PURPLEDRAGONM's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=PURPLEDRAGONM PURPLEDRAGONM's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ A new start? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5494926 I just reset my goals. I need a new start, and I'm hoping this will help. I've had an awful time making myself track food, and need to do this. Today is the day to start again. I'll figure this out, and WILL reach my goal. Tue, 24 Sep 2013 13:23:15 EST One more time, with feeling. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5480550 Good intentions last week, poor results. Starting again now. Tracking for today! One day at a time, one choice at a time. Here we go... Mon, 9 Sep 2013 12:18:06 EST Returning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5466885 I've been away from Spark for about a month. I've maintained my weight loss, which is good, but haven't lost any more, which isn't so good. I've made some changes in what I'm eating, hoping to feel better and transition these new concepts into losing another 10 pounds. <BR> <BR> Basically I'm avoiding processed carbs. Except for Udi's toast at breakfast because I'm not willing to give that up. Processed carbs make me sleepy and even if they are gluten free sometimes upset my digestion. ... Mon, 26 Aug 2013 13:50:27 EST Today's assignment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5413476 "Journal or blog about an area of your lifestyle that needs moderation. What can you do to change your attitude--and future outcomes?" <BR> <BR> I have no idea where to take this assignment. None. I'm pretty depressed about my lack of focus and progress with weight loss lately. I've even started looking again for that magic whatever to make it all go away easily and without much effort on my part. Not productive, I know. I think the thought of needing to log food for the rest of my life... Sun, 7 Jul 2013 18:10:48 EST No more negative self talk. (Do I hear myself???) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5408725 It's tough to move back to the daily logging habit pattern. Without it, my weight is beginning to creep up, and it's so easy to beat myself up about that. My goal is to bypass the negative self talk and be as true to the Spark way of life as I can. My goal this week is to log my food Monday through Friday. It's Tuesday, and so far so good. (although I kinda didn't log dinner last night. Still was careful about serving sizes and watchful what I ate, though. Exhaustion and high pain leve... Tue, 2 Jul 2013 15:30:55 EST Sparkpeople, I've missed you. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5401391 Sparkpeople, I've missed you. Sort of. I've been away, living my life, still using tools and lessons learned over the past year plus of interaction, but not connecting, not focusing on the program. It's been kinda fun, kinda free-ing, not to track food, not to think about it all the time. BUT!!! It's time to re-focus, re-integrate, get back on the bandwagon. Time to track food every day, keep those calories in check, wear the pedometer and rack up those steps. <BR> <BR> I don't know ... Tue, 25 Jun 2013 13:00:44 EST Carbs, emotions, and breathing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5392235 It's been an emotional week. My birthday, which I always shared with my dad's birthday (three days apart) and Father's Day all fall together. My beloved dad passed on almost 11 years ago. I still miss him most acutely this time of year. Once I stepped back a bit and realized that, I realized why I've been carb craving and eating recently. Self medicating. Carbs soothe and comfort me, and enough of them induce sleepiness and need for napping. Sleep can be it's own form of escape. Wal... Mon, 17 Jun 2013 16:01:38 EST Perseverence, Determination, and an Open Mind. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5380953 While away for a week visiting family, I didn't log food, didn't even log into Spark. Maybe I needed a break, I don't know. I think my hard learned Spark habits stayed with me though, since I maintained and maybe even lost a wee bit of weight during last week. Somehow my year with Spark has bumped up my self esteem while decreasing my weight. Seems like food is less of a crutch now than it used to be. More just food as food, rather than food as solace. Pretty darn amazing, especially wh... Fri, 7 Jun 2013 00:45:29 EST Why am I doing this? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5363558 Goals. Motivators. Reasons. Hmmmm. Why? I'm getting older. I see other people my age falling prey to poor health. I have a couple of chronic health problems. If I can manage and control other aspects of my health, perhaps my chronic problems won't be as life devastating as they might be otherwise. Improve my health now, stay healthy and functional longer. Makes sense to me. <BR> <BR> I'm beginning to see that Spark is not just about losing weight. It's about health and well bein... Tue, 21 May 2013 14:04:33 EST Just the carrot please, no stick http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5356517 My new plan to break this plateau and reach that zero marker? When I lose the three pounds to reach that mark, I will reward myself with a much desired pair of Birkenstocks. (ok, ok, so I'm an old hippie...) From there it'll be five pounds to goal, and I'll figure that out after I reach this mini-goal. <BR> <BR> Hoping this will make those 'concsious choices' easier to make and abide by. <BR> <BR> Here we go! <em>179</em> Tue, 14 May 2013 16:19:36 EST Spark Coach says: "Blog about all the ways in which you've noticed improvements in your life since http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5347457 One major improvement is in the results from my yearly fasting blood tests done last weekend.. Blood glucose is now in normal range, down 6 points, my cholesterol and all it's parts are in normal ranges, healthy levels of liver enzymes, and the rest is all good. THIS confirms to me that I'm on the right track for my health. <BR> <BR> Otherwise, the biggest change is my attitude toward food, changing from mindless to mindful, at least most of the time. (I still have my moments...) Most of ... Mon, 6 May 2013 13:32:01 EST Almost ready to wear. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5346375 I dug 6 pair of pants out of the back of the closet and a bottom dresser drawer. The good news is that they all fit, sort of. All are just a wee bit tight in the waist. That's an improvement, considering they were all tucked away because they were all too small for me to even button and zip at some point or another. I tried them all on, noted the date and whatever fit problems there are for each on a piece of paper, tucked the paper into a pocket of the pants, folded them all up and set t... Sun, 5 May 2013 15:27:46 EST Numbers tell the truth http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5345695 I had my yearly fasting blood work done today, and already have the results. Gotta love Kaiser for efficiency. Cholesterol and fasting blood glucose numbers are all down! Woo Hoo!! I'm laying that at the feet of my weight loss. So nice to see positive results in my health numbers. THAT'S motivating! <em>244</em> Sat, 4 May 2013 21:59:15 EST How can it be a year already? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5333328 <em>503</em> I just realized I started Spark a year ago on the 20th. Success on several levels! I stayed with the program, lost weight and kept it off, and I'm still with the program,working with renewed focus to lose the rest of the weight that I want to be GONE. Focus on the success so there will be more success. It may take me another year to lose those last ten pesky pounds, but I will do this. I will and I can. <em>134</em> Slow and steady, that's me. Tue, 23 Apr 2013 19:34:15 EST We made it through the Ides of April. Whew. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5325304 Refocus. Back on track. Logging food. Eating the right kinds of food for me. Need to wear the pedometer again. Slowly getting back to doing what I know I need to do, gotta lose those last 10 pounds. Probably half a pound at a time, but that's ok, that's what this poor old body is willing to do. Hoping soon to find energy to start walking every day again. Heck. Needing to work for a living gets in the way of doing what I want and need to do for myself. I'd rather be gardening than be ... Tue, 16 Apr 2013 13:55:55 EST And now, recovery begins http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5304643 Today I am logging my food, aiming for 8 glasses of water, and feel like I'm getting back on track. It's been a lovely day today. Sunny, warm day, beautiful beach day. I even saw whale spouts just offshore while walking with my dog, and three people riding their horses on the beach, while the surfers enjoyed the waves. <BR> <BR> It'll be a few more days, maybe the whole week, before I recover from the stress of the past couple of months. My intention is to refocus back to daily food lo... Fri, 29 Mar 2013 18:36:32 EST March survival... almost http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5300885 Two and a half work days left in March. I may live. It's been a very long, very difficult month. It'll be a nice paycheck, but awhile before I recover to enjoy it. Good thing spring break is next week. This has been a good reminder why I canNOT work full time, not and expect to have a life or any semblance of a clean or well functioning home, or a happy dog. I owe my little best 4 legged friend a bunch of walks and lots of play time. That will happen before I tackle the wreck my house... Tue, 26 Mar 2013 14:03:39 EST Entering the lion's den http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5271079 My March work schedule may or may not allow me to survive in one piece to recover in April. I'm not sure how this happened. I need to plan non-work days as rest and recovery days, since working full days 5 days in a row leaves me exhausted. My only non working week day in March will be the 22nd, and I will be seeing my chiropractor that day. I'm trying very hard to maintain a healthy and postive perspective on this schedule, but I know my limits. They are about to be exceeded. <BR> <B... Sun, 3 Mar 2013 12:24:22 EST Ok, I surrender http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5260111 I'm considering making my current weight my goal weight. My body doesn't seem to want to cooperate with losing the last 8 to 10 pounds. Maybe I should give in and stay where I am. I seem to be able to maintain it without too much trouble, and I guess that's a victory in and of itself. <BR> <BR> I'm getting tired of fighting with this plateau. I've added a bit more exercise, but have to be very careful how much and how intensely I exercise, as it's not worth triggering a fibro flare. ... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 14:06:22 EST A maturing relationship http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5244631 It's been a learning process, a learning curve, if you will, since I joined SparkPeople last April. Remember the saying, "when the student is ready, the teacher will appear"? I guess I was ready and SP was that teacher. <BR> <BR> During the past ten months my relationship with food has changed, has altered, has matured. At least I hope so. Feels like that, anyway. Is this a hint of what a normal relationship with food is like? Of how people who don't have weight issues relate to food... Sun, 10 Feb 2013 01:02:18 EST sabotage http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5242288 Why oh why do I sabotage myself? What is so scary about weight loss success that I block my own progress? <BR> <BR> I got home from work tonight, started out well with my planned dinner. I was alone at home, so had no one else to consider for dinner choices. Maybe that was part of the problem... I heated up my turkey stock and veg soup from yesterday, intending to fill up on that and then see if I wanted anything else. Adding two of the little gluten free biscuits I made a few days ag... Fri, 8 Feb 2013 00:48:43 EST Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5233011 If I can lose half a pound a week I can reach my goal weight by my birthday. One day, one choice, one bite at a time. Fri, 1 Feb 2013 10:24:53 EST 4:00 blues http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5207149 Back to work after winter break. Staying on my food track because it was a crazy, hit-the-ground-running morning, with no time to be bored. Good and bad, as I'm exhausted now. (I'm at my other work site for Mondays now, and it's much quieter here, for which I am grateful.) <BR> <BR> Good food start, hoping the good start holds and I don't fall apart when I get home, as I often do. <BR> <BR> Is 4:00 in the afternoon a tough time for other people too? Ideally, I'd have dinner at 4:00... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 17:59:17 EST Food experiment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5203749 Starting today I am changing my breakfast a bit. Keeping the eggs and toast and stevia sweetened tea, deleting the honey or jam on the toast. Thinking maybe a lower sugar breakfast will decrease cravings/munchies later in the morning. Focusing on more lean proteins, fruits and vegetables, and whole (non-gluten) grains. I'll probably still let myself have my two Dove dark chocolates, though. It's heart healthy, after all! <BR> <BR> On my grocery list: low fat cottage cheese, turkey ... Sat, 12 Jan 2013 14:41:37 EST Oy and vey. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5201458 Back onto a work schedule, sort of, anyway. Fortunately this intense 3 day work week is a unique event, as it's wreaked havoc with my schedule for sleep, for meals, for everything. Coming home in the afternoon famished and exhausted is a surefire recipe for food disaster. <BR> <BR> Lessons learned: Protein! Eat more protein during the work day. I KNOW this. Water! Remember to drink more water during the day. I know this, too. Sleep! For heaven's sake, get myself to bed early wh... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 00:27:04 EST What the heck happened yesterday? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5198524 I'm not sure, but I'm back on track today. Breakfast is logged, lunch is packed. Dinner is still a mystery, but I'll figure it out later. The good news is that even though I indulged in a small overindulgence yesterday, it was small. And done consciously. For me, that's a big deal. <BR> <BR> On the plus side I did a LOT of walking yesterday. Since I forgot my pedometer, there's no definitive data, but walk I did. Maybe it cancelled out the eating. I hope so. <BR> <BR> Back to work... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 10:11:02 EST New day, different appetite http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5196007 Yesterday I prowled the kitchen, couldn't seem to find enough to eat, and very nearly maxed out my calories. In fact I was quite surprised that I didn't exceed my calorie limit. <BR> <BR> Today, on the other hand, it's after dinner and I haven't quite reached my lower calorie limit yet. I foresee dessert in my immediate future! <BR> <BR> What makes the difference between an "I'm hungry all day" day, and one like today? I'd like to know, and then either write a book, bottle it, or just t... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 22:47:55 EST New year, small successes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5193243 It's been a quiet start to 2013, just the way I like it. Something occurred to me this morning. I baked gluten free brownies for our NYE celebration, and there are two of them still on the plate. Huh?? We left brownies long enough to get stale? When did this change happen?? It's a good feeling. So is losing the weight I gained over the holidays. I'm still on my way to my goal, slow and steady, just the way I like it. Sun, 6 Jan 2013 14:18:41 EST