REDVELVET21's SparkPeople Blog REDVELVET21's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Traumatic Gift(s) I had one of the hardest questions this week to answer! <BR> <BR> Q: In the midst of a traumatic experience, what was the gift that you received? <BR> <BR> A: I am not ready to answer that yet..... <BR> <BR> I know that some people are a ways in their walk and they can answer this however I am not there yet. I know that for me I am still on my journey of recovery and I feel that in life there will always be something to come through. I do know that in the midst of it all that we must keep... Sun, 22 Feb 2015 14:20:31 EST Huge Step Coming up.... There is a time that comes along when you have to stop playing the safe route and just get out there and do what you need to do and move on..... Sun, 15 Feb 2015 17:51:05 EST Adjustments.... I am going to have to make some adjustments. I had a schedule change put into place and now its like my whole schedule has been thrown off....Time for some readjustments.... Wed, 21 Jan 2015 21:31:56 EST Let it Go.... (not Frozen) This week I learned through a dream that I am developing more on my self awareness and release skills. I am learning to let go of people and things that no longer serve any purpose to me or that I no longer do so for. I am noticing more of when I am no longer growing, or helping growth to occur then it's time for me to move on!! Sat, 17 Jan 2015 23:53:29 EST Grace I truly believe I am where I am because God is taking me somewhere special and he is bringing along someone special as well...... Thu, 15 Jan 2015 20:12:51 EST Alternatives... I went to the gym however it was too crowded and busy so I left. I have been using commercial breaks to walk around the living room and throughout the house trying to catch my 10,000 steps. On the first and the fifteenth of the month I will be inputting my money for the 10,000 step days!!! So I will share how much I have made every two weeks. I am doing good so far, so on the 15th in 2 days I will share how far I have come so far!!! <BR> <BR> Tue, 13 Jan 2015 19:53:16 EST Chatter Box Okay here we go..... <BR> <BR> I have been tested by the doubt in my mind the last few days and its funny because in church last night we talked about this being one of the weapons that the devil uses. I posted that I wrote an apology letter to someone who did me wrong, however I felt the need to apologize in the way that I handled the situation. I have seen things that the person has posted about ignoring me however I continuously reach out to them. It made me feel bad because out of the w... Sun, 11 Jan 2015 17:01:05 EST Heart Tugs.... I took a moment to to write a letter to someone who I felt did me wrong, however I asked them to forgive me for the way that I handled the situation. I feel as though God kept telling me to look at how I responded regardless of what they did! We can't be responsible for what others do but we are responsible for our own actions!!!! I couldn't rest until I handled that... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 23:29:17 EST Chattering.... I truly thought that this morning the gym would be packed however it wasn't. I was surprised that not as many people were there because we all know that when the New Year hit then the gym is overcrowded and there are way too many people and not enough equipment. However because there weren't many people I stayed on the treadmill a whole lot longer and the gym staff even was extra nice. The gentleman at the desk was extra nice when I was coming and going. I even got to talk to a friend who is ... Sat, 3 Jan 2015 14:05:35 EST A day Late and a Dollar Short.... Yesterday I didn't reach my 10,000 steps goal, so therefore I didn't earn my dollar..... I <em>39</em> However today I am earning that dollar, right now I am 728 steps away, so don't think that I am going to be here too long. I took advantage of taking two teens to the mall and while they browsed the clothes in the teen clothing areas I walked around the mall. I didn't make it to the gym I woke up feeling groggy. My voice is raspy and constantly clearing my throat however today is not over ... Fri, 2 Jan 2015 20:08:52 EST Last day of 2014 I have said that I am not going to make a NEW YEARS RESOLUTION.... However I am tempted to make some goals for the beginning of the year!! I like to refocus each month and make changes according to my goals for the previous month and for January 2015 puts me at the half mark until I turn 36!!! <BR> <BR> So for January I want to continue working out and reaching my goal of 10,000 steps a day! Each day I reach it I am going to put $1 in a jar and when I reach $100 I will be able to get someth... Wed, 31 Dec 2014 14:09:29 EST Gym Buddies I love my gym buddies!! <BR> <BR> I have one who wants to encourage me to continue on my journey and I love the inspiration and then I have another who thinks the best thing for me to do is to take supplements to help with weight loss and then another who thinks I need to wear a suite to help with weight loss and baby oil to help sweat more.... <BR> <BR> I am learning that there will always be people who want to give advice freely, some helpful and some just not what we need. I listen becau... Mon, 29 Dec 2014 15:05:51 EST Positive things to think about.... #1. The journey of losing weight is sometimes a merry go round, the best thing we can do is to keep trying until we get it right keep and stay on our journey for weight loss until we reach our goals. <BR> <BR> #2. The journey is more than seeing the numbers going down for weight loss but also about seeing progress from within an working on solving our issues with real life strategies rather than use food. <BR> <BR> #3. Being aware of our surroundings, people and food!!! So that we don't ov... Sat, 13 Dec 2014 12:24:09 EST Fitbit power..... Working on increasing my steps in order to lose weight and reach my goals!!! Sat, 13 Dec 2014 12:17:15 EST Trying to move on and make sense of it all <img src=""> <BR> <BR> The last three years have been a blur, however I know that the only person who is holding me back is myself!!! Having the courage!!! Sat, 6 Dec 2014 12:47:16 EST Work in progress..... I have come to the conclusion that i cannot rely on man to make me better however to look to God and work within myself to focus on me and become a better person by looking within me and working on me to fix my flaws. Thu, 20 Nov 2014 16:52:08 EST 6 Weeks until...... 6 Weeks until the NEW YEAR!!! However its my 1/2 way mark until my 36th Bday!!! I have fallen and yet I keep getting up. I have 6 weeks to make some changes to get a head start of the New Year Wagon!!! I am on it, Losing weight is more than the physical, its also the emotional baggage that comes with it. I have learned so much about myself these past 3 years. I am learning to cope with loss in a different way, I don't if its worse to lose people to death or to just the change of journey in ou... Sun, 16 Nov 2014 16:16:05 EST Happy Birthday to Me!!!! Tomorrow I turn another year older and another year wiser!!! I am working to get to where I want to be and I know that it doesn't happen overnight but I am working on it!!! <BR> <BR> My goals for this new year to come: <BR> <BR> Work out getting in 10,000 steps a day!!! <BR> <BR> Lose weight at a healthy pace!!! <BR> <BR> Go to the doctors for my annual check up, eyes check, and dental visit!!! <BR> <BR> Let go of the Dead weights in my life!!! <BR> <BR> Be better each day than I w... Sat, 19 Jul 2014 17:54:00 EST Changes So far since I have been working out changes that I have noticed include : <BR> <BR> My tummyskin is pulling side to side when I do sit ups or the elliptical. I take that as its getting smaller and when I wear certain shirts they no longer hug my tummy like they used to and they no longer seem short but they have somehow gained some length. <BR> <BR> I am now making the conscious thoughts of what I am going to eat, however what's going to fuel my body properly. <BR> <BR> Little steps help... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 15:48:25 EST Counting down.... Why does it seem as if when the new year and our birthdays come is the time we really reflect and vow to make the new year a better year than the year before. I am counting down until my birthday on Sunday and what great way to start it on the beginning of a new week, new age, new year. I am just wondering what am I going to do to make the new year better than the previous year has been. January I set out to accomplish some goals before this birthday but I have not reached them.... am I disap... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 23:07:46 EST Journey..... Trying to lose weight is a journey. Its a journey to see all that is wrong if you look at things a little more carefully. There are so many obstacles to get around to get to the gym when you are trying to workout. Friday I didn't work out because I had to do my car registration renewal after work that took me nearly 2 hours ..... then a meet up with a friend for a party.... Saturday I worked out twice but in the midst of going to workout a friend who I was supposed to meet up for a brief mome... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 11:43:28 EST Fitbits can be contagious...... Ever since I have started using my fitbit other co workers have caught onto the buzz of wanting and purchasing one as well! Its fun to get fit together because we motivate one another by the dashboard. I am #2 right now out of 7 friends!!! My top friend has 89,000 steps from the last 7 days and I am following with 84,000! I have been getting over my 10,000 step per day challenge for the GiveIt100!!! I am going to keep going and get this!! Wed, 9 Jul 2014 21:49:40 EST My Tools Inspired by LilHobbit29 !!! <BR> <BR> My tools to help with weight loss!!! <BR> <BR> #1. <BR> <BR> #2. The App for Pandora it helps with music when I am working out. My favorite stations are Rihanna, Beyoncé or even Black Eyed Peas because the music is up beat and keeps me inspired to move. <BR> <BR> #3. App Water Your Body (android) <BR> It helps to send me reminders to drink water, keeps track of my consumption and helps me to reach my daily goals <BR> <BR> #... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 00:14:45 EST Success or Failure I know that one of the ways to succeed at this weight loss journey is to surround myself with others who are on the same journey! I have learned that coming through situations in life we sometimes put off our goals in order to meet the needs of others and I am guilty of putting the needs of others before me, holding onto fears in the midst of storms or even shutting down and those are not the way to success however I am learning that a way to success is to acknowledge those things and do what... Sat, 5 Jul 2014 21:22:55 EST Working out and Water!!! So today I got off early, I went to the gym and got my workout in, as I was walking out of the door one the soldiers on detail asked me was I going to workout tomorrow, I told him yes, he said you should stay home and chill out! Lol funny, I told him that I enjoy my morning workouts and that I don't get to do them too often so I was going to be there early! However then I was thinking I don't sleep in on the weekends because I am so used to waking up early throughout the week and then when I... Thu, 3 Jul 2014 20:34:48 EST Mindset I had a battle with myself today!!! Go workout or stay home and sleep. I am tired! I want rest, but because yesterday I didn't push myself as hard as I should have I know that today I needed to get up and <em>311</em> ! I decided to get up because I want results. I want to be further today than I was yesterday. Well in order to get a step ahead I have to get out and do better. I have to make sure I put forth effort. I have to get out and workout, eat right and stay emotionally balanced. I ... Tue, 1 Jul 2014 21:28:28 EST Highs and Lows I feel like sometimes the weight loss journey is filled with highs and lows! <BR> <BR> Today I walked into the gym not feeling like working out but I know as soon as I get started then I will be inclined to finish my mission. Upon working out this guy comes up and start telling me to stick with it, it will pay off. I politely said Thank you! and kept working out. He decides to come closer and ask me how often am I working out, what am I eating and then........ he calls over another guy to a... Mon, 30 Jun 2014 21:51:26 EST Nuggets NUGGETS are good things that have happened! <BR> <BR> 1. Another gym member came to me to say how much they admire that I get in the gym early on my weekends, when I could be sleeping in. <BR> <BR> 2. I found a great salad that I enjoyed from Walmart! A seafood salad that is 520 calories for the whole salad but its supposed to be for 4 servings and I feel that half for lunch and half for dinner works out fine, or just one meal! <BR> <BR> 3. A friend who I haven't seen in a couple of week... Sun, 29 Jun 2014 21:36:01 EST June Victories!!! July Plans * I started the Give it 100 Challenge <BR> <BR> *I completed round 1 and started round 2 of the 21 day fix <BR> <BR> * I have lost 6 lbs <BR> <BR> * my shirts aren't hugging my belly like before, however I still have some to lose <BR> <BR> ***July Plans*** <BR> <BR> * Lose 10 lbs <BR> <BR> *continue working out <BR> <BR> *KEEP SPARKING* <em>252</em> <BR> <BR> Sat, 28 Jun 2014 15:08:55 EST Whats your Value??? I can spend a lot of time on the things that have gone wrong in my life or I can spend time and be thankful that I am still standing! I choose option B but to me its an A+ option because I don't have the time or the patience to dwell in what has happened to bring me pain, things that have happened to break me apart but look at how God has used it to repair and restore me!!! I have come through some things and I know that its not over but I know that things are going to get better! I also know... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 22:13:51 EST Day 9 of my Giveit100 challenge!! I am putting in my steps!!! I had someone tell me that they think my fitbit isn't accurate in my step count however I am busting my tail wearing my fitbit to calculate my steps 24 hours a day except when I shower. I felt offended but its okay because my progress is going to show off in the long run! Ifind it funny when people overestimate how many steps they think they have walked and I know the reality of getting these steps in. I am in love with my fitbit!!! Its a great motivator!!! Walking... Tue, 24 Jun 2014 18:58:24 EST Day 8 of the Giveit100 Challenge I am still running the race!! I reached over 16,000 steps on my fit bit and my challenge is to get over 10,000 steps per day! I am not complaining! I am really trying to lose this weight and make some changes to my life! I can't wait to see where I am 100 days from now and where I am 6 months from now and a year from now! I am going to succeed at this game! I want so badly to be slimmer, trimmer, fitter and finer! I am going to get there you just wait and see!!! Its coming!!! I am going to lo... Mon, 23 Jun 2014 22:07:16 EST I didn't plan for weight gain.... but I am planning for weight loss!!! All of this weight to lose and I didn't plan to gain any of it. I guess you can say I did at the end of the thought because for one I didn't take the precautions not to gain it. I didn't plan my meals to keep from gaining and I didn't take control of my emotions, nor did I workout strategically to keep from gaining. <BR> <BR> So I have learned my lessons and I know I will be continuously learning new things along the way. I have lossed and gained before, I am tired of the cycles and that st... Sun, 22 Jun 2014 12:55:02 EST Day 4 Still going strong!!! Give it 100 Day 4 check in here!!! I hit the gym today and I got in 14,010 steps in and I did some strength training from my 21 day Fix workout program!!! I need to improve in my eating on the late night cereal kick. Sometimes at night I eat cereal out of a teeny tiny bowl. However I am going to lose this weight and take everything one day at a time. Wed, 18 Jun 2014 22:36:52 EST Day 3 of the Give it 100 challenge!!!! Today I made my steps count! I really want to achieve this weightloss!!! I have hit my 10,000 steps mark. I am actually at 12,851. I am happy for that. I am battling a summer cold right now and its no fun! But drinking lots of water, salt water gargles and sweating out this cold will help me to get this out!!! I am aiming for health and rewarding myself based on non scale victories!!! I am going to go back to weighing myself once a month on the first of the month. I don't want to be obsessed.... Tue, 17 Jun 2014 17:59:17 EST Give it 100 Days Challenge!!! Yesterday I started the Give It 100 Days Challenge!! <BR> <BR> My goal is to walk 10,000 steps a day!! I was already on that goal through my fitbit but I was falling short, so now that I am going for a 100 day streak I am keeping tabs on accomplishing my goal. I have a calendar that I have numbered it for the 100 days and Now I am going to do the stickies on a section of my wall to help keep track of my 100 days!! Day one I got in 14,562 steps!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Day 2 here!!! <BR> <... Mon, 16 Jun 2014 18:14:04 EST 21 days almost done.... 3 more days in this round, I haven't been perfect in my eating, I cheated today. I went to a church picnic and there was nothing that I could have on my plan okay only one thing!! "Watermelon" okay maybe two baked chicken! <BR> <BR> Menu: <BR> <BR> Hotdogs, Fried Fish, hushpuppies, rolls, cole slaw, potato salad, snow cones, ice cream and baked beans! Lemonade, SWEEEEEET TEA and WATER <BR> <BR> I think next time I need to eat before I leave because I ate, I ate a spoonful to taste of ea... Sat, 7 Jun 2014 17:06:53 EST Biggest Loser Inspiration I think its amazing that the show's Chris and Heidi Powell work together to help people lose weight. Its good to look within to help lose weight. I truly believe there are inside issues that we have not dealt with that could be keeping us as a hostage to the extra weight. I know there are some issues that I need to let go of in order to lose weight. Tue, 3 Jun 2014 23:43:46 EST Reasons Cont..... 14. To live a longer life <BR> 15. To feel better about me <BR> 16. To be able to inspire others <BR> 17. To INSPIRE myself <BR> 18. To live outside of my means <BR> 19. To feel confident in trying new things <BR> 20. To show my daughter a healthier side of me <BR> 21. to show myself that I can do this <BR> 22. to live a life outside of this box that I am in <BR> 23. to not feel so bad about myself <BR> 24. to not feel as though there are limitations on myself <BR> 25. to let go of all of the... Tue, 3 Jun 2014 00:32:05 EST #120 Reasons Ha ha can I really give you 120 reasons as to why I AM, NEED and WANT to lose this weight..... I am going to try!!! <BR> <BR> #1. I want to be healthier <BR> 2. I want to be smaller <BR> 3. I want to be able to fit into the booths at restaurants easier <BR> 4. Its easier to find clothes that I like without shopping at specialty stores <BR> 5. I don't crowd up the picture <BR> 6. I will enjoy taking pictures <BR> 7. I won't fear going to visit my family <BR> 8. I won't fear meeting new peop... Sun, 1 Jun 2014 17:37:25 EST 21 Day Fix I have been using the 21 Day Fix! One of my problems with weight loss is sometimes the right type of fuel for my body. However since I have been doing I have been using my containers to help me a lot with making sure that I am eating according to plan and the one time that I have cheated I have seen a little bit of difference in my body's reaction. I really want to succeed at this weight loss journey. I want to be at a healthy weight for so many reasons that I know I have to keep going!!! Sun, 1 Jun 2014 17:31:23 EST PR (positive reflections) I am focusing more on my food choices and trying to make the to be positive ones!!!! And not eat based on emotions but because I need fuel. Thu, 24 Apr 2014 01:18:16 EST Working to make a change Here's to new beginnings...... Take time to work on me, there are many roles that I have going on in my life that I am accomplishing and working on, however life goes on and I can't, won't and should never put my health on the back burner!!! Sun, 30 Mar 2014 22:57:11 EST Spring time!!! Well Spring is here, looking at all of the changes of things. I have to remind myself that I am changing, sometimes it feels like I am the same or not making any progress, however it takes time, things don't just change overnight. I am not stuck in a ruck but a diamond in the rough. Sat, 29 Mar 2014 15:19:35 EST One step closer today than I was yesterday! Its almost a new year, it's so natural to look back at the year to see what we have accomplished and where we are and where we want to go!! Fri, 13 Dec 2013 03:53:34 EST 5 weeks to go..... 2014 is coming, its right around the corner. Its coming and its not slowing down for a break! 2013 is getting ready to move out of the way. I am staying strong. Creating a new vision board for the new year. I want some things to manifest and make some changes that need to be made. Just looking forward to the new year. Sun, 24 Nov 2013 14:51:42 EST I came to fight.... Fighting for a better me, fighting for a positive outlook on life so that I can conquer the world. I am here to win, failure is not an option. I know that I can do this. Its not an easy journey but anything worth having is worth fighting for. I can see the results when I put in the work and that is what it takes. Dedication. I am! I am dedicated. I am here to win. I am fighting this journey!Fighting the fat, sweating it out making it cry. Pickin the right foods and keeping a positive outlook... Sat, 16 Nov 2013 10:39:56 EST Its a Problem.... Hi My name is Redvelvet.... <BR> <BR> I have a problem..... <em>39</em> <BR> I sometimes can't let go of the things and people who I should let go. <em>39</em> <em>480</em> <BR> I worry about what others think. <BR> I do somethings out of guilt when I really don't want to. <BR> I have a problem with moving on. <em>352</em> <BR> <BR> Now that I have noticed those problems I have to make some changes to turn those things around and do whats best for me! I can do this! <em>249... Wed, 30 Oct 2013 17:44:17 EST If you would like to make a call please hang up...... AND try again!!! <BR> <BR> Sometimes in life we go through things and we really need someone, not just anyone but someone to hear us out, to listen and advise us or sometimes just to hear us out and offer some type of understanding or reflection no matter what it may be. In those instances its as if life has stopped and we must react, however that's not always the case. Sometimes we must slow down or just <em>227</em> and do what we need to do in order to get through. I am learning that... Tue, 22 Oct 2013 16:36:34 EST Hungry.... I am hungry to live a life better than the one that I am living. I don't want to wait until I am older wishing that I would've could've or should've. I want to live a life that is comfortable of the skin that I am in right now. I want to live a life that if full of life. Sometimes I want to do more with my life. I want to accomplish more on my own with Gods plan of what is best for me of course. I want to know that I am doing what God has intended for me to do but some of what I want to do wi... Wed, 16 Oct 2013 18:54:50 EST