RECREATING_ME's SparkPeople Blog RECREATING_ME's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community A Kick in the Rear For those of you who have been around since I restarted this journey in July 2012, you know that I have not had a smooth path to success. Yes, I am 25+ lbs down from my highest weight, and that's good. <BR> <BR> But honestly? I'm a big gal. 25 lbs is a drop in the bucket for what needs to happen. I've been on and off, up and down. Cognitively, I know what I need to do to make it happen. But (there's always that BUT!) I am my own worst enemy. I consistently get in my own way, and it makes me ... Tue, 25 Feb 2014 22:33:09 EST Need a Little Exercise Motivation? Get HAPPY! Have you seen Pharrell Williams' 24-hour video to "Happy" (from Despicable Me 2)? So awesome! <BR> <BR> <link> </link> <BR> <BR> The kids and I had a dance party to it this evening, and it was such a fun time full of smiles and giggles. I was quite tired by the time I was done, but it was the best time I had exercising in a long time :) <BR> <BR> Definitely planning to do this more with and without my children (and I hope this site stays up for a while) <em>30</em> ... Tue, 18 Feb 2014 21:44:27 EST Run (or Walk) for Meg I read a very tragic story about a woman named Meg Menzies, who was struck and killed by a drunk driver while she was out for a run. Here's a link to the article I read: <BR> <BR> <link><BR>s-miles/ </link> <BR> <BR> An excerpt from that article: <BR> <BR> "This Saturday, January 18, 2014, no matter what your distance, no matter where you live, run for Meg. <BR> <BR> "Take in the fresh air, be aware of your surroundings, keep your headphones on low... Thu, 16 Jan 2014 22:47:57 EST On Success With so much talk about “success stories” and being successful with losing weight, I’ve been thinking about what success means and what it looks like. How do you know if you are being successful? <BR> <BR> To try to look at this more objectively, I went to to see how they define it. Here are a few of their definitions: <BR> <BR> Success (noun): <BR> <BR> 1. the favorable or prosperous termination of attempts or endeavors; the accomplishment of one’s goals <BR> 2. a performa... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 01:28:28 EST Happy New Year! I can't believe we have started yet another year... It seems that the older I get, the faster the years fly by. And yet, it is still the same 24 hours in a day, 7 days a week, and 365 days in a year. <BR> <BR> Two and a half months have passed since my last blog post, and where have I been? For the most part, fending off illnesses in my children and myself. <em>527</em> Colds, fevers, earaches, pneumonia, a UTI... It has been a (seemingly) unending stream of germs -- or the same ones that ... Wed, 1 Jan 2014 22:27:26 EST Temptations Sunday is my official weigh-in day, though I do also check throughout the week. Needless to say, it's great to be 30+ lbs down from my highest weight, instead of bouncing around between 20-25 lbs lost. Of course, the fact that some pants that were fitting too well are now looser is also concrete example that things are going well. <BR> <BR> I have not had a week like this in a very long time. I tracked everything I ate and didn't take any extra licks in there like I usually have when doing t... Sun, 20 Oct 2013 16:38:03 EST Finally -- FINALLY Feeling the Spark Again! And I am pretty excited about it <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> I feel like I have been sputtering along for quite some time. I had regained a big chunk of the weight I lost last year, though I am grateful that I came to my senses this past summer and started turning the freight train around. While that was a good first step, I was stuck there for a few months, basically maintaining, but not making more progress toward better health. <BR> <BR> Then I had my bloodwork done last week for my check... Thu, 17 Oct 2013 23:26:22 EST Name Change I have been contemplating changing my SP username for a while since the other one didn't "add value" to my journey here. But, being the creatively challenged person that I am, nothing really came to me. <BR> <BR> Then I stumbled onto fellow Sparker STEPH-KNEE's page and read her blog post from today. In it, she talked about the negative mental tapes that rear their ugly heads when we are working to improve ourselves -- "What's the point? You're just going to regain it all again, anyway." "Yo... Fri, 13 Sep 2013 11:32:47 EST Small Changes Matter Lately, the changes I have made to my SP page have been as a result of quotes that make me think. Since the quote I just put up is so hard to read on my page itself, I'll put it here, too: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It's one of those "Yes, I know this, but I need to be reminded of it" kind of quotes. And the fact that this truth was brought to my attention twice in a 24-hour period, I thought that God might be trying to bring it ... Thu, 12 Sep 2013 13:20:30 EST Getting Back the Spark a Little I can't believe that my kids are nearing the end of their second week in school! And as much as I miss them during the day, a regular pattern is emerging: <BR> <BR> -I'm getting to be around 11:30-11:45 every night. No, not the 10:30 that I had been aiming for, but given that I have been getting up around 6:30 (before my alarm goes off at 7 AM), I am getting close to 7 hours of sleep! <em>102</em> <BR> <BR> -Meal planning has been off and on throughout my process, but I always feel bett... Thu, 29 Aug 2013 22:50:45 EST Must.Get.Sleep. I've been in a funk for a while and I have been struggling to put together the pieces. But then I had a small "aha" moment: <BR> <BR> 1. I have been feeling overwhelmed a lot lately. Part of it is my ADHD and will always be something that I need to manage, but this has been more than usual. Between the final push for DH to finish his degree last May (and I to take on more so he could focus on his studies) and child care falling through this summer (not a good thing for the self-employed), I'... Sat, 17 Aug 2013 22:02:36 EST Life on the Fly I originally was going to try to come up with something thought-provoking or interesting, but since it had been so long since my last post, I thought I would stop delaying myself and just write. <BR> <BR> There's not much new to say -- I am still finding myself struggling to get back the spark. It keeps going in fits and spurts. <BR> <BR> I was going well for bit, but then a friend very unexpected lost her husband to a heart attack. It was very sad -- they were so full of life and love toge... Thu, 15 Aug 2013 01:33:33 EST Feelings of Worth I have to say that I am glad that I got back into blogging and that I am working harder to go beyond the surface with my weight-loss journey. In addition to the much-appreciated support, there have also been some comments that have given me reason to pause and consider how they relate to me. <BR> <BR> In my last post, both DAUGHTEROFTWIN and HEYITSLISA mentioned worthiness, as in me believing that I am worth the time and effort that it will take to lose weight. In reading their comments, I b... Sun, 21 Jul 2013 14:16:03 EST Negative Tapes Thank you to everyone who commented on my last blog post and messaged me! Your support has buoyed me, and you have given much to think about over the past few days. <BR> <BR> TIGER_LILY_613 suggested that I blog about some of the things that have been paralyzing me and my efforts to work toward my weight loss goals and my health. She’s definitely right – talking about this and getting feedback is a great way to neutralize the power these issues have had in my life and gain some much-needed o... Tue, 16 Jul 2013 00:32:28 EST Help I have always been a helper. If my mom, dad, or siblings needed help with anything, I was right there. A friend had a problem? I was just a phone call away. I even worked in nonprofits for 14 years, helping people who were struggling with one issue or another. <BR> <BR> But one thing I have been horrible at doing is asking for help. This was never truer than over the past eight months. For one reason or another, I faltered with my weight loss. I got off-track, stopped exercising consistently... Sat, 13 Jul 2013 23:08:28 EST Dusting Myself Off Today is the one-year anniversary of when I started back on SP. When I stepped on the scale this morning, I found that I weigh 17 pounds less than what I weighed a year ago. <BR> <BR> This made me sad for so many reasons. For one, at the lowest weight that I was over the past 12 months, I had lost 46.5 pounds. For another, I have been slowly losing ground since last November. The habits that I adhered to initially went out the window for one reason or another and the weight has been creeping... Tue, 9 Jul 2013 00:00:19 EST Long time in coming... I knew this day was coming. I had been thinking about it and planning for it. Getting on the scale this morning confirmed it. <BR> <BR> This is the day I stop being a whiner and start taking responsibility. <BR> <BR> I get that the past six months have been more stressful than usual (hence my absence on SP). My husband has been in his final semester of school and working overtime, which threw my routine out of whack. I fell into bad habits of going on 5 hours of sleep a night, not planning ... Mon, 6 May 2013 11:08:23 EST Results from Weeks 19 and 20, and Remembering Zig Zigler So the holiday season is upon us, kicked off with a few days with the family over Thanksgiving. My weight went up about 3-4 lbs. That was actually a small success in my book because it usually is much worse than that. But, getting back on track food-wise has been pretty good this week. I need to get more consistent with exercising, though... <BR> <BR> I read in the news headlines that motivational speaker Zig Ziglar passed away yesterday. Such a tremendous loss :( <BR> <BR> A couple of his ... Fri, 30 Nov 2012 01:25:03 EST Results from Week 18 and Envisioning Success I am feeling back on track (just in time for Thanksgiving, fortunately!) I had a great weight loss at my last weigh-in that made up for the increase the week before, so I have lost a total of 43 lbs so far <em>192</em> A big part of that came from the video suggestions by HEYITSLISA (thank you! <em>41</em> ) It's great to have something more in the bag o' exercise tricks! <BR> <BR> On the blog that I write as a career consultant and resume writer, I did a post about guided imagery as a wa... Sat, 17 Nov 2012 01:14:18 EST Weeks 16 & 17 -- The Lost Weeks The past couple weeks have been a blur. It all started on October 25 since my kids were off from school for two days (nothing much is accomplished when they have off). <BR> <BR> On October 28, we went out for a fun afternoon of trick-or-treating as a family, which completely wore them out. A few hours after putting them to bed, I heard my daughter call to me, "Mommy? My throat hurts." I took her temperature, and it was 102. Dang. I gave her some honey for her throat and ibuprofen for her fe... Sat, 10 Nov 2012 17:15:19 EST Results from Week 15 & Musings About My Journey Even with the insanity of the past couple weeks, I lost two more pounds. At 37 lbs total, that is equal to my son's weight. It seems weird to think that, as recent as this past summer, I was hauling around a small child. <BR> <BR> As I was typing the title for this blog post, it dawned on me that I have been sparking for more than three months. Usually by this point, the whole diet and exercise "thing" is getting old and I just want to be done with it. I definitely have had a mind shift in t... Sun, 21 Oct 2012 14:54:07 EST No Week 14 Results The past week and a half have been less than routine, to say the least. Last week, I was in California for a conference. The weather was a welcome change from what we are having here in Wisconsin (as much as I love fall in Wisconsin, it's been rather cold and wet; the 60s and 70s of SoCal were nice). <BR> <BR> Here's a shot of sunrise from the balcony off my hotel room, which overlooked Mission Bay: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I ... Sat, 20 Oct 2012 00:11:00 EST Results from Week 13 & the Negative Side of External Recognition I was doing the happy dance yesterday -- not only did I re-lose the 2.5 lbs from before, but another 2.5 lbs was gone, too! Five lbs and a total of 35 lbs down :) While I was more focused on my goals during the week, part of this loss was due to water weight. Female hormonal fluctuations really wreak havoc on the scale... <BR> <BR> I find myself wondering when other people are going to start to notice. My husband has been able to see and appreciate the differences for a few weeks now, but I ... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 11:28:42 EST Results from Week 12 & Fighting to Stay Positive This week the scale wasn't so kind -- I regained the 2.5 lbs lost last week <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> The battle in my mind rages on. Just so many things to get done before my business trip next week! It makes it hard to be focused. <BR> <BR> But, I need to stay positive and to remember "I can do everything through him who gives me strength" (Philippians 4:13). <BR> <BR> A large part of success in most anything you do is related to attitude, and this is no different. If I choose to let the... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 23:40:54 EST A Belated Entry: Results from Week 11 & the Mental Game Time has gotten away from me this week -- it is already Thursday and I haven't done the usual update! Last Sunday, my scale showed a 2.5 lb loss for 32.5 lbs total. Thank you so much to everyone for the support <em>41</em> <BR> <BR> As I continue to work toward improved health, I can't help but compare this time with other attempts (and failures) from the past... <BR> <BR> - The amount I have lost thus far has just passed what I lost on my first concerted effort. Though I was labeled as... Thu, 27 Sep 2012 12:09:49 EST Celebrating Goals For the Spooktacular BL Halloween Challenge I am doing, one of the questions that it asked for today was, "How will you celebrate reaching your ultimate goal weight?" <BR> <BR> That was an interesting question for me because, in many ways, I am purposely not celebrating or rewarding myself for losing weight. Certainly, yes, I am happy when the scale responds to my efforts, but I don't have a reward system set up at this point. I guess it is my way of trying to normalize this as much as possi... Fri, 21 Sep 2012 00:34:33 EST Results from Week 10, NSVs, a Challenge, and Suggestions, Please :) So yesterday was another good day on the scale -- 1.5 lbs down, for a total of 30 lbs. <BR> <BR> I've been noticing a lot of NSVs, as well: <BR> <BR> -I went for some bloodwork at the clinic and chose to use the stairs. It was 28 steps from the first floor to the second floor (almost 3 stories in a regular house). I didn't feel winded at all after taking them. I stopped, expecting to have to catch my breath, but I didn't have to! <BR> <BR> -I am down a full size and then some. A pair of j... Mon, 17 Sep 2012 12:32:20 EST Nothing Insightful for Week 9 (But, Hey, I Lost a Pound) I don't know why I don't have much to say this week, but there's not been much going on. This is the start of the 4th week of school for my kiddos, so everything is falling into a normal routine around here. <BR> <BR> My daughter's ankle is healing quite well; I still see signs of swelling and it hurts if I do too much probing on it, but she's being careful because she doesn't want to be laid up again. That was not her idea of a good time. <BR> <BR> But, like I said in the title, I lost ano... Mon, 10 Sep 2012 00:06:52 EST Results from Week 8 and Clarity Gained from Crutches It was nice to have another good week. Four more pounds gone. That's 27.5 lbs lost since I started back on the road to health eight weeks ago. While I still have a long way to go, it's definitely progress. It's not yet to the point that people have started to comment, but I'm OK with that. In a way, I feel more pressure when that happens -- you know, the whole "How are you doing now?" and "Should you be eating that on your diet?" that people feel they have the right to ask once they know you ... Sun, 2 Sep 2012 22:15:55 EST Now That's What I'm Talking About! (aka Results from Week 7) Today was definitely a good scale day -- I lost four pounds! That makes a total of 23.5 lbs lost. After the relative stagnation of the past month, it was nice to see some progress on the scale. <BR> <BR> Though, to be honest, I can't attribute this to being rigidly focused. I was not consistent in tracking my food, sleep was a bit hit and miss, and I didn't exercise every day. <BR> <BR> However, I did a lot that was helpful. Last Sunday and Wednesday were special events that were loaded wit... Sun, 26 Aug 2012 08:16:54 EST Results from Week 6 and the 3 S's The scale looked exactly the same today as it did last week -- neither up nor down. That is a good thing considering that I had two of the three special events this past week. I got through the first one without much trouble, but the other one wasn't so great. Granted, I am making progress by being more purposeful about what is happening and I can tell that I am not partaking as much as I have in the past, but I still need to work very diligently on limiting my consumption at special events. ... Sun, 19 Aug 2012 23:57:19 EST Showing Self-Appreciation I had an interesting conversation with my 6-year-old daughter, my dear Miss M, last night: <BR> <BR> Miss M (trying to make her hands like the hooves on Olivia the Pig*): It would be hard to hold on to anything with two fingers! <BR> <BR> Me: Yes, it would. But did you know that some people are born with only two fingers on a hand? <BR> <BR> Miss M: Really? <BR> <BR> Me: Yes. Or some are born without an arm or a leg. <BR> <BR> Miss M: Wow... it would be really hard to do stuff without an... Wed, 15 Aug 2012 22:27:52 EST Results from Week 5 & Lessons Learned The scale gods smiled on me today -- I am down 1.5 lbs from last week <em>224</em> Given that I had gained a pound last week, this is a net .5 lb since I reset my goals in week 3, but a total of 19.5 lbs since I started back with SP a little over a month ago. I'm definitely happy to be back on track. <BR> <BR> Thanks to everyone who lent their support last week during my minor freak-out. The community here is definitely a big reason why people are able to refocus on their goals even when t... Sun, 12 Aug 2012 20:06:51 EST WARNING: This Post is a Downer So after Sunday's pep talk, I thought, "Alright, I got this. I can do this." And every day this week has started out well -- getting in a healthy breakfast, a nutritious lunch, exercising every day -- but then I crash and burn starting in late afternoon. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was especially appalling. It was the end of softball season potluck for my daughter's team. Knowing what is usually brought to these gatherings is crap, our contribution was a good-sized tray with fresh veggies and low-fa... Wed, 8 Aug 2012 12:48:45 EST Results from Week 4 & Gaining Perspective I may as well cut to the chase -- I gained a pound. <BR> <BR> I didn't exactly say "Oops!" like THINNYGINNY reported in one of her blog posts, but I didn't go into a self-loathing episode, either. It bummed me out, to be sure, but I stopped and thought about it: <BR> <BR> 1) Last week wasn't the greatest week for me for whatever reason. Exercise was not as consistent as I would have liked. I wasn't being as diligent about entering everything into the food tracker. It really could have been ... Sun, 5 Aug 2012 20:33:56 EST The Importance of Struggles <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I just read a really cool blog post from SOULWOMAN's blog: <BR> <BR><BR>_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4994668 <BR> <BR> It talks about how struggling benefits the development of a butterfly. Go read it -- there's much food for thought there. <BR> <BR> <em>12</em> <em>12</em> <em>12</em> <BR> <BR> You're back? Oh, good! <BR> <BR> This paragraph from it just hit... Tue, 31 Jul 2012 23:08:11 EST Week 3 and Starting Over -- Sort of For this morning's weigh-in, I lost another 1.5 lbs, for a total of 19 lbs gone! <BR> <BR> I was happy to see that given that this past week was a bit up and down, especially with my appetite. Weeks 1 and 2 went along well, and then the first part of this week, I was just ravenous. I'm not sure why that was, but I ended up making some choices that weren't exactly part of the plan. By the second part of the week, however, things settled down and now I actually find myself eating slightly less... Mon, 30 Jul 2012 00:55:18 EST Observations from the Successes of Others I have been reading many stories about people's journeys to their healthier selves, paying particular attention to the ones who have lost 100+ pounds since I am in that same boat. What keys to success could I glean from their experiences that I could apply to my own situation? <BR> <BR> I noticed some a few similarities among those who have had great success: <BR> <BR> 1. They have been at this for years. Not weeks, not months, but 2, 3, 4 years or more. It's one thing to talk about this be... Sat, 28 Jul 2012 16:33:10 EST Chasing Rainbows <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Earlier this week, my six-year-old daughter came bounding down the stairs to start the day. As I was continuing to get ready, I heard her call out, "Mama, come quick! See the rainbow!" On the ceiling of the living room was a small rainbow, which was caused by the morning sunlight hitting a CD jewel case on the window ledge in the precise way to create the effect. She was so delighted with her early-morning discover... Thu, 26 Jul 2012 01:23:31 EST Making Time for Exercise I have a love-hate relationship with exercise. Oddly enough, I love exercise itself (dang, did I just really say that? No way I would have said that 15 or so years ago...) <BR> <BR> But, really, it's true. I love to feel my muscles moving -- and they are there, just well-hidden. <BR> <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I love the realization that I can do more than I could just two short weeks ago. It encourages me to keep going so I can become stronger. <BR> <BR> <em>362</em> <BR> <BR> I... Mon, 23 Jul 2012 18:28:40 EST Results from Week 2 So I got up this morning, nervous about what I might see on the scale (when will I stop letting that thing intimidate me?) But I stepped on, and it was good news -- down another 6.5 lbs for a total of 17.5 lbs lost! <BR> <BR> Phew! That made for a happy day! <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> Two weeks into making changes in my life, and they seem to be going pretty well! I am doing things differently than I had been just previous to this (the three biggest changes right now are measuring what I eat, ... Mon, 23 Jul 2012 00:36:01 EST LOVING the Food Tracker <img src=""> <BR> <BR> With the major diets I have gone on in my life, there has been some component of tracking food. Two of those involved writing what I ate on a piece of paper or in a booklet. That pretty much went over like a lead balloon. I would lose what I was using to record my meals. Or I would be out with friends for a night of eating and drinking, and I would forget to write what I had eaten (or couldn't remember how much I'd h... Sat, 21 Jul 2012 17:00:32 EST Healthy Habits: Weekly Meal Planning Meal planning was not even a blip on my screen for the first 20 years of my adult life. I mean, yes, I understood what it was, but I didn’t make it a part of my weekly tasks. I just did what many people do – kept general staples in the house, came home after school or work with no clue what I would be making, and then rummaged around to see what was available. Depending on the day, if I didn’t find anything I wanted, I would either do a little grocery shopping to gather some items for whippin... Wed, 18 Jul 2012 20:32:00 EST Healthy Habits: Eating at the Table <img src=""> <BR> <BR> When I was growing up, meals rarely happened around the kitchen table. Only when there was some sort of family gathering (usually around the holidays) or when there was a special meal planned did we eat at the table. <BR> <BR> There were a couple factors that contributed to this. My dad, after working all day at his job and around the house, wanted to watch the evening news. And he was hungry, so he ate his supper... Tue, 17 Jul 2012 19:01:57 EST Results from Week 1 Today was the first weigh-in since starting back with Spark People. I felt so many things -- nervous, excited, scared. I was wondering where all of this was coming from since, as I said yesterday, there had been an unusual calm about this all during the week. Maybe it was the *first time* weigh-in nerves. <BR> <BR> So I stepped on the scale, looked down, and gasped. There had been a change, all right. An 11-lb. change. To make sure there wasn't a glitch with the scale, I hopped off and got b... Sun, 15 Jul 2012 15:24:14 EST More Ordinary than I Thought This past week marks my recommitment to living a healthy life using Spark People (the first time was, shall we say... lackluster). What strikes me as odd is how very ordinary this is feeling to me. <BR> <BR> You know how it goes when you decide to do something new. There's all the excitement with setting goals, planning, and the initial execution. For whatever reason, I am not feeling any of that this time. And believe me, this lifelong fat chick has been on many a diet in her day, so I know... Sat, 14 Jul 2012 17:10:54 EST