RELIVE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=RELIVE RELIVE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Finally signed up for the gym in Miami! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5794578 So yesterday I signed up for LA Fitness. I'm really excited because I finally want to start working on having a great body. I've been in the 160s for way too long, so I'm going to begin a weight training program and healthy eating. Today I'm going to see a trainer to do my first assessment, and I hope he can give me a few tips on what to work on this month. <BR> <BR> I'm considering seeing a trainer probably once every 3 - 4 weeks. It may be a little expensive, but if I could have someone to... Wed, 8 Oct 2014 09:46:40 EST There was a point where I had no trouble counting calories http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5793897 I used to be great at counting calories. These days, however, I'm awful. I don't know what's wrong with me. I could blame it on a lot of things, but at the end of the day I'm not tracking what I'm eating nearly as well as I should. I weighed myself and am slowly creeping up, and that's scary. I weighed in at 168 lbs this morning. I've gained 12 lbs that honestly took a LONG time for me to lose. There are a few things I definitely need to change. <BR> <BR> For one, I need a gym membership. Un... Tue, 7 Oct 2014 08:27:21 EST Constant Anxiety http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5773389 So I realized as of late I have had tremendous anxiety. I had a "crazy moment" with my boyfriend, where I was in bed sleeping and I woke up to him still being at the computer room at midnight. I've also been stressed out about my health. I've started birth control about 2 months ago, and as of late every time I have sex or do "strenuous" activity (running), I end up bleeding. This has been going on and simply does NOT stop. So I made an appointment with the gyno next week. Hopefully by then i... Thu, 4 Sep 2014 14:15:53 EST Have been working at eating healthy, and slowly but surely succeeding. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5760259 Today I'm happy to say that I weighed in at 163.6 lbs. When I came back from El Salvador I was nearly 170 again, so I'm happy I'm once again under 165. However, I have been stressed out to oblivion because my best childhood friend almost died this week, so I'm proud I haven't been mindlessly stress eating, to say the least. I have been visiting him constantly and having late nights, because I know he needs me there for him. I brought him some miso soup yesterday and his eyes widened with exci... Fri, 15 Aug 2014 11:48:01 EST Went on a trip, now time to get to work-- for real this time. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5749792 Since being with Mathew I have been *so* lazy. Just snuggling and going out to eat has been bliss. However, I think this time I really am serious to continue on with my workout/eating plans. I've felt so fat and blah, and frankly it's because I've been eating like crap. Not awful, but just too much food overall. I even eat more than Mat! So I really need to watch myself and try to get to my goal weight. All it would take would be a solid 5 months to reach my goal, if not less. I'm not who I ... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 16:29:59 EST Many changes in my life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5724975 So I haven't updated by blogs at all, but I will try my best to blog at least twice a week. So much has happened and I haven't documented anything, but all and all I have done alright. However, I weighed myself today and saw I was at 165 lbs. That's scary! I was at 155 not too long ago, so that means I need to get back on it and lose my final weight. At this point in time, I would be happy to be around 140, and my ultimate goal weight is 126 lbs. <BR> <BR> I now have a boyfriend, who I met ... Tue, 24 Jun 2014 14:57:04 EST I have changed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5644321 So today I weighed myself and I finally broke my -50 lbs plateau. I'm now at 165.8 and yes, it took a LONG time!! But I made it! I now only have 40 lbs to lose, with 20 of them simply being vanity weight. Although I am not on SP as often as I used to, I still check by and always try to see how everyone is doing. Without SP I couldn't have done it, I'll be honest. Whenever I felt like I couldn't continue, I always went to Confusedbird's page and saw her progress. And I knew, one day, I would b... Mon, 10 Mar 2014 10:22:54 EST Time to count my calories. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5573779 Hey guys. Decided to come back on Sparkpeople! I would come on here and say what a failure I've been, but to be honest, when it comes to weight loss I have been doing great. I've maintained within 173-177 for over 6 months. Not on purpose, but because I haven't been counting. So while I have not lost any weight, I haven't gained any weight really, either. That's pretty damn good, and I'm certain that once I do lose my 50 lbs, I will be able to maintain no problem, since that's what I've been ... Sat, 28 Dec 2013 12:35:23 EST Ouch, fell off the bandwagon. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5507020 On September 1st we moved into a house. It has been pretty hectic, but at the same time not at all. Ever feel like you complicate your own life by thinking it's complicated? I haven't worked since August, and it's starting to become a drag on me. I miss working, but I knew I couldn't continue working somewhere like where I was. I just needed to get away and give my mind a BREAK, but honestly I've given myself too much of a break. Now is really around the time that I need to get my act togethe... Mon, 7 Oct 2013 13:07:06 EST Perspective and losing 55+ lbs (with pictures) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5459203 Being under 170 lbs is great, I'm not going to say that I'm not proud of my accomplishment. I always said I was going to do it, but getting to this point a couple years ago felt like a nearly impossible task. Starting out at 226 lbs, I remember how it felt being that size. I remember being looked at differently. It is insane that 57 lbs could be the difference between a stranger giving you a blank stare and not listening to what you have to say, and that same person giving you a smile and at... Sun, 18 Aug 2013 20:40:29 EST Finally under 170 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5458279 I have been struggling with losing. However, I can say I *finally* am under 170. Today I weighed in at 169 lbs! My newest low I believe! <BR> <BR> I have been doing alright. I graduated with my B.A., but it doesn't feel like I have. I am planning to go to graduate school next year. I also quit my job, I was pretty tired of the drama so I figured it was for the best. My husband and I are moving into a house at the end of the month. So much to do, so little time! <BR> <BR> I have been takin... Sat, 17 Aug 2013 18:34:56 EST Ecstatic!! Yesterday was a great day!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5435569 A lot of things have not been going all that great lately. I am past due to see my doctor for my blood work, so my thyroid is making me tired and moody all the time. I found out I can't go for my master's degree in IO Psychology in this state, so I'll likely have to apply elsewhere even if my husband works here. Things are a bit rocky at my job. I didn't have water for a whole evening at the beginning of the week. I think I won't graduate on time due to a problem with the administration, noth... Sat, 27 Jul 2013 20:18:01 EST Officially in a plateau http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5407878 So I have been eating well, exercising consistently, yet staying around the 170s, I now admit that I am stuck in a plateau. It sucks. But I'm feeling so much better exercising, and for the first time in my life I actually am not absolutely dreading working out. Whenever I do work out I just imagine where I want to be. So I think for motivation I'm going to start taking pictures every two weeks, in a *gasp* BIKINI. Yes I'm still fat for a bikini, but that way I can see the finer details on wha... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 21:08:03 EST Name ten places... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5405082 Name ten places you really wanna be before you die and then go to them <BR> <BR> 1) Australia <BR> 2) Switzerland <BR> 3) Cuba <BR> 4) Montauk, NY <BR> 5) Appalachian Trail <BR> 6) Germany <BR> 7) Brazil <BR> 8) India <BR> 9) New Zealand <BR> 10) Oregon <BR> Fri, 28 Jun 2013 23:30:45 EST Name ten things... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5402847 While on the treadmill cooling down today I was listening to Paul Baribeau's song named "Ten Things." If you haven't heard it before I strongly suggest you do! It's absolutely amazing. Thank you Mr. Baribeau for inspiring me to create my life lists. For the next few days I will create my lists of 10: <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Name ten things you wanna do before you die and then go do them: <BR> 1) Achieve my health and fitness goals <BR> 2) Meet friends I've known for years and never met before ... Wed, 26 Jun 2013 20:49:27 EST Back from Miami http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5400542 So I spent two lovely weeks in Miami-- from the 5th to the 19th. Have I ever told you guys how much I love me some Cuban/Caribbean food? I do! I ate and ate and ate... Thankfully did not go over 180 but I did gain a few pounds. I did complete a week of C25K over there, but I messed up on week 3 since I went to Disney with my sister and cousin. So I started week 3 again today. <BR> <BR> Now that it's Monday, I am back on the bandwagon. I really need to count calories, so I will start doing th... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 19:15:13 EST SP, I appreciate you http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5375200 Today Andy and I went to the movie theater to watch Iron Man 3D. By the way, I didn't know Guy Pearce was in that movie. He's from one of my favorite movies-- Memento. Anyway, it was pretty good, I tend to enjoy almost all the Marvel movies. Best part however was when I went to the bathroom... I was looking at myself and wow! I really DO look so much thinner! I actually like the way I look. I'm looking forward to the day where I'm at my goal weight. It will be grand. Hopefully by this time ne... Sun, 2 Jun 2013 01:13:18 EST Francis-- How lazy can you be? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5366288 Okay, I hit a wall. Got down 1 lb to 175 but don't even care to post it. I NEED to count my calories. I NEED to start running. Hey, I'm still fat, but for how long am I going to say "I feel too fat and gross to run outside"? I know the weight would melt on, then I can get the real party started: weight lifting. I feel so broke right now, because of my school, but man I'm SO excited for it to end so I can start grad school. YES! :) <BR> <BR> Anyway, starting tomorrow, going to go for a run, w... Fri, 24 May 2013 01:47:52 EST Sorry I haven't posted in a while SP!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5344657 Sorry for not posting, but I promise, I'm trying! Finals are all next week, and you all know how I am. When I post a blog I like to talk about EVERYTHING that is happening or has happened... well, a LOT has happened since my last post. <BR> <BR> Soooo here we go! <BR> <BR> On April the 19th, which was a Friday, that lovely morning I went to work for my 8 to 4 shift. We were talking vegan cookbooks and just having an OK morning in general. I'll be honest, I haven't slept much lately (during... Fri, 3 May 2013 18:31:08 EST Productive Saturday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5314092 I was very happy to get on the scale this morning when I saw that I am now under 180 pounds. I am roughly 2 and a half pounds or so from meeting my midway goal--- 176 lbs! I remember when I first started on SP how overwhelmed I was thinking that I need to lose about 100 lbs to get to where I want to be. Even 50 lbs felt like forever. Yes, it has been a few years, and even if I've lost slower than a turtle, I am happy that in the next few weeks I will gladly say that overall I have lost 50 lbs... Sat, 6 Apr 2013 22:33:31 EST I tried to post something a few days ago http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5312802 But unfortunately it bugged out and everything completely messed up and I was too frustrated to write it all over again. I think I am doing pretty well when it comes to weightloss, and I'm hoping this week I have a decent loss since the past couple weeks or so I have been losing less than 1 pound each time. Okay, I also didn't end up counting calories again, but I was trying to be more mindful of what I'm eating... It's pretty easy to stay within calorie range if I focus more on veggies and l... Fri, 5 Apr 2013 15:38:31 EST Slowwww http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5298411 Weight loss has slowed down considerably. I doubt I will have 7 - 8 pound losses in any given month anymore. Still not counting but trying to keep up with not eating too much processed food. Even if I eat vegan I still love chocolate and ice cream and all that as much as the next person. Thankfully my sweet tooth is much less prevalent than 2 years ago. <BR> <BR> I'm at 182 now. I still feel like I'm 226. But sheesh, so close and I will finally be halfway into my goal. It took a long time b... Sun, 24 Mar 2013 16:25:47 EST Eee it's been a few days since I've posted. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5286482 The reason why I haven't posted is because I know this was going to be a long one. <BR> <BR> I haven't really posted much about my thyroid, but I really want to mention it because I feel fixing it is one of the biggest things that has held me back on my weight loss. However, it's not all about my thyroid. I still have to eat healthy, still have to make sure I don't pack on the carbs, but for the first time in my life I feel like I can eat like a normal human being. <BR> <BR> I'm not count... Thu, 14 Mar 2013 11:46:36 EST My early Woooohoooo! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5253199 So I wanted to wait until I have lost a total of 40 lbs. NOPE! I need to celebrate TONIGHT! I deserve it. Why? Because for the first time in forever, I am less than 190 lbs. I87.6 to be exact! I was so thrilled with that number this morning. I'm about 2 lbs away from -40 lbs so I'm hoping to get those pesky 2 lbs in the next week or two. <BR> <BR> <BR> Yes I'm 2 lbs short of 40 but wow! After those 2 more lbs I'm only 10 lbs away from reaching my halfway mark! Freakin' awesome. I remember w... Sun, 17 Feb 2013 00:59:26 EST Trouble eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5250521 I have been having a pretty good last couple of days. It has been non-stop but not bad at all. The fact that I bought a car sunk in! Ahhhh! What did I do?! I love it though, but my goal is to pay it off ASAP. My old car, even though I should sell it because of its high resale value, I'm giving it to my mother-in-law because she doesn't have a car, and hasn't owned her own car in years-- she always has been needing to borrow my sister-in-law's car. I'm happy that I can help her-- but I know th... Thu, 14 Feb 2013 14:37:28 EST I'mmmm insane. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5244252 So Thursday was both a good and a sad day. I went to Jill's visitation to say my goodbyes with the rest of my coworkers. It was hard, but I really just needed to see her for some closure. There were easily over 100 people there, so much so that there had to be a line to see her. It was very moving. At first we were sitting there saying "Eh we'll just wait until the line shortens and then we'll go see her." Nope, the line was only getting longer, and longer, and longer, so we all just ended up... Sat, 9 Feb 2013 17:46:46 EST Death http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5239445 Yesterday I woke up to a phone call from my work. I'll be honest I was annoyed... My boss asked me if I could come in as soon as possible, I said yes. Then I heard her whimpering and I asked, "Hey, are you okay? What's wrong." All I heard after that was "Jill's dead." Jill is someone that has been working at the pharmacy for over 20 years. She was full of life and loved animals as well as being honest with everyone. Not having anyone in WV except my husband, I feel very closely to the people ... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 22:39:18 EST Focus on the Pros http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5235187 I was read a random article a few days ago, I don't recall exactly where. It had such great advice that it has stuck with me for the past few days. So I will say it here: if I continue saying I'm depressed, I will stay depressed! So I'm starting a new streak: not saying I'm depressed, at least out loud for as long as possible! Just saying "depressed" makes everything feel so permanent, when in reality it is something temporary that everyone goes through at one point or another in their lives.... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 00:51:43 EST Ughh I feel so nauseated!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5228021 So on Saturday Andy and I went out to eat like we normally do... and in the evening Andy was *so* sick. I seriously have never seen him this sick in my life. Without going into much detail it's similar to what someone would get when they have food poisoning/stomach flu. I tried sooo hard to keep myself from getting sick. Washed my hands every time I helped him, cleaned dishes as well as possible... but I am thinking that when Andy handed me my water bottle so I can take my Synthroid in the mo... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 23:26:17 EST So much going on! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5217789 So it has been a mix of good and bad-- but overall it's good. I'm trying my best to look into the bright side of things and it works sometimes. Since my last week was so awful, I escaped from West Virginia to visit my cousin who lives in Sidney, OH (north of Dayton). Wow, her house is HUGE! Like a mini mansion. I told her "How the hell do you keep this house clean?" <BR> <BR> I had a ton of fun with my cousin and my baby cousins. They are all adorable, but man, they can be a headache! I cal... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 22:30:35 EST Even though I cry, I'm not dense. Writing really does help a lot! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5213841 <em>227</em> You really don't want to read this. I don't recommend it at all. I'm just documenting it on my blog because I wrote this on SP-- One of my biggest problems is I over analyze and doubt myself because of what a few people tell me. Writing what's on my mind really does help, and I'm over it now. :) Everything that I wrote in my past blog is just a memory now of one of my crappy days in college. This is to do the same. -------- <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Wow. Do you have t... Sat, 19 Jan 2013 03:08:03 EST I cry for no reason. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5212268 Yup, I'm a cry baby. It is uncontrollable! Jeeze I hate it when I do it. Feels like it's gotten worse since starting Wellbutrin. I still need to give it 6 - 8 weeks for everything to stabilize, I guess. But man it's embarrassing! It happened 4+ times I think in the past week. Apparently I won't be able to complete my Spanish minor, because I need to take a grammar class that only meets Monday, Wednesdays, and Fridays. Sadly I work those days, and regardless, driving 2 hours round-trip every d... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 22:44:45 EST Eeeek, a binge. Kind of. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5204021 So today after a super stressful day at work my husband asked if we could go eat Mexican food. I felt bad because yesterday he wanted us to go to the bar with some friends-- but frankly, I don't care too much for bars. I almost never drink, and I don't smoke. I would have gone anyway just to be the designated driver and have a good time, but I had to work in the morning. He was a little upset about it, even though I said he can go and come home whenever he wants (I know, I'm an awesome wife)... Sat, 12 Jan 2013 18:58:10 EST I don't know if I should quit my job. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5198522 I'm having such a huge dilemma... I'm almost done with with my BA, and my GPA is only a 3.09. I feel so overwhelmed with the fact that I don't think that will be enough to enter a Psy.D. program, or even a MA program. I have no experience in psychology, have taken part in any research studies, have not so much as even joined a club while I've been at the university, all because I haven't been able to because of my job. Granted it's not all my job's fault, I also live 1 hour away from the univ... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 10:09:28 EST I just realized... I've been feeling a little better these days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5193971 Surprisingly. I'm not 100%. But yesterday I wanted to clean the house, and I did all the upstairs and most of the downstairs. Yeah, I have some left to do. Hopefully I can tackle it all on Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday when I'm off. :) <BR> <BR> Another strange thing that happened? On Saturday while we were cleaning I asked Andrew "You wanna' watch a movie today?" And we did! We enjoyed the Hobbit. We cleaned all the way up until it was time to go, and I had a good time. What I realized, ... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 22:21:44 EST My Overall Goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5189732 A friend of mine reminded me of a book our jazz director instructed us to read in high school. I couldn't thank Ryan Ellis enough for making us read this book, and I'm so glad my high school pal brought this quote back to life for me, at a time when I really need it: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l2101681025.jpg"> <BR> <BR> "All too often you have many its that you want to pursue, and sometimes they conflict, a tussle right there on the boundary among three gr... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 09:43:04 EST Tired of being Tired, but at least now I know why. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5185957 So for the past year or so I've been feeling terrible. Tired, depressed, not-wanting-to-do-much sort of mood. Last year I went to the doctor and asked to get my thyroid checked, and my TSH was around a 2.95, I don't really remember, but my doctor thought it was normal. Now a few weeks ago I went and redid my thyroid.. and my TSH is at a 6.05. Doctor was reluctant to put me on thyroid medication, but she did anyway. It is the smallest dose possible, but frankly I'll take something over nothing... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 11:28:26 EST So yeah I looked at the scale... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5130037 So let's just say I do NOT like what I see. I'm over 200 lbs! Stress from school and work is kind of taking a toll, and I'm not one that works very well under pressure. I realized I feel like I have too much freedom picking my calories-- it is so easy to say "just a little bit more." <BR> <BR> So I went ahead and moved on to plan B. I decided to buy a meal plan, and starting tomorrow I'm going to start following it and making sure I cook my food. It is way too easy to go grab some vegan indi... Fri, 9 Nov 2012 22:26:37 EST Crazy time, but really time to get back on it. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5061914 Hey all! I haven't posted in what feels like forever. Miami was GREAT! I loved it. Of course I did, with all the food my grandma' made me and all the eating out. Afterwards I went to Louisville, which was awesome, but again, a lot of eating out. Needless to say I'm no longer at 190, and I'm at 200 lbs. I've gained a whopping 10 pounds. <BR> <BR> Today I decided to do something nice for myself. I painted my nails. I'm wondering why I chose a vomit green color. I'm wondering if I chose it be... Sun, 16 Sep 2012 17:36:47 EST Why do I stop doing things when I miss doing them? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4831688 I really need to stop quitting on things I love to do. Last time I weighed myself (probably a week ago) I was under 190 (yay!) but I'm probably over that now considering what I've been eating... vegan pizza and veggie fajitas. Too much rice, and carbs in general. Need to buy some cauliflower and lettuce to replace rice in my meals. I also haven't been running, and I think I know the problem: I don't wake up in the morning, say I'll run later in the day, and find some excuse not to run. Sheesh... Thu, 12 Apr 2012 10:34:58 EST Bad day, but good running day. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4772840 I just got done a little while ago with week 4 session 1 in C25K... yay! The runs seem to pass by faster while things are on my mind. I feel like the 2 blocks I run around are getting smaller and smaller considering I can run around them now without stopping. I never thought I could run for 60 seconds let alone 5 minutes at any one time. I feel like I'm running too slow, but I guess that's what multiple 5ks will be for, to increase distance and shorten time. <BR> <BR> I gained 0.2 lbs last w... Mon, 5 Mar 2012 23:02:10 EST Knee Pain After Running http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4758530 I've been trying to ignore this, but coming on to week 3 of C25K I realize that after running I have knee pain. It is not extremely painful and I can do normal activities but it still hurts. For someone who has major knee pain running in my family, and me being only 21 is very concerning. I think probably the main reason is because I'm pigeon toed. It's not very noticeable from this picture, it mostly occurs while I'm walking, and I think it's the culprit to my slight knee pain. It's not too ... Sun, 26 Feb 2012 19:49:03 EST Losing Weight God Free! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4755856 So today I talked to my mother on the phone about my weight loss, and how I'm struggling really hard to get past the 190's and into the 180's. I also let her know about my running and how it sucks that there really aren't many great places to run where I live. Well, I love my mom, but once again she brought out the "god card." Maybe I should pray a little harder, go to church, and maybe God will make it easier for me. <BR> <BR> Wait. What? <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.c... Fri, 24 Feb 2012 23:30:19 EST Quick blog- Valentines day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4740170 For valentines day I ate approximately 1,900 calories. I had a Sicilian salad at an Italian restaurant, with two large bread rolls. They don't have nutritional information that I know of, but I know it did have a lot of oil and vinegar on the salad. Very good, but I hope it doesn't ruin me for the rest of the week. <BR> <BR> To be honest, I haven't lost any weight (checking the scale in the morning ouch) since the beginning of the week and I've been trying really hard to eat at least over 1... Wed, 15 Feb 2012 13:02:20 EST I need to make time for *ME!* http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4736838 So my 1 year sparkversary is around the corner.. And I only have roughly 30 lbs lost to show for it. Most if it was in the beginning months, and once I went to Miami on vacation everything just fell apart. However, I did learn a lot of things about myself, and now I really need to stop making work, school work, class, husband time, doggie time, relaxation times as EXCUSES for my lack of working out, and my lack of not tracking my calories and eating right. These are the things I learned about... Mon, 13 Feb 2012 13:20:57 EST Is 1,200 calories too little for a ~190 lb girl? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4635370 I think I am self sabotaging my own weight loss. There is something about winter time that makes me not want to work out. I can tell you I tried, but I just felt so tired that I could never finish. I still walk my dog, and I have a very fast paced job as a pharmacy tech, and it feels like once I'm off from work-- I've had enough walking for the day. I'm not done with my Vitamin D treatment so I'm hoping this sleepy/lethargic feeling will go away soon. I can say I do feel slightly better, but ... Thu, 22 Dec 2011 15:48:03 EST Apparently I can still eat a whole pizza by myself.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4621837 Ahh!!! So I lost 7 lbs last week, I was happy and excited. Even though most was water weight I'm sure there must have at least been some fat that went along with those pounds, hopefully. I guess eating the way I did shocked my body. I'm kind of having trouble eating enough fat. Must sound odd but fat isn't really much of a problem for me, it is carbs! I love them so much. I was within my range for carbs today but was low on my fat. Eeek <BR> <BR> So yeah... There is something about my mind t... Sun, 11 Dec 2011 21:09:29 EST So I skipped breakfast again. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4616533 I hate it. I hate skipping breakfast. But when I wake up around 10 AM I no longer feel it's "breakfast" time. I feel I should be holding over for lunch. I guess it's fine since I wasn't hungry up until 1 pm anyway, but still. I need to get into the habit. It was 2 times so far this week that I went without breakfast. <BR> <BR> I can honestly say I more than made up for breakfast though with my gigantic lunch. I know, I know, I should be eating smaller meals... but it can be tough when I lik... Wed, 7 Dec 2011 14:27:26 EST I need to find motivation for food blogs! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4615644 Man, even though I'm pretty broke, with not much time and going to school full time + having an (almost) full time job (that's unstable nonetheless). It's so interesting the type of food I come up with, especially on a veggie diet! LOL! Herbivores can have some crazy college on the go food too. My hubby looks at my food sometimes, ESPECIALLY when I'm counting calories, and is like "WTF are you eating!?!?!?"... well, us herbies know that it tastes freakin' delicious... And yes, Andy WAS guilty... Tue, 6 Dec 2011 22:49:03 EST Day three and doing good thus far. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4613425 So I didn't eat breakfast today. Honestly, I was not hungry at all. I wanted to eat, really, but why force myself to? I had a great dinner last night. I cooked eggplant for the first time and wow was it yummy! Eggplant and asparagus in a balsamic vinaigrette (and a bit of dijon mustard), with white rice (my hubby wanted white rice, I was actually going to have a baked potato, but I gave in after I made it. It was within my ranges so I don't regret it.) Anyway, it was so delicious. Thankfully ... 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