RAVENFAIR's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=RAVENFAIR RAVENFAIR's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Shine brighter then a shooting star, no matter where you are. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5237475 My blog title is from a song called Shooting Star by Owl City. Not only does it have a great up beat tempo (perfect for working out!), but the lyrics are so happy. Here is just an example of what they say: <BR> <BR> "When the sun goes down and the lights burn out <BR> Then it's time for you to shine <BR> Brighter than a shooting star <BR> So shine no matter where you are <BR> <BR> Fill the darkest night with a brilliant light <BR> 'Cause it's time for you to shine <BR> Brighter than a shoot... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 16:23:12 EST Back to the basic, back to something good? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5233550 It's been a few years since I have been on here. I had so much going on in my head, heart and life at the time that I stopped coming to Spark People. It was hard enough going through my day remembering to tell myself to breath and that maybe everything would be ok; I couldn't add one more thing in to remember. Life has still had it's up and downs since then, as life always will. I put my heart out there again and it was hurt, thankfully not as much as before and it is healing fast. I gained f... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 17:23:03 EST God gave me a little bread crumb trail, to bad I like carbs. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3888621 Well many many things have changed since I last wrote a blog entry. I wish I could say my life changed in a way I never saw coming, but that would be a slight lie. I think I really did see it coming, I just chose to ignore it and hope that I was wrong. Sadly I wasn't. Now I'm on a new path. A new beginning to my life and some days it is beyond scary. Starting over and trying to find the person you might have once been, along with trying to mesh that up with the person you now are can be diffi... Tue, 4 Jan 2011 13:18:21 EST Bad times and good... life is always changing. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3056968 Well, got some bad... or shall I say scary new this weekend, as well as some wonderful new today. So lets start with the scary, get it over with and get to hoping that things are going to be ok. Well on Friday actually I found out that the bf's little niece has a growth on her thyroid along with something happening to her pituitary gland (I believe). This is very scary as she has been in remission from cancer for over a year now. She was so little when she was diagnosed with cancer.. at just ... Mon, 29 Mar 2010 14:22:42 EST An award for me? Really?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2861417 Well apparently I was on SP enough in the month of January that I received an award for it! I can't even believe that. I saw in my email that I had received an award from SP and I was a bit shocked. I was thinking "what in the world would I be getting an award for?". Well now I know. I commented, tracked, spun the wheel, read articles and all that and I received an award. It feels good to be rewarded for doing something that I want and need to do. Yes, usually our reward is seeing our pants ... Tue, 9 Feb 2010 13:45:17 EST Happy Anniversary to.. ME! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2845208 I just realized today that this past Tuesday was my 3 year Spark People anniversary! How could I forget something like that?!! It's amazing how fast those years went flying by. I remember hearing about SP through a friends blog online. She had joined and it sounded cool. So off I joined, setting up my page and joining teams. I made a go of it for a bit and then I just quit. Don't know if I thought I couldn't do it, or what; but I left SP in the dust. Then finally one day I came back and I've ... Fri, 5 Feb 2010 14:10:43 EST Sometimes eating good isn't so good. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2831414 I love salad. I have always loved salad. If you gave me a choice of a hamburger and fries or a nice green salad with carrots, celery and other veggies, I would about 98% of the time take the salad. Which is good. I'm glad I have always loved my veggies and my fruits too.. which also makes me wonder if, I loved them so much how did I get to be so heavy.. but that is besides the point at the moment! LOL! This is the one instance in where my healthy eating got me into trouble. Saturday night the... Tue, 2 Feb 2010 15:19:24 EST The sickness has left the building.. maybe? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2794616 Well as to an update of how the bf is doing.. fine now. Apparently all he had was a very bad case of strep throat and broncitics. He was given a script for some steroids.. due to having serious asthma and a antibiotic. As of today he is feeling much better, so that is good. No more sickness and grumpiness! However on Saturday even though I went to bed only 1 hour later then normal weeknights and got up 3 hours after I normally would, I felt exhausted. We got up at about 10ish and headed out t... Mon, 25 Jan 2010 13:34:22 EST The sickness has arrived and I am frustrated http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2773132 Well there is a virus going around my house. So far I haven't got it yet, but I am worried. The bf is very sick, with what I am hoping is not the H1N1 virus. Today I have been trying to convince the bf that when I get home we will go to the hospital because this is not just a plain cold. He has a fever, chills, body aches, a cough.. in his chest I might add, a runny nose and a sore throat. So I am worried and I don't want him to get sicker, but he is being stubborn. I know even if I left here... Wed, 20 Jan 2010 16:03:05 EST Letter to the "Editor" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2640562 Not quite a letter to an actual editor, more like a letter to my apartment company's manager. Here is what I would say, if I even thought they would listen and take action. <BR> <BR> To whom it may concern. I have been calling ___ Apartments home for over 5 years now. The apartments are nice, the building's in good condition, even the parking lot clean, safe and well lit. I can honestly say that I've enjoyed living here, to me it's home. However there is something about this home that I fin... Thu, 17 Dec 2009 13:51:13 EST Frustration and learning to let things go. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2401937 This month has been a month of frustration. Frustration with things I could control and frustration with things I can't. The biggest has been the pains I've been having and getting my test results back. It's been 3 weeks since yesterday since I've had my ultra sounds done. The tech told me it would take about 4 days to get the results in. So I waited till the 5th day and called. That woman told me, no they take a week to read, but she took my name and phone # and said we'll call you when they... Tue, 15 Sep 2009 14:25:23 EST Goodbye Jellybean. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2247013 You think with a title like that this posting would be about food. It's about my sweet little fish Jellybean. Jellybean passed away last night July 20, 2009. Jelly didn't start off his life great. He probably sat swimming around in the pet store dirty fish tank for quite awhile before someone bought him. I bet he was hopeful that this person was going to take him home and give him a great life, but sadly that wasn't the case. This person was probably told... like most are by non educated pet ... Tue, 21 Jul 2009 11:23:34 EST Pizza.. my enemy, my friend. Alternatively titled Pizza - My Frienemy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2112720 Pizza. The bane of my existence, yet how I love it so. The one food that combines two of my favorite things together; bread and cheese. Thank the heavens that pizza doesn't taste good with chocolate on it otherwise there would be big trouble. I guess it could be worse though. I could like pizza topped with lots of meats, but I don't. I am pretty much a plain jane when it comes to pizza I really love. Just give me cheese.. or extra cheese and mushrooms and I am happy. Although if I am in the m... Mon, 1 Jun 2009 13:36:01 EST Paycheck to Paycheck...hard on the wallet and the waistline http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2003226 Ever wonder why when a lower income family is shown on TV, there are sometimes cases where the family is overweight. It could be because they don't know any better, it could be a medical reason, it could be because they are addicted to all those fattening foods. Or it could be because they can't afford to eat healthier. Now, I know that doesn't mean it's not an excuse, but it is a factor. Living paycheck to paycheck myself I see this. In our house there are 2 people, and only 1 income. The ec... Fri, 24 Apr 2009 15:47:02 EST While she wishes she was a dancer... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1751374 The whole line is " While she wishes she was a dancer and that she'd never heard of cancer she wishes God would give her some answers and make her feel beautiful." Amazing how one line of a song can relate so much to one persons life. I heard this song and that line just sticks in my head. I'm stuck now. Frustrated with how things are going, frustrated with how things are not going. I would like answers. Yet, I don't get them. Maybe I'm not looking hard enough. Maybe I'm not supposed to have ... Thu, 29 Jan 2009 14:16:02 EST Thanksgiving.... am I ready for this? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1573938 Well thanksgiving is a week from tomorrow. Now a good part of me can-not wait. I have loved turkey, mashed potatoes and stuffing since I was a child. Whenever we would go out to eat it I would either order grilled cheese or turkey, mashed potatoes with stuffing and usually the turkey would win. I would never try anything else and it could even be the hottest day outside, it didn't matter, it is and will probably will always be my comfort food. Anyway, so while I am looking forward to the foo... Wed, 19 Nov 2008 13:50:37 EST Take this sinking ship and point it home http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1221708 Yesterday was one of those days. Full moon, I have my "aunt" visiting, so I am exteamly emotional. To top it off, I missed a step yesterday and fell hurting my ankle. So now here I am 2 days before I leave for my uncles wedding, with an ankle that hurts and is hard to walk on. I freaking just bought new comfy wedge sandals to wear with 2 new dresses I bought! Plus I have been drinking pop more often latley and I can tell I really packed on the pounds. The legs of my pants are tight. They were... Wed, 21 May 2008 16:10:01 EST Life's like a rollercoaster ride http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1028210 It has been up and down lately. I have no clue if my weight has been up or down though. I was going to weigh myself when I got to the 'rents house on Wednesday, but I got there late and forgot about it. So until I get over there again, I don't know where I am at. Well last weekend I decided that I had to get new work pants. The ones I had were baggy and not flattering at all, not to mention that they didn't even fit me anymore. So I went shopping. It took flipping forever to find a pair that ... Fri, 22 Feb 2008 16:34:49 EST Better Times? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=966789 Well. Things are a tiny bit better, but I am not going to get all woohoo about it. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. So there is no use is getting completely happy when things are still not the best. However I do have a better sense of what I need to be doing and what I should be doing. It is going to take some work, but I need to do it. But things are better then they were. Its amazing how talking and not talking can change things, at first thought you'd think that it really woul... Mon, 28 Jan 2008 15:51:21 EST Still going http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=886181 Ok, well I still haven't been using SP like I should or even like I was for that matter, but I know I have taken what I have learned here into the real world. I know this because I see a difference in my eating habits and also in the scale. I had to go to the doctor on Monday because I got bronchitis. So off I went to the dr to get meds. Well they decided to weigh me, which is fine because I don't have a scale at home. Well with my winter boots on, I weighed 147lbs. I made a comment about it ... Wed, 2 Jan 2008 15:56:37 EST Time to get back to it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=803703 Ok, I haven't been on here in awhile. I can't even say it was because my life was so busy that I didn't have the time. I was busy, but it only takes a few minutes to get on here. I haven't worked out too much in the last few months. I got a cold and becasue I was so tired and sick I didn't work out. I'm like Jon in "Jon and Kate + 8", he said that he had a motivation problem.. I do to kinda. Jason has been keeping me really motivated. He does his workout everyday... he lifts weights and does ... Sat, 27 Oct 2007 13:10:00 EST Starting to see a change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=692198 Well so far this month has been filled with less body frustration and more good thoughts and better eating. I still tend to go a little askew on the weekends though. Thankfully, I am strong enough so I don't necessarily fall completely off track, I just don't eat the correct way I should, but I still eat fairly healthy. I need to get a note book so I can write down all the foods I eat. Not to really judge or completely critique what I eat, just mainly to remember what I eat and write down nut... Wed, 8 Aug 2007 15:25:35 EST Completely frustrated.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=661880 I was doing ok today. The day was going good, work was fine, I had nothing to worry about. Until I neeed to go to the store. I just washed my jeans yesterday so I put them on. They were kinda tight in my thighs. Yes I know they do shink after you wash them, but it still made me feel like crap. I guess I was half expecting that my jeans were going to be just as big on me after I washed them, as they were before. I know that's not true, but man I was hoping. At least then I could see some progr... Thu, 19 Jul 2007 20:49:47 EST Good habits are forming .. but so far I've been bad http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=656804 Well I started this blog entry about how I have been pretty good with what I have been eating latley. That was until I typed out all that I ate this weekend. I must say I didn't eat bad, but I didn't eat the best that I could. I could have not had those fries are 10pm last night. I could have stuck with just the cherries. I vould have not had any snacky stuff at the party on saturday, other then carrots, celery and fruit. I could have not had 3 slices of Little Ceaser's Pizza today for dinner... Mon, 16 Jul 2007 23:45:32 EST Maybe better... then again not so much http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=651303 Well I am doing ok. This week has been trying and it's not even over yet. I have been tracking my nutrition and that at least has made me happy. Before I was getting in more carbs then protein and my fat levels were higher then I wanted. I love carbs very much; bread is my very favorite, so it's been hard to stop eating so much bread. But I cut down. Looking at yesterday's tracker I had a good amount of calories, a good amount of fat, and my proteins were higher then my carbs. Even when look... Fri, 13 Jul 2007 10:23:49 EST A clearer head and a healthier heart. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=636802 It's been probably since the end of February since I have been on here. Why, you ask? Because I was being lazy and I was starting to give up. I had no reason to be lazy and no reason to give up... I just did. Something happend about a month ago that changed me. It changed how I thought. One night I was sitting in bed and my boyfriend came in and sat down next to me. He wanted to talk. With tears in his eyes he told me he loved me so much and although this was hard to say he had too. He said.... Wed, 4 Jul 2007 14:50:55 EST Feb 4, 2007 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=411560 I can't believe it is already February! Time has passed by so fast and here I am NOW trying to work on my New Years Resolution. In fact this would be the what... 3rd year of trying to loose some weight. I think that.. no I know that it finally hit me that I need to get in better shape is when these sholder nack and arm problem started. Back 4 maybe 5 years ago I had none. I also didn't have a stressful job or one that required me to sit at a desk 8 hours a day. Having a ton of tests done on m... Sun, 4 Feb 2007 11:12:19 EST