RASPBERRY56's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=RASPBERRY56 RASPBERRY56's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Mid-week report...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6191552 Nothing earth-shattering (just the usual issues/anxieties - will need to get a grip and deal with one soon - but for now I need to gather up my courage)......... <BR> <BR> Enjoying the quiet week - spoke with spouse last evening - things are going well where they are.......soooooo, I'll be chillin' for the rest of the week (except for one meeting that I can attend now since my usual planned activity was cancelled this week)......... <BR> <BR> Treated myself to a lunch @ work - I usually bro... Wed, 29 Jun 2016 04:12:29 EST Got out for a bit...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6190958 Normally wouldn't have, but I had the cash on me and figured getting out would possibly be helpful..........was an active event, and I lasted for most of the time until my legs got too sore to continue (yeah, the event was almost over, but I *really* didn't feel comfortable finishing up) - I'm thinking my choice of footwear was to blame - should have worn the "sneaks" - definitely better in terms of support - when I used them for this morning's workout........*no* discomfort *at all! - oh, we... Tue, 28 Jun 2016 05:41:47 EST Trying to recover and restart...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6190305 Had another low-functioning weekend - took the full weekend off from workouts (a TV problem causing the yoga program to be cancelled sure didn't help things, either).........and the mood just went south from that point.........still have an issue that's causing me great anxiety..........the only bright spot (if there is one) is my having the house to myself for the week (while I'm annoyed on a basic level over not having vacation time, I'm still OK with this on another aspect - I'm not intere... Mon, 27 Jun 2016 03:48:53 EST Crashed and burned....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6189735 Anticipating a rough week - didn't eat well *at all*, and didn't work out, either..........will probably take to bed/couch soon ......... am NOT doing well :( Sun, 26 Jun 2016 04:17:33 EST Just for points.......nothing to say, really....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6189190 ........but the laptop *is* doing nicely after upgrading my browser of choice, so I guess that's something....... Sat, 25 Jun 2016 04:54:10 EST Another bad day - WT$#!@#? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6188598 Did not see this bad work day coming - I'm rapidly getting TIRED OF LIFE! Fri, 24 Jun 2016 03:38:47 EST Sometimes I just wanna....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6188031 ......kick all tech gadgets out the door! <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> Got more cell calls yesterday than I normally get in several weeks' time..........makes me very nervous (they were all dealable, though - what a relief)! <BR> <BR> Uninstalled/reinstalled a browser to attempt to fix a sudden problem that wasn't occurring yesterday - will see if that works - don't have time to retry the new browser, so I'm using something else for the next few minutes - gotta get out to do a quick errand, ... Thu, 23 Jun 2016 06:02:09 EST Now - a return to sleep trouble :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6187334 Last two nights - $#!@#% Wed, 22 Jun 2016 03:54:54 EST Bleh :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6186710 Anxious about yet *another* potential situation - can't take much more :( Tue, 21 Jun 2016 06:07:54 EST Sigh......don't know about today......... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6185509 Not sure what I want to do (if anything), but I suspect it won't be much - have no spirit in me........sigh........oh, well....... Sun, 19 Jun 2016 04:33:00 EST Haven't blogged in a while...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6185308 .......and it was probably for the best! <BR> <BR> Still reeling from a "diss" this past week - and the impact of that slap in the face hit full-force on Friday - I came away feeling disenchanted, disenfranchised, marginalized, useless - might as well have been totally unemployed (don't fret - I'm still on payroll - it wasn't that severe of a diss, but still).......... <BR> <BR> Friday afternoon had me totally at a loss for how to handle my time - and no, it did NOT go well for me - I'm sti... Sat, 18 Jun 2016 17:53:09 EST Had a classic "facepalm" moment yesterday....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6181830 ......but this deserves a separate blog which I'm not quite ready to prepare yet.........let's just say I had that "come to -------" or "aha" moment........and I need to respond to that, for sure - and in a *big way*! <BR> <BR> <em>101</em> Mon, 13 Jun 2016 06:15:35 EST meh....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6181241 Made an "executive decision" to bail from one event due to logistical/personal concerns - didn't "feel the love" for the other event after all that, but reluctantly went anyhow...... <BR> <BR> Just another reminder why I need to keep my interests *solo* - they tend to work out best ........ sigh.......... Sun, 12 Jun 2016 05:14:01 EST Hoping for a nice day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6180674 Have some plans, but a weather threat as well (should be able to get a short time in on the outdoor plan, though it's also advertised as a "rain or shine" thing, and the other event is indoors)........ <BR> <BR> Just need to watch the eating (as usual) - have my workout plan in place (at least in part, anyhow)...... <BR> <BR> Enjoy your Saturday! <em>213</em> Sat, 11 Jun 2016 05:03:36 EST End of another week...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6180073 .....have looked at weekend plans - all in place and my strategies are together....... <BR> <BR> Need to get a handle on this stress, though - yeah, I've said this before........ <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> Enjoy your Friday! Fri, 10 Jun 2016 06:31:00 EST Almost Friday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6179452 Survived an evening out - got up nicely and got a lot done (even enjoyed a well-behaved laptop)! <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> Still trying to get my head around this latest "situation", though....... <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> Enjoy your Thursday, Sparkies! <em>213</em> Thu, 9 Jun 2016 06:09:20 EST Watching and monitoring....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6178791 ......all I can do for now wrt this latest human scare :( <BR> <BR> Sure do need a break from *life* at this point - even continuing praise @ work is not enough now :( <BR> <BR> And I have an evening event to deal with - just when all I want to do is "crash and burn" for an extended period of time :( <BR> <BR> $#!@#! <em>28</em> Wed, 8 Jun 2016 06:26:44 EST And yet ANOTHER SCARE! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6178055 The nasty hits just KEEP! ON! COMING! <BR> <BR> Sooooooo NOT thrilled with humanity right now! <em>28</em> Tue, 7 Jun 2016 04:34:25 EST Had a scare...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6177349 .......not me, but someone else - thankfully, nothing bad happened, but still........NOT the way to end a weekend! <BR> <BR> There were several unfortunate "episodes" at this venue during the past year - but this time one impacted one of my $#!@# FAMILY MEMBERS - I think I'm gonna have to make serious changes wrt activities I continue involvement with - I CANNOT TAKE ANY MORE STRESS CAUSED BY OTHERS - ESPECIALLY FAMILY! <em>28</em> <BR> <BR> Same person tried to bring me down with a fe... Mon, 6 Jun 2016 06:33:07 EST Hoping for a "repeat"..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6176697 Yesterday went well, so I'd obviously *love* a "repeat"! <BR> <BR> There's a *huge* end-of-season event today (with a lot of snacks, so I'll need to be careful!) - but there's also a threat of nasty weather........welcome to spring! <em>101</em> <BR> <BR> Enjoy your Sunday, Sparkies! <em>213</em> Sun, 5 Jun 2016 03:37:49 EST Routine tweaking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6176191 While I'm a huge fan of the concept of sticking what what works for you, this morning I thought a slight tweak to the morning routine might be in order - soooooo, I'm slightly reordering activities - yoga, then a nice shower, with full-on exercise TBD at a later time (may take an outdoor walk if the weather cooperates).........will see how this tweak works! <BR> <BR> Enjoy your Saturday! Sat, 4 Jun 2016 07:25:11 EST Rough day :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6175568 Got some unpleasant news that had me reeling - I fear now that family relations will suffer (and I do NOT need any more suffering right now, thank you very much!)....... <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> Had a good ol'-fashioned "family meeting" (revised to just include the parents here) - and a sudden meeting was held.........there will be some follow-up meetings in the next few weeks - we'll see how that goes (I don't tend to "hold my breath" about these kinds of things, though, since I've been b... Fri, 3 Jun 2016 06:12:00 EST Whoa, nelly! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6174881 Had a very uncomfortable muscle spasm in mid-back yesterday morning- not fun to deal with while commuting! <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> I think I'll skip a day (or maybe two) of floor/weight work and focus on cardio for the moment........ <BR> <BR> I'm thinking that too little water (and maybe even too little food) may have contributed to my mild head discomfort (thought I thought I was satisfied with what I ate during the day)..........this evening I will be treated to dinner (of course, I... Thu, 2 Jun 2016 03:51:25 EST Still plugging along....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6174157 Felt a slight twinge of light-headedness/not quite dizzy feeling a time or two yesterday - I didn't feel hungry or in discomfort, so I suspect my body is starting to adjust to my change in workday eating habits (and it's a significant change, too).........perhaps I could have drank a bit more of the ol' H20 - but I thought I was doing well.......oh, well.........onward I go! <BR> <BR> <em>224</em> Wed, 1 Jun 2016 03:23:38 EST So far, so good! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6173529 No junk in house = no temptation, so eating was pretty good! <BR> <BR> Today my focus is on facing (and defeating) workplace temptations and bad habits - and increasing water intake - I think I got this! <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> I hope everyone in the US reading this had a great Memorial Day - and remembered the reason for this day! <BR> <BR> <em>652</em> Tue, 31 May 2016 06:04:15 EST Today I restart as a 'lone wolf' ........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6172848 After too much frustration with points (and *lack of same*) I've come to the conclusion htat this is *not* working for me anymore and things *MUST* change if I'm gonna get back on track! Too much time has passed, and too much time has been wasted! <BR> <BR> Sooooooooooo - I'm removing myself from active team involvement (I cut back down to 5, which I think is manageable) - I *must* refocus and redouble my efforts, and get away from the petty and small........ <BR> <BR> Those who are SparkF... Mon, 30 May 2016 05:46:35 EST Sunday...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6172334 The rest of the weekend will be plan-free (especially with the forecast for tomorrow) - I had a potential "solo plan" going, but that will need to be put on hold (I *will* make sure I do that at some point, though........even though it's not a long-distance thing (and I do NOT like my local area), this may be a reasonable proposition in terms of keeping my "spirit" in reasonable shape)......... <BR> <BR> Enjoy your Sunday! <BR> <BR> <em>213</em> Sun, 29 May 2016 08:40:18 EST Good day so far...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6171838 ......but yesterday was *way* too food-filled..... <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> Enjoy your Saturday! Sat, 28 May 2016 09:50:37 EST Thursday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6170544 Computer acted *much* better today than yesterday - I swear that thing must almost have some kind of "personality disorder"....... <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> A "clear the air" info meeting took place yesterday regarding certain issues that have been brought up to management - seems like there were much more distressing situations that have come to light than the one that especially concerned me.........and that issue was something that (IMHO) is much easier to address and resolve than some ... Thu, 26 May 2016 06:28:59 EST Trying this blog again..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6168530 $#!#@#% computer STOPPED ME in my tracks by SHUTTING DOWN AGAIN with no warning or no reason..........guess I'll have to start shopping around for a replacement (though that will have to go to the end of the line after other things)......... <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> Funny how easy one can step back into old habits - despite having had a good week on the social front (even with a sad event amongst the activity), it seems I'm still having issues with certain things - specifically, avoiding th... Mon, 23 May 2016 06:13:21 EST Sunday........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6168249 Slept heavier than usual, but still got up early enough to complete my routine, then get out for a bit - including some shopping errands..........all good for the day! <BR> <BR> Have a concern that will need addressing this week - hopefully there will be little (or no!) fallout that could negatively impact life.......... <BR> <BR> Enjoy the rest of your Sunday, Sparkies! Sun, 22 May 2016 16:57:34 EST Review of the day........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6167540 Had a good routine going.......have a sad event to attend :( ......... <BR> <BR> Am in a contemplative mood in light of all the recent sad news I've heard/processed lately - and now there's a work issue that's making me a bit anxious.........hopefully this matter will be put to rest (and some light shed) this coming week..........there's no reason why this should have been blown up all out of proportion - just seems so $#!@# small/petty, and especially *unprofessional*..........SMH......... ... Sat, 21 May 2016 12:40:32 EST :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6165302 *thought* the day was going well - then an issue that I thought was put to rest is now being brought up again in an indirect manner.......and now I'm feeling very, *very* "uncomfortable in my own skin" - sooooooo $#!#@# WRONG! <BR> <BR> WTH IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE THESE DAYS - and WHY AM I CONTINUALLY GETTING PULLED IN WITH THEM? <BR> <BR> <em>28</em> <em>28</em> <em>28</em> Wed, 18 May 2016 03:46:18 EST Had that "solo" day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6163826 No regrets! Nobody to gripe, moan, groan or "leech" on my day's plans! Someone was a bit dismayed about one plan that they didn't "get in on", but I firmly reminded that person that - "hey, you were NOT ready to go out when I was, so I assumed you wanted to rest @ home instead".......nyaah, nhaah! <BR> <BR> 'Tis *very* true, indeed - the "early bird" DOES, indeed, get the worm! <BR> <BR> Now off to smooth off the impact of Friday.........hopefully there will be no further repercussions! <... Mon, 16 May 2016 03:27:26 EST A "solo" day is *definitely* in order today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6163189 As Friday's event really left me reeling, it has forced me to reevaluate my actions wrt society and people around me - soooooooo..........today I do things *solo*, and I'm definitely good with that! My head, heart and gut are definitely telling me so! <BR> <BR> Enjoy your Sunday, Sparkies! Sun, 15 May 2016 04:13:51 EST Sigh...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6162942 Had an uncomfortable situation to deal with yesterday (so much for quiet Friday the 13th :( ) - I am soooooooooo OVER with the human race right now........... <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> How much more distant do I have to be with people, eh? All I want is dignity and respect in life - guess I'm not deserving of that.......... <em>234</em> Sat, 14 May 2016 17:15:49 EST Oh, oh - look out! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6161917 Ahem........"Friday the 13th"! <em>101</em> <BR> <BR> I'm not superstitious so I find the day fairly amusing (especially when I see some reactions to the thought of this day).......... <BR> <BR> That having been said, I've read some blogs from fellow Sparkies who are going through rough times - that puts the day in a somewhat different perspective.........while it doesn't impact my attitude toward this specific day, it certainly gives me pause when I think of life in general, and of the... Fri, 13 May 2016 04:14:25 EST Survived another night out! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6161238 Yeah, I know this is a role I volunteered for of my own free will, but still.........when "morning larks" hang out for an evening, there's always that feeling of uneasiness - specifically, that "will I get up in the morning OK?" kind of uneasiness.........and woo-hoo! Survived and *nailed* it! <BR> <BR> <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> Now I have an event next week that will keep me away from the usual "crash-and-burn" routine after work - and this will be especially challenging as the socializ... Thu, 12 May 2016 03:23:13 EST Wednesday....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6160576 Enjoy your day! Wed, 11 May 2016 05:44:34 EST Sigh....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6159865 Why do people feel that just because I'm up and about, it's OK to speak to me? I need to focus on my vital morning routines so I can leave the house in a "human mood"........SMH....... Tue, 10 May 2016 06:08:16 EST Oh, boy.......... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6159119 Have to deal with unintended consequences of a Mother's Day "gift"............sigh......... <BR> <BR> Hope everyone had a great day! Mon, 9 May 2016 03:11:31 EST Happy Mother's Day....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6158567 to all those who celebrate, and to whatever situation your motherhood entails (bio, adoptive, step-, foster, and whatever else may be)..........and for those who, like yours truly, no longer have their moms here, may you find comfort in memories....... <BR> <BR> <em>214</em> Sun, 8 May 2016 04:36:04 EST Quiet morning..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6158005 Nobody else up, and (crossing fingers) laptop behaving - good start to a Saturday so far....... <BR> <BR> HOWEVER...... as i went out to pick up the paper I slipped on mud and almost took a nasty backwards fall - ENOUGH rain already..........world around me needs to DRY! Sat, 7 May 2016 05:10:59 EST *MORE* rain, touchy/cranky family members....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6157395 .......perfect recipe for a lousy Friday......no wonder my eating fell off track - AGAIN........SMH....... <em>39</em> Fri, 6 May 2016 06:23:44 EST Yeah, MONDAY! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6154495 Yep - another TGIM weekend :( ........ <BR> <BR> Cut the walkathon short (yep, I decided to attempt it despite low mood) - however, it was just too $#!@# RAINY to go through with it, so I gave my donation and made a *very brief* walk around the parking lot and then got the heck outta Dodge - can't afford getting soaked to the point of illness, soooooooo - had to make do with a short amount of dancing for my exercise for the day........Whole week is set to be rainy, but the state *does need* ... Mon, 2 May 2016 06:14:05 EST GRRRRRR! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6153784 Anger/pressure (caused by OTHERS) + physical discomfort = one sour Raspberry....... <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> Am weighing my options for physical activity for the day........sigh........ <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> MONDAY can't get here soon enough! <em>198</em> Sun, 1 May 2016 05:07:29 EST Some "food for thought".......... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6153305 Saw an article where a former "Biggest Loser" winner - sigh - apparently did *not* keep the weight off.........just goes to show you that there is, indeed, *no* "magic fix" for successful weight loss......... <BR> <BR> In another article, Dr. Oz explains why May is a good time to begin weight loss efforts - he gave his theories and spouted a stat or two, but again..........that "magic theory" again, IMHO.........I think I'll pass on this.......... <BR> <BR> Yeah, I'm not suspending my disbe... Sat, 30 Apr 2016 08:54:54 EST Another week down! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6152574 Have a walkathon this weekend, but the weather is not looking promising - will have to see how I feel when the day comes.........oh, well......... <BR> <BR> Not much to say here except.......enjoy your Friday, Sparkies! Fri, 29 Apr 2016 03:29:45 EST Have you ever had the kind of day where...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6151926 ......you just wanted to flip the bird at your computer *and* your TV? Yours truly just did - and before 4AM! <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> Laptop issue was a bit scary - the TV, just an issue with annoying content.........thankfully the laptop issue was resolved with a reboot, but still.........mess with my mornings and planned routines, and things get *ugly* *real quick*! <em>234</em> <BR> <BR> Here's to a much better day for us all than I had for a morning! <em>224</em> Thu, 28 Apr 2016 06:15:11 EST TGI*M*! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6149679 You read that right - thank goodness it's *MONDAY* for yours truly! <BR> <BR> Lost a lot of spirit/energy over the weekend - needed to "crash and burn" to process the mood in order to move forward today.........I've found it the best way to manage low moods when they occur.......even found it necessary to take a weekend "workout holiday" despite gorgeous weather that would have been awesome for an outdoor walk........... <BR> <BR> I feel well enough to function now - of course, having the p... 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