RASPBERRY56's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=RASPBERRY56 RASPBERRY56's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Tuesday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6388830 Gonna be a scorcher - thank goodness I picked up some extra salad fixins.......can't see a heavy meal in the immediate future........ <BR> <BR> <em>550</em> Tue, 18 Jul 2017 06:16:20 EST Quick update....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6388394 Good weekend for the most part - nice weather for activities........ <BR> <BR> Woke up in a lousy mood yesterday, but for a change - choose to force myself to get out rather than veg out (and I could have done that VERY easily) - good call for the most part :) <BR> <BR> Now to get back about the business of getting back on track (eating was dicey, and workouts were adjusted due to the activities)........ <BR> <BR> Enjoy your new week, Sparkies! <BR> <BR> <em>213</em> Mon, 17 Jul 2017 06:16:55 EST Whew! WHAT a day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6386357 Had to fix a problem quickly yesterday - and it got done! Hopefully to everyone's satisfaction - sure did satisfy *me*! <BR> <BR> I haven't put out that kind of "fire" in a very long time - good to know that I was able to step up and take care of things - even at - ahem - *my age*! <BR> <BR> <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> Now if I can just - sigh - *get back on track*! <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> Enjoy your "hump day", Sparkies! <BR> <BR> <em>213</em> Wed, 12 Jul 2017 06:25:20 EST Sleep........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6385910 WHY is it sooooooo elusive again? <BR> <BR> <em>234</em> Tue, 11 Jul 2017 06:02:25 EST Tryin' again........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6385481 Felt a bit low (and I'm really gonna have an issue this week :( :( :( ), so I backed off of my activity level for the weekend and focused on *rest* - am back on track now, but am concerned about the ol' mood for the week.......sigh....... <BR> <BR> Enjoy your Monday and new week! <BR> <BR> <em>213</em> Mon, 10 Jul 2017 06:17:25 EST Friday......sigh........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6384312 Gawd, next pay is gonna *s**k* BIG TIME - I did the best I could to mitigate financial damage.......I *think* I'll be OK, but I GOTTA get a better situation - and the sooner the better! <BR> <BR> *No wonder* I'm not eating well (except for those *awesome* salads during the week).......sigh..... <BR> <BR> Enjoy your Friday, Sparkies! <BR> <BR> <em>213</em> Fri, 7 Jul 2017 06:20:44 EST Hmmmmmm...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6383918 I *know* my eating hasn't been great (though I've really focused on salads and greens - and came up with an *awesome* and satisfying combo) - but my clothes are generally fitting OK (especially one that I have on now that I was concerned about)..........now if I can just ramp up my mojo and get back in gear.........sigh........ <BR> <BR> Another thing - can't seem to get "into" *fruit* these days (odd coming from someone with a fruit as her username)........what irony! <BR> <BR> <em>198</... Thu, 6 Jul 2017 06:06:20 EST Not a great deal to say......but this time period is being dealt with...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6383312 Endured the undesirable period as best I could - got as much rest as possible, since there will be a good bit of work to deal with to end the week...........checked my budget/finances and I think I should survive the pay shrinkage, but will still make getting as many hours as possible the main focus for the week......... <BR> <BR> Maybe the anticipated workload will help me to stay away from bad eating habits at work (yep, that ol' demon has returned).........sigh....... <BR> <BR> Tue, 4 Jul 2017 16:29:31 EST With every good thing, unfortunately, comes an *end* - and the beginning of *bad things*...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6381951 'Nuff said on that, Sparkies........ <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> At least I'm having a productive morning - that's about all I can give it....... <BR> <BR> Enjoy your Saturday! Sat, 1 Jul 2017 09:22:55 EST Loving the quiet so far :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6380236 Had to bring the laptop to my other location today, though - after a few nice days of good wireless behavior, it started to deteriorate this morning, soooooooo - "Plan B" it is.........oh, well....... <BR> <BR> So *awesome* to not have to deal with others (especially if they hog the $#!@# bathroom)....... LOL....... <BR> <BR> Still having issues with stress eating from last week - have general plans in place for solo dinners, but most of the better stuff will have to wait until post-payday.... Tue, 27 Jun 2017 06:23:13 EST Interesting week ahead....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6379779 <BR> <em>311</em> <em>311</em> <em>311</em> <em>311</em> <em>311</em> <BR> <BR> So glad I actually went against my gut instincts and went to the walking event yesterday - turns out my concerns were *totally unfounded* - a nicely organized event where both walkers and cyclists did their thing with no problems (that was my concern).........now I can move on knowing that I did not miss out on a great opportunity for exercise for a great cause! (I sooooooo hate to fall prey to th... Mon, 26 Jun 2017 06:14:05 EST Sunday plans and weekend so far........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6379395 DD and I got badly needed haircuts (I swear I must have lost about 5 lbs. on that alone - LOL)...... <BR> <BR> Made a last minute "executive decision" to do a walkathon after doing some research (almost lost the email with details that helped in the decision) - I am concerned about the fact that the event has been consolidated (biking AND walking ......... wondering about logistical/safety issues, but I must do this today as there will be no other opportunity this year)......... oh, well - g... Sun, 25 Jun 2017 07:38:48 EST Blah........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6379024 I swear, I don't know HOW I endured yesterday afternoon - what I DO know, though, is that I did the RIGHT THING by staying away from home base..........that's all I'm gonna say about that! <BR> <BR> Because of the other situation that directly cause me to deal in this manner yesterday, I MUST weigh my options - and that's all I'm gonna say about *that*, too........ <BR> <BR> I wish you all a great Saturday! Sat, 24 Jun 2017 08:01:42 EST Misery/worthlessness/lack of "soul" or "spirit"...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6378792 That's yours truly in a nutshell after a week truly from hell...... <BR> <BR> At least I made sure my weekly pay was preserved.........other than that, you can *have* this week, thank you very much! <BR> <em>234</em> <BR> Fri, 23 Jun 2017 13:58:52 EST New week....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6374032 Hot, but should let up after tomorrow.........had a *horrific* night of "sleep"....... do have central air, but don't tend to use it frequency for reasons of prudence wrt expenses..........will need to get a nice fan or two so as to not have the homestead outrageously uncomfortable.........do NOT want to endure another night like that! <BR> <BR> That having been said, I hope this will impact my appetite and eating in a better way - don't tend to overeat when it's hot........crossing fingers... Mon, 12 Jun 2017 06:24:13 EST Hot! :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6373809 At least I had enough presence of mind to work out early before the heat set in........whew! <BR> <BR> Can't wait for Wednesday when this should break! <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> Sun, 11 Jun 2017 16:26:39 EST Friday.......and musings about the immediate future....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6372813 (vent mode on) <BR> <BR> Have an issue weighing me down that I suspect will be giving me grief over the next week or two......and I am DREADING having to deal with this as I was not successful with my coping mechanism when this happened last year.........$#!@#^ <BR> <BR> On the other hand, there is something at the end of the month that, while it looks unfortunate at first glance, will actually have some moderate benefit for me........... <BR> <BR> And then there's a serious financial issu... Fri, 9 Jun 2017 06:26:53 EST Interesting weekend....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6367982 Nice mix of chillaxin' and "doing the needful" - can't ask for much more than that when you constantly seek daily balance in life (and find it extremely challenging to do so)! <BR> <BR> Rainy today, but that's OK since I have no plans (will probably continue on my cleanup work, which has been going quite well)........ <BR> <BR> Very nice get-together yesterday - ate better there than I did at home (the crowd was vegetarian/vegan - while I'm not one myself, I have no objection to occasional ... Mon, 29 May 2017 07:15:17 EST Another Friday approaches....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6366338 As many of you may know, for personal reasons, over the years I have come to HATE "holidays", and now I have another one to endure - sigh............at least I did my due diligence and have preserved pay! That is crucial to well-being in more ways than one! <BR> <BR> Will try a few healthy option lunches @ work today and tomorrow - have planned for those, so it should go well - I figure I could use the treat and break from routine so I can deal with the upcoming misery of another personal "... Thu, 25 May 2017 06:23:48 EST Meh...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6365010 Weekend was semi-OK - had some leg/foot/toe discomfort, but not enough to keep me totally off my game.......willl continue to monitor the situation to see if it rates another dr. visit.........weather was gorgeous (though hot to start), and had a few events going (food-involved, which was not ideal, but good in terms of getting out and about)....... <BR> <BR> Am trying my online work from my preferred location again - climbing steps when leg/toe/foot is wonky is not a good idea, so I'm switc... Mon, 22 May 2017 06:28:11 EST Relieved - but now I must begin anew! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6363826 Appointment done - concerms addressed.......of course (and I knew this going in), they made their suggestions for follow-ups (and one of them will likely NOT happen due to significant logistical concerns) - but the knowledge that I got a long overdue task taken care of has given me an incredible sense of relief and peace of mind.......now I need to renew my efforts again to get back on track (especially since I took a rare workout day off yesterday)...... <BR> <BR> Onward, Sparkies! <BR> <B... Fri, 19 May 2017 06:17:26 EST One challenge down - another to go! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6362970 Social event went well - nice weather for an outdoor venue.......found a few folks I knew that I could chat with (don't do so well with total strangers, but as it turned it that wasn't really a problem)....... <BR> <BR> Next challenge - doctor appt. tomorrow! I don't think I'm gonna land in a hospital but I *do* want an issue checked out to be sure - and as I hadn't had a primary care specialist for a long time, it was about time that I took care of that as well......crossing fingers! <BR> ... Wed, 17 May 2017 06:26:58 EST Another weekend! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6360901 One more day of buying lunch - another missing "brown bag" ingredient discovered this morning prevented me from returning to my usual routine - but I can now do the grocery thing this evening so next week will be back to the ol' grind and standard stuff....... <BR> <BR> Reviewed calendar and upcoming plans for the next few weeks - in light of my recent date snafu, I may want to look at printing my app calendar and have that handy instead of rewriting info on a traditional calendar, as that ... Fri, 12 May 2017 06:21:07 EST Oh, boy........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6360451 NEED to get to grocery shopping, but I gotta check the finances first........4#!@#!%^ <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> Will definitely get that done this weekend, but for now I'll probably buy lunch for another day (or even Friday as well)........fortunately the cafe posts healthy suggestion entrees on their menu........had a nice chicken (marsala-style) with asparagus and new potatoes ........not sure what I'll decide on today........the one thing I WILL do, though, is get back on trac... Thu, 11 May 2017 05:24:16 EST Once again, a reminder....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6360036 .....aging is NOT for sissies! <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> Apparently I "outsmarted" myself with my attempt at keeping my calendar act together - when I posted my social event on my online app, I messed up in trying to sync with my "old-school" paper version and wrote the WRONG DATE down........sooooooo - that social event from yesterday that I had mentioned in my feed is actually set for *next week*! <BR> <BR> D'oh! <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> Good thing I no longer ha... Wed, 10 May 2017 06:28:40 EST Tuesday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6359597 Leg/knee is doing better (but I still wanna take it easy - aging is NOT for wimps, sad to say)........ <BR> <BR> Have a social event this evening, again involving food - have made my menu choice (not ideal, but within my budget - will deal with the calorie impact going forward wrt future food intake/exercise)....... <BR> <BR> Nice sleeping weather and continued good behavior from the laptop - woo-hoo! <BR> <BR> Enjoy your Tuesday, Sparkies! <BR> <BR> <em>213</em> Tue, 9 May 2017 06:29:34 EST Sunday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6358755 Took it easier again today (though I tried a couple of short SP videos just so I could say I wasn't totally lazy - still want to watch the leg - knees are better now).......am not used to working out for less than 30 min./day but I felt that discretion was the better part of valor........ <BR> <BR> Have an event to attend today - after which point I will back away from the group (don't ask)........have another event going on later in the week which caught me by surprise........I will *defini... Sun, 7 May 2017 08:13:52 EST Taking it easy for now...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6358414 Have some leg/knee discomfort so I'm gonna try the "active rest" approach (I've been working out every day for months now without respite, so I think that might not have helped me)........did do some yoga this morning, though....... <BR> <BR> Computer has been behaving better - crossing fingers for continued good time online! <BR> <BR> Enjoy your Saturday, Sparkies! Sat, 6 May 2017 11:02:23 EST Lousy day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6357463 Gotta work harder on turning things around - this is really getting old and tiring now! <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> Thu, 4 May 2017 06:20:53 EST Crossing fingers! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6356492 Computer behaving *much* better now (yet *another* change in browser use) - hopefully this will help to stabilize things as I really missed being around here (and being able to track food and a few other important tasks)......... <BR> <BR> Enjoy your Tuesday! <BR> <BR> <em>213</em> Tue, 2 May 2017 06:24:20 EST Time to get down to business....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6355943 Will *really* need to step it up and back off of socialities for quite the forseeable future - have been experiencing unfortunate situations wrt dealings with people, which have had a bad impact on my journey........yep - *definitely* time to step back and just focus on work and chilling out alone at home (and yes, with the TV) - I've come to the conclusion that the fates are pretty much telling me that this is what I need to do, and it's best that I do NOT fight this any more........ Mon, 1 May 2017 06:14:59 EST Things are *still* rough :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6355225 Am trying another browser today - looks good for now, but I've been down this route before and eventually encountered problems.........SMH........ <BR> <BR> Have come to the conclusion that those "free meals" that I've come across from time to time in my area seem to bring out - sad to say - things that make me feel uncomfortable.........except for one venue I think I'll discontinue this practice........better to pay for a nice meal (either out or home-cooked) where I can be in a comfortable... Sat, 29 Apr 2017 14:46:07 EST Sigh........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6352455 Another late day in getting online - not a real problem, but still feel strange to change up the usual routine the way I had this weekend....... <BR> <BR> Received some disturbing news about a family acquaintance today - sigh........... <BR> <BR> Beautiful weather today - may get out for a brief walk at a local park - will see how things go..... <BR> <BR> Enjoy your Sunday, Sparkies! <BR> <BR> <em>213</em> Sun, 23 Apr 2017 15:07:28 EST Rough patch continues......... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6352113 Continuing computer issues, struggles with eating, home issues - it just *never seems to end*......... <BR> <BR> Can't get my mojo back and it's really getting irritating now! <BR> <BR> <em>28</em> Sat, 22 Apr 2017 19:24:17 EST Mid-week strikes again! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6350482 Well, actually not a *strike* - which is a good thing! (More like a segue - much preferred!) <BR> <BR> Still need to get the eating back on track, but there is improvement going on there (one event over the weekend, but the menu I saw looks to be OK in general)........ <BR> <BR> Weather will be cooling down slightly from the past few days - good sleeping conditions (woo-hoo)! <BR> <BR> Enjoy your "hump day"! <BR> <BR> <em>213</em> Wed, 19 Apr 2017 05:22:11 EST Whoa! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6350043 Just to prove that "no good deed goes unpunished" - the return to the workplace was downright chaotic - which is likely to happen when *your* place is closed but many of your content providers are *not*..........exhausting, to say the least! <BR> <BR> Hopefully there won't be a repeat today! <BR> <BR> Have had to resort to using a direct Ethernet connection as the wireless option is still giving me agita - sheesh! Can't do this indefinitely, though, as the spot is used for others (and that'... Tue, 18 Apr 2017 06:25:06 EST Reworking things....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6349552 I've come to the conclusion that I *really need to avoid holidays* if I'm gonna have any chance of succeeding on this rework of my journey - sadly, that's gonna be almost *impossible*..... <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> The good news here is that yesterday was fairly low-key........I attempted some church activities, but had to bail on the main service as I felt that I had enough by the time I finished the breakfast...........I have also come to the conclusion that I need to back off ... Mon, 17 Apr 2017 06:00:13 EST Glad this rough season is over! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6349336 Difficult week - all I want is to have things turn around..........it's getting old and tiring to be low in the mood for extended periods of time...........once again, it's gonna be a "thank goodness it's Monday" mindset............sigh........ <BR> <BR> For those who celebrate, I wish you all a very good Easter day! Sun, 16 Apr 2017 14:57:07 EST Loooooong week ahead....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6346901 ........gotta preserve my pay.......... SMH/sigh.......... <BR> <BR> Will see how well I survive *this time*........... <BR> <BR> Enjoy your Tuesday! <BR> <BR> Tue, 11 Apr 2017 06:30:13 EST Enough! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6346354 Weekend started off great - ended up ....... meh......... <BR> <BR> More food that I probably needed to deal with, but I *did* push it with long, extended workouts.........and the weather was *gorgeous* on *both* days for a change! <BR> <BR> Only problem was with *Sunday*...........had an event get cancelled due to "human error" in terms of scheduling - however, due to miscommunication/misunderstanding, a *whole lot of UNNECESSARY FAMILY DRAMA* played itself out once more......... <BR> <BR... Mon, 10 Apr 2017 06:23:56 EST Challenges continue....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6344972 1) Commute could be interesting - $#!@# rain/*flooding*..........sigh.......welcom<BR>e to Spring...... <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> 2) Irritating evening had me fall off-track - gawd, just when I thought I was actually making progress on the ol' *stress eating* issue........then......sigh......"life happens"........ <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> 3) I have another food-filled weekend I gotta deal with somehow.........sigh....... <BR> <BR> I hope you have a better Friday th... Fri, 7 Apr 2017 06:28:14 EST Still trying to plug along........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6344519 ......but have a *lot* of food-involved events to deal with this weekend........sigh.......here we go again.........gotta *plan, plan, and plan again* (at least on Sunday I can at least *provide a salad* of the kind I like - sooooooo........bring on the - ahem - *raspberry vinagrette dressing*, of course)! <BR> <BR> At least once this rain backs off (yep, more and more flood advisories, too!), the weekend is shaping up to have *gorgeous* weather - for a change! <BR> <BR> <em>224</em> <B... Thu, 6 Apr 2017 06:29:50 EST Trying to pick myself up....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6344007 Still feel a bit stressed and somewhat vulnerable to overeating - but with things heating up at work, the busyness hopefully will help....... <BR> <BR> Certain - ahem - "foundation garments" are not feeling as tight now ......... and on other self-improvement fronts, it was sooooooo cool to see a nicely-reduced bill come in the mail! <BR> <BR> <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> Enjoy your Tuesday, Sparkies! <BR> <BR> <em>213</em> Wed, 5 Apr 2017 06:23:32 EST Rough Monday :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6343513 Chaos at work - irritation with the home routine - and *rain* ........ lots and LOTS of *rain*! <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> Not only did I need "Taco Bell" after the morning troubles (though I didn't actually go there - I'm referring to their recent commercials wrt "if your morning is h*ll" - and it sure WAS :( )...........but I also REALLY needed a "stress doll" at the office (I have one of them at home but perhaps I should invest in one for the office and car)....... <BR> <BR> A... Tue, 4 Apr 2017 06:28:38 EST Soaker here! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6342993 Rain, rain and *more* rain - and I'm in a flood-prone area.......yikes! <BR> <BR> <em>27</em> = <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> Now to get back on track (should be easier @ home - while the weekend was *very active*, the food intake was not ideal.......oh, well)! <BR> <BR> Enjoy your Monday and new week! <BR> <BR> <em>213</em> Mon, 3 Apr 2017 06:21:57 EST Weekend done........ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6342557 Heading back today - could have done better, but also could have done *much worse*..........have issues that are bringing me down a bit (yeah, you can tell I'm heading back when this kind of thing happens)......... <BR> <BR> Enjoy your Sunday! Sun, 2 Apr 2017 07:45:51 EST Friday - and the plans begin....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6341575 Have worrisome issues that are getting to me right now - so much for this weekend.......sigh...... Fri, 31 Mar 2017 05:30:40 EST Still in a bit of a funk, and had a frustrating morning....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6341120 REALLY, internet service provider? Suddenly I need to change how I get my family email? The $#!@## with that! You singlehandedly made my morning h*ll and I have no intention to hit Taco Bell (gawd, that commercial is sticking in my head - lol.......) <BR> <BR> <em>28</em> <BR> <BR> Got a long put-off task done last night - yeah, I guess I feel better about doing that, but it took some time and tired me out a bit.......go figure........ <BR> <BR> Still having no success trying to find s... Thu, 30 Mar 2017 06:22:04 EST Wednesday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6340594 Will prepare for my mini-weekend away........soooo badly needed, too (even leaving my sad home state, which is *huge*!)....... <BR> <BR> <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> I'm trying to steel myself so I can get to the point where I can do what I've been putting off for a while (for no really great reason, either, which is disturbing to me as it's not really my character to do so)........I just *HATE* to get on a phone and talk anymore (even at work, communications are held either by IM or in-perso... Wed, 29 Mar 2017 06:23:41 EST Tuesday....... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6340056 ....same ol', same ol'........except for this......... <BR> <BR> I thought my life was in balance, but after receiving a voicemail message, I'm not sure about that at all.......... <BR> <BR> You see, I don't like to talk much on a phone these days (not that I text or email all that much either, oddly enough), and someone had been trying to contact me frequently.......the person expressed concern.........and I keep unintentionally blowing the person off..... <BR> <BR> Why? Beats the $#!@# o... Tue, 28 Mar 2017 06:28:23 EST