RASMUSSEN5's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=RASMUSSEN5 RASMUSSEN5's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ My review on Coconut Oil http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5612029 I recently purchased some Coconut Oil as I have seen numerous articles and testimonies praising the many uses of this "heavenly" oil. So I decided to test out some of the many uses to see for myself. Here are my reviews on each (I will post the use first followed by a short description on what I did) with a rating in the front. <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> <em>42</em> HAIR DEEP CONDITIONING-I took the Coconut Oil in its regular "hard" form and rubbed it generously into my scalp and down to t... Sat, 1 Feb 2014 11:40:59 EST Where have I been?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5589164 I received a sparkmail from a friend asking where I have been for the past year. Don't worry ! I haven't dropped off the face of the earth! lol <BR> <BR> I have had a very busy year full of ups and downs. In Febuary 2012 i had a miscarriage and got so depressed. I took a break from everything. I was slowly trying to come to terms with the idea that 4 girls may be all God has planned for me. Little did I know.... <BR> <BR> <em>79</em> In March of 2013 we found out we were expecting again... Fri, 10 Jan 2014 11:58:28 EST No matter how many times we stumble http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5245414 This weekend hasn't been good for me. Saturday marked 4 years since my grandma lost her battle with colon cancer. I don't know how but it all still seems so fresh. The pain of losing her still feels like it was yesterday. I know it doesnt really get any easier. And its just going to take time to slowly move on but it seemed to hit me yesterday like a ton of bricks. I was depressed from the start of the day. I didn't make great eating chocies. I spent the day watching movies with my kids just ... Sun, 10 Feb 2013 18:23:00 EST A fresh start! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5243861 Yesterday morning a friend of mine asked me what I am doing to lose weight...I shared my experience with her including my Beachbody programs and of course, Shakeology. She replied that she was currently doing INsanity but wanted to hear more about Shakeology. After chatting with her and explaining everything, it made me realize something. I miss being a Beachbody coach! I am not talking about selling people something. I truly miss helping people on their own weight loss journeys. Whether it w... Sat, 9 Feb 2013 11:14:07 EST Cancelling the Pity Party!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5234378 I found out on thursday that some of my meds are causing weight gain as a side effect. There's nothing I can do except continue to take them to improve my mental health and then we will gradually get me off them when not needed anymore. While I take comfort in knowing that there is a reason for the weight gain and I am not doing anything wrong, it still is disappointing as I felt like it was a hopeless situation. Hope was I to continue my journey now? What's the point? Why bother? Why is this... Sat, 2 Feb 2013 10:54:55 EST 2 steps forward..1 step back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5230061 At the beginning of this week I was 229.2lbs. I wasn't working out as often as I should and I def could have been making healthier choices! This past weekend something "clicked" for me. If I wanted this bad enough....I have to be willing to put in the work. I have to make the extra effort to see change! Just doing enough to "get by" isn't going to give me the results I want! I have to be consistent and realistic. The weight isn't just going to magically melt off in a week no matter how hard I... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 10:39:12 EST Find what works for you! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5230022 IT seems like when you are on this journey that everyone has advice and ideas to try. Things that have worked for them. It great for them to share their experiences with others BUT not everyone responds to programs or schedules the same way. <BR> <BR> Some need to carefully watch their calorie intake while doing light exercise. Others need the hard core workouts and don't pay as much attention to what they eat. It doesn't matter what you are doing to lose weight on this journey...whether it... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 10:18:58 EST Yesterday's Triumphs :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5228490 I got 40 min of reorganizing my front entry way and basement. I put together a bunch of shelving to hold all my canning supplies down there. Well I was up and down the stairs, seriously sweating! lol Afterwards I was thinking this counts as a workout right? Well don't worry! I didn't count it! haha I got on the elliptical right away and did 35 min. It was a blast too cuz I was in my groove listening to music and kinda dancing while on the machine haha! Then I did some strength training (inclu... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 09:51:33 EST Letter to the future me...in 10 weeks! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5227919 Good morning sunshine! It's good to see you well on your way to becoming yourself again! You are more fitness oriented. You have goals you want to achieve and you have the tools to make it happen! <BR> <BR> You are continuing to plan out the family menu a week in advance to avoid last minute bad decisions. You are overcoming your sweet tooth addiction and are hitting your daily water intake no problem! The BLC 21 was a great round for you! You lost 10lb, gain confidence, helped others, moti... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 22:25:49 EST Is anyone else loving this sync up? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5222374 I recently noticed a posting about bodymedia and sparkpeople being able to sync! I am thrilled with this! I have had my BodyBugg arm band media for about 7 months now and I LOVE it! I wear it everyday and its been a huge asset to me. I dont' have to guess when it comes to putting in my calorie burn anymore. <BR> <BR> Anyways, this recent change that brought bodymedia and spark together has made it so much easier for me to keep track of my daily calorie burn, steps and nutrition. I hear it a... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 23:10:46 EST New beginnings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5218841 Well working out this morning I heard a song called "I still believe" by Jeremy Camp. I feel like God was telling me something regarding the miscarriage and some other incidents in my life. The song was perfect to describe exactly how I feel at this point in time..."I still believe in your faithfulness. Cuz I still believe in your truth." "Your grace falls like rain....washing away my pain." <BR> <BR> I ended up sobbing in the mind. I am sure I looked like a complete lunatic but it just see... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 15:39:35 EST Onward and Upward http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5206587 As per my last blog and the task my therapist set for me...I have just about completed it. The pain and hurt of letting all my baby items go....I can't put into words. I had to stop numerous times but kept telling myself this is for the best. To move forward I had to put the past to rest. I had several gracious people offer to pay for my items so I got some money out of it and treated myself to some new books on my Nook. The remaining items will items be taken to Salvation Army or given to fr... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 11:47:10 EST Can I really let go? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5183597 My therapist has a new task for me. She thinks it will be beneficial for me to begin selling off or getting rid of my stash of baby clothes. I have so much boxed up in totes alot of girls but I also have an overflow of boys items as well....holding out for something that may never come. <BR> <BR> She explained that "hoarding" these items is actually hindering me from moving forward. I am not able to let go of the past or rather the dreams of an idea if I am holding on to these items. I don'... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 10:58:34 EST First impression http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5169596 My first visit with the therapist was today...I have to admit it was easier to open up then I had thought it would be. She had me unload the high points of my life so to speak...the "high risk" areas that are all "motives" to cause depression. I have had more then I thought...not a good feeling there. <BR> <BR> She did get enough tho today to diagnose me with Chronic Depression. As she talked about this I was thinking...REALLY??? Isn't it obvious I have that? I am here talking to you! Sorry... Mon, 17 Dec 2012 22:34:26 EST What a difference a year can make... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5161046 My what a difference a year can make! This time last year I was in the best shape of my life at 173 with a passion for running and a hunger for helping others with thier weight loss. I had just found out I was pregnant and i was on top of the world. <BR> <BR> Fast Forward to today...I am 60lbs heavier, survived another miscarrage and miserable. I am still helping others with thier weight loss but can't seem to take my own advice! <BR> <BR> I am so fustrated with myself for gaining all the... Sun, 9 Dec 2012 12:01:24 EST Plan for the BLC Holiday break http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5155013 For our final weekend challenge of the BLC round 20 we are to blog about what our plan is for the holiday break. <BR> <BR> Nutrition: <BR> I plan to continue with Shakeology for breakfast and a sensible lunch and dinner with lean protein and lots of veggies. <BR> <BR> Fitness: <BR> I plan to make a commitment to myself to get at least 15 min of fitness minutes in everyday. I have really been struggling with this and I need to buckle down and make it a priority. I am not planning to stick ... Mon, 3 Dec 2012 17:14:41 EST 3 little words.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5153072 My youngest daughter's 2nd birthday party was tonight and boy am I glad its over! I consider it a success as I didn't have any birthday cake! I wasn't even tempted to eat the sweets! VICTORY <BR> <BR> My brother in law said something tonight that I took as a compliment. He asked about my new weights (they are the dial ones that adjust your weight from 5-55lb). He thought they were my husbands!! Was impressed that they were mine! <BR> <BR> Now for the reason I wrote this blog and the expl... Sat, 1 Dec 2012 22:40:14 EST I just wanna know... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5144665 I am planning a talk with my OBGYN next week to discuss my husband and my efforts to get pregnant one last time. Things have not been going well and I need answers. <BR> <BR> I have been hearing and seeing info on the IUD Mirena and the side efffects/damage it has caused alot of women. I am worried that I may be one of them. I have no thoughts as to how to deal with this at the moment except that one way or the other...I NEED to know. I wanna know if there is no hope for us and we should in... Fri, 23 Nov 2012 23:23:48 EST Plus side to being sick! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5127675 November 7th- I am thankful that no matter who the president is and no matter what happens...God is still in control! <BR> <BR> I have had the flu for the past 3 days. I am feeling miserable BUT there is a plus side to being sick! I lost 5lb this week! lol Certainly not the way I intended but I will take it as the scale hasn't moved in the right direction for weeks! I am hoping to use this time to recoop and break my junk food habit since I can't eat it anyways! lol <BR> <BR> I am excited ... Wed, 7 Nov 2012 19:16:54 EST Positive Changes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5122776 November 3rd- I am thankful for my girls relationship with their grandparents. I remember my relationship with my grandparents and the memories that will last me a lifetime. I am grateful that my girls have that. <BR> <BR> This afternoon I spend 2 hours doing what should have been done weeks ago. I went through my clothes and put away the ones that are too small and replace them with my bigger sizes. I was feeling down every morning when I went to get dressed seeing all the smaller sizes th... Sat, 3 Nov 2012 18:13:47 EST November 2nd Thankful blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5122072 Nov 2nd- <BR> I am thankful for the loving family that I have been fortunate enough to be married into it. God has truly blessed me with in-laws who are just like family! Love them all. :) <BR> <BR> I am so fustrated with myself and my lack of motivation and will power lately. I miss the energetic person that I was last year. Eating healthy, full of energy and motivation. Ready to workout whenever i could. I feel like I need to start making some changes to my life and some decisions that wil... Sat, 3 Nov 2012 00:24:26 EST November 1st: thankful blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5120796 November 1st: <BR> <BR> I am thankful for my house. Be as it may, a complete disaster, it holds in it the things that I value most: my husband and my children. <BR> <BR> Today was another stressful mess of a day! My baratic appt was a complete let down. I know that due to Addison's situation I have been stress eating ALOT, but I just wasnt' prepared for the 4lb gain in the last 2 weeks! I am such a mess! So after talking to my nutritionist, doctor and trainer...I have small steps to take in... Thu, 1 Nov 2012 21:27:28 EST Keeping it going http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5113561 A friend shared this picture with me on facebook today and it really got me thinking. I need to focus on the positives and what I have already been blessed with. <BR> I am so much to be thankful for this holiday season and I don't want to spend it dwelling on the negatives. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1809880463.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Despite so NOT feeling like working out yesterday due to TOM and cramps, I still made myself push play., I thought if I give mysel... Fri, 26 Oct 2012 11:01:21 EST IS this meant to be? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5112261 Feeling alittle down this am...My husband and I have been trying for another baby since I miscarried. I am thinking the D&C i had done may have messed up things for me <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> It looks like we are going to start getting serious about the adoption process. I am numb at this point. I want a son of my own but at the same time I know that i may have another girl or it may never happen at all. There are so many children out there that need a good home and I know that I would lo... Thu, 25 Oct 2012 10:05:18 EST BLC 20 update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5109285 I started this round with alot of ambitions and goals. I don't think I have accomplished much so far. I am really glad that we have this mid round challenge to make us look back at our goals and refocus ourselves on getting on track. So I am going to take each of my goals from my beginning blog post and figure out where I am at now.... <BR> <BR> My personal life: <BR> 1. start a morning devotional (this will also be my "me time") I think this will help also with my mood lately and all this d... Mon, 22 Oct 2012 23:51:03 EST Prayers needed please! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5095897 My 6 year old daughter , Addison, has had frequent UTIs and alot of issues with her bladder/kidneys lately. She had an ultrasound done on wednesday and her doctor called me this afternoon. The news isn't good...her right kidney is swollen so we will be doing another 10 days of the strong antibioic (makes her immune system weak). then he wants to see her again on the 22nd where we will discuss the next step...doing another kidney test where they inject a dye into her. <BR> <BR> As I mom I am... Thu, 11 Oct 2012 23:22:11 EST Letting Go and Letting God http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5093315 I have a habit of stressing and worrying too much about things that I can't control. I have been stressing over a number of things lately: <BR> <BR> 1. My weight...I am extremely unhappy with how far I have let myself go. I am also discouraged when I don't see more movement on the scale even tho I KNOW non scale victories are worth celebrating too. <BR> 2. Our finances...who in this world doesn't worry about this? Being that my hubby is a farmer, times do get tough for us. <BR> 3. My kids ... Tue, 9 Oct 2012 22:19:44 EST Real Life Realizations http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5085018 I did some thinking last night and came up with some real life "realizations". They are not difficult and some would probably even say they are obvious but I thought putting them on "paper" would hold me meaning for myself. <BR> <BR> My Real Life Realizations: <BR> 1. Eating Ice Cream every night will NOT help you on your weight loss <BR> 2. Drinking more water everyday really makes you feel better overall <BR> 3. If you want to see results you have to work out more then 10 minutes each day... Wed, 3 Oct 2012 10:26:35 EST Day one completed! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5083102 Well today was the official start to my Fall into Fitness challenge. I must admit I had a busy day and I still have a ton to do but I stopped what I was doing and pushed play. I told myself that I HAD to do this for ME! I don't regret it of course! <BR> <BR> I am however really upset with myself...I gave into a craving and had ice cream. It's only day ONE for crying out loud! I lasted like 12 hours! Geez I need to get a grip and overcome this addiction to sugar before I surcome to it! <B... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 23:11:13 EST Ready for a new challenge! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5081452 My Beachbody challenge starts tomorrow and I am looking forward to a good butt kicking from my coach! lol I chose to do Turbo Jam so its going to be fun workouts. Hopefully that keeps me motivated to do them. <BR> <BR> My grateful list for today: <BR> <BR> 1. I am thankful for amazing friends like my Coach Amy Leever who is there to encourage and support me through my journey <BR> 2. Turbo Jam! I LOVE this workout! So much fun! If you haven't tried it out...I encourage you to do so! <BR> ... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 00:32:49 EST Another mini Victory! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5079999 Today I had several mini victories. I wanted donuts for breakfast but decided against it. For lunch I had a salad and NO pretzel m&ms as I was checking out! Then we spent the day shopping at Aldi's and Sams Club where I wanted SO MANY of the SWEETS but I prevailed! lol I am happy to say I am home and haven't lost yet! <BR> <BR> My 10 things I am grateful for today: <BR> 1. I am grateful for Sams Club...a wonderful warehouse that saves us alot of money <BR> 2. Aldis' Going there today saved ... Sat, 29 Sep 2012 23:25:43 EST Start of a busy weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5079018 Took my daughter in to the doctors to check for a bladder infection which as of now she doesn't have. i feel so awful for her as she is prone to them. I am feeling fustrated with the amount of sickness we have had in the house already...and its not even October yet! I am fearful of what the winter will bring. <BR> <BR> To go with the BLC weekend Bingo Challenge I am blogging 10 things that I am grateful for today...boy do I need to do this today! <BR> <BR> 1. Knowledgeable and understandi... Fri, 28 Sep 2012 23:30:05 EST First appointment! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5068474 I had my first appt at the Baratic clinic today. It was really informative almost to the point of overwhelming! I was flooded with information, ideas, goals and tips to get my started on taking control of my life again,. She was impressed with my fitness past and the workout programs I am used to doing. My biggest obstucle is and always will be my DIET! I can be faithful and consistent when it comes to fitness and getting in those workouts but my diet can totally cancel it all out. <BR> <BR... Thu, 20 Sep 2012 22:40:56 EST It's a go!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5064701 I got the okay from my insurance and the appointment is set! <BR> <BR> This thursday I will be getting serious about my weight loss. Per referral from my obgyn I am seeing a doctor that specializes in weight loss. Its all part of a weight loss program that I am starting. It will include meeting with the doctor that specializes in weight loss, then a dietician and then heading to a fitness center to workout. I will be repeating these appointments every 2 weeks for a few months. <BR> <BR> I... Tue, 18 Sep 2012 10:39:57 EST A plan of action http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5056983 Went to the doctors this am and I think we have a plan! She is referring me to the weight loss program/unit in my clinic. It's a specific doctor that works with you just on losing weight and all that comes with that. She thinks the root to my depression may be past the miscarriage and its the added weight that's causing me to be in a slump. She is also concerned because I have gained 40lbs in the last 7 months and with my long family history of diabetes, she wants me to get this under control... Thu, 13 Sep 2012 00:13:39 EST 100 reasons to Exercise NOW! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5056978 100 Reasons to Exercise Now <BR> <BR> Because it makes you feel confident <BR> Because it helps you get stronger <BR> Because exercise helps combat depression <BR> Because you'll feel proud of yourself <BR> Because you have goals you want to reach <BR> Because you'll feel bad if you don't <BR> Because you want to move forward, not backward <BR> Because it burns more calories than not working out <BR> Because it improves your heart health <BR> Because y... Thu, 13 Sep 2012 00:10:34 EST My ABCs for the BLC http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5054445 A is for ABOVE and BEYOND...Does competition push you? YES! I need challenges to keep my motivated and moving <BR> <BR> B is for BLC rounds... Newbie?(first BLC round) Oldie?(1-3 rounds) Goldie?(long time BLCer)? Former BLC team(s)? This is my 5th round and 2nd round being a co=captain <BR> <BR> C is for CHILDREN...you have? I have 4 girls. Seraphina (almost8) Addison (6) Lillian (3) Elizabeth/EJ (almost 2) <BR> <BR> D is for DOWNFALL...what's you're biggest temptation? SWEETS! I have an a... Tue, 11 Sep 2012 13:13:45 EST My goals for BLC20 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5051797 I figured it def doesn't hurt to put a list of my goals out there for accountability. <BR> So here is my goals for the next 12 weeks! <BR> <BR> My personal life: <BR> 1. start a morning devotional (this will also be my "me time") I think this will help also with my mood lately and all this depressed feelings <BR> 2.take my pills/vitamins FAITHFULLY <BR> 3.Either blog or journal at least once a week -I think it will help to get my feelings out there and off my chest so I don't stress about ... Sun, 9 Sep 2012 23:27:40 EST Turning Point http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5043173 My last blog was about my thoughts in not being pregnant and my feeling of depression with that. A spark friend commented on that blog with thoughts that stunned me. <BR> <BR> This past Labor Day weekend, my husband took me and the girls out camping for 4 days in our new camper. I had time to reflect on the previous mentioned blog and my spark friends comments. The more I thought about it the more I realized she was right! I was being selfish! There are so many incredible women out there (I... Mon, 3 Sep 2012 22:30:11 EST Why do I make myself go through this?? (WARNING! Not postive at all) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5038202 I haven't been taking my pills for the past 3 weeks because I thought for sure that I was pregnant. I have spend these past 3 weeks with migraines beyond belief (I have a daily pill to prevent them), sporatic moods (i am on anti depressant) and my thyroid levels are all wacky now. Well as you might have guessed by now...I am NOT pregnant. I am so crushed and miserable. This means the past 3 weeks have been for nothing and I really am gaining weight out of control for no reason! <BR> <BR> Wh... Fri, 31 Aug 2012 00:12:51 EST Miserable weigh in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5035883 I really DON"T feel comfortable posting here this in here but I need to get UNCOMFORTABLE as comfortable is def NOT helping me! I am failing miserably!! I keep seeing the 173 lb that I was last summer!! Why is it so hard to find my way back there again?? I am now 215 lb....I have got to get out of this rut before I am too far gone! Wed, 29 Aug 2012 10:34:37 EST Looking forward to the week! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5032419 I found some great motivators in my facebook challenge groups that are challenging me to get moving. Each day we post a new challenge for each other...so I will try posting them in my blog the night before and update whether I completed it or not. HEY! I need all the accountability I can get! lol <BR> <BR> Monday August 27th: <BR> <BR> Run/walk/swim/bike or jog: 5 miles total <BR> Make healthier eating choices and NO ADDED SWEETS! (big trouble here!) <BR> drink at least 6 glasses of water ... Sun, 26 Aug 2012 23:05:51 EST A Fresh Outlook http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5029673 I think I have been holding myself back for the past few months in my struggle to get back on track. I have this ALL OR NOTHING mentality. I tend to view a workout as if I cant do at least 30 min then its not worth it so why bother. I am trying to work on a fresh outlook: To get at least a 20 min workout in everyday, and strive to make healthier choices everyday. I am putting it out there now that I know that I won't be perfect and I am not going to be doing this right 100% of the time but e... Fri, 24 Aug 2012 18:19:12 EST A pleasant surprise... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5010735 I was having a down day and didn't think anything could improve my mood...I logged into my Biggest Loser contest I run on facebook and was pleasantly surprised with a beautiful message from one of the members. <BR> <BR> <BR> "Hi Charity Rasmussen! I saw this quote today and wanted to share it with you. When I read it, I immediately thought of you. I'm sure that the fellow members of Biggest Loser Round #4 will agree with me..... <BR> <BR> If your actions inspire others to dream more, lear... Sat, 11 Aug 2012 10:07:26 EST Chalean Extreme Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5004393 I started Chalean Extreme this morning.... In the past 6 months I have gotten sooo out of shape! I was lifting 25s and ready for heavier when I completed round 1 of Chalean but this time I am really dragging! I could barely make it through the 35 min workout! I was exhausted and pouring sweat 10 min into it! I thought it would never end and at one point I did pause it to catch my breath for a minute as I was dizzy...I thought I don't think I can finish this. But i pushed through it and finish... Tue, 7 Aug 2012 00:16:59 EST If not today...when? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5002536 If you know me or have been following my blogs lately you know I am in a major slump. About 6 months ago my world fell apart and since I have lost all motivation and gained all my weight back. <BR> <BR> This afternoon while at my niece's 1st birthday party I had a thought...why does my mood have to be 100% in order for me to start my journey over? Why not just start today with no motivation and work towards it? So tomorrow morning, whether I have 50% motivation or 0%, I WILL be starting C... Sun, 5 Aug 2012 21:25:29 EST Feeling worse.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5000015 Today was awful...I didn't get anything accomplished that I wanted to. My house is still a mess and I haven't worked out. I have no desire or motivation for anything. I feel like I am falling deeper in that house rather then climbing out. <BR> <BR> I think I am feeling worse lately because I am getting closer and closer to my "due date". I would have been 35 weeks at this point. I am still devastated as if it happened just yesterday. I can't seem to shake the feeling. Will I ever be my old ... Fri, 3 Aug 2012 20:52:30 EST Another bad day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4989934 Well I am counting today as day 2...Day 2 of taking my life back ! <BR> <BR> Today I wasn't home so I couldn't do I regular scheduled dvd workout like I had planned to but I knew that I couldn't use that as an excuse or I would get off track again. So I got my mom up and we went for a walk. Ended up doing 2 miles. Not fabulous but better then if I had stayed at her house and done nothing. <BR> <BR> Eating today however wasn't great...had my shake for breakfast, a Cobb salad for lunch (whi... Fri, 27 Jul 2012 23:09:39 EST NO MORE PRETENDING http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4984153 The past 7 months have been really rough for me emotionally. The miscarriage in feburary really threw me off. I lost motivation, desire and passion for my weight loss. I turned to food for comfort. I pushed myself in a back corner and avoided dealing with my feelings. Instead focused on helping others with their weight loss goals. Everyday I felt like I was falling deeper and deeper into a black hole with no end in sight. I look in the mirror and HATE the image I see. I am not just talking ph... Mon, 23 Jul 2012 23:34:49 EST Need a DO OVER! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4973619 Today def DID NOT go as I had planned. I wanted to start this week off with a bang in getting back on track with my weight loss. I have been spiraling out of control for the past 4 months and I need to get a hold of myself again. Well...today was not the day for it apparently! <BR> <BR> My youngest seems to be sick from vacation so she is super clingy and I havent' been able to get anything done or gotten a workout in at all! Then my middle daughter used too much toilet paper and the toilet... Mon, 16 Jul 2012 22:19:56 EST