PUDDLE13's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=PUDDLE13 PUDDLE13's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Oh. My. Goodness. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6173849 I find food tracking very difficult. I start and stop occasionally but have always prided myself on knowing what I eat. <BR> <BR> Well today I managed to track everything I ate for probably the first time. <BR> <BR> And <BR> <BR> OH <BR> <BR> MY <BR> <BR> GOODNESS <BR> <BR> I was well and truly over the upper calorie limit <BR> Well and truly over the carbs and fats limit <BR> <BR> About the only thing that was about right was the protein. <BR> <BR> To say I'm shocked is an understate... Tue, 31 May 2016 15:28:27 EST 1 stone or 14 pounds or 5% http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6173464 I just read a blog post titled - what would 5% mean to me. And I wondered - what would 5% of my body weight look like. <BR> <BR> And the answer is 14 pounds (there abouts) or 1 stone. <BR> <BR> I like round numbers and this seems really round. If 5 % of my body weight is 14 pounds that seems like a good target and a good place to start. <BR> <BR> I have put the 6 pounds I lost recently back on with a bit of interest so in effect I am starting (yet) again but that's ok. <BR> <BR> I've had ... Tue, 31 May 2016 01:46:49 EST We've all got that friend at work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6169547 The one who always has biscuits in their desk. <BR> <BR> Who brings in cakes <BR> <BR> Who pushes and pushes you to eat. <BR> <BR> Today I tried - I really did try to say no to the samosas and the cakes. <BR> <BR> I ended up having two samosas and one cake. <BR> <BR> It was insisted that I have two other cakes. They are in a sealed tub in my desk drawer at the moment because I was full and I didn't want them right then. <BR> <BR> I don't know what the difference is. Two of my other coll... Tue, 24 May 2016 14:14:53 EST What's right for me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6168970 This last week has been a bad food week. Not enough water - too much takeaway - far too much chocolate. I know this, and so the weight increase from last weeks loss is not unexpected. <BR> <BR> It happened and I'm moving on. <BR> <BR> Today was better - by no means perfect - I had breakfast and salad for lunch. It was coming home and eating a huge bag of crisps and some chocolate before dinner that was the bad part. It happened and I'm moving on. I did drink 2 litres of water today :) So th... Mon, 23 May 2016 17:32:32 EST Potatoes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6163542 I'm trying to have potatoes or rice instead of pasta - I know it's still a carbohydrate but it's a less processed carbohydrate. I have a theory that pasta and bread upset my stomach - I struggle to cut down bread, but pasta is easy - I substitute! <BR> <BR> Potatoes are far more adaptable than I ever realised. <BR> <BR> I've always bought new potatoes and then boiled them till they're soft and then stuck them in salad, or had them hot with a bit of butter. I'm not a fan of boiled old potato... Sun, 15 May 2016 16:52:07 EST Home cooked http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6162898 Well I stayed off work three days this week due to my cold - still feeling iffy but it'll get better. <BR> <BR> I've had a home cooked meal at least once a day everyday this week. Either lunch or dinner, dinner mainly. <BR> <BR> Today I nearly didn't have any of the good stuff (veggies and the like) and then remembered frozen leftovers of a tuna and tomato sauce that I made last week - so that was put onto pasta rather than just the pasta! <BR> <BR> I think it's making a difference - the s... Sat, 14 May 2016 15:33:16 EST Cooking and Colds http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6159505 I am trying to cook more often - it doesn't always work - but generally over the last week I have cooked quite regularly - and I'm enjoying the variety and the vegetables. <BR> <BR> I've bought more salad for lunches this week and I'll be making that up in the morning before I go to work. <BR> <BR> I think I can do streaks as long as it is one at a time and just for a week - one day I may manage to put it all together. <BR> <BR> I've got another cold which is a pain - it came on the night ... Mon, 9 May 2016 15:22:36 EST My Nemesis http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6156658 The tuck shop at work is right behind my desk - I don't even have to get up to get to it. And I find that because I am busy and a bit stressed I keep visiting it - at least once a day. <BR> <BR> Apart from yesterday <BR> <BR> When I had no change on me to buy chocolate. <BR> <BR> So I had two apples and a glass of squash. <BR> <BR> Apparently I can survive the day without chocolate! <BR> <BR> ***edited to add - by 'squash' I mean the drink - it's black currant and apple diluted with wate... Thu, 5 May 2016 02:43:52 EST Vegetables http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6155979 Apparently I don't seem to be able to make lots of changes at once. The exercise has slowed down but I'm trying to drink more water because work is busy and hot and last week I ended up dizzy and dehydrated so this week I am filling my water bottle and drnking it. <BR> <BR> I'm trying to get back to cooking and making lunches. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I had a big salad with tinned mackeral. I had 2 salad potatoes with it too and was surprised it filled me up till dinner. Everyone at work kept co... Wed, 4 May 2016 02:35:18 EST Why the scale doesn't matter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6155267 I'm finally starting to realise why the scale doesn't matter as anything other than a checking point. <BR> <BR> I weigh myself a lot - most days in fact - and not once - When I weigh myself I do it three times (or sometimes even four) because my scales give me varying different figures. <BR> <BR> Take today - I weighed myself - twice it was 20st 10lbs 7 twice and then it was 20st 12 3 twice. <BR> <BR> So does that mean I am 20 st 10 or 20st 12 or the mid point, 20st 11. <BR> <BR> Now I kn... Tue, 3 May 2016 02:32:47 EST Walking in the Hail http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6151471 Today was a pretty rubbish day at work. <BR> <BR> It was busy, my work is mounting up because I am helping out another area taking phone calls, and by the end of the day I was totally tense and stressed with white noise in my head and a feeling like I wanted to cry. <BR> <BR> So when I finished work I sent my partner a message that said am going for a walk when I get home. <BR> <BR> Bless him, he greeted me at the door with a hug and a cup of tea, then got changed and even though it was st... Wed, 27 Apr 2016 13:07:24 EST The spider in the bath http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6149659 There's a spider in the bath this morning. It can't get out and is about to get washed away. I was thinking this morning watching it, that I feel a bit like that. <BR> <BR> I'm trapped in a cycle of bad food and no exercise and every time I start to make progress something gets in my way. My partner's depression, my stress at work, all the jobs we need to do at home. And it threatens to wash me away. <BR> <BR> I don't want to be washed down a drain of fat and stiffness and back pain. But ri... Mon, 25 Apr 2016 02:01:14 EST Friday :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6143057 Well yesterday I managed to buy clothes for the wedding - second thing I tried on shockingly - I don't usually find things so easily. <BR> <BR> I drank all my water today but food wise hasn't been great over the last two days - work has been really busy and I have been supporting a different department and doing bit sof my job in between. <BR> <BR> It'll get better I am sure. Anyway have a good weekend all Fri, 15 Apr 2016 17:21:29 EST A cup of tea http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6141629 I'm sat here with a cup of tea. It's just what I need tonight. I have the radio on and its very calm. <BR> <BR> The day has been busy with work being a touch manic, and then take away at my parents as we had family visiting. I wasn't really in the mood but it was nice. <BR> <BR> I've drank 8 glasses of water today - that makes 5 days in a row which I think is about the record for the number of consecutive water drinking days - having squash seems to be making a real difference :) <BR> <BR>... Wed, 13 Apr 2016 17:12:03 EST April Showers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6139987 Well getting back into the swing of things is tricky. <BR> <BR> Exercise wise it hasn't really gotten going - but that's ok <BR> <BR> Food wise I have been doing better. I've been trying to get back to eating a bit more sensibly and I have cut out a whole load of chocolate over the last three days - makes for a grumpy puddle but never mind. I haven't gone completely cold turkey but a big cut down on where I was. <BR> The success story is my drinking water. Saturday I drank two litres, yeste... Mon, 11 Apr 2016 14:31:00 EST Getting back into the swing of things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6138240 Today I go back to work after a couple of weeks off. Its a chance to get back into the good routines. Don't get me wrong I have thoroughly enjoyed the last couple of weeks and feel quite relaxed. I got a load of stuff done that I needed to as well. <BR> <BR> That said, all my better (not good yet) habits went out of the window. <BR> <BR> So I went to bed at a reasonable hour and I am up this morning early enough to get started and do some exercise before work. <BR> <BR> I am going to try a... Sat, 9 Apr 2016 02:21:19 EST The bad, the good and the calm http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6135260 The bad - So I weighed myself this morning - three times because my scales sometimes can be a bit iffy. <BR> <BR> The bad news - 291.7 - 20 stone 11.7 <BR> <BR> Officially my highest weight yet and boy can I feel it <BR> <BR> Food wise yesterday was also a bit iffy but I ended the day with a piece of steak, and half a plate of salad, on one of the slightly smaller round plates. I had 4 squares of chocolate afterwards - which may not sound good but last week I ate the whole 100g bar! <BR> ... Tue, 5 Apr 2016 03:26:49 EST April Willingness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6134406 I'm not sure where March went. <BR> <BR> We were ill with a nasty cold bug that knocked us around - I lost something like 7 pounds in a week because all I was eating was porridge, then my partner's anxiety skyrocketed into bad panic attacks and I had to take him to a doctor. Work got really busy in the run up to Easter and here we are. I've had a bit of holiday from work the last week or so and I have another 5 days and I really needed the break to relax and take things easy and I feel bette... Mon, 4 Apr 2016 02:47:09 EST I haven't forgotten http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6117274 About spark or what I am trying to achieve. <BR> <BR> But i've come down with a nasty flu bug thing. I had a couple of days off work and went back when I probably should have stayed off. <BR> <BR> So I am sitting here tired and slow and full of a nasty cough. <BR> <BR> That said I weighed myself this morning and apparently I am 281.1 pounds. Probably because I haven't been eating all that much. Porridge and toast and soup. Have no stomach for anything else. <BR> <BR> That and that I am dr... Sat, 12 Mar 2016 07:27:46 EST I shouldn't have days off from work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6112332 I can be disciplined when I have to go to work each day. Getting up early doing a bit of exercise. Eating reasonably sensibly and then days off happen. <BR> <BR> Two every week. And lo and behold the bad habits are back. Poor food choices, not getting up to do my exercise. <BR> <BR> Ho Hum. That's part of what needs working on. <BR> <BR> Anyway new day fresh start. <BR> <BR> Today I plan to: <BR> <BR> <em>67</em> Eat a healthy breakfast and lunch and eat in moderation at dinner (am g... Sun, 6 Mar 2016 02:46:22 EST The Extra Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6108163 Yesterday was Leap Day - the extra day - in fact it was just like all the others - but that's OK. I had training at work. The trainer had bought maltesers, biscuits and grapes for the delegates being trained. And that was ok too. How did the check list go yesterday? Not too badly actually: <BR> <BR> 10 Minutes of Exercise - Check - I did a 20 minute walking video <BR> <BR> Home Cooked Dinner - Check - I had the remains of the chilli (admittedly on toast as we were going out). I've still got... Tue, 1 Mar 2016 02:00:21 EST Monday Musings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6107228 So yesterdays goals: <BR> <BR> 10 minutes of exercise: Check <BR> Home cooked dinner: Check - I made Chilli but added Spinach and Sweetcorn <BR> Be in bed by 10.30pm: Check <BR> Watch the snacks: Check - I had a cookie in the morning but then no crisps or chocolate after that. <BR> <BR> Today's Goals: <BR> <BR> 10 Minutes of Exercise <BR> Home Cooked Dinner <BR> Be in Bed by 10.30PM <BR> Watch the Snacks <BR> Do something fun <BR> <BR> Have a great day :) Mon, 29 Feb 2016 02:03:28 EST Thoughts and reflections http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6106794 I've been doing a lot of thinking over the last few days. <BR> <BR> I realised in the early hours of Friday that I have stopped cooking. I eat mainly processed food and very few veggies - and I always ate veggies. I'm not doing much exercise and my life seems to revolve around work and recovering from work and little else. The tuck shop and food generally has become my stress reliever, my walking stick if you will. <BR> <BR> It's not a healthy way to live and is why my weight is slowly cree... Sun, 28 Feb 2016 13:22:26 EST Ouch http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6088197 Stiff today after yesterday's strength exercises which were arm related. <BR> <BR> Back is stiff, I have a pain in my ribs which hurts when I roll over in bed and my knee half gave out on me yesterday morning - not pleasant, but better than it could have been (although I can hear it making crackly noises going down the stairs if its quiet) <BR> <BR> So today, I've decided to designate a rest day. I'm going to do the Jessica Smith under the weather routine which is 12 minutes of gentle movem... Fri, 5 Feb 2016 01:46:28 EST Feb 4th http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6087325 Well Wednesday disappeared in a blur. <BR> <BR> I had fruit for breakfast after the buffet the night before. My mum made me lunch which was a cheese toastie - she just makes me what ever she has in, and then I made fajitas last night. Chicken, red pepper, sweetcorn, spinach and a few cherry tomatoes. <BR> <BR> I've stopped by fajita mixes since I realised I have all the spices in the cupboard. I haven't quite got the quantities right yet but its a work in progress and it tastes better beca... Thu, 4 Feb 2016 01:25:23 EST Wednesday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6086437 Well I drank about 1.75 litres of water yesterday which was good. I'm really trying to drink plenty of water. <BR> <BR> Last night I went out for dinner with a friend. We decided to go to a buffet restaurant - we don't go very often. And I'm paying for that this morning in dehydration and a poorly belly. <BR> <BR> I ate far too much last night. Enjoyed the evening and the meal but now I don't even want breakfast this morning. <BR> <BR> Still day three of the jumpstart challenge is leg exer... Wed, 3 Feb 2016 02:29:50 EST Try http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6085479 I thought I'd try the 30 day jumpstart challenge. I don't seem to have time for the cardio aspect at the moment - but I'm doing their daily workout schedule - today is day 2. <BR> <BR> It was core exercises - planks, bicycle crunches etc. <BR> <BR> What have I learned? <BR> <BR> Well you're supposed to do 1 - 3 sets of 8 to 12 reps. <BR> <BR> Planks I managed 3 - not three sets, 3 reps. <BR> <BR> Bicycle crunches were 4 reps <BR> <BR> Lying Leg Lowers were better - I made 7 reps <BR> <... Tue, 2 Feb 2016 02:00:47 EST 1st for Feb http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6084468 Well January disappeared into a blur of stress and food and meh. <BR> <BR> I started out well and then it fizzled. Too many things on, too many stressful days, too many comfort foods. <BR> <BR> Not enough water, not enough exercise, not enough focus. <BR> <BR> I'm not making excuses but that's where we are. Back to 287.5 pounds. Back to feeling slow and bloated. Back to feeling generally unwell. <BR> <BR> So today is start again day. I've signed up to the 30 day jump start challenge which... Mon, 1 Feb 2016 01:57:23 EST Ah Monday - you're here again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6066372 Saturday night I didn't feel well - just a general felling of meh if you know what I mean. I had sat watching netflix after work and had sat too long. <BR> <BR> Not a good feeling. <BR> <BR> So yesterday I got up with good intentions. I did a 20 minute exercise video. Took breakfast to work, had lunch - wasn't a great choice but hey ho and then drank cola at the pub. I had a small dinner because I got back late. <BR> <BR> My food choices weren't great but I had three meals and importantly ... Mon, 11 Jan 2016 03:41:14 EST Getting back to it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6061794 Well yesterday was my first working day of the new year. <BR> <BR> I had intended to get up early and exercise but it never happened. The first day back was hard. I had no energy and my whole body felt heavy. <BR> <BR> So I drank more water and made a good food choice for lunch and dinner. Sadly I binged on chocolate after dinner but never mind. After all the Christmas sweets and chocolates I know it will take time to readjust. <BR> <BR> So this morning I got up in good time to start my 10... Wed, 6 Jan 2016 02:54:46 EST Positivity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6058592 We went to visit some friends for new year. My partner (OH) was feeling in control of his panic attacks (we got through Christmas day and Boxing day with 3 small ones!) - and it seemed like a good idea. These friends can be a bit hit or miss depending on their mood but we thought visiting them at their house would be better (they're always moodier at our house). These friends also freely admit they don't understand mental health issues, and last time we saw them one of them said they they hav... Sun, 3 Jan 2016 04:17:43 EST Monday Morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6050499 Well Monday is here again and for the first time in a while I am up and raring to go. I've gotten up early to do some exercise and the figure out how to blowdry my hair - I had it cut at the weekend and it's quite short now. <BR> <BR> It was funny - I sat in the hair dressers as she snipped and snipped and I looked at my face with the long hair round it and thought how old I looked but then she finished and dried it and straightened it and suddenly there I was. I don't change my hairstyle bu... Mon, 21 Dec 2015 02:29:21 EST Think about going to sleep http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6047969 So I went to the doctors - and the pain I have been feeling is because of the problems with my shoulder - that and I have big boobs (the doctors words but not in an offensive way) which in turn is giving me the pain because the wrong muscles are working all the time to compensate for the weak shoulder. (which makes sense because the pain started after I put a load of weight on (over a stone in a short amount of time) over the summer.) <BR> <BR> And the solution...exercise. Re-strengthening m... Tue, 15 Dec 2015 15:50:12 EST Feeling Positive http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6046855 Hello there!! <BR> <BR> I'm feeling much more positive than I have been. The pain I have been feeling has subsided and I am feeling much better. My shoulder has calmed down too. <BR> <BR> I broke my cardinal rule and consulted Dr Google - well NHS direct - and there is cyclical pain that women get sometimes relating to their menstrual cycle - and I think this might be my problem rather than all the bad things I have been imagining. (The pain I've been experiencing hasn't been my normal ach... Sun, 13 Dec 2015 13:05:19 EST Talking the Talk and Walking the Walk http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6044399 I talk a good game. I know what I need to do to lose weight - eat better (rather than less), more veggies, cook, exercise each day, be consistent, drink water, don't buy from the tuck shop. The list goes on. <BR> <BR> I know what works for me. And I know that when I get my head in the right place I can do it. I also know that I'm not good on the follow through. <BR> <BR> The walking the walk if you like. I can do it for a couple of weeks, three weeks or a month but then I lose my focus and ... Tue, 8 Dec 2015 16:15:16 EST Dismissing the doldrums http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6041812 This last week and a bit have passed in a blur. The days are grey and wet and dark and the little splashes of sun we get are usually when I am at work. <BR> <BR> We've managed two walks in two weeks. <BR> <BR> My shoulder and side are all stiff again and I have pain in odd places - who knew so many muscles connect to your shoulder! I'm going to get checked by the doctor but getting an appointment at the new doctors seems a challenge in itself. <BR> <BR> My partner is feeling low too and th... Thu, 3 Dec 2015 14:40:52 EST The week that wasn't http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6039788 Well last week disappeared in a bit of a blur. <BR> <BR> I was working late so most days I got up with my partner rather than earlier which meant no exercise videos. It was wet and stormy so we only went for one walk. <BR> <BR> Ho Hum. <BR> <BR> That said, because I was on lates I wasn't really having 'meals' when I got home and I had soup for lunch most days so it balanced out. <BR> <BR> I had a bad day on Friday. I'm doing a checking task at work for a different team. I keep finding mis... Mon, 30 Nov 2015 01:28:20 EST Weekends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6036163 Weekends are always tricky. Yesterday we stayed in with the heating on all day (a treat and a rarity) because it was so cold outside. <BR> <BR> We had simple lunches and simple dinner. It was really nice. My exercise came from laps around the house - front door to back door for 10 minutes dragging a cat toy so the cat would chase me. I did my best to keep my speed at a good marching pace! <BR> <BR> This morning we went to a carboot sale. It was huge. It was full of traders. It wasn't much f... Sun, 22 Nov 2015 13:01:59 EST One of those weeks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6034817 This week hasn't been the best. Tuesday wasn't a great day and I let tiredness and stiffness and grumpiness get the better of me. I made a really iffy food choice at lunch time and then had weird food for dinner in the evening. <BR> <BR> My partner hit rock bottom Tuesday night so we were both talked out and over emotional when we went to bed. <BR> <BR> The talking continued from about 6am yesterday when we both got up - so it ended up being Mcdonalds for breakfast and no exercise. I'm on ... Thu, 19 Nov 2015 16:05:43 EST Dodging the dieters http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6033169 Well tomorrow will be 14 days of exercise. And I am feeling better already, although my knees don't agree. I'm trying to do an exercise video in the morning, even if its a 10 minuter incase we don't go for a walk in the evening. <BR> <BR> My partner is trying to stop smoking again and so the walks seem to help abit, although today he is a bit of a moody so and so. <BR> <BR> But I rise above it, floating on my sea of calm and happy :) <BR> <BR> There was a big charity do at work on friday w... Mon, 16 Nov 2015 15:25:26 EST The Festival of Light and Love http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6031823 I got up early this morning fully intending to do my usual exercises before getting ready for work. <BR> <BR> I got distracted by the news, full of death and anger and fear. <BR> <BR> The news is blaming 'Islamists' for the attacks, but Muslims are not our enemy any more that Christians or Hindu's or Buddhists. A group of people doing something in the name of a religion doesn't mean that everyone who practices that religion is at fault. <BR> <BR> It's very sad and very distressing and it... Sat, 14 Nov 2015 02:36:58 EST Walking alone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6031566 Today I didn't get round to doing my morning workout video. <BR> <BR> We decided to have early dinner (which I cooked from scratch - bolognese with a ton of vegetables (tomatoes, spinach, onions, mushrooms and sweetcorn, and a bit of beef mince) and a baked potato instead of pasta) but before I cooked I told my partner I wanted to go for a walk. He didn't want to, so I went on my own. <BR> <BR> I went round our long walk the wrong way round so that the bit that has no lights was definitely ... Fri, 13 Nov 2015 14:34:01 EST That moment when you realise... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6031094 I realised something tonight. <BR> <BR> I was trying to decide what to have for dinner and it felt like there was nothing in that I wanted, nothing quick and simple. <BR> <BR> I had a bowl of tinned soup and bread in the end. <BR> <BR> But the thing is, I have a fridge and freezer full of meat and fish and vegetables. <BR> <BR> Some point this year I stopped cooking, if food isn't easy to make, I don't have it. Which means I end up eating junk. Or picking at bits from the fridge - cheese,... Thu, 12 Nov 2015 17:25:36 EST Acceptance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6028514 Part of this new thinking of mine is accepting where I am now. <BR> <BR> I hate clothes shopping. I end up sad and annoyed and don't buy much. Up until recently there has been only one shop that I can buy clothes from and it's expensive and designed for the older lady <BR> <BR> I've also been putting it off for 'when I lose weight'. <BR> <BR> But that has resulted in me having two year old clothes with holes in that don't fit properly anymore and which are scruffy and have holes in them. <... Sun, 8 Nov 2015 02:18:06 EST Scale without Action http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6028048 I had a meeting yesterday that looked at statistics. One of the things that came up was that having all the data in the world is great, but if you don't do anything with it - if you're just striving for a number there's no point. <BR> <BR> The analogy used was about scales <em>192</em> and how stepping on the scale every day is all very well but unless you do the action, the numbers won't change. <BR> <BR> And I realised...this is me. I check the scale most days. I can talk the talk. I u... Sat, 7 Nov 2015 02:36:38 EST Walking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6021845 I've had a few days off work and we didn't walk for a couple of them. And then we walked Sunday and yesterday all the way round the lake. <BR> <BR> It's only about a mile but both of us enjoy it. My partner says that he can see I am less stressed when we walk - especially if we go when I get in from work. <BR> <BR> We've worked out a walk around a new ousing development for as the nights get darker, especially since the clocks have gone back, because the lake isn't lit at all and is a bit d... Tue, 27 Oct 2015 05:34:10 EST As long as you know... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6017960 I finally went to visit my friend who had a baby in June. I was nervy about going as I hadn't seen her for three years and I am at least two stone heavier than I was. I hadn't been to see her because we couldn't come up with a good time but I decided just to arrange to go for an afternoon and even thought it was nearly 5hrs of driving all together I was glad I went. <BR> <BR> We fell straight back into our old routines, it was like we hadn't seen each other for a month rather than three yea... Tue, 20 Oct 2015 03:57:17 EST Starting out slowly http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6001172 Today I have done the 10 minute interval walk video - I didn't push it too hard but I need to start somewhere and then I did 10 standing pressups against the wall. <BR> <BR> That's it. <BR> <BR> Nothing complicated and nothing difficult. <BR> <BR> I'm off to wake my partner up to see if he wants to walk before I go to work - but that's normal these days! <BR> <BR> I read one of the featured blogs about statring over but better - its sort of how I feel. I've never actually shifted much of... Mon, 21 Sep 2015 03:08:12 EST It's the little things... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6000042 It's been while since I have been on spark and things haven't been going so well. <BR> <BR> My weight hasn't been a good thing recently. I hit my heaviest ever last week - thankfully its down a bit today. And I have been feeling bloated and tired and struggling with the stairs. It's not much fun being me right now. <BR> <BR> But it's made me realise how much I want to change and it's made me realise that it has to come from me and I have to belive that I can. <BR> <BR> I read this article... Sat, 19 Sep 2015 02:47:45 EST It's all about that walk! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5986854 Well we have walked for 4 days out of 6 so I am happy. The week day walks tend to be shorter as we have been going in the morning before I go to work. <BR> <BR> Today my partner said he wanted to explore so we wandered around. We found the new train station and walked a tiny amount along a main road. We found industrial estates and a cut through back to 'our lake walk'. Looking at the map we probably added half a mile because we couldn't find a path we knew was there. But that's ok. <BR> <B... Sat, 29 Aug 2015 12:51:52 EST