RAZORBAKER's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=RAZORBAKER RAZORBAKER's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Something's gotta give http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5357357 I have just about had it. I'm tired of gay men (designers, CEO of Abercrombie et al) telling me that I need to have the figure of a 14-year-old boy to be considered sexy. I'm tired of my size 2 friends telling me I'm not fat. I'm tired of my plus-size friends telling me I'm not fat. I'm tired of anonymous bloggers telling a size-4 cheerleader is fat. <BR> <BR> I'm tired of people offering "helpful" advice -- eat more veggies, go for a walk, drink more water...Just to set the record straight,... Wed, 15 May 2013 11:38:54 EST So, I haven't been here since November? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5241759 I saw my last post about new commitment...Yeah, that didn't quite go as planned. I guess if I confess my "sins", I might try a little harder. Something about accountability works for me. <BR> <BR> Here goes: I have friends who have food allergies and intolerances. The super-skinny one hardly eats at all, but always brings potato chips to social time. Food is always cooked, but it seems like oil is used more often that it should. <BR> <BR> Of course, no one is holding a gun to my head and ... Thu, 7 Feb 2013 15:12:43 EST Progress, but I'm a little peckish right now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5140559 So, I got serious and finally started to see some results. I'm trying my best not to stress eat, but the difficulties of my job this time of year make it hard. <BR> <BR> Anyway, it's 3:15 and I've eaten all my healthy snacks. I have a birthday dinner tonight at a chain restaurant, so I have to be very careful about food choices. <BR> <BR> Alas, I didn't space out my snacks very well, so I'm a little peckish. Must. Stay. Focused. <BR> <BR> Mon, 19 Nov 2012 15:18:30 EST going back to what worked in the past http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5134126 Years ago, I managed to lose almost 40 pounds on WW. After struggling with my weight for the past year, I had a revelation this morning. Go back to what worked. <BR> <BR> I'm not going to count points or anything, but I decided to do things like Lean Cuisine for lunch and a small chocolate or cookie for dessert. <BR> <BR> Let's see how that goes. Tue, 13 Nov 2012 14:19:54 EST I just feel like giving up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5132705 I can't seem to lose an ounce, yet everyone around me is so successful. One friend lost so much weight, you can see her ribs, but she denies "trying". It's hard to be the fat girl among the skinny girls. I have friends that are bigger than me and get mad when I call myself fat. I AM fat. I'm not obese, I'm OVERWEIGHT so that makes me FAT! Quit telling me I'm not. <BR> <BR> Just because I can dress to de-emphasize the rolls, that doesn't make me thin. Just because you can't see the fat rolls... Mon, 12 Nov 2012 12:15:12 EST Yeah, I'm THAT competitive http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5100156 I tend to do better when I have some accountability. I lost 40 lbs on Weight Watchers several years ago, but I really didn't get inspired to lose until I realized a friend was one dress size smaller than me. <BR> <BR> We both have suffered weight creep up. I've managed to stay very active, and have only gained some of the weight back. She has been less successful. <BR> <BR> Today I found out that she has lost 20 pounds. She and a friend have been working together in the process. (the other ... Mon, 15 Oct 2012 16:03:54 EST This is so hard (she said in a whiny voice) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5094305 I'm really starting to hate Halloween. Why? One word--Treats. Everywhere I turn, there's a candy dish chock full of 'fun-sized' goodies. Of course, if I eat them, I won't be fun-sized...I'll be the bonus bag. <BR> <BR> I'm chewing mint gum (sugar-free) like crazy, partly because it ruins the taste of candy and partly because it feels like eating. <BR> <BR> And after Halloween, I get the added stress-eating bonus of working retail at the holidays. <BR> <BR> Quick, pass the gum! Wed, 10 Oct 2012 17:18:43 EST Put your hands in the air and step away from the donut http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5082330 To celebrate a birthday, a co-worker brought donuts...lots of them. I had one. All things in moderation, yes? <BR> <BR> Right now, I'm waiting for someone to finish a project. Kind of a lull in the business of my day. To fill the time, I really want to grab another donut. I know I'm not hungry. I know I have healthy snacks at my desk. I know I've already had a donut today. <BR> <BR> Idle hands being the devil's tool and all, I decided to occupy myself by telling you all about my conundrum.... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 14:12:05 EST One step forward, two steps back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5068911 I step on the scale and it hasn't budged. It's so frustrating to see my thin friends losing weight. One went from a size 4 to a 0 without much effort. I can't seem to lose a single pound. <BR> <BR> I run. I bike. I take the stairs. I park far away. I do all the things I'm supposed to do, but this 50-year-old body feels like it just doesn't want to burn fat anymore. Gaaaaa. <BR> <BR> I know I sound like I'm whining or having a pity party. But I can't vent to the skinny girls. <BR> <BR> Ok,... Fri, 21 Sep 2012 09:35:21 EST Southern Pot Luck http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5067975 Forgive me Sparkies, for I have sinned..... <BR> <BR> We spent yesterday doing some volunteer work at a non-profit. As a thank you, the staff provided a pot luck lunch. Oh yeah, totally southern with 2 kinds of fried chicken, barbeque, 3 kinds of pasta salad, and countless desserts. <BR> <BR> My first mistake was to sit near the dessert table. No, my first mistake was to skip the salad/fresh veggie table. <BR> <BR> And to make matters worse, I knocked off a pint of frozen yogurt for dinner... Thu, 20 Sep 2012 14:15:49 EST Goal weight versus ideal weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5063329 I'm not going to read any more articles telling me that my ideal weight is 15 pounds less than my goal weight. <BR> <BR> It's like someone in the 'industry' just wants me to fail. I'm healthy. I have a resting HR of about 60. My blood pressure is healthy. I get lots of exercise. <BR> <BR> I don't want to look like a stick figure. I just want my jeans to fit a little better. <BR> <BR> Seriously, quit making generalizations about how much we should weigh. Mon, 17 Sep 2012 13:51:20 EST I cut my hair and lost my mojo for now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5060898 I went and got my first haircut in two years on Thursday...and apparently opened the floodgates on bad luck. <BR> <BR> The fuel pump went out on the car and I missed lunch having to deal with it. When I was finally able to go get something to eat, the stress levels were so high, I made a mistake at the ATM and thought I lost my card....Long phone call with the bank....found my card after I had cancelled it...could only afford a hot dog with the cash in my pocket. It was a bad day. <BR> <BR... Sat, 15 Sep 2012 21:37:23 EST Ups and downs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5057328 I've been feeling down lately and, being the running junkie that I am, thought a good run would help work out the stress. One mile in and my knee started hurting. I had to turn around and go back. <BR> <BR> I run with a group, so I told them to go on. As I made my way back at a slow jog, I got to enjoy the morning and clear my head a little. It wasn't the long run I was looking for, but a short run is better than no run at all. <BR> <BR> Today, I'm cutting off 8 inches of my hair. I've also... Thu, 13 Sep 2012 09:29:17 EST Time to get serious http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5054143 9 years ago, I lost almost 40 pounds on Weight Watchers. It worked for me for two reasons: accountability and actually acknowledging what I was eating. <BR> <BR> I'd go back, but the meetings are inconvenient and so is the cost. You are now my new group. My goal is to shoot for just a one pound a week loss. One pound. Twelve weeks. Fingers crossed. <BR> <BR> Today, the alarm went off before 6am and it was still dark outside. I thought about staying in bed, but my running group would be wa... Tue, 11 Sep 2012 10:06:53 EST So, how does this work? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5052837 Do I post my weight each day? Do I tell you how far I ran? What do I do? I saw this on the internet and thought I'd take a look, but I'm not sure what to do next. Mon, 10 Sep 2012 15:43:13 EST