RAYNAC3's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=RAYNAC3 RAYNAC3's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ I'm a loser again (finally)!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6204530 It feels great to be a loser again!! <BR> <BR> Earlier this year I reached/tied my all time high on the scale. Not acceptable. I joined Weight Watchers and was ready for the weight to fall off. It did for the first few weeks, then I stalled -- for three months. Three long months of gaining and losing the same three pounds. This could lead a lesser person to believing they were a failure. Good thing I'm not a lesser person. <BR> <BR> This three months was clearly a period of trial a... Thu, 21 Jul 2016 20:55:46 EST Me and My Hamster Wheel http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6065982 I just had an epiphany of sorts. I'm my version of a hamster in the proverbial hamster wheel. I'm in motion, yet not really getting anywhere with weight loss results. <BR> <BR> Some of my efforts are inconsistent. I'm still eating too much and not burning off nearly the amount of calories I'm taking in. Hard to lose weight with more in than out. <BR> <BR> Lack of consistent preparation has not helped my inconsistent efforts. I do my version of a pity party (food included) and wonde... Sun, 10 Jan 2016 17:21:58 EST Life Happens - Flex with it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5897209 I have been working WAY too hard, too many hours for too long. It's not mandatory, it's my work ethic. <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> My New Year's "resolution" is to take a greater investment in me. This covers various aspects of my life: Work, food, exercise, finances, spiritual, etc. I have a 2-day weekend, this weekend!! NO WORK!! Had a massage earlier. There was a high degree of discomfort at first, but I was also VERY tense when I stepped through the door. Want to resume massages i... Sat, 21 Mar 2015 21:30:21 EST Reset -- again! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5783444 Time to reset and start my next round of weight loss efforts. I was disadvantaged by restricted exercise most of the summer (following car accident). It's easy to come up with excuses and denial for other excuses. <BR> <BR> Time to regroup and go at this again!! Sat, 20 Sep 2014 10:46:17 EST Time to stop giving back. . . http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5732529 In May, apparently, I was doing decent with holding steady with a +/- 10 pound loss for the past couple of years. Well, there's been a change -- probably more than one. That +/- 10 pounds has increased to a +/- 15 pound loss. I seem to be giving back my weight loss success. Time to stop giving back my success! <BR> <BR> I was in a car accident 05/17 and have been off my regular exercise routine since then. Doc says no exercise through August. Yikes!! It's not like I was tearing it up... Sat, 5 Jul 2014 12:50:55 EST Points for consistency ?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5686321 I've been close to the same weight for the past two years. TWO YEARS!! I've had a +/- of an overall 10 pounds in that time. The good news is that I've not gained more. The not as good news is that I've not lost more. <BR> <BR> I recognize I go through phases when it comes to this whole exercise and make better food choices thing. A phase I'm in right now is eat everything that's not nailed down and maybe consider doing some exercise. I know! Not the best tandem for weight loss!! And... Sat, 3 May 2014 09:19:15 EST Overdue Update -- Time to Get Real http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5298793 I was sooooo happy when I could accurately update my status and proudly change my icon to the Lost 40 Pounds icon. Right about now, that seems like a long time ago. I've gained 20 of those pounds back - most within a 5 month period. It seemed gradual -- yet constant or habitual. <BR> <BR> I recognized the error of some of my ways: increased stress, less activity/exercise, taking in more calories, increased food portions, poorer food choices and did I mention the increased stress? On t... Sun, 24 Mar 2013 22:25:41 EST Reality bites http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4929599 I found out one of my cousin's passed away yesterday. Separate from the sadness of this for me (I am very glad for my cousin who is no longer suffering from illness...) it just brings to mind how human we all are. Our bodies are vessels and how often do I treat mine the way it should be treated? Not nearly as often as I should! There are a number of thoughts that flood the mind with that general concept. <BR> <BR> I read somewhere of someone trying to have seven nights of doing right. ... Sun, 17 Jun 2012 00:58:52 EST Long time no massage http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4909220 Today I treated myself to a massage. I hadn't had one in YEARS!! So long overdue. Very relaxing. I've already scheduled my next one...and am looking forward to it!! <BR> <BR> <em>41</em> Sat, 2 Jun 2012 20:34:42 EST Off Day/Vacation Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4905087 I have been "off work" both yesterday and today, took them as "vacation days". Used them for an extended weekend out of town. Drove back in town last night. After actually getting back in town, made it home about two hours later (clearly I did not go straight home). <BR> <BR> Before I left, the house was a bit of a mess, as I packed in a hurry. Didn't want to plop down in a mess, so I tried to pick up/organize a little bit before heading to bed, needed to check in with folks to let the... Wed, 30 May 2012 23:13:52 EST Darn that Mind Clutter! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4903638 I seem to be a victim of that darned mind clutter again! <BR> <BR> I realize this as I have the recurring theme in my head that I need to "be still." My mind is restless, not at peace. I'm not sure that there's too much on my mind or that I'm not thinking enough about things...the right things/the things I should be focused on. Either way, my mind is restless. <BR> <BR> Perhaps if I was either better organized or meditated or I'm not even sure, I could either fit it all in and solve ... Wed, 30 May 2012 00:27:48 EST It's a family affair... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4901922 I'll make this brief...for me. <BR> <BR> Visited relatives out of town this Memorial Day weekend. Exceptionally nice trip. Saw family members it's nice to see and visit. Good for the soul to visit with them. One of my cousins graduating from high school. Interesting to see other family members (her siblings) growing up!! <BR> <BR> Many times family can be a bit frustrating, this has been a really nice trip!! <BR> <BR> <em>220</em> Mon, 28 May 2012 22:54:42 EST Happy Memorial Day Weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4898546 Thank you to all our Veterans and their family members for the incredible sacrifices they make for the freedoms we take for granted. <BR> <BR> <em>232</em> Sat, 26 May 2012 08:02:45 EST Best laid plans... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4898323 Today was the last day before an extra, extra long weekend. I figured I'd be at work a little late trying to tie up loose ends, but not nearly as late as I ended up staying. Oh my! Left closer to four hours later than normal. Not sure where the time went. But my desk is pretty much clear and I know where everything is at. I got LOTS off my to do list!! <BR> <BR> Since I do pre-emptive stressing, although I don't have to be back at work for seven whole days, I'm sure to stress at som... Fri, 25 May 2012 23:47:50 EST Lots happening this weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4895381 Just finished talking with my aunt. We did a rundown of things happening this weekend. Two birthdays, two graduations (both out of town - she'll be driving up to one, I'll be driving to another), another birthday celebration and that's just off the top of our heads. <BR> <BR> Of course, we will take time to honor our service men and women this weekend as well - and their families - for the incredible sacrifice they've made to our country. Thank you all!! <BR> <BR> <em>232</em> Wed, 23 May 2012 22:58:00 EST The Giggles http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4893811 The last couple of days I've had the giggles. Not sure why. I'm already a person who generally laughs easily. This latest case of the giggles has really surprised me lately because of the pressure/stress at work. Not really too much to laugh at there, but I've managed to get some giggles in there too. <BR> <BR> Like yesterday morning when I was in line for breakfast behind a guy with Eugene Levy eyebrows. This made me laugh. Young fellow, too. It's not natural to have eyebrows like ... Tue, 22 May 2012 23:04:29 EST Procrastination does not pay http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4890302 One of the things I'm really bad with is procrastination. I have a sizable list of things I put of, have been putting off, continue to put off, etc. One of those things, for the longest time, has been my weight loss efforts - but I can take that off the list. My weight loss efforts are sometimes slow, but they are there. <BR> <BR> Mowing the yard has been put off a little too long. My poor dog has been high-stepping when taking care of her business. And my mower kept conking out becau... Sun, 20 May 2012 21:26:29 EST New Toy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4889066 Not long ago I got me a new pedometer (I call them stepometers, because they measure the steps we take). I finally found one I actually like! <BR> <BR> In years past, I've bought different ones that have either fallen off the second time I sat down, stood up... Or counted steps while I've done nothing but sat in a chair, then not counted steps when I went up and down a flight of stairs... So frustrating!! <BR> <BR> Well, with this new toy of mine, I don't have those issues anymore. T... Sat, 19 May 2012 21:54:07 EST Blah Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4884951 The calendar may say Wednesday, but it's been more of a Blah Day for me. I blame work. Feeling both blah and anxious and confused and disinterested and other contrary emotions. Not quite able to fully embrace this change that's happening. Trying to, but too distracted with trying to take care of so many things at one time that I don't know how to do and getting mixed signals as to when to go where for the plethora of answers I need. I feel like no matter what I do, it's not good enough. ... Wed, 16 May 2012 22:52:17 EST A Better Bad http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4883317 There are many times when I don't eat right. But the good news within the bad is that on those occasions, my food choices are better than they used to be and my portion sizes are smaller than they once were -- and I'm not going back nearly as many times (for seconds and what not) as I used to. <BR> <BR> Baby steps... Tue, 15 May 2012 22:17:55 EST One of those days... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4881674 So, I'm trying to blog more and I have a sneaking suspicion a recurring topic will be my job. Today was one of those days. I used to really, really like my job - until earlier October - when the team's roster changed...for the worse. But I'm not gonna go into that now. <BR> <BR> We have a lot of growth at my job (it's true!) and there have been recent re-org-type changes. These changes include, but are not limited to a new manager with limited knowledge of the overall picture and new d... Mon, 14 May 2012 22:11:56 EST Not too painful this time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4880102 Since losing my Mother many years ago and not being a Mother myself, Mother's Day has not been a day of high celebration for me. I've gone through a range of emotions on Mother's Days past. Not all Mother's are good ones - true enough. However, there are many of us who don't have the privilege of having a "bad" Mother physically here to complain about. Heavy sigh. I miss my Mom so. I wish she could see me at this point in my life and I really wish I could have conversations with her. M... Sun, 13 May 2012 23:57:12 EST Saying it makes it "Official" right? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4878944 I've been teetering around the 40 pound weight loss mark for a few weeks, but hesitated changing my photo icon thingy from 30 pounds lost to 40. In the past, my weight has fluctuated so much that the week I "technically" had the 40+ pound weight loss, the following week, I would gain weight back and no longer be in the club. Well, it has been a few weeks and I have consistently maintained 40+ pounds of weight loss. (Yay me!!) and OFFICIALLY changed my photo to 40 pounds lost. <BR> <BR> ... Sun, 13 May 2012 00:49:45 EST Pleasant surprise on the scale...after Thanksgiving ?!? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4600026 Happy post-Thanksgiving everyone! It looks as if it's been forever since my last blog. It's clearly not something I do regularly. Not that I don't have topics, just haven't taken the time to blog. <BR> <BR> So, I got on the scale this morning — out of curiosity. My body has been feeling differently lately. I can't always tell if this is a feeling differently cause I'm thinner or feeling differently cause I'm not thinner. And sure, I could do the try on certain clothes thing, but righ... Sat, 26 Nov 2011 12:45:52 EST OSBH Deal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4120559 I don't go shopping for Over the Shoulder Boulder Holders (OSBHs)...aka bras...very often. With the size I wear, it's VERY hard to find them in most stores and I usually have to shop at a specialty shop or online. Either way, the cost is "prohibitive" unless I can find a great sale. Well, today I found a great sale at Macy's at one of their brick and mortar stores. I didn't think it possible. Well, it almost didn't happen. They tried to give me some hassle about how the price I saw was ... Sat, 26 Mar 2011 22:54:29 EST Good, Better and Best Numbers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4061879 The numbers just keep getting better and better, it seems. Last week at work we had the know your numbers body check with the cholesterol and blood sugar check. Those numbers were good. I was suprised the blood sugar numbers fell into the normal category considering I had brownies for dinner and donuts for dessert the night before (bad, I know...but they were so tasty. If it makes any difference, they were small portions of each.) <BR> <BR> Then earlier this week when I went to Curves I ... Wed, 2 Mar 2011 22:26:18 EST Whirling Dervish http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4036764 I can't keep a solid thought for more than four seconds tonight. I would say I don't know what my deal is, but I just have too much on my mind. I won't bore you with the list or even a starter list, but I just have too many things on my mind right now. Not bad things, not good things — well, I like to think some have prospects — but just a lot of things in general. Too much mind clutter, I call it. <BR> <BR> If one could lose calories from having thoughts and ideas run through their head... Mon, 21 Feb 2011 21:55:54 EST Season Finale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4033465 Yesterday was Senior Day or the last regular season home basketball game at Blackburn College. I've referenced them a time or two in previous blogs. On Senior Day, parents of the seniors usually make the trip, if they're not there for any other game. Well, I got a chance to meet some of the parents and it was truly a joy/blessing. <BR> <BR> Even in small, unconventional situation we don't know how we affect someone's life or how they affect our own. But it was really nice to see part w... Sun, 20 Feb 2011 20:56:39 EST Didn't see them coming ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4031065 This has been an odd week in the sense that I got compliments from unexpected sources. Two of them came from my boss. She NEVER gives out compliments. Well, hardly ever. She's one of those hard to please bosses and doesn't give many compliments at all. She's a task master and doesn't like excuses. Now that I've started her list of positives, she is one of the top bosses I've worked for and I've had several. <BR> <BR> I don't remember what all she said in her compliment, because I was... Sat, 19 Feb 2011 20:41:35 EST Self-admiration Club http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4028860 Maybe it's just me, but I recently had the thought that although I know I have much more weight to lose, I'm not in a hurry to drop a ton of weight NOW!! I kinda like the weight that I'm at right now, but don't plan on being this weight forever. <BR> <BR> I'm proud of the 16+ pounds I lost before Thanksgiving. And yes, I gained close to five (in increments of one pound here, two pounds there) over the holidays. I didn't think that was too bad, considering in years past, I could easily g... Fri, 18 Feb 2011 20:53:16 EST I'm pooped...but the job ain't done http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4025545 I'm tired today. We've been working overtime at work for the past several weeks and weekends and I think it's caught up with me. (We have a disproportinate amount of work that needs to be done compared with the number of people to do it.) I don't do a good job of pacing myself at work. I know I should and I TRY to, but somehow I always end up in fifth gear all day, until I'm near the point of collapse. <BR> <BR> Well, it's caught up with me. Before noon today I felt like I hit the per... Thu, 17 Feb 2011 14:25:17 EST Unexpected wardrobe issue -- Happy ending http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4024099 Last week, as I prepared to go to a funeral for a dear family friend, I ran into a wardrobe situation. The pants I planned to wear were falling off of me. These were fairly new pants that I purchased a mere few months ago. If I wore them, I would've have needed to walk with one hand holding up the pants as the other hand swayed freely. Not the best look in that environment. <BR> <BR> Another option was to wear a new pair of pants I had recently bought that was a size smaller, with a be... Wed, 16 Feb 2011 23:35:55 EST Where does the time go? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4021184 Some days I feel like I'm living my version of the movie Ground Hog's Day. I wake up, go to work, come home for a little bit, close my eyes for a hot minute and do it all over again. The amount of time I get to "enjoy life" seems minimal and the amount of time I spend working, going to work, coming home from work or stressing about something I did or should've done at work seems to consume the rest of the day. <BR> <BR> There seems to be hardly any time for me or what I want to do for re... Tue, 15 Feb 2011 23:02:48 EST Blackburn's "Super Fan" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3973155 I've been dubbed the "Super Fan" by my the women's basketball team of the college I graduated from, Blackburn College. I tend to get a little long-winded sometimes, but I'll try to make this short. <BR> <BR> Years ago, I was a mainstay at the basketball games — home or away games — and was known for my distinct way of rooting my team on (both guys and gals). As time passed by and the players I was familiar with graduated, I stopped going. <BR> <BR> A few years back, one of the player... Sun, 30 Jan 2011 01:21:11 EST Into the ordinary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3970287 I've decided that I've hit an exercise plateau. I think my body is ready to lose more weight, but I keep doing the same exercises, limiting my body's weight loss options. Overall, I think I'm doing good with not taking in too many calories (I'd know for certain if I did a food journal regularly!) <BR> <BR> But my bigger point is that I was thinking about my exercise and it's been pretty routine for the past several months. I need to change it up a bit if I want more/different results. H... Fri, 28 Jan 2011 21:35:30 EST Regular Attendance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3961414 Not long ago, I blogged that I use a manual treadmill. One of the things I've been working on is trying to walk on my treadmill for a little bit before work each morning. I'm happy to report that I'm doing better with this than I expected. <BR> <BR> My treadmill is in the very cold, cold basement and I think I mentioned it's a manual treadmill. How much more of a turnoff could there be? I can't think of much. <BR> <BR> A little after the new year, I started setting my alarm clock a... Tue, 25 Jan 2011 23:48:57 EST I went shopping! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3953654 Well, this isn't worthy of a news crew or anything, but in my world, it is a news flash. I don't do much shoppping...at all. In times past, this has been a task about as frustrating and as much fun as exercising. <em>234</em> I dreaded shopping for clothes with a passion!! Nothing fit right. If I could get anything to get around me it was too long. Why would I want to pay out money for that? Heavy sigh. <BR> <BR> Well, I've lost some weight since that last experience (I'm down nea... Sun, 23 Jan 2011 18:21:59 EST Alumni Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3951672 Today was Alumni Day at my college alma mater for the men's and women's basketball teams. I got a chance to see some of the people I went to school with so many (very many) years ago. <BR> <BR> To make a long story shorter, when I attended school, my on campus job title was assistant sports information director (SID), but I did all the work the SID was supposed to do AND my job. Apparently, I gained a reputation for being an avid fan of the basketball teams. <BR> <BR> Fast forward to... Sun, 23 Jan 2011 00:04:30 EST Substitution http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3948908 When I left for work this morning, the plan was to go to Curves after work and focus on my strength training. Well, I left work much later than I expected. Plus I didn't have my change of clothes with me, so I wasn't able to go straight to Curves from work. And Curves closes earlier than it used to (winter hours?) so that wasn't in my favor either. <BR> <BR> I really wanted to get my strength training in — mostly trying to get points for a team challenge. What was a gal to do?!? I cam... Fri, 21 Jan 2011 23:13:26 EST Good Weigh In This Week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3945498 Ok, sometimes "Good" is a relative term, but I was rather pleased with my weigh in. I'm down 1.6 pounds this week. It might not sound like much to some (especially avid watchers of The Biggest Loser, this total will sound puny). <BR> <BR> But I don't live on their ranch. I don't train with Bob, Jillian or the now known Unknowns. I don't use a Biggest Loser diet or workout DVD or any of their marketing products. I VERY LOOSELY try to follow the Curves Food Management System. For those... Thu, 20 Jan 2011 20:59:30 EST Seasonal Count Down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3939325 A local weatherman said the other day that there are close to 60 days left before spring is officially here. Personally, I liked the sound of that. I'm more of a spring/fall gal myself. My comfort zone is between 60-75 degrees. <BR> <BR> I miss the days where I can go for a walk outdoors without having to worry about slipping on ice or snow or not have to wear so many layers I can barely move. I don't want to be mistaken for the marshmallow stay puff gal. <BR> <BR> I won't miss the day... Tue, 18 Jan 2011 23:50:33 EST ...but it's a manual treadmill http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3935128 When I tell people how much time I've walked on the treadmill they usually look at me funny and wonder what my physical limitation is. That's usually a sign that I didn't explain that my treadmill is a MANUAL treadmill and not an electric one. <BR> <BR> On an electric treadmill, it goes before you're even on it. On a manual treadmill, it doesn't go until you make it go; resistance is involved. It's not nearly as easy to just get on and go like an electric one. If you slow down, it slow... Mon, 17 Jan 2011 21:16:32 EST Good problem to have http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3928306 So I'm at the point where I've lost so much weight that I need to get more clothes for work. I've put this off because my budget is not agreeable with a shopping spree right now. Tax return time is more weeks away than my need is and my car is vying for some attention, too. I've started walking around the office with one hand affixed to my pants (to keep them up) and the other doing some sort of distracting motion so no one notices the hand holding my pants up. It's a good problem to have... Sat, 15 Jan 2011 18:46:26 EST Getting better at doing bad... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3365305 Wedensday morning is my weigh in day. I didn't gain or lose weight this past week. Many times that would make me happy, but according to this food management system I say I'm on, I was supposed to gain about a pound this week. This means I didn't eat enough this week. <BR> <BR> But the good news within the not as good news is that I made better food choices several days this week. So, even though I didn't eat enough and every meal was not an USDA balanced meal, I did better. For examp... Wed, 23 Jun 2010 23:58:12 EST Everywhere I need to be http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3330627 It's been a while since I've blogged. I have a different job now and really like it. I spent a few too many weeks celebrating leaving the old jod and (separately) celebrating the new job. During this time of celebration, I threw caution to the wind regarding exercise, eating right, drinking enough water and alcohol consumption. <BR> <BR> I've told people I gained back 10 of the 25 pounds I lost last year. Well, truth is, I gained closer to 15 of those 25 back since January. Sure, I'm ... Sun, 13 Jun 2010 20:04:26 EST Awake yet ? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2432759 This is the first time I've been back to this website in over a month. Over a month!! Before my "hiatus" I thought I had mind clutter. A couple of weeks ago, my aunt passed away. She was the youngest sister of my Mom who will have passed away 20 years ago next month. Both lost their battles to 2nd round cancer. I know there's a more clinical term for it, but that's what I call it. There's a certain amount of emotional numbness and/or limbo I've been feeling. This is my excuse for not ... Sun, 27 Sep 2009 14:28:59 EST Mind Clutter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2339109 Not sure what to write. So much on the mind, not enough time. My work situation has me a bit off balance in several aspects of my life, including my ability to properly focus on my health and weight management. I've been off balance for several weeks. Trying to make small, baby steps towards progress: drinking lots of water (and not the fresh mountain stream kind!), going for short walks, trying to eat more fruits and/or vegetables. Some days are better than others. It's been a while s... Sun, 23 Aug 2009 13:41:22 EST