PUDIN27263's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=PUDIN27263 PUDIN27263's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ howdy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5201733 well its thursday for me and another day working out with the cancer fit program at my local hospital. i rode the bike for 20 minutes, did a machine called the nu step and then walked the indoor track for 10 minutes to cool down. then our coach had us meet in the classroom to work with resistance bands and hand weights for about 35 minutes and then we stretched and did some relaxation excersizes afterwards. Im getting to where i likek this class and im looking forward to it. i heard the weath... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 08:13:41 EST greetings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5198483 i finally am starting to realize i can treat this whole weight loss and diet projet as a full time job or like taking college classes. There is so much information out there to learn, way better than sitting around watching tv all day. I also found the health and fitness channel on my new tv, and well doing a simple cardio dance work out was hard for me because im just not that cordinated ... lol... maybe for now ill just stick to walking. sadly enough i havent been loyal to logging my food h... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 09:52:25 EST greetings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5194803 so sorry i havent been entering words into my blog, i guess ive hit a depression road block and when i do that i tend to isolate myself. my boyfriend helped me set up my new tv as well as time warner cable. now if i can just somehow motivate and find a workout i can do i wont have to leave my apt when it gets cold weather. i know i have lost some inches off my belly because now i can stand up and look down and see my toes. so that tells me a tiny bit of progress has been made. i always try an... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 11:03:51 EST discovered something http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5187846 i was searching something .... i noticed with my new hgtv i will be getting what they offer here a fitness and health channel that has workouts on tv that you can take part in. which now i know for sure i have no more excuses.. i now have a way to work out indoors. im kind of excited to learn new workouts. i am here at my mothers house getting doctors appointments out of the way. tomorow is the cancer fit program that high point hospitol offers to its cancer patients where you can go there an... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 09:54:20 EST can i make it work? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5184394 i seem to have all the answers in front of me i just need to ask the right questions. i now see that yes my boyfriend is hard on me but at the same time i know hes doing it because he cares. he did tell me i had some great qualities about me, i just need to find a way to bring that person out again. im hurting from the removal of my port, but i refuse to use that as an excuse not to work on me. i know that by just staying here locked up in my apt and never going out i am missing out on all th... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 17:21:04 EST port is out thank God http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5180853 finally checked into the hospital sat eve and now this morning i had the blessings of a surgical assistant remove my port. firt thing this morning ... they had me there over night to observe me to be sure i was ok enough for the surgery. I didnt get completely put under. They numbed the area with a needle several time .... ( which hurt like hell ) and then once the numbing medicne kicked in they proceeded to cut me open to remove the port. It took them longer than usual because my port had tu... Sun, 30 Dec 2012 12:20:11 EST i need help... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5180145 today i had a bad day. theres so much stress in my life, i swear i think i am loosing my mind. my father had to have surgery and im sure itsa going to be weeks till hes fully healed. my port under my skin is bothering me real bad. it no longer lays flat now its sticking straight up and when i called the doc about it they want me to come in tomorow at 2 pm to get it removed. i am finding it hard to sleep my stress is just making it so difficult to function in life. <BR> i still havent quite g... Sat, 29 Dec 2012 19:18:39 EST tears on my pillow http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5177898 last night was a bad night. I got into another fight with my boyfriend. He called me lazy and selfish. he called and asked what i was doing and i told him, watching tv and snacking on a few pretzels, and then he got very pissed off at me. he said it was because pretzels have so much salt on them and that i was just eating junk food. Hes made a condition. I cant come up to his apt. unless i walk 4 laps around my apt complex. hes also going to monitor my snack choices more closely too. if its j... Thu, 27 Dec 2012 16:16:44 EST another day has passed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5176847 so here it is another day has passed and what have i done to make changes. nothing. i need help. im begging for help. my boyfriend calls me and preaches at me to loose the weight or he will leave me come summer time. I dont want that to happen. i get so damn depressed that when we discuss the issue over the phone i end up crying because i know i cant blame him for the opinion he has. Hes a tall muscular man and im a tall obese woman, that doesnt quite match now does it. i wish someone lived c... Wed, 26 Dec 2012 16:10:00 EST scarey yet willing to try http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5175884 like a lot of folks, i am using jan 1st as a way to start my life over again. i have too much to live for. My sister is expecting her first child, i survived my first year of cancer treatements. i have truly been blessed. i dont need a diet plan or someone to stand over me telling me what i should or shouldnt eat in order to loose the weight. Its all common sense. so are my portion controls. And ladies and gentleman, drinking the glass of water before a meal does trick your body into thinkin... Tue, 25 Dec 2012 13:24:02 EST