PUDDLE13's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=PUDDLE13 PUDDLE13's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Getting back to it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6352646 I decided this morning I feel better enough to try running again. I decided to start the couch to 5k programme from week one. I wasn't sure if I was well enough and I don't want to get discouraged because it's working for me. <BR> <BR> The running portions were easier than the first time round. But I was still struggling by the end. There may have been the odd snot bubble but there was no one around. <BR> <BR> My foot is still a bit sore but that's ok too. <BR> <BR> I was just looking at ... Mon, 24 Apr 2017 02:15:51 EST Just one more lap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6350015 Today I decided to get moving after a week of feeling poorly. Don't get me wrong I still feel rubbish. My lungs and nose are full of gunge and I feel quite lacking in energy. <BR> <BR> But <BR> <BR> My sister said to me last week, 'don't let all your hard work with the c25k go to waste - don't lose the fitness you have built.' <BR> <BR> I've had no energy for the last week. Even doing a bit of gardening on Sunday was an effort. Also, knowing that I'm not going to make the end of C25K befor... Tue, 18 Apr 2017 03:35:23 EST This week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6349119 This week I haven't done much. I had to park C25K because of my cold - it's getting better slowly but I'm still coughing and spluttering. Work has been super busy and I've been doing overtime as well to help out. So all in all I'm a bit run down <BR> <BR> It's means I may not reach the end of c25k by my trip but ho hum. <BR> <BR> I've not had much energy so all my plans for this holiday weekend have gone awry but ho hum. <BR> <BR> I've not been eating all that well but...my frozen meals ha... Sun, 16 Apr 2017 03:45:25 EST Poorly Sick http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6346105 I seem to have caught a bad cold and I feel pretty lousy. Tomorrow was supposed to be a running day but it's not going to be. Just getting to work on time is the main challenge! <BR> <BR> I'm achy and full of mucus. My skin is over sensitive and my throat is sore. My voice is lower and my brain is slow. <BR> <BR> So no running tomorrow. We'll see how I feel on Tuesday. <BR> <BR> For now my main challenge is trying to remember to stay hydrated and work out why my teeth are aching! <BR> <BR... Sun, 9 Apr 2017 16:55:28 EST Couch to 5Km - week 4 done - woohoo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6345403 Well today I finished week 4 of couch to 5 k. It has probably been the hardest run so far. <BR> <BR> I had a Men ACWY vaccine yesterday and a cracker of a headache last night. I drank some water and got on with my cooking. <BR> <BR> This morning I woke up early with a sore throat and general achey-ness. I still decided to go. The first three runs were ok - the last 5 minutes was really hard but I jogged my way right to the end and I feel really good for it. <BR> <BR> I would never have th... Sat, 8 Apr 2017 03:14:07 EST Batch Cooking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6345246 I've gotten out of the habit of batch cooking recently. Last week I struggled to know what to eat because I couldn't be bothered to cook. <BR> <BR> I had a tonne of vegetables that went off in the fridge. <BR> <BR> So today I went shopping. I bought chicken, vegetables, tinned tomatoes and kidney beans. <BR> <BR> I've made a large pan of beef chilli, a chicken, chickpea, spinach and potato curry, spanish chicken (although I forgot the chorizo) and a green thai curry. <BR> <BR> I've portio... Fri, 7 Apr 2017 18:44:00 EST C 25K Week 4 Run 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6344479 I didn't want to get going this morning - I was feeling lethargic and slow after the last few day. I got out of the house for 6.45 which was late for me. <BR> <BR> I did the warm up walk and felt a little dizzy but I kept going. Somewhere in the first 3 minute run things eased a bit. I said hello to the lady on the bike. In the first 5 minute run I ran three quarters of the way round the path. I finished the last 5 minute run and the lady on the bike went by again and told me I was on the do... Thu, 6 Apr 2017 03:08:05 EST Mid Week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6344254 Thankyou for all your comments on my last blog. I've been trying to just accept that work is busy and not let things stress me out too much. <BR> <BR> My customers the last two days have been much nicer which helps. Yesterday I blew my calorie count again but that's ok. <BR> <BR> Today I have 167 left and I haven't had dinner so I have decided to try and keep to under 2000 which is better than it will have been over the last two days. <BR> <BR> It means i have about 500 calories to play wi... Wed, 5 Apr 2017 15:05:14 EST Stressful Days and Poor Food choices http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6343472 We've hit the horrendously busy patch at work. All the forecasting that is done to predict call volumes didn't predict the level we have got. <BR> <BR> It's not going to get any better for the next few days. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was awful. I had customers make complaints about me when I had tried to help them and I didn't move out of my seat apart from lunch time and just took call after call after call. <BR> <BR> Lunch time I was so stressed I made poor choices. A sandwich, a pork pie and... Tue, 4 Apr 2017 02:33:09 EST Three Weeks in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6342038 So I've completed three weeks of the couch to 5K programme - and I can officially run for three minutes at a time and 9 minutes overall. Next week it steps up to 5 minutes of running which should be interesting. <BR> <BR> I'm really enjoying this programme and the NHS podcasts are great - I don't have to think about anything other than getting out of the door. It tells me what to do :) <BR> I'm running the path round the community centre. It's not long and at the moment I think I'm complet... Sat, 1 Apr 2017 03:14:10 EST You Go Girl! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6341077 So I've just completed Week 3 run 2 of C25k. You remember how last Saturday a lady said to me ''well you are doing better than these people still in bed, good for you' and it made me happy? <BR> <BR> Last night I went to bed way too late. I had 7 of 8 cookies in a packet (I should never have bought them) after a very long and stressful day at work. It's the end of the tax year so work is manic. It's time of the month so my energy levels are all over the place. Yesterday's strength training h... Thu, 30 Mar 2017 03:02:45 EST What I'm capable of http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6338633 When I first started trying to lose weight about 4 or 5 years ago, I didn't think I could exercise. I was overweight, unfit and worried I would damage my knees. I did a 10 minute exercise video and I was out of breath. <BR> <BR> Over the years since then, my weight has increased. I'm heavier now than I was then. But I'm fitter. I'm stronger and I have a different mindset. <BR> <BR> Through Spark and the Jessica Smith videos I have learned that I am capable of anything. I just have to adapt... Sat, 25 Mar 2017 04:38:19 EST Couch to 5K - Week two run 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6338630 So I finished the second week. A day late and after takeaway last night. But I finished it. And I was further round my last lap when I did which means I am travelling further. <BR> <BR> So what have I learned so far: <BR> <BR> Being 287lbs hasn't stopped me. My knees being sore hasn't stopped me. My calf muscles being tight hasn't stopped me. Getting out early when I am working lates makes me very tired and meant I had to skip a day. But that's ok. <BR> <BR> People haven't commented at al... Sat, 25 Mar 2017 04:02:04 EST Oops I did it again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6337651 The last couple of days have been lost food wise - I've eaten rubbish and more rubbish. Yesterday I didn't set my alarm because I was so tired the night before and I slept in till 9am. So no run or time for one. I haven't tracked food. I haven't drank enough water. Just one of those blips. I also managed to scrape the side of the car down something and damage one of the panels. Ho hum. <BR> <BR> Today I did week 2 run 2 of C25K. I got up early - although not as early as last week and was out... Thu, 23 Mar 2017 03:35:09 EST Cravings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6335957 Today at work I was tired. I had gotten up early to run. eaten my breakfast early and then went to work a late shift at work. <BR> <BR> I've been craving chocolate all afternoon. I ignored it. I turned down cake, chocolate and all other treats. <BR> <BR> I drank my water. <BR> <BR> I went into the supermarket after work and ended up buying sausages, a pasta sauce and a pork pie among other things. <BR> <BR> Yes I'm over mu calorie count today but not hugely. I split what I made for dinner... Mon, 20 Mar 2017 18:11:00 EST C25K Week 2 Run 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6335572 So today was 5 minute warm up walk, 90 seconds of running followed by 2 minutes of walking 6 times. <BR> <BR> The running segments weren't too bad although I jarred my knee at one point. The initial warm up brisk walk, I think I started too briskly so I was huffing an puffing on the incline,so I slowed down slightly. <BR> <BR> After St Patricks day when I had a few drinks, and a big meal, and Saturday night when I cooked mexican, and last night when I had ribs at my parents plus two pints o... Mon, 20 Mar 2017 03:44:39 EST Food for thought - or thoughts on food. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6335387 Something has happened over the last eight months - and it's pretty awesome. <BR> <BR> I used to eat a lot of processed food - especially before my ex left - he likes pizza and other things and I used to buy them just because he was. We didn't have a lot of money and I felt bad buying food that I wouldn't cook - I've always been a bit of reluctant cook. <BR> <BR> I used to buy sandwiches from the supermarket - meal deals were fatal - or chicken thighs and bread, or mcdonalds. <BR> <BR> On ... Sun, 19 Mar 2017 18:22:43 EST Woo Hoo! Week 1 run 3 of C25K DONE! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6334146 So this morning I got up and did my third run of the week. <BR> <BR> I thought I was moving slower than earlier in the week but ended up in pretty much the same place so maybe I wasn't. <BR> <BR> This morning I was still tired from yesterday but I got up and did it. <BR> <BR> I've noticed something that has changed in my head. I realised that I REALLY want to do this. And so the tuck shop, and the stress, and the chocolate aren't needed. I need to watch what I'm eating because I've dropped... Fri, 17 Mar 2017 02:56:58 EST Rest Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6333949 I missed this morning's workout. I went to bed really late last night and then woke up three times in the night.So when my alarm went off I was very tired. <BR> <BR> That said. I feel better today than I did on Tuesday. I made sure I stretched properly after yesterday's run and when I got to work and was sat in my chair, I perched my feet on my heels and tap tap tapped them quietly for ages to stretch my calves and my shins. <BR> <BR> The plan was to exercise tonight when I got home, but I'... Thu, 16 Mar 2017 16:20:58 EST C25K - Week one Run 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6333195 Today I did my second C25K run. <BR> <BR> In some ways it was easier that w1r1, in some ways it was harder. <BR> <BR> I was earlier but there were more people around and I felt self conscious. But then something shifted in my head and I didn't care that they were there. <BR> <BR> I looked them in the eye and smiled and breathed good morning at them. And they all returned the smile and the greeting. <BR> <BR> I realised that I am doing my best. Yes I'm a sweaty mess. Yes I'm breathing hard... Wed, 15 Mar 2017 02:55:25 EST I did it - First run of Couch to 5k http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6332137 I did it. I've been thinking about starting this towards the end of last week and the start of this. I've never been a runner. But it's supposed to be a good programme. <BR> <BR> I wanted some new workout clothes but couldn't find any I liked so I doubled up my bras to stop me knocking myself out, put on what I laid out last night. Downloaded the podcast to my mp3 player. <BR> <BR> I got everything ready last night - I texted my best friend and said I was contemplating it and her response..... Mon, 13 Mar 2017 03:08:10 EST The importance of reading to the end http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6331933 I decided this weekend to try 'Overnight Oats'. I have made something similar before without realising, when I prepared porridge the night before and nuked it in the morning. But I saw a jar someone took to work and thought it looked pretty good. <BR> <BR> I did a bit of googling for the recipe and came up with one that was oats, yoghurt, seeds, apple and banana and frozen berries. <BR> <BR> I skimmed the instructions and made it up. Yesterday morning I struggled to eat the huge bowl full ... Sun, 12 Mar 2017 16:57:42 EST Contemplation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6330645 I've been doing a lot of thinking. About me, about what I want, about who I am and where I want to go. <BR> <BR> This week things have slipped - I've eaten a lot of biscuits and chocolate. The stress has gotten the better of me and I don't like it. I weighed myself this morning and I am just under 21st. 20 st13 to be precise. My stomach was bad all day yesterday which was another prod. <BR> <BR> I promised myself when I first managed to get under 21st that I wouldn't go back. And I won't. <... Fri, 10 Mar 2017 05:56:24 EST Getting moving (again) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6328476 I weighed myself this morning as part of getting moving again. 20st 11.2 It could be a whole lot worse. It could be a whole lot better, It's still under 21stone which is good. I don't want to go there again. <BR> <BR> So I am officially getting moving after a week of poor food choices, poor exercise choices (or no exercise choice) and being stressy. <BR> <BR> This week will be better. My soup for the week is made and in the fridge. I am going to try and eat some of the meat in the freezer. ... Mon, 6 Mar 2017 01:50:38 EST Head or Heart http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6324387 I've been thinking a lot about the difference between head decisions and heart decisions. Some people are all head decisions - rationale, analytical, sensible. Some people are all heart decisions - emotional, reactionary and empathetic. <BR> <BR> I'm coming to realise we all use both to make decisions. Heads analyse and hearts emote. The two together are how we form meaningful decisions. <BR> <BR> Take last week - last week was a head week - I was organised, routined, and did everything I p... Fri, 3 Mar 2017 02:08:55 EST The importance of Sleep http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6322080 So last night, despite knowing I had to be up at 6, I didn't got to bed till 11.25. Then it took me ages to get to sleep because I am cold. <BR> <BR> This morning I snoozed my alarm once, then got up. Played with the cat for 5 mins and then slowly got up, found my clothes, came downstairs etc. <BR> <BR> But it's now 6.35 and I'm sitting here thinking I need to do my work out and I'm tired. I have to go to work, and I'm tired. <BR> <BR> These are the days I don't exercise much, I struggle a... Mon, 27 Feb 2017 01:38:00 EST Move it or Lose it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6321166 So today's workout according to the plug and play list I'm using is Yoga/Pilates inspired. <BR> <BR> So I picked a 20 minute Cardio Yoga video from the list and gave it a go. <BR> <BR> I gave it my best shot. It made me warm and sweaty. <BR> <BR> But I'm not very good at transitioning between some of the moves. For example - Plank to 'Downward Facing Dog' for example. In all honestly - plank to anything. I'm not very flexible or strong so I can't push myself back. And my belly gets in th... Sat, 25 Feb 2017 03:55:55 EST 5 days of exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6320677 Well today makes five days of consistently exercising at least 10 mins a day. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I did my exercise video - but didn't go for a walk at lunch time - far too windy. So I convinced my ex (he didn't need much convincing) to go for a walk after I finished work in the evening. ( I don't like going on my own in the dark but whilst he's staying with me we might as well go). <BR> <BR> 25 minutes round the local estate in the cold and dark did us both good. <BR> <BR> Today was stre... Fri, 24 Feb 2017 04:02:28 EST Chicken Dilemmas and Organisation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6320160 I have a chicken dilemma. Well it's not really a dilemma - more of a problem. <BR> <BR> I bought a rotisserie chicken. I don't buy them very often. Because they are soo very tasty, I pick, and pick and pick. It's a weird thing to have no self control over. They last me a two or three days generally. <BR> <BR> It could be something far worse, I know that. But still....self control is what I am working on. <BR> <BR> Do you have any foods that you just eat and eat? <BR> <BR> I'm trying to be... Thu, 23 Feb 2017 03:59:29 EST Nutritional Values http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6319157 Last night I went out for dinner at short notice with family. <BR> <BR> We had a lovely evening catching up and having a laugh. <BR> <BR> I ordered what I fancied off the menu. <BR> <BR> This morning I came to track yesterdays food - as we went to a chain pub for dinner I thought i'd google to see if I could find their nutritional values. And I found them :) <BR> <BR> The meal itself turned out to be more than all my daily calorie allowances but that's ok. I had eaten lightly in the day. ... Tue, 21 Feb 2017 03:14:10 EST Fat Girl Mentality http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6318626 Now I don't mean the title to be offensive. But I've noticed something about myself that I am describing as the 'fat girl mentality'. It's something I have been thinking on a lot over the last few days. <BR> <BR> I was never confident. Not in the way a lot of people are. I'm sure of who I am. But I struggle to make decisions. I second guess myself a lot. I doubt my own ability. <BR> <BR> I had a meeting with my manager where she said she wants to help me be more confident at work. To be sur... Mon, 20 Feb 2017 04:34:57 EST Get Moving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6318179 I went to see my best friend yesterday. <BR> <BR> She is a wonderful person who is so full of life and enthusiasm. She has her insecurities same as I have mine and that's ok. She hasn't judged the situation I find myself in with my ex, she just listens, same as I listen to her about the things she is struggling with. <BR> <BR> She is an osteopath, and was telling me how she loves when her patients come to understand the importance of getting moving, and keeping moving. She is about to begin... Sun, 19 Feb 2017 04:41:01 EST Tuck Shop Tribulations http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6316511 The last couple of days haven't been great foodwise. Finishing a big project at work coupled with a charity day meant yesterday I had entirely too much cake and not enough actual food during the day. I've gone to bed too late and not drank enough water. It all affects my mood and my food eating. <BR> <BR> Today I started to remedy that and get back to my normal work. I went to the tuckshop today for the first time in a while. Purse in hand I looked at the chocolate (not much) and the crisps.... Wed, 15 Feb 2017 12:40:05 EST Sunday Dinner http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6315211 I go to my parents for dinner on Sunday. <BR> <BR> They tend to make big meals, and I always seem to end up over full, even when I try to restrict what I have. <BR> <BR> As much as they also have home cooked meals, there always seems to be something fried. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was Sesame Toast, home made Paella and Apple Crumble. <BR> <BR> I had plenty of paella and only one portion of Apple Crumble. I couldn't avoid the fried sesame toast as mum plated it up as a starter. I stayed under 2... Mon, 13 Feb 2017 01:50:15 EST Let's Move http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6314261 I woke up this morning with the urge to exercise. I've had two quite sedentary days and this morning I could feel it. <BR> <BR> I've been thinking about restarting my exercises over the last week or so. I'm trying not to do too much at once - food tracking, water drinking, exercise. But I have a seven day work week ahead of me and it's always an ideal time to get started. <BR> <BR> I know that food intake, water drinking and exercise go hand in hand, but the food is the bigger problem at th... Sat, 11 Feb 2017 03:02:43 EST Food tracking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6313874 Food tracking is making me much more conscious of what I am eating. I'm not snacking as much because I want to hit my targets. <BR> <BR> So far after 7 days, I was over 2000 calories on three days, and under 2000 on 4 days. On two days I was in the 'green zone' on my reports - so below 1750 (ish) <BR> <BR> I won't lie. I'm hungry quite a lot. But I'm trying to drink more to balance out the hunger. Blackcurrant Squash (cordial) mainly, because I can mix hot and cold water and get a warm drin... Fri, 10 Feb 2017 09:34:49 EST Swings and roundabouts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6312381 Yesterday I went to Nando's for a work meal. It meant I was well over the calorie counters at the end of the day - 500 calories over 2000, and 700 over my max limit for the day. <BR> <BR> Today I took a tin of soup to work, and had a ready meal tonight and I'm currently sitting just over 1000 calories for the day. <BR> <BR> I bought some frozen berries so I will have some of those in a bit, and I have hot cross buns so I may have one of those - i do love a hot cross bun :) <BR> <BR> I have... Tue, 7 Feb 2017 14:37:06 EST Cooking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6311005 I'm trying to cook more - I like easy recipes that don't have too many ingredients or fussiness. <BR> <BR> Hairy Bikers Spanish Chicken is very good in that regard. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I decided to use up some of the veggies in the house. I had an aubergine, a sweet potato, a red pepper, onions (always onions) and so I hit google. I came up with an aubergine and sweet potato bake which also included a tin of tomatoes and a tin of chick peas, tumeric, cumin, coriander, tabasco, and garlic. <... Sun, 5 Feb 2017 02:50:29 EST Honesty http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6310504 Yesterday I didn't go to the tuck shop :) That's three days in a row. <BR> <BR> I bought a sandwich for lunch - not the usual 450 calorie Chicken Salad Baguette but a 350 calorie Chicken salad sandwich - apparently the lack on lemony mayo makes all the difference :) <BR> <BR> I did however, buy three truffle eggs at the supermarket which I ate over the course of the afternoon. <BR> <BR> I had bacon sandwiches and heinz soup (although it was tomato and for the first time in ages - too sweet... Sat, 4 Feb 2017 04:08:57 EST Stress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6309749 Stress does funny things to us all. Some people thrive on it, some poeple don't. Some people buy shoes, some people buy chocolate. <BR> <BR> Today was a stressful day. Work was very busy and I was flapping mightily. I have too much to do and no time and it's getting to me. <BR> <BR> I looked at the tuck shop. I heard it's call and I ignored it. I got a cup of tea. I had a banana, and later a plum. <BR> <BR> Tonight I went out for dinner with a friend. She's very self absorbed and spent al... Thu, 2 Feb 2017 16:07:38 EST Calorie Deficit Musings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6309114 I read a blog on Spark the other day talking about Calorie Deficits, and I had never considered it that way - cutting down - yes, reducing - yes, eating less - yes. But never as a deficit. And it struck a chord with me, like a light bulb moment. Where my brain went - yes I get it. Finally I get it :) <BR> <BR> So I'm trying to make a deficit. I need to start tracking my food again, but to be honest, its all a bit of a challenge at the moment. I'm still barely drinking any water. <BR> <BR> B... Wed, 1 Feb 2017 13:53:33 EST Thinking about the new year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6304191 January is always a difficult time. There are two birthdays, one at the start of the month, and one at the end, which means any thoughts of good food etc don't really get started. On top of that this year, my ex is currently staying with me. And some of the bad habits I had around him have been creeping back in. He's also doing the housework as a way to thank me for him staying with me but it's what had got me moving. <BR> <BR> In addition there has been a series of dramas, worries, stresses... Tue, 24 Jan 2017 03:46:33 EST What's your favourite soup? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6302933 I'm trying my hand at soup making again. <BR> <BR> I used to make vegetable soup regularly, using beef or chicken stock cubes. I always blended it in the saucepan. Eventually my soup always tasted slightly odd and one day I couldn't eat it anymore. I didn't make soup for years. I've been buying tinned soup for a while for lunch, but would love to get to a place where I can take home made. <BR> <BR> My mum is the queen of soup making. It doesn't matter what she puts in soup it's always amazi... Sun, 22 Jan 2017 07:28:57 EST It's Mental http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6301971 I was going to write about this week tonight, or tell you how awesome my best friend actually is. How she took everything in her stride and told me how there is nothing to worry about. But something came up that overrides this. <BR> <BR> The day before yesterday I left work and found a text message from a friend (not the above best friend) that had been sent about an hour earlier. <BR> <BR> In it she explained how she was feeling, and that she was sorry and that she wasn't strong enough and... Fri, 20 Jan 2017 13:35:54 EST A difficult conversation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6299457 I arranged with my best friend that we would chat this week. I hadn't told her that my ex was back and staying with me. <BR> <BR> It didn't seem like a conversation for text message and with christmas and various other goings on we haven't caught up much. <BR> <BR> She rang me tonight and unusually he answered the phone. I think he thought it was me due to the time and because I was still out. <BR> <BR> She sent me a puzzled text and I explained that I had said we had a lot to talk about.... Mon, 16 Jan 2017 19:01:13 EST Soups in the cold http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6297748 Earlier in the week I bought a butternut squash soup kit. And a pack of prepared Mediterranean veg that just needed throwing into the oven. <BR> <BR> Last night I finally got round to cooking it all. <BR> <BR> The soup came out wonderfully - I've discovered that buying 'soup packs' - prepared veg that I stick in a pan with a vegetable stock cube makes much nicer soup than when I prepare the veg myself. I don't know if the difference is the vegetable stock, as I always used to use chicken bu... Sat, 14 Jan 2017 02:35:30 EST January So Far http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6293733 Well, being totally honest, January hasn't gone all that well so far. I had the first week of the year off on holiday, which has resulted in a lack of routine, random food, chocolate and not enough to drink <BR> <BR> I know I am a creature of habit. So I am looking forward to getting back to work tomorrow and the routine it brings. Three meals a day. Colleagues nagging me to drink more. I'm going to try and walk part of my journey to work - I just have to be up and out early enough :) <BR> ... Sun, 8 Jan 2017 09:43:26 EST Rebuilding http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6289222 Up until August I was doing really well at tracking food, and gradually reducing what I ate. <BR> <BR> After my ex left, I stopped tracking. I started eating better because I had more money, and dropped 11 pounds. The combination of better food and house cleaning helped. <BR> <BR> Over Christmas I stopped worrying. Too many buffets, Too much Chocolate. Not enough Water and Vegetables. And I put all but 2 pounds back on. I'm bang on 21stone again. But not over. I don't like how it feels. <BR... Mon, 2 Jan 2017 04:35:20 EST Where we are http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6284766 Well it's been a weird couple of weeks. My ex is back in the UK and currently staying with me as he had nowhere else to go. He's looking at his options at the moment. <BR> <BR> My family are unsurprisingly concerned and I have to keep reassuring them that things are ok. And they are. <BR> <BR> What this experience has showed me is that I don't want to get back together. We had our good times and our happy times, but I have been much happier in the last few months without the pressures and w... Sat, 24 Dec 2016 06:11:39 EST Scales of Doom http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6281576 I weighed myself today. I tend to do it three times, and take an average but today's weighing showed why we shouldn't be ruled by the scales alone. <BR> <BR> First weigh in: 20.2.4 <BR> Second weigh in: 20.6.4 <BR> Third weigh in: 20.5.4 <BR> <BR> All within 5 minutes of each other. <BR> <BR> If it was 20.2.4 that's my lowest in about a year and a half - and might mean maybe I get under 20 by the end of the year. <BR> <BR> I think the 20.5.4 is probably the most accurate - it's between t... Fri, 16 Dec 2016 06:51:12 EST