PSYCHOJULES's SparkPeople Blog PSYCHOJULES's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community My official last Post as Psychojules... Hey guys <BR> <BR> I'm taking time (while I have a break from thesis proposal work watching movies in German) today to make my new profile, and I just did (still tweaking the specs and the spark groups). Anyhoo, my new name is Mad_Writer_Tal <BR> <BR> I'll be looking for old and new sparkgroups again now and closing this profile out in a few minutes. Third time's the charm! <BR> <BR> --Talia Sun, 26 May 2013 13:52:20 EST after a long absence, I'm closing out my alter-ego to start fresh...again. PsychoJules' last post Well, its been weird, and I haven't held up my end of my personal bargain to do better for me. its been a crazy transition period and taking time worrying about other people and grades. I have totally neglected myself the past few months, when I should be down at least a dozen pounds. however, when you're not attentive to yourself, how should that be possible? <BR> <BR> I've discovered that I spend an awful lot of time when i'm daydreaming or thinking about different cool things in life, ... Sun, 31 Mar 2013 21:39:13 EST Ship's done, was a success...just some tweaks later on... This is what the ship looks like back in my shed and how it works--lots I'll have to tweak now that i've taken it out and messed with it during the event (which was damned fun). It got a bit damaged getting it out of my truck (by myself, I <BR> admit), but it told me a few things i can do to improve on it for next time...and that I just need to ask dad to put it in the back of his truck or get a lift next time, despite possible bitching about it (hee hee). Tue, 30 Oct 2012 20:23:04 EST T-minus 11 days, and I learned something new... Well, had some triumphs and failures in regards to design, but i've learned and will adapt the design a bit regarding the spaceship. just can't believe i have such a limited amount of time to get things done with the ship. Tomorrow's largely out and so is wednesday. I'll be working full throttle Thursday and Friday getting things done (and a little bit tonight, too, if i can) Tue, 16 Oct 2012 00:08:43 EST T-minus 12 days--hey, it looks like something! Well, i think i can get this done in a good portion of a week (the general building that is)--bad thing is i won't be able to work at all to do so (and i need to get some homework and research done asap for class--GAH! Sun, 14 Oct 2012 23:22:16 EST I'm so impulsive, and now i'm stressed...gah! granted, at least I'm aware of my stress at the moment (and not in denial of it like some times and then i get ticked off), and have taken some steps to relieve it. trouble is, they could cause me more stress later on (like missing work and class today just so i can get some things done). <BR> <BR> I was excited about this week when it came to monday. i had a job to work monday, one i want to work tues and thurs, and a job today, and some oral histories (and possibly a job) to take saturda... Wed, 10 Oct 2012 11:24:44 EST Day 10--late report repost, with lots of silly Seriously, i should've put a tag-line at the last part that mentioned "The hag speaks"--I mean, wow, i look like i went a few rounds against Cthulhu with a paintball gun. Glad i let myself get good sleep last night! <BR> <BR> Music is John Williams' "Cantina Band #1", from Star Wars Ep 4 (the good original first flick)--Speak not of Jar-Jar to me (grumble grumble) Sun, 7 Oct 2012 19:39:51 EST My Cthulhu costume to go with my spaceship... Took this pic a few days ago, mentioned it in passing, but totally forgot to put it in. Got a lot of work to do with it (as far as being able to see through the eyeholes of the hat while hiding it and keeping the lower half of my face covered) but it'll be fun. Gotta get the ship done first. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> At least right now, i'm working on my step-by-step to do list (naturally the painting parts are pending rain and... Sat, 6 Oct 2012 14:13:52 EST day 9-10, whereby I have a late "eureka!"... Well, funny how ideas seem to come about right when you've got a hundred other things you've got to do RIGHT NOW instead. Sigh. Oh well, i know what to do in the morning... Sat, 6 Oct 2012 04:04:22 EST Day 8--a bit of insanity, some planning, and gah! Didn't get squat done on the actual ship, but have had some interesting moments, good and bad (and with expense--cringe) Fri, 5 Oct 2012 00:07:27 EST Day 6 snippet--T-minus 24 days Didn't get as much done as I'd hoped, but I found myself reaching that moment when you're not sure what you should start doing next because it could be oodles of things. I decided to go in and do my homework (okay, watched "Inglourious Basterds" for the third time in two days and read some "firefly" fanfiction to wind down a bit, now I'm doing homework and such). <BR> <BR> Anyhoo, have a bit of a funny revelation. I thought of this as the VW Bug version of the Enterprise Shuttlecraft at fi... Tue, 2 Oct 2012 21:49:01 EST Day 5...evening brief Well, had some puzzling out to do, and more corner brackets to mess with, but the more I mess with this, the more interesting it gets.'re things gonna work from here? Tue, 2 Oct 2012 02:54:48 EST Day 5, T-minus 25 days til launch--morning brief Good thing dad's in Austin, i can get a good 12-14 hour workday out of this now (hee hee) Mon, 1 Oct 2012 11:11:22 EST 28 days from 2 of building the ship Forgive the shaky-cam in the beginning, i was all thumbs with the camera and forgot how much coffee i'd had. in making braces, some of the 2x2 pieces kept breaking because of the nails, so i had to go cut more and work it out. That one brace leg was giving me all kinds of funny hell. <BR> <BR> Music courtesy of Camille Saint-Saens, "The Carnival of the Animals, XIV.: FInale" and some assorted classical music from the local classical music station (the only one i can get great reception on ... Sun, 30 Sep 2012 17:53:41 EST 29 days til liftoff I'm building a spaceship for our haunted house/fall festival at school, and here's the first morning, prepping for what'll come. <BR> <BR> I'm doing it for the same reasons i tend to attempt to do anything--to see if i can. I want to know if i can stick with this and do it (and sweat and build muscle and lose weight in the pursuit), then i can stick with a proper goal and get back to weight loss, too. I'm hoping for the best and will do my best. Thu, 27 Sep 2012 11:19:35 EST two months since posting, and 2 days intense sleep deprivation, but oh what fun! Well, I did have my pseudo-lazy week, capped off my by a VERY lazy weekend (in the sense that I slept all day yesterday once I got home from work). It wasn't too bad. when it comes down to it, though, Shark Week is my superbowl, my time to relax and enjoy myself (and maybe get some cleaning and cooking done during commercial breaks and reruns). <BR> <BR> The week was awesome and prompted me to try another wearable bit of artwork. Well, i bought some white shoes to paint and finished a pai... Mon, 20 Aug 2012 18:09:46 EST What I've been up to since the semester, and the craziness... Well, this is a recent development (my involvement started Tuesday) and will continue to be a priority til the situation's taken care of. I'll be a night owl or vampire by the end (of the fruit, coffee and sherbet variety), i think. <BR> <BR> This is what I'm trying to help out with and do. My baby girl's sprung a leak somewhere and I'm determined to help out how I can. I love this place and wanna do all I can. For those not in the know (aka, not Houston area), this is the deal: <BR> <B... Thu, 14 Jun 2012 11:03:57 EST been a while, sobering day... sucks that i haven't been exercising or being particularly careful with myself, but i've been having a lot more fruit lately, so hopefully i'll be back on track soon. <BR> <BR> otherwise, this day was the pits. I just couldn't believe the kids today, and it wasn't all of them, but some of them just freaked me out. It wasn't their total disrespect of me so much, but their hatefulness toward each other. i couldn't believe the things coming out of their mouths, and it was hard to tell if thi... Wed, 21 Mar 2012 23:59:50 EST Interesting weekend of thought provoking movies, books, & conversations... Well, I guess my weekend technically ended at 4pm today (weird, i know), but lack of sleep and some whoa moments have made me really think. I'm pretty glad I didn't even try to find a job to go to work today--last night was bad, in and out of sleep (thanks to the thunderstorm which just abated after a good 15 hours). <BR> <BR> Well, Friday I went in to work, and it wasn't that bad. I had some good kiddos, nothing to really worry about, and I had to help out another teacher later in the day... Mon, 9 Jan 2012 18:45:05 EST Blah, blah, blah--okay few days, first day back at work blues... I was so surprised that the first day back at the school district was yesterday and I had a job. Well, i got the request late Tuesday night and went in. I brought my electric tea kettle and several types of teas, and oatmeal packets so I could have a quick lunch whenever. <BR> <BR> Breakfast wasn't healthy, a sausage mcMuffin and hash browns with large coffee (at least this location has good decaf--other locations look at me like a space alien when asking for a large decaf coffee). The on... Thu, 5 Jan 2012 13:45:20 EST Day 2 of the renewed fight--listening to the bod... I've been wishing my body isn't so annoying for the past few hours. I just ate dinner an hour ago, but my stomach just keeps on going. I don't want to eat anymore, and I'm already in my calorie range--and to top it off its 11pm and the last thing i want to do is have more food. <BR> <BR> Half the concern is gas, i bet. my stomach's full of air instead of all the food i'd been cramming into it the past several months. Well, some tablets should help with that, I imagine. I do have a bit o... Mon, 2 Jan 2012 23:56:06 EST My body's B****slapped me for two months of neglect. I'm listening... Well, it had to happen. I was on a roller coaster down hill and just couldn't stop myself, or wouldn't because I was too lazy to try. I mean, I was not exercising at all, which might have some understandability as far as the months of stress I'd put myself under, but I should've bounced back and re-evaluated what I needed to do and gone full throttle. That didn't happen. I ate total crap and ate and ate everything I could, even eating too much and purging that at one point. The one day I... Thu, 29 Dec 2011 22:05:24 EST Episode 2--whereby I say "AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!" (not sure if good or bad one yet). Sheesh. I at least got my homework and such done for DMST. We had an extention til next week, he said in class, but I've got enough on my plate for next week and I was done with that paper. I want this final exam to be a good grade, don't want to deal with that paper anymore. I had nothing else to say. Stinks that there was apparently another homework assignment that was there and then gone in the system, so that's due next week too--ugh. Makes me glad that the paper's done, that's for ... Thu, 1 Dec 2011 00:12:21 EST Most unrestful night of sleep ever...with some good and some anxiety in the light of day. I'm kinda glad i didn't get the chance to blog before I started working this morning, otherwise this would've been damned depressing...well, more than that. I've hit a bit of calm all of a sudden, but what a night. <BR> <BR> I was all but determined to make it an all-nighter because of all the things I have to do today. I mean, there's my homework assignment I need to work on before class this afternoon in DMST, the 6-pager research paper due today for DMST, and my 20 pager for history tha... Wed, 30 Nov 2011 11:16:31 EST 12:25 a.m., finally finished my first rough draft...yawn. Oh boy. <BR> <BR> Working on this thing, I gotta wonder if I'm rambling my head off through half of it and if I can even get anything that's relatively sane out of the whole mess. i ended up cutting and pasting a lot of it together, and moved some things around (that's one great thing about doing a rough draft so much earlier, especially when you look at something and its like "what the hell is THAT doing there? what was I thinking?" Works out great when I can do that. <BR> <BR> Oh, I al... Sun, 27 Nov 2011 01:40:43 EST 20 page research paper rough draft--start my engines. I wonder if i should play the "Rocky" theme before i get started or not, but that's probably another stall tactic at this point. I told myself i'd start when i got up this morning, but tried to sleep in a bit more. well, not really sleep, it was more i was trying to shut up my brain a bit and just make the noise go away. when i next looked at the clock, it was about 8:40 and i forced myself to get up. <BR> <BR> So i figured i'd start at 9, then realized i didn't make coffee and really nee... Sat, 26 Nov 2011 11:02:27 EST Some mental breakthroughs, body's busted...grr... I've done that thing again where I end up just totally screwing myself over for the past month and a half. I thought this woudl be my month to get things straightened out again, and here I am, messing it up by not doing anything. <BR> <BR> I've made myself crazy with overloading myself or just having to get through these breakthroughs--which have been busts for quite a while. My drive to finish this work goes alright, but I haven't exercised in over a month and started getting lazy eating ... Thu, 17 Nov 2011 13:45:08 EST Am I Nuts for Wanting to Chuck My Checking Account?... I couldn't believe when i learned I had an overdraft on that sucker, and then I took a look and found out my bank had taken out $7 as a monthly fee. Free Checking my fanny! I went online and found out that it was changed to "personal checking" this sept. 12th, and because i'm poor, they're gonna take out money i can't afford to lose from my checking account every month. sheesh, i thought they wanted us to spend money in this economy of ours--gotta keep saving so the bank doesn't take it al... Sun, 2 Oct 2011 18:18:58 EST Lots to learn, lots to try and do with scholarly pursuits... Well, first of all, they did raise money off two paintings I donated, and I know who bought them, and i know she'll get a kick out of them, so it was a good thing. <BR> <BR> I was on my way to my car dragging my paintings back with me (in the little red wagon) when i kinda just got a hit on an idea, that perhaps I could find a way to really rework that primary color one--there was something about it that i didn't like, like it just didn't have that painted look, for one thing. I like my oth... Wed, 21 Sep 2011 00:31:44 EST (SuperLong post--sorry) neglected myself a bit, for good or ill, but ill was certainly there... Oh, this was an intense exhausting week. I had one of those weird nights on Tuesday night where I dreamed I was working on my homework all night, but this time i woke up thinking i'd finished it. After class on wednesday i frantically tried to finish it and succeeded 3 minutes before deadline. it stank, i'm sure, but at least i can get a grade for it. ugh. i had to work on it between keeping an eye on 2.5 gallons of vegetarian chili. One upside Wednesday, though a bit disappointing, was... Sun, 18 Sep 2011 11:04:00 EST sorta went nuts, not quite on a whim, but...well... I'm going somewhat crazy i guess this weekend, and why not round out a good bit of madness by buying something you've never used before? I decided this week that i needed to get a netbook as soon as I could. Usually during the week if i'm not in class myself I'm substitute teaching, and this year i don't have access to the computer--not even on my break. Apparently, some people abused the priviledge of computer access somehow, probably checking the subbing boards for jobs during class (tha... Sun, 11 Sep 2011 14:39:10 EST 28 is my year--AKA, why my chess game is now for slow losing... I decided as a gift for my 28th b-day (aside from a haircut with highlights--never had one before and i needed something to hide my gray hair) and a silly t-shirt i'm wearing today, i was gonna join another sparkteam. I joined the slowest losers sparkteam <BR> <BR> the reason i'm doing it is because i make plans to lose two pounds a week and it just doesn't work out. life intervenes or i get sloppy, something. but aside from the first week i try, i've never lost 2 pounds a week. <BR> <BR... Fri, 2 Sep 2011 17:19:29 EST yikes, what a busy week--intense, frustrating, and FUN! well, i haven't been on the site more than 5 minutes at a time the past few weeks--sorry if anybody was wondering if i'd disappeared from the face of the earth on the forums, just not sociable. Except for 5 minutes last night (before exhaustion took over), i hadn't even turned my computer on the past two days. <BR> <BR> Well, at school we had the Welcome Back Bash and I was helping two student orgs. I made banners for them both (6 feet long, painted and construction papered and laminated w... Sat, 27 Aug 2011 14:35:52 EST Thinking up a relaxing/re-charging next week... Well, things're getting better, its just weird to not have to clean up pee stains and pick up poop after years of doing it...though the carpet seriously needs a good shampoo-vaccuming to make sure the residuals are gone (hee hee). <BR> <BR> Oh well, at least little Addey is hanging with her brother Dooney somewhere, maybe in a giant bean bag chair with her snoopy blanket, some dirty clothes i lost eons ago, and fleece blankets and old bedsheets galore. <BR> <BR> Funny thing, this pic was ta... Fri, 29 Jul 2011 23:38:46 EST was okay for a monday...then it all came crashing down I'm a bit upset. I dunno what exactly i'm upset over, or why i should be more upset (it seems) about the fact that I wasn't very observant today or missed something huge more than the fact that I lost little Addy Mae. <BR> <BR> My chihuahua's been hanging on forever. she's been going blind and won't go outside to poop or pee because she's small and nervous. there're lots of things i should have noticed yesterday and today. I picked her up and gave her hugs and such, but she's been barely... Mon, 25 Jul 2011 22:13:48 EST Enjoying challenges with my new job...will have to figure more things out later. My first "day" on the job at the Battleship was really interesting, and I was absorbing everything i could. Didn't get a lick of sleep (at least, not real sleep--it was that "sleep" where you're still and such, but often very conscious of the noises and stuff around you). It was very cool, and I was so happy to do this job--it helped that the first night I worked it was the girl scouts (which probably helped the very male-dominated crew as much as it did me!) It was great to be there and h... Tue, 21 Jun 2011 12:59:39 EST Good day all around today--and a JOB!!! Last saturday during my restoration day, I bumped into somebody from the overnight program on the Battleship. We got talking and he gave me the application and stuff to work with and said we could talk and tour later. <BR> <BR> Well, today I had a substitute orientation day I had to do (thought it best to get it over with) and we left a bit early. I headed toward the battleship afterward and talked to some guys, then went to turn in my paperwork. I'd brought lots of stuff with me because ... Thu, 9 Jun 2011 20:49:31 EST Comicpalooza was a blast! wow--it was pretty fun, and my 2nd con, too! It was pretty awesome, and I saw a lot of authors and people i'm sure I'd see again some day soon (even bumped into somebody i volunteer on the battleship texas with--that was interesting). <BR> <BR> It was a bit tiring Friday because my relief was ill and was very delayed (an accident didn't help any--traffic was stalled a couple of hours), but things went pretty cool at times. I did manage to get around and see a lot of artists and such. Satu... Sun, 29 May 2011 23:20:33 EST Interesting day today, full of fun and some thinking... Well, I knew it'd be a bit tiring, volunteering at the festival at the battleground today. It was lots of fun in the long run, and I got to see a few cool things. One in particular was a booth, which I saw first thing this morning and helped set up a little, that had DVDs they were selling. The husband helped produce it and it was neat hearing about what they did to make it--at the end of the day, of course. It was a DVD about the life of Sam Houston, and I was so happy to get my hands on... Sat, 16 Apr 2011 23:55:59 EST Bad week for getting things done, good for learning other stuff, sleep's gotten better... Well, the Chili Cook-off went pretty well. We didn't win any awards for our team, but we were having so much fun it didn't seem to matter. The Jell-o did pretty well as the day got hotter, but I ended up just giving most of it away. Note to self--next time only make 40 bags, not 80, for some events. We were using them as prizes and some bought 'em too, but eventually when there was an hour and a half left I started giving some away to anybody who gave $2 or more to the dunking booth, or t... Fri, 8 Apr 2011 12:05:09 EST Preparations for Team Zombie at our chili cookoff... whew! I've been a busy girl and a half the past few weeks and can't believe i haven't posted a blog in about a month. yikes on that, i wanted to make it a habit. there were so many things going on, but i posted in teams so much i guess it felt redundant. <BR> <BR> either way, there's so much i've still gotta do before 7 am Saturday--whew! i have a knack for thinking of weird stuff and adding to my workload on into epic proportions. I can tell as new things crop up in my thinking and my ... Thu, 31 Mar 2011 16:41:44 EST busy week, full of awesome surprises and revelation! Oh boy, the busiest part technically just finished about half an hour ago...not counting the rough draft of a paper due 7 pm tomorrow that I hadn't started yet (oops), but wow. yeah, that holdover of paper due LAST tuesday not turned in til friday night creeping back up on me...oh well. I remember how to write one now and it'll take me half the time--footnotes are what kill me the worst (ugh). <BR> <BR> I mean, I'm gonna be a busy chick the next several months, and part of me is wondering ... Tue, 1 Feb 2011 00:23:03 EST Exhausting, semi-productive week. Tomorrow I get back to me... I was going to work tomorrow, but I just can't bring myself to. its been such a lousy day today as far as productiveness--as a matter of fact, the whole week has. <BR> <BR> I'll tell you the great stuff--it seems the bake sale I took a day out for worked very well. I was gonna stick around a few hours and then work on my paper, but I drew a total blank. I was very happy to help raise money for the VDay campaign and talk with people about it, and it made me feel like I was doing something ... Thu, 27 Jan 2011 22:15:28 EST Naval History Buffs Sparkteam made--couldn't resist anymore!!! I just kept gushing over and over about my enthusiasm the past couple of months about history and battleships and such (especially the Texas). Finally I couldn't stand it and decided to go look for a naval or shipwreck enthusiast sparkteam. I couldn't find one, so I decided to start one for everybody to get into. <BR> <BR> I spent most of last night watching "Sink the Bismarck", the documentary on youtube, and then this morning I found "Sink the Tirpitz". It really made me wanna do some d... Tue, 18 Jan 2011 17:04:20 EST Fun fun saturday, sore sunday, and peachy monday Hope everybody's been having fun this holiday weekend (dad and just about everybody else had to work--no mail, bummer--i've got several books coming in, darn it). Saturday I was gonna be out all day, but after that first 5 hours or so, I just had to get home. I thought one of dad's packages was coming in, but it didn't (I hate when that happens). <BR> <BR> Anyhoo, Saturday was all kinds of fun. I went 0830 on the Battleship Texas hard hat tour and tagged along with the other group volunte... Mon, 17 Jan 2011 18:09:32 EST The days that try patience and sanity...ugh. I've hit ultimate blah on my scale of great and sucky things today. Not good. It started okay, meaning when i woke up, I didn't feel like "oh, things're gonna reek today" and I felt rested. That was good. Today was a late arrival day at school so I didn't have to be there til about 9:30, which is interesting. I scheduled an oil change (I really needed one) for about 8 am (got there 15 minutes early), and was told it'd be about 9 before it was done. Okay, that was fine. <BR> <BR> But app... Thu, 13 Jan 2011 16:31:49 EST Something learned and new...its a draw Well, I blew my vegan status today when somebody brought pizza to work (they'd had a pizza thing in 6th period and had extra slices left, which everybody in the lounge had at least one of). I ended up with a couple myself. In my defense, I hadn't planned very well and I really was hungry. Another thing that probably hurt me was that I was so excited to be getting back to work and earning a paycheck that I couldn't sleep all night, no matter how I tried (and my dog was walking around most o... Fri, 7 Jan 2011 23:03:49 EST The trio of good to work a schedule Next week i'm gonna be crawling the walls busy, back at work and trying to get ready for class in 2 weeks and such. Ugh. <BR> <BR> The first thing i have to do (other than a cup of coffee and going shopping for veggies this morning), is figure out how to get to sleep earlier at night so that I can wake up earlier (woke up at 7:30, fell back asleep, didn't wake til 9:30--weird). That'll cut into study time and relaxation and whatnot, but it'll be worth it if the results keep coming. <BR> ... Thu, 6 Jan 2011 15:10:43 EST Valuable planning lesson learned today... Well, today was my first day going back to vegan...technically. I had some pasta salad that had feta cheese in it that i needed to finish off, so today was more my "do vegetarian on to vegan" day, which I totally planned for. <BR> <BR> But there was something I wish I'd thought about a lot sooner regarding eating and exercising. I hadn't had a good day of that in some time (and after the food tracker got working again, i got to get really into figuring out my intake again). My issue was t... Mon, 3 Jan 2011 22:57:01 EST MUCH better today than at Christmas... Aside from the awful lack of sleep, that is. I mean, i heard people shooting guns and popping firecrackers til 2 am, and i tried so hard to sleep. i got barely any, but the fact that I was starting late wasn't going to be a humungoid issue after all--my aunt had a late night, too and they were just getting started when I arrived with my food. I just took the time to add avocado to my pasta salad and off I went. <BR> <BR> It wasn't too cold today, but those little bursts of wind gusts got ... Sat, 1 Jan 2011 22:22:52 EST