PRINCESSAMY's SparkPeople Blog PRINCESSAMY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community After a year I have had a very intents year since I have been on here. <BR> <BR> I am taking my life back. I been dealing with doctors, stress and therapy. This will not be a very long blog. <BR> <BR> I am being focus as much as possible. <BR> <BR> I am rededicating my life to my healthy style. Wed, 16 Apr 2014 07:15:44 EST Last Day The movie <em>272</em> was so funny!!! I was laughing all the way through. We had a great time. I took her out to lunch at Olive <em>190</em> Garden. It was a wonderful <em>214</em> idea. <BR> <BR> Today, it is my last day at my current job. <em>40</em> I leave in an hour after turning in my badge. The floor gave me a going away <em>236</em> . I received a card <em>203</em> and flowers <em>375</em> . <BR> <BR> I am glad I dressed <em>346</em> nicely. <BR> <BR> ... Fri, 10 May 2013 11:34:55 EST Prayer please I only have a few days left at my current job. I am getting really nervous how my day will be at the new place. <BR> <BR> I have started backing up pictures. My office looks so bare. This has been my life for almost two years. My first steady employment in the first time in my life. <BR> <BR> I need lots of prayer! Maybe a couple of <em>338</em> 's and <em>437</em> 's too!!! Wed, 8 May 2013 11:49:42 EST Yippie! As much as I didn't want to have Monday <em>39</em> be here... it is going quickly!!! <em>12</em> <BR> <BR> That works for me. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Randy is on his way to have <em>180</em> lunch with me.... That is a very positive <em>104</em> motivator to get me through the day. <BR> <BR> Jamie and the kids had their first <em>361</em> visit to the gym this weekend. The kids absolutely loved the <em>237</em> pool. <BR> <BR> The best part everyone was sleeping by 9 o... Mon, 6 May 2013 14:02:34 EST Things are getting better! Good Morning! Happy Friday!!! <em>100</em> <BR> <BR> I called on my gym membership again. My family is all on! We will going to the gym tonight together. We going to take the kids to swim. <em>237</em> <em>321</em> <BR> <BR> The kids are doing very good at their chores. Since it is going very well. We are going to add more chores. Plus, we are going to improve the reward system. I had the kids make up a list of things that would like to do. It is really nice that I don't hav... Fri, 3 May 2013 10:48:20 EST Blessing... So glad to have a couple of those!!! I got a job offer. I have happily accepted it! <em>67</em> My last day at my current job is May 10th. My first day for my new job is May 16th. <BR> <BR> I am taking a few days to myself. <em>100</em> <BR> <BR> Well... my gym final approved my family application. They offered me a 10% discount. That is awesome! Next week, my family will be able to get their membership cards. <em>185</em> <BR> <BR> Kaleb graduated from Baby Net Speech Therapy on Tuesday. He passed his tes... Thu, 2 May 2013 14:08:12 EST Book and Movie Good Morning <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> My floor in the laundry is fixed. The piping will be fixed today! <em>104</em> Then my family can start doing laundry again. <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> Randy, the kids and I all cleaned the living room, kitchen and kid's bedroom. The house is feeling better. <em>36</em> <BR> <BR> Jamie is still sleeping on the couch. I am still waking up in the middle of the night. I got back on meds to help me cope. So far 11 days and still not working. ... Mon, 29 Apr 2013 11:07:16 EST What should I do.... dealing with a dilemma? My interview went very well. They said they would call either last night or today. I didn't get a call last night. I may get a call tonight. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Dilemma <em>100</em> <BR> <BR> At work, I was told by an supervisor that I should apply within the corporation. The best part, the position is in a location closer to my house. That means, I wouldn't have to deal with the people I currently work with. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Now, I am not sure what to do? <em... Thu, 25 Apr 2013 14:41:39 EST 1 Blessing 2 Blessing Count with me Blessing I have an interview today!!!! It pays .50 less then what I am making now. If things go well, I won't be a temp and I believe I get benefits too. It is better hours as well! I will know more after work!!! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I also called my gym today to see if I can put the rest of my members of my household on membership.... <em>100</em> <BR> <BR> It is a YES!!! <em>104</em> That makes me super duper excited about this. <BR> <BR> I have been very worried about my best... Wed, 24 Apr 2013 14:10:46 EST Things are coming together just not the way I intended... Good Morning!!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> MY GOOD NEWS IS...MY BOYFRIEND GOT A JOB TODAY!!!! <em>283</em> <em>236</em> <em>321</em> <em>335</em> <em>458</em> <em>438</em> <BR> <BR> He has been going crazy the last couple of weeks. I am very happy for him. He really need to have something that he can be proud of. <BR> <BR> <BR> I was blessed to find a dryer that works which was in my price range. <BR> <BR> I ended up getting a beautiful dresser for my room for the third of th... Mon, 22 Apr 2013 14:10:02 EST Rain Rain go away come back another day What a rainy day!?! <em>257</em> <BR> <BR> It is so annoying to have someone smile in your face... and know really what they are really thinking! Action speak way louder than words!!! <BR> <BR> I am aggravated. I will get through this too. Fri, 19 Apr 2013 14:23:12 EST Happy To have A good Day!!! Thursday... I found a new dryer that I can afford today!!! I am so grateful. I also just finished a wonderful lunch with my best friend. We talked and laughed. I felt normal... such a long time since I have felt that way. <BR> <BR> One step at a time. <BR> <BR> I am still putting applications in. I have an interview today after work. <BR> <BR> I am just praying that God leads me in the right direction. Thu, 18 Apr 2013 15:38:01 EST Trying to stay Positive Good Morning.... <BR> I am disappointment. <em>39</em> <BR> I haven't heard back from the job I wanted yet. They got my test results in on Sunday. I just want out of my job. I want something better that I am happy doing. <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> I use to love my job...come in early, stay late... happy to be here! Then life happen, now I dread coming in the morning... 5 minutes before I am suppose to be walking out the door. <em>206</em> I am leaving. <BR> <BR> I am ready for... Wed, 17 Apr 2013 12:06:39 EST Veggie Plants... bunk beds... Oh Wee...What a weekend!!! My family and I prepared and planted a garden this weekend! I have tomatoes <em>258</em> , peppers <em>267</em> , eggplant, zucchini, yellow squash, cucumbers <em>371</em> and watermelon <em>491</em> plants in the ground. <BR> <BR> That was a lot of work to build this garden. That was the day the rototiller decided it wasn't going to start. So we had to hoe and pick axe at the ground until the ground was prepared. <em>377</em> This is the boys' first garden. It is a very impo... Mon, 15 Apr 2013 15:38:56 EST Lugs and a Prospect! Happy Friday finally arrived!!! <em>67</em> <em>410</em> <em>437</em> <em>236</em> <em>321</em> <em>179</em> <BR> <BR> Last Night, Jamie, Randy, two of the kids and I checked out the new gym in our town. <em>328</em> We all agreed we did not like the set up. The price was ok for the amount of people we have for the membership. However, ever watching the Planet Fitness commercials... well we found the people they call "Lugs" hangout. <em>84</em> I didn't feel comf... Fri, 12 Apr 2013 14:53:04 EST Short... blog today Very emotional day... Best friend had to pick up her husband's ashes <em>24</em> Thu, 11 Apr 2013 15:33:02 EST Look at me motivating others!!! I was told I was motivating! <BR> <BR> I couldn't believe the words I heard. <BR> <BR> Who ME? She was really talking to me. <BR> <BR> She mention that she has been watching me since I started at my job. I drink water. I eat veggies all the time. I talk about going to the gym. I join in open discussions of what I have learned. I brought pictures in from when I have started. <BR> <BR> I am honestly impressed that someone was paying attention to me! Wed, 10 Apr 2013 15:12:57 EST Prayer request Trying to improve my life from where I stand is so difficult. <em>234</em> I wish I could stand on top of a mountain <em>280</em> so I could really see what life had in store. I would like to move through life without hitting land mines. <em>386</em> <BR> <BR> Since I can't... I have to leave the directions, reasons and control in God's hands... Pray for me I have a rough <em>27</em> road ahead. I have already step on some pit falls. <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> 1. Best frien... Tue, 9 Apr 2013 14:18:04 EST Jesus loves me this I know.... Good Morning... <em>375</em> <BR> <BR> I got a full night sleep! <em>334</em> Two nights in a row with a good rest! <em>102</em> I feeling much better. <BR> <BR> I am so proud of my best friend. She is actually attempting to clean her room. I don't know if I could be able to do that this soon. It makes her feel better. I am very happy for the attempt. <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> I am attempting to move on from the tragied. I started my job hunt again. <em>24</em> I am st... Fri, 5 Apr 2013 14:18:43 EST Better...slept Good Morning <em>67</em> <BR> <BR> I got home from work and my house was clean and pretty. Randy, my boyfriend and Jamie, my best friend, rearranged the house. It was wonderful! It felt very comfortable. <em>321</em> I actually sat out in the living room. We watched television. I started laundry. <BR> <BR> After the kids were asleep, Randy said the sweetest thing to me. He looked into my eyes and said "I know that you haven't been going to the gym as much as you should and like... Thu, 4 Apr 2013 12:21:11 EST Breathe... some day really soon I hope to feel normal again. Morning... <em>67</em> <BR> <BR> Randy put his two week notice in at work. They decided to let him go. Last night, he arrived at my house. He will be staying with me until he can get a job here. I am so grateful that we decided to move closer to each other. <em>220</em> <BR> <BR> Now I am just taking one breathe at a time to deal with all the junk in my head. I keep going in and out of feeling. <em>375</em> <BR> <BR> I cannot wait to talk to my rent a friend on Saturday..... Wed, 3 Apr 2013 11:24:52 EST I am in a pressure cooker! I am doing ok <em>40</em> ... my goal today is to make it through without <em>46</em> crying. So far I have been very successful. <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> I would take more time to deal except my boss is an a$$. I came back Monday and she spoke to me like I didn't have a real reason to deal with my grief. She said I took to many days off. This made me super mad because I have had prefect attendance for 14 months. <BR> <BR> Mother is getting my sh!t list again... well never reall... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 14:15:04 EST My best friend's husband passed. One of the worst weekends of my life... <BR> <BR> I haven't been on here since Wednesday afternoon. This is my first day back to work. My roommate as well as my best friend's husband passed away on Wednesday night. He was 41 and had a heart attack. Saturday was his birthday. <BR> <BR> I am dealing but not to good. I checked for a pulse and called 911. I trying my best but... I feel sick. I feel tired. I am having a hard time coming to terms. <BR> <BR> I am so grateful that my ... Mon, 1 Apr 2013 15:46:47 EST Simply Put I finally feel much better. I actually have been eating a little heavy food since last night without any problems. <em>341</em> <BR> <BR> The only bright side of this whole nasty bug that I had was I lost 14 pounds!!!! What nice kick start my goal! <em>9</em> Wed, 27 Mar 2013 14:58:12 EST The talk...the furnace...a hook up and a pissed off daughter! What a weekend... Friday called into work because my furnace died. I had to call a repair out and have it fixed. I was blessed because he did fix it and it wasn't a bad price either. <BR> <BR> After he left... I was sick...still sick now. I had to call into work on Monday because I have a nasty virus. So now I am at work trying to check up on work that I missed. Oh Yeah me! <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> Other than my virus and being sick over the weekend... my mom took the talk I had and... Tue, 26 Mar 2013 11:03:15 EST The Talk Good Morning! <BR> <BR> I have a good conversation with my mom. I think it went pretty well. I let her know how I felt about Randy and how much it would mean to me if she would give him a chance. I stayed come and cool and collected. I hope it got through to her. I did the best I could. <BR> <BR> I am also going to a social group tonight. I hope it goes well. I am going to the group with the recommendation from a couple of my very close friends. I am nervous... I think it will go w... Thu, 21 Mar 2013 11:04:30 EST Life is good Good Morning... <BR> <BR> Life is going pretty well. My best friend's husband is looking for a job. I pray that he finds one soon. It will be nice to have some relief from all the expenses. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Well Randy and I talked... we agreed on a month for him to move to my area. September of this year. We keep talking about our future. He talks and I listen because I love what he has to say. This makes me so happy. <em>220</em> <BR> <BR> I haven't heard anything on... Wed, 20 Mar 2013 11:59:31 EST Weekend Update Good Morning... <BR> <BR> What a wonderful weekend I had! <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> Randy and I are getting along so very well. This weekend was a lot of talking. I never had a boyfriend that talks and express himself so well. <em>290</em> <BR> <BR> He took me to downtown Raleigh. I seen the capital and farmer's market. I wish I had taken pictures. <em>40</em> I meet his friends... It was a very good trip. <BR> <BR> Now as for my car...the engine is crap. I turned my car in on... Tue, 19 Mar 2013 11:38:24 EST Mother makes me feel like a horrible Mom I am a party planner for the month of March. The party has gone off without any problems! One more month to plan and my chore is done for the year!!! <BR> <BR> In other news, I am going to Raleigh tonight after work. I am super duper excited about see Randy. Its been two weeks since I have seen him. We are going to the Parade on Saturday. I am glad I packed something Green. I am going to meet his best friend and see some local attractions. <BR> <BR> That being said, another ran... Fri, 15 Mar 2013 14:38:04 EST Mom making me second guess myself Good Morning... <BR> <BR> Well I didn't get to workout this morning but I will be getting my car back this afternoon. I will packing my bag tonight. In 36 hours I will get to see Randy. I am so excited. This is the second trip I will make without my boy. As much as I will miss him, I need a little time to myself. <BR> <BR> That being said, my mother made me feel so guilty. She thinks I don't spend enough time with Kaleb. She said because I have picked him up after work twice at her... Thu, 14 Mar 2013 10:23:24 EST Randy, Car, Water I like that Randy is as confused, impulsive and sweet like me. We are so wishy washy. In most cases, this would probably drive me crazy. With him, we are very similair in the ways we handle stressful sisuations. It is nice to have someone to relate too. <BR> <BR> Enough about my mixed up feels... <BR> <BR> The car is at the shop. I am waiting to hear from them. I would like it will be fixed by Thursday night. <em>433</em> <BR> <BR> I am drinking my water... on my fourth glass ... Wed, 13 Mar 2013 12:06:38 EST Could it be? Might be? I am feeling the same way. I brought new tires for my car last night. I got a really great price. I have never had new tires before. My car drives so smooth now. <em>433</em> <BR> <BR> I finished all my running last night. <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> I worked out this morning at the gym. <em>319</em> I did cardio and strength training. <em>344</em> <BR> <BR> Unfortunately, I will need to bring my car back into the shop tonight. <em>234</em> My oil light keeps on flickering. I had to put a quart of o... Tue, 12 Mar 2013 14:36:38 EST Wonderfully Productive Weekend! This weekend was crazy busy! <em>100</em> <BR> <BR> Saturday...I went to the Jockey Lot and walked for 2 hours. Then went shopping for a car with Jamie. We found one and did all the car things we could on a weekend. <em>433</em> <BR> <BR> Sunday... I went to the Jockey Lot again and walked for almost 3 hours. I came home and did yard work for the rest of the day. <em>379</em> Fire pit is done. Patio set up. <em>302</em> <BR> We had our first cookout of the year. <em>191<... Mon, 11 Mar 2013 15:54:09 EST Working out in the EVENING AND THE MORNING Good Morning... <BR> <BR> I went to the gym last night and this morning. I had a burst of energy at 3:30 am so I decided that if I wasn't falling back to sleep I was going to the gym. The workout was great. I felt great...until I got to work... my body was tired and I am suffering for allergies. <BR> <BR> I took some meds but my body is whooped. I do still enjoy working out in the morning versus any other time of the day. Since I did purchase an alarm clock for Jamie...I no longer need to b... Thu, 7 Mar 2013 11:42:01 EST Bug...gone! And Something Special? Good Morning... <BR> <BR> Kaleb is finally getting over the bug!!!! He slept all night long. That makes me very happy. I got to sleep all night too. <BR> <BR> I am going to the gym tonight. <BR> <BR> Randy and I are still talking up a storm. It feels great to be wanted. We talk about what we want for our future. I have never meet a guy like this before. He is a good talker and listener. He makes me feel like my opinion is important! Can I get a HELL YES! Wed, 6 Mar 2013 12:00:03 EST Bug...gone! And Something Special? Good Morning... <BR> <BR> Kaleb is finally getting over the bug!!!! He slept all night long. That makes me very happy. I got to sleep all night too. <BR> <BR> I am going to the gym tonight. <BR> <BR> Randy and I are still talking up a storm. It feels great to be wanted. We talk about what we want for our future. I have never meet a guy like this before. He is a good talker and listener. He makes me feel like my opinion is important! Can I get a HELL YES! Wed, 6 Mar 2013 12:00:00 EST Bug...gone! And Something Special? Good Morning... <BR> <BR> Kaleb is finally getting over the bug!!!! He slept all night long. That makes me very happy. I got to sleep all night too. <BR> <BR> I am going to the gym tonight. <BR> <BR> Randy and I are still talking up a storm. It feels great to be wanted. We talk about what we want for our future. I have never meet a guy like this before. He is a good talker and listener. He makes me feel like my opinion is important! Can I get a HELL YES! Wed, 6 Mar 2013 11:59:59 EST Good Bad This weekend was good and bad... <BR> <BR> Good: Randy and I really hit off. We have so much in common. I am planning a trip up there in two weeks. I have to see how he lives. I get to meet his friends. My friends thought he was a very good match. <BR> <BR> Bad: My son caught a bug. He has been very sick the last few days. <BR> <BR> Working out after I get off of work. I need to de-stress. Tue, 5 Mar 2013 14:29:32 EST Nervous...Happy... overthinking... excited...Emotional I come! Today is the day...Randy is leaving work in about an hour. He is leaving his house at 12... that means he will be here about 5 o'clock tonight. OMG...I am so nervous. We get along very well on the phone. In person could be a totally new story.... one thing is for sure...I will know tonight. <BR> <BR> On other news, Jamie and I had our girls' day out. She came to my work party. She was amused by my co-workers. She enjoyed the food. Then we went to for our manny and peddy's. We also we... Fri, 1 Mar 2013 11:49:36 EST i CAN'T BEAT THIS THURSDAY! I cannot believe the day has arrived where Jamie and I get to go out. Jamie and I are getting our nails done. We are going to have a girl's afternoon. In two hours she will be here for my luncheon. Then at 1 we are out of here! Time to party. <em>410</em> <BR> <BR> Then tomorrow, I have a work party at 5. Randy is going to be here around 8. Then the weekend will start. Saturday, I am planing on taking him to the flea market and to the park. I just want time to talk to him. I am ... Thu, 28 Feb 2013 11:22:01 EST The rest of the week My boots look GREAT! I feel so sexy! Both pairs are so comfortable. I am so glad I brought them. I have wanted a pair of boots for years. I have never had the money, or they wouldn't fit. These are beautiful! <BR> <BR> Things are just coming together as planned. Tonight, I will be shopping for undergarments. Everything is falling off my body. Its been along time since I purchased garments. I hope I find things that cute. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow, I have my Birthday Work Party. Jamie... Wed, 27 Feb 2013 11:47:50 EST Looking forward Good Morning... <BR> <BR> I woke up to the rain... what nice sleeping <em>102</em> weather! I had to go to work. <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> My work birthday party is Thursday. I am hoping to make plans after work. I will have to wait to see. <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> 3 days until I see Randy... wick excited! <em>220</em> Tue, 26 Feb 2013 10:50:04 EST One check, Two Check, Yeah For Me Check! Good Morning.... <BR> <BR> Recovering from all the work done this weekend! <em>243</em> <em>248</em> <em>380</em> <BR> <BR> I finished up my shopping for my bedroom. I brought pretty curtains and a new shower curtain. I also purchased a new set of sheets and a couple of pillows. Now, my bedroom is very comfortable and inviting. <BR> <BR> Well I was out, I brought new 9" plates and bowls. They match my kitchen. My house is looking more and more like a home. <BR> <BR> Its re... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 13:31:55 EST Puzzle Pieces... all coming together! Well I paid my dad part of what I owe him. Now I don't owe my sister anything! That is a wonderful <em>244</em> moment! <BR> <BR> I get my transcripts send to the school in two weeks. Another step to complete my New Year's resolutions. <BR> <BR> I have a new futon. Its so pretty. Now I don't have a mattress on the floor. This week I am grabbing a new curtain for my bedroom and a shower curtain. I shouldn't say a new one. I am getting one since every other room in the house is ... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 13:27:30 EST Very Productive.... YEAH ME! <em>244</em> All bills are paid! Almost... one more will be paid as soon as I get a hold of the lady. I am ordering my transcripts. I am going back to school no matter what. <BR> <BR> I ordered my new boots! I have had my old boots for 7 years. It was very much time to get a new pair. I found a sale and a coupon. I ordered a black and brown pair for less than one pair including shipping. They should be here by next Thursday. I am so super duper excited. <BR> <BR> I also purchase... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 13:51:55 EST Feet on Solid Ground I picked up my car last night! It drives so well. I am so glad to have it again. <BR> <BR> Randy is coming to see me in 9 days. I am so excited. It makes me feel great that I am desired. I hope things work out. <BR> <BR> I am going to the gym in the morning. I was going to the gym today but I forgot my clothes at home. At least, I will have them ready. <BR> <BR> Now, if I can get a permanent job I will be set. Things are finally starting to get back to normal. Wed, 20 Feb 2013 13:35:31 EST Me? Happy? Very likely! Good Afternoon... <BR> Exercised AT the Gym this weekend <em>248</em> <BR> Kitchen Floor fixed <em>248</em> <BR> Walls Painted <em>248</em> <BR> Car Fixed TODAY!!! <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> This means tomorrow morning I will be heading to the GYM!!!! <BR> <BR> The only upsetting news to report... is my mother! <BR> <BR> I love her greatly. However, she has no boundaries. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, she confronted me about something very personal about my past. I wouldn't have been... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 14:23:40 EST Yeah! This feels Oh So GOOD! Good Morning.... <BR> <BR> Life is getting better! I received my State taxes back. It was the exact amount owed on my car to get fixed. My car will be ready within 10 days. I am very happy about that! FREEDOM!!! <BR> <BR> I am going to the gym on Saturday. I can burn some of my stress off. That makes me happy too! <BR> <BR> Last night, I pick up last minute supplies for my project this weekend. I am all set to fix the kitchen. By Monday, my kitchen will be Sage Green and the fl... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 13:19:48 EST V day making me Happy Happy Valentine's Day! <BR> <BR> It is an okay V day. I miss my Grandma. I always celebrated with her. Our own private birthday party. Everyone always had plans. Grandma's bday was yesterday. <BR> <BR> Well this weekend I am painting my kitchen. Its going to be sage green. My bff's husband will be helping with the painting and redoing the kitchen floor. The kids are off Friday. I am off on Monday. It makes it a nice Adult project. <BR> <BR> I have actually been talking to a m... Thu, 14 Feb 2013 14:00:46 EST Positive I shall BE! <BR> Good Morning... <BR> <BR> I am remaining positive... as much as I can. I cannot wait to get my taxes back. I will have my car soon. That means I will have my freedom as well. I hate having to rely on other people. <BR> <BR> I send out a total of 20 resumes in the last two days. I am hoping to get at least a third to responded. I am not sure if that is expecting to much. I really need to know what I am going to be doing by August. <BR> <BR> My plan is still to enroll in school. I ha... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 13:28:32 EST