PUDDLE13's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=PUDDLE13 PUDDLE13's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Will power and commitment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6402590 I've just read a really interesting article about will power and commitment. <BR> <BR> It talks about why will power doesn't work and why being committed to a course of action means will power doesn't come into it. <BR> <BR> It said that having to use will power means there's still an internal conflict - the example it gave was you want a cookie but you know you shouldn't because its bad for you but you STILL WANT THE COOKIE. Willpower kicks in and you say no. It means you are still conflic... Tue, 22 Aug 2017 02:44:12 EST In the interests of motivation... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6402036 I have just signed up with my sister to a 5K walk/dance/run thing in October. I've never ever done any sort of run thing so its both exciting and scary <BR> <BR> Having a goal or something to aim for is always good for me. I know I'm fit enough to walk it at the moment but if I want to jog it I have to finish couch to 5 k. <BR> <BR> AND <BR> <BR> I have to get consistent - with the exercise, with the eating, with it all. <BR> <BR> Plus my nephew is coming and I so don't want to let him d... Sun, 20 Aug 2017 16:58:40 EST The hardest run yet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6401533 So this morning's couch to 5 k was the hardest one yet. It was the first of week 3. I did the last of week 2 last monday and then didn't get going this week on week 3. Tiredness. Rain. General excusiness got in the way. <BR> <BR> I've eaten rubbish and my feet ankles and legs have swollen up this week. Yesterday I had to walk back from somewhere fast and my legs were sore. <BR> <BR> So this morning's run was hard. Strangely my calves were more painful on the walking segments. I didn't trave... Sat, 19 Aug 2017 04:27:06 EST What I've learned this week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6398509 1. I I stop procrastinating I could rule the world - I am a champion procrastinator and it's not a good thing. I complain about not having enough time but when I stop thinking and start doing I get stuff done. Additionally putting things off can make stuff worse not better. <BR> <BR> 2. If I plan my whole day's food in the morning I am getting closer to my calorie range - knowing at the start of the day what the calories for my meals are means that if I want to snack outside of it I know wha... Fri, 11 Aug 2017 03:17:29 EST The sun is shining and the weather is sweet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6398127 Yesterday was supposed to be a running day but it rained...all day. <BR> <BR> This morning I woke up and the sky was blue and the sun was shining. But I couldn't get going. <BR> <BR> Finally at 7.15 I pulled myself out of bed. I was thinking it was a bit late to go round my usual path - (if I'm very early in the morning this path is best as you can see who's around) but by 7.15 it has commuters. <BR> <BR> So I decided to go round the lake. Which was lovely. Green. Fresh. Ducks and Geese. ... Thu, 10 Aug 2017 03:41:36 EST Overeating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6397722 Overthe last couple of weeks, I have cut down on my snacks at work - no more tuck shop! Just yesterday I had a hot cup of tea instead of buying a biscuit. <BR> <BR> However, I seem to have gotten into a cycle of over eating - portions that are huge, eating till full. I'm 5 pounds up on where I am. I can feel the difference in my face. <BR> <BR> I've tracked my meals over the last couple of days and Monday I was about 400 calories over 1700, and yesterday it was a whopping 1100 calories over... Wed, 9 Aug 2017 01:59:07 EST I have a question http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6396904 I have a question that I struggle to find the answer to. I'm thinking about food portions and what constitutes a food portion and serving sizes. <BR> <BR> I'm trying to balance it all and stop over eating. <BR> <BR> I know that 80g constitutes a serving of veg <BR> <BR> But i'm struggling with things like meat and potatoes and fish . I work on about 100g of each being a portion but i'm not sure this is right. <BR> <BR> I know the eatwell plate and such explains it in terms of how much eac... Mon, 7 Aug 2017 03:21:32 EST Dealing with stress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6395381 I'm not very good at dealing with stress. Last week I ended up dizzy. I comfort eat when I am stressed as well. I end up sad and slow and not moving. <BR> <BR> Yesterday having been for my run I went to work. It was a stressful day where something happened that I am very cross about. I'm partly to blame and I accept that because I missed something but essentially someone did a shoddy job of something and I can only go off what they give me. When I challenged them, they told me they didn't ha... Thu, 3 Aug 2017 02:06:02 EST Getting Cross http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6394928 Last night I played games on the computer. When I stood up I realised my ankles and feet had swollen up - again. Since I came back from my big holiday it keeps happening. I walked around a bit and then raised them up to try and reduce it. <BR> <BR> As I sat there with my feet up, I got cross. At Myself. For letting this happen. For letting stress get the better me. And laziness. For succumbing to the idea I need something to tell me how inactive I have been (i've been toying with the idea of... Wed, 2 Aug 2017 02:19:40 EST Rethink Reboot http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6392947 Hello There Sparky People <BR> <BR> It's been a while. Since my holiday I have struggled to get back on track. Eating the wrong foods. Not doing any exercise. Until last weekend I felt rubbish. I had been out drinking and dancing with my sister the weekend before and whilst we had a great night, I was stiff and sore (still have a little pain now) and my kidneys were aching. So I made a decision. Small steps to get back on track. <BR> <BR> Starting with eating better. <BR> <BR> So this wee... Fri, 28 Jul 2017 01:55:43 EST Having a clear out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6381468 Yesterday I opened my wardrobe. I had two shelves, a chest, a box and a couple of bags full of old clothes. <BR> <BR> Clothes that I loved <BR> <BR> Clothes that don't fit me and haven't fit me in 18 years. <BR> <BR> Clothes I didn't get rid of because I've always said 'i'll fit back in them one day'. <BR> <BR> I had no space. Everything smelt musty. <BR> <BR> Yesterday in a fit of organising, I decided to sort. One pile for the charity shop and one pile for the tip. Anything I hadn't wo... Fri, 30 Jun 2017 03:06:31 EST Refinding my way http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6380873 Since my holidays and the busy time at work I have been struggling to find my way back to a healthyish diet and exercise. <BR> <BR> I seem to be wanting to eat everything. I'm trying to drink more water again as a start but it'a not gone all that well. <BR> <BR> I guess its back to basics. Food tracking and water drinking. Small steps. <BR> <BR> One a plus note I haven't put any weight back on recently so maybe things aren't as bad as I think :) Wed, 28 Jun 2017 14:37:09 EST Back and refreshed :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6370553 Hello!! <BR> <BR> I'm back from my big holiday feeling relaxed and refreshed and contemplating the washing mountain - no procrastinating - the second load is on :) <BR> <BR> The holiday was wonderful - we ate lots but it was all salad and meat, we drank silly cocktails (too much fruit juice upset my belly but that's ok), we saw some wonderful things and met some wonderful people. <BR> <BR> I was given a lot of positive comments and attention which surprised me and also boosted my confidenc... Sun, 4 Jun 2017 02:31:45 EST Grrr - So cross with myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6359995 So I lay in bed this morning, I'm tired, my back is stiff, I keep getting pain in my lower back again. I restarted Couch to 5 K last week and only did two days. I walked all round a town on Friday with my best friend and ended up with horrific back pain at at the end of the day. <BR> I've made poor food choices ( and yes they were choices). I'm unlikely to make 280 pounds by my holiday which starts next Friday. <BR> <BR> So I lay in bed this morning and I got cross with myself. I'm annoyed b... Wed, 10 May 2017 01:29:03 EST A conscious choice http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6357223 I've had a long day shopping for my trip. <BR> <BR> We walked alot and talked alot and I tried on and bought alot of clothes. <BR> <BR> Alas, not in the smaller sizes I had hoped for but that's ok. <BR> <BR> Lunch was pizza and salad - 600 calories and I had tea and a cake at Costa rather than a hot chocolate. <BR> <BR> Dinner....now dinner....I got home late and so was thinking on the way home I would get KFC but then I thought no... <BR> <BR> So dinner was baby baked potatoes, roasted... Wed, 3 May 2017 15:48:28 EST Just do it - take 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6356463 Last week I tried to get back to it. I did the first day of couch to 5 k. I started thinking about what I was eating. But I still felt weak and poorly. Work was still busy. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I went into work - it was a bank holiday but they offered me triple time. I did my job for the first time in weeks with no distractions etc. <BR> <BR> I had a late night and I woke up at 6 tired and sleepy. I stayed in bed till 7 but then it's bin day - so I had to get up to put the bin out. I got dre... Tue, 2 May 2017 04:03:16 EST Whatever I do, it's my choice http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6354378 I've been pondering choice. <BR> <BR> The doctor said to my ex that everything is a choice - it might be unconscious, like breathing, or conscious like what to have for breakfast but everything is a choice - a moment of thought, a spark where you choose in that instant what to do. Whether to scratch that itch, or take that road, or say those words. <BR> <BR> It didn't really help my ex because he understands this but doesn't really know how to apply it and the doctor didn't help him there.... Thu, 27 Apr 2017 14:56:25 EST I have a stress problem http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6353916 My mum and I were talking today - my dad is away for a few days and my mum has realised just how much he lives on stress and it affects her. <BR> <BR> And it got me to thinking. I was doing really well with the running and the eating and the drinking. Then work got busy. And I got a cold. and two and a half weeks down the line I'm 3 pounds up, and still have a cough. I'm wound up and stiff and tired all the time. I'm dehydrated and I have been late to work twice this week. <BR> <BR> When I'... Wed, 26 Apr 2017 16:07:28 EST Getting back to it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6352646 I decided this morning I feel better enough to try running again. I decided to start the couch to 5k programme from week one. I wasn't sure if I was well enough and I don't want to get discouraged because it's working for me. <BR> <BR> The running portions were easier than the first time round. But I was still struggling by the end. There may have been the odd snot bubble but there was no one around. <BR> <BR> My foot is still a bit sore but that's ok too. <BR> <BR> I was just looking at ... Mon, 24 Apr 2017 02:15:51 EST Just one more lap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6350015 Today I decided to get moving after a week of feeling poorly. Don't get me wrong I still feel rubbish. My lungs and nose are full of gunge and I feel quite lacking in energy. <BR> <BR> But <BR> <BR> My sister said to me last week, 'don't let all your hard work with the c25k go to waste - don't lose the fitness you have built.' <BR> <BR> I've had no energy for the last week. Even doing a bit of gardening on Sunday was an effort. Also, knowing that I'm not going to make the end of C25K befor... Tue, 18 Apr 2017 03:35:23 EST This week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6349119 This week I haven't done much. I had to park C25K because of my cold - it's getting better slowly but I'm still coughing and spluttering. Work has been super busy and I've been doing overtime as well to help out. So all in all I'm a bit run down <BR> <BR> It's means I may not reach the end of c25k by my trip but ho hum. <BR> <BR> I've not had much energy so all my plans for this holiday weekend have gone awry but ho hum. <BR> <BR> I've not been eating all that well but...my frozen meals ha... Sun, 16 Apr 2017 03:45:25 EST Poorly Sick http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6346105 I seem to have caught a bad cold and I feel pretty lousy. Tomorrow was supposed to be a running day but it's not going to be. Just getting to work on time is the main challenge! <BR> <BR> I'm achy and full of mucus. My skin is over sensitive and my throat is sore. My voice is lower and my brain is slow. <BR> <BR> So no running tomorrow. We'll see how I feel on Tuesday. <BR> <BR> For now my main challenge is trying to remember to stay hydrated and work out why my teeth are aching! <BR> <BR... Sun, 9 Apr 2017 16:55:28 EST Couch to 5Km - week 4 done - woohoo http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6345403 Well today I finished week 4 of couch to 5 k. It has probably been the hardest run so far. <BR> <BR> I had a Men ACWY vaccine yesterday and a cracker of a headache last night. I drank some water and got on with my cooking. <BR> <BR> This morning I woke up early with a sore throat and general achey-ness. I still decided to go. The first three runs were ok - the last 5 minutes was really hard but I jogged my way right to the end and I feel really good for it. <BR> <BR> I would never have th... Sat, 8 Apr 2017 03:14:07 EST Batch Cooking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6345246 I've gotten out of the habit of batch cooking recently. Last week I struggled to know what to eat because I couldn't be bothered to cook. <BR> <BR> I had a tonne of vegetables that went off in the fridge. <BR> <BR> So today I went shopping. I bought chicken, vegetables, tinned tomatoes and kidney beans. <BR> <BR> I've made a large pan of beef chilli, a chicken, chickpea, spinach and potato curry, spanish chicken (although I forgot the chorizo) and a green thai curry. <BR> <BR> I've portio... Fri, 7 Apr 2017 18:44:00 EST C 25K Week 4 Run 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6344479 I didn't want to get going this morning - I was feeling lethargic and slow after the last few day. I got out of the house for 6.45 which was late for me. <BR> <BR> I did the warm up walk and felt a little dizzy but I kept going. Somewhere in the first 3 minute run things eased a bit. I said hello to the lady on the bike. In the first 5 minute run I ran three quarters of the way round the path. I finished the last 5 minute run and the lady on the bike went by again and told me I was on the do... Thu, 6 Apr 2017 03:08:05 EST Mid Week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6344254 Thankyou for all your comments on my last blog. I've been trying to just accept that work is busy and not let things stress me out too much. <BR> <BR> My customers the last two days have been much nicer which helps. Yesterday I blew my calorie count again but that's ok. <BR> <BR> Today I have 167 left and I haven't had dinner so I have decided to try and keep to under 2000 which is better than it will have been over the last two days. <BR> <BR> It means i have about 500 calories to play wi... Wed, 5 Apr 2017 15:05:14 EST Stressful Days and Poor Food choices http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6343472 We've hit the horrendously busy patch at work. All the forecasting that is done to predict call volumes didn't predict the level we have got. <BR> <BR> It's not going to get any better for the next few days. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was awful. I had customers make complaints about me when I had tried to help them and I didn't move out of my seat apart from lunch time and just took call after call after call. <BR> <BR> Lunch time I was so stressed I made poor choices. A sandwich, a pork pie and... Tue, 4 Apr 2017 02:33:09 EST Three Weeks in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6342038 So I've completed three weeks of the couch to 5K programme - and I can officially run for three minutes at a time and 9 minutes overall. Next week it steps up to 5 minutes of running which should be interesting. <BR> <BR> I'm really enjoying this programme and the NHS podcasts are great - I don't have to think about anything other than getting out of the door. It tells me what to do :) <BR> I'm running the path round the community centre. It's not long and at the moment I think I'm complet... Sat, 1 Apr 2017 03:14:10 EST You Go Girl! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6341077 So I've just completed Week 3 run 2 of C25k. You remember how last Saturday a lady said to me ''well you are doing better than these people still in bed, good for you' and it made me happy? <BR> <BR> Last night I went to bed way too late. I had 7 of 8 cookies in a packet (I should never have bought them) after a very long and stressful day at work. It's the end of the tax year so work is manic. It's time of the month so my energy levels are all over the place. Yesterday's strength training h... Thu, 30 Mar 2017 03:02:45 EST What I'm capable of http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6338633 When I first started trying to lose weight about 4 or 5 years ago, I didn't think I could exercise. I was overweight, unfit and worried I would damage my knees. I did a 10 minute exercise video and I was out of breath. <BR> <BR> Over the years since then, my weight has increased. I'm heavier now than I was then. But I'm fitter. I'm stronger and I have a different mindset. <BR> <BR> Through Spark and the Jessica Smith videos I have learned that I am capable of anything. I just have to adapt... Sat, 25 Mar 2017 04:38:19 EST Couch to 5K - Week two run 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6338630 So I finished the second week. A day late and after takeaway last night. But I finished it. And I was further round my last lap when I did which means I am travelling further. <BR> <BR> So what have I learned so far: <BR> <BR> Being 287lbs hasn't stopped me. My knees being sore hasn't stopped me. My calf muscles being tight hasn't stopped me. Getting out early when I am working lates makes me very tired and meant I had to skip a day. But that's ok. <BR> <BR> People haven't commented at al... Sat, 25 Mar 2017 04:02:04 EST Oops I did it again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6337651 The last couple of days have been lost food wise - I've eaten rubbish and more rubbish. Yesterday I didn't set my alarm because I was so tired the night before and I slept in till 9am. So no run or time for one. I haven't tracked food. I haven't drank enough water. Just one of those blips. I also managed to scrape the side of the car down something and damage one of the panels. Ho hum. <BR> <BR> Today I did week 2 run 2 of C25K. I got up early - although not as early as last week and was out... Thu, 23 Mar 2017 03:35:09 EST Cravings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6335957 Today at work I was tired. I had gotten up early to run. eaten my breakfast early and then went to work a late shift at work. <BR> <BR> I've been craving chocolate all afternoon. I ignored it. I turned down cake, chocolate and all other treats. <BR> <BR> I drank my water. <BR> <BR> I went into the supermarket after work and ended up buying sausages, a pasta sauce and a pork pie among other things. <BR> <BR> Yes I'm over mu calorie count today but not hugely. I split what I made for dinner... Mon, 20 Mar 2017 18:11:00 EST C25K Week 2 Run 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6335572 So today was 5 minute warm up walk, 90 seconds of running followed by 2 minutes of walking 6 times. <BR> <BR> The running segments weren't too bad although I jarred my knee at one point. The initial warm up brisk walk, I think I started too briskly so I was huffing an puffing on the incline,so I slowed down slightly. <BR> <BR> After St Patricks day when I had a few drinks, and a big meal, and Saturday night when I cooked mexican, and last night when I had ribs at my parents plus two pints o... Mon, 20 Mar 2017 03:44:39 EST Food for thought - or thoughts on food. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6335387 Something has happened over the last eight months - and it's pretty awesome. <BR> <BR> I used to eat a lot of processed food - especially before my ex left - he likes pizza and other things and I used to buy them just because he was. We didn't have a lot of money and I felt bad buying food that I wouldn't cook - I've always been a bit of reluctant cook. <BR> <BR> I used to buy sandwiches from the supermarket - meal deals were fatal - or chicken thighs and bread, or mcdonalds. <BR> <BR> On ... Sun, 19 Mar 2017 18:22:43 EST Woo Hoo! Week 1 run 3 of C25K DONE! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6334146 So this morning I got up and did my third run of the week. <BR> <BR> I thought I was moving slower than earlier in the week but ended up in pretty much the same place so maybe I wasn't. <BR> <BR> This morning I was still tired from yesterday but I got up and did it. <BR> <BR> I've noticed something that has changed in my head. I realised that I REALLY want to do this. And so the tuck shop, and the stress, and the chocolate aren't needed. I need to watch what I'm eating because I've dropped... Fri, 17 Mar 2017 02:56:58 EST Rest Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6333949 I missed this morning's workout. I went to bed really late last night and then woke up three times in the night.So when my alarm went off I was very tired. <BR> <BR> That said. I feel better today than I did on Tuesday. I made sure I stretched properly after yesterday's run and when I got to work and was sat in my chair, I perched my feet on my heels and tap tap tapped them quietly for ages to stretch my calves and my shins. <BR> <BR> The plan was to exercise tonight when I got home, but I'... Thu, 16 Mar 2017 16:20:58 EST C25K - Week one Run 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6333195 Today I did my second C25K run. <BR> <BR> In some ways it was easier that w1r1, in some ways it was harder. <BR> <BR> I was earlier but there were more people around and I felt self conscious. But then something shifted in my head and I didn't care that they were there. <BR> <BR> I looked them in the eye and smiled and breathed good morning at them. And they all returned the smile and the greeting. <BR> <BR> I realised that I am doing my best. Yes I'm a sweaty mess. Yes I'm breathing hard... Wed, 15 Mar 2017 02:55:25 EST I did it - First run of Couch to 5k http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6332137 I did it. I've been thinking about starting this towards the end of last week and the start of this. I've never been a runner. But it's supposed to be a good programme. <BR> <BR> I wanted some new workout clothes but couldn't find any I liked so I doubled up my bras to stop me knocking myself out, put on what I laid out last night. Downloaded the podcast to my mp3 player. <BR> <BR> I got everything ready last night - I texted my best friend and said I was contemplating it and her response..... Mon, 13 Mar 2017 03:08:10 EST The importance of reading to the end http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6331933 I decided this weekend to try 'Overnight Oats'. I have made something similar before without realising, when I prepared porridge the night before and nuked it in the morning. But I saw a jar someone took to work and thought it looked pretty good. <BR> <BR> I did a bit of googling for the recipe and came up with one that was oats, yoghurt, seeds, apple and banana and frozen berries. <BR> <BR> I skimmed the instructions and made it up. Yesterday morning I struggled to eat the huge bowl full ... Sun, 12 Mar 2017 16:57:42 EST Contemplation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6330645 I've been doing a lot of thinking. About me, about what I want, about who I am and where I want to go. <BR> <BR> This week things have slipped - I've eaten a lot of biscuits and chocolate. The stress has gotten the better of me and I don't like it. I weighed myself this morning and I am just under 21st. 20 st13 to be precise. My stomach was bad all day yesterday which was another prod. <BR> <BR> I promised myself when I first managed to get under 21st that I wouldn't go back. And I won't. <... Fri, 10 Mar 2017 05:56:24 EST Getting moving (again) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6328476 I weighed myself this morning as part of getting moving again. 20st 11.2 It could be a whole lot worse. It could be a whole lot better, It's still under 21stone which is good. I don't want to go there again. <BR> <BR> So I am officially getting moving after a week of poor food choices, poor exercise choices (or no exercise choice) and being stressy. <BR> <BR> This week will be better. My soup for the week is made and in the fridge. I am going to try and eat some of the meat in the freezer. ... Mon, 6 Mar 2017 01:50:38 EST Head or Heart http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6324387 I've been thinking a lot about the difference between head decisions and heart decisions. Some people are all head decisions - rationale, analytical, sensible. Some people are all heart decisions - emotional, reactionary and empathetic. <BR> <BR> I'm coming to realise we all use both to make decisions. Heads analyse and hearts emote. The two together are how we form meaningful decisions. <BR> <BR> Take last week - last week was a head week - I was organised, routined, and did everything I p... Fri, 3 Mar 2017 02:08:55 EST The importance of Sleep http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6322080 So last night, despite knowing I had to be up at 6, I didn't got to bed till 11.25. Then it took me ages to get to sleep because I am cold. <BR> <BR> This morning I snoozed my alarm once, then got up. Played with the cat for 5 mins and then slowly got up, found my clothes, came downstairs etc. <BR> <BR> But it's now 6.35 and I'm sitting here thinking I need to do my work out and I'm tired. I have to go to work, and I'm tired. <BR> <BR> These are the days I don't exercise much, I struggle a... Mon, 27 Feb 2017 01:38:00 EST Move it or Lose it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6321166 So today's workout according to the plug and play list I'm using is Yoga/Pilates inspired. <BR> <BR> So I picked a 20 minute Cardio Yoga video from the list and gave it a go. <BR> <BR> I gave it my best shot. It made me warm and sweaty. <BR> <BR> But I'm not very good at transitioning between some of the moves. For example - Plank to 'Downward Facing Dog' for example. In all honestly - plank to anything. I'm not very flexible or strong so I can't push myself back. And my belly gets in th... Sat, 25 Feb 2017 03:55:55 EST 5 days of exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6320677 Well today makes five days of consistently exercising at least 10 mins a day. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I did my exercise video - but didn't go for a walk at lunch time - far too windy. So I convinced my ex (he didn't need much convincing) to go for a walk after I finished work in the evening. ( I don't like going on my own in the dark but whilst he's staying with me we might as well go). <BR> <BR> 25 minutes round the local estate in the cold and dark did us both good. <BR> <BR> Today was stre... Fri, 24 Feb 2017 04:02:28 EST Chicken Dilemmas and Organisation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6320160 I have a chicken dilemma. Well it's not really a dilemma - more of a problem. <BR> <BR> I bought a rotisserie chicken. I don't buy them very often. Because they are soo very tasty, I pick, and pick and pick. It's a weird thing to have no self control over. They last me a two or three days generally. <BR> <BR> It could be something far worse, I know that. But still....self control is what I am working on. <BR> <BR> Do you have any foods that you just eat and eat? <BR> <BR> I'm trying to be... Thu, 23 Feb 2017 03:59:29 EST Nutritional Values http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6319157 Last night I went out for dinner at short notice with family. <BR> <BR> We had a lovely evening catching up and having a laugh. <BR> <BR> I ordered what I fancied off the menu. <BR> <BR> This morning I came to track yesterdays food - as we went to a chain pub for dinner I thought i'd google to see if I could find their nutritional values. And I found them :) <BR> <BR> The meal itself turned out to be more than all my daily calorie allowances but that's ok. I had eaten lightly in the day. ... Tue, 21 Feb 2017 03:14:10 EST Fat Girl Mentality http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6318626 Now I don't mean the title to be offensive. But I've noticed something about myself that I am describing as the 'fat girl mentality'. It's something I have been thinking on a lot over the last few days. <BR> <BR> I was never confident. Not in the way a lot of people are. I'm sure of who I am. But I struggle to make decisions. I second guess myself a lot. I doubt my own ability. <BR> <BR> I had a meeting with my manager where she said she wants to help me be more confident at work. To be sur... Mon, 20 Feb 2017 04:34:57 EST Get Moving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6318179 I went to see my best friend yesterday. <BR> <BR> She is a wonderful person who is so full of life and enthusiasm. She has her insecurities same as I have mine and that's ok. She hasn't judged the situation I find myself in with my ex, she just listens, same as I listen to her about the things she is struggling with. <BR> <BR> She is an osteopath, and was telling me how she loves when her patients come to understand the importance of getting moving, and keeping moving. She is about to begin... Sun, 19 Feb 2017 04:41:01 EST