PUDDLE13's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=PUDDLE13 PUDDLE13's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Weekends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6036163 Weekends are always tricky. Yesterday we stayed in with the heating on all day (a treat and a rarity) because it was so cold outside. <BR> <BR> We had simple lunches and simple dinner. It was really nice. My exercise came from laps around the house - front door to back door for 10 minutes dragging a cat toy so the cat would chase me. I did my best to keep my speed at a good marching pace! <BR> <BR> This morning we went to a carboot sale. It was huge. It was full of traders. It wasn't much f... Sun, 22 Nov 2015 13:01:59 EST One of those weeks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6034817 This week hasn't been the best. Tuesday wasn't a great day and I let tiredness and stiffness and grumpiness get the better of me. I made a really iffy food choice at lunch time and then had weird food for dinner in the evening. <BR> <BR> My partner hit rock bottom Tuesday night so we were both talked out and over emotional when we went to bed. <BR> <BR> The talking continued from about 6am yesterday when we both got up - so it ended up being Mcdonalds for breakfast and no exercise. I'm on ... Thu, 19 Nov 2015 16:05:43 EST Dodging the dieters http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6033169 Well tomorrow will be 14 days of exercise. And I am feeling better already, although my knees don't agree. I'm trying to do an exercise video in the morning, even if its a 10 minuter incase we don't go for a walk in the evening. <BR> <BR> My partner is trying to stop smoking again and so the walks seem to help abit, although today he is a bit of a moody so and so. <BR> <BR> But I rise above it, floating on my sea of calm and happy :) <BR> <BR> There was a big charity do at work on friday w... Mon, 16 Nov 2015 15:25:26 EST The Festival of Light and Love http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6031823 I got up early this morning fully intending to do my usual exercises before getting ready for work. <BR> <BR> I got distracted by the news, full of death and anger and fear. <BR> <BR> The news is blaming 'Islamists' for the attacks, but Muslims are not our enemy any more that Christians or Hindu's or Buddhists. A group of people doing something in the name of a religion doesn't mean that everyone who practices that religion is at fault. <BR> <BR> It's very sad and very distressing and it... Sat, 14 Nov 2015 02:36:58 EST Walking alone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6031566 Today I didn't get round to doing my morning workout video. <BR> <BR> We decided to have early dinner (which I cooked from scratch - bolognese with a ton of vegetables (tomatoes, spinach, onions, mushrooms and sweetcorn, and a bit of beef mince) and a baked potato instead of pasta) but before I cooked I told my partner I wanted to go for a walk. He didn't want to, so I went on my own. <BR> <BR> I went round our long walk the wrong way round so that the bit that has no lights was definitely ... Fri, 13 Nov 2015 14:34:01 EST That moment when you realise... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6031094 I realised something tonight. <BR> <BR> I was trying to decide what to have for dinner and it felt like there was nothing in that I wanted, nothing quick and simple. <BR> <BR> I had a bowl of tinned soup and bread in the end. <BR> <BR> But the thing is, I have a fridge and freezer full of meat and fish and vegetables. <BR> <BR> Some point this year I stopped cooking, if food isn't easy to make, I don't have it. Which means I end up eating junk. Or picking at bits from the fridge - cheese,... Thu, 12 Nov 2015 17:25:36 EST Acceptance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6028514 Part of this new thinking of mine is accepting where I am now. <BR> <BR> I hate clothes shopping. I end up sad and annoyed and don't buy much. Up until recently there has been only one shop that I can buy clothes from and it's expensive and designed for the older lady <BR> <BR> I've also been putting it off for 'when I lose weight'. <BR> <BR> But that has resulted in me having two year old clothes with holes in that don't fit properly anymore and which are scruffy and have holes in them. <... Sun, 8 Nov 2015 02:18:06 EST Scale without Action http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6028048 I had a meeting yesterday that looked at statistics. One of the things that came up was that having all the data in the world is great, but if you don't do anything with it - if you're just striving for a number there's no point. <BR> <BR> The analogy used was about scales <em>192</em> and how stepping on the scale every day is all very well but unless you do the action, the numbers won't change. <BR> <BR> And I realised...this is me. I check the scale most days. I can talk the talk. I u... Sat, 7 Nov 2015 02:36:38 EST Walking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6021845 I've had a few days off work and we didn't walk for a couple of them. And then we walked Sunday and yesterday all the way round the lake. <BR> <BR> It's only about a mile but both of us enjoy it. My partner says that he can see I am less stressed when we walk - especially if we go when I get in from work. <BR> <BR> We've worked out a walk around a new ousing development for as the nights get darker, especially since the clocks have gone back, because the lake isn't lit at all and is a bit d... Tue, 27 Oct 2015 05:34:10 EST As long as you know... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6017960 I finally went to visit my friend who had a baby in June. I was nervy about going as I hadn't seen her for three years and I am at least two stone heavier than I was. I hadn't been to see her because we couldn't come up with a good time but I decided just to arrange to go for an afternoon and even thought it was nearly 5hrs of driving all together I was glad I went. <BR> <BR> We fell straight back into our old routines, it was like we hadn't seen each other for a month rather than three yea... Tue, 20 Oct 2015 03:57:17 EST Starting out slowly http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6001172 Today I have done the 10 minute interval walk video - I didn't push it too hard but I need to start somewhere and then I did 10 standing pressups against the wall. <BR> <BR> That's it. <BR> <BR> Nothing complicated and nothing difficult. <BR> <BR> I'm off to wake my partner up to see if he wants to walk before I go to work - but that's normal these days! <BR> <BR> I read one of the featured blogs about statring over but better - its sort of how I feel. I've never actually shifted much of... Mon, 21 Sep 2015 03:08:12 EST It's the little things... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6000042 It's been while since I have been on spark and things haven't been going so well. <BR> <BR> My weight hasn't been a good thing recently. I hit my heaviest ever last week - thankfully its down a bit today. And I have been feeling bloated and tired and struggling with the stairs. It's not much fun being me right now. <BR> <BR> But it's made me realise how much I want to change and it's made me realise that it has to come from me and I have to belive that I can. <BR> <BR> I read this article... Sat, 19 Sep 2015 02:47:45 EST It's all about that walk! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5986854 Well we have walked for 4 days out of 6 so I am happy. The week day walks tend to be shorter as we have been going in the morning before I go to work. <BR> <BR> Today my partner said he wanted to explore so we wandered around. We found the new train station and walked a tiny amount along a main road. We found industrial estates and a cut through back to 'our lake walk'. Looking at the map we probably added half a mile because we couldn't find a path we knew was there. But that's ok. <BR> <B... Sat, 29 Aug 2015 12:51:52 EST It's been a while http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5981262 Hello There! <BR> <BR> How are you all? The last month and a half have been hectic and stressful here. My plans following my birthday didn't get started. I'm still at my heaviest (slightly more than I was on my birthday) and I can sooooo feel it. <BR> <BR> In the last month and a half, my partners anxiety sky rocketed and mine got worse too. We've decided that walking is key so we are trying to walk round where we live at least a couple of times a week. he's still trying to stop smoking - ... Thu, 20 Aug 2015 02:37:36 EST 20.02.2 or 282.2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5956732 Today officially I am at my heaviest. It's the day before my 34th Birthday. I promised myself I wouldn't get about 20st or 280lbs I promised myself I would get moving and me down 10lbs by my birthday. I promised myself I would get moving again. And at the moment nothing is sticking. <BR> <BR> My water drinking is hit or miss. I manage 2 or 3 days of exercise and then it runs out. I make lunches for 2 or 3 days and then it stops. I have a week off work so all my routines are out the window. ... Tue, 7 Jul 2015 03:46:31 EST Tuesday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5953142 Well yesterday wasn't great food wise but that's ok. I didn't buy from the tuckshop altough I didn't pack a lunch either and ending up buying not so good things for lunch. <BR> <BR> Dinner was nice with my workmates although I ended up with something really unhealthy because everyone else had it and I convinced myself it was a good idea. <BR> <BR> Never mind, it was a good evening. <BR> <BR> Today I have a beef joint aready cooking in the oven and I am having beef and salad for lunch for t... Tue, 30 Jun 2015 04:31:22 EST Today's the day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5952528 I start again. (again) <BR> <BR> The OH has been struggling with depression and he has been trying to cut down on his smoking which makes for cranky partner. <BR> <BR> It's not been much fun. As a result of all the crankiness, stress at work and the fall out from the house move, I've not been great. I finally realised last week that I'm probably a bit depressed too - functionally depressed but depressed. <BR> <BR> I've not been doing any exercise at all and one day last week I ate so much ... Mon, 29 Jun 2015 03:51:11 EST Learning to say no again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5944298 This week I have been saying to no to alot of things - both good and bad. <BR> <BR> I've not been walking - just couldn't get going and that's disappointing. <BR> <BR> I have been saying no (mostly) to the people who offer me food at work. I did say no to pink doughnuts, and a bite of sausage roll, and a cream cake (i did have a chocolate muffin and a piece of swiss roll but thats over the whole week so I'll take that) <BR> <BR> The cream cake was funny - because I said yes maybe, and it ... Sat, 13 Jun 2015 03:55:20 EST June the 4th - no walks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5939723 Walking didn't happen today. <BR> <BR> I had ony had 5 hrs sleep when I got up late to go to work. <BR> <BR> I felt off all day and at lunch time preferred to sit quietly in the shade rather than walk around in the heat. <BR> <BR> After wrk I had to go shopping and so there was no time. And now although its still light i'm too tired. <BR> <BR> But its ok - I've made lunch every day bar 2 in the last 6 days and I'm drinking more water - my knees hurt but they will till i build up some stam... Thu, 4 Jun 2015 15:53:51 EST Day 2 of walking challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5938562 Well yesterday, I didn't get my morning walk in. I had a bad day at work so at lunch time I declared 'I'm going for a walk'. <BR> <BR> I wandered through the business park at work and went down a path I haven't used for a long time which led to a little park with big mature trees, through the park and back into the new estate, along the road and back through another tree filled path to work. <BR> <BR> A nice little circular route in the wind. Much relaxed and just under a mile later I went... Tue, 2 Jun 2015 15:23:22 EST Walking Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5937087 I've decided to join the walking challenge starting tomorrow. <BR> <BR> http://www.sparkpeople.com/blog/blog.asp<BR>?post=kick_off_summer_with_a_fun_fitne<BR>ss_challenge <BR> <BR> Although I walk fairly often for me its more about consistency so I am going to aim for at least 5 miles a week with the intention being to walk as many days as I can. <BR> <BR> I know I walk fairly regularly so I could look to walk more than the mile a day but its more about building a consistent walking habit ... Sun, 31 May 2015 03:37:56 EST Walking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5934693 This morning I got up to put the bins out early, and decided to get properly dressed instead of dressed enough so I don't embarrass myself with the neighbours. After I put the bins out I walked round the local park - twice - its only short so in total I was walking for about 20 minutes. <BR> <BR> I've been reasonably good foodwise all day. I made a salad for lunch and had two small (ish) pieces of cake for someone's birthday at work. No tuck shop. No lunch time supermarket. Just salad. I did... Tue, 26 May 2015 18:11:13 EST Walking and Wildflowers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5929618 I went to a nature reserve that had a wild flower day today. I got there too late for the talks and I didn't buy any wildflowers. <BR> <BR> But I did go for a walk around the reserve - it was free entry due to the wildflower day. <BR> <BR> I walked well strolled for abut an hour and it was so peaceful and good to be out in the fresh air. I spotted a few flowers I recognised and one or two from the garden but my plant recognition isn't good! <BR> <BR> Yesterday we dug more of the garden - w... Sun, 17 May 2015 12:51:42 EST Influence and Positivity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5927866 Two strange things happened yesteday. <BR> <BR> At work, we talked about how to influence people. How it was important to find similarities, to find out what will make the other person think, how to be confident in your abilities because if you can't say you are good at something how can the other person believe you. About perservering - have 5 plans to get what you want and to keep pushing and most importantly to smile and be enthusiastic. <BR> <BR> And then when I got home I ended up talk... Thu, 14 May 2015 05:29:14 EST A better day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5927292 Yesterday was a better day. <BR> <BR> The tuck shop wasn't visited. I had a few small sweets from the bag that our manager bought for the team <BR> <BR> I had a sensible lunch - nothing too fancy and soup for dinner. <BR> <BR> Water wise it wasn't quite perfect but I can accept that. <BR> <BR> I've come to the conclusion that things have to change. And only I can change them. <BR> <BR> I can sit here being morose and cross at myself for letting things get out of hand or I can change thin... Wed, 13 May 2015 04:20:41 EST At my heaviest http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5926712 I weighed myself yesterday and I was 20st - 280Lbs for those who don't do stones. Today I weighed myself because sometimes my weight fluctuates by 4 pounds or so day by day - but it had stayed the same - in fact it was slightly higher - 20st and a few ounces <BR> <BR> I had promised myself over and over I wouldn't get to 20st and here I am. I don't like it. I don't want it. And I have to get back on the path I have fallen off. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I gardened for a while digging and raking an... Tue, 12 May 2015 04:20:34 EST Salad days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5910927 Well yesterday I had salad for lunch - my lunch was late at 3pm so I made a big one to carry me through to the evening. <BR> <BR> It was full of tasty things (tomatos, cucumber, mushrooms, red pepper, chick peas, 2 small new potatoes and hite fish). I ate it and didn't feel full and then went for a stroll and felt full. Maybe I need to make a bit less today. <BR> <BR> I was only slightly mortified when the dieting colleague next to me made comments about portion size. At the moment, I'm jus... Tue, 14 Apr 2015 03:13:04 EST The Uncomfortable Truth http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5909212 I've been thinking today and I've come to an uncomfortable truth. <BR> <BR> I can talk about losing weight. I can have a half hearted push every few days. But it doesn't work. <BR> <BR> I'm too easily discouraged, and the slightest bit of boredom or stress send me to the supermarket on a lunch break for fried chicken and wedges. Its reached a point where I'm not telling me dieting colleagues what I have had for lunch. Its not that they would disapprove but I am embarrassed by my weakness. <... Sat, 11 Apr 2015 04:39:14 EST Tuesday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5907463 Well Tuesday went ok. Not as well as I had hoped. <BR> <BR> Walk - I went for an 18 minute walk in the morning <BR> <BR> Breakfast - had breakfast but due to time constraints I couldn't make porridge so I ended up with bread and jam - not so healthy <BR> <BR> Lunch - was an epic fail - running late in the morning meant no salad and I bought chicken and wedges - I really have to stop this being my go to food at the supermarket when I am in a bad mood <BR> <BR> Snacks - I didn't go to the ... Wed, 8 Apr 2015 02:40:24 EST Returning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5906819 So I'm finally back to spark. <BR> <BR> Its taken a whie. <BR> <BR> We've eaten a lot of sweets and cake this week - we were staying with friends who were getting married - and we bought sweets to drive back with because we were tired. <BR> I've weighed in and I am just under the weight I don't want to get to - 20stones or 280 pounds - both round figures. My weight is 19st 13 or 279 pounds. <BR> <BR> So I have to make a real effort not to go to 280.I have challenged myself to get to 269. <... Tue, 7 Apr 2015 03:18:17 EST March http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5900408 Hello!! How are you? <BR> <BR> We're all goodish here. <BR> <BR> March has disappeared into a blur of house related and work related things. <BR> <BR> My ability to eat junk has sky rocketed and my ability to drink water has taken a nose dive! <BR> <BR> I've lost round about 5lbs but I can't say its through anything I have been actively doing - i think its the exercise from having stairs to climb and such - one of my friends at work said - just imagine how much weight you would have lost ... Fri, 27 Mar 2015 02:44:00 EST Marching through March http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5893708 Hello there! <BR> <BR> March is fast disappearing in a blur! <BR> <BR> My Dr's appointment was interesting - I ended up seeing the grumpy dr and he spent about thirty seconds feeling where it hurt around my hip and told me it was a sprain - so that's ok. <BR> <BR> Walking has been a bit hit and miss and I have been having to leave earlier for work each day. I'm back in my team today and I can't wait - the last two weeks have been very hard due to the nature of the work I was doing. I've s... Mon, 16 Mar 2015 03:26:09 EST Feeling more positive! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5887876 Well Good Morning! <BR> <BR> I'm feeling more positive. Thank you for your kind comments yesterday :) I love the idea of the 5lb challenge! Bring it on! <BR> <BR> Yesterday I ate reasonably (not saying well but reasonably is ok) <BR> <BR> Yesterday I realised I have to look after myself. I was listening to a radio programme where the presenter said a friend had told him to get his knee checked out when he had been in pain with it for a while and when he did, there was a problem. He said yo... Fri, 6 Mar 2015 03:00:51 EST Where to start? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5887262 I feel in myself like I have out the 7 pounds I lost back on and then a bit more. <BR> <BR> I feel lethargic and bloated and fat and slow. <BR> <BR> My knees hurt and the pain in my hip isn't good today. <BR> <BR> The scale is broken and I can't check and its numbers that get me moving. <BR> <BR> We moved a few weeks ago and I want to go walking but i am a bit nervous because I don't know the area that well. I also still haven't found my workout clothes. <BR> <BR> I'm working in a differ... Thu, 5 Mar 2015 02:18:22 EST Before and After http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5885971 I've just read this article on the BBC website and it got me to thinking. <BR> <BR> http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/blogs-magazine<BR>-monitor-31638187 <BR> <BR> This article is about how supplements and diet pills etc try to convince us that their pills are best. <BR> <BR> And it's something I have thought about before. Before pictures in magazines etc are always poorly lit with sad looking people, and after are brightly coloured and smiley. <BR> <BR> This is not a dig a before and after pics ... Tue, 3 Mar 2015 02:47:34 EST Tired and its only Tuesday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5885966 Yesterday passed in a blur. I had to go to a 3 hour presentation at work and then spent the afternoon observing how a different department works as I am working there for a couple of weeks. <BR> <BR> Needless to say my water drinking was non existent! <BR> <BR> I walked to the supermarket and back at lunch time but then bought a salad bar 'salad' that consisted of a bit of lettuce and sweetcorn and beet root and various pastas in sticky sauces. <BR> <BR> Dinner was cheese tomato and corned... Tue, 3 Mar 2015 02:21:13 EST Getting back into the swing of things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5885229 Today I decided it was time to start over. <BR> <BR> To find the wagon that rolled off ahead of me. To start thinking about me again. <BR> <BR> The last few weeks have been busy and stressful. <BR> <BR> We moved house. Because we moved house the OH's depression kicked in big sttyle and we have had a few arguments and bad times. But he's had a couple of good days and maybe starting new routines will help. <BR> <BR> I've eaten a lot of junk food. Fast Food. Ready Meals. Cheese on Toast. and... Mon, 2 Mar 2015 02:10:38 EST House http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5871029 Well good morning! <BR> <BR> This is just a quick hello really. Our house purchase completed the other day and we are in the process of sorting everything out. There's lots of painting and decorating to be done. All of the change has also hit the OH hard and he is having panic attacks - so I need to concentrate on him and the house this week. <BR> <BR> So I may not be around much but I will look after myself - promise! <BR> <BR> I've lost 3 pounds this week- probably a combination of eatin... Sat, 7 Feb 2015 02:56:17 EST One block at a time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5868350 With everything that is going on, I've been feeling overwhelmed. <BR> <BR> Trying to organise and keep things going with the house move. Trying to do a bit more and eat a bit less, to drink my water, and not get stressed at work. <BR> <BR> As the house move was thrust upon us at the end of October when we were given notice, it's all felt a bit too much - i don't really know what I'm doing but we're getting there. Now we just have to sort locks and paint and carpets and such (we complete on ... Tue, 3 Feb 2015 01:49:29 EST New Week - Fresh Start http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5867589 Well I did alright last week. I did a bit of exercise every day. <BR> <BR> Saturday the OH and I took a walk which was nice, and then I helped pass boxes up into the attic. Our landlord is moving back into this house where we live and is starting to move things across. I did strain the already strained knee a bit more - so ibuprofen and gentle low impact exercises are the way forward for a few days. <BR> <BR> Things got a bit fraught yesterday when they told us they wanted to come in the we... Mon, 2 Feb 2015 02:04:21 EST It's friday and there's snow! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5865639 No way near as much as I have seen on the news but enough for the drive to work to be slower. So I can't stay long! <BR> <BR> Yesterday I got up tired. My OH had a bad night's sleep which meant I heard him getting up and coming back to bed and getting up so it disturbed my sleep too. <BR> <BR> My knee is also still stiff and sore. So I knocked the exercise on the head yesterday. <BR> <BR> My sister and I have managed to have lunch together twice this week and both days we walked. One day ... Fri, 30 Jan 2015 01:20:16 EST Walking, walking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5864174 My sister and I went for a walk on my lunch break yesterday. Turns out it was just under a mile. We could have done it quicker but we were both having a bad day and needed to talk. <BR> <BR> When I got home the OH said he had been for a walk today too - which is ace! <BR> <BR> We talked about how we are doing and why we walk - for me its the physical exercise, for him its the mental calming. <BR> <BR> We talked about weight and I said mine is much higher than I would like, and I've only lo... Wed, 28 Jan 2015 01:28:54 EST Stopping the binge monster in it's tracks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5863455 Yesterday was a good day. <BR> <BR> I had a big salad with fish for lunch. I only had a couple of sweets from the central team tin at work. I got home and the binge monster hit. <BR> <BR> I had some pate on bread (lots of pate but 2 slices of bread) and then some crisps. And then I stopped and went - actually what I want is dinner. The OH wasn't hungry so I made dinner for myself and had that. So yes I had a lot of pate, and yes I had a lot of crisps. But I stopped before I ate the WHOLE ... Tue, 27 Jan 2015 01:54:18 EST Late and early http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5862642 I've worked on the late shift for the last two weeks and this week I am on the earlies. <BR> <BR> It's the first time I have needed my alarm clock in two weeks! <BR> <BR> I've gotten up early to do my exercise but I am just sitting here dozy and yawning. <BR> <BR> I know it will wake me up. I know it will make me feel better. <BR> <BR> But at the minute it feels like a whole lot of effort, <BR> <BR> This week I am gong to try and eat well - as in eat salad and fruit and drink my water. I... Mon, 26 Jan 2015 01:17:17 EST Hmmm - what happened yesterday? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5861368 Yesterday was one of those days. <BR> <BR> We were late getting going so no walk, no salad just rush. <BR> <BR> Work was busy and I ended up 45 minutes late for lunch due to a long customer call. <BR> <BR> I went to the supermarket with good intentions for lunch and ended up with pie. <BR> <BR> There was a charity day at work and so there were samosas and cake and sweets. <BR> <BR> Last night was a family dinner - we had chinese and then cake. <BR> <BR> I did drink most of my water yest... Sat, 24 Jan 2015 04:03:28 EST Getting the 'No' going http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860711 I sit next to a lady at work who has lost a lot of weight. <BR> <BR> She eats the bare minimum in terms of her calorie range and does plenty of exercise and drinks plenty or water. She is looking really good for it. <BR> <BR> BUT <BR> <BR> whenever there is food around (think birthday treats) she doesn't have them, but pushes them on me. She is very keen and insistent and it's difficult to say no. It was easier when I used to sit next to the diabetic lady, because she didn't want the treat... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 02:41:07 EST Walking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860000 The OH and I are getting back to walking together. <BR> <BR> We've never stopped, but with the poor weather we've gotten out of the habit. <BR> <BR> The last 2 days we have walked both days. Yesterday was only a short walk as it was far colder and wetter than we had anticipated. <BR> <BR> I had to leave the car at the supermarket yesterday as there was no space to park at work - so I walked there and back to go get it. <BR> <BR> I've decided to stop taking the lift at work as well- there'... Thu, 22 Jan 2015 04:34:50 EST 279.50 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5858420 It's not been a good week - the end of last week and the start of this one. <BR> <BR> The OH is getting more panicky and depressed. So we have long conversations in the evening and at lunch time. I think its all the change that's coming. I've talked to him about mindfulness, and I know he does meditate, but he won't use the mental health service as he doesn't trust them, so I don't really know what else I can do. <BR> <BR> The house move has slowed as the solicitors fight it out over some l... Tue, 20 Jan 2015 02:46:21 EST Mid week!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5853995 Well actually it's day 5 of the week for me because I worked the weekend! But that's ok. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was pretty good. <BR> <BR> I got all my work done (well mostly) and I did my exercise in the morning. <BR> <BR> The OH and I had a walk in the morning too. <BR> <BR> I made my lunch, fish and vegetables and rice (that's 2 days in a row I have made my lunch), I don't think I'll have time today because we are going shopping. <BR> <BR> I had 6 glasses of water!! <BR> <BR> I should h... Wed, 14 Jan 2015 03:33:41 EST Flight or Fight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5853187 I lay in bed this morning thinking. <BR> <BR> My legs and arms are feeling heavy. Yesterday I binged, even though I had taken lunch to work, the stress took hold and I binged. My face feels bloated. <BR> <BR> When I got home late last night the OH said have something to eat because you've not eaten since early afternoon. I was hungry but I didn't know what I wanted and I was miserable after a busy day and more miserable because I was hungry but didn't know what I wanted. <BR> <BR> Yesterda... Tue, 13 Jan 2015 02:56:54 EST