PUDDLE13's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=PUDDLE13 PUDDLE13's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Sunday musings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5836253 I survived the christmas party :) <BR> <BR> The food was nice and I didn't overeat. Let's not discuss the wine - I don't drink all that much and I may have indulged a little. I'm a happy drunk though so I was smiley and chatty and dance-y and avoided the people who were annoyed. I also avoided most of the cameras - I hate the fact that within half an hour of a night out the photos end up on facebook for the world to see - whether good bad etc. <BR> <BR> There's one nice picture on facebook ... Sun, 21 Dec 2014 09:23:16 EST Snooze button!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5835215 Just a brief hello as the snooze button got the better of me. Doesn't happen all that often these days but hey ho. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I managed not to take lunch to work or buy any so I ended up with two banana's, a peach and a bag of crisps for lunch! (thank goodness for free fruit at work). <BR> <BR> The house finally seems to be starting to move slowly. <BR> <BR> The OH had a bit of a meltdown yesterday and we're both a bit emotionally drained but alright. <BR> <BR> we've realised as ... Fri, 19 Dec 2014 02:26:59 EST Surprising... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5834713 I found something out yesterday that surprised me. <BR> <BR> There's a young very thin girl at work who is very keen on healthy habits. she works out a lot and and eats healthy all the time <BR> <BR> There's nothing wrong with that at all. (I would like to say this isn't about me being jealous or anything like that we are all built and motivated differently) <BR> <BR> I found out yesterday that after the work buffet, where she ate quite a few plates of party food (equally nothing wrong wit... Thu, 18 Dec 2014 01:58:58 EST Wednesday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5834219 Yesterday foodwise didn't go to well. <BR> <BR> Porridge for Breakfast <BR> <BR> Battered Chicken and wedges for lunch / dinner (I'm working late this week so 'lunch' is about 3.30 and it was the big portion) and a small fairy cake <BR> <BR> When I got home the OH had made me cheese on toast. <BR> <BR> That said, I didn't buy anything from the tuck shop, and apart from the cake I didn't go in for the buffet left overs from Monday. <BR> <BR> I also drank most of my wate r- I think it was ... Wed, 17 Dec 2014 04:00:48 EST I'm sick of food - and it's not even christmas yet! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5833684 Saturday we had big takeaway <BR> <BR> Sunday we had buffet carvery - it was really good but i was given more meat that I normally eat in a week! I couldn't finish it. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was buffet day at work. I did pick but I didn't eat everything I could have eaten - I was still full from the day before. <BR> <BR> The hard thing was trying to ignore all the people who are on diets at work who were eating two, three, four plates of food and encouraging everyone to have another mince pie... Tue, 16 Dec 2014 02:33:41 EST A bit of a rant http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5832657 This isn't going to be a pretty blog. So feel free to skip over it if you want to. <BR> <BR> I'm fed up. I'm trying to do a bit everyday and I have the last few days apart from yesterday. <BR> <BR> But yesterday I had a day off work and I binged. Sweet treats and take away for dinner. But I splurged on the takeaway. I told myself it was a treat, and ordered more than I could eat. I left about half of the main meal I bought. <BR> <BR> I'm going out for a big meal with family tonight - it's ... Sun, 14 Dec 2014 03:10:58 EST Concentrate on How You Feel http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5831147 After reading through the articles here on Spark yesterday, I was already pensive about everything. I was thinking about goals that don't involve scales. <BR> <BR> I am a scale watcher - I 'officially' weigh myself once a week, but actually its almost every day as I watch it go up and down and down and up. I have a spreadsheet which the OH didn't know about that i have kept for at least 3 years with my weight on it (yeah I know I'm sad!) <BR> <BR> I get down when I have bad food or exercise... Thu, 11 Dec 2014 01:24:43 EST Mid week ramblings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5830637 Last night we did our Christmas shopping - all of it - on Amazon <BR> <BR> It makes things so simple. Don't get me wrong, the books that I have bought (it is a book Christmas!) I would have loved to buy from an actual bookshop, but I don't really have time and Amazon is cheaper. This way it all arrives here and its simple. <BR> <BR> Deciding what to give the OH has been harder - I have about half of what I want to give, but I'm stuck for the rest. Oh well inspiration will come I am sure. <B... Wed, 10 Dec 2014 04:23:35 EST Getting back to morning exercises http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5829422 I'm on track to being heavier at the end of the year than I was at the start of it. <BR> <BR> My relationship with food is not good at the moment, the stress and stuff is meaning that I am eating poorly. <BR> <BR> I was also a bit stunned that our mortgage advisor couldn't find me any life insurance due to my height, weight, BMI and dress size. <BR> <BR> I appear to have put 2 pounds on over the weekend! <BR> <BR> We've been walking regularly, but walking with the OH can't be construed a... Mon, 8 Dec 2014 02:07:23 EST The grumps are going http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5826734 I feel more positive today :) <BR> <BR> My knee feels a bit better - probably a result of taking ibuprofen yesterday to try and reduce whatever swelling I thought there was <BR> <BR> I'm tired but that's ok. <BR> <BR> The OH and I went for a walk through the park yesterday which was thoroughly enjoyable - in the dark evening with the crisp air and some silly dogs. <BR> <BR> we have realised we can't wait to move now - but we have to be patient! <BR> <BR> anyway onwards and upwards - toda... Wed, 3 Dec 2014 01:55:48 EST The Grumps http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5826155 I've been hit by the grumps <BR> <BR> All sorts of things are making me grumpy. <BR> <BR> My friends are organising a meet up and missed someone off thelist and when I askedthe organiser to add her she said she was uncomfortable doing that - no idea why - so i have added her myself <BR> <BR> I was good yesterday and barely snacked all day at work - a few small sweets and a tiny piece of flapjack. But went shopping last night and bought fancy food that I snacked on all night - probably why ... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 01:48:27 EST How do you keep your resolve? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5823645 I make lots of plans <BR> <BR> And they're good plans <BR> <BR> Sometimes they last a month, sometimes a few days. <BR> <BR> At the moment I don't seem to be able to stick to anything. <BR> <BR> The only thing I am sticking to is a chocolate ban - since Saturday. <BR> <BR> I'm putting honey and / or raisins in my porridge <BR> <BR> I'm not eating chocolate after tea <BR> <BR> No hot chocolate at work. <BR> <BR> No chocolate from the tuck shop. <BR> <BR> So far so good, although the... Thu, 27 Nov 2014 02:13:47 EST Checking in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5820439 And saying Hi! <BR> <BR> Things are moving forwards here one step at a time. The house purchase just needs a valuation doing before the mortgage company decide if they will lend me the money. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was a rubbish day at work - lots of grumpy advisors getting shirty with me and a customer deciding the f-word was the way to solve his problems. <BR> <BR> But I got home last night and the OH and I played a game on the computer for a bit which was fun. <BR> <BR> The walking is hap... Fri, 21 Nov 2014 03:34:47 EST Eek - Stress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5818686 So stress is getting the better of me at the moment. <BR> <BR> I'm sleeping poorly and waking up far too early. <BR> <BR> The OH and I went for 4 walks in two days - one is the rain (much fun!!) when it all got too much. <BR> <BR> I've been trying not to be too optimistic about all the things happening in case it all falls through and I am disappointed. <BR> <BR> <BR> BUT the pessimism has lead to overriding stress and panic. <BR> <BR> which isn't much fun <BR> <BR> Someone once told m... Tue, 18 Nov 2014 03:35:59 EST Whatever will be http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5814618 I haven't been on Spark since my last blog post and I've come back to a popular blog post AND lots of comments. <BR> <BR> Thank you for taking the time to comment. It reminds me that we are all here together. <BR> <BR> I've been thinking alot about all the things that are happening. This whole house move thing has been the over-riding thing of the last two weeks. <BR> <BR> But my grandmother always used to say that everything happens for a reason and everything comes out ok in the end. Wha... Tue, 11 Nov 2014 02:52:17 EST Coincidence http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5811705 Last night I was feeling sorry for myself. We have a charity day at work next week and my team are all dressing up as marvel characters. I don't know what I'm going to do - I'm not a superhero shape and I don't want to look silly - short and round superhero anyone? <BR> <BR> Most of the team are wearing some form of leather clothing - would not look good on me <BR> <BR> So I am a bit stuck. And last night I was feeling very sorry for myself. I looked at houses on the internet and there isn... Thu, 6 Nov 2014 02:02:15 EST Tuesday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5810398 I got up just about early enough to do some exercise - and then I sat and procrastinated and now I don't have time. <BR> <BR> I really want to get things moving again and I am finding it really hard. I have no idea why because at one point I was doing really well. <BR> <BR> Oh well - I'd better get going and get ready for work - but first to deal with the spider in the bath <BR> Tue, 4 Nov 2014 01:40:52 EST Fragile http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5809689 I have realised how fragile my ability to stick to things is. Last week we found out we have to move as the landlord wants the house b ack. We rent from someone we know so the usual timescales are a bit loose. <BR> <BR> We're thinking about buying or renting depending on what we can afford. But we've been crunching numbers all week and still don't have any concrete plans. <BR> <BR> The OH commented on Friday and our habits had gone out the wiindow. He is smoking more (but still not as much ... Mon, 3 Nov 2014 01:25:29 EST Weighing in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5801224 Today I weighed in. I wasn't sure where I was last week as the scales gave me two figures which were 3 pounds apart. <BR> <BR> The holiday has taken it's toll. <BR> <BR> I weigh 278 pounds exactly this morning. My highest EVER. <BR> <BR> But that's ok. I knew it. I could feel it round my chin. <BR> <BR> Today is reset day. Getting back into the swing of things day. <BR> <BR> Going for walk and going shopping to buy healthy food. No more biscuits! I'm going to make up a load of meals for... Mon, 20 Oct 2014 03:13:04 EST Reflections http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5800662 We've been away to the seaside for a few days. <BR> <BR> It was lovely. Relaxing (eventually - took us a couple of days to wind down) and slow although the week flew by. We ate what we wanted and did what we wanted. We sat by the sea watching the waves and reflecting on the last year. <BR> <BR> The conclusions that we came to were: <BR> <BR> OH wants to stop smoking. He has cut down hugely and is now trying to stop. He works on the basis that he will stop but is trying to smoke as few as p... Sun, 19 Oct 2014 02:39:34 EST Rain Rain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5794993 Rain stopped play yesterday. <BR> <BR> I didn't get time to make up lunch and at lunch time when I was going to walk to the supermarket it rained. Not the it'll be ok under an umbrella sort of rain but the I'm beating down on everything you're getting soaked rain. <BR> <BR> So no exercise yesterday. <BR> <BR> Today's plan is do some exercise and drink water which has been a bit lacking lately! Thu, 9 Oct 2014 01:13:00 EST I really need to get up earlier http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5794416 I have a bad habit of wandering round spark and all my exercise time goes. I've been sticking to my little do one thing plan. So far its mainly been exercise videos or a walk to the supermarket at lunch time. Today I am going to make up my lunch, take my trainers into work and go for a longer walk on my lunch break. <BR> <BR> Although it does look like it might rain - Oh well I'll just have to take my umbrella too! <BR> <BR> Foodwise yesterday wasn't so good. I had quite a lot of bread and ... Wed, 8 Oct 2014 02:28:54 EST Nothing gained nothing lost http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5793145 Nothing gained and nothing lost this week, my weight has stayed the same <BR> <BR> But that's good <BR> <BR> Because what i have gained is a better understanding of what motivates me. <BR> <BR> I am learning the art of one little thing each day. I don't get it right every day but that's ok <BR> <BR> There was a job at work I was being pushed towards, and I realised I didn't want it but it's made me realise what I do want. <BR> <BR> Much learned this week <BR> <BR> Onwards my friends, ... Mon, 6 Oct 2014 02:26:50 EST Do One Thing - Thinking Small http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5791462 The OH and I had a conversation last night. <BR> <BR> He's had to make a series of changes for health reasons and he's doing really well. He's been focusing on cutting down smoking and coffee etc (stimulants) and told me last night he is thinking of trying to stop smoking all together. <BR> <BR> I told him I was very impressed as I am struggling to stick to anything. Weight has always been a difficult thing to talk to him about as he thinks I should be happy as I am. But he asked what I mea... Fri, 3 Oct 2014 02:54:22 EST Yesterday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5790834 Exercise wise yesterday went well - I did the video i walked to the supermarket at lunch time <BR> <BR> Food wise wasn't so good - we're back to bieng busy and manning the phones at work (not my primary job but when there are customers waiting it's all hands on deck) <BR> <BR> I ended up buyng some chocolate and then have salad, chicken and two big bread rolls for lunch. I even bought a little desert thing - tasty but not so good. My whole team seem to be overeating at the moment which I t... Thu, 2 Oct 2014 02:42:29 EST Not starting over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5790109 Today I decided to do some exercise. <BR> <BR> I have been saying to myself for the last six months that i would 'Start Over' and it hasn't happened. <BR> <BR> I've beaten myself up over eating the wrong things and not exercising. <BR> <BR> But I have done todays video work out which is total body strength training for 28 minutes. And I am going to try and drink plenty of water and such. I'm not starting over or getting back to it. But today I am trying to use my healthy habits <BR> <BR> ... Wed, 1 Oct 2014 01:44:04 EST Thoughts and Realisations http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5788479 Another week has gone by where everything has got on top of me. But I realised something. <BR> <BR> The last 8 months have knocked my confidence. <BR> <BR> I'm back to thinking I can't. <BR> <BR> I have the chance to try for a new job and I realised today I don't feel like it's worth it becuse I won't get it. <BR> My friends want me to visit and I won't because I'm embarrassed to be at myhighest weight. <BR> It feels like it's all about what I can't do not what I can. <BR> I've eaten too m... Sun, 28 Sep 2014 14:41:24 EST How was your Monday? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5785178 Mine was ok - some successes some could do betters. Finally got rid of the work monkeys that had been hanging over me but need to catch up because now I'm behind! <BR> <BR> Successes from yesterday <BR> <BR> <em>48</em> 12 minute video done <BR> <BR> <em>48</em> Someone offered to drive me to and from the supermarket at lunch time - I got them to drop me where they were going and walked back to the supermarket from there and then back to work <BR> <BR> <em>48</em> I didn't bu... Tue, 23 Sep 2014 01:21:45 EST Back to it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5784439 Well the bathroom is fixed and work is less stressful <BR> <BR> I'm on a week of earlies so I have time to exercise. <BR> <BR> I've not eaten well this week but better than I could have, and so there has been a slight increase in my weight this week. But that's ok. <BR> <BR> I'm getting back on track. <BR> <BR> Plan is 10 minutes minimum of intentional exercise, plenty of water and no tuck shop! <BR> <BR> Have a great day! <BR> <BR> edited to add - 12 minute power walk video done - I a... Mon, 22 Sep 2014 01:16:37 EST This week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5781360 This week isn't going so well. I weighed in on Monday and found I had put a tiny bit on. We found out Sunday that the bathroom floor is rotten and needs replacing. That prompted a call to the landlord. <BR> <BR> They're replacing it Saturday but we can't use it in the mean time which means going to my mum's each day for showers. I could say that it's eating into y exercise time but the last few days I just haven't got going. <BR> <BR> I'm back to waking up at 4.30 with too much running thro... Wed, 17 Sep 2014 03:28:44 EST Two weeks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5778926 Two weeks into the new plan and the exercise is doing ok - I've walked more than done my exercise videos but that's ok. <BR> <BR> I've deftly avoided the tuck shop at work for two whole weeks!! And I've been eating porridge for breakfast and salad for lunch most days. <BR> <BR> The water drinking is definitely the weak spot at the moment. Usually I drink enough at work and not much at home. I'm drinking more than I was but it's not consistent. <BR> <BR> I've challenged myself to see if I c... Sat, 13 Sep 2014 04:12:32 EST It doesn't matter what you do http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5776265 I just realised something. <BR> <BR> I got up later today than I meant to and I was trying to figure out how to fit in the half hour exercise video that's on the rotation for today, and going for a walk with the OH (it's about half an hour) which he asked for last night. <BR> <BR> And then it hit me. Whilst it would have been nice to do both, as long as I do at least one of the two I still get my exercise for today. AND I get to spend some nice walking time with the OH. The rotation won't ... Tue, 9 Sep 2014 03:01:52 EST 1 pound down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5775550 after one week of getting back to it I have lost one pound. <BR> <BR> I have been trying to exercise more which is working and drink more water which is a bit hit and miss still. <BR> <BR> My food still isn't anywhere near right but this is about baby steps and getting back into the good habits. And knowing me I have to build them up slowly. Food wise, I do eat more veggies these days than I ever used to but it's not every day. <BR> <BR> I'll get there slowly but surely - still no tuck sho... Mon, 8 Sep 2014 02:26:15 EST The Grumps http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5774939 Yesterday at work the grumps hit. <BR> <BR> In the morning I spent too long on here. I ended up rushing about. But I still made breakfast which I ate at work) and salad for lunch which was tasty! <BR> <BR> I got more and more grumpy as the day wore on. People were being annoying and I didn't get any of my work done because the phones were busy (perils of working in a call centre I guess). <BR> <BR> I was not good company and I knew it. And I couldn't change it. <BR> <BR> By 3pm I hit the ... Sun, 7 Sep 2014 03:01:53 EST Little Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5772356 I'm just now getting back to everything. August and July disappeared in a nasty whirl of stress and anxiety (lets not go there) <BR> <BR> September isn't going to be like that. <BR> <BR> The plan is to do 10 mins of exercise each day and to drink plenty of water. <BR> <BR> That's it - nothing fancy or complicated. (I'm also trying not to buy things from the tuck shop but that's another story). I feel less stressed when I exercise and drink properly. <BR> <BR> Yesterday's 10 minutes disap... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 04:13:46 EST Tuesday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5757975 I'm finding it hard to get back on track. <BR> <BR> Work is making things very difficult at the moment as it's very busy and our job is being pushed to the side so that we can support another team. Then they ask for overtime to do our job. The team we're supporting is the one we have all come from previously and it's taking it's toll on all of us. <BR> <BR> I sat here yesterday wanting to start over with the exercise and I couldn't get going. A little demon is in my head saying I am not fit... Tue, 12 Aug 2014 02:02:34 EST Where did July go? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755503 Well it disappeared into a black hole of stress and heat and poorly belly and poor sleep. It was a month where health anxiety and general anxiety peaked. It was a month of dizzy spells and bad days at work and too much to do and not enough time. The Doctor thought the bad stomach was due to stress (I had been thinking heat). Even the walks with the OH had stopped. <BR> <BR> And now I'm done with all that. <BR> <BR> So I've been drinking peppermint tea and it seems to help the belly. I thoug... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 02:57:24 EST Musings at 33 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5735035 Yesterday I turned 33 - We had a really nice day <BR> <BR> I'll be honest and say I didn't worry about what I ate. We had porridge for breakfast, and went for a walk and we went and had cake and coffee - well I had hot chocolate and a piece of chocolate cake (which was huge). I didn't finish it (which is a change). We had dinner out in the evening and we had ice cream for pudding rather than cake. <BR> <BR> But today is about taking stock and getting back on track. <BR> <BR> Thinking abo... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 02:56:53 EST Fantastic http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5732270 Well the OH went to the dr's to get the results of his blood test. The Dr said his cholesterol is slightly higher than it should be but gave him the choice of tablets or trying to lower it himself and he took the 2nd option. The Dr has given him 6 months to do it which OH thinks he can do. <BR> The new Dr was really nice and actually shook his hand at the end of the consultation. <BR> <BR> We were there to get the results of the test from a blood sugar point of view and the Dr didn't even m... Sat, 5 Jul 2014 01:54:46 EST Friday Weigh in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5731667 Over the last couple of weeks I have put back on 5 of the pounds I had lost. So I am back to 5 pounds lost and not 10. <BR> <BR> And I am ok with that. <BR> <BR> It's been a horrendous couple of weeks and I accept the hit. <BR> <BR> I'm getting back on track <BR> <BR> I'm just abpout to do todays video HIIT Cardio and Core. 30 mins and I know it will be hard <BR> <BR> But after 3 days of getting back to this I am walking taller and my bad shoulder isn't so bad. <BR> <BR> I was talking t... Fri, 4 Jul 2014 01:20:19 EST Water water everywhere http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5731004 Well yesterday I drank 9 yes 9 glasses of water. <BR> <BR> The guy I was sitting next to at work yesterday was also trying to drink his bottle of water so we reminded each other across the day. <BR> <BR> I do feel good for it this morning. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was an OK day at work. I ended up speaking to one cranky customer for about 45 mins which wasn't great but I managed to sort his problem out so that was ok. <BR> <BR> Food wise at work was really good - i did get caught by the food p... Thu, 3 Jul 2014 01:22:50 EST Not the best of days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5730242 Yesterday was not quite the good day I envisioned. <BR> <BR> I knew it would be busy. I wasn't expecting 20 in the queue at 10 past 8 in the morning. Or being told to clear my desk because they wanted the place looking tidy. <BR> <BR> I wasn't expecting really difficult customers that shout until they get what they want. <BR> <BR> It was one of those days. <BR> <BR> I coped most of the day really well - I bought one small pack of sweets after lunch and had a cup of vimto from the machine.... Wed, 2 Jul 2014 01:15:28 EST Today is a good day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5729510 Today is going to be a good day - so I keep telling myself <BR> <BR> This morning I have done the first of the schedule on Jessica smith TV - 20 minute bellyfat blasting video <BR> <BR> And I'm sweaty and I couldn't do all the moves <BR> <BR> But that's ok because today is a good day. <BR> <BR> Work is likely to be hard today - first day of the increased isa season - 1st day of the month generally - lots and lots of calls so I won't get my work done - but I'm expecting it <BR> <BR> So to... Tue, 1 Jul 2014 01:42:47 EST Being the Me I want to be http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5728731 The last few months have been spotty in terms of exercise and eating etc. <BR> <BR> I'm very easily distracted by the stresses of work and home <BR> The OH hasn't been quite right and so walking with him has taken precedence. <BR> <BR> We talked about our health and where we want to be. He understands that as <em>345</em> as our walks are, I need more exercise than that and said I could always chuck him out of the room where I exercise if need be. But I am a morning exerciser. I don't l... Mon, 30 Jun 2014 01:42:45 EST 6.7 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5727711 Hello all (it's been a little while) <BR> <BR> Well we've been quite busy here. The OH and I have continued with our walks - we are getting faster slowly and are walking more places (e.g. to the doctors - it's just down the road). This post isn't really about me (hope you don't mind) <BR> <BR> I finally got the OH switched to the new doctors and made an appointment with the diabetes nurse. His anxiety has been getting worse and the panic attacks are bad and I found out its because he has be... Sat, 28 Jun 2014 11:51:54 EST Tuesday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5719534 Well we went away this weekend to the seaside <BR> <BR> And we had a great time <BR> <BR> But I completely overindulged. <BR> <BR> In fact I may have knocked myself off my birthday track - I planned to be at 257 by my birthday in July and I was on track- but we'll see <BR> <BR> I am back to drinking plenty of water (although to be fair I drank loads at the weekend because it was so hot - nothing as good as fresh water from a campsite tap to make you realise how chlorinated our normal hom... Tue, 17 Jun 2014 01:32:21 EST 10 pounds down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5716908 I'm still here <BR> <BR> Still walking with the OH - although we didn't go yesterday but we did go walk round a town centre instead <BR> <BR> I've noticed he's walking faster and looking a bit trimmer :) <BR> <BR> I had pasta for dinner the other night for the first time in ages and then felt dreadful the next day - interesting how your food tolerances change sometimes - ah well back to normal now. <BR> <BR> I weighed myself this morning and I am 267.13. 1 more pound down making 10 in to... Fri, 13 Jun 2014 02:19:09 EST Walking and Talking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5711752 Walking and talking have quickly become part of my routine. <BR> <BR> The OH and I go every day. This week I have been on earlies and the OH has still got up early (6.20am (he didn't used to do before 7.30am)) to walk with me. Apart from yesterday when he was too sleepy but he did get up not long before I left and felt he had missed our walk. He still went on his own - He's been a couple of times on his own now and when I got home from work we went. <BR> <BR> I'm not sure it's enough exer... Fri, 6 Jun 2014 01:04:40 EST Backed into a food corner http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5707227 Hello <BR> <BR> Seems like ages since I've been here. what with the OH getting up earlier and us going for walks I don't seem to have as much time as I did. The walks have continued and we have a made a couple of longer ones too. <BR> <BR> Work has been busy but we are reaching a point where it is more manageable now. <BR> <BR> Yesterday the food pushers got the better of me and I had 2 (i know) raspberry doughnuts, a chocolate cookie and an oreo bisuit which might explain why I was HYPER... Sat, 31 May 2014 03:04:35 EST A Little Victory http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5704874 It's not technically mine but I am claiming part of it as my own and I hope that's OK. <BR> <BR> Yesterday whilst I was at work, the OH felt hemmed in by the house. <BR> <BR> So he went for a walk down to the park. <BR> <BR> Doesn't seem like much of a victory right? <BR> <BR> What if I tell you it's the first time he's been out of the house on his own (not with me or my dad etc) in at least 2 years. <BR> <BR> I'm so proud and excited for him. I would sing from the roof tops if I could. ... Wed, 28 May 2014 02:34:42 EST