PUDDLE13's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=PUDDLE13 PUDDLE13's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Nutritional Values http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6319157 Last night I went out for dinner at short notice with family. <BR> <BR> We had a lovely evening catching up and having a laugh. <BR> <BR> I ordered what I fancied off the menu. <BR> <BR> This morning I came to track yesterdays food - as we went to a chain pub for dinner I thought i'd google to see if I could find their nutritional values. And I found them :) <BR> <BR> The meal itself turned out to be more than all my daily calorie allowances but that's ok. I had eaten lightly in the day. ... Tue, 21 Feb 2017 03:14:10 EST Fat Girl Mentality http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6318626 Now I don't mean the title to be offensive. But I've noticed something about myself that I am describing as the 'fat girl mentality'. It's something I have been thinking on a lot over the last few days. <BR> <BR> I was never confident. Not in the way a lot of people are. I'm sure of who I am. But I struggle to make decisions. I second guess myself a lot. I doubt my own ability. <BR> <BR> I had a meeting with my manager where she said she wants to help me be more confident at work. To be sur... Mon, 20 Feb 2017 04:34:57 EST Get Moving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6318179 I went to see my best friend yesterday. <BR> <BR> She is a wonderful person who is so full of life and enthusiasm. She has her insecurities same as I have mine and that's ok. She hasn't judged the situation I find myself in with my ex, she just listens, same as I listen to her about the things she is struggling with. <BR> <BR> She is an osteopath, and was telling me how she loves when her patients come to understand the importance of getting moving, and keeping moving. She is about to begin... Sun, 19 Feb 2017 04:41:01 EST Tuck Shop Tribulations http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6316511 The last couple of days haven't been great foodwise. Finishing a big project at work coupled with a charity day meant yesterday I had entirely too much cake and not enough actual food during the day. I've gone to bed too late and not drank enough water. It all affects my mood and my food eating. <BR> <BR> Today I started to remedy that and get back to my normal work. I went to the tuckshop today for the first time in a while. Purse in hand I looked at the chocolate (not much) and the crisps.... Wed, 15 Feb 2017 12:40:05 EST Sunday Dinner http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6315211 I go to my parents for dinner on Sunday. <BR> <BR> They tend to make big meals, and I always seem to end up over full, even when I try to restrict what I have. <BR> <BR> As much as they also have home cooked meals, there always seems to be something fried. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was Sesame Toast, home made Paella and Apple Crumble. <BR> <BR> I had plenty of paella and only one portion of Apple Crumble. I couldn't avoid the fried sesame toast as mum plated it up as a starter. I stayed under 2... Mon, 13 Feb 2017 01:50:15 EST Let's Move http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6314261 I woke up this morning with the urge to exercise. I've had two quite sedentary days and this morning I could feel it. <BR> <BR> I've been thinking about restarting my exercises over the last week or so. I'm trying not to do too much at once - food tracking, water drinking, exercise. But I have a seven day work week ahead of me and it's always an ideal time to get started. <BR> <BR> I know that food intake, water drinking and exercise go hand in hand, but the food is the bigger problem at th... Sat, 11 Feb 2017 03:02:43 EST Food tracking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6313874 Food tracking is making me much more conscious of what I am eating. I'm not snacking as much because I want to hit my targets. <BR> <BR> So far after 7 days, I was over 2000 calories on three days, and under 2000 on 4 days. On two days I was in the 'green zone' on my reports - so below 1750 (ish) <BR> <BR> I won't lie. I'm hungry quite a lot. But I'm trying to drink more to balance out the hunger. Blackcurrant Squash (cordial) mainly, because I can mix hot and cold water and get a warm drin... Fri, 10 Feb 2017 09:34:49 EST Swings and roundabouts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6312381 Yesterday I went to Nando's for a work meal. It meant I was well over the calorie counters at the end of the day - 500 calories over 2000, and 700 over my max limit for the day. <BR> <BR> Today I took a tin of soup to work, and had a ready meal tonight and I'm currently sitting just over 1000 calories for the day. <BR> <BR> I bought some frozen berries so I will have some of those in a bit, and I have hot cross buns so I may have one of those - i do love a hot cross bun :) <BR> <BR> I have... Tue, 7 Feb 2017 14:37:06 EST Cooking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6311005 I'm trying to cook more - I like easy recipes that don't have too many ingredients or fussiness. <BR> <BR> Hairy Bikers Spanish Chicken is very good in that regard. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I decided to use up some of the veggies in the house. I had an aubergine, a sweet potato, a red pepper, onions (always onions) and so I hit google. I came up with an aubergine and sweet potato bake which also included a tin of tomatoes and a tin of chick peas, tumeric, cumin, coriander, tabasco, and garlic. <... Sun, 5 Feb 2017 02:50:29 EST Honesty http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6310504 Yesterday I didn't go to the tuck shop :) That's three days in a row. <BR> <BR> I bought a sandwich for lunch - not the usual 450 calorie Chicken Salad Baguette but a 350 calorie Chicken salad sandwich - apparently the lack on lemony mayo makes all the difference :) <BR> <BR> I did however, buy three truffle eggs at the supermarket which I ate over the course of the afternoon. <BR> <BR> I had bacon sandwiches and heinz soup (although it was tomato and for the first time in ages - too sweet... Sat, 4 Feb 2017 04:08:57 EST Stress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6309749 Stress does funny things to us all. Some people thrive on it, some poeple don't. Some people buy shoes, some people buy chocolate. <BR> <BR> Today was a stressful day. Work was very busy and I was flapping mightily. I have too much to do and no time and it's getting to me. <BR> <BR> I looked at the tuck shop. I heard it's call and I ignored it. I got a cup of tea. I had a banana, and later a plum. <BR> <BR> Tonight I went out for dinner with a friend. She's very self absorbed and spent al... Thu, 2 Feb 2017 16:07:38 EST Calorie Deficit Musings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6309114 I read a blog on Spark the other day talking about Calorie Deficits, and I had never considered it that way - cutting down - yes, reducing - yes, eating less - yes. But never as a deficit. And it struck a chord with me, like a light bulb moment. Where my brain went - yes I get it. Finally I get it :) <BR> <BR> So I'm trying to make a deficit. I need to start tracking my food again, but to be honest, its all a bit of a challenge at the moment. I'm still barely drinking any water. <BR> <BR> B... Wed, 1 Feb 2017 13:53:33 EST Thinking about the new year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6304191 January is always a difficult time. There are two birthdays, one at the start of the month, and one at the end, which means any thoughts of good food etc don't really get started. On top of that this year, my ex is currently staying with me. And some of the bad habits I had around him have been creeping back in. He's also doing the housework as a way to thank me for him staying with me but it's what had got me moving. <BR> <BR> In addition there has been a series of dramas, worries, stresses... Tue, 24 Jan 2017 03:46:33 EST What's your favourite soup? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6302933 I'm trying my hand at soup making again. <BR> <BR> I used to make vegetable soup regularly, using beef or chicken stock cubes. I always blended it in the saucepan. Eventually my soup always tasted slightly odd and one day I couldn't eat it anymore. I didn't make soup for years. I've been buying tinned soup for a while for lunch, but would love to get to a place where I can take home made. <BR> <BR> My mum is the queen of soup making. It doesn't matter what she puts in soup it's always amazi... Sun, 22 Jan 2017 07:28:57 EST It's Mental http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6301971 I was going to write about this week tonight, or tell you how awesome my best friend actually is. How she took everything in her stride and told me how there is nothing to worry about. But something came up that overrides this. <BR> <BR> The day before yesterday I left work and found a text message from a friend (not the above best friend) that had been sent about an hour earlier. <BR> <BR> In it she explained how she was feeling, and that she was sorry and that she wasn't strong enough and... Fri, 20 Jan 2017 13:35:54 EST A difficult conversation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6299457 I arranged with my best friend that we would chat this week. I hadn't told her that my ex was back and staying with me. <BR> <BR> It didn't seem like a conversation for text message and with christmas and various other goings on we haven't caught up much. <BR> <BR> She rang me tonight and unusually he answered the phone. I think he thought it was me due to the time and because I was still out. <BR> <BR> She sent me a puzzled text and I explained that I had said we had a lot to talk about.... Mon, 16 Jan 2017 19:01:13 EST Soups in the cold http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6297748 Earlier in the week I bought a butternut squash soup kit. And a pack of prepared Mediterranean veg that just needed throwing into the oven. <BR> <BR> Last night I finally got round to cooking it all. <BR> <BR> The soup came out wonderfully - I've discovered that buying 'soup packs' - prepared veg that I stick in a pan with a vegetable stock cube makes much nicer soup than when I prepare the veg myself. I don't know if the difference is the vegetable stock, as I always used to use chicken bu... Sat, 14 Jan 2017 02:35:30 EST January So Far http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6293733 Well, being totally honest, January hasn't gone all that well so far. I had the first week of the year off on holiday, which has resulted in a lack of routine, random food, chocolate and not enough to drink <BR> <BR> I know I am a creature of habit. So I am looking forward to getting back to work tomorrow and the routine it brings. Three meals a day. Colleagues nagging me to drink more. I'm going to try and walk part of my journey to work - I just have to be up and out early enough :) <BR> ... Sun, 8 Jan 2017 09:43:26 EST Rebuilding http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6289222 Up until August I was doing really well at tracking food, and gradually reducing what I ate. <BR> <BR> After my ex left, I stopped tracking. I started eating better because I had more money, and dropped 11 pounds. The combination of better food and house cleaning helped. <BR> <BR> Over Christmas I stopped worrying. Too many buffets, Too much Chocolate. Not enough Water and Vegetables. And I put all but 2 pounds back on. I'm bang on 21stone again. But not over. I don't like how it feels. <BR... Mon, 2 Jan 2017 04:35:20 EST Where we are http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6284766 Well it's been a weird couple of weeks. My ex is back in the UK and currently staying with me as he had nowhere else to go. He's looking at his options at the moment. <BR> <BR> My family are unsurprisingly concerned and I have to keep reassuring them that things are ok. And they are. <BR> <BR> What this experience has showed me is that I don't want to get back together. We had our good times and our happy times, but I have been much happier in the last few months without the pressures and w... Sat, 24 Dec 2016 06:11:39 EST Scales of Doom http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6281576 I weighed myself today. I tend to do it three times, and take an average but today's weighing showed why we shouldn't be ruled by the scales alone. <BR> <BR> First weigh in: 20.2.4 <BR> Second weigh in: 20.6.4 <BR> Third weigh in: 20.5.4 <BR> <BR> All within 5 minutes of each other. <BR> <BR> If it was 20.2.4 that's my lowest in about a year and a half - and might mean maybe I get under 20 by the end of the year. <BR> <BR> I think the 20.5.4 is probably the most accurate - it's between t... Fri, 16 Dec 2016 06:51:12 EST Christmas Cheer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6280893 Well today has been a good day. <BR> <BR> Last night I cooked Thai green curry, chilli con carne and spanish chicken (talk about a cosmopolitan selection of meals) and tonight I have gnocchi and sauce :) <BR> <BR> My cough is finally just about gone, although I wish I was sleeping a bit better. <BR> <BR> I spent today with my sister. We went shopping for something for me to wear to the christmas party and the first thing I tried on fitted perfectly :) <BR> <BR> She convinced me to buy som... Wed, 14 Dec 2016 13:48:24 EST 'I'm no Mug' or 'Learning to Say No' http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6279151 I'm very easy going. I like to help people. I'm a good listener and people tell me their troubles. But sometimes it goes too far. <BR> <BR> I'm still helping my ex - and that's ok - He's 2000 miles away in a bad situation and I can't leave him like that - even if he left me. He has mental health problems and no one else who will help or understand. <BR> <BR> I have a friend - who also has mental health issues - and who has sort of broken up with her fiance. It's very on off and I have heard... Sat, 10 Dec 2016 19:31:41 EST Time and Tide http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6278665 This week has disappeared in a lur. I still feel iffy - I have a cough that I can't shift. <BR> <BR> My sleep pattern hasn't been great, partly due to changing shifts, and partly due to my ex. <BR> <BR> Work has been really busy and very stressful. <BR> <BR> I bought a load of food that was tasty but not very good for me at the start of the week, and have slowly worked my way through them. I bought ready meals for dinner, and I think those designated portions have helped keep my weight lev... Fri, 9 Dec 2016 16:19:24 EST Best Laid Plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6275647 Sometimes the best laid plans don't work <BR> <BR> Take my exercise plans. I've been getting more and more achy, wheezy and lethargic all week until this morning I woke up with a cold. I feel very bleugh. <BR> <BR> So today I made a vat of vegetable soup from a soup kit (potato, swede, parsnip, onion, leek and parsley), three stock cubes, frozen kale, frozen spinach and sweet corn. Hopefully that will help stave off the cold. <BR> <BR> Now I'm cleaning the house - slowly. Because I ache. ... Sat, 3 Dec 2016 07:28:27 EST Light and Colour http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6273093 I just read a blog title - 'It's all about me'. And it resonated with me. <BR> <BR> I have had a rough few months. The exercise regime has gone out of the window as I have struggled to look after me and the house and the cat. The house goes from super tidy to looking like a bomb has gone off in a matter of hours. <BR> <BR> The cat has good days and happy days and grumpy days - like me I guess. She has just rediscovered the top of the cat tree - I guess it's warmer up there. <BR> <BR> I wen... Mon, 28 Nov 2016 03:52:12 EST The last three months http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6259591 The last three months have been very hard since my ex-partner left. I have spent a lot of it trying to get to grips with looking after a house and a cat and a car. <BR> <BR> I'm still getting the hang of it. <BR> <BR> I've also spent a lot of time looking after him by message and email as he has struggled with his own mental health since he left. <BR> <BR> I'm not someone who can stand by when someone needs my help regardless of what has happened. As much as I said we wouldn't get back tog... Mon, 31 Oct 2016 05:01:10 EST Colds http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6257948 Sunday night I came down with a cold. <BR> <BR> But although I feel bleugh in some ways its a good thing. It's made me eat better, and drink a tonne of water (apart from today which is why I think i'm coughing). My skin is much better as a result. And the scale reckons I am 20 stone 6.4 . Whether that's true or not I don't know. <BR> <BR> but if it is and I maintain it over the next few days it's my lightest weight in a year :) <BR> <BR> I've stopped eating crisps chocolate and sweets agai... Thu, 27 Oct 2016 13:45:56 EST Stronger than Yesterday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6254624 I've not been on spark a lot in the last couple of weeks. <BR> <BR> My back took a few days to stop being sore after I fell out of bed, and then a busy week at work, and a dose of pmt which makes me sad and low didn't help either. <BR> <BR> The house is in need of cleaning and I couldn't be bothered. <BR> <BR> i went for dinner with a friend on Tuesday. She is quite depressed and emotional - I seem to attract emotional people. Today I had dinner with my sister too which was nice - more din... Thu, 20 Oct 2016 18:28:05 EST Oops http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6247936 Last night I fell out of bed. I turned over and hit the floor. <BR> <BR> Never mind. <BR> <BR> This morning I was a bit stiff and I had some things to do so I intended to exercise tonight (much as I dislike exercising in the evening). <BR> <BR> However tonight I am stiff and sore (not massively but enough to know that exercising is a bad idea) <BR> <BR> Whilst this breaks my 4 day run, I know it's the right thing to do so I shall pick up and start over tomorrow :) <BR> <BR> I spend alot ... Fri, 7 Oct 2016 16:35:06 EST I never realised... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6247140 Just how untidy I can be. <BR> <BR> I am struggling to keep the house straight. Every couple of days I look round and go 'too much mess' and have a major clear up. <BR> <BR> I'm ok at cleaning the bathroom each week, and hoovering downstairs from time to time, but the stairs and upstairs need hoovering and I need to change the sheets, and I never seem to get round to it. <BR> <BR> I've also got to start packing up my ex's stuff. I think I'm nearly ready to do that. <BR> <BR> I was always ... Thu, 6 Oct 2016 04:25:40 EST Positives http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6245471 1. I saw someone with a 500 minutes fitness award for Sept - and I want one. I worked it out and to get one at the end of October starting on 3rd October I need to do 20 minutes a day every day - well actually 17 minutes, but I like round numbers. And that's not actually all that much. <BR> <BR> 2. I weighed myself - 20st 10 pounds - 3 pounds up after getting to 20st 7 pounds. but that's ok. That first 9 pound loss was the result of barely eating after my ex-partner left. I'm still 6 pounds... Mon, 3 Oct 2016 04:37:54 EST 22 24 26 28 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6244747 Today I went clothes shopping. I bought lots of jumpers (sweaters). 7 in fact. £100 worth - which is a huge amount for me because I hate clothes shopping - but the other thing is I managed to do this all on my own :) (there's a non scale victory if ever I heard one) <BR> <BR> I've been a 26/28 size for quite a while. More recently 28 closer to 30. <BR> <BR> But today when trying on the jumpers, some of them were quite big on me - baggyish round the middle and the arms were way to long. <BR>... Sat, 1 Oct 2016 16:01:43 EST Stay Hydrated! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6243239 When my expartner left suddenly, one of my friends came to stay. And her last piece of advice on the phone before she hit the road to come to me was 'Stay Hydrated'. <BR> <BR> At the time I did, but recently all of my good habits have fallen by the wayside. <BR> <BR> I said I was starting over - but I'm finding trying to restart everything difficult. <BR> <BR> I've decided to go back to basics - one thing at a time. <BR> <BR> Starting with staying hydrated. i am barely drinking anything a... Wed, 28 Sep 2016 15:36:40 EST Climbing back on that wagon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6241895 Well it's been almost 6 weeks since my world turned upside down. I've tried really hard not to give in to comfort eating and have tried to get on. <BR> <BR> Last week, a combination of being on my own for most of the week on holiday, and PMT derailed that. I ate ten tonne of chocolate and poor food choices. I'm 4 pounds up on where I was a few weeks ago but still under 21 stone. I watched a lot of netflix. And then on Wednesday I decided I needed to do something. So I got the bits I needed a... Mon, 26 Sep 2016 01:52:34 EST Cleaning is Cathartic http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6233920 Today is a cleaning day. <BR> <BR> I'm going away with my dad for a few days so the house had to be cleaned. Yesterday was a fun day, visiting churches and castles that were open for the heritage open days. Even better the places weren't busy because it rained :) <BR> <BR> Today I got up with the intention to clean. I needed to wash my clothes for my trip, clean the house, finally start tackling upstairs where nothing has been done since my ex left. <BR> <BR> All the windows are open and t... Sun, 11 Sep 2016 11:16:49 EST A Strange Week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6231470 So far this week has been really weird <BR> <BR> I am getting to grips slowly with doing everything myself. But I am struggling a bit on staying tidy. Even with a dish washer, or maybe because of it, the washing up seems to ebb and flow in terms of quantity. Mood wise I have good days and bad - yesterday I got home from work and cried to the cat that I couldn't look after her. Today I hit the ground running :) <BR> <BR> I'm still at 20 st 7.1 which is good (287.1 pounds). <BR> <BR> My ex ... Wed, 7 Sep 2016 04:12:07 EST Interesting Times http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6226935 Last night, one of my friends came over. I had only told her about us splitting up yesterday and she came over last night. <BR> <BR> We had chinese and chocolate gateau and icecream with cracking sauce. And ginger beer because she was driving. <BR> <BR> Do you know what was odd - I haven't really eaten a lot of sugary stuff lately, so I really felt the pudding and the ice cream and the ginger beer. <BR> <BR> But not in a good way. <BR> <BR> The food was alright - it was from a new place I... Tue, 30 Aug 2016 06:41:36 EST I'm better than that :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6225895 Last night I slept poorly. I went out with my dad early today, and then helped tidy up my sister's garden. By the time I got home I was very tired, and feeling sorry for myself. <BR> <BR> I cried at the futility of it all. That the house was a mess. That my ex partner wasn't here to do the thing he does with the car speedometer to make it work. That I couldn't make the computer that music is played on play Radio Paradise. That the dishwasher smelt and there was dust everywhere. I cried to th... Sun, 28 Aug 2016 11:44:08 EST Gardening http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6225204 Yesterday I helped my dad in the garden for a while. <BR> <BR> It's the first time I have done anything truly active in a couple of weeks. It was mainly picking up all the bits he had cut off the bushes and cutting them up for the bin. <BR> <BR> He struggles to bend and has an ingenious way of using a grabber and a rake to pick stuff up. <BR> <BR> But what surprised me was how easy I found it. No back ache. No struggling to bend or reach. Just bend and pick up, bend and pick up. <BR> <BR>... Sat, 27 Aug 2016 04:46:12 EST One week on http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6224675 And i'm probably more sad than this time last week. <BR> <BR> Last week I was being practical - waiting to hear he was ok - looking at what I needed to do. Being strong and reassuring my friends and family I was ok. <BR> <BR> This week, all of that stress has gone, and I am left sitting in the house not knowing what to do, listening to the fridge defrost. <BR> <BR> I've done all the paperwork. I've managed to keep (downstairs at least) reasonably tidy and the cat has been for her vaccinati... Fri, 26 Aug 2016 05:56:06 EST Lost http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6223078 I don't know what to do with myself. My long term partner ended our relationship last week and left. It all happened very quickly. I've not been eating all that much and I've taken some time off work to get my head straight. I lost about 6 pounds in 4 days - I know that's not good. <BR> <BR> Thankfully I haven't given in to mindless eating even when my friend brought crisps and chocolate to cheer me up. <BR> <BR> But I don't know what to do with myself. I suddenly have endless amounts of t... Tue, 23 Aug 2016 11:03:20 EST Crazy Food Days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6215066 The last day or two have been crazy food days. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I was bored at work - we're in a rare and very temporary lull in our workload (this ends later this week but hey ho) and I ended up buying two bags of popcorn. <BR> <BR> Then we went out for dinner last night. Because I can't make a popular restaurant's nutrition details appear on their website (grr it is very irritating), I had to wing it and my choices apparently weren't great. <BR> <BR> Today I somehow managed to skip br... Tue, 9 Aug 2016 16:51:43 EST Interesting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6214066 I have been checking my weight daily (which isn't a good thing) but I 'weigh in' once a week. I'm about 5 ounces heavier than last week. <BR> <BR> BUT: <BR> <BR> I stayed under 21 stone (294 pounds) all week :) <BR> <BR> Here's the interesting part - I measured my hips, thigh, arm and waist. The last time I did this was in February and I was about 5 pounds lighter. <BR> <BR> Well according to my tape measure - I appear to have lost about a cm all over. Arms. Legs. Hips. Waist. <BR> <BR... Mon, 8 Aug 2016 02:32:05 EST A challenging day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6212231 Today has been quite challenging. <BR> <BR> Work was hard with people arguing with me and one person refusing to sit and talk to me about something - going so far as to ask for one of my colleagues. <BR> <BR> I was quite stressed and a little bit offended because it's not like I am hard to talk to or get cross with people. <BR> <BR> I almost went to McDonald's at lunch time, but in the end the fact I would have to go and get the car first decided me that I should eat my soup and bread (alt... Thu, 4 Aug 2016 14:46:59 EST Avoiding the tuck shop http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6211123 Today wasn't a great day at work - people were edgy and stressy and it rubbed off on me. I thought I upset someone who got cross and grumpy and it didn't help. <BR> I really wanted to raid the tuckshop - not for chocolate - I'm still not eating chocolate - but for whatever else was there. <BR> <BR> I had no money. So I had a peach. <BR> <BR> And eventually things calmed down and I didn't raid the tuck-shop. I actually have a chocolate bar in my desk and two in my bag but I never even consid... Tue, 2 Aug 2016 18:07:31 EST Paying Attention http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6207391 I've realised it's important to pay attention. <BR> <BR> I've been food tracking for two months - I think I've only missed three or four days in that time. I'm surprised I have stuck with it as I struggle to stick with things like this - maybe it resounds with the analyst in me and I always thought I couldn't do it. <BR> <BR> I had a shock when I started at just how high the calorie figures were. I'm getting better at learning how much certain things are - what 20g of cheese looks like, wha... Wed, 27 Jul 2016 02:55:31 EST Enough! Stop Procrastinating! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6203488 Yesterday got up too late for exercise. Last night was not great food wise and I went to bed late. I set my alarm for 6 and honestly thought I'd end up snoozing like yesterday. <BR> <BR> But the body is an amazing thing and woke me up at 5.45 because I needed the loo. <BR> <BR> So I got up. I dug out my clothes and I came downstairs. I got a glass of water. And sat and sat and sat a bit more. It's quite warm here. I looked at spark. I looked at the news. I looked at the work out video for t... Wed, 20 Jul 2016 01:58:41 EST 296.5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6202741 Over the last few years, and the last few months, my weight has been creeping up. <BR> <BR> This morning I was 2.5 pounds over 21 stone or 296.5 pounds. EEp <BR> <BR> I absolutely refuse to let it go over 300. <BR> <BR> I've been a little disheartened lately because I'm still not quite under 2000 calories, and I'm not cooking/making food as I should. <BR> <BR> Today I had salad at lunch time and I was really hungry when I got home which would have been fine if we weren't going straight ou... Mon, 18 Jul 2016 18:23:52 EST A week of lates http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6201521 I've worked lates all this week - and food tracking has gone haywire as has what I've eaten. <BR> <BR> My stomach hates me as a result and I daren't even contemplate the scale. <BR> <BR> Snacks haven't been too bad. I've stopped eating chocolate all together. Something happened to someone I know, and I promised myself that I would give up chocolate until its all sorted out which could be months. <BR> <BR> Its much easier to ignore chocolate and say no to the food pusher at work (which I di... Sat, 16 Jul 2016 14:40:31 EST