PUDDLE13's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=PUDDLE13 PUDDLE13's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Best Laid Plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6275647 Sometimes the best laid plans don't work <BR> <BR> Take my exercise plans. I've been getting more and more achy, wheezy and lethargic all week until this morning I woke up with a cold. I feel very bleugh. <BR> <BR> So today I made a vat of vegetable soup from a soup kit (potato, swede, parsnip, onion, leek and parsley), three stock cubes, frozen kale, frozen spinach and sweet corn. Hopefully that will help stave off the cold. <BR> <BR> Now I'm cleaning the house - slowly. Because I ache. ... Sat, 3 Dec 2016 07:28:27 EST Light and Colour http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6273093 I just read a blog title - 'It's all about me'. And it resonated with me. <BR> <BR> I have had a rough few months. The exercise regime has gone out of the window as I have struggled to look after me and the house and the cat. The house goes from super tidy to looking like a bomb has gone off in a matter of hours. <BR> <BR> The cat has good days and happy days and grumpy days - like me I guess. She has just rediscovered the top of the cat tree - I guess it's warmer up there. <BR> <BR> I wen... Mon, 28 Nov 2016 03:52:12 EST The last three months http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6259591 The last three months have been very hard since my ex-partner left. I have spent a lot of it trying to get to grips with looking after a house and a cat and a car. <BR> <BR> I'm still getting the hang of it. <BR> <BR> I've also spent a lot of time looking after him by message and email as he has struggled with his own mental health since he left. <BR> <BR> I'm not someone who can stand by when someone needs my help regardless of what has happened. As much as I said we wouldn't get back tog... Mon, 31 Oct 2016 05:01:10 EST Colds http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6257948 Sunday night I came down with a cold. <BR> <BR> But although I feel bleugh in some ways its a good thing. It's made me eat better, and drink a tonne of water (apart from today which is why I think i'm coughing). My skin is much better as a result. And the scale reckons I am 20 stone 6.4 . Whether that's true or not I don't know. <BR> <BR> but if it is and I maintain it over the next few days it's my lightest weight in a year :) <BR> <BR> I've stopped eating crisps chocolate and sweets agai... Thu, 27 Oct 2016 13:45:56 EST Stronger than Yesterday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6254624 I've not been on spark a lot in the last couple of weeks. <BR> <BR> My back took a few days to stop being sore after I fell out of bed, and then a busy week at work, and a dose of pmt which makes me sad and low didn't help either. <BR> <BR> The house is in need of cleaning and I couldn't be bothered. <BR> <BR> i went for dinner with a friend on Tuesday. She is quite depressed and emotional - I seem to attract emotional people. Today I had dinner with my sister too which was nice - more din... Thu, 20 Oct 2016 18:28:05 EST Oops http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6247936 Last night I fell out of bed. I turned over and hit the floor. <BR> <BR> Never mind. <BR> <BR> This morning I was a bit stiff and I had some things to do so I intended to exercise tonight (much as I dislike exercising in the evening). <BR> <BR> However tonight I am stiff and sore (not massively but enough to know that exercising is a bad idea) <BR> <BR> Whilst this breaks my 4 day run, I know it's the right thing to do so I shall pick up and start over tomorrow :) <BR> <BR> I spend alot ... Fri, 7 Oct 2016 16:35:06 EST I never realised... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6247140 Just how untidy I can be. <BR> <BR> I am struggling to keep the house straight. Every couple of days I look round and go 'too much mess' and have a major clear up. <BR> <BR> I'm ok at cleaning the bathroom each week, and hoovering downstairs from time to time, but the stairs and upstairs need hoovering and I need to change the sheets, and I never seem to get round to it. <BR> <BR> I've also got to start packing up my ex's stuff. I think I'm nearly ready to do that. <BR> <BR> I was always ... Thu, 6 Oct 2016 04:25:40 EST Positives http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6245471 1. I saw someone with a 500 minutes fitness award for Sept - and I want one. I worked it out and to get one at the end of October starting on 3rd October I need to do 20 minutes a day every day - well actually 17 minutes, but I like round numbers. And that's not actually all that much. <BR> <BR> 2. I weighed myself - 20st 10 pounds - 3 pounds up after getting to 20st 7 pounds. but that's ok. That first 9 pound loss was the result of barely eating after my ex-partner left. I'm still 6 pounds... Mon, 3 Oct 2016 04:37:54 EST 22 24 26 28 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6244747 Today I went clothes shopping. I bought lots of jumpers (sweaters). 7 in fact. £100 worth - which is a huge amount for me because I hate clothes shopping - but the other thing is I managed to do this all on my own :) (there's a non scale victory if ever I heard one) <BR> <BR> I've been a 26/28 size for quite a while. More recently 28 closer to 30. <BR> <BR> But today when trying on the jumpers, some of them were quite big on me - baggyish round the middle and the arms were way to long. <BR>... Sat, 1 Oct 2016 16:01:43 EST Stay Hydrated! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6243239 When my expartner left suddenly, one of my friends came to stay. And her last piece of advice on the phone before she hit the road to come to me was 'Stay Hydrated'. <BR> <BR> At the time I did, but recently all of my good habits have fallen by the wayside. <BR> <BR> I said I was starting over - but I'm finding trying to restart everything difficult. <BR> <BR> I've decided to go back to basics - one thing at a time. <BR> <BR> Starting with staying hydrated. i am barely drinking anything a... Wed, 28 Sep 2016 15:36:40 EST Climbing back on that wagon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6241895 Well it's been almost 6 weeks since my world turned upside down. I've tried really hard not to give in to comfort eating and have tried to get on. <BR> <BR> Last week, a combination of being on my own for most of the week on holiday, and PMT derailed that. I ate ten tonne of chocolate and poor food choices. I'm 4 pounds up on where I was a few weeks ago but still under 21 stone. I watched a lot of netflix. And then on Wednesday I decided I needed to do something. So I got the bits I needed a... Mon, 26 Sep 2016 01:52:34 EST Cleaning is Cathartic http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6233920 Today is a cleaning day. <BR> <BR> I'm going away with my dad for a few days so the house had to be cleaned. Yesterday was a fun day, visiting churches and castles that were open for the heritage open days. Even better the places weren't busy because it rained :) <BR> <BR> Today I got up with the intention to clean. I needed to wash my clothes for my trip, clean the house, finally start tackling upstairs where nothing has been done since my ex left. <BR> <BR> All the windows are open and t... Sun, 11 Sep 2016 11:16:49 EST A Strange Week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6231470 So far this week has been really weird <BR> <BR> I am getting to grips slowly with doing everything myself. But I am struggling a bit on staying tidy. Even with a dish washer, or maybe because of it, the washing up seems to ebb and flow in terms of quantity. Mood wise I have good days and bad - yesterday I got home from work and cried to the cat that I couldn't look after her. Today I hit the ground running :) <BR> <BR> I'm still at 20 st 7.1 which is good (287.1 pounds). <BR> <BR> My ex ... Wed, 7 Sep 2016 04:12:07 EST Interesting Times http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6226935 Last night, one of my friends came over. I had only told her about us splitting up yesterday and she came over last night. <BR> <BR> We had chinese and chocolate gateau and icecream with cracking sauce. And ginger beer because she was driving. <BR> <BR> Do you know what was odd - I haven't really eaten a lot of sugary stuff lately, so I really felt the pudding and the ice cream and the ginger beer. <BR> <BR> But not in a good way. <BR> <BR> The food was alright - it was from a new place I... Tue, 30 Aug 2016 06:41:36 EST I'm better than that :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6225895 Last night I slept poorly. I went out with my dad early today, and then helped tidy up my sister's garden. By the time I got home I was very tired, and feeling sorry for myself. <BR> <BR> I cried at the futility of it all. That the house was a mess. That my ex partner wasn't here to do the thing he does with the car speedometer to make it work. That I couldn't make the computer that music is played on play Radio Paradise. That the dishwasher smelt and there was dust everywhere. I cried to th... Sun, 28 Aug 2016 11:44:08 EST Gardening http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6225204 Yesterday I helped my dad in the garden for a while. <BR> <BR> It's the first time I have done anything truly active in a couple of weeks. It was mainly picking up all the bits he had cut off the bushes and cutting them up for the bin. <BR> <BR> He struggles to bend and has an ingenious way of using a grabber and a rake to pick stuff up. <BR> <BR> But what surprised me was how easy I found it. No back ache. No struggling to bend or reach. Just bend and pick up, bend and pick up. <BR> <BR>... Sat, 27 Aug 2016 04:46:12 EST One week on http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6224675 And i'm probably more sad than this time last week. <BR> <BR> Last week I was being practical - waiting to hear he was ok - looking at what I needed to do. Being strong and reassuring my friends and family I was ok. <BR> <BR> This week, all of that stress has gone, and I am left sitting in the house not knowing what to do, listening to the fridge defrost. <BR> <BR> I've done all the paperwork. I've managed to keep (downstairs at least) reasonably tidy and the cat has been for her vaccinati... Fri, 26 Aug 2016 05:56:06 EST Lost http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6223078 I don't know what to do with myself. My long term partner ended our relationship last week and left. It all happened very quickly. I've not been eating all that much and I've taken some time off work to get my head straight. I lost about 6 pounds in 4 days - I know that's not good. <BR> <BR> Thankfully I haven't given in to mindless eating even when my friend brought crisps and chocolate to cheer me up. <BR> <BR> But I don't know what to do with myself. I suddenly have endless amounts of t... Tue, 23 Aug 2016 11:03:20 EST Crazy Food Days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6215066 The last day or two have been crazy food days. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I was bored at work - we're in a rare and very temporary lull in our workload (this ends later this week but hey ho) and I ended up buying two bags of popcorn. <BR> <BR> Then we went out for dinner last night. Because I can't make a popular restaurant's nutrition details appear on their website (grr it is very irritating), I had to wing it and my choices apparently weren't great. <BR> <BR> Today I somehow managed to skip br... Tue, 9 Aug 2016 16:51:43 EST Interesting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6214066 I have been checking my weight daily (which isn't a good thing) but I 'weigh in' once a week. I'm about 5 ounces heavier than last week. <BR> <BR> BUT: <BR> <BR> I stayed under 21 stone (294 pounds) all week :) <BR> <BR> Here's the interesting part - I measured my hips, thigh, arm and waist. The last time I did this was in February and I was about 5 pounds lighter. <BR> <BR> Well according to my tape measure - I appear to have lost about a cm all over. Arms. Legs. Hips. Waist. <BR> <BR... Mon, 8 Aug 2016 02:32:05 EST A challenging day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6212231 Today has been quite challenging. <BR> <BR> Work was hard with people arguing with me and one person refusing to sit and talk to me about something - going so far as to ask for one of my colleagues. <BR> <BR> I was quite stressed and a little bit offended because it's not like I am hard to talk to or get cross with people. <BR> <BR> I almost went to McDonald's at lunch time, but in the end the fact I would have to go and get the car first decided me that I should eat my soup and bread (alt... Thu, 4 Aug 2016 14:46:59 EST Avoiding the tuck shop http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6211123 Today wasn't a great day at work - people were edgy and stressy and it rubbed off on me. I thought I upset someone who got cross and grumpy and it didn't help. <BR> I really wanted to raid the tuckshop - not for chocolate - I'm still not eating chocolate - but for whatever else was there. <BR> <BR> I had no money. So I had a peach. <BR> <BR> And eventually things calmed down and I didn't raid the tuck-shop. I actually have a chocolate bar in my desk and two in my bag but I never even consid... Tue, 2 Aug 2016 18:07:31 EST Paying Attention http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6207391 I've realised it's important to pay attention. <BR> <BR> I've been food tracking for two months - I think I've only missed three or four days in that time. I'm surprised I have stuck with it as I struggle to stick with things like this - maybe it resounds with the analyst in me and I always thought I couldn't do it. <BR> <BR> I had a shock when I started at just how high the calorie figures were. I'm getting better at learning how much certain things are - what 20g of cheese looks like, wha... Wed, 27 Jul 2016 02:55:31 EST Enough! Stop Procrastinating! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6203488 Yesterday got up too late for exercise. Last night was not great food wise and I went to bed late. I set my alarm for 6 and honestly thought I'd end up snoozing like yesterday. <BR> <BR> But the body is an amazing thing and woke me up at 5.45 because I needed the loo. <BR> <BR> So I got up. I dug out my clothes and I came downstairs. I got a glass of water. And sat and sat and sat a bit more. It's quite warm here. I looked at spark. I looked at the news. I looked at the work out video for t... Wed, 20 Jul 2016 01:58:41 EST 296.5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6202741 Over the last few years, and the last few months, my weight has been creeping up. <BR> <BR> This morning I was 2.5 pounds over 21 stone or 296.5 pounds. EEp <BR> <BR> I absolutely refuse to let it go over 300. <BR> <BR> I've been a little disheartened lately because I'm still not quite under 2000 calories, and I'm not cooking/making food as I should. <BR> <BR> Today I had salad at lunch time and I was really hungry when I got home which would have been fine if we weren't going straight ou... Mon, 18 Jul 2016 18:23:52 EST A week of lates http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6201521 I've worked lates all this week - and food tracking has gone haywire as has what I've eaten. <BR> <BR> My stomach hates me as a result and I daren't even contemplate the scale. <BR> <BR> Snacks haven't been too bad. I've stopped eating chocolate all together. Something happened to someone I know, and I promised myself that I would give up chocolate until its all sorted out which could be months. <BR> <BR> Its much easier to ignore chocolate and say no to the food pusher at work (which I di... Sat, 16 Jul 2016 14:40:31 EST Days off are my nemesis http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6196272 I've gotten ok at tracking my food. At eating regular meals. At drinking a litre and half of water a day. At knowing when I am snacking. <BR> <BR> When I am at work. <BR> <BR> I have a week off - and routine and sense seem to have gone out the window. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I was only just over 2000 calories but I had rubbish for breakfast, crumpets for lunch and pizza for dinner. <BR> <BR> I have realised I need the routine of work to keep me steady. <BR> <BR> On a plus note - I have start... Thu, 7 Jul 2016 05:59:56 EST Surprised http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6193649 I went to a well known restaurant for dinner last night. I shared a starter with my friend and had a main course to myself. <BR> <BR> It was rice, chicken and various vegetables in a soupy sauce. It was nice - wasn't as nice as I had expected but that's ok. What surprised me was when i got home and poorly tracked it last night (I was tired) so redid it this morning (onto the right day as well!) <BR> <BR> I looked up the nutritional values on their website and this one bowl of food (not cou... Sat, 2 Jul 2016 14:49:27 EST Snacking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6191327 Snacking seems to be where I have the biggest problems food wise and what's pushing me over the calorie limits. <BR> <BR> Today I made myself not snack at work - the problem is boredom more that anything else (and a little bit or paranoia because my colleagues are very grumpy at the moment) - I had a peach and half a banana all day in addition to my breakfast and lunch. <BR> <BR> Being honest, by the time I got home I could have eaten my own arm, and I had some roast chicken. I've been buy... Tue, 28 Jun 2016 18:32:44 EST Food tracking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6190625 I'm almost up to a month with the food tracking. <BR> <BR> Foodwise I didn't think I was doing that well - I know I need to cook more and snack less and the tuck shop days at work are a struggle. I've binged a bit too <BR> <BR> BUT <BR> <BR> I have just looked at the last month's tracking - I've tracked as close as I can - Being honest, some figures may be more loose than others and the graph looks like a roller coaster - but there is a slow downward trend in the amount of calories I am ea... Mon, 27 Jun 2016 14:35:17 EST On the day the world went mad.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6188928 I finally found my why...and had an honest conversation with my partner about my need to lose weight and that I will be measuring portions. He said he knows he is a bad influence food wise and is going to keep well out of it to give me a good chance. <BR> <BR> Today has been the longest day. 6 hours sleep ish last night due to the craziness that was the UK referendum. <BR> <BR> Going into work and having everyone talk about it all day - I didn't actually tell anyone how I voted but a lot of... Fri, 24 Jun 2016 16:00:01 EST A Bingey Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6187766 Today has been a binge. I picked at some ham in the fridge before breakfast, my partner made me a bacon sandwich for breakfast, I got to work and hit the tuck shop almost immediately twice. Lunch was ok and then my mum offered me icecream - ok then. I had KFC on the way home - and they gave me free bits which I ate too. <BR> <BR> I knew after the tuck shop raid I was in a mood to eat all day - i realised I hadn't filled up my water bottle so I went and did that and controlled myself in the a... Wed, 22 Jun 2016 17:34:05 EST Fancy Dinner http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6185824 Today I had dinner with my family for fathers day. I knew it was going to be a biggie so I took it easy food wise today. Porridge for breakfast, the remaining two fajitas for lunch. I had one chocolate cookie and a small chocolate when someone offered them to me at work but no other snacks, and a litre and a half of water. <BR> <BR> When I got to the house, I was offered fizzy pop and I asked for a glass of water with orange squash. I had a very small amount of wine (about 2 fingers worth) i... Sun, 19 Jun 2016 17:24:10 EST Small steps and mini goals. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6185281 I've been diligently tracking food since 30th May. The last couple of days have been a bit hit and miss but I've gone and rectified that today. Yesterday was a really bad food day and I wasn't going to track everything because it was well over. But the only person that cheats is me so I have been back through it today and added in what was missing. <BR> <BR> Today I planned to try and eat better portions. <BR> <BR> Porridge for breakfast <BR> A tin of soup and two slices of bread for lunch ... Sat, 18 Jun 2016 16:30:47 EST Financial Well Being Check http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6179803 I work for a financial company and it's so important to keep an eye (preferably two) on your finances. Even as we get stuck in a rut with food, it's easy to be the same with finances - because money comes in and money goes out, interest rates change and so do the terms and conditions, and its easy to be complacent. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I found out the pay rise I was expecting wasn't as big as I thought - my manager had misunderstood the way it works. I was a bit upset but after a while I real... Thu, 9 Jun 2016 17:47:40 EST What have I learned after 7 days of food tracking? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6177795 <em>189</em> That I am eating well over what I should be <BR> <BR> <em>189</em> That I snack more than I thought <BR> <BR> <em>189</em> That I'm not eating enough veg <BR> <BR> <em>189</em> That I eat quite an amount of carbs / fatty foods - more than I thought <BR> <BR> <em>189</em> That in the 7 days I have been tracking I have been more conscious of what I am eating and the figures have dropped slightly <BR> <BR> <em>189</em> That I can estimate or use food... Mon, 6 Jun 2016 18:14:13 EST 5 days of food tracking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6176455 and I have learned I am eating too much mainly at dinner in the evening. <BR> <BR> Also...food tracking is weirdly fascinating (i spend all day dealing with stats it's unsurprising this would intrigue me). <BR> <BR> I need to start trying to reduce the amount I eat. Bizarrely I think ready meals may be the way forward for a few days just until I get the hang of the portion sizes etc. <BR> <BR> Hope you are all well :) Sat, 4 Jun 2016 16:14:47 EST Tracks in the sand http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6174546 So I have managed to track the food I ate today again. <BR> <BR> I'm well over the calorie range again and just over on carbs and protein. <BR> <BR> It's weirdly fascinating to add it all up and see what's happening. I've never managed it before. I'm getting to grips with it slowly. <BR> <BR> Not sure how tomorrow will be - I'm going out to lunch with my dad and I'm not sure how the tracking will work but I'll give it a go anyway. <BR> <BR> Today has been a pretty good day. The OH convinc... Wed, 1 Jun 2016 15:44:10 EST Oh. My. Goodness. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6173849 I find food tracking very difficult. I start and stop occasionally but have always prided myself on knowing what I eat. <BR> <BR> Well today I managed to track everything I ate for probably the first time. <BR> <BR> And <BR> <BR> OH <BR> <BR> MY <BR> <BR> GOODNESS <BR> <BR> I was well and truly over the upper calorie limit <BR> Well and truly over the carbs and fats limit <BR> <BR> About the only thing that was about right was the protein. <BR> <BR> To say I'm shocked is an understate... Tue, 31 May 2016 15:28:27 EST 1 stone or 14 pounds or 5% http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6173464 I just read a blog post titled - what would 5% mean to me. And I wondered - what would 5% of my body weight look like. <BR> <BR> And the answer is 14 pounds (there abouts) or 1 stone. <BR> <BR> I like round numbers and this seems really round. If 5 % of my body weight is 14 pounds that seems like a good target and a good place to start. <BR> <BR> I have put the 6 pounds I lost recently back on with a bit of interest so in effect I am starting (yet) again but that's ok. <BR> <BR> I've had ... Tue, 31 May 2016 01:46:49 EST We've all got that friend at work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6169547 The one who always has biscuits in their desk. <BR> <BR> Who brings in cakes <BR> <BR> Who pushes and pushes you to eat. <BR> <BR> Today I tried - I really did try to say no to the samosas and the cakes. <BR> <BR> I ended up having two samosas and one cake. <BR> <BR> It was insisted that I have two other cakes. They are in a sealed tub in my desk drawer at the moment because I was full and I didn't want them right then. <BR> <BR> I don't know what the difference is. Two of my other coll... Tue, 24 May 2016 14:14:53 EST What's right for me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6168970 This last week has been a bad food week. Not enough water - too much takeaway - far too much chocolate. I know this, and so the weight increase from last weeks loss is not unexpected. <BR> <BR> It happened and I'm moving on. <BR> <BR> Today was better - by no means perfect - I had breakfast and salad for lunch. It was coming home and eating a huge bag of crisps and some chocolate before dinner that was the bad part. It happened and I'm moving on. I did drink 2 litres of water today :) So th... Mon, 23 May 2016 17:32:32 EST Potatoes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6163542 I'm trying to have potatoes or rice instead of pasta - I know it's still a carbohydrate but it's a less processed carbohydrate. I have a theory that pasta and bread upset my stomach - I struggle to cut down bread, but pasta is easy - I substitute! <BR> <BR> Potatoes are far more adaptable than I ever realised. <BR> <BR> I've always bought new potatoes and then boiled them till they're soft and then stuck them in salad, or had them hot with a bit of butter. I'm not a fan of boiled old potato... Sun, 15 May 2016 16:52:07 EST Home cooked http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6162898 Well I stayed off work three days this week due to my cold - still feeling iffy but it'll get better. <BR> <BR> I've had a home cooked meal at least once a day everyday this week. Either lunch or dinner, dinner mainly. <BR> <BR> Today I nearly didn't have any of the good stuff (veggies and the like) and then remembered frozen leftovers of a tuna and tomato sauce that I made last week - so that was put onto pasta rather than just the pasta! <BR> <BR> I think it's making a difference - the s... Sat, 14 May 2016 15:33:16 EST Cooking and Colds http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6159505 I am trying to cook more often - it doesn't always work - but generally over the last week I have cooked quite regularly - and I'm enjoying the variety and the vegetables. <BR> <BR> I've bought more salad for lunches this week and I'll be making that up in the morning before I go to work. <BR> <BR> I think I can do streaks as long as it is one at a time and just for a week - one day I may manage to put it all together. <BR> <BR> I've got another cold which is a pain - it came on the night ... Mon, 9 May 2016 15:22:36 EST My Nemesis http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6156658 The tuck shop at work is right behind my desk - I don't even have to get up to get to it. And I find that because I am busy and a bit stressed I keep visiting it - at least once a day. <BR> <BR> Apart from yesterday <BR> <BR> When I had no change on me to buy chocolate. <BR> <BR> So I had two apples and a glass of squash. <BR> <BR> Apparently I can survive the day without chocolate! <BR> <BR> ***edited to add - by 'squash' I mean the drink - it's black currant and apple diluted with wate... Thu, 5 May 2016 02:43:52 EST Vegetables http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6155979 Apparently I don't seem to be able to make lots of changes at once. The exercise has slowed down but I'm trying to drink more water because work is busy and hot and last week I ended up dizzy and dehydrated so this week I am filling my water bottle and drnking it. <BR> <BR> I'm trying to get back to cooking and making lunches. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I had a big salad with tinned mackeral. I had 2 salad potatoes with it too and was surprised it filled me up till dinner. Everyone at work kept co... Wed, 4 May 2016 02:35:18 EST Why the scale doesn't matter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6155267 I'm finally starting to realise why the scale doesn't matter as anything other than a checking point. <BR> <BR> I weigh myself a lot - most days in fact - and not once - When I weigh myself I do it three times (or sometimes even four) because my scales give me varying different figures. <BR> <BR> Take today - I weighed myself - twice it was 20st 10lbs 7 twice and then it was 20st 12 3 twice. <BR> <BR> So does that mean I am 20 st 10 or 20st 12 or the mid point, 20st 11. <BR> <BR> Now I kn... Tue, 3 May 2016 02:32:47 EST Walking in the Hail http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6151471 Today was a pretty rubbish day at work. <BR> <BR> It was busy, my work is mounting up because I am helping out another area taking phone calls, and by the end of the day I was totally tense and stressed with white noise in my head and a feeling like I wanted to cry. <BR> <BR> So when I finished work I sent my partner a message that said am going for a walk when I get home. <BR> <BR> Bless him, he greeted me at the door with a hug and a cup of tea, then got changed and even though it was st... Wed, 27 Apr 2016 13:07:24 EST The spider in the bath http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6149659 There's a spider in the bath this morning. It can't get out and is about to get washed away. I was thinking this morning watching it, that I feel a bit like that. <BR> <BR> I'm trapped in a cycle of bad food and no exercise and every time I start to make progress something gets in my way. My partner's depression, my stress at work, all the jobs we need to do at home. And it threatens to wash me away. <BR> <BR> I don't want to be washed down a drain of fat and stiffness and back pain. But ri... Mon, 25 Apr 2016 02:01:14 EST