RAYVENSTAR's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=RAYVENSTAR RAYVENSTAR's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Starting on The Engine 2 Diet by Rip Esselstyn http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5051268 Therapy has been tough but going well. Now that I am working on my mental and emotional health, I am setting some goals and changing things for my physical health. I have been reading the Engine 2 Diet by Rip Esselstyn and really like what I have been reading. I am going to start to change my diet over to a more plant strong diet. I have also successfully added a fitness/exercise component to my whole like makeover. I am not regularly exercising at least 15 minutes 3 to 4 times a week. I want... Sun, 9 Sep 2012 16:38:24 EST starting therapy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4952296 I finally found the courage to seek help for my depression and anxiety. I start group therapy tomorrow and will attend all day sessions 3 days a week. On one hand I am relieved to finally be getting some help and to know that I am not alone but on the other hand I am horribly afraid and my anxiety is very high right now. Part of me wants to call and cancel and stay in my house where I am safe. I know though that this is not the answer. I want to be able to go to the park with my kids, take th... Mon, 2 Jul 2012 17:04:39 EST Starting Again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4815657 I have headed down the path of weight loss many many times and usually my depression gets in the way. I start feeling like it is hopeless and I will never get anywhere. I am going to give it another go and keep telling myself that this time I will be able to change my lifestyle and also work on my self esteem and depression at the same time. My first goal is simply to just start reading the Spark and logging in to sparkpeople every day. Sun, 1 Apr 2012 20:44:42 EST