Apr 2016 08:20:36 EST Hello - taking a moment to actually blog a bit Well, I was going to run to the grocery this morning as I can never find the motivation at night. But I have a feeling I should just wait. I should take a few minutes at least to process/type. I have not really let myself think too much. It can be upsetting you know. It of course depends which voice in my head is speaking. <BR> <BR> I have not scheduled time with the counselor. How do I pick? Do I just randomly select one in my network? How much time do I take researching it? Who kn... Fri, 8 Apr 2016 07:54:36 EST I am here No time again this morning but I may have some time today to type up a blog. I don't know that i'll be in a place where I can do it though. Let's see if I can put this in a small nutshell. <BR> <BR> Saturday went really well. DH and I planed some trees. <BR> <BR> Sunday was a disaster. Dogs got out as I was trying to get their leashes on. This was at the acreage. TERRIBLE. Traveler when right to the street. We chased them down. Do car accidents or injuries. <BR> <BR> I then took th... Wed, 6 Apr 2016 04:59:29 EST TGIF I can't believe it is only 5:25. I miss my morning walk. It is raining. We will need to get a good walk in this morning because today Staples comes to deliver & put together an "office" chair for me. Also, Morris Jenkins comes to checkout the air conditioning. Just a routine check. The pups will be wild children. <BR> <BR> I am getting out of my funk as of yesterday. :) I so appreciate you guys just checking in. It helps. I need take pic of my new work area that I have created. I... Fri, 1 Apr 2016 05:33:13 EST Hello You guys are the best supporters. I really appreciate it. I am just in a funk. Work is a bit weird. I do best when I am real busy. That should start today. Also, I feel I have not been in the office in a while. It will help to get out of my daily routine. <BR> <BR> I hit 31 days of over 10k steps a day. I am proud of that. I was really killing it and being focused on fitness. Then... the weekends hit and I was feeling crummy. I slide downhill pretty quick when I am tired or not feel... Wed, 30 Mar 2016 04:55:08 EST Still here <img src=""> <BR> Thank you for checkin in on me my dear friends. You guys are the best, checking in or giving me easy cooking recipes. <BR> <BR> I have been busy working and also just trying to stay caught up with life. I am enjoying work but have had a few big meetings (once a week) where I work tooooo long prior. I need to get to sleep real early because I am doing a horrible job sleeping in the morning. ... Thu, 24 Mar 2016 16:43:53 EST Sunday I am good. I have been a bit up and down but good in general. The week ended in a busy way at work. It will likely be the same next week. I am enjoying it though and working to try to set better boundaries. It is best for me and also best for my relationship. My DH does not like when I work into the evening. <BR> <BR> What else? 1 Month until my birthday. <BR> <em>144</em> Do you buy yourself birthday presents? <BR> I am going to get myself the new iPhone. I currently have the ... Sun, 13 Mar 2016 16:35:14 EST I am better now I will get straight to the point. DH got home yesterday and told me that they did NOT renew his contract. I could not believe it. They are simply idiots. My DH is the best thing that has come to that school. The kids love him, the parents love him and the PTO love him. He still gets contacted by kids that have 'graduated' to the middle school. <BR> <BR> He is a grade school guidance counselor. No he does not just read to the kids or treat them like kids. He brings the kayak in and ... Sat, 5 Mar 2016 06:31:00 EST I am good <em>387</em> Work is good. It is keeping me real busy. <BR> <BR> <em>315</em> <em>313</em> <em>418</em> <em>320</em> Fitness is not bad. I am starting to get into a routine. <BR> <BR> - - Walk the pups every day at 5 or 5:30 - nothing new :) <BR> - - Get in the treadmill around 7 (after DH leaves for work) get in 2 miles (walking, jogging, whatever) <BR> - - Get to work by 8:30, that s at the kitchen table when working from home. <BR> <BR> No treadmill time figured in w... Wed, 2 Mar 2016 06:05:32 EST Happy Saturday! I am good. It has been a busy work week but I have been able to work from home for the most part. <BR> <BR> <em>48</em> This will be day 5 with my health push. there are 46 days until my birthday and I think I am lucky to be starting to push this early. I think I may need the time to get firmed up and loose these few miserable lbs. I want to be back in shape. I have simply not cared enough but now I find this weight and extra fat or whatever irritating. <BR> <BR> I am doing very... Sat, 27 Feb 2016 07:57:28 EST Happy Wednesday. Happy Wednesday. I am good... for the most part :) <BR> <BR> I am getting a bit irritated with my weight and lack on being tone. I defined yesterday was finally day 1 with getting more serious. I need to eat better and drink more water and kick up with fitness (just a bit). Yesterday was 50 days until my birthday. <BR> <BR> I have a goal each year to be at the same weight. I have considered letting 1 lb add. That is fine but the real key is to feel more fit again. My weight is not d... Wed, 24 Feb 2016 04:47:46 EST Happy Sunday! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am grateful for you (my good friends), my pups, my wonderful DH, a job I really like, my health and my home. <BR> <BR> Happy Sunday morning. I am good. I did not get enough sleep last night and stayed pretty busy (but not at a crazy pace) yesterday. I ended up sleeping 10 hours last night. I may have just been catching up from the night before. But I think with being sick the week be... Sun, 21 Feb 2016 06:24:56 EST HUGS2U! I hope you are all doing well... if not so much, this is for you. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am doing pretty darn good. I am happy to have my permanent employment. I enjoy my job. I am grateful to be ablate work from home and I seem to be getting even closer to my boy, Traveler. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> He is ove... Wed, 17 Feb 2016 18:33:51 EST Finally turned a corner Nope, not on weightless or anything like that. You know... I am finally feeling better. It is unbelievable to me that I actually have to completely STOP. It it not like I did that much over the weekend. <BR> <BR> I did grocery shopping, hit the jewelers, paid bills, upgraded the operating system on my phone and iPad, did laundry and such. It was non stop when I wanted some actual down time but not bad. DH however mentioned to me that I did work int the evenings last week and stress ha... Fri, 12 Feb 2016 06:09:57 EST Just venting, ignore me please Ok, I am crabby and it is not getting better. I tell myself to breathe but my DH irritates me so I am going to blog. I simply have a cold or something but it is making worn and having less patience and energy. <BR> <BR> So today.... I learn from yesterday. I will not sleep in until 6 and then walk the pups later. I did not walk them until 7:30 yesterday and it was a night,are (yes dramatizing) but what a pain in the rear when I did not have the energy or attitude to discipline Traveler ... Tue, 9 Feb 2016 06:28:05 EST TGIF <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Yesterday was another good but busy day. <BR> <em>313</em> Walked the pups after my coffee <BR> <em>387</em> off to work around 6:40 <BR> Meeting at 8:30 <BR> On the way home from work stopped at the grocery to pick up apples for a pot-luck that is today. Picked up other items of course, including chili. <BR> <BR> Got home around 6:15. <BR> Carried in the groceries. <BR> Fed the pu... Fri, 5 Feb 2016 05:20:35 EST Quick Blog - Happy Thursday <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It continues to be a busy week which is good. I just need to take the time to adjust my routine a bit. My boss, who I have always reported to as a consultant will soon be my real boss. This has changed the diatomic slightly. We are a bit more of a tighter team. This is good but... she is an evening person and I am a morning person. I start early and am fairly tired by end of day. <BR... Thu, 4 Feb 2016 04:52:25 EST