RAINPUDDLE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=RAINPUDDLE RAINPUDDLE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Dori Episodes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6306203 I was clipping along when all of a sudden my spunk took a detour with eating and activity. I've been a kid in a candy store with my eating and a roller coaster ride with my activity. <BR> <BR> I got to the gym frequently this month but not as much as I would have loved too. Going to do better in days ahead. <BR> <BR> I signed up for a 12 week fitness monitoring through work, I'm super geeked about this as it will keep me even more dedicated to staying the course. I'm easily, Dori so its i... Fri, 27 Jan 2017 11:59:25 EST Feeling GREAT! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6297718 Its exciting to be on my way to a healthier me. My inner voice says great success is within reach. Its only a matter of time and I will be exactly how I envision lil ole me, what a good feeling that is! Been to the dark side and now on my way back to the FORCE! Going to slay it! Sat, 14 Jan 2017 00:26:22 EST Beauty in the ashes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5920190 Today just an hour ago my little girl left in a moving truck to Colorado.....mama is in tears. <BR> <BR> I'm sad yet so excited, this is a new begging for us both.....as she looks to spread her wings becoming even more independent, I will be working on stuff of my own the first being to loose this weight and the second to transform the room my daughter grew up in....making it my new beautiful space that echoes love. <BR> <BR> May GOD's grace be upon us now and as we continue to journey. <B... Thu, 30 Apr 2015 10:58:38 EST Reflections http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5919779 Never thought in a million years I would be right where I am today.....I weigh more than I have ever weighed. <BR> <BR> Life has beat me up and I truly am at rock bottom. Some days I wish my body matched the giggly person I use to be, instead my body reflects exactly the turmoil that was going on in my life.....eventually with time I will find the giggly girl inside. <BR> <BR> I thought I was fat when I weighed 157 or when I weighed 187 or when I weighed 200 or when I weighed 220.......its... Wed, 29 Apr 2015 16:13:01 EST New Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5403479 Today hallmarks my starting point......I'm ready to forget the past and make some new memories. <BR> <BR> Its all because I want too! Life is good! <BR> <BR> Thu, 27 Jun 2013 11:36:46 EST Naughty to Nice http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4984846 Started my journey again at Christmas time, although I could of been eating, sleeping and breathing 100% to reaching my goal as soon as possible, I didn't subject myself to such a ridged plan. Typically my style is "get it done" so be the machine. The difference this time is the slow but eventually approach which is far nicer to myself. <BR> <BR> Being nice to myself is a new practice, I still have moments when that dark voice is not nice but now I'm better at shutting it up....mmmm hmmm. ... Tue, 24 Jul 2012 12:39:28 EST I can do bad all by myself. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4973245 It is already hard enough to take off the weight and then when you get it off and reach goal it is just as hard to maintain. You would think that a person would remember this after repeating the cycle so many times yet there must be something else to learn. <BR> <BR> The last thing anyone needs is a boyfriend or girlfriend that is so needy you can't do you, meaning....your sooo busy trying to make the other person happy that you are unhappy and when your unhappy you loose sight of what is im... Mon, 16 Jul 2012 17:38:13 EST To all the wonderful BLOGGERS! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4967545 Today I read a number of blogs, blogs that were even personal. Its amazing what a person can write and the story they can tell. Some people are just great writers and others are great story tellers and others are just plain funny. <BR> <BR> The best blogs to me are the ones with photos. Some people are really into recording snapshots of their transformation and these pictures tell all. Its very exciting to see what some people have accomplished. <BR> <BR> Blogs personal or not, photos or n... Thu, 12 Jul 2012 17:05:54 EST Who am I? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4964133 Ever have that feeling for a split moment that your not who you are? <BR> <BR> Lately I've been going to the gym, taking cardio classes like kickboxing; Zumba and spin. Crazy enough, as I'm doing the routine for the work-out a feeling of supernatural is over comes me. <BR> <BR> I'm feeling like super athlete....Who is this girl? She liking the intensity, she all into it, she might have even forgotten that she is a mother of 2 and mistakenly thinks she is a kickboxer or a professional dance... Tue, 10 Jul 2012 15:28:29 EST Making Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4932253 I thought I would be further along or maybe its just my high expectations / demands I put on myself. Sometimes I don't always see the bigger picture. I often forget how far i have come. <BR> <BR> Some days I just don't wanna much of anything however those are the moments that can destroy all the good things I have done to get this far. Its when I stop and look back and really think of the weight I have loss, it is much more than i give credit too. Making progress is what i have done my g... Mon, 18 Jun 2012 21:52:34 EST 3 months into my New Years resolution. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4818805 Its April......each month gets easier. <BR> <BR> Going to the gym is no longer a wrestling match with myself. I have found things I love at the gym, eliptical, treadmill, spin and kickboxing, the bonus is that at my gym they have a theater room so the perk is yes I have to work out but I also get to watch a movie. My work outs are at least 20 minutes, this short amount of time is easy to get some activity in and to reach results, plus 20 minutes I can fit in my day and when its a good day... Tue, 3 Apr 2012 15:39:25 EST PICKING up the pieces http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4784144 Life got the best of me. Seemed like everything fell apart right at the same darn time! <BR> <BR> Lost my momentum...uggg....so close yet so far from my goal. Now I'm picking up the pieces. Three months back into this regimen and I like what I am seeing. Things are moving along, I missed spark people so I jumped back on my spark page, smartest thing I could have ever done. <BR> <BR> I was looking at my page as if it weren't even my own.....gosh it inspired me, some of my blogs, I really do... Mon, 12 Mar 2012 17:10:47 EST Making Changes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4295681 I worry too much, I over book my time, I'm frazzled about lil things, I get worked up about things that matter least.......sonething had to change and since the norm around me is not in my control then the changes has to be me......I choose to worry about nothing, I choose to use my time to have more me time, I choose not to sweat the small things.....the biggest choice I have made is to be happy about everything. Its the best feeling in the world next to being in love. I have let go and the... Mon, 13 Jun 2011 12:26:46 EST New Bike http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4269560 I invested in me! I got a new comfort ride bike and it was worth every penny! Just last night I took a bike ride, road at least 5miles and not once did it feel like excercise. Riding bike will be my new work-out. A few times I road bike in the morning before work and then some days I road at night but my intention is to kick off my day with a bike ride and then to end my evening with another ride. This new bike is my saving grace! Wed, 1 Jun 2011 10:12:18 EST Over-weight what does that really mean? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4096672 I'm a big fan of "Biggest Loser" and "I use to be FAT" in both of these shows a point was hit home about being over-weight. The trainers all said nobody is born to be fat or extremely obese....all the excess fat is a sign that something is internally wrong. Feelings that are not porcessed end up showing up on the body and if not addressed the weight just continues to build. Ultimately gaining weight is an emotional indicator that there are some unresolved life issues that sre consuming us. ... Wed, 16 Mar 2011 17:27:47 EST Who would believe that? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4082152 I'm still alcimating to the whole eat more as your not eating enough and this is the killing element to reach my goal. <BR> <BR> By far the past two weeks have been so liberating, eat what I want and in the end the loss was a surprise...a total of 3lbs seriously it was like the heavens parted and the Angels were singing. I'm on my way,I feel not only healed but cured of my mental distortion with food. <BR> <BR> I'm looking forward now to the next two weeks and what the scale will say now..... Thu, 10 Mar 2011 16:17:14 EST The BLAHS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4017599 I was having one of those blah days....out of all days....why Valentines.....nothing to end the world but it just feels that way. <BR> <BR> Sometimes feeling blah doesn't go away in a blink of an eye....yet with some invaluable yet now I will say valuable events all turned around a lot quicker than normally.....I could feel the blah that blah that is a woes me and within a matter of minutes I got a small valentine that was big at heart and that made me feel good and then I jumped on-line to ... Mon, 14 Feb 2011 17:30:11 EST wonderland http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3990570 I was so thrilled to get into the ones again aka wonderland but I'm so tired of being back in the 190's....I was on my way when I hit the 180's but then i crept back to the 190's and now I'm just 2 pounds away from being back in the 180's.....for some reason this moment will be like hearing a choir of Angels sing. <BR> <BR> I know it's just a number.....yet the number is also what is the allowance to wearing all the clothes that I once use to wear......that is what I am shooting for, not ju... Fri, 4 Feb 2011 15:44:33 EST Coffee http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3963553 I enjoy a good cup of coffee....I am like clock work.....cup in the monring, a cup in the late aftrenoon and on some days a evening cup.....my coffee time never gets neglected...for me, coffee warms my soul and for a moment in time, life is good.....there are a lot of things in life that if I were to treat it like coffee, I would be unstoppable.....now I just have to apply coffee savoring to the other things in life as it would be a shame to not savor everything in life! Wed, 26 Jan 2011 17:06:48 EST Resolution 2011 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3921754 So far so good....my resolution was to work out twice a day 4X a week until the end of March and then I will dig deep to see if I will continue or tweek my efforts. <BR> <BR> Sure does make my day busy to fit in the 2nd workout yet 2-weeks into this and I actually look forward to my workouts. <BR> <BR> I can do this! Thu, 13 Jan 2011 14:41:32 EST New Year....New Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3889246 I really am excited about 2011.....ready to make my dreams come true! <BR> <BR> I'm only looking ahead, everything and anything is possible, everyday I am learning new stuff this awareness is life giving! I love myself more than ever, this is mission possible! <BR> <BR> I know who I am again! <BR> <BR> Tue, 4 Jan 2011 16:07:05 EST Just a number http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3814598 It is that time of year where we begin to reflect as the year comes to a close. I seem to forget how great some of the moments really were. Looking at photos woke me up some. <BR> <BR> I was looking back on the year and it sort of put me in awe....June I ran the Bellin 5k talk about amazing, we can do great things and sometimes this get lost when we are looking just at a number on the scale. <BR> <BR> I will get to my goal until then I have to enjoy the process and really recognize all ... Tue, 30 Nov 2010 13:32:06 EST "Beating the addictions" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3710432 I'm coming along! I have a new friendship with the forbidden foods. I've taken back my power, food is not my first fix to everything anymore. I'm no longer a slave to food. <BR> <BR> Keeping myself active keeps cravings in check. For me activity has regulated my body....it now craves the good stuff. Mentally I had to make choices however it is a piece of cake, now the addicting foods are a fish out of water in my digestive system, they give me nothing I need and I'll pass on all the side a... Tue, 12 Oct 2010 13:22:59 EST Saying NO http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3691583 Hello October! <BR> <BR> The holidays are around the corner and how do I love them and all the food that goes with them yet good thing I can do something now to beat the holiday 20s......sort of like Freshmen 20s....both instances are expected to gain a chunk of weight this time I rather pass on seconds or even first round. <BR> <BR> I've already started and it isn't to late for anyone else, now is the time to cease the moment! I have increased my activity, cut back on indulging and have be... Mon, 4 Oct 2010 13:33:01 EST Time of renewal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3495963 It has been two weeks that I turn my ways around and the scale was very good to me a whole 4 pounds down yet my emotions were oh hum? <BR> <BR> I ate so many veggies and it was so boring yet it is exactly what produce the weight loss result that will eventually produce the paula I want to be....so what do I want to eat junk and feel so hopeless or eat healthy and feel exceptional? I WANT the BEST of both worlds....eat junk and look great......hmmm the two do not go hand in hand. <BR> <BR> ... Mon, 2 Aug 2010 17:02:30 EST My Bellin Run http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3334962 Oh my gosh! This was the most wonderful thing I feel like I ever did in my life! <BR> <BR> Never for a minute did I think I would ever run a 10K and actually finish. The Bellin Run was more that I could imagine it opened up my vision to what I am capable of doing. <BR> <BR> This is how it all went. Raised early 5:30, took a look outdoors and the weather was all that I could hope for, I burned some santo palo and did a cleansing, got dressed woke up my daughter Selena, then made a honey wh... Mon, 14 Jun 2010 22:43:09 EST Test Run http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3250859 I thought since I will be in the Bellin Run, I ought to see how I fare so on Tuesday, I ventured out to do 2 miles. <BR> <BR> I was ready, had my shoes on that I'll be wearing for the Bellin Run, my MP3 was loaded and I was off at exactly 9:12pm, as soon as I left the house I was no more than two blocks and I thought "There is no way, I'm not gonna even make it to the third corner but I kept running" <BR> <BR> Now I'm not a runner at all and the idea of doing the Bellin is just something ... Thu, 20 May 2010 15:03:47 EST Biggest Loser event http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3239472 On June 12th I will be participating in my first 10K, I am pumped up, it is like the Biggest Loser challenge and here is my turn to see how I accomplish this amazing event, this is a first life time extra special meaningful point in my life. I have a tech shirt and will be wearing my number proudly along with a timer.....according to Ted a co-worker and avid runner of these marathon events, I should be able to complete the 6.2 miles in 1hr???? gulp, I will give her all I got, I'm ready to fe... Mon, 17 May 2010 16:01:36 EST X+Y=Z http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3205146 What the heck? X+Y=Z Some people get the answer right everytime? is that possible.... <BR> <BR> We are all good in a subject some are even masters. Part of being good at anything is taking in everything, observing, identifying, understanding and especially evaluating all the actions small or large that contribute enormously to being successful. <BR> <BR> Lately I am frequently pondering. Pondering, "What am I missing"," Why am I at this unhealthy state again?" <BR> <BR> Reflection is ... Fri, 7 May 2010 12:36:50 EST Counting Points http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3140490 It has been 5 years since doing weight watchers. By far this was the best program! Simple easy to follow and it taught me how to eat. Eventually I thought I could achieve the same results without counting points or all the measuring....I was up and down by 5 pounds which isn't horrible but then the 5 turned into 8 pounds then 10 pounds and from there I lost it. <BR> <BR> <BR> My success following the plan led to me loosing 100 pounds. The last thing I want to do is count points so I have... Tue, 20 Apr 2010 11:23:09 EST Feelin sparkie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3095653 I'm feeling better than ever! I haven't had any big losses but I know it is coming so until then I am gonna keep pushing ahead so I can break through to the 180's, I know I will be to goal in september yetmaking it there before then would be sweet. <BR> <BR> I'm fired up, I had a taste of sunny days over spring break and boy was I on the go. I know once summer is here, the weight will be melting off. Over spring break I took 8 mile bike rides, 4mile hikes and did some water sliding which m... Thu, 8 Apr 2010 12:46:13 EST Six and half months later http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3014913 I was a maniac when I began this affair back in September 2009, giving my all to get back in shape within a years time. <BR> <BR> My vision started at loosing a total of 56 pounds, I started off at 214 and by the time I was connected to Spark people I reached 209.7 and currently I am 191.5, this is a loss of 22.5 with another 33.5 to go. <BR> <BR> Over the past six and half months, I got through all the holidays and pulled through a stretch of 3 months being sick which really was depressin... Thu, 18 Mar 2010 11:30:22 EST Happy Friday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2991181 Lately life has been good! The new healthy life style is changing me! I like this feel good feeling! I really like who I'am and it is showing from the inside out! I've been doing things, a bunch of things, things that bring me joy and this in itself makes me feel like I have magic fairy dust......joy comes from the simple things in life, I can have all the joy I want, it is all around me! The best part is sharing it with everyone. Fri, 12 Mar 2010 11:32:34 EST Weathered the Storm http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2962961 For awhile there I felt like I was getting consumed, at the start I was frolicking along, I was in the honey moon stage, excited about the site my initiative to loose weight, all was good, I was loosing consistently making such great progress that my head was in the clouds then there was a shift, nothing I did was showing any reward. <BR> <BR> This was my moment of truth, what will be the underlining of this story of mine? 12 weeks I kept at it, and I kept at it, even when it felt hopeless... Fri, 5 Mar 2010 16:06:56 EST I'm gonna make it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2931935 I've sure had my fair share days of trudging it forward and sometimes it was even a crawl. It all those moments it was hard to keep believing in myself, I did at times find myself just giving in (eating half up to three qtrs of pizza...one of my weakness) but in the end never giving up completely. Thank GOD I picked myself up and realized all the great things about me, about this journey and where I will be once I reach goal. <BR> <BR> I have to tell everyone that as each day passes this li... Fri, 26 Feb 2010 15:59:51 EST Baby Steps http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2885084 I notice that I would get stressed when my to do list was impossible to meet. I'm always trying to be superwoman. I'm good at getting myself all worked up when all I have to do is take BABY STEPS....this would help me succeed in many ways. <BR> <BR> Who likes to be rushed or overwhelmed? not me! I get frazzled and easily frustrated. I ponder the thought of the best way to manage huge tasks and I recalled this moment while I was teaching drawing.....the kids were anxious and unsure how they ... Mon, 15 Feb 2010 16:13:27 EST Happy February http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2827090 I've been doing a lot of pondering about the LAW of ATTRACTION.....the main idea is that like things attract etch other and what we think is what we call forth to experience....hmmm <BR> <BR> Well I decided that I am no longer letting my wandering thoughts bring unwanted things into my experience....in which case as I think so I attract and so I experience. It makes a world of sense....when I am happy good things seem to pop up spilling over to other things creating more and more good thin... Mon, 1 Feb 2010 18:12:59 EST Road blocks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2804593 I use too think loosing weight was all about will power and discipline but actually it has a lot to do with remembering what is important. <BR> <BR> I see it like this, I am the bus driver navigating to a certain destination and while I am driving I have to pull over to change a flat tire so now I am delayed but much much longer than what is reasonable because instead of quickly changing the flat tire and quickly being on my way to my point of interest, I get hung up on the break down and ... Wed, 27 Jan 2010 13:25:25 EST All over the place http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2799326 I've been all over the place so unlike me......my restless spirit must be looking for something....my focus is wandering aimlessly.....I know this affects me oveall.....TODAY my thoughts are upon my goal and where my thought are so is my energy / attention, nothing magical yet by the shift in my thought process I am on my way to my goal now without all the pressure......the pressure came from my thoughts being on food and what the scale had to say..... the very things that have no place in ... Tue, 26 Jan 2010 11:59:25 EST Little this....little that http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2782271 Alright I've been through the weight loss process at least 4 different times....I've learned a lot, what to do and what not to do yet I still do not have the magic answers to find what works best. <BR> <BR> For the last month, I have been testing out practices from fueling my body to working out with every intention to find the right mix so I will be able to do this life long....the trial and error method is enough to discourage me however I needed the discouragement so when something did w... Fri, 22 Jan 2010 14:19:24 EST "Broken with care" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2673015 Hello! What a year this has been. The year was not all ideal however besides some of the great moments that made be smile.......I still got beat up. <BR> <BR> I actually appreciate the broken moments without them I would not be the person I am today. In my weakness I was made stronger......along with making me stronger I was given some confidence and in that confidence I began to believe in me and when I started to believe in me I fell in love with me.....it was then that I realized how goo... Thu, 31 Dec 2009 17:26:08 EST To Be or Not To Be http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2648142 I will admit I had doubts at the start of this life changing process but now I'm more confident than ever, all the small changes I added to my life have built me up giving me hope. <BR> <BR> I get excited looking ahead, I am a whole new person and this can only keep getting better. <BR> <BR> I've made some rockin progress! This year prepared me for what is yet to come and at the very same time the countdown is in progress not only to say goodbye to another year but to say Hello to a who... Mon, 21 Dec 2009 13:24:55 EST Missing ingredient http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2636077 I was reading some blogs and at some point there is someone somewhere daily that is at their greatest discouragement with them self. I too recall those very moments in my own life. For some of us we never discover how to change our feelings toward our self. For me the missing ingredient to writing my own fairy tale was believing in me. <BR> <BR> Part of making progress is changing how we treat our self, speak to our self and honor our self. We are human, we will have are shortcomings howe... Tue, 15 Dec 2009 16:35:26 EST You are all that and a bag of chips! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2619819 Hey people before it is much too late, I just want to tell everyone to bask in the glory when you are being complemented on your appearance it doesn't have to wait until your at goal weight.....don't cheat yourself of feeling good about you! <BR> <BR> When you get your chance to shine take time to enjoy it and I mean enjoy it! Enjoy the moments and the process, take time to recognize every bit of progress you are making and promise to SMILE! <BR> <BR> Don't forget to celebrate all along t... Tue, 8 Dec 2009 15:40:54 EST Identity Theft http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2574053 Who would ever know from the stack of pictures that the girl in them was me everytime. At times I don't even remember what it felt like to be that girl in the picture. Even when I looked my very best I never felt like it. Now I look back and I think what is wrong with that girl in some of the pictures? When I was that girl, I thought everyting was wrong me and now that I look back I can not even see what was wrong why because there was NOTHING wrong. Right now this very moment I would kill t... Thu, 19 Nov 2009 10:51:35 EST Ughhh....my fire is going out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2484503 I think I'am trying too hard to loose big numbers on the scale that all the pushing is putting out my fire to keep going. I've been a mad woman for the past seven weeks, I really have to switch up what I am doing and come up with some strategies that light my fired instead of putting it out. This weekend I'am going to put some motivational reminders in place so I keep going. When I feel like this, I just want to give up. This dip just reminds me of all the hard work it takes and I know in the... Fri, 16 Oct 2009 17:48:17 EST