PRINCESS_PIA's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=PRINCESS%5FPIA PRINCESS_PIA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ ITS WORKING!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5462067 I really am in disbelief, well I hate that word, because I am in shock and wondering if my scale is off lol. So I have been on my healthy plan for 2 weeks now, and I haven't weighed myself since I went to the docors office like 2 1/2 weeks ago ( I know the scale isn't the same, but I accounted for a couple pounds). So I LOST 11 LBS (im saying more like 9-10 lbs) but still I LOST THIS IN 2 WEEKS!!!! WOOHOO THIS HAS NEVER HAPPENED. but I think its that I also have been swimming and that burns... Wed, 21 Aug 2013 13:43:41 EST Crisis!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5445601 It's been too long since I last focused on my health and losing weight and I have suffered for it. <BR> <BR> I recently went to the doctor 2 x this past month and I am at 360lbs!!! I couldn't believe it. My default thought when I saw the number was "oh its midday and im wearing clothes" wow! clothes doesn't add 20lbs. It seems like the last time I looked I was 338 and now im at 360 and it hasn't been that long. In the last year and a half I have gained 40 lbs! <BR> <BR> I never thought Id... Mon, 5 Aug 2013 19:19:10 EST Day 24: Hopeful http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5227663 So, since my last blog I didnt have the greateast weekend food wise, however, my consciousness rose, and I making better choices, the full blow preparedness is not there...I still havent gone grocery shopping, however, the dishes are washed (minus the tupperware) So that helps. <BR> <BR> I know I can do it, it is just difficult once I get on a path of unhealthy eating. I have talked about it in therapy, and didnt realize how deeply engrained my food issues are...and I know working on it i... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 19:36:00 EST DAY 20: WTF Happened?????? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5222086 I am sitting here, just coming from a work lunch at Yard House, after eating literally over 3000 calories... <BR> <BR> I just... <BR> <BR> dont know what is happening to me...it all started this past Saturday. I was eating within my calorie range or a couple hundred over, but then I just went insane. <BR> <BR> I have since Saturday, tracked all my food, but I clearly have not put any thought into my calories...I have eaten whatever I wanted without putting thought into it and then I tra... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 19:08:51 EST Day 18: Being Kind to Myself...NO SHAMING! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5218704 So before this weekend, I was tracking everything healthy and not healthy, I was being ACCOUNTABLE...I also was practicing being Kind to myself. This is a new concept, because before when i ate someting "unhealthy" I would get so upset with myself, I would feel like I just undid all the hard work I had been doing, now I am trying to allow myself room for imperfection and realize it is normal to crave ice cream and pizza, etc....its just either getting a lower calorie version next time, or b... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 13:39:44 EST Day #13: EMOTIONAL EATING http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5211860 So lately I have felt so depressed over my weight and more over my PCOS symptoms (specifically alot of hair loss). But I noticed I would cry and complain over it all, and I just wouldnt start to make the change. I was successful in losing 35 lbs a couple years ago with SP, but then again, I gained it all back. I noticed a pattern, ive lost and gained back(plus more) the same 35 lbs for the past 5 years. I noticed that when I hit 30-35 lbs, something happens, not sure if its a plateau, but... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 17:08:55 EST REALLY struggling..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4942414 Its been a while since ive been really active on SP. I started 1/13/11. I lost 35 lbs, and now ive gained them all back since then. I have always been able to start a healthy eating plan, just never stick to it past 3 months or so. But since falling off, I have found I cannot start for the LIFE of me. I dont know why, and I dont know whats going on with me. I am so depressed about my weight. I look at myself and dont recognize who ive become, mind you i have ALWAYS been overweight, however, n... Mon, 25 Jun 2012 22:40:43 EST 2011 Recap: Wasted year????? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4652889 So I find myself upset because I look back on 2011 and feel as though it was a year wasted. I started on 1/13/11 at 238lbs. I lost 35 lbs by April. Started my job on 3/25/11. started not tracking and found it hard to BALANCE IT ALL!!! Before my job, I was unemployed, had graduated Graduate School with my Master's in May 2010. So I was literally focused 100% on weightloss. I didnt realize how difficult it was going to be maintaining my momentum with a job. Especially my job. I basically do hom... Mon, 2 Jan 2012 23:39:37 EST Being HONEST with myself......lessons learned http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4426799 So I have been off my wellness program since March...I am still on SP and at time I will track, but mostly I have been just eating and drinking whatever I wanted with no thoughts about it. I would make excuses, well still at time am, so lets change that to Making excuses as to why I can't cook, or track, or plan out meals, or exercise. So Since I started this journey in January, I was consistently tracking and doing great up until end of March, when I started my new job. Prior to this I was u... Sun, 14 Aug 2011 20:17:46 EST Why Do I Keep Sabatogating Myself???? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4193344 So I am so confused as to why I am all of a sudden sabotaging myself. I have been overweight, obese, forever. But when I have lost weight in the past the most I lost was 30 lbs in 2008. Well I lost my job and starting eating bad back then and gained it all back plus 30 more lbs. Well I told myself I would be sooo ecstatic when I lost over 30 lbs...well I got to 30 lbs last week, then all of a sudden I started eating worse and not tracking...well I stopped tracking for like 2 weeks, which is n... Wed, 27 Apr 2011 04:01:07 EST APRIL IS THE MONTH....I will do this! The scale will not control me! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4136885 So the last 2 weeks have been rough for me, I have not been on my plan 100% like before. I began this journey being so happy with the small successes like drinking 8 glasses of water a day, taking my vitamins, eating a nutritious wholesome meal, no drinking soda, etc. Every thing positive I did I celebrated. All of a sudden I started only noticing the numbers on the scale and started to lose track of why I am doing this in the first place. I want to be healthy, inside and out. I want to eat f... Sat, 2 Apr 2011 14:38:59 EST Why am I sabotaging myself? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4133383 Ive been at this for 2 1/2 months and was doing great up until about 1 1/2 weeks ago. I got a new job, which I am thrilled about, it came at the exact right moment. See the thing is my bf has been buying the groceries for a few months since I couldnt do to having no money. Well I was doing great still. Then, your going to think this is weird but, I am the kind of person who if the kitchen isnt clean and organized it deters me from wanting to cook and prep my food. Well, the last week we have... Fri, 1 Apr 2011 02:38:08 EST So frustrated w/ the scale.....and I gave in!!!! ugh Why????????? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4121475 So since last week wednesday my weight has not gone down, it has gone up...I am so frustrated and not understanding why...as of last week I lowered my calories so I thought I was going to see more loss, but instead I saw only a gain. I step on the scale everyday hoping thats the day the scale goes down, and so far nothing. I have been eating in my range all week except yesterday...It got to me. I woke up in a bad mood, got on the scale and it read 314.6...0.6 more than last week..ugh. I then... Sun, 27 Mar 2011 12:59:49 EST Emotional Rollercoaster... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4107812 So the last few days I have been anxious, frustrated, excited, elated, and a whole lot of other emotions...as you may or may not know I have been unemployed for a while and I was looking for a job and just was taking longer than expected...well finally I got offered a job (which I accepted) on St. Patrick's Day. So since then I have been super excited but also anxious and frustrated. I am anxious about performing well at my new job, I have had bad luck in the past, and just hope I get my st... Mon, 21 Mar 2011 15:35:06 EST All things are possible....patience is the key (My realization) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4099382 I feel as though I am floating on a cloud right now, okay well maybe not a cloud..lol. But I am so happy. Okay I will tell you why...I graduated in May with my Master's Degree in Social Work. I told myself I would take a couple months off to just BREATHE....i have been going to school straight through all my life...yes...high school, college, and then graduate school. INTENSE! So i figured I deserved a break before I hit the job market and started my career. Well, I had been on unemploymen... Thu, 17 Mar 2011 19:51:27 EST Calories all over the place.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4083421 I always look at my nutrition feedback and the graphs...I notice my calories are all over the place up and down, not steady at all...and my sodium is usually always above the recommended 2300mg...why cant I seem to be able to eat a steady calorie range...well I'll tell you why..I have this problem of being on a weird sleep schedule, not because of work, I dont work, no kids, nada. Just me, If I stay up too late its hard to fall asleep and there it goes, im on a bad sleep cycle where I am up ... Fri, 11 Mar 2011 07:56:45 EST Going out w/ friends....ugh I forgot the temptations... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4071013 So if you knew me you would know I love love love to spend time w/ friends. My friends are my lifeline. Since my new lifestyle change I havent gone out w/ friends that much, not because I dont have time or anything, it just happens to be, I am struggling w/ finaces right now. I am unemployed and broke, so I am literally rationing my gas...lol. Anyways, when we go out, we usually end up eating and all of us are overweight by alot so we eat pretty unhealthy foods. Well yesterday I decided, wel... Sun, 6 Mar 2011 18:13:40 EST What is wrong with me? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4050029 Well....I am feeling mildly depressed lately....the last week I havent lost much weight..I weighed myself 2 days ago and it went down to 320.6 and then 322.2....i did it again and it stayed at 320 so i was excited cuz that meant i lost 6 lbs in 2 weeks...my goal of 3 lbs a week...then i weighed myself yesterday and it was 322.6 it wasnt a gain...I just think the 320 actually was 322.6...which sucks. It has been more dififcult for me to stay on my eating schedule...like every 3 hrs...I have b... Sat, 26 Feb 2011 18:59:01 EST Progress...but..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4043370 So....I am on day 42 and its going good so far...im down almost 16 lbs...which is great. I havent had ANY fast food this whole time...which is amazing...I ate McDonalds, Jack-in-the-box, and other fast food DAILY!!!! At one point when I was super busy (grad school and work) i was eating 3 meals a day of fast food...so it a big achievement...also I am cooking DAILY!. Which is big for me...I am very fearful of new things and experimenting...i was boring with my cooking only cooking the same 3 t... Thu, 24 Feb 2011 05:05:08 EST Lost without planning.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4030527 So February has been great...I have been on my plan consistently...however...I am struggling with starting exercising. Also the last week I had gained weight and didnt understand why...I weighed in like everyday and in a week (yesterday) i had gained 1.6 lbs...but then today I weighed in and I lost the 1.6+1.5 extra...so I was about 3lbs lighter this morning than yesterday morning...i dont undertstand it...maybe i was retaining water. I dont know. Also the last 3 days I have not eaten enough... Sat, 19 Feb 2011 15:27:57 EST My realization........its a big one http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4004631 Well I've been at this like 3 weeks. My lifestyle and nutrition change. I like it. I feel a lot better not having the digestion problems and headaches like before. Have more energy. Feel great abou what I'm to take care of my temple. The one and only body God gave me. I need to be thankful and not destroy it. I need to worship it and love it every day for what it is. I am truly Essex to have this functioning body that gives me energy everyday to do everything I need and want to do. I am so gr... Wed, 9 Feb 2011 16:49:42 EST Close to bunout??? already....or do I need a change???? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3993041 So I have been tracking my calories since about the 13th of January 2011. I have not exercise until this week....i didn't want to burn out by going too hard in the beginning and losing steam shortly after....so I just focused on my food...but the last couple days have been very difficult for me..I find myself just grabbing food out of the fridge without it being a time for me to eat (I eat every 3 hrs, 3 snacks, 3 meals). I am mindlessly eating...and at the same time I find myself becoming "... Sat, 5 Feb 2011 16:23:28 EST