RASPBERRY56's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=RASPBERRY56 RASPBERRY56's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Still - #!@#! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5932446 * NO plans through Tuesday - this s**ks! Just makes each day interminable looooooong, drawn out and boooooooring - at least if I had WORK I'd have SOMETHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO - as of now, NOOOOOOOOTHING! <BR> <BR> <em>28</em> <BR> <BR> * Was "out for the count" yesterday due to sinus issues (that and suspected caffeine deficit - would account for the accompanying headache)........ <BR> <BR> <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> * Got a pretty $#!@# QUICK rejection email this morning - just sen... Fri, 22 May 2015 09:24:42 EST :( - $#!#@# http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5931796 Am officially a "worthless loser" - filed my first "dole" claim - nothing sucks out a spirit (or what's left of such) more than having to resort to that......... <BR> <BR> <em>28</em> <BR> <BR> Suddenly, search momentum is halted............ <em>28</em> <BR> <BR> Have NO plans other than to hang loose AT HOME ($#!#@#) and monitor a family health situation......... <BR> <BR> <em>28</em> <em>46</em> <em>234</em> <BR> Thu, 21 May 2015 06:11:37 EST NOW what? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5931274 ANOTHER health issue in family - When the $#!@# will this c**p STOP being shoveled @ me? <BR> <BR> <em>28</em> Wed, 20 May 2015 08:59:27 EST You score 100K points, and whaddya get? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5930662 .......not a h***uva lot, from what I see.........$#!@# miserable LIFE..... <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> Tue, 19 May 2015 08:42:11 EST MAJOR setback in self-improvement....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5929963 I've never experienced panic or anxiety attacks, but I gotta wonder if I did just that yesterday......... <BR> <BR> Dragged myself to a social event as I didn't feel like doing the usual for a change.......BIG $#!@# MISTAKE! <BR> <BR> Within 5 minutes of arriving I heard some talk about an acquaintance's JOB (person was out of work for a while, but is also experiencing some cool life changes) - and....... <BR> <BR> I. <BR> JUST. <BR> SIMPLY. <BR> LOST. <BR> IT! <BR> <BR> No, not in the se... Mon, 18 May 2015 06:27:38 EST Whoa, nelly! What a weekend! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5929509 Phone call after phone call after $#!@# PHONE CALL! On a SATURDAY, no less! I tend to shy away from using the phone - I'm more efficient with email and the *occasional* text - SPEAKING INTO A PHONE - NOT so much......... <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> But - get this - one of the contacts was a *recruiter* on a potential opportunity - now THAT certainly got my attention! I normally shut that activity down on weekends, but since there was a lot of momentum this week I figured - why not? I've de... Sun, 17 May 2015 09:18:57 EST Weekend begins........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5928962 Had a sudden appointment yesterday afternoon - went well, but I'm not gonna dwell on it - will keep plugging away until something good happens (I have other "irons in the fire" next week)....... <BR> <BR> Had to stop an interview process mid-call - couldn't accept the unstable nature of the assignment (I do NOT want to be employed one day and UN- the next, and for potentially a long time!) - I think I'll leave that kind of work to those who don't care about that (you know, students/homemaker... Sat, 16 May 2015 06:35:48 EST Glass half-______? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5928419 Not sure whether to say *empty* or *full*..........have been getting a few contacts, but the frustrating health issue with a family member (along with an extended family issue) is driving me up the wall! <BR> <BR> Yep - thanks to family, I guess I'll have to say 3/4-EMPTY at this point.......THANKS, FAMILY (NOT)! <BR> <BR> Gawd, do I EVER envy SINGLE PEOPLE! <BR> <BR> <em>28</em> Fri, 15 May 2015 04:29:04 EST SICK and TIRED...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5928099 of BEING HOME DURING THE DAY! 'NUFF SAID! <BR> <BR> <em>234</em> Thu, 14 May 2015 13:02:55 EST $#!# - KNEW this wouldn't last! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5926740 Had to deal with a DISTURBING PHONE CALL yesterday - hopefully I was able to smoothing things over and continue with my "moving on"..........I do NOT need complications right now while trying to get back on my $#!@# FEET! <BR> <BR> <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> On top of that, FAMILY MEMBER disturbed sleep due to $#!@@ COUGHING! (That and the horrible heat in the house - too early for AC yet, IMHO - just boiled my blood! I don't care if I'm working or not - disrupt my sleep and things get UG... Tue, 12 May 2015 06:14:49 EST Post-Mother's Day musing....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5926150 Nice weather, nice meal, event (local ballgame - met the former manager and their mascots)..........home team pulled out the win last-minute.........had phone issues so I couldn't save anything for posterity, but that's OK..........I'm more concerned about getting back to WORK..........yep - back to reality and frustrations..........but at least I had that "moment in the sun"......... <BR> <BR> I hope you all had a fine Mother's Day...... <BR> <BR> <em>213</em> Mon, 11 May 2015 05:46:03 EST Mother's Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5925609 I wish all moms a wonderful day, and for those who have lost theirs (as I have), may you find peace, comfort, and loving memories to guide you through this day....... <BR> <BR> Have a nice day planned - and the weather should be fair, though warm (and there may be some slight chance of rain - which is actually needed, though)...........while I feel calm and in a neutral mood for now, I have myself on high alert for swings (pushing workouts longer than normal has helped somewhat - a strange ... Sun, 10 May 2015 05:28:14 EST Crash, burn, recover, repeat...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5925157 Looks like there's a definite pattern here........ <em>101</em> <BR> <BR> Once again I could NOT deal with an evening meal - took to bed early and just did NOT care.........woke up fine - no hunger or discomfort...........starting anew as if nothing happened.........I guess if I lose a few pounds I won't really have a complaint............it is odd, though, that this would happen more than once, since I've generally had a good appetite - perhaps *too* strong at times......... <BR> <BR> ... Sat, 9 May 2015 03:55:27 EST Continuing to push hard..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5924710 Am still getting contacts/calls, but nothing is going any further, and that's starting to anger me........ <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> Pushed hard on the workouts this week (what else am I doing beside the search grind, anyhow?)............. <BR> <BR> ALL. <BR> I. <BR> WANT. <BR> IS. <BR> AN. <BR> END. <BR> TO. <BR> THIS! <BR> <BR> ON. <BR> MY. <BR> TERMS> <BR> <BR> <em>234</em> Fri, 8 May 2015 08:56:07 EST $#!@# computer! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5924327 This slow computer is messing with whatever kind of routine I'm trying to establish while I'm in h**l (home)............I swear I'm thiiiiiiiiiis close to throwing it out the window (I'm now on the second floor so it'll be funny to watch - not so funny for me, but you get the point)! <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> Thu, 7 May 2015 14:18:22 EST Would rather be somewhere else, but...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5923122 ........a few things have been accomplished, work search-wise..........extended my workout, but I'm not sure I'll get outside for a walk as I fear my usual seasonal allergies are about to kick in again (I did stock up on OTC meds, though, for the "long haul")....... <BR> <BR> <em>101</em> Tue, 5 May 2015 14:45:23 EST One more humiliation to go......... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5922215 ......and as painful as that may be, I only hope that I *can* do that.......... <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> Mon, 4 May 2015 06:25:21 EST Roller-coaster....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5921829 Geez Louise, the mood swings - and I'm pretty sure it's NOT the hormones, but the stressful situation! <BR> <BR> Another horrible day of allergy discomfort and ornery computer behavior............weather would have been beautiful if I were in the mood to even acknowledge it, much less appreciate it............ <BR> <BR> And how's *this* for painful irony.............I got a SparkGoodie from one of my teams proclaiming me "member of the week"........sooooo, I'm like "Really? For WHAT, eh?" <... Sun, 3 May 2015 13:45:22 EST Substandard existence officially begins....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5920611 Yesterday did end with dignity - I'll just leave it at that - the less I say at this point, the better...... <BR> <BR> I have a strategy and plan in place to try to keep sane (whether or not it'll make any difference remains to be seen).........the key here is NOT to be at home for as long as possible during regular work hours - you see, I'm NOT of a "slacker" or "homemaker" personality style, so avoiding the housebound condition is *vital*! At least one family member has been informed of t... Fri, 1 May 2015 07:24:51 EST Last decent day on earth......... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5920022 .......for the foreseeable future.........I just hope the day ends with DIGNITY (not like what I witnessed on Tuesday)........ <BR> <BR> <em>234</em> Thu, 30 Apr 2015 04:44:52 EST Unrelenting stress........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5919468 I witnessed something that I REALLY SHOULD NOT HAVE SEEN yesterday morning - I don't care if you apologize afterwards - that could have been handled PRIVATELY so NOBODY else could have been impacted by it!! Even though my fate has been sealed, seeing that was not necessary - unless it was intended by the responsible party..........look, the damage has been done already, so why inflict more pain, even if it's indirect and supposedly unintentional, eh? I'm trying to settle my nerves by tellin... Wed, 29 Apr 2015 05:23:58 EST On cruelty........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5918875 The hammer comes down on Friday - am feeling closed in, and like a complete loser :( :( <BR> <BR> Having TWO visits this week and I am NOT PLEASED ABOUT THAT! May have to take evasive action.........sheesh! It's not like either of those visits will help my crisis - in fact, both visitors are EMPLOYED, so I'm not gonna have a good attitude being in their presence.......... <BR> <BR> How much more cruelty can a person be expected to endure in life, eh? <BR> <BR> Tue, 28 Apr 2015 03:45:58 EST Wasn't feelin' it, so I didn't do it........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5918295 ........the walkathon yesterday, that is......... <BR> <BR> Not to worry - I did give my donation, which was what I always intended to do (heck - now more than ever I NEED the tax deduction)........... <BR> <BR> About 10 minutes after I arrived, a horrible sensation set in - and it was like, suddenly, this event no longer provided that personal satisfaction that it had in the past - <BR> <BR> I SIMPLY. <BR> DID. <BR> NOT. <BR> FEEL. <BR> IT. <BR> <BR> At that point I made the "executive ... Mon, 27 Apr 2015 04:47:36 EST Sunday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5917764 Finally broke that team point "drought" in a BIG way - I get the message loud and clear! One of the big point wins was for a "Tame Your Sweet Tooth Challenge" team - sent quite a message to yours truly, as I have been seriously struggling with that issue lately! <BR> <BR> The other was for one of my walking teams - I've been waffling as to whether or not I should do this walkathon coming up this morning ........ looks like that question has been settled.......... <em>211</em> <BR> <BR>... Sun, 26 Apr 2015 04:51:51 EST UNRELENTING misery! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5917312 Took to bed before 6PM and did NOT bother with dinner - AGAIN! <BR> <BR> $#!@# computer keyboard is so $#!@# sluggish - much slower than my fingers - typing is becoming horrendously frustrating (since I've always been good with the keyboard this is driving me nuts!)......... <BR> <BR> Right now I feel like the world is closing in on and around me (this is my LAST full week of getting private sector money in my pocket) - I feel like the term LOSER is about to be my epitaph (and I'm still on ... Sat, 25 Apr 2015 05:41:36 EST :( :( :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5916788 Continuing computer issues (and I can't send it out for professional work, either) - and this $#!@#@ JOB SEARCH is literally driving me NUTS! <BR> <BR> One good thing I did, though - I told spouse NOT to buy a particular sweet treat that's been driving me crazy! Seemed to be on board with the idea - I did finish off what was in the house, which wasn't much, and since I don't normally go to the shopping venue to get the product, hopefully that should be the end of that! <BR> <BR> Enjoy your... Fri, 24 Apr 2015 07:01:29 EST I've REALLY gotta get my act together......... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5916183 .......won't say much more on this, but let's just say some things have occured that are really scaring me (not health-related, thankfully - I'm doing well on that score).......... <BR> <BR> MUST. <BR> TURN. <BR> THIS. <BR> LIFE. <BR> AROUND. <BR> <BR> MUST! <BR> START! <BR> NOW! <BR> <BR> NO! <BR> EXCUSES! <BR> (not even my employment angst!) <BR> <BR> Thu, 23 Apr 2015 04:39:07 EST Crossing fingers - and wanting to toss a computer out the window...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5915559 Won't say more about the "finger-crossing" situation - I feel somewhat superstitious and don't want to "jinx" things......... <BR> <BR> As to this $#!@@ computer - need to figure out why I'm suddenly having so much browser trouble! One product won't allow me to do one thing, and another is acting up with something else - ideally, one should be able to use one browser for all desired activities - WT$#!@#? <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> At least I won't have to pack lunch today - it's... Wed, 22 Apr 2015 05:05:39 EST Muddling through and plugging right along........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5914955 Am reaching out and getting my name out there..........have an appointment this week.........didn't get a promised email, though, so I'll need to follow-up............ <BR> <BR> R#!@#!, though..........someone bought an overly tempting food item last night - sheesh! And once again, computer is still not working well...........some items are NOT working the way they should (and I've been switching browsers a bit to try to cope)..........Gilda Radner was soooooooo right (may she rest in peace... Tue, 21 Apr 2015 04:11:14 EST c**p still gets shoveled on me........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5914311 Heard some news that, while not really impacting me, still has a psychological impact (and of course, it's not a *good* impact)..........now there'll be another type of person who I may be likely to resent while I'm still trying to fix my "bad patch"........... <BR> <BR> C**p still gets regularly shoveled my way, with no hope of it stopping......... <BR> <BR> (Oh, yeah.........computer is still behaving poorly, too!) <BR> <BR> <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> Mon, 20 Apr 2015 04:25:05 EST c**p still gets shoveled on me........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5914310 Heard some news that, while not really impacting me, still has a psychological impact (and of course, it's not a *good* impact)..........now there'll be another type of person who I may be likely to resent while I'm still trying to fix my "bad patch"........... <BR> <BR> C**p still gets regularly shoveled my way, with no hope of it stopping......... <BR> <BR> (Oh, yeah.........computer is still behaving poorly, too!) <BR> <BR> <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> Mon, 20 Apr 2015 04:25:01 EST Yep - it was as bad as I feared.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5913771 ......even *worse*! <BR> <BR> First meeting - well, let's just say that I was NOT "feelin' it"..............left half-way through the breakout session - I may or may not return - can't say for sure, but at that point I was miserable (almost fell asleep at one point - I know my bad diet that morning didn't help, though)............ <BR> <BR> Thought I'd get a nice outdoor walk out, but cancelled that when my portable radio went south - yeah, it was a simple battery replacement, but by that t... Sun, 19 Apr 2015 06:42:59 EST Dreaded day has arrived! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5913269 I can't catch a break - I can't even get help to avoid the second part of my nasty travel day! I WILL REMEMBER this, mark my words! May karma do the needful - that's ALL I gotta say on that.......... <BR> <BR> <em>234</em> Sat, 18 Apr 2015 04:59:49 EST *Usually* I look *forward* to weekends....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5912735 .........but NOT this time! <BR> <BR> Can't get help on an issue, so I have NO CHOICE but to drag myself to a distant location to deliver stuff - at this point there's NO FEASIBLE WAY that I can scramble to get aid from anyone else..........and what if I reach out and get NO AID? UH, UH - that scenario JUST. WON'T. FLY! <BR> <BR> Soooooooo - again, I'm sc**wed over by life..............so I'm awaiting word on how soon the venue will open so I can do my business and get the heck outta Dodge... Fri, 17 Apr 2015 04:55:57 EST Slept better last night........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5912161 .........life *still s**ks*, though....... <em>28</em> Thu, 16 Apr 2015 04:42:15 EST GRRRRRRRR :( (again) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5911580 UP since 12:30AM! <BR> <BR> GRRRRRRRRRR! <BR> <BR> Have issues with my transition over to "the dark side"............but what else is new? <BR> <BR> No respite, no hope of any kind.............thank goodness for chocolate! <BR> <BR> <em>234</em> Wed, 15 Apr 2015 05:03:28 EST A brief respite of mild pleasantness........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5910944 Some human contact on a pressing personal problem (no guarantee of success, of course, but still, knowing that I can make contact of some positive type is a start) - took a very nice walk while taking a call on an important matter (awesome "power" scenario - now that's know as "seizing the day/opportunity"!)...........poor weather is being forecast for today, so I can rest in the knowledge that I will not have regrets for not taking action while the taking was good! <BR> <BR> Also got some l... Tue, 14 Apr 2015 04:28:42 EST A downright "mean" day :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5910288 When anyone has the nerve to criticize me and claim that I'm not being "civil" - well, that convo's NOT gonna end well, let me tell ya! Party involved has a long-term tendency to NOT support causes or concerns other than themselves.............and some of the support I've seen said person provide has been - let's just say "inappropriate", shall we? <BR> <BR> And I'm <BR> NOT. <BR> HAVING. <BR> ANY. <BR> MORE. <BR> OF. <BR> IT. <BR> <BR> PERIOD! <BR> <BR> <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> <em>... Mon, 13 Apr 2015 04:50:29 EST :( :( :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5909741 First off, I'd like to thank the Discovery Channel and truTV for their mighty-fine "binge-watching" opportunities afforded to me yesterday...........since, as I strongly suspected, getting out of the house yesterday was NOT A GOOD IDEA! (And here's a shoutout to the good folks at Oxygen for their traditional "Snapped" marathon!) <BR> <BR> <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> Despite my better judgement, I reluctantly went out to two events (thankfully, I went solo so I could leave ASAP - which turne... Sun, 12 Apr 2015 06:20:58 EST Nice day, weather-wise, but I don't even care......... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5909286 :( Sat, 11 Apr 2015 08:46:16 EST What's NEXT, eh? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5908668 Another low points day - and yet more annoying news received......... <BR> <BR> I am now considering changing usernames (if not closing the account full out - but this would be the *second* time doing that, though)..........any thoughts or ideas, Sparkies? <BR> <BR> <em>101</em> Fri, 10 Apr 2015 04:29:10 EST "Lemon" of a day...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5908081 * Received bad news that *really* destroyed what's left of my "soul" <BR> <BR> * Had an extremely aggravating day in terms of tech issues - could barely get ANYTHING done <BR> <BR> * Got extremely unsupportive flak from FAMILY - at that point I said ENOUGH of this day, and bailed out on the evening's plans, turning in EXTREMELY early and without an evening meal (since I had no appetite to speak of, I wasn't actually worried - I just needed to be AWAY from people)......... <BR> <BR> I sure ... Thu, 9 Apr 2015 04:52:53 EST Muddling through yet again...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5906830 There is some activity, but I won't say anything more since, when it comes to certain things, I tend to avoid "jinxing" actions in any way........ <BR> <BR> Here's a sure sign of spring for ya - the allergy flareups are in full swing..........guess there'll be no eye makeup this morning.......... <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> And now I have to deal with a complainer ranting and raving while I'm doing my online thing (and even EARBUDS don't help!) - better shut off the TV (at least I... Tue, 7 Apr 2015 04:42:44 EST Sigh....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5906172 Thank goodness "holiday seasons" are over for a while - I can't tolerate any more of those........ <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> Bracing for another difficult week - before things REALLY hit the fan........relentless unpleasantries with NO break or respite in sight - $#!@#! <BR> <BR> <em>234</em> Mon, 6 Apr 2015 04:17:07 EST Just another day on the calendar....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5905665 ........if you're in "crisis" , "survival" and "hunker-down" mode.........guess I should be used to this by now, but when I think of how many others are doing sooooooo much better, and the never-ending 64K question is "why not ME?", well, then - so much for "being used to this"........ <BR> <BR> For those who celebrate, I wish you the best........ <BR> <BR> Sun, 5 Apr 2015 06:14:56 EST Some changes are being made....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5905152 As a protest to my poor life situation, I will be darkening my SparkPage - have even removed my profile pic (right now I feel anything BUT a kindred spirit to ol' Raspberry Torte)..........the other color will be changed shortly......... <BR> <BR> Why hide my feelings? That won't help things much..........all I can say is, when livelihood is forced from a person, all manner of h**l can break loose, and pretty quickly, too......... <BR> <BR> <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> Went out for a meal l... Sat, 4 Apr 2015 06:41:39 EST One week closer to horror......... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5904579 Does this $#!@ EVER end for yours truly? (Oh, yes - obligatory vent and "pity party" mode on.......) <BR> <BR> At least I did get a voicemail message from what appears to be a legitimate agency contact - i.e., a voice with a CLEAR, DISTINCT AMERICAN ENGLISH VOICE! (For those who have had to seek work, you may have some idea of what I mean..........a clear, distinct voice is a godsend at this point, let me tell ya!) <BR> <BR> Am totally off track with eating - can't get myself back togethe... Fri, 3 Apr 2015 04:20:22 EST Shuttin' it down......... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5903974 Have a few things coming up that I have strategically decided NOT to involve myself in - let's face it, if I were to attend any of those events I'd just be mentally distracted (specifically, I'd resent being in the company of anyone with STABLE EMPLOYMENT) - that just won't do......... <BR> <BR> So social self-confinement to home will be the order of the day for the foreseeable future- will leave only to do the needful in life until I am made whole again.........yep, that's the ticket! <BR> ... Thu, 2 Apr 2015 04:11:25 EST still dragging a bit..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5903325 Could NOT get past the craving for sweets - looks like this "bad patch" is gonna be *horrendous* this time 'round.......... <BR> <BR> <em>39</em> Wed, 1 Apr 2015 05:08:05 EST Blog for points only........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5902740 Half-hearted, yes - but it's appropriate for my mood.........don't even have the energy to vent right now....... <BR> <BR> <em>39</em> Tue, 31 Mar 2015 06:29:19 EST