PUDDLE13's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=PUDDLE13 PUDDLE13's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Enough! Stop Procrastinating! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6203488 Yesterday got up too late for exercise. Last night was not great food wise and I went to bed late. I set my alarm for 6 and honestly thought I'd end up snoozing like yesterday. <BR> <BR> But the body is an amazing thing and woke me up at 5.45 because I needed the loo. <BR> <BR> So I got up. I dug out my clothes and I came downstairs. I got a glass of water. And sat and sat and sat a bit more. It's quite warm here. I looked at spark. I looked at the news. I looked at the work out video for t... Wed, 20 Jul 2016 01:58:41 EST 296.5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6202741 Over the last few years, and the last few months, my weight has been creeping up. <BR> <BR> This morning I was 2.5 pounds over 21 stone or 296.5 pounds. EEp <BR> <BR> I absolutely refuse to let it go over 300. <BR> <BR> I've been a little disheartened lately because I'm still not quite under 2000 calories, and I'm not cooking/making food as I should. <BR> <BR> Today I had salad at lunch time and I was really hungry when I got home which would have been fine if we weren't going straight ou... Mon, 18 Jul 2016 18:23:52 EST A week of lates http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6201521 I've worked lates all this week - and food tracking has gone haywire as has what I've eaten. <BR> <BR> My stomach hates me as a result and I daren't even contemplate the scale. <BR> <BR> Snacks haven't been too bad. I've stopped eating chocolate all together. Something happened to someone I know, and I promised myself that I would give up chocolate until its all sorted out which could be months. <BR> <BR> Its much easier to ignore chocolate and say no to the food pusher at work (which I di... Sat, 16 Jul 2016 14:40:31 EST Days off are my nemesis http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6196272 I've gotten ok at tracking my food. At eating regular meals. At drinking a litre and half of water a day. At knowing when I am snacking. <BR> <BR> When I am at work. <BR> <BR> I have a week off - and routine and sense seem to have gone out the window. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I was only just over 2000 calories but I had rubbish for breakfast, crumpets for lunch and pizza for dinner. <BR> <BR> I have realised I need the routine of work to keep me steady. <BR> <BR> On a plus note - I have start... Thu, 7 Jul 2016 05:59:56 EST Surprised http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6193649 I went to a well known restaurant for dinner last night. I shared a starter with my friend and had a main course to myself. <BR> <BR> It was rice, chicken and various vegetables in a soupy sauce. It was nice - wasn't as nice as I had expected but that's ok. What surprised me was when i got home and poorly tracked it last night (I was tired) so redid it this morning (onto the right day as well!) <BR> <BR> I looked up the nutritional values on their website and this one bowl of food (not cou... Sat, 2 Jul 2016 14:49:27 EST Snacking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6191327 Snacking seems to be where I have the biggest problems food wise and what's pushing me over the calorie limits. <BR> <BR> Today I made myself not snack at work - the problem is boredom more that anything else (and a little bit or paranoia because my colleagues are very grumpy at the moment) - I had a peach and half a banana all day in addition to my breakfast and lunch. <BR> <BR> Being honest, by the time I got home I could have eaten my own arm, and I had some roast chicken. I've been buy... Tue, 28 Jun 2016 18:32:44 EST Food tracking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6190625 I'm almost up to a month with the food tracking. <BR> <BR> Foodwise I didn't think I was doing that well - I know I need to cook more and snack less and the tuck shop days at work are a struggle. I've binged a bit too <BR> <BR> BUT <BR> <BR> I have just looked at the last month's tracking - I've tracked as close as I can - Being honest, some figures may be more loose than others and the graph looks like a roller coaster - but there is a slow downward trend in the amount of calories I am ea... Mon, 27 Jun 2016 14:35:17 EST On the day the world went mad.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6188928 I finally found my why...and had an honest conversation with my partner about my need to lose weight and that I will be measuring portions. He said he knows he is a bad influence food wise and is going to keep well out of it to give me a good chance. <BR> <BR> Today has been the longest day. 6 hours sleep ish last night due to the craziness that was the UK referendum. <BR> <BR> Going into work and having everyone talk about it all day - I didn't actually tell anyone how I voted but a lot of... Fri, 24 Jun 2016 16:00:01 EST A Bingey Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6187766 Today has been a binge. I picked at some ham in the fridge before breakfast, my partner made me a bacon sandwich for breakfast, I got to work and hit the tuck shop almost immediately twice. Lunch was ok and then my mum offered me icecream - ok then. I had KFC on the way home - and they gave me free bits which I ate too. <BR> <BR> I knew after the tuck shop raid I was in a mood to eat all day - i realised I hadn't filled up my water bottle so I went and did that and controlled myself in the a... Wed, 22 Jun 2016 17:34:05 EST Fancy Dinner http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6185824 Today I had dinner with my family for fathers day. I knew it was going to be a biggie so I took it easy food wise today. Porridge for breakfast, the remaining two fajitas for lunch. I had one chocolate cookie and a small chocolate when someone offered them to me at work but no other snacks, and a litre and a half of water. <BR> <BR> When I got to the house, I was offered fizzy pop and I asked for a glass of water with orange squash. I had a very small amount of wine (about 2 fingers worth) i... Sun, 19 Jun 2016 17:24:10 EST Small steps and mini goals. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6185281 I've been diligently tracking food since 30th May. The last couple of days have been a bit hit and miss but I've gone and rectified that today. Yesterday was a really bad food day and I wasn't going to track everything because it was well over. But the only person that cheats is me so I have been back through it today and added in what was missing. <BR> <BR> Today I planned to try and eat better portions. <BR> <BR> Porridge for breakfast <BR> A tin of soup and two slices of bread for lunch ... Sat, 18 Jun 2016 16:30:47 EST Financial Well Being Check http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6179803 I work for a financial company and it's so important to keep an eye (preferably two) on your finances. Even as we get stuck in a rut with food, it's easy to be the same with finances - because money comes in and money goes out, interest rates change and so do the terms and conditions, and its easy to be complacent. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I found out the pay rise I was expecting wasn't as big as I thought - my manager had misunderstood the way it works. I was a bit upset but after a while I real... Thu, 9 Jun 2016 17:47:40 EST What have I learned after 7 days of food tracking? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6177795 <em>189</em> That I am eating well over what I should be <BR> <BR> <em>189</em> That I snack more than I thought <BR> <BR> <em>189</em> That I'm not eating enough veg <BR> <BR> <em>189</em> That I eat quite an amount of carbs / fatty foods - more than I thought <BR> <BR> <em>189</em> That in the 7 days I have been tracking I have been more conscious of what I am eating and the figures have dropped slightly <BR> <BR> <em>189</em> That I can estimate or use food... Mon, 6 Jun 2016 18:14:13 EST 5 days of food tracking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6176455 and I have learned I am eating too much mainly at dinner in the evening. <BR> <BR> Also...food tracking is weirdly fascinating (i spend all day dealing with stats it's unsurprising this would intrigue me). <BR> <BR> I need to start trying to reduce the amount I eat. Bizarrely I think ready meals may be the way forward for a few days just until I get the hang of the portion sizes etc. <BR> <BR> Hope you are all well :) Sat, 4 Jun 2016 16:14:47 EST Tracks in the sand http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6174546 So I have managed to track the food I ate today again. <BR> <BR> I'm well over the calorie range again and just over on carbs and protein. <BR> <BR> It's weirdly fascinating to add it all up and see what's happening. I've never managed it before. I'm getting to grips with it slowly. <BR> <BR> Not sure how tomorrow will be - I'm going out to lunch with my dad and I'm not sure how the tracking will work but I'll give it a go anyway. <BR> <BR> Today has been a pretty good day. The OH convinc... Wed, 1 Jun 2016 15:44:10 EST Oh. My. Goodness. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6173849 I find food tracking very difficult. I start and stop occasionally but have always prided myself on knowing what I eat. <BR> <BR> Well today I managed to track everything I ate for probably the first time. <BR> <BR> And <BR> <BR> OH <BR> <BR> MY <BR> <BR> GOODNESS <BR> <BR> I was well and truly over the upper calorie limit <BR> Well and truly over the carbs and fats limit <BR> <BR> About the only thing that was about right was the protein. <BR> <BR> To say I'm shocked is an understate... Tue, 31 May 2016 15:28:27 EST 1 stone or 14 pounds or 5% http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6173464 I just read a blog post titled - what would 5% mean to me. And I wondered - what would 5% of my body weight look like. <BR> <BR> And the answer is 14 pounds (there abouts) or 1 stone. <BR> <BR> I like round numbers and this seems really round. If 5 % of my body weight is 14 pounds that seems like a good target and a good place to start. <BR> <BR> I have put the 6 pounds I lost recently back on with a bit of interest so in effect I am starting (yet) again but that's ok. <BR> <BR> I've had ... Tue, 31 May 2016 01:46:49 EST We've all got that friend at work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6169547 The one who always has biscuits in their desk. <BR> <BR> Who brings in cakes <BR> <BR> Who pushes and pushes you to eat. <BR> <BR> Today I tried - I really did try to say no to the samosas and the cakes. <BR> <BR> I ended up having two samosas and one cake. <BR> <BR> It was insisted that I have two other cakes. They are in a sealed tub in my desk drawer at the moment because I was full and I didn't want them right then. <BR> <BR> I don't know what the difference is. Two of my other coll... Tue, 24 May 2016 14:14:53 EST What's right for me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6168970 This last week has been a bad food week. Not enough water - too much takeaway - far too much chocolate. I know this, and so the weight increase from last weeks loss is not unexpected. <BR> <BR> It happened and I'm moving on. <BR> <BR> Today was better - by no means perfect - I had breakfast and salad for lunch. It was coming home and eating a huge bag of crisps and some chocolate before dinner that was the bad part. It happened and I'm moving on. I did drink 2 litres of water today :) So th... Mon, 23 May 2016 17:32:32 EST Potatoes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6163542 I'm trying to have potatoes or rice instead of pasta - I know it's still a carbohydrate but it's a less processed carbohydrate. I have a theory that pasta and bread upset my stomach - I struggle to cut down bread, but pasta is easy - I substitute! <BR> <BR> Potatoes are far more adaptable than I ever realised. <BR> <BR> I've always bought new potatoes and then boiled them till they're soft and then stuck them in salad, or had them hot with a bit of butter. I'm not a fan of boiled old potato... Sun, 15 May 2016 16:52:07 EST Home cooked http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6162898 Well I stayed off work three days this week due to my cold - still feeling iffy but it'll get better. <BR> <BR> I've had a home cooked meal at least once a day everyday this week. Either lunch or dinner, dinner mainly. <BR> <BR> Today I nearly didn't have any of the good stuff (veggies and the like) and then remembered frozen leftovers of a tuna and tomato sauce that I made last week - so that was put onto pasta rather than just the pasta! <BR> <BR> I think it's making a difference - the s... Sat, 14 May 2016 15:33:16 EST Cooking and Colds http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6159505 I am trying to cook more often - it doesn't always work - but generally over the last week I have cooked quite regularly - and I'm enjoying the variety and the vegetables. <BR> <BR> I've bought more salad for lunches this week and I'll be making that up in the morning before I go to work. <BR> <BR> I think I can do streaks as long as it is one at a time and just for a week - one day I may manage to put it all together. <BR> <BR> I've got another cold which is a pain - it came on the night ... Mon, 9 May 2016 15:22:36 EST My Nemesis http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6156658 The tuck shop at work is right behind my desk - I don't even have to get up to get to it. And I find that because I am busy and a bit stressed I keep visiting it - at least once a day. <BR> <BR> Apart from yesterday <BR> <BR> When I had no change on me to buy chocolate. <BR> <BR> So I had two apples and a glass of squash. <BR> <BR> Apparently I can survive the day without chocolate! <BR> <BR> ***edited to add - by 'squash' I mean the drink - it's black currant and apple diluted with wate... Thu, 5 May 2016 02:43:52 EST Vegetables http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6155979 Apparently I don't seem to be able to make lots of changes at once. The exercise has slowed down but I'm trying to drink more water because work is busy and hot and last week I ended up dizzy and dehydrated so this week I am filling my water bottle and drnking it. <BR> <BR> I'm trying to get back to cooking and making lunches. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I had a big salad with tinned mackeral. I had 2 salad potatoes with it too and was surprised it filled me up till dinner. Everyone at work kept co... Wed, 4 May 2016 02:35:18 EST Why the scale doesn't matter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6155267 I'm finally starting to realise why the scale doesn't matter as anything other than a checking point. <BR> <BR> I weigh myself a lot - most days in fact - and not once - When I weigh myself I do it three times (or sometimes even four) because my scales give me varying different figures. <BR> <BR> Take today - I weighed myself - twice it was 20st 10lbs 7 twice and then it was 20st 12 3 twice. <BR> <BR> So does that mean I am 20 st 10 or 20st 12 or the mid point, 20st 11. <BR> <BR> Now I kn... Tue, 3 May 2016 02:32:47 EST Walking in the Hail http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6151471 Today was a pretty rubbish day at work. <BR> <BR> It was busy, my work is mounting up because I am helping out another area taking phone calls, and by the end of the day I was totally tense and stressed with white noise in my head and a feeling like I wanted to cry. <BR> <BR> So when I finished work I sent my partner a message that said am going for a walk when I get home. <BR> <BR> Bless him, he greeted me at the door with a hug and a cup of tea, then got changed and even though it was st... Wed, 27 Apr 2016 13:07:24 EST The spider in the bath http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6149659 There's a spider in the bath this morning. It can't get out and is about to get washed away. I was thinking this morning watching it, that I feel a bit like that. <BR> <BR> I'm trapped in a cycle of bad food and no exercise and every time I start to make progress something gets in my way. My partner's depression, my stress at work, all the jobs we need to do at home. And it threatens to wash me away. <BR> <BR> I don't want to be washed down a drain of fat and stiffness and back pain. But ri... Mon, 25 Apr 2016 02:01:14 EST Friday :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6143057 Well yesterday I managed to buy clothes for the wedding - second thing I tried on shockingly - I don't usually find things so easily. <BR> <BR> I drank all my water today but food wise hasn't been great over the last two days - work has been really busy and I have been supporting a different department and doing bit sof my job in between. <BR> <BR> It'll get better I am sure. Anyway have a good weekend all Fri, 15 Apr 2016 17:21:29 EST A cup of tea http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6141629 I'm sat here with a cup of tea. It's just what I need tonight. I have the radio on and its very calm. <BR> <BR> The day has been busy with work being a touch manic, and then take away at my parents as we had family visiting. I wasn't really in the mood but it was nice. <BR> <BR> I've drank 8 glasses of water today - that makes 5 days in a row which I think is about the record for the number of consecutive water drinking days - having squash seems to be making a real difference :) <BR> <BR>... Wed, 13 Apr 2016 17:12:03 EST April Showers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6139987 Well getting back into the swing of things is tricky. <BR> <BR> Exercise wise it hasn't really gotten going - but that's ok <BR> <BR> Food wise I have been doing better. I've been trying to get back to eating a bit more sensibly and I have cut out a whole load of chocolate over the last three days - makes for a grumpy puddle but never mind. I haven't gone completely cold turkey but a big cut down on where I was. <BR> The success story is my drinking water. Saturday I drank two litres, yeste... Mon, 11 Apr 2016 14:31:00 EST Getting back into the swing of things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6138240 Today I go back to work after a couple of weeks off. Its a chance to get back into the good routines. Don't get me wrong I have thoroughly enjoyed the last couple of weeks and feel quite relaxed. I got a load of stuff done that I needed to as well. <BR> <BR> That said, all my better (not good yet) habits went out of the window. <BR> <BR> So I went to bed at a reasonable hour and I am up this morning early enough to get started and do some exercise before work. <BR> <BR> I am going to try a... Sat, 9 Apr 2016 02:21:19 EST The bad, the good and the calm http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6135260 The bad - So I weighed myself this morning - three times because my scales sometimes can be a bit iffy. <BR> <BR> The bad news - 291.7 - 20 stone 11.7 <BR> <BR> Officially my highest weight yet and boy can I feel it <BR> <BR> Food wise yesterday was also a bit iffy but I ended the day with a piece of steak, and half a plate of salad, on one of the slightly smaller round plates. I had 4 squares of chocolate afterwards - which may not sound good but last week I ate the whole 100g bar! <BR> ... Tue, 5 Apr 2016 03:26:49 EST April Willingness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6134406 I'm not sure where March went. <BR> <BR> We were ill with a nasty cold bug that knocked us around - I lost something like 7 pounds in a week because all I was eating was porridge, then my partner's anxiety skyrocketed into bad panic attacks and I had to take him to a doctor. Work got really busy in the run up to Easter and here we are. I've had a bit of holiday from work the last week or so and I have another 5 days and I really needed the break to relax and take things easy and I feel bette... Mon, 4 Apr 2016 02:47:09 EST I haven't forgotten http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6117274 About spark or what I am trying to achieve. <BR> <BR> But i've come down with a nasty flu bug thing. I had a couple of days off work and went back when I probably should have stayed off. <BR> <BR> So I am sitting here tired and slow and full of a nasty cough. <BR> <BR> That said I weighed myself this morning and apparently I am 281.1 pounds. Probably because I haven't been eating all that much. Porridge and toast and soup. Have no stomach for anything else. <BR> <BR> That and that I am dr... Sat, 12 Mar 2016 07:27:46 EST I shouldn't have days off from work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6112332 I can be disciplined when I have to go to work each day. Getting up early doing a bit of exercise. Eating reasonably sensibly and then days off happen. <BR> <BR> Two every week. And lo and behold the bad habits are back. Poor food choices, not getting up to do my exercise. <BR> <BR> Ho Hum. That's part of what needs working on. <BR> <BR> Anyway new day fresh start. <BR> <BR> Today I plan to: <BR> <BR> <em>67</em> Eat a healthy breakfast and lunch and eat in moderation at dinner (am g... Sun, 6 Mar 2016 02:46:22 EST The Extra Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6108163 Yesterday was Leap Day - the extra day - in fact it was just like all the others - but that's OK. I had training at work. The trainer had bought maltesers, biscuits and grapes for the delegates being trained. And that was ok too. How did the check list go yesterday? Not too badly actually: <BR> <BR> 10 Minutes of Exercise - Check - I did a 20 minute walking video <BR> <BR> Home Cooked Dinner - Check - I had the remains of the chilli (admittedly on toast as we were going out). I've still got... Tue, 1 Mar 2016 02:00:21 EST Monday Musings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6107228 So yesterdays goals: <BR> <BR> 10 minutes of exercise: Check <BR> Home cooked dinner: Check - I made Chilli but added Spinach and Sweetcorn <BR> Be in bed by 10.30pm: Check <BR> Watch the snacks: Check - I had a cookie in the morning but then no crisps or chocolate after that. <BR> <BR> Today's Goals: <BR> <BR> 10 Minutes of Exercise <BR> Home Cooked Dinner <BR> Be in Bed by 10.30PM <BR> Watch the Snacks <BR> Do something fun <BR> <BR> Have a great day :) Mon, 29 Feb 2016 02:03:28 EST Thoughts and reflections http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6106794 I've been doing a lot of thinking over the last few days. <BR> <BR> I realised in the early hours of Friday that I have stopped cooking. I eat mainly processed food and very few veggies - and I always ate veggies. I'm not doing much exercise and my life seems to revolve around work and recovering from work and little else. The tuck shop and food generally has become my stress reliever, my walking stick if you will. <BR> <BR> It's not a healthy way to live and is why my weight is slowly cree... Sun, 28 Feb 2016 13:22:26 EST Ouch http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6088197 Stiff today after yesterday's strength exercises which were arm related. <BR> <BR> Back is stiff, I have a pain in my ribs which hurts when I roll over in bed and my knee half gave out on me yesterday morning - not pleasant, but better than it could have been (although I can hear it making crackly noises going down the stairs if its quiet) <BR> <BR> So today, I've decided to designate a rest day. I'm going to do the Jessica Smith under the weather routine which is 12 minutes of gentle movem... Fri, 5 Feb 2016 01:46:28 EST Feb 4th http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6087325 Well Wednesday disappeared in a blur. <BR> <BR> I had fruit for breakfast after the buffet the night before. My mum made me lunch which was a cheese toastie - she just makes me what ever she has in, and then I made fajitas last night. Chicken, red pepper, sweetcorn, spinach and a few cherry tomatoes. <BR> <BR> I've stopped by fajita mixes since I realised I have all the spices in the cupboard. I haven't quite got the quantities right yet but its a work in progress and it tastes better beca... Thu, 4 Feb 2016 01:25:23 EST Wednesday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6086437 Well I drank about 1.75 litres of water yesterday which was good. I'm really trying to drink plenty of water. <BR> <BR> Last night I went out for dinner with a friend. We decided to go to a buffet restaurant - we don't go very often. And I'm paying for that this morning in dehydration and a poorly belly. <BR> <BR> I ate far too much last night. Enjoyed the evening and the meal but now I don't even want breakfast this morning. <BR> <BR> Still day three of the jumpstart challenge is leg exer... Wed, 3 Feb 2016 02:29:50 EST Try http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6085479 I thought I'd try the 30 day jumpstart challenge. I don't seem to have time for the cardio aspect at the moment - but I'm doing their daily workout schedule - today is day 2. <BR> <BR> It was core exercises - planks, bicycle crunches etc. <BR> <BR> What have I learned? <BR> <BR> Well you're supposed to do 1 - 3 sets of 8 to 12 reps. <BR> <BR> Planks I managed 3 - not three sets, 3 reps. <BR> <BR> Bicycle crunches were 4 reps <BR> <BR> Lying Leg Lowers were better - I made 7 reps <BR> <... Tue, 2 Feb 2016 02:00:47 EST 1st for Feb http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6084468 Well January disappeared into a blur of stress and food and meh. <BR> <BR> I started out well and then it fizzled. Too many things on, too many stressful days, too many comfort foods. <BR> <BR> Not enough water, not enough exercise, not enough focus. <BR> <BR> I'm not making excuses but that's where we are. Back to 287.5 pounds. Back to feeling slow and bloated. Back to feeling generally unwell. <BR> <BR> So today is start again day. I've signed up to the 30 day jump start challenge which... Mon, 1 Feb 2016 01:57:23 EST Ah Monday - you're here again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6066372 Saturday night I didn't feel well - just a general felling of meh if you know what I mean. I had sat watching netflix after work and had sat too long. <BR> <BR> Not a good feeling. <BR> <BR> So yesterday I got up with good intentions. I did a 20 minute exercise video. Took breakfast to work, had lunch - wasn't a great choice but hey ho and then drank cola at the pub. I had a small dinner because I got back late. <BR> <BR> My food choices weren't great but I had three meals and importantly ... Mon, 11 Jan 2016 03:41:14 EST Getting back to it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6061794 Well yesterday was my first working day of the new year. <BR> <BR> I had intended to get up early and exercise but it never happened. The first day back was hard. I had no energy and my whole body felt heavy. <BR> <BR> So I drank more water and made a good food choice for lunch and dinner. Sadly I binged on chocolate after dinner but never mind. After all the Christmas sweets and chocolates I know it will take time to readjust. <BR> <BR> So this morning I got up in good time to start my 10... Wed, 6 Jan 2016 02:54:46 EST Positivity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6058592 We went to visit some friends for new year. My partner (OH) was feeling in control of his panic attacks (we got through Christmas day and Boxing day with 3 small ones!) - and it seemed like a good idea. These friends can be a bit hit or miss depending on their mood but we thought visiting them at their house would be better (they're always moodier at our house). These friends also freely admit they don't understand mental health issues, and last time we saw them one of them said they they hav... Sun, 3 Jan 2016 04:17:43 EST Monday Morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6050499 Well Monday is here again and for the first time in a while I am up and raring to go. I've gotten up early to do some exercise and the figure out how to blowdry my hair - I had it cut at the weekend and it's quite short now. <BR> <BR> It was funny - I sat in the hair dressers as she snipped and snipped and I looked at my face with the long hair round it and thought how old I looked but then she finished and dried it and straightened it and suddenly there I was. I don't change my hairstyle bu... Mon, 21 Dec 2015 02:29:21 EST Think about going to sleep http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6047969 So I went to the doctors - and the pain I have been feeling is because of the problems with my shoulder - that and I have big boobs (the doctors words but not in an offensive way) which in turn is giving me the pain because the wrong muscles are working all the time to compensate for the weak shoulder. (which makes sense because the pain started after I put a load of weight on (over a stone in a short amount of time) over the summer.) <BR> <BR> And the solution...exercise. Re-strengthening m... Tue, 15 Dec 2015 15:50:12 EST Feeling Positive http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6046855 Hello there!! <BR> <BR> I'm feeling much more positive than I have been. The pain I have been feeling has subsided and I am feeling much better. My shoulder has calmed down too. <BR> <BR> I broke my cardinal rule and consulted Dr Google - well NHS direct - and there is cyclical pain that women get sometimes relating to their menstrual cycle - and I think this might be my problem rather than all the bad things I have been imagining. (The pain I've been experiencing hasn't been my normal ach... Sun, 13 Dec 2015 13:05:19 EST Talking the Talk and Walking the Walk http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6044399 I talk a good game. I know what I need to do to lose weight - eat better (rather than less), more veggies, cook, exercise each day, be consistent, drink water, don't buy from the tuck shop. The list goes on. <BR> <BR> I know what works for me. And I know that when I get my head in the right place I can do it. I also know that I'm not good on the follow through. <BR> <BR> The walking the walk if you like. I can do it for a couple of weeks, three weeks or a month but then I lose my focus and ... Tue, 8 Dec 2015 16:15:16 EST