REJANERATION's SparkPeople Blog REJANERATION's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Blood sugar success!! Eating healthy and trying to move more can be a very disappointing experience if one measures success by the scale only! <BR> <BR> I have been on this eating healthy and moving plan for most of my life but I really kicked into gear last October when I decided I wanted to look better for my daughters wedding this past August ! Still, it has been a very difficult journey and I have continued it even after the wedding because I felt better and I like how I am starting to look in the mirror and... Mon, 10 Nov 2014 06:44:05 EST Check in Doing well! <BR> <BR> Moving more , eating within my limits and feeling happy! <BR> <BR> What more is there? Tue, 7 Oct 2014 18:05:27 EST The plan No explanations! No excuses! <BR> <BR> I am where I am because I brought myself here! I did what I did and didn't do what I didn't! Only me! No one else! <BR> <BR> How do I do the rest of it!?? <BR> <BR> Track, move and be realistic! <BR> <BR> What is really doable for me? <BR> <BR> Use fitness pal everyday to track my food and movement. <BR> Check in with this blog every 48 hours to report on how I am doing. <BR> <BR> A review of the last few weeks shows me that I am eating apx 2000 ca... Sun, 5 Oct 2014 14:25:42 EST Doing what makes me happy I am not perfect, although there are times I have aspired to be! But it really is a lot of pressure and when human weakness sets in, the feeling of failure that ensues is crushing!!! <BR> <BR> So, No more! <BR> <BR> I am going to do what makes me feel good and makes me happy! I have learned over the last several months that eating well and moving make me feel good! I do tend to slip on occasion but I have learned to enjoy the slips every now and then. I have learned to let go of guilt and t... Fri, 19 Sep 2014 13:59:21 EST I used to think about it I have spent a lot of time in my life living in my head.....I have spent a lot of time thinking about when I would do things, not actually doing them. <BR> <BR> I am 49 now and the time has come. I was walking on my break time today and it suddenly dawned upon me that I have become a doer, not merely a thinker anymore! <BR> <BR> I have always fantasized about being a runner. I always imagined myself as one of "those" people who got up super early and who started their days off with a run!!!... Wed, 17 Sep 2014 16:18:25 EST Doing it is the right choice! I am blogging this as a reminder to me! <BR> <BR> I really struggled this morning with getting up and getting out there. I forgot how good running makes me feel! It wasn't my best run, it wasn't my worst! It just was and it was enough to make me happy with me again! <BR> <BR> When I feel down about my progress with my weight and my eating, a run pulls me right out of that funk! I feel alive and accomplished at the end!!! I want to keep that feeling. I don't know why my mind plays games wit... Tue, 16 Sep 2014 14:30:20 EST I feel fat, well fatter than usual! Slug like, slow, bloated, kind of nauseated but also like that train wreck, the one you just can't stop watching! I am on the train! <BR> <BR> I am screaming at myself to stop, I don't know what to do to stop the train. I just know I can't not watch it! I haven't tracked since Thursday. I know that was the last good day I had, I was in the country since then and we had visitors and did some partying. It is so difficult to suddenly stop that when you have been doing it for a few days! <BR> ... Sun, 14 Sep 2014 14:34:24 EST Movie moments This is just another reason to get out of that bed and run in the morning!!! <BR> <BR> On those mornings, I always have a "movie moment". <BR> <BR> I am smiling now just thinking about it. <BR> <BR> I am sure all of you can recall those scenes on tv or in the movies when someone is running or driving along and then a flock of birds fly up all around them! That happens to me on my running route. <BR> <BR> I guess early in the morning the birds are undisturbed and just flocked together, th... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 15:23:12 EST the pledge I remember as a child, we always had a lot of visitors at our house. My mother owned a grocery store attached to our house and she sold beer!!! She had an endless supply, or so it seemed to the men of the community. <BR> <BR> This unique circumstance led in part to a large number of visitors coming to our house. Of course, our family was a very hospitable one and there was always a lot of laughter! I cannot remember any visitor sitting there without a beverage if he/she wanted one. <BR> <... Mon, 8 Sep 2014 07:58:18 EST Mother, Daughter, Ant Once there was a mother. She was a young, fun mother! She always engaged her children in fun activities and was always open for jokes and laughter. <BR> <BR> One day, when her daughter was 10 ish, I suppose, she found a rubber ant lying on her kitchen counter. It was brown and about 4 inches long, with the antennae and legs all attached! Creepy! Being the fun loving mother she was, she decided to include her daughter in a joke. She placed it on her daughter's pillow that evening before the... Sun, 7 Sep 2014 07:21:40 EST 4 - mind over body I wonder how much of this whole effort is a mental thing vs a body thing. <BR> <BR> I was thinking this morning that tomorrow on Saturday, I would run for 5 km. I have done it once before recently so I know I can do it. Then I got to thinking, how much of that is mental. When I started running a couple of months ago, I started with run for one minute, walk for 1.5 mins. I have come a long way. I am just wondering what I needed to push more to get to the 5 k mark , mental or physical? Yes, I ... Fri, 5 Sep 2014 06:59:43 EST 3 -windsheild wipers Consistency works when you do it. <BR> <BR> I think this has been my problem and my benefit over the past year. <BR> <BR> Getting back to being honest with myself now. <BR> <BR> I have exercised consistently. I have maintained my walking initially and then the biking and then the running and now a combination of all three! I am definitely a consistent exerciser. <BR> <BR> I am not a consistent eater however. I have too many "blips" where I will have "just one" and this is derailing my suc... Thu, 4 Sep 2014 07:31:59 EST Day 2- I almost didn't Today was a mega struggle to get out of bed and to get out there for my run. as soon as I completed it, I was ecstatic! I felt incredible and I had the fastest run time ever. * mins and 9 secs per km!!! Awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> But, did I ever struggle with getting out there. Luckily for me, I had all my running gear foled in a pile on my dresser and my sneakers and headphones laid on the counter. It was easier for me to go than not to! But if I had had to dig through my closet for som... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 14:54:18 EST Counting up now day 1 - new beginnings Mental block! <BR> <BR> I have been writing in this blog for so long as a countdown to the wedding of my daughter that now I just don't know what to write! <BR> <BR> I am starting at the beginning again! Fresh slate! <BR> <BR> To be honest, I am a bit sick of setting goals and working towards losing weight and counting and counting calories consumed, calories expended. Taking a break is the wrong thing but I just feel right now that I need time to relax! <BR> <BR> Over the last year, I... Tue, 2 Sep 2014 19:51:09 EST The day after the end of my blog re:the wedding <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It's done! It's the morning after! It was a beautiful day, start to finish! I delivered my welcome speech to the groom perfectly! I actually recorded it in my blog a few days ago, if anyone is curious! I timed the punch lines perfectly and everyone thoroughly enjoyed it! Everyone was laughing and the presentation of the iron at the end had them rolling in their seats! The next speaker up was the dad of the groom ... Sun, 31 Aug 2014 06:46:27 EST The wedding day! The day has arrived! <BR> <BR> At the hair and make up appointment now! Waiting for the finishing touches on the bride! Everyone looks beautiful!!!! <BR> <BR> Home after this to put on my dress and then to head over to the bride's house!! The salon people just delivered some flowers! It's from the groom - the card said " to Stephanie, only 5 more hours until you make me the happiest man alive with only two words!" <BR> <BR> Everyone went : "awwwwwww" <BR> <BR> Guess there is no turning b... Sat, 30 Aug 2014 09:38:49 EST Day one – one day left I can't believe this day is here ! Today is day one! Just one day before my daughter's wedding! <BR> <BR> The weather is cooperating. Today it is raining but there is sun on the way for tomorrow! <BR> <BR> It seems like everything is ready! Caterers are confirmed, decorator confirmed, giant tent up! Flower crises from yesterday averted! Rehearsal finished, did a practice walk down the aisle last night!!! Very busy times! Not supposed to be a lot on the go today, except putting the favours... Fri, 29 Aug 2014 07:59:15 EST Day 2 - almost there! Today, tomorrow and then the big day! <BR> <BR> A lot is happening in a short period of time now! Wedding rehearsal tonight ! <BR> Tomorrow is last minute stuff, getting wedding favours ready and doing a final clean up and inspection of ..... <BR> <BR> Phone just was the bride to be...I have to run....some flower issue.....! <BR> <BR> Thu, 28 Aug 2014 07:43:10 EST Day 3 - Welcome speech to the groom. And that is my task on the evening of the wedding, to welcome the groom into our family. <BR> <BR> I will record it here. <BR> <BR> Good evening everyone. <BR> <BR> It is a wonderful occasion that brings us all together here to day. Congratulations Nick and Stephanie! <BR> <BR> My name is Janice and I am the mother of the bride, Stephanie. I am sure all of you can testify that she certainly is a truly beautiful bride. <BR> <BR> As her mom, I sometimes cannot believe where the time has go... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 07:18:39 EST Day 4 - getting busier 4 days til the wedding A lot of things starting to happen at the same time. Starting to feel a bit like a whirl wind. Starting to crave downtime. <BR> <BR> I guess my run time will have to do. Out again in the morning. <BR> <BR> Still have not found a purse or written my speech. <BR> Better get at it!!! Tue, 26 Aug 2014 11:06:15 EST Day 5 - good weather 5 days until the wedding! <BR> <BR> I thought my morning runs were over. I almost bought a gym membership and then the sun came back. <BR> <BR> All last week it was very dark and dreary in the morning and I felt down and unable to get out of bed so I resorted to running around the lake in the afternoons which really hurt me physically and mentally. I even ran on my mother's treadmill at one point because I was trying to fit it in. Suffice to say I was struggling with the whole thing. I even... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 06:56:38 EST Day 6 - circle of life Today I am reminded of life and how precious a gift it is! I only have one life and one body and I have to take care of it! <BR> <BR> Today I am attending a baby shower in the afternoon for a tiny baby that was born prematurely! He is doing fine now and it is out of the incubator and he will get home within the next month, hopefully! he has had a struggle to survive since he came into this world and thanks to the care he is receiving, he hopefully will be fine! <BR> <BR> This evening I wi... Sun, 24 Aug 2014 08:55:53 EST Day7 - my first 5 k Seven days until my beautiful daughter's wedding!! <BR> <BR> Thank you Stephanie for getting married because it was the announcement of that event apx 300 days ago that brought me to this day! Not only have you given me a son in law ( well in 7 days) but you have also given me much better health and a longer life! <BR> <BR> I guess it is like the circle of life, lol! I gave you life 31 years ago and now you are giving me a longer healthier one! <BR> <BR> This morning I decided that it w... Sat, 23 Aug 2014 07:41:09 EST Day 9, 8 - Brain Drain and Nothingness days! Everything just got to me yesterday. I woke, thinking ....ok, so now I am 49 and it all went down hill from there. I mean it is ok to be 49 on your actual birthday when there is cake and dinner out and birthday gifts and love but the first day after that is not so nice! You still are 49 but there are no cakes or gifts or dinners, it's just you in a 49 year old body. Then the brain drain begins! <BR> <BR> That's what I call it when the negative thinking spiral starts. I lay there in bed and c... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 07:04:04 EST Day 10 - 49, a good place Birthdays are inevitable, - if you are lucky! I would rather take the birthday than the alternative! <BR> <BR> I have been here for 49 years now. The number looks big but the time has passed quickly. I have mixed emotions about birthdays. I don't want to get older, but I do enjoy the festivities. This evening for example myself and hubbyand kids and their partners will be joining us in a restaurant to celebrate! There will be cake and the birthday song and candles and presents. I will be sur... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 06:05:15 EST Day 11 "Compare yourself to who you were yesterday" Read this quote in an article recently and it kind of stuck with me. <BR> <BR> I must admit that I do tend to compare myself with others upon occasion. Recently for example, I am comparing myself to other walkers and runners and the most recent is with one of my co-workers who just returned to work after having a tummy tuck! You can bounce a quarter on her tummy now! I find myself comparing myself to her and being envious of her flat tummy whereas mine still has bumps and a roll. She is the ... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 08:38:05 EST Day 13, 12 - single digits!!! Single digits....I thought they were gone forever! <BR> <BR> Not so, I found out yesterday! <BR> <BR> Went shopping yesterday for shoes and accessories to accompany the dress I bought for my daughter's wedding! Ran into a mega sale. So, since fall is coming, I decided to try on a few things!!!........FRENZYYYYYYYYYYY <BR> <BR> That's what frenzy!!! Got 3 pairs of pants, 5 tops, shoes, bracelet and earrings for 185.00!!!!!!!!! I did have a 25 dollar gift card tha... Mon, 18 Aug 2014 06:36:40 EST Day 14 - late nights do not equate with early morning runs True statement! My ability to be adaptable is being called upon again today! <BR> <BR> Out to a big party last night!!! I was the designated driver ! Everyone loves the fact that I don't drink on those nights!! Haha <BR> We did dance a lot and we had a lovely time! Bed at 2 am!!! It's now 10 in the morning and I am still feeling tired and groggy!!! Unfortunately, I have a real hard time sleeping in!!! Sleeping in to me is staying in bed like I did this morning until 7:30! 5 and a half hour... Sat, 16 Aug 2014 09:17:29 EST Day 15 - fitness pal Just discovered something on the fitness pal app!!! <BR> <BR> At the end of the day, I hit a button that says complete your entry for the day and then I get a message that says if everyday was like this one, I would weigh ( a number) in 5 weeks! I discovered if I stayed within my calorie goal and ran for 30 minutes and walked at a slow pace for 2 hours, I would lose 15 lbs in 5 weeks!!! <BR> <BR> Now I am not sure if that is entirely true, but it sure is motivating to see!!! Fri, 15 Aug 2014 06:09:11 EST Day 16 - closing the gap! My motivation,,,,nay,,,,my excitement for today that is already giving me goosebumps is the run I will do this afternoon after work! <BR> <BR> I will run around a lake that is close to work and I am pretty excited about it. You see my tracker tracks my route via GPS and then I can a see a red line superimposed on the map showing me where I ran! When I ran on Tuesday, the 30 minutes got me almost all the way around. There was a gap from my start to finish. <BR> <BR> Today I am closing the ga... Thu, 14 Aug 2014 06:46:10 EST Day 17- Lesson learned Yesterday I harped on and on about how I had to change things up and I was so resistant! Turns out everything went fine! I do feel like I have junped a hurdle though. Usually when I am faced with unwanted change, I will retreat and give up. This time, I saw it through and maneuvered around my problem. And I liked it!!! I actually got almost all the way around the lake in 30 mins so now I have a bit of a challenge in my get all the way!!! <BR> <BR> Lesson learned, although why I d... Wed, 13 Aug 2014 05:12:54 EST Day 18 - resistance to change/importance Have been in a tizzy since 5 am when I woke to more rain!!! More rain!!! Today is a running day. Early morning is my run time. Missed a run last week because of pouring rain, that I did make up though! <BR> <BR> I am a beginner runner, not one of those steadfast and true runners who will run in any weather. I considered running anyway but stopped myself. It's cold and wet and the pavement is slippery and I am deathly afraid of falling. I fell last year and my back is just now returning to no... Tue, 12 Aug 2014 06:08:27 EST Day 19- Moderation ( I did it) I think after 300 days of this journey, I am finally learning moderation! I have always heard about was never able to manage it! <BR> <BR> Yesterday was a fabulous example! Did my run and then a mega walk with my sister,,,2.5 hours. All the calories synced to my app, lovely,,,had lots! <BR> <BR> Along the way of our walk, we got thirsty and stopped for fluids. There were chocolate bars there. For some reason I really wanted one. So I picked one out, after checking all the nut... Mon, 11 Aug 2014 05:33:28 EST Day 20 - progressing For the first time in a long time I feel like I am making progress. I pulled on my normal running top today and this is looser!!! <BR> <BR> And I am loving fitness pal and strava! Just back from my run this morning and burned a realistic 300 ish calories according to strava app, over 1400 cals according to the sparkpeople tracker-----rolling eyes at sparkpeople....I wonder how many people are being misled by this stat!!! That tracker over estimates calories burned big time. <B... Sun, 10 Aug 2014 07:04:11 EST Day 21- obligation Today is a run day!!!! Got everything ready last night! Clothes laid out! Sneakers ready to pull on! Headphones on the counter! All laid out so it is easier to run than to NOT run!!! Then, what happens??? Thunder lightening and heavy rain! I probably would go out in a little bit of rain, I have before! Not lightening though!!! Scary! <BR> <BR> The old me would have jumped with joy because I had an excellent excuse! Not the new me!!! The day is not over yet so I may get out there later in the... Sat, 9 Aug 2014 06:44:45 EST Day 22 - countdown is on!!!! 22 days til the wedding Things are coming together for the event. Daughter has a master board with dates and dealines and appointments. Wedding cake..aka cupcakes sorted on Monday. ( Mom,,aka ,,,me paying for that part,,lol) Practice har and make up coming up soon as well. Final dress fittings,,,,concluding the decorating with the consultation with birthday in the middle of it all...certainly is a hectic time and my son will be home on the 22 nd with his girlfriend as well.....a whole... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 05:28:02 EST day 23- rainy days Something to be said for rainy days. I have to say I am enjoying mine! It is so cozy. I always feel like making soup when it is like this. Brings me back to wanting to cook good ole stick to your rib meals full of vegetables and lean protiens. Healthy soups and stews!! the coolness and raininess of the day reminds me of fall and the harvest. Fresh delicious produce. <BR> <BR> Also the cool temps are much better for exercising and in particular running!!! pretty excited by that!!! <BR> 23 da... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 13:00:10 EST Day 24- new app syncs to fitness pal - so tired of sparkpeople Just found a couple of new apps. Pacer and Fitness pal. Pacer actually turns your phone into a pedometer and the automatically syncs the data to fitness pal. Fitness pal then adds the calories to your day and u can eat more.! And Pacer actually records the steps in numbers on your phone! No need to tap on it 5 times and more like the spark tracker...grrrrrr and no lights to translate like the tracker. No waiting for the tracker to upload forevvvveeerrrrrr!!!!! And Pacer works on all iphones!!... Wed, 6 Aug 2014 08:32:26 EST Day 25 - the dress, pic attached! <img src="">Shopping for the mother of the bride dress with my daughters last night. We had so much fun. They picked out a whole lot of dresses for me to try. Some I didn't want to but ended up being pleasantly surprised. I did buy a beautiful sky blue gown with a keyhole neck pattern and embellished waist. It looks fabulous! I could never have worn it last year. The dress is right to the floor length on me and looks even more dressy! <B... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 05:24:52 EST Day 26 - discovery of a fellow runner I am so delighted. I was at a family event Saturday night and my cousin and I started talking!! She started running in May!!!!!!!!!! And she is fanatical about it...It was so good to talk to someone about it that shares my interest. I have my entire family bored to death!!! All I talk about is running and running and how fast I am running or if I had a good run or a miserable run. As soon as someone says how are you today??? My response is always geared around running..."oh I am having a good... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 05:55:05 EST Day 27 - leg muscles I was sitting in a recliner yesterday and I flexed my leg for some reason. OMG there were muscles. I could see the muscles under my skin. I mean yes sure everyone has muscles but I never noticed mine like this before!!! It's like I have discovered a six pack of Abs in my calves!!! And then I started noticing other parts, on the outer thing for example. There are groups of muscles and when I move my leg I can see and feel the definition!!!! <BR> <BR> I am sooooo loving this!!!! <BR> <BR> If ... Sun, 3 Aug 2014 07:11:39 EST Day 28- new motivation Definitely struggling with eating but I have found a new motivation. <BR> <BR> If you ask anyone around me what is important to me now, they will probably roll their eyes and say, "all she ever talks about is running running running" it is true. I have become consumed with it. I finished the couch to 5 k last week and I have been continuing the runs. <BR> <BR> I just downloaded a new app called strava and it is amazing! Tracks my runs through GPS. I now know how far I am running, how long i... Sat, 2 Aug 2014 08:01:20 EST Day 29 - struggling Struggling very much with my eating! Still tracking most of the time but other times I am not! It seems I just don't have the energy anymore to eat vegetables and more vegetables and fruit and fruit and lean protein and so on! And then all the planning that goes into it! Finding it very difficult now! It has been the hottest summer here since the 1800's and I am not interested in cooking in this heat! So much easier to just eat at a restaurant!! Still I do try to make better choices! Sigh <BR... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 16:36:13 EST day 30 - veins I hate veins, well not exactly what they are, I just hate seeing them through my skin. Unfortunately some of my weight loss has translated into having more prominent veins on my hands. While I do enjoy having skinnier hands, my wedding ring is also much looser and my fingers are less stubby, I do not enjoy having these more prominent veins. <BR> <BR> Ah well, if it means I look better over all I will take <BR> <BR> certainly not a reason to give up my new lifestyle! Thu, 31 Jul 2014 07:17:01 EST Day 31 - the music calls me While I was doing the couch to 5 k program, I downloaded a collection of very upbeat running songs. They have a very strong beat and are full of energy. I listen to them all the time while running and my steps fall in time with the tempo now!! <BR> <BR> Well today is supposed to be the hottest day of the year here in St. John's! Heat warnings have been issued and indeed it is already very warm and humid at 6:43 am, as I type! I was very worried about getting my run in today given the forecas... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 05:19:29 EST Day 32- The fabrication Yes...the time is nigh. Consulted with the eldest child yesterday, the one about to be wed about the frock I must select for the event. <BR> <BR> I will subject myself to the wiles of the dress shops next week. I am already in dread of the event but maybe I shall be surprised. <BR> <BR> However, it must be done! Whatever fabrics in whatever shape, the result will be the same. I will be me! Tue, 29 Jul 2014 06:35:41 EST Day 35, 34, 33 - sick/final run/ I feel very unwell. I am having the worst period of my life. I am cramping and super plus tampax is just a joke! There has fgot to be something else out there to help women at this stage of the game. I wish my gyno would just take out my uterus but she refuses!..I mean it is not like I want to use it to carry anyone anymore! <BR> <BR> I did get my run in on Saturday! The last scheduled one on the couch to 5 k program!!!! I actually smiled the whole way through it. I thought about the very f... Mon, 28 Jul 2014 06:43:31 EST Day 36 - tomorrow is 9 weeks later I have one run left to do to complete the couch to 5 k program. Actually tearing up here. I started off thinking I could not do it. I mean what is a fat 48 year old woman wih blood pressure issues and diabetes thinking????, you think you can run!!!!!!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> Well I have proven that voice wrong. I have accomplished the 30 minute run goal twice now during my two previous runs, so I KNOW I can do it on the last day of week 9! <BR> <BR> I was going to do it this morning but ... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 05:18:08 EST Day 37- Weight is stuck I am surprised every week that my scales is not moving. Some days I am very surprised that is has not gone up even! The reno week for example...myself and hubby ate out every evening and I did not spare the calories and I am still the same. This week, I have been not too bad,,,and the scales is the same. I have been running 3 times a week for 9 weeks and the scales, while it did change by a few pounds in the first couple of weeks, now just stays the same. <BR> <BR> Sometimes I wonder if it i... Thu, 24 Jul 2014 04:56:43 EST day 38 - note to self, running makes me feel good!!!!!! Ok, yes I do feel better today! Right now that is but I didn't at 5:30 this morning. Had a bad sleep night again with the heat and humidity. Thankfully it was 15 degrees at 5:30! I literally dragged myself out of bed to go running. All the while this voice in my head was saying.."omg, I can't believe I am doing this, I can't believe in 5 minutes this body will be running"..and then when I hauled on the sneakers and clothing I had already laid out from the night before.....the voice went on..... Wed, 23 Jul 2014 06:07:33 EST