PUDDLE13's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=PUDDLE13 PUDDLE13's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Walking and Wildflowers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5929618 I went to a nature reserve that had a wild flower day today. I got there too late for the talks and I didn't buy any wildflowers. <BR> <BR> But I did go for a walk around the reserve - it was free entry due to the wildflower day. <BR> <BR> I walked well strolled for abut an hour and it was so peaceful and good to be out in the fresh air. I spotted a few flowers I recognised and one or two from the garden but my plant recognition isn't good! <BR> <BR> Yesterday we dug more of the garden - w... Sun, 17 May 2015 12:51:42 EST Influence and Positivity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5927866 Two strange things happened yesteday. <BR> <BR> At work, we talked about how to influence people. How it was important to find similarities, to find out what will make the other person think, how to be confident in your abilities because if you can't say you are good at something how can the other person believe you. About perservering - have 5 plans to get what you want and to keep pushing and most importantly to smile and be enthusiastic. <BR> <BR> And then when I got home I ended up talk... Thu, 14 May 2015 05:29:14 EST A better day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5927292 Yesterday was a better day. <BR> <BR> The tuck shop wasn't visited. I had a few small sweets from the bag that our manager bought for the team <BR> <BR> I had a sensible lunch - nothing too fancy and soup for dinner. <BR> <BR> Water wise it wasn't quite perfect but I can accept that. <BR> <BR> I've come to the conclusion that things have to change. And only I can change them. <BR> <BR> I can sit here being morose and cross at myself for letting things get out of hand or I can change thin... Wed, 13 May 2015 04:20:41 EST At my heaviest http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5926712 I weighed myself yesterday and I was 20st - 280Lbs for those who don't do stones. Today I weighed myself because sometimes my weight fluctuates by 4 pounds or so day by day - but it had stayed the same - in fact it was slightly higher - 20st and a few ounces <BR> <BR> I had promised myself over and over I wouldn't get to 20st and here I am. I don't like it. I don't want it. And I have to get back on the path I have fallen off. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I gardened for a while digging and raking an... Tue, 12 May 2015 04:20:34 EST Salad days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5910927 Well yesterday I had salad for lunch - my lunch was late at 3pm so I made a big one to carry me through to the evening. <BR> <BR> It was full of tasty things (tomatos, cucumber, mushrooms, red pepper, chick peas, 2 small new potatoes and hite fish). I ate it and didn't feel full and then went for a stroll and felt full. Maybe I need to make a bit less today. <BR> <BR> I was only slightly mortified when the dieting colleague next to me made comments about portion size. At the moment, I'm jus... Tue, 14 Apr 2015 03:13:04 EST The Uncomfortable Truth http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5909212 I've been thinking today and I've come to an uncomfortable truth. <BR> <BR> I can talk about losing weight. I can have a half hearted push every few days. But it doesn't work. <BR> <BR> I'm too easily discouraged, and the slightest bit of boredom or stress send me to the supermarket on a lunch break for fried chicken and wedges. Its reached a point where I'm not telling me dieting colleagues what I have had for lunch. Its not that they would disapprove but I am embarrassed by my weakness. <... Sat, 11 Apr 2015 04:39:14 EST Tuesday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5907463 Well Tuesday went ok. Not as well as I had hoped. <BR> <BR> Walk - I went for an 18 minute walk in the morning <BR> <BR> Breakfast - had breakfast but due to time constraints I couldn't make porridge so I ended up with bread and jam - not so healthy <BR> <BR> Lunch - was an epic fail - running late in the morning meant no salad and I bought chicken and wedges - I really have to stop this being my go to food at the supermarket when I am in a bad mood <BR> <BR> Snacks - I didn't go to the ... Wed, 8 Apr 2015 02:40:24 EST Returning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5906819 So I'm finally back to spark. <BR> <BR> Its taken a whie. <BR> <BR> We've eaten a lot of sweets and cake this week - we were staying with friends who were getting married - and we bought sweets to drive back with because we were tired. <BR> I've weighed in and I am just under the weight I don't want to get to - 20stones or 280 pounds - both round figures. My weight is 19st 13 or 279 pounds. <BR> <BR> So I have to make a real effort not to go to 280.I have challenged myself to get to 269. <... Tue, 7 Apr 2015 03:18:17 EST March http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5900408 Hello!! How are you? <BR> <BR> We're all goodish here. <BR> <BR> March has disappeared into a blur of house related and work related things. <BR> <BR> My ability to eat junk has sky rocketed and my ability to drink water has taken a nose dive! <BR> <BR> I've lost round about 5lbs but I can't say its through anything I have been actively doing - i think its the exercise from having stairs to climb and such - one of my friends at work said - just imagine how much weight you would have lost ... Fri, 27 Mar 2015 02:44:00 EST Marching through March http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5893708 Hello there! <BR> <BR> March is fast disappearing in a blur! <BR> <BR> My Dr's appointment was interesting - I ended up seeing the grumpy dr and he spent about thirty seconds feeling where it hurt around my hip and told me it was a sprain - so that's ok. <BR> <BR> Walking has been a bit hit and miss and I have been having to leave earlier for work each day. I'm back in my team today and I can't wait - the last two weeks have been very hard due to the nature of the work I was doing. I've s... Mon, 16 Mar 2015 03:26:09 EST Feeling more positive! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5887876 Well Good Morning! <BR> <BR> I'm feeling more positive. Thank you for your kind comments yesterday :) I love the idea of the 5lb challenge! Bring it on! <BR> <BR> Yesterday I ate reasonably (not saying well but reasonably is ok) <BR> <BR> Yesterday I realised I have to look after myself. I was listening to a radio programme where the presenter said a friend had told him to get his knee checked out when he had been in pain with it for a while and when he did, there was a problem. He said yo... Fri, 6 Mar 2015 03:00:51 EST Where to start? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5887262 I feel in myself like I have out the 7 pounds I lost back on and then a bit more. <BR> <BR> I feel lethargic and bloated and fat and slow. <BR> <BR> My knees hurt and the pain in my hip isn't good today. <BR> <BR> The scale is broken and I can't check and its numbers that get me moving. <BR> <BR> We moved a few weeks ago and I want to go walking but i am a bit nervous because I don't know the area that well. I also still haven't found my workout clothes. <BR> <BR> I'm working in a differ... Thu, 5 Mar 2015 02:18:22 EST Before and After http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5885971 I've just read this article on the BBC website and it got me to thinking. <BR> <BR> http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/blogs-magazine<BR>-monitor-31638187 <BR> <BR> This article is about how supplements and diet pills etc try to convince us that their pills are best. <BR> <BR> And it's something I have thought about before. Before pictures in magazines etc are always poorly lit with sad looking people, and after are brightly coloured and smiley. <BR> <BR> This is not a dig a before and after pics ... Tue, 3 Mar 2015 02:47:34 EST Tired and its only Tuesday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5885966 Yesterday passed in a blur. I had to go to a 3 hour presentation at work and then spent the afternoon observing how a different department works as I am working there for a couple of weeks. <BR> <BR> Needless to say my water drinking was non existent! <BR> <BR> I walked to the supermarket and back at lunch time but then bought a salad bar 'salad' that consisted of a bit of lettuce and sweetcorn and beet root and various pastas in sticky sauces. <BR> <BR> Dinner was cheese tomato and corned... Tue, 3 Mar 2015 02:21:13 EST Getting back into the swing of things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5885229 Today I decided it was time to start over. <BR> <BR> To find the wagon that rolled off ahead of me. To start thinking about me again. <BR> <BR> The last few weeks have been busy and stressful. <BR> <BR> We moved house. Because we moved house the OH's depression kicked in big sttyle and we have had a few arguments and bad times. But he's had a couple of good days and maybe starting new routines will help. <BR> <BR> I've eaten a lot of junk food. Fast Food. Ready Meals. Cheese on Toast. and... Mon, 2 Mar 2015 02:10:38 EST House http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5871029 Well good morning! <BR> <BR> This is just a quick hello really. Our house purchase completed the other day and we are in the process of sorting everything out. There's lots of painting and decorating to be done. All of the change has also hit the OH hard and he is having panic attacks - so I need to concentrate on him and the house this week. <BR> <BR> So I may not be around much but I will look after myself - promise! <BR> <BR> I've lost 3 pounds this week- probably a combination of eatin... Sat, 7 Feb 2015 02:56:17 EST One block at a time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5868350 With everything that is going on, I've been feeling overwhelmed. <BR> <BR> Trying to organise and keep things going with the house move. Trying to do a bit more and eat a bit less, to drink my water, and not get stressed at work. <BR> <BR> As the house move was thrust upon us at the end of October when we were given notice, it's all felt a bit too much - i don't really know what I'm doing but we're getting there. Now we just have to sort locks and paint and carpets and such (we complete on ... Tue, 3 Feb 2015 01:49:29 EST New Week - Fresh Start http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5867589 Well I did alright last week. I did a bit of exercise every day. <BR> <BR> Saturday the OH and I took a walk which was nice, and then I helped pass boxes up into the attic. Our landlord is moving back into this house where we live and is starting to move things across. I did strain the already strained knee a bit more - so ibuprofen and gentle low impact exercises are the way forward for a few days. <BR> <BR> Things got a bit fraught yesterday when they told us they wanted to come in the we... Mon, 2 Feb 2015 02:04:21 EST It's friday and there's snow! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5865639 No way near as much as I have seen on the news but enough for the drive to work to be slower. So I can't stay long! <BR> <BR> Yesterday I got up tired. My OH had a bad night's sleep which meant I heard him getting up and coming back to bed and getting up so it disturbed my sleep too. <BR> <BR> My knee is also still stiff and sore. So I knocked the exercise on the head yesterday. <BR> <BR> My sister and I have managed to have lunch together twice this week and both days we walked. One day ... Fri, 30 Jan 2015 01:20:16 EST Walking, walking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5864174 My sister and I went for a walk on my lunch break yesterday. Turns out it was just under a mile. We could have done it quicker but we were both having a bad day and needed to talk. <BR> <BR> When I got home the OH said he had been for a walk today too - which is ace! <BR> <BR> We talked about how we are doing and why we walk - for me its the physical exercise, for him its the mental calming. <BR> <BR> We talked about weight and I said mine is much higher than I would like, and I've only lo... Wed, 28 Jan 2015 01:28:54 EST Stopping the binge monster in it's tracks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5863455 Yesterday was a good day. <BR> <BR> I had a big salad with fish for lunch. I only had a couple of sweets from the central team tin at work. I got home and the binge monster hit. <BR> <BR> I had some pate on bread (lots of pate but 2 slices of bread) and then some crisps. And then I stopped and went - actually what I want is dinner. The OH wasn't hungry so I made dinner for myself and had that. So yes I had a lot of pate, and yes I had a lot of crisps. But I stopped before I ate the WHOLE ... Tue, 27 Jan 2015 01:54:18 EST Late and early http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5862642 I've worked on the late shift for the last two weeks and this week I am on the earlies. <BR> <BR> It's the first time I have needed my alarm clock in two weeks! <BR> <BR> I've gotten up early to do my exercise but I am just sitting here dozy and yawning. <BR> <BR> I know it will wake me up. I know it will make me feel better. <BR> <BR> But at the minute it feels like a whole lot of effort, <BR> <BR> This week I am gong to try and eat well - as in eat salad and fruit and drink my water. I... Mon, 26 Jan 2015 01:17:17 EST Hmmm - what happened yesterday? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5861368 Yesterday was one of those days. <BR> <BR> We were late getting going so no walk, no salad just rush. <BR> <BR> Work was busy and I ended up 45 minutes late for lunch due to a long customer call. <BR> <BR> I went to the supermarket with good intentions for lunch and ended up with pie. <BR> <BR> There was a charity day at work and so there were samosas and cake and sweets. <BR> <BR> Last night was a family dinner - we had chinese and then cake. <BR> <BR> I did drink most of my water yest... Sat, 24 Jan 2015 04:03:28 EST Getting the 'No' going http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860711 I sit next to a lady at work who has lost a lot of weight. <BR> <BR> She eats the bare minimum in terms of her calorie range and does plenty of exercise and drinks plenty or water. She is looking really good for it. <BR> <BR> BUT <BR> <BR> whenever there is food around (think birthday treats) she doesn't have them, but pushes them on me. She is very keen and insistent and it's difficult to say no. It was easier when I used to sit next to the diabetic lady, because she didn't want the treat... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 02:41:07 EST Walking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860000 The OH and I are getting back to walking together. <BR> <BR> We've never stopped, but with the poor weather we've gotten out of the habit. <BR> <BR> The last 2 days we have walked both days. Yesterday was only a short walk as it was far colder and wetter than we had anticipated. <BR> <BR> I had to leave the car at the supermarket yesterday as there was no space to park at work - so I walked there and back to go get it. <BR> <BR> I've decided to stop taking the lift at work as well- there'... Thu, 22 Jan 2015 04:34:50 EST 279.50 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5858420 It's not been a good week - the end of last week and the start of this one. <BR> <BR> The OH is getting more panicky and depressed. So we have long conversations in the evening and at lunch time. I think its all the change that's coming. I've talked to him about mindfulness, and I know he does meditate, but he won't use the mental health service as he doesn't trust them, so I don't really know what else I can do. <BR> <BR> The house move has slowed as the solicitors fight it out over some l... Tue, 20 Jan 2015 02:46:21 EST Mid week!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5853995 Well actually it's day 5 of the week for me because I worked the weekend! But that's ok. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was pretty good. <BR> <BR> I got all my work done (well mostly) and I did my exercise in the morning. <BR> <BR> The OH and I had a walk in the morning too. <BR> <BR> I made my lunch, fish and vegetables and rice (that's 2 days in a row I have made my lunch), I don't think I'll have time today because we are going shopping. <BR> <BR> I had 6 glasses of water!! <BR> <BR> I should h... Wed, 14 Jan 2015 03:33:41 EST Flight or Fight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5853187 I lay in bed this morning thinking. <BR> <BR> My legs and arms are feeling heavy. Yesterday I binged, even though I had taken lunch to work, the stress took hold and I binged. My face feels bloated. <BR> <BR> When I got home late last night the OH said have something to eat because you've not eaten since early afternoon. I was hungry but I didn't know what I wanted and I was miserable after a busy day and more miserable because I was hungry but didn't know what I wanted. <BR> <BR> Yesterda... Tue, 13 Jan 2015 02:56:54 EST The power of positive http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5852337 Todays the twelfth and the wagon stopped on Friday morning. <BR> <BR> I didn't fall off really. But it stopped in its tracks for three days. <BR> <BR> My arms and legs have felt heavy and I have felt lethargic. We ended up with pizza two nights in a row (visiting friends) and I indulged over lunch on Saturday. I've been taking it easy and that's OK. Stupidly I sat at work thirsty with a bottle of water next to me and didn't drink it! <BR> <BR> I've been thinking about why I haven't really ... Mon, 12 Jan 2015 03:46:42 EST Wednesday already! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5848235 I can't believe its Wednesday already. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was a good day. <BR> <BR> Loads of paperwork came back from the solicitors so house move is moving on - it's kinda getting scary real now! Lots to read and lots to sign - I am off work tomorrow so I will read it all properly then. <BR> <BR> Work was good yesterday not as busy as expected so I got loads of my work done! <BR> <BR> Foodwise it was pretty good - breakfast was eaten at my desk at work - but before I switched my compute... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 02:14:10 EST The return of the Binge Monster http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5847260 Yesterday started out really well. <BR> <BR> I did a little bit of exercise. I got ready for work calmly, i even dried my hair! I had breakfast at home just me and a bowl of porridge. I even switched off the computer so I could concentrate on what I was eating. I had a glass of water before I went to work. <BR> <BR> I got to work all calm and good - nice non stressful drive in, plenty of music on the radio. I filled my water bottle, got a peppermint tea and settled into my day. <BR> <BR> ... Tue, 6 Jan 2015 01:51:21 EST Yesterday and Now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5846249 Yesterday I decided to forgo my 30 minute exercise video. <BR> <BR> my arms and legs felt heavy and tired and we were going to walk round a sunday market. <BR> <BR> which we did. we were there for about an hour and went all the way round but it was SO cold! <BR> <BR> Yesterday was a day of negativity - not from me but it got me down. <BR> <BR> There were a whole series of things that happened with my family that just made things tense and stressed. It was no fun. I had explained in detail... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 01:54:48 EST The Third http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5844451 Today's the third and I got up not wanting to do anything. <BR> <BR> I sat and read spark. I wandered around some of the Jessica Smith videos and thought I don't want to. I want simple or straightforward. <BR> <BR> The I found a sunset barefoot walk on Jessica Smith. Never mind that its 9 am and raining, its simple and that's what I wanted. <BR> <BR> 33 minutes later I feel better. It wasn't complicated or high impact. It wasn't lots of intervals. It was waving your arms around and steppin... Sat, 3 Jan 2015 04:39:08 EST Smiling at strangers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5843527 The pusscat is sitting behind me mewing. She hasn't had her breakfast yet. Neither have I. I haven't packed up what needs posting or wiped the condensation off the windows. <BR> <BR> But I have done my first half hour walking video of the year. I enjoyed it greatly. I'm warm and sweaty and I always end up with cramp from the calf raises. <BR> <BR> But that's ok too. <BR> <BR> I have the first glass of water of the day sitting next to me. And I will have breakfast and a peppermint tea befor... Fri, 2 Jan 2015 03:17:26 EST The end of the year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5841677 I finish this year weighing 274.31 and I started it weighing 272.19 <BR> <BR> It's not a bad thing. I could have eaten my way to a much higher weight this year. <BR> <BR> I wrote one entry that was all doom and gloom and I've decided to rewrite and focus on the positives. <BR> <BR> 1. I have learned lots of healthy habits <BR> 2. I'm getting back to exercise. <BR> 3. The OH and I walk places these days. <BR> 4. His health is better even if his depression isn't. <BR> 5. I've finally got the... Wed, 31 Dec 2014 03:50:35 EST Bad food day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5840989 Yesterday was a bad food day. <BR> <BR> Bread and honey, and porridge for breakfast. <BR> Chicken and potato wedges AND a scotch egg for lunch <BR> Chicken and Tomato sandwiches (with mayo) with a few (and it was only a few) chips for dinner. <BR> A bag of sweets at work. But only one chocolate thing at home. <BR> <BR> I had probably 4 glasses of water - two in the morning and 2 when I realised I hadn't drank all day at work. <BR> <BR> I didn't even walk to the supermarket at lunch time. <... Tue, 30 Dec 2014 03:00:23 EST Dance walking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5840290 Today I chose a 26 minute dance walk video. <BR> <BR> It's low impact so my knees are good but I enjoyed it. <BR> <BR> I weighed in too and found that apparently I have lost 2 lbs. To be honest it's the 2 lbs I lose and gain regularly but that's ok- it's still not a gain over christmas! <BR> <BR> I'm not sure the scales work that well - I can stand on the three times and get three different figures! <BR> <BR> Yesterday was good food wise - I had porridge for breakfast soup and 2 slices o... Mon, 29 Dec 2014 02:21:18 EST Sunday Sunday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5839674 And I'm properly getting back to it. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was a day of poor food choices. We were all tired at work and ended up eating sweets. I did drink plenty of water though <BR> <BR> I made the mistake of going to the supermarket - they had boxes of chocolates reduced in price and I bought a box. We've already got a big box we were given so I don't know what I was thinking - I probably wasn't to be fair! <BR> <BR> I've been quite good with the chocolates - I am trying to only have one... Sun, 28 Dec 2014 03:42:09 EST The morning after... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5839112 Merry Christmas to you all! I hope you enjoyed the festivities. <BR> <BR> I definitely did! <BR> <BR> I came up with a little plan that meant Iavoided all the wine over the last 2 days - I offered to drive! So apart from one small half a measure of baileys irish cream (mmmmmmmm), I've not drank at all <BR> <BR> And do you know what - I didn't miss it - OK I ended up drinking a bit of fizzy pop and a cup of tea but that's ok. <BR> <BR> Christmas day I didn't over eat. I had one portion of ... Sat, 27 Dec 2014 02:22:34 EST Sunday musings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5836253 I survived the christmas party :) <BR> <BR> The food was nice and I didn't overeat. Let's not discuss the wine - I don't drink all that much and I may have indulged a little. I'm a happy drunk though so I was smiley and chatty and dance-y and avoided the people who were annoyed. I also avoided most of the cameras - I hate the fact that within half an hour of a night out the photos end up on facebook for the world to see - whether good bad etc. <BR> <BR> There's one nice picture on facebook ... Sun, 21 Dec 2014 09:23:16 EST Snooze button!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5835215 Just a brief hello as the snooze button got the better of me. Doesn't happen all that often these days but hey ho. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I managed not to take lunch to work or buy any so I ended up with two banana's, a peach and a bag of crisps for lunch! (thank goodness for free fruit at work). <BR> <BR> The house finally seems to be starting to move slowly. <BR> <BR> The OH had a bit of a meltdown yesterday and we're both a bit emotionally drained but alright. <BR> <BR> we've realised as ... Fri, 19 Dec 2014 02:26:59 EST Surprising... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5834713 I found something out yesterday that surprised me. <BR> <BR> There's a young very thin girl at work who is very keen on healthy habits. she works out a lot and and eats healthy all the time <BR> <BR> There's nothing wrong with that at all. (I would like to say this isn't about me being jealous or anything like that we are all built and motivated differently) <BR> <BR> I found out yesterday that after the work buffet, where she ate quite a few plates of party food (equally nothing wrong wit... Thu, 18 Dec 2014 01:58:58 EST Wednesday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5834219 Yesterday foodwise didn't go to well. <BR> <BR> Porridge for Breakfast <BR> <BR> Battered Chicken and wedges for lunch / dinner (I'm working late this week so 'lunch' is about 3.30 and it was the big portion) and a small fairy cake <BR> <BR> When I got home the OH had made me cheese on toast. <BR> <BR> That said, I didn't buy anything from the tuck shop, and apart from the cake I didn't go in for the buffet left overs from Monday. <BR> <BR> I also drank most of my wate r- I think it was ... Wed, 17 Dec 2014 04:00:48 EST I'm sick of food - and it's not even christmas yet! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5833684 Saturday we had big takeaway <BR> <BR> Sunday we had buffet carvery - it was really good but i was given more meat that I normally eat in a week! I couldn't finish it. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was buffet day at work. I did pick but I didn't eat everything I could have eaten - I was still full from the day before. <BR> <BR> The hard thing was trying to ignore all the people who are on diets at work who were eating two, three, four plates of food and encouraging everyone to have another mince pie... Tue, 16 Dec 2014 02:33:41 EST A bit of a rant http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5832657 This isn't going to be a pretty blog. So feel free to skip over it if you want to. <BR> <BR> I'm fed up. I'm trying to do a bit everyday and I have the last few days apart from yesterday. <BR> <BR> But yesterday I had a day off work and I binged. Sweet treats and take away for dinner. But I splurged on the takeaway. I told myself it was a treat, and ordered more than I could eat. I left about half of the main meal I bought. <BR> <BR> I'm going out for a big meal with family tonight - it's ... Sun, 14 Dec 2014 03:10:58 EST Concentrate on How You Feel http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5831147 After reading through the articles here on Spark yesterday, I was already pensive about everything. I was thinking about goals that don't involve scales. <BR> <BR> I am a scale watcher - I 'officially' weigh myself once a week, but actually its almost every day as I watch it go up and down and down and up. I have a spreadsheet which the OH didn't know about that i have kept for at least 3 years with my weight on it (yeah I know I'm sad!) <BR> <BR> I get down when I have bad food or exercise... Thu, 11 Dec 2014 01:24:43 EST Mid week ramblings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5830637 Last night we did our Christmas shopping - all of it - on Amazon <BR> <BR> It makes things so simple. Don't get me wrong, the books that I have bought (it is a book Christmas!) I would have loved to buy from an actual bookshop, but I don't really have time and Amazon is cheaper. This way it all arrives here and its simple. <BR> <BR> Deciding what to give the OH has been harder - I have about half of what I want to give, but I'm stuck for the rest. Oh well inspiration will come I am sure. <B... Wed, 10 Dec 2014 04:23:35 EST Getting back to morning exercises http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5829422 I'm on track to being heavier at the end of the year than I was at the start of it. <BR> <BR> My relationship with food is not good at the moment, the stress and stuff is meaning that I am eating poorly. <BR> <BR> I was also a bit stunned that our mortgage advisor couldn't find me any life insurance due to my height, weight, BMI and dress size. <BR> <BR> I appear to have put 2 pounds on over the weekend! <BR> <BR> We've been walking regularly, but walking with the OH can't be construed a... Mon, 8 Dec 2014 02:07:23 EST The grumps are going http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5826734 I feel more positive today :) <BR> <BR> My knee feels a bit better - probably a result of taking ibuprofen yesterday to try and reduce whatever swelling I thought there was <BR> <BR> I'm tired but that's ok. <BR> <BR> The OH and I went for a walk through the park yesterday which was thoroughly enjoyable - in the dark evening with the crisp air and some silly dogs. <BR> <BR> we have realised we can't wait to move now - but we have to be patient! <BR> <BR> anyway onwards and upwards - toda... Wed, 3 Dec 2014 01:55:48 EST The Grumps http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5826155 I've been hit by the grumps <BR> <BR> All sorts of things are making me grumpy. <BR> <BR> My friends are organising a meet up and missed someone off thelist and when I askedthe organiser to add her she said she was uncomfortable doing that - no idea why - so i have added her myself <BR> <BR> I was good yesterday and barely snacked all day at work - a few small sweets and a tiny piece of flapjack. But went shopping last night and bought fancy food that I snacked on all night - probably why ... Tue, 2 Dec 2014 01:48:27 EST