PUNKADOO's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=PUNKADOO PUNKADOO's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Run or Dye 5K - What a blast http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5682260 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l129081694.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Back in October my sister asked me if I wanted to tag along on a "Run or Dye" 5K. It sounded fun. A friend of my sister's had signed up so we created a team - "The Woggers" - those who would walk and jog (way less of the jogging) and have a fun day. My 16 year old daughter signed up too. The day finally arrived this past Saturday, April 25th. <BR> <BR> What a fun day! The photo above is obviously a before p... Mon, 28 Apr 2014 10:14:02 EST Still trying to figure this out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5651631 Lately I have found myself to be tired more often than not, sometimes to the degree where I can't finish a single workout. I just now sat down after 15 minutes of a Leslie Sansone video -- those aren't exactly difficult. My sleep has been really off for weeks so I have come up with a workaround that I think helps. <BR> <BR> I get at least three 15 minutes higher intensity workouts in per day. I am fortunate to have a gym where I work and a job where I don't have to look all that great. ... Wed, 19 Mar 2014 14:02:47 EST Here's to a new month and a new week. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5637322 As I am watching the clock countdown to Sunday, I am having to admit that this will be the first week in a while that I haven't achieved my fitness minutes goal. A week of little sleep and a bout of some crud going around just got the better of me. While the idea is to forgive ourselves and move on, I actually find that giving myself a mental "swift kick" works better. <BR> <BR> Regardless, here's to trying harder next week to make it all work. Sun, 2 Mar 2014 00:03:03 EST Sage advice http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5621371 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/1/l413427921.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I think I will try this for at least three days per week. It's a bit unpractical for me as a full time thing but I do like the idea of eating clean. Tue, 11 Feb 2014 13:02:53 EST Great NSV today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5617965 I had to see a doctor today -- honestly it has been years. <BR> <BR> The big news came early on: Resting heart rate of 62!! For my age range, that is "excellent" and borders on "athletic." When the nurse said the number, she sounded stunned. I am clinically obese and I smoke. She eyed me suspiciously and I told her that I do cardio 6 days a week and have been losing weight. <BR> <BR> That was FUN!! Fri, 7 Feb 2014 15:13:54 EST Sometimes those emotions just get in the way http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5611163 I have been trying for the better part of this morning to write a letter to my ex regarding our daughter. Generally I express myself very articulately in writing. Today, it's not happening. My own emotions and experiences keep clouding my words and taking me off path. Whew! <BR> <BR> Here's a hoping a looooong, sweaty workout will clear my head. Fri, 31 Jan 2014 12:35:04 EST Kind of back on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5605271 It has been a long journey to getting "back in the groove," but I am starting to feel it again. Oh happy day!! <BR> <BR> "Forgiving myself" for allowing myself to backslide doesn't work for me. I needed a swift kick in the pants and a stern talking to (from myself, lol). Since hurting my shoulder last spring I regained 18 pounds!! Clothes didn't fit any more and I just felt gross. I was binge eating and chain smoking. <BR> <BR> Slowly things are getting under control. I am back to ... Sat, 25 Jan 2014 12:51:43 EST Working against (or with) a nagging injury http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5557409 My sedentary job has managed to injure my hip, neck and back. I was as sore as I could ever remember being before I helped a friend move on Sunday, which reduced me to a mass of aches that left me sleepless and unable to heal. THEN we got a major snow event over the past couple of days. 30 inches in two days. Not a record, but still a LOT. <BR> <BR> My daughter helped but had her own life to get to, so I doggedly handled this snowstorm by going out and shoveling for 15 minutes every ho... Thu, 5 Dec 2013 08:15:46 EST The Lifestyle That Got Me Here http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5442816 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1716429075.jpg"> Fri, 2 Aug 2013 23:14:48 EST Thought for the day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5441240 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1442752544.jpg"> Thu, 1 Aug 2013 15:23:35 EST A smile for today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5432546 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1454904736.jpg"> Wed, 24 Jul 2013 23:46:09 EST Time to pay the piper, lol http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5427177 Summer in Minnesota is a fleeting affair, best caught by the tail when one can. It generally for me means the abandon of some of my fitness and eating routines, in favor of gardening and other summer-only work around the house. This summer has been no different. <BR> <BR> However, I was also cursed with a layoff at work for the past couple of weeks, something I could ill afford. I tried to smile my way through the first week as I tackled overdue projects and made the best of the time I ... Sat, 20 Jul 2013 09:23:56 EST Another piece of the puzzle falls into place http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5382893 For over 20 years I was being treated with anti-depressants. The thinking was that my depression and anxiety were connected to hormonal issues. The hope was that once I went through menopause, this would level off. And it did, for the most part. I struggle less with moods. I weaned myself off of my meds, as one of their side effects is weight gain. I was told I would know when the time was right. <BR> <BR> For the past several weeks, however, I have been binging like there's no tomorr... Sat, 8 Jun 2013 22:48:53 EST Still trying for that comeback http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5376601 It's that time of year when I love to get outside and work/play in the yard. Having basically fallen off the wagon for the past couple of months, and trying desperately to find the inspiration to get back on, this is what I needed. <BR> <BR> Last weekend I got my gardens in and worked like nobody's business. This past weekend was the same. Once I finished mowing my own lawn, I took care of a couple of neighbors' lawns as well, in order to avoid having to find another fitness outlet. Th... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 10:39:54 EST The sun came out! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5348011 Worked like a trooper all day in the garden -- hauling, dumping, spreading, hauling and lifting. Yes, I said hauling twice because I did a LOT of it!! Then into the house to get it clean before I return to work tomorrow. This is what they call a day off? I went way overboard on calories today -- eating stuff that was quick rather than healthy -- but I think I more than made up for it. Not a successful diet day but otherwise it was good! <BR> <BR> It is time to "relax" now and just fold ... Mon, 6 May 2013 22:57:24 EST Sigh.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5344486 It's supposed to be two steps forward and one step back right? I think I am doing one step forward and two back lately, LOL. <BR> <BR> So the injured neck and shoulder are wearing me down. It wakes me up several times a night and not sleeping right saps me of any reasonable amount of energy for the day. Hence, the workouts have all but stopped. I need to have something left for my job and my daughter. Yet I KNOW, yes I KNOW, that if I did at least a little something each day it would... Fri, 3 May 2013 14:21:49 EST Could it be? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5341164 Two whole days of not going over the top with food -- I think I can see hope again. Tue, 30 Apr 2013 20:18:58 EST Massage therapy -- Ow, ow, ow, aaaahhhh! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5332270 After over a month of a messed up neck and shoulders -- situations I can usually cure myself with proper stretching, I got treatment from a sports medicine massage therapist today. He found multiple adhesions along my arms, neck and shoulders. An hour's worth of work netted me a good deal of relief though he was only able to really break up the adhesions in my arms. I actually have bruises!! Not from him being overzealous but from the "garbage" being released from my muscles and tendons.... Mon, 22 Apr 2013 21:54:29 EST Walked my first 5K today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5330027 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1182605612.jpg"> <BR> So, me and over 1900 of my closest friends participated in a 5K today, one day after getting 17 inches of snow. Fortunately, our Minnesota zeal and the powerful April sun cleared the streets pretty well before the start of the race. <BR> <BR> I confess I have been slacking lately but I had no idea how much. By the first half mile I was breathing heavy and by the mile mark I pulled off my jacket despite the 23 degre... Sat, 20 Apr 2013 21:05:36 EST Train wreck me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5321308 Something snapped about six weeks ago and I can't seem to unsnap it. I was loving the new, healthier me. I was feeling absolutely antsy if I didn't work out and now... I am back to the old, unhealthy habits that got me into my original mess. And for some reason I can't seem to stop. <BR> <BR> If anyone out there has any solid wisdom other than "forgive yourself and move on" (I've tried it to no avail), please help me. Fri, 12 Apr 2013 22:43:25 EST Okay - enough is enough. A self-chastisement/motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5278859 Listen you -- You have had enough "time off." You have made enough excuses. Time to get back on track and continue to progress to your goal. <BR> <BR> Yes, you have been great about the exercising. But the eating? No way! Those midnight forays to the kitchen are derailing you and you have been content to rest on your laurels for the success you have seen so far. Listen to your body -- it wants to be lighter, more flexible and smaller. Your heart wants to work less hard while at rest. ... Fri, 8 Mar 2013 12:23:40 EST Watching a heart break http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5273415 My daughter is 15 and going through the trials of dating, etc... Tonight she was pretty sure her boyfriend was going to break up with her. She was so stressed out that I meddled and called him. I told him his silence and refusal to talk was unfair to her and that if he indeed planned to end their relationship that the least he could do was tell her when she was home and had me around. I work most evenings and she is home alone. He had been concerned that it was ungentlemanly to break up o... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 21:40:48 EST Not really "feeling it" lately http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5269209 I've had a pretty good run at this. I lost quite a bit of weight, shrunk more than I had ever imagined and feel great. The pull back to my old ways is getting stronger, which is where the real "battle" is, isn't it? <BR> <BR> I have had more than my share of "almost free" days of late, which I know is slowing my progress. Thank goodness I have at least kept up with the exercise, which is preventing any backsliding. Years ago my doctor confirmed that my metabolism is indeed slower than ... Sat, 2 Mar 2013 00:07:55 EST Fitting it all in while travelling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5259868 I went to visit friends over the weekend. The weekends are usually when I get in some extra exercise and have the opportunity to cook better meals for myself than the rest of the time. <BR> <BR> The first day I was nearly a saint and even managed to get a workout in using the small guestroom. Leslie Sansone to the rescue! I had bookmarked one of her workouts on youtube and excused myself for 45 minutes to get in a workout after dinner. The next day I wasn't quite so good as we were eng... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 10:52:09 EST Sometimes it's okay if someone puts you to shame http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5257178 This story brought tears to my eyes <BR> <BR> https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=377<BR>244189041061 Wed, 20 Feb 2013 08:36:54 EST Trying chia seeds http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5253581 It was time for a shake up of some sort. <BR> <BR> I have been suffering from a case of "diet rage," lol, and I knew I needed to make some kind of change to keep things interesting, so I picked up some chia seeds on the way home from work late last night. I have read enough on the boards here to cause me to be at least intrigued. <BR> <BR> I just added a tablespoon to a glass of water with lemon and while this was probably not the best way to consume them, I must say that I feel rather... Sun, 17 Feb 2013 12:27:14 EST The scale dilemma http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5246217 So I've had the same scale for years. Apparently it reads lighter than it should. I picked up a more accurate one from a cleaning client who wasn't using it and have had it sitting in my car ever since. <BR> <BR> I hate to use the new one for my weigh ins because it will appear I am gaining weight even when I am losing. <BR> <BR> However, I am up for big rewards when I get to Onederland, lol. So, I've been thinking about this quite a bit. At what point should I start using that new ... Mon, 11 Feb 2013 10:06:00 EST Clothes shopping - an entirely new experience http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5238300 It has been over 20 years since I have been at the weight I reached this past week. It has probably been even longer since I could even consider shopping on the "normal" racks. In my closet I had three sizes of jeans - way too big, super baggy and saggy in the behind. The sweats and lounge pants I had for working out were actually becoming an impediment to movement. <BR> <BR> With a very thin wallet I happened into Old Navy with my daughter the other day. Their workout clothes run big ... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 07:41:47 EST Had an over the top eating day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5234025 It was one of those days -- I was doing great and then suddenly, WHAM! I was at work and starving. I had an apple and it didn't help. I ordered a sandwich and that took the edge off. I knew it was going to blow my calories sky high but I didn't care. I worked out more than double what I had set as a goal for the week and knew that one bad day wasn't going to blow my progress. <BR> <BR> Had I stopped there I would have been fine. However, I got home from work and was hungry as always.... Sat, 2 Feb 2013 03:08:19 EST Time for new clothes!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5230157 I'm a big fan of NSV's -- though those scale victories are pretty addictive too. <BR> <BR> Over the weekend I bumped into someone who works in the same building I do. We used to have a drink after work and visit and got pretty close. Since I have been focusing on getting healthier, I have been avoiding the bar after work, even though I have missed socializing with the others who work near me. Anyway, he couldn't tell I had lost weight. I looked just the same to him. He made me promise... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 11:34:03 EST Rest - the undervalued component http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5224291 I learned another valuable lesson this week -- or actually it was a reminder. <BR> <BR> I had been battling a minor bug since Christmas. It was a come and go type of thing and was really beginning to just plain irritate me since I could feel great one minute and really awful another. <BR> <BR> Wednesday I did the unthinkable. I used one of my precious leave days to stay home and rest. The difference was astonishing. I'm a chronic insomniac, so sleep is elusive at times, but just pla... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 11:51:56 EST Being honest with myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5218867 I have whined endlessly about being stuck on a plateau, or "stalled." The fact is that over the holidays I indulged and it seemed to last longer than it should have. <BR> <BR> I have been pretty good lately but my inner brat is still trying to take charge. I read a very moving blog entry today by another sparker who said that sometimes her mind wanders back to the days when she ate whatever she wanted and didn't move off the couch. That truly resonated with me. There are times when I g... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 16:06:28 EST Whenever I blog about a plateau, I seem to finally break it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5214471 Down a pound. Its finally moving again, lol. I suppose you can look forward to more annoying posts about this topic. (grins) <BR> <BR> I think just blogging through it helps in that it strengthens my resolve not to quit. Until I say something I get so tempted to just give up. <BR> <BR> So thank you Spark Friends, for putting up with my rants and for your support! Sat, 19 Jan 2013 15:37:59 EST Another plateau? Oh come on! :-) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5211355 It has been a month since I've seen the needle on the scale move and it's frustrating the heck out of me. Okay, I took a breather around the holidays but I've been back on track for a couple of weeks now and it's aggravating to have so little measurable progress. <BR> <BR> Yes, I wrote yesterday about the measuring tape. I have no idea if that loss occurred before or after my little break. At this point I am grasping at straws to find any sign that what I am doing is working. <BR> <... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 10:33:47 EST That scary measuring tape http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5209957 I was commenting (complaining?) to someone the other day how no matter how hard I have worked over the past month, the needle on the scale won't move. No one on earth can say that 210 is an appropriate weight for 5'7" woman, so I do know that needle needs to move. I have heard it all, read it all and convinced myself that the number doesn't matter as long as I keep moving but once in a while we all need a little pick me up. The friend asked how long it had been since I had taken any measur... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 11:55:51 EST I guess it's time to increase the fitness goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5207021 My days off are Sunday and Monday and by today I was more than halfway to my fitness minutes for the week. This has happened several times so I finally broke down today and increased my fitness goals -- just a little, LOL. I rather enjoy that feeling of "success" when I make my goal early in the week -- it feels like every thing else I do is a bonus. I know the truth of course. <BR> <BR> I went roller skating for the first time in two years yesterday. I stayed on my feet (miracle #1) a... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 16:05:50 EST Our new challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5205083 After our successful family weight loss challenge, my sister and I wanted to keep the momentum going so today starts a new challenge that we are doing with friends and family. <BR> <BR> Each person "donated" $20 to the pool. Points are awarded for eating 4 servings of fruit per day, 4 of veggies, and drinking 64 oz of water. Points are awarded on a scale for exercise. There are no points for weight loss, but gaining weight causes a point loss. Each participant can get extra points for pi... Sun, 13 Jan 2013 13:43:38 EST Random thoughts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5202300 I didn't want to exercise today. I wanted to crawl back in bed. I told a friend, "A workout will either perk me up or give me an excuse for a nap before work." 70 sweaty minutes later, I was bushed but feeling virtuous. <BR> <BR> Nothing succeeds like success - I have been having lots of "good days" and even the bad ones aren't as bad as before -- the idea of backtracking on my progress is too daunting. <BR> <BR> NSV not for the squeamish - Like a lot of other women who have had chil... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 14:24:40 EST So....I like food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5200004 Revelation, huh? <BR> <BR> A friend was asking what was up with the crazed exercise lately. Well, it seems I like food. Go figure. I also want to look and feel better. <BR> <BR> Until I can really work through my food issues -- had a doozy last night -- I will have to continue the exercise if I want to meet my goals. Yes there will be other benefits -- benefits that I will gladly accept, but for right now (at least in this moment) I am keeping it up because I just plain like food to... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 07:37:55 EST Random goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5198635 I was kind of resting on my laurels after I won my family competition and while we have a new Healthy Living Challenge about to start, I had found myself in kind of a slump. Maybe "diet rage," maybe just the blahs that come this time of year. <BR> <BR> I already had some goals in mind for which I would reward myself. I am only 5 pounds away from being able to treat myself to some new jeans and 10 pounds from having my weight start with a 1 instead of a 2, at which point I will go for a m... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 11:13:05 EST Ow -- but the good kind http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5196564 My modus operandi lately has been to do different workouts each day that I work out. I am still searching for that perfect type of exercise that I can really love and that will keep my interest. In the meantime, I keep changing up what I do to keep things from getting boring and to utilize different muscle groups. Two days ago it was The Biggest Loser at Home Challenge, which was really hard, followed by half an hour of hula hooping. <BR> <BR> Things hurt -- still. But once I get movin... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 09:11:10 EST Interesting perspective http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5191797 I was reading an SP article about motivation yesterday that noted that you never really "lose" your motivation as long as you still desire to get fit and/or lose weight. It's simply a matter of deciding, when you would rather pig out or skip a work out, which you want more. <BR> <BR> I love that notion. Words sometimes have far more power than we think. Sat, 5 Jan 2013 15:26:45 EST New hoop! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5190031 I ordered a new, smaller hula hoop that arrived yesterday and OH how the mighty have fallen! <BR> <BR> This smaller, weighted hoop is far more exercise than my larger one and quite a bit more difficult to keep moving! I love a good challenge so this it's going to be fun working on improving with this baby. Fri, 4 Jan 2013 12:43:23 EST Starting over again and again until I get it right :-) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5187857 It seems the holidays last a bit longer than just a few days as I continue to indulge here and there. I thought everything was out of the house but there were a few things left, lol. <BR> <BR> I did great yesterday until late at night when I got home from work. That's always when temptation hits me. I had loads on my mind and was upset about something -- that never makes anything better. <BR> <BR> Oh well. Today is another day and I am committed to getting it right. Thu, 3 Jan 2013 09:59:21 EST One more holiday to go!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5182117 Since my teenage daughter often misses out on doing things with friends because of my work schedule, I allowed her to have a small gathering of friends yesterday. I was picking at the food the entire time. Ugh. <BR> <BR> With this last celebration at my house over, I can throw away what is left of the seasonal goodies and get back, REALLY get back, to not having temptations all over the house. I regifted a lot of the chocolate, and made sure the rest was out when guests were around. Th... Mon, 31 Dec 2012 11:39:26 EST Just tried my new Wii game -- Just Dance 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5179892 Oh Lordy did I look silly but I had a blast! I love a good challenge so I guess my newest challenge will be to get good at the dance moves, LOL. Sat, 29 Dec 2012 13:36:10 EST So I fell off the wagon for a bit there http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5178560 I have learned a lot in the past week and a half. <BR> <BR> We ended our family diet competition on the 17th and in no way did I want to derail the success I had seen during that 10 weeks. I was feeling great about myself, but just a bit deprived, so I made the conscious choice to lighten up on myself through Christmas. I had been feeling run down and honestly that is still going on. Today is the first day since then that I have felt even close to my usual self. <BR> <BR> What I lear... Fri, 28 Dec 2012 09:20:06 EST Merry Christmas to all http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5176104 We have finished our family celebration and I'm in my comfortable clothes relaxing. The refrigerator is stuffed to bursting with leftovers -- most of which I will be throwing away to avoid the temptations. <BR> <BR> It was a fun-filled, joyful day with family and I threw caution to the wind -- rarely considering carbs, fat grams or calories. I may regret it tomorrow. I kept lots of sensible choices around and keeping the day moving was enough of a workout for me. <BR> <BR> My guess i... Tue, 25 Dec 2012 20:47:38 EST Rounding the corner on holiday preparations http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5175154 Oh joy! We are almost done preparing for a houseful of guests tomorrow. I may even get a little time to work out and savor time alone with my daughter. <BR> <BR> A blessing in disguise came in the form a friend who needed a ride home from dropping her car off at the shop early this morning. We did errands together and it was so much more fun than doing them alone. And quite honestly if it hadn't been for her getting me up and moving early, I would still be sitting home in my bathrobe p... Mon, 24 Dec 2012 11:53:40 EST Very personal -- I just need to blog this out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5173681 There was an episode at work last night that brought to the fore my deepest insecurities and sense of feeling powerless. It was perpetrated by a friend of someone who knew better. It was the kind of thing that makes a person just want to give up and to be honest, right now I am tempted. I know I will get over it, but for now I am just so incredibly sad and honestly a little frightened to go back to work this one last time before the Christmas crazies settle down. <BR> <BR> As I sit her... Sat, 22 Dec 2012 12:36:05 EST