REDWRITINGHOOD's SparkPeople Blog REDWRITINGHOOD's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Baby Steps Lead to Success I don't know if it will help to know my healthy lifestyle change process, but just in case here it is: <BR> <BR> I used to make these lofty, huge, life-sweeping goals--and then I didn't make some or all of them and I quit. I was well intentioned but life made it difficult to focus and I probably wasn't ready to make this a priority. (This was just me, this may be you or not even close to you). <BR> <BR> This time I was older, wiser, and more determined to be a healthier me. I made small cha... Wed, 11 Jul 2012 18:38:36 EST The Fat Girl in the Mirror <BR> I still see the fat girl when I look in the mirror. Granted I’ve not lost everything I’ve wanted to yet, but I’ve lost a lot (56 pounds to date). <BR> <BR> I used to look at pictures of myself and hated what I saw—mostly because it didn’t match the vision of me in my head. Now I look at pictures taken of me and I am amazed at how much thinner I am, and yet when I look in the mirror I see the fat girl. <BR> <BR> It’s not a matter of self confidence. I know I am a great mom, student, ... Tue, 1 May 2012 16:05:34 EST February Update It's been almost a year since I lost my husband. During that time I gained some weight, some perspective, this site, and the great people here. I've also lost almost 50 pounds! <BR> <BR> I've moved slowly but surely toward a new life. I've looked ahead more than backwards, putting one baby step in front of the other. <BR> <BR> Oddly enough, one thing I didn't expect to find found me. New love. <BR> <BR> We knew each other from high school and recently started talking. It was a friendshi... Sun, 19 Feb 2012 12:50:59 EST January 2012 Goals I chose to avoid making goals for December, other than to keep up with the goals from November and to add some core strengthening with Exerbeat. <BR> <BR> January goals: <BR> <BR> #1 - Continue to track nutrition, fitness, and other goals. <BR> <BR> #2 - Continue to drink 8 or more glasses of water a day. <BR> <BR> #3 - Continue to embrace healthy eating for a healthy lifestyle. <BR> <BR> #4 - Keep doing Exerbeat for core strength and Wii dancing for aerobic exercise. <BR> <BR> #5 -... Thu, 5 Jan 2012 16:14:16 EST A Trip Back in Time Losing weight is like taking a trip back in time. <BR> <BR> I sat here thinking about the last time I weighed what I do today. It's been about three years. Before I lost my husband. Towards when I started my BS degree. <BR> <BR> I continued this thought pattern and imagined a steady loss towards my goal weight, and I can begin to see how losing weight is like taking a trip back in time. <BR> <BR> Soon I will be at the weight I was before I started having kids. It won't be long after tha... Sun, 20 Nov 2011 10:08:26 EST Hospice Remembrance Ceremony Last night I went to a Hospice remembrance ceremony. It was difficult to get through, but I think it was good that we went. My son decided to stay home, but the girls all went with me. The ceremony was beautiful and moving. It was based on a Native American ritual for dealing with grief and saying goodbye to your loved one. It wasn't easy, but I think it was important to do. <BR> <BR> When it came time to give them the leaf with my husband's name on it and say "In remembrance of my husband, ... Wed, 9 Nov 2011 12:29:23 EST November Goals The past few months have been hectic with the move, but I've kept tracking and I've seen some great results! I am so encouraged to keep up with my new healthy lifestyle! Thank you Spark People! <BR> <BR> November goals: <BR> <BR> #1 - Continue to track nutrition, fitness, and other goals. <BR> <BR> #2 - Continue to drink 8 or more glasses of water a day. <BR> <BR> #3 - Continue to embrace healthy eating for a healthy lifestyle. <BR> <BR> #4 - As moving and unpacking reduces, add more reg... Tue, 1 Nov 2011 17:51:14 EST Some thoughts about loss and dealing with it. At first I think I was in shock. It was hard to feel anything because when you did you fell apart. I couldn't fall apart. I have four kids to think about. <BR> <BR> It's been just over six months now, and I think the shock is starting to wear off because I'm starting to cry more now. At the very least I tear up over everything. <BR> <BR> After the first month or so the Hospice counselor wanted to meet with me. I really didn't want to. It was probably one of the best things I could have do... Wed, 28 Sep 2011 14:23:06 EST 100 things about me... LAST: <BR> 1. Last beverage?--- Tea <BR> 2. Last phone call?--- My TRIO advisor (it's a school thing). <BR> 3. Last text message?--- My buddy, Karen :) <BR> 4. Last song you listened to? --- Imagine by the Beatles. <BR> 5. Last time you cried?--- this morning. <BR> <BR> HAVE YOU EVER: <BR> 6. Dated someone twice?--- Probably, it's been a long time since I've dated. <BR> 7. Been cheated on?--- Not that I know of... <BR> 8. Kissed someone and regretted it?--- Hmm, I don't think so. <B... Wed, 14 Sep 2011 13:53:11 EST Lost some inches! I took my monthly measurements and I discovered that I lost 2 1/2 inches. So, while I didn't lose pounds this week, I'll take that loss :) <BR> <BR> I noticed the inches lost were in my thighs and in my hips. I'm thinking that was due to the extra walking (just around and up the stairs) I've been doing. <BR> <BR> This will have to be a short blog again, as I am still trying to pack and cram in the usual daily life stuff, on top of homework. <BR> <BR> Until later... Mon, 12 Sep 2011 21:49:33 EST 6th and 7th weigh in I've been super busy packing and getting ready to move, so I skipped the blog for the 6th weigh in. <BR> <BR> 6th weigh in = 1 pound lost! <BR> <BR> 7th weigh in = 2 pounds lost! <BR> <BR> New ticker total = 14 pounds lost! <BR> <BR> 4 more pounds to go to my next goal! <BR> <BR> Yeah, it's a good day <em>334</em> Wed, 7 Sep 2011 08:55:56 EST Me A to Z Saw this on another blog (who saw it on another blog) and decided to pass it on <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> A. Age - 44 <BR> <BR> B. Books - Right now it's textbooks, since I am studying to be a teacher. I love to read most anything, though. I am also a writer, and hope one day you will be reading something I wrote and say, "I loved it and couldn't put it down!" :) <BR> <BR> C. Chore - That sounds like work. I don't like to do boring old work. :( Since some things HAVE to be done, I try to ma... Thu, 1 Sep 2011 15:42:21 EST Positive signs and I'm embracing them! I love the continued weight loss, but that's a once a week thrill. I need a few things in between to keep me motivated. <BR> <BR> 1) I REALLY wanted a Twix when I was in line at the grocery store. It called to me. It sang beautiful music to me. I think I could even smell it's chocolate/caramel goodness through the wrapper and three feet away, but... <BR> <BR> I didn't get one. (Go me!) Rather than feeling deprived, I told myself I could have some of my dark chocolate or a chocolate fiber ba... Wed, 31 Aug 2011 13:45:56 EST 5th weigh in Just a quick note (because we are still in the middle of moving and I've got the added list of homework checking for the kids and homework for me) to say: woohoo! Lost three more pounds! <BR> <BR> <em>104</em> <em>224</em> <em>104</em> Tue, 30 Aug 2011 07:58:55 EST Rough week emotionally I think the shock of losing my husband is wearing off. I am feeling a bit wobbly this week. <BR> <BR> A bit lost. <BR> <BR> We've been packing up for the move, and that includes his stuff. Most of it I've put into bins to go through when I'm ready. Some of it I can't help but look through. I found a journal he wrote in before he and I met. I never knew he wrote in a journal--or if I did I'd forgotten about it. It was about his first experience in the military--boot camp. Then there are the ... Thu, 25 Aug 2011 00:43:17 EST Analyzing the 4th weigh in 4th weigh in = 0 pounds lost and 0 gained. I am not sure how to feel about that. I'm not upset, per say, but I'm not happy about it either. Harumph! <BR> <BR> If I were to analyze it, my guess is that I ate fewer veggies this week. I track every day and never go over the top end of my range. I didn't exercise as much as last week, but then the first week I didn't either, and I lost 5.5 pounds! :P <BR> <BR> I'm not giving up. I will keep at it, because I believe this will work. Plateau's hap... Fri, 19 Aug 2011 23:56:25 EST 3rd weigh in... and the results are: 2.5 pounds! <BR> <BR> While I am happy it went down again, I was a bit bummed that it was only 2.5 pounds, lol. Silly right? <BR> <BR> So I thought about it--because I have been very good about tracking and even worked out some this week--and I've come to the conclusion it was probably due to building muscle or a it is due to a monthly type of bloaty weight gain. <BR> <BR> If it's the first thing, then building muscles is good. If it's the second thing, then it will be... Fri, 12 Aug 2011 23:18:33 EST Many ways to measure... I explored the measurements page and tried it out. It was very interesting, rather than depressing--although I had one or two depressing moments. <BR> <BR> What I knew: <BR> <BR> --I have a high BMI <BR> --Damn, I am big, but I carry it well so that made it easy to overlook. <BR> --I need to take an honest "before" picture, but I'm not looking forward to it <BR> --and I am not posting that picture until I have some good loss behind me. <BR> <BR> What I discovered: <BR> <BR> --I have a go... Wed, 10 Aug 2011 15:44:33 EST Really? We were supposed to close on the new house last Friday, and when that didn't happen it was supposed to be tomorrow--but they still don't have everything they need! Most of which they should have at least STARTED prior to last Friday, right? You'd think so anyway. <BR> <BR> While it's not every time now, I still see him on the ground next to where I park in the driveway--struggling to breathe, me giving him CPR by myself, then with help from the police. The ambulance taking him away... <BR> ... Mon, 8 Aug 2011 23:42:14 EST 2nd weigh in Okay, my first weigh in was 4 days before I started (weigh in last Friday--freaked me out). <BR> <BR> I started this Tuesday (thanks to HealthyWriter's blog). <BR> <BR> 2nd weigh in was today and I've lost 5.5 pounds already! This has been really easy so far. I'm not deluding myself, I know it will get harder, but I am so excited! This is the first time in a long time that I've gotten excited after weighing myself. <BR> <BR> <em>304</em>! <BR> <BR> <em>244</em> Sat, 6 Aug 2011 00:38:55 EST