REDSHOES2011's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=REDSHOES2011 REDSHOES2011's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ My new gym is super.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5395392 Dear blog, <BR> It is a 24 hour gym so I have to pick and choose my times to turn up because of traffic flow.. Mornings and efternoons are frustrating but now not a problem as alot of people don't turn up early like I do. Funny enough, the figure competion gal whom got a silicone job done at my old gym also turns up at the same time I do most days.. She never says hello or anything like other people... <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/6/l361195731.jpg"> <BR> I am now ... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 16:08:58 EST Well they poked me and jabbed me- drove me half batty.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5395338 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/4/l742287553.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Dear blog, <BR> <BR> I have been to the hospital and my tumour is growing.. I have been jabbed so I screamed, <BR> poked so my face went numb 24 hours and half deaf from going though 1 hour in a MR scanner.. <BR> <BR> I have been blood tested, heart checked and talked to a very uninterested drug doctor whom looked my values and said we will talk the day before operation date.. I have all your stuff and your fi... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 14:57:50 EST Life just keeps giving me adversity.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5395286 I try to invite my kids home to eat healthy food as often as possible.. Just now both of them are in bad place financially because of social workers unrealistic expectations to both my sons mental illnesses.. <BR> <BR> My oldest broke down over a girl returning to a violent ex-boyfriend efter he declared his love for her knowing her 4 years.. <BR> My youngest son is more of a worry, he has his own appartment but just can't stand being there alone.. He is direct aggressive to his foster p... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 14:03:26 EST Went to the ear specialist today.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5369342 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1490834206.jpg"> <BR> I waited a month for my ear specialist doctor to get my surgical file from the University hospital that I attend to have my tumours removed.. <BR> <BR> Just for the record, they are benign but destroy by craving too much space.. I have had this form of tumour for 20 years. My last surgeon has retired so I am at the mercy of whom else they can find to do the job.. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/... Mon, 27 May 2013 13:18:36 EST Met my little sister- she loves to run marathons.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5360279 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1554720795.jpg">custom party. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1594011545.jpg">lost a few lbs <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/1/l416296912.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1421529889.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/8/l789828415.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l215592922.jpg"> <BR> I don't tell Vernitta my litt... Sat, 18 May 2013 14:10:52 EST My son has found out I am not so bad a parent.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5360240 Dear blog, <BR> I could have strangled my 18 year old thursday night 2 am.. I got a sms saying he took alot of pills and was extremely drunk laying on the sidewalk in the middle of town.. I got up washed quickly and thought better get to the hospital before he does.. He never turned up, so I handed the night duty nurse my phone number and returned home just incase the police came past.. <BR> <BR> It was right that he took alot of pills, but 2 nice American lads walked the 5 kms to my door a... Sat, 18 May 2013 13:23:56 EST A diary of a mom to adult ADHD kids- What is a economic mentor if they don't do their job.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5354081 I am not a person whom give up but I swear without using profanties I want put my hands around the social worker that found this economic mentor for my son.. My son has the right in denmark and I have it on paper to have social help from a traveling social worker to make sure his paperwork and bills are paid.. This was decided to his 17½ years meeting to find out what was best for him and so he could move away from home.. <BR> <BR> I find it very stressing to find his rental bill not paid ... Sun, 12 May 2013 14:07:08 EST Out the door 5:30 am and off to the gym.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5352760 <em>248</em> Got out the door got 60 minutes cardio done <BR> <em>248</em> Got a awesome leg workout done <BR> <em>248</em> Returned home showered and ate breakfast <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1399280418.jpg">got 2 US dollars Hecter hanged up <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l2034356996.jpg">doing some more work on my log cabin bedblanket.. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/3/l831050557.jpg"> <BR> Went to a ... Sat, 11 May 2013 05:04:16 EST Feeling alot better.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5352293 Dear Blog, <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/0/l700797763.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> I have been to the ear, throat and nose specialist.. He was visiable rattled and agrees I have to go to hospital- he has to find someone whom was good as my old specialist because he has retired.. I will find out on the 27/5 so have to sit tight.. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/2/l728049730.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/9/l998363957.jp... Fri, 10 May 2013 15:21:08 EST Annoyed.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5338254 I understand my son and why he is so depressed.. The teacher strike has dragged on almost 1 month, all students in my son age are not going to be finished to make summer break.. <BR> My son ordered internet and because of the prehistoric wiring in the college dorms a service man will have to turn up and install the box that should usually just click into the usual installation in most homes these days.. <BR> My son now has a microwave and a electric kettle.. He is waiting on a good friends d... Sun, 28 Apr 2013 12:54:05 EST Well my phone ring is never going to be turned down again.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5325874 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1637241623.jpg"> <BR> My photo my copy rights, I wanted one if he didn't wake up again.. <BR> <BR> My oldest son sent me a sms most other mothers would have a heart attack over 3.30 am.. <BR> He took around 60 ADHD pills + depression pills efter trying to cut his wrists failed.. <BR> <BR> I sat with him 6 hours, watching him fight for his life.. I hope the person involved whom pushed him to this is ashamed of themselfs.. <BR> <BR> He ... Wed, 17 Apr 2013 00:07:04 EST Well my specialist wasn't so smart in the mouth this visit.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5323989 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1581625242.jpg"> <BR> The ear specialist look at the tumørs and just started telling his nurse how large they were.. <BR> He could only guess it was really deep too as I have no ear spit gland anymore- the tumour has filled out the gap.. <BR> <BR> The doctor wants to read what my old special surgeon has written. I told him to his face that the specialist wasn't going for total removal but keep it reduced in size so it doesn't get huge.. Go... Mon, 15 Apr 2013 12:22:50 EST Getting a referral for number 6 operation on my neck.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5322882 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l122606430.jpg"> <BR> Every 2 or 3 years I have to return to the regions best chief surgeon at the ear, nose and throat cancer department 60 km's away to have my non cancer turmours reduced in size.. <BR> It takes up to about 5-6 hours for him to do his job and the plastic surgery to make it look almost invisiable from prying eyes.. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1828410126.jpg"> <BR> Just checking in to let people k... Sun, 14 Apr 2013 14:31:58 EST Sighs of relief.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5317833 Dear Blog, <BR> My youngest son had a good day at his practical experience work place Cafe Jens Otto.. I cleaned up his apartment and used a bag he purchased a headset in and accidently throw the receipt away. A lesson to my son to make sure he files important documents so if he needs it later he can find them again.. <BR> <BR> I am feeling alot better since talking to my psychologist. She thinks I am a strong gal, I have actually more mastering skills than most people she talks to and wa... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 00:09:08 EST Dum day turned out okay.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5315596 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1889161995.jpg"> <BR> My sister was in a warrior run, she did it in just under 1 hour.. We have the same interests but she would be hard pressed to get me into mud and wreck my workout threads like this.. <BR> <BR> My youngest son, was burned off by his last practice place.. It was a stupid supermarket and most of their food is out of cartoons and their salad bar is always looking like it have been recycled from the previous day.. The cook... Mon, 8 Apr 2013 09:45:22 EST Well moving does make a difference- I did alot today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5313636 Dear Blog, <BR> My back was annoying me and reminding me to go to the gym.. I got a good back workout in. I ate breakfast on my return from the gym, we 7th day adventists go to church on saturday so I shocked alot of my husbands old acquaintences by turning up 2 weekends in a row.. <BR> I returned home, made lunch then got the paper work for my sons move done and went out to visit him.. His room is small but okay, he has his own bathroom and they provide a bed, a table, 2 chairs, shelfs, cup... Sat, 6 Apr 2013 12:21:36 EST Okay? Thats strange but they know best... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5311547 Dear Blog, <BR> The oldest son got his rental contract to the college room and has moved out.. I don't mean to be mean, but my power bill will appreciate it and at the college they pay a fixed price for everything.. He has to find a fridge and perhaps will grab the microwave to make food.. <BR> <BR> The youngest is still shacked up with me, instead of stopping using the medication that gave him violent nose bleeds, they put the dosage up.. He returns to his education in 2 months in a tota... Thu, 4 Apr 2013 14:14:37 EST Another day in a adhd paradise.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5307028 The oldest boy is not sleeping, he does all nighers when he has holidays and there is threat of a strike by the school teachers next week.. Oh God "please" give the teachers the money so they don't strike.. <em>100</em> <BR> <BR> Goal with him is to get him to contact the college apartment board and get him moved as soon as possible before I blow up and throw his Logitech sub wuffer out the 2nd floor window in a fit of rage in the middle of the night.. <BR> <BR> The other son has been to... Mon, 1 Apr 2013 06:17:34 EST Yeah well son, if you had asked for help ages back.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5306274 It ain't easy to deal with a son whom has mental behaviour issues and has been under the weather keeping on top of his paperwork.. He freaked out this morning because his nose began to bleed violently. He was checked for blood pressure when he was admitted 14 days ago and it was 129/79 so a blocked nose from a cold, thin blood vessels (inherited from me) and nothing out of the normal.. <BR> <BR> I was at his appartment, as he slept over with us as is having a hard time being on his own.. ... Sun, 31 Mar 2013 12:10:45 EST Done list http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5305291 A good week despite the fact my oldest son is also now taking anti-depressives and my youngest son didn't make the deadline to fill out his papers for his school grant.. Oh well, I have a extra sofa and my other son has the money to move now so it is kinda nice having company if they didn't bring all their friends home too lol.. <BR> <BR> I went to church today, first time in ages as now don't have to stress catching a bus home.. One of my friends son and his wife has been to africa and ha... Sat, 30 Mar 2013 11:33:30 EST I have looked at my sons papers from the mental hospital.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5296305 I wanna kick a social workers ass so hard she won't sit down for a month of sundays.. My son is suffering from going from a foster family enviroment where they just gave orders to living alone handling everything on his own.. The hospital called my son retarded- well he is if people don't show him how to do stuff. However, he was useful man power in their strawberry gardens.. <BR> He proved to me he didn't understand rental contracts, how to use the washing machine complex in his flat compl... Fri, 22 Mar 2013 13:56:35 EST Oh another education on top of what I have.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5294872 We have a group of nurses whom specialist in helping people whom can't A. hold their bladder or b. bowels.. <BR> <BR> I am going to be a contact person for all resthome helpers in my area whom contacts this group when we have individuals with problems.. <BR> <BR> If there is a client whom uses more than the average they are granted free- I have to investigate if 1. the product is the right one 2. are they using it correctly and 3. does the problem need to be sent on to the hospital for a ... Thu, 21 Mar 2013 10:58:45 EST I hate it when people cause drama on facebook.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5292520 My son was witness to two people declaring war on facebook.. First thought was what has rexie gone and done now. But as it turns out it wasn't him or his classmates he hangs with.. It was between two others and it got out of hand into their classroom so badly teachers had to lecture everyone in the class to be more respectful and especially to people whom are unwilling witness to such looney behavior.. <BR> My son broke down and was admitted into a mental ward.. I hope those involved are ... Tue, 19 Mar 2013 14:27:13 EST It's hard making my oldest son co-exist with his ADHD/Autism.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5291244 He thinks he is all alone, but he hasn't looked around or realised his own mother had the same problems at his age and that his habits cost me.. I do life, even if it's not exciting all the time.. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/5/l257053528.jpg"> <BR> My new goal is weird to others but it is to own my own bed again and a door I can lock without debating with a son to have friends visiting without paying for them.. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/n... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 14:22:54 EST My sister ran her marathon :-) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5289761 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/7/l876041019.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1906496266.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/9/l697166019.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/2/l825479997.jpg"> <BR> I am so proud of my little sister Vernitta. We don't talk often but she gets the deal about healthy living. She had a chemist education and is currently going over to teaching.. <BR> We have the same mo... Sun, 17 Mar 2013 11:25:46 EST Omg that boy has a eating disorder.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5289541 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l123753310.jpg"> <BR> Rik brought home another friend this weekend omg is he rack thin.. That's him sleeping in my bed I gave to my son almost 2 years back (I still sleep on a mattress on the floor). His thighs are as thick as my biceps and I am trying to be polite here.. I hope my son gets off his butt and gets the paper work done for the college room soon.. He says he has a high metabolism but he doesn't eat anything.. When I ask him if ... Sun, 17 Mar 2013 07:55:12 EST Back to life and more quiet times.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5288804 Enjoying my new gym if I look past the fact I never got my keys back.. I just lack my mailbox key, but with a few bruises and a weapon I can fish up the post wih a little time.. <BR> <BR> I go to the gym every 2nd day now and rotation is back, legs, shoulders and chest. No pain or aches so wonderful.. In the summer I will turn up earlier before work as the gym is open 24 hours.. So I don't use any time in the afternoon, and can keep my apartment squeeky clean too.. <BR> <BR> I am going t... Sat, 16 Mar 2013 13:23:46 EST Oh so not a good day.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5282378 I found out that there is one lawyer handling the sale of my sons apartment block and another bankrupt firm appointed to collect the money from all the tenants. <BR> <BR> I confronted the lawyer wanting the rental contract papers and found out that the money <BR> the boys and I paid has gone into the wrong account. <BR> <BR> The woman at the office doing the money collecting was rather standoffish and couldn't do anything even if he didn't get a letter explaining the new account- because th... Mon, 11 Mar 2013 10:57:01 EST Oh my I hope today is a good day... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5282013 I cleaned up in the kitchen, took off several layers of crap off the floor. Got a trusty screw driver and removed a few layers of lime from the toilet and the handbasin.. Strong vinegar usually takes lime build up, but not this time so out with the heavy duty equipment and scrap it off.. <BR> <BR> Slowly get ready for today battles and wish myself luck.. I will never forget the look on the old landlords face when I told him not to use the boys rent as I have informed the advocate of the m... Mon, 11 Mar 2013 03:31:34 EST Love living in the city, it is the cardio workout of a lifetime.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5280827 Dear Blog, <BR> I have a feeling I will be changing my running shoes out more frequently now I have moved.. I bike down the mountain to work and at work, but it is all up hill push to return home. My work load is too heavy to walk it anymore so I bike around and now I have up qualified myself to take on more difficult jobs the bike ride helps blast out stress from the previous address.. <BR> I have dropped 1 kg since I don't have to take the bus anymore and with the weight training- well... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 06:43:46 EST Oh what a week, can I include I hate landlords to my list of pet hates. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5280022 Well my old landlord said I not trying to cheat you, that was last week. Have not heard from him (he says he has the flu). I reported the power into the electric board and have a copy of this if he tries anything silly.. <BR> <BR> Oh well you could have knocked me over with a feather, my sons landlord has gone broke and owes the tax departments heaps.. The young man I was given the apartment has panic anxiety like me looking in his letter box.. <BR> <BR> He saw a letter from a advocate an... Sat, 9 Mar 2013 11:21:45 EST Gym nightmares Ok? whom pushed my bag and where is my towel and keys? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5274426 Darn whom moved my stuff, I don't mind sharing the end of the bench but where the hell are my keys.. <BR> It got packed like sardines in a can and my towel and my house keys-disappeared while I put my socks on. <BR> Dang, I hope someone feels bad and returns them next time they are at the front desk- lucky my sons friend (whom is sharing my apartment until my son moves) was home and still sleeping. My son didn't take his keys so I could get replacements. <BR> <BR> No one can use my keys ... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 13:51:16 EST A hard white growth in my sons throat.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5272922 Cross in the house I got a shock, he said mom look in my mouth.. Sure enough there was this white thing, for reasons I didn't touch it because of the throw up reflex all people have. <BR> <BR> It is sitting next to his tonsil. So I paid the money to get a doctors appointment as soon as possible.. He gets lost in details so I found a doctor with a time he could made efter school. <BR> <BR> I wrote up the details, and the telephone number if the problem gets worse fast and what bus he has ... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 15:06:44 EST Rebuilding my life in the City.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5272707 Jumped out of bed, ate my breakfast and did a little house work.. 2 days left of my holidays, so I did another me thing today.. I went and got a new hair cut.. <BR> <BR> Not bad for one week <BR> 1. I moved to the city <BR> 2. Packed out my junk <BR> 3. Got the landlord to fix the dripping sink in the bathroom. <BR> 4. Joined a new gym and can now go every second day without worrying about a stupid bus <BR> 5. Got my hair cut <BR> 6. Making sure my oldest son doesn't go down with stress bec... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 12:44:04 EST I get a little upset when men think they know more than women at the gym.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5270679 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1845717133.jpg"> <BR> I have been doing this exercise for nearly 6 years and it helps me avoid medications for my back problems and is a stretch exercise. I use on my leg days to unwind with very little weight.. <BR> <BR> I hate it when well meaning people walk up and try to teach me stuff I already know. As long as I have good form and perhaps it is alternative from other people's train of thought but don't you guys hate it when people ... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 06:33:08 EST I contacted my previous landlord.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5269436 Cross in the house, my ex won't give up he has phoned my previous landlord for my new telephone 5 times.. <BR> <BR> My landlord understands and doesn't want to cheat me or will he give my ex my new number.. I ain't much for it, but will return one last time to allow my landlord to check the apartment some time next week. I may get some money back but just don't want any more confrontations with my ex. If there is a next time I won't back down until the police give him a write up on his re... Sat, 2 Mar 2013 08:45:21 EST Moved and underground a couple of weeks.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5268015 It has been a nasty time the last few months, but I have not allowed my ex to intimidate me. I found out he is plain bonkers and he says he has 5 people whom have seen me with another man.. <BR> <BR> Love to know whom this man is because I would like to think if I was going with someone I would remember this detail.. BUT the truth is I am single and staying this way.. If I find another guy he has to have his head screwed on right and his wallet in order because am tired of working my ass of... Fri, 1 Mar 2013 04:06:01 EST A update.. Waiting for the right apartment takes time.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5122536 The border my ex-boyfriend was off his head to night. He is so upset about his family not taking care of the family graves. I tried to point out that his dad had been admitted twice to the heart department in hospital with a blood clot they can't find as yet and has not be able to drive not to mention get down on his knees and pull up weeds from his grandparents graves. <BR> <BR> I tried I really tried to make a cosey evening with good food and a happy smile but he was phoney outraged out ... Sat, 3 Nov 2012 13:45:37 EST Wishes people well.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5048410 I have found another healthy lifestyle site that is free. No random comments, no drama and <BR> the "choice" to make a single entry private or public. <BR> <BR> No complaints, no ill feelings or going to work wondering if someone will take offense to my <BR> writing style or entries. <BR> <BR> As for the apartment - no matter what I am giving my landlord 3 months notice in November- perhaps December and then out of here to February-March. In the meantime I am cleaning up, throwing out and... Fri, 7 Sep 2012 11:04:44 EST A freelance resthome helpers job description. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5001598 Doing much better since I dropped the social side of things on sparkspeople. Trying to help people on sparks people is like taking my work load home and is unprofessional! So it stops and my personal needs are just the food tracker. I keep in touch with my body when to advance with my weight training and as for cardio, my job gets that in from 7:30 am every day at work.. In short how fit I am- determines how good my work day is bottom line. <BR> <BR> When I get in my door at home my pri... Sun, 5 Aug 2012 08:14:09 EST I am done.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4983308 It is tough enough I have to be silent in my own home exposed to mental torture and it is when I don't have enough money to just take out a bank loan and move out start over a third time or don't have network in a position to support me through any of my rough times I have had to build myself confidence up. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/9/l790116809.jpg"> <BR> <BR> If I have to sit here and wonder what the hell will offend people, and have anxiety attacks on a w... Mon, 23 Jul 2012 13:31:24 EST Part 4 Knitting projects I have completed.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4980655 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/7/l976275328.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/3/l437904832.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/7/l974200789.jpg"> <BR> Gone for my daily walk <BR> Cultivated my front garden <BR> and enjoyed the mixed bag of weather summer is giving.. Sat, 21 Jul 2012 15:17:16 EST Part 3 Knitting projects I have finished. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4976800 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/3/l93249948.jpg"> Wed, 18 Jul 2012 21:14:28 EST Part 2 New Knitting projects I have finished http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4972663 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/3/l934043594.jpg"> <BR> This autumns hoot hat for me. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/2/l425386010.jpg"> <BR> A basket weave hat too. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l132561234.jpg"> <BR> A cable babies hat too. <BR> More to come! Mon, 16 Jul 2012 10:57:12 EST New knitting projects I have finished. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4960509 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/6/l568092092.jpg"> <BR> Moved on to toddler size. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/2/l321845778.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/6/l763786758.jpg"> <BR> Fresh strawberries from the garden made into my jelly and accompanied with 2% greek yogurt. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l129840521.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Sun, 8 Jul 2012 12:33:19 EST Son explain yourself! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4949802 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/3/l339390940.jpg"> <BR> I removed Seroquel in both 300 and 100 mgs strength plus Abilify 10 mg tablets from my 17 year old son. <BR> <BR> Dear Blog and Friends, <BR> I had to send Mogens out of the house because it was wrecking his day me having to parent my teenager. I felt I had to have a very serious mother to 17 year old son chat. My son told me he got medications to help him sleep and relax. My immediate reaction was- whom the hell si... Sun, 1 Jul 2012 04:27:59 EST Well my oldest son is a dark horse, is starting a education! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4944236 I just got a little SMS that means something big to me. My oldest boy Rik whom has a double diagnose ADHD/Asperges, will be taking a education as a painter. He will be painting houses and buildings and it pays good.. <BR> It ain't what he originally wanted to do, but the counsellor thinks he can handle the school work. I worried about him, but he has control over things.. <BR> My other son has also signed the papers releasing him from his foster family- <BR> the next chapter of the story i... Wed, 27 Jun 2012 07:59:36 EST More knitting projects and trying something new! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4938960 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l194578550.jpg"> <BR> Just polishing up on 40 years of knitting techniques. My Nana taught me well and with knitting making a come back perhaps I can earn a little on my old hobby.. <BR> <BR> I saw this loom thingie on the internet, but it is taking some getting used to using.. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/9/l992098691.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/0/l501435807.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I ... Sat, 23 Jun 2012 13:04:42 EST 60 Minutes - Alice Waters US Food Guru whom preaches slow cooking vs fast food. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4936227 <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=0tPSmMR4ZUg </link> <BR> <BR> Alice Waters the US food Guru whom is spreading the slow food approach to eating food- she wants the US to healthier and greener. She is the author of many cookbooks.. <BR> Thu, 21 Jun 2012 12:23:07 EST Blowing off steam, youngest son didn't pass a vital exam.. Repeat it son! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4935769 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/1/l614795307.jpg"> <BR> <BR> It has been a really dumb and nice week mixed together.. <BR> <BR> Put my cat down, became a Grand Aunty and my son dumped a exam he has to repeat.. As for my son, I said fight for this education if this it it- if you decide to do something else I am here 1000% for you. No parental peer pressure to pass costing you your sanity.. Just do something you enjoy and is not a chore.. <BR> <BR> What does Red do when f... Thu, 21 Jun 2012 07:28:38 EST