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Tue, 16 Jan 2018 05:31:19 EST Blah! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6451643 This latest allergy flareup has bizarrely impacted my palate - this weekend food has not tasted very good ....... had two food events where I really didn't consume all that much (at least by my standards) - this may help me, weight-wise, but I would have preferred not to feel miserable ........ this is *really* weird......... <BR> <BR> <em>24</em> Mon, 15 Jan 2018 05:32:21 EST Bummed...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6451265 Couldn't feel good about being out last night - even impacted my eating - not necessarily in a bad way, though - only took one plate (it was a buffet), and two very small dessert pieces..........not sure why, but my mood just sank for no specific reason......... <BR> <BR> <em>39</em> Sun, 14 Jan 2018 06:38:46 EST Oh, boy....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6450918 Had a few mid-day health "glitches" the latter part of the week - not fun aging, that's for sure! <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> Did yoga this morning, but in light of this week I may just chill for the day wrt heavier exercise (have a party this evening)........ <BR> <BR> Enjoy your Saturday! Sat, 13 Jan 2018 07:11:36 EST Sigh...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6450528 Cranky person lashed out at me for no really good reason - so I snarked back ("Oh, oh - *crisis*!) I do NOT need that c**p, so I clapped back as best I could........I do NOT care if you're struggling with issues - there is NO need to behave like that! <BR> <BR> Makes me wonder why ANYONE would think to create a *family* - especially in this difficult day and age! Often those groups are the worst in terms of social behavior! Just sayin'....... <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> Fri, 12 Jan 2018 06:08:58 EST D**mit, BAMBI! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6449701 Yep - you read it right! Had a *deer incident* last night ........... missed the first one just fine, but #2 ran into the rear passenger side.......looked things over twice - and - get this - *NO* visible damage! <BR> <BR> Maybe I should invest in lottery tickets (only problem is my huge aversion to gambling - go figure)! <BR> <BR> Now I gotta figure how best to cope going forward - I'm now having to figure out how to go about my business as needed (I don't have the option to take a 'mental... Wed, 10 Jan 2018 03:48:03 EST $#!@#@ Monday and Mother Nature http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6449275 (vent on) <BR> <BR> Apparently I cannot get through a full workday in winter anymore ......... haven't received any word on how today will be shaping up, so hopefully there will be no further financial damage and I can complete a regular week with no further issues! <BR> <BR> WTH, Mother Nature! Why continue to mess with regular working folks? I've got a great idea for someone I'd *love* to see you work on.....heh, heh........(yeah, I can get very snarky when pressed)......... <BR> <BR> (v... Tue, 9 Jan 2018 05:05:42 EST Oh, oh.......danger, Will Robinson! :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6448807 My calendar for the week shows two significant food-involved events.........yikes! <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> It is what it is, of course, but what it needs to be is *manageable*.........I've fallen short in these kinds of things many times..........need to step up the ol' game again! <BR> <BR> <em>101</em> Mon, 8 Jan 2018 05:35:36 EST Crossing fingers...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6448399 .....can't wait for this freeze to "unfreeze" already! <BR> <BR> <em>104</em> Sun, 7 Jan 2018 08:26:37 EST BRRRRRRR! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6447994 This is definitely gonna be an *indoor* day - better to chillax indoors than to get chilled beyond belief outside (though a quick errand may be done at some point)....... <BR> <BR> Those dealing with "frozen zones" - please be careful out there and stay safe! Sat, 6 Jan 2018 08:48:43 EST Things that make you go $#!#^(#! - and "hmmmmmmm"...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6447504 Having to unnecessarily "kill time" due to an (IMHO) unjustified late opening - I'll swear on anything swearable that my area is pretty damned *fine* post-storm (I'm not from the southern/shore area, which did get hammered).........I swear the fates are trying to tell me that I can NOT work in winter - WTH? <BR> <BR> <em>28</em> <BR> <BR> OK - vent off ......... now to a nicer subject - apparently my SparkPage has been featured in the Community area under "general motivation" - boy, thi... Fri, 5 Jan 2018 06:54:16 EST Coping........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6447030 Should be OK, but it'll probably be a moderate mess in a while.........crossing fingers to preserve pay as best I can.......it is what it is......... <BR> <BR> Grayson? Where the $#!@# do they get these names from? <BR> <BR> But on a more serious note - for those being impacted, please take care and stay safe! Thu, 4 Jan 2018 06:08:23 EST Just sayin'........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6446517 .....just how much I appreciate this new emoji - thank you, SP! <em>789</em> Wed, 3 Jan 2018 05:49:52 EST Trying yet *again*........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6445984 Had a major epic fail in food prep - guess I'd better give up the cooking thing - yeah, it'll keep me from working with the recipe portion of the Spark program, but that'll mean I'll just have to try other ways to get back on track........sorry, world, but cooking just isn't for me at this stage in my life, and I'm OK with that and will be able to deal, somehow.........it is what it is...... <BR> <BR> <em>101</em> Tue, 2 Jan 2018 05:41:45 EST New! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6445361 Laptop - enjoying it immensely! <BR> <BR> Yet another start for my journey - yeah, why not? I don't tend to do well on Jan. 1, but still feel it's worth a shot....... <BR> <BR> May not work out today due to sore/stiff/uncomfortable muscles from yesterday (I'm sure this bitter cold and - ahem - age - didn't help matters much).........sooooooo - will just chillax for the most part (and think about how I can best restart this so I can be property set up for success)..... <BR> <BR> I wish you ... Mon, 1 Jan 2018 07:11:01 EST Rough, but manageable, week...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6443941 Tuesday was by far the worst - but things have improved somewhat, and I now don't have to scrounge around for enough activity to get me through the rest of the week's planned extended hours........and that's a good thing (I have slayed the "part-time pay" beast for this week - have one more week to go with that)! <BR> <BR> <em>104</em> Thu, 28 Dec 2017 05:57:03 EST Trying to deal and cope......... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6443123 A quiet morning to myself for the most part - (others have left the area, thankfully) - online timekilling with a cup of decaf Chai - pretty much the ticket for me for now.......I'm very, *very* grateful for NO snow ..... could never get the appeal of "white Christmases" - guess my practical side and it's dread of inclement weather conditions wins out every time...... <BR> <BR> For those who celebrate, I wish you the best! Mon, 25 Dec 2017 08:20:40 EST Best wishes......... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6442905 .....to all for this season (I'm gonna downplay it for myself, as is my wont)........ <BR> <BR> Sun, 24 Dec 2017 09:15:25 EST Trying......... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6442658 ......to keep "chill" - but I'm concerned about the usual things that have weighed me down at this time of year (for *several consecutive years* now)............sigh........ <BR> <BR> <em>39</em> Sat, 23 Dec 2017 10:13:48 EST Can't wait until........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6442333 Jan. 2 already! <BR> <BR> Let's just FF and get this difficult time over with already! <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> Fri, 22 Dec 2017 05:52:51 EST Survived it! :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6441488 Went waaaaaay out of my comfort zone and went out for an active evening - almost didn't though, due to brief anger over famiy drama ........why does this ALWAYS seem to happen when I even *attempt* to work on getting out and about, and try to get some semblance of a positive life --- and it's ALWAYS FAMILY that's doing this! <BR> <BR> Sometimes I envy the single...... <BR> <BR> <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> Don't know why, but I didn't indulge in raspberries (and they *WERE* there).....maybe... Tue, 19 Dec 2017 06:09:23 EST AWESOME! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6439544 For obvious reasons........ <BR> <BR> <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> https://www.today.com/food/justin-timber<BR>lake-creates-viral-berry-mashup-braspb<BR>erry-t119820 Tue, 12 Dec 2017 05:56:15 EST Relieved....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6439267 Snow was a "non-issue" in terms of size - weekend event certainly helped! <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> May have another small event (or two), but so far the talk isn't serious (and let's hope it stays that way)! <BR> <BR> (There should be a "crossed fingers" emoticon!) <BR> <BR> Enjoy your Monday! <BR> <BR> <em>213</em> Mon, 11 Dec 2017 06:12:04 EST NOOOOOOO! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6438454 That dreaded "s" word - it's about to hit (and harder that first predicted).........sigh........TG it's a weekend event and I have no significant plans........ <BR> <BR> Where *did* this year go - now it's time to deal with...... <em>425</em> <BR> <BR> Hoo-boy! <BR> <BR> <em>216</em> <em>444</em> Fri, 8 Dec 2017 06:15:06 EST New week........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6437235 No issues anticipated - of course that doesn't mean that I won't be blindsided at some point or another.........but the week (and most of the month) looks to be quiet .......... there are a few food-related events to watch for, but right now I feel fairly good..........if I have a busy week it'll definitely help! <BR> <BR> Forced myself out to a social event - some of the same folks I met with chatted with me again about my general mood and such, with an additional "check-in"........other ha... Mon, 4 Dec 2017 05:46:32 EST Survived a rough $$$ week....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6437019 .....by the skin of my teeth, that is - $#!@# HARD to be "thankful" under these circumstances....... <BR> <BR> <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> Looked at the end-of-year scenario and I should be able to survive the rough weeks well (if I play my cards right, that is)......... <BR> <BR> <em>101</em> <BR> <BR> Just need to treat every day as a regular, NON-SPECIAL day (for my own peace of mind and mental health) - "doing holidays", once again, is STRONGLY contraindicated for yours truly......... Sun, 3 Dec 2017 11:12:53 EST Didn't do perfectly...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6435721 $#!@# chocolate cake.........at least I won't have to worry about future birthday celebrations as they're being discontinued @ work next year.......could use the break, to be honest...... <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> However, general eating during the day was better - stuck to my lunch choices, and dinner was conservative, with no mindless snacking @ home....... <BR> <BR> Onward....... <BR> <BR> <em>101</em> Wed, 29 Nov 2017 06:18:17 EST So far, so good...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6435391 As I expected would be the case - a good busy day helped to keep me focused and away from temptations/distractions..........however, there's gonna be an issue today that I will be challenged with (thankfully, this situation will be discontinued in its present form starting next year, and frankly I wasn't a bit upset with the decision)....... <BR> <BR> Crossing fingers....... Tue, 28 Nov 2017 06:14:45 EST Here I go again....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6435066 I'm REALLY hoping that this restart will be the one........I've tried this so often and have been knocked down so often.............it's *extremely* frustrating! <BR> <BR> This weekend, though, has been quite the mind-clearing experience.........sooooooo - I feel very, very compelled to renew myself body-wise as I did my mind........ <BR> <BR> Crossing fingers once more! Mon, 27 Nov 2017 06:02:22 EST Hell Week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6433361 (vent on - feel free to skip if you like) <BR> <BR> Had a miserable Sunday - vented to a social acquaintance over my current issues.........though she was sweet and very supportive, I still wish I hadn't done that - it's SOOOOOO *NOT* my style....... <BR> <BR> <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> I REALLY hope I get my pay as usual this week - checked my systems and it appears to have gone through the approval process, but I did not get the usual email message..........SMH.........and that's not the ... Tue, 21 Nov 2017 05:55:38 EST Unbelievable! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6432777 As I'm sure you can understand, this deeply distresses me.......and I don't even live there......... <BR> <BR> https://www.nbcnews.com/storyline/brexit<BR>-referendum/british-fruit-left-rot-loo<BR>ming-brexit-squeezes-seasonal-labor-n820161 Sun, 19 Nov 2017 09:05:08 EST Very little to say....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6431868 But I am NOT looking forward to the next two weeks - won't say anything more than that (I've vented plenty about these issues in the past and I don't think it'll help much at this point)........ <BR> <BR> I am *very* thankful for the complete clear-up of my knee issues, though! Thu, 16 Nov 2017 06:11:53 EST Slowly....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6428987 Knee is still giving some trouble, but is slowly improving - will probably need to lessen my workouts/decrease intensity for a while, though........don't care to be totally inactive as I'm too much of a couch potato as it is these days...... <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> Tue, 7 Nov 2017 06:05:08 EST Sigh...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6428648 Endured another weekend - finally took the concept of "rest days" more seriously and gave my sore knees a rest for the weekend (except for some mild yoga on Saturday) - attended an event but kept to myself and did *not* actively participate - in fact, left early after feeling uncomfortable about socialization........ <BR> <BR> It's been a rough week and I'm still struggling - nothing more to say than that....... <BR> <BR> <em>101</em> Mon, 6 Nov 2017 05:58:57 EST $#!@#@ NOVEMBER! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6427031 I just HATE this month with a purple passion! (Don't ask.........) <BR> <BR> Can we just FF to JANUARY already? <BR> <BR> <em>234</em> Wed, 1 Nov 2017 06:14:27 EST Wish I could say I'm looking forward to the weekend........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6425461 ...... but as a result of recent events, I can NOT "feel it".........since I've paid good bucks ahead of time, I'm pretty much committed (or should I just go and say "screwed" instead?).......... <BR> <BR> The only thing going for it is that it will be a physically active event....... <BR> <BR> SMH.......sigh........ <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> Fri, 27 Oct 2017 05:45:52 EST Nice day, but....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6424116 .......someone's cranky, loud mouth once again went and RUINED everything! A POX on that person! SHEESH! <BR> <BR> <em>234</em> Mon, 23 Oct 2017 06:17:13 EST It's NOT easy being me....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6423822 To say that these last few weeks have been rough would be *quite* the understatement....... <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> I'm still struggling to process all that I've had to deal with..........this would explain my laying low for a while.........today I have a walkathon, and the weather is shaping up to be *gorgeous* - I'm feeling clear, strong, and fairly fit, and am *really* hoping that getting out there will "do the trick"....... <BR> <BR> Enjoy your Sunday, Sparkies! <BR> <BR>... Sun, 22 Oct 2017 07:56:51 EST Fair to middlin', I guess...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6421635 Some slight revisions to original plans, but most of yesterday went well.........am continuing with most of today's plans despite my misgivings about one of the events (don't ask)....... <BR> <BR> "It is what it is" - I don't really care for this phrase, but oddly enough, I've been finding myself using it a bit more often lately as, ironically, it has been fitting for many of the situations I've been dealing with........go figure...... <BR> <BR> Now I'm off to prepare for the day......enjoy... Sun, 15 Oct 2017 08:17:11 EST Sigh...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6421296 No spirit for this.........have decided I won't push things any further, and just "go through the motions" (with the exception of one discreet plan I have in place) - it appears that it's not my destiny to have a happy or high-quality life.......many others have suffered worse, I know - believe me, I DO get that...........but I guess I was wrong in thinkng that I had a shot of improving things........perhaps I am, indeed, meant to be that stereotypical "sad senior", after all......... <BR> <... Sat, 14 Oct 2017 05:04:54 EST Two weeks have passed....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6420975 ......since this latest life crisis began, and I'm STILL "not feelin' the love" around me - this, of course, is nothing new, but it's STILL tiring to have to deal with...........this time is somewhat different, though, as I am doing better about cutting ties with toxic folks, making plans and taking action (discreetly, though, due to the circumstances around the bad situation).......... <BR> <BR> I don't care much for the phrase, but I gotta say that "it is what it is" - and it does fit here... Fri, 13 Oct 2017 03:29:58 EST Sigh....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6420303 Did get some positive news yesterday (indirectly, but that's fine)........however, it's still NOT ideal.........because of that, I am still open to and weighing options........ <BR> <BR> I don't like to use the phrase "new normal", but perhaps that's exactly what my situation is rapidly becoming....... <BR> <BR> <em>101</em> Wed, 11 Oct 2017 06:05:20 EST The struggle is real, and continues........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6419940 Am continuing on my action plan with the personal issue (intensity will vary depending on the day's circumstances) - have been trying to get my head and heart "right" to restart, but have been struggling........all I want at this point is to get to a stable place in order to restart........why this is eluding me is the big question....... <BR> <BR> <em>101</em> Tue, 10 Oct 2017 03:34:01 EST I think today is the day...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6419579 .......where my worst fears may be confirmed (not absolutely sure of the exact date, though)....... <BR> <BR> $#!@#! - how the $#!@# am I gonna successfully restart this Spark journey when literally EVERY TIME I try - life smacks me around so much that I can't even........I. JUST. CAN'T. EVEN. <BR> <BR> <em>234</em> Mon, 9 Oct 2017 03:08:24 EST Still devoid of feelings........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6419269 Am taking this weekend to chill and do as little as possible.........won't make a huge difference in my overall mood, but I feel it necessary nevertheless...... <BR> <BR> <em>101</em> Sun, 8 Oct 2017 06:30:42 EST Still trying, but still struggling......... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6418939 It's reached a point that if I can't have perfect outside circumstances,my *inside* ones don't stand a snowball's chance in h**l of improving......... <BR> <BR> $#!#@!#%^ <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <em>234</em> Sat, 7 Oct 2017 05:52:35 EST I should be glad...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6418601 .....that I was able to function normally with no real issues this week, but the cold, hard fact of the matter is that I simply CANNOT get past what has befallen me, no matter how hard I try.........and I'm STILL concerned for the future despite whatever reassurances I have received....... <BR> <BR> One can only "put on the big girl pants and deal" SO OFTEN before it becomes counterproductive.........just sayin'...... <BR> <BR> What I need to do now is very unpleasant, but must be done, nev... Fri, 6 Oct 2017 05:46:12 EST Trying to do the needful........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6418258 Wish I didn't HAVE to, but with the circumstances being what they are (and my continued low mood as a result), there's no choice - I MUST do this for ME.........and if there's collateral damage/"unintended consequences" that befall others, well, that's NOT gonna be on me.......people have made their choices and now I have to make MINE! <BR> <BR> This is gonna be one awful struggle, believe you me! <BR> <BR> <em>234</em> Thu, 5 Oct 2017 05:54:53 EST Working on coping with a *very unpleasant* "new normal"........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6417898 <em>198</em> Wed, 4 Oct 2017 06:14:24 EST Can't get through this situation as a "softie"......... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6417546 Need to harden myself in order to deal - and deal, I will........on my OWN terms....... <BR> <BR> <em>101</em> Tue, 3 Oct 2017 05:55:33 EST