PRETTYPITHY's SparkPeople Blog PRETTYPITHY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community A "Come to Jesus" Moment Urban dictionary defines it as "An epiphany in which one realizes the truth of a matter." <BR> <BR> After years of running from the truth of the matter, it has finally dawned on me: I need to eat a low-calorie diet. Pretty much every day. For the rest of my life. <BR> <BR> You may think I've known or thought this all along. After all I have been on Spark for years, lost tons of weight, surely I did this by eating fewer calories! <BR> <BR> Yes, I have eaten fewer calories. But I always ... Thu, 10 Jul 2014 13:09:40 EST Small streak, small reward I have an incredibly tiny streak going right now -- 3 days of proper nutrition. <BR> <BR> I love streaking. And I love rewards. But when rewards are tied to weight loss, you can go along time without getting one. That sort of defeats the purpose of rewards -- to celebrate your victories along the way. <BR> <BR> My three days feels pretty significant -- four more and I'll have a whole week! Here's the pink grapefruit fragrance and soap I picked out today to mark my success. <BR> <BR> <... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 19:07:18 EST Mid-Week Check-In TRIUMPHS <BR> I've been eating about 1200 calories a day <BR> I've been drinking 8+ glasses of water a day <BR> I've attended Zumba twice <BR> <BR> CHALLENGES <BR> I need to make larger batches of food so I'm not cooking all the time <BR> I need to invest more time in meal planning <BR> My foot hurts (but it hasn't stopped me from working out) <BR> <BR> This week, I'm going to devote some time to figuring out how I can make my weekend a successful one. I have the following events planned: ... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 14:56:41 EST NSV's I am looking forward to NSV’s I am looking forward to: <BR> <BR> 1) No longer feeling pain in my foot (this is a huge motivator right now!) <BR> 2) Fitting comfortably into my new school boy blazer <BR> 3) Fitting comfortably in my dark blue jean jacket <BR> 4) Fitting comfortably into my suits <BR> 5) Feeling greater energy <BR> 6) Feeling the mood boost <BR> <BR> I can't wait to start getting some of the under my belt! <BR> Wed, 9 Jul 2014 11:06:56 EST Ready, Freddy? I'm ready for this! I am excited to lose weight! I can't wait to be healthy! <BR> <BR> Two big changes: As I may have mentioned, we're in escrow on our new house. The new house is back in the East Bay where we were living so happily for two years before we had to move for my new job. The move, as I'm sure you've heard me say, was disastrous -- I never got into a good rhythm, never made any friends or developed a real community. We knew we were going back, it's just been a matter of tim... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 17:15:59 EST Expecting Immediate Results One way in which I have been setting myself up for failure is by expecting immediate results. <BR> <BR> When I weighed much more, I could make relatively small changes and get moderate results instantaneously. If I made large changes, I got HUGE results almost instantly -- talk about instant gratification! Of course, this success was intoxicating and while it was positive, it had the unintended consequence that I now expect these results when I put forth any effort whatsoever. <BR> <BR> W... Fri, 27 Jun 2014 13:32:47 EST Feeling pretty good I worked out Saturday through Wednesday which should be my usual schedule. I've had such difficulty implementing a regular schedule, it felt good to actually succeed on that front this week. Now, I have two days off. <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> I've been on point with my nutrition all week, eating super clean with the notable exception of coffee which I've been sweetening with honey. I'm being pretty dogmatic about my nutrition right now which I think is warranted given how much difficult... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 12:59:40 EST Higher Standards For the longest time I just wanted to be under 200 pounds. It does not fill me with pride to admit that I weighed over 200 pounds for nearly seven years. <BR> <BR> Then, through a lot of hard work and determination and above all CONSISTENCY, I got below 200 in February 2013. I felt joy and pride. I felt like a success. <BR> <BR> But I also wanted to lose more weight. So, I kept pressing, kept working, kept grinding. I experimented with my diet, kept calories low and ate clean. I worke... Wed, 25 Jun 2014 14:15:16 EST Ditching the FitBit I've really enjoyed having my Fitbit over the past few months -- but I won't be using it moving forward. <BR> <BR> My main issue with the FitBit -- and I'd imagine this would be true of any activity tracker -- is that it makes me feel like I'm more active than I truly am. If I look at my Sparkpeople, it shows me logging activity every day, easily obtaining over 2000 fitness minutes per month,. <BR> <BR> This is a lie. <BR> <BR> Pre-FitBit, if I won the 2000 or 2500 fitness months per minu... Fri, 20 Jun 2014 12:31:22 EST Unintentional break from the scale My scale ran out of batteries so I haven't weighed myself since last week -- maybe Thursday? It is pretty weird given that I have seldom missed a day of weighing myself in about two years. I rely on the scale to let me know how I'm doing. Without it, I'm forced to consider other measures. For instance, I've been to all my workouts this week -- good. I haven't been tracking my food -- bad. I've been enjoying a few glasses of wine or beer with dinner -- bad. <BR> <BR> The latter is pro... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 13:27:47 EST 6/5 Goals 1) Summer associate happy hour -- 500 calorie limit and drink water through out. <BR> 2) Walk during lunch. DONE! Thu, 5 Jun 2014 14:18:25 EST Weight Loss Warrior I've been attending a 7 a.m. workout class called GRIT for the last few weeks. GRIT is a combination of cardio, weight training and plyometrics. It is my main source of strength training and I aim to do it at least twice a week. Because it starts early, our instructor refers to us as "Morning Warriors." It is such effective branding -- I love it! Some mornings when I am struggling to get going, I just think "I'm a morning warrior" and rise out of bed. I find the phrase that motivating!!... Wed, 4 Jun 2014 23:51:30 EST A-Changin'/Today's Goals I feel some great changes already. <BR> <BR> * My energy level is up! I was up before my alarm today. Yesterday, I didn't drag my feet getting up for my 7 a.m. GRIT class. I'm not dependent on caffeine to get through the day. <BR> <BR> * I'm hot -- my body is burning more efficiently. Usually, I'm constantly cold. <BR> <BR> Here are my goals for today: <BR> <BR> 1) No coffee at afternoon meeting -- tea is fine. DONE! <BR> 2) Take a few minutes for a weight loss visualization/meditat... Wed, 4 Jun 2014 10:01:10 EST Pride and Shame I'm feeling pretty proud of myself this morning. I'm climbing out of this depression hole. I've been on a positive streak for 8 days. I went to a 7 a.m. GRIT class this morning. I'm feeling good. I have a lot of to be proud of. <BR> <BR> Pride is the opposite of shame. Pride is a motivator -- when you take pride in yourself, your home, your work, you can do anything. <BR> <BR> By contrast, shame is crippling. When you feel ashamed of something, the prevailing reaction is to withdraw.... Tue, 3 Jun 2014 13:08:46 EST 6/3 Goals 1) Walk after lunch (Done) <BR> 2) Bring my own lunch to the office lunch (I ate my own lunch but didn't end up attending the office lunch.) <BR> <BR> NSV: I have an 8 day tracking/log-in/water streak going. Let's make it 9! Tue, 3 Jun 2014 01:55:41 EST Meditating on my Measurements As I gear up for successful weight loss this summer, I decided to re-take my measurements which were getting a bit dusty. I have always measured at my natural waist which has given me a false sense of security because it is a smaller measurement then at the belly button for me. They say for heart health, a woman should be no more than 35 inches around the belly button. I know I captured that briefly last summer. But I may have also been sucking it in! So, today, for the first time, I too... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 13:20:22 EST June Goals I have but one goal for the month of June. <BR> <BR> Re-enter the 180's. <BR> <BR> I've been bouncing around the low 190's for several months. I'd fight my way up to 189 for a day or two and then bounce right back up to 192, 193, 194. I came back from my Miami trip around 196-197 which really put the fear of G-d in me. <BR> <BR> I started this journey wanting nothing more than to get to Onederland. I exceeded that goal by over 25 pounds! As I started to gain it back, I thought to mysel... Fri, 30 May 2014 16:20:11 EST Good news, bad news Good: I fit into my bridesmaid's dress and looked lovely at the wedding! <BR> Good: The wedding was beautiful! <BR> Good: I've been back on track since my return on Monday. <BR> Good: I'm excited to get serious about my goals this summer and start seeing some real progress. <BR> Good: I'm ready to put myself first. <BR> Bad: I'm still depressed over the circumstances of my life as discussed recently in this blog. <BR> Good: I'm working on being more positive, changing my outlook and hopefully... Wed, 28 May 2014 16:52:04 EST This weekend -- Better This weekend was better. I was overbudget on calories but I tracked everything and didn't go too far overboard. I was extremely active and burned a ton of calories. I got in my water. It feels good. <BR> <BR> My bridesmaid's dress arrived! I won't lie, it is a tight fit -- but it zips and looks good. My friend's wedding is just five days away now but I will continue my weight loss efforts. Even shaving off a pound or two will help the dress fit all the better. <BR> <BR> Here's me clo... Mon, 19 May 2014 13:20:41 EST A Fork in the Road Life is about choices. Some choices are easy -- others are hard. But at the end of the day our lives, the results of all our efforts and dreams, are ultimately the product of choices. <BR> <BR> I just realized that I have been choosing to gain weight. <BR> <BR> A few days ago, if someone had suggested that to me, I would have been offended. Why would I choose weight? On the contrary, I want to lose weight! I think about losing weight constantly and am always bemoaning my current shape.... Sun, 18 May 2014 00:16:49 EST Mid-Month Check-In Let's see how things have been going for me in the month of May! <BR> <BR> 1) Work out 5-6 days/week <BR> B-. I did work out six days the first week of May but then 4 days the following week and on track for four days again this week. <BR> 2) ST at least 2x/week <BR> A+. I've gotten in 2-3 strength training work outs per week. Yay! A success! <BR> 3) Track points religiously <BR> C+. Actually have abandoned WW for Spark tracking. I love the idea of points but after being on Spark f... Fri, 16 May 2014 02:36:07 EST Rock Bottom Part II (with respects to MISSB8604) I just read a really thought provoking post from MISSB8604. She basically talks about how, when she started her weight loss journey, she had hit rock bottom -- 300 pounds, terrible health, etc. She had a major wake up call and started off her journey with tons of extra motivation. Basically, hitting rock bottom provided her with the fire to pursue her weight loss goals. It worked -- she lost close to 100 pounds and kicked butt! <BR> <BR> Of course, now she, like me, is dealing with som... Fri, 16 May 2014 01:53:16 EST A tough business This weight loss business is tough. I did not have a great weekend nutritionally -- in fact, I threw caution to the wind yet again. I worked out for two hours on Saturday and had a 20,000 step day. But that doesn't matter. At this point, I work out because I enjoy it and it elevates my mood -- it does not seem to be promoting weight loss or even maintenance for me. We often say this journey is 80% nutrition, 20% exercise but for, me, right now, it seems that anything less than 100% focus... Wed, 14 May 2014 14:14:30 EST The Lies We Tell Ourselves I was skimming back through a blog I wrote this past week when I stumbled upon a lie I'd told myself (and by extension, all of you!). I stated that I've been "cooking all my meals at home." <BR> <BR> Let's backtrack for a second. <BR> <BR> When I came to Spark in 2009, pretty much all of my meals came from restaurants. Chinese take-out, burritos, thai curry -- these were the foods I ate on a daily basis. Obviously, most of these foods are not fit for daily consumption, and even if health... Fri, 9 May 2014 16:16:18 EST A Raging Fire The Spark is aptly named because, much like the fledgling precursor to a roaring flame, it must be nurtured, protected and fanned so that it may grow. <BR> <BR> Right now, I feel the tiniest spark of two rocks connecting with sufficient force and friction. I'm still shivering cold -- days or weeks from my raging fire. But the tiny spark gives me hope -- and determination. <BR> <BR> Today is day 4 of tracking/spinning/water. I got up early to attend my boot camp class. I did it FOR me bu... Thu, 8 May 2014 15:14:33 EST Brand New Streak I've been tracking my food and getting my water for two days. Hopefully, today will be the third! I have my favorite Zumba class tonight. All the instructors at my studio are great but there is one who stands head and shoulders above the rest. He really rates as one of the top instructors I've ever had. Some people just "have it" -- that infectious energy, goofiness, smile, confidence, personality that makes an hour spent in their company a true joy. And of course you get a great burn b... Wed, 7 May 2014 13:22:55 EST Blogging Just Cuz I'm more consistent with tracking and everything else when I blog. I think blogging just focuses me on my goals in a way nothing else does. So, I don't have much to say today but I will blog anyway. <BR> <BR> It has been almost 9 months since I left my wonderful apartment in Berkeley and my amazing clerkship in Oakland. The tumult I've experienced since can no longer be attributed to mere change. I'm legitimately unhappy. "Unhappy" is not helpful for my health and wellness journey. <BR>... Tue, 6 May 2014 15:25:10 EST The One Thing that Works Only one thing has ever worked for me on this weight loss journey -- Sparkpeople. <BR> <BR> Tracking my food, participating on teams, blogging, being a member of this community. <BR> <BR> It is also the one thing I have not been doing over the past eight months as my weight has gradually crept up. <BR> <BR> That changes today. Mon, 5 May 2014 12:34:09 EST Success with Maintaining? I'd like to hear more about how people maintain their weight, whether you're at goal or maintaining a weight higher than you'd like. I never seem to maintain -- I'm either losing or gaining but I can't think of a time whenever I ever just weighed the same thing for a year with no major changes. Or six months (or three months, really). If I'm not going up, I'm going down. It's been a yo-yo since about age 14. <BR> <BR> How does one maintain? I understand it logically -- one simply takes ... Sun, 4 May 2014 01:21:25 EST May Goals! I've been doing a whole lot better this last week -- though I'm not sure it's showing on the scale yet! Here are my goals for May: <BR> <BR> 1) Work out 5-6 days/week <BR> 2) ST at least 2x/week <BR> 3) Track points religiously <BR> 4) Hopefully lose 7 pounds! <BR> <BR> Wish me luck -- and good luck in your own goals!! Thu, 1 May 2014 20:08:18 EST Relaxing Work wasn't busy today so I was able to leave a bit early. Because I worked out at 7 a.m., I was able to go straight home and, after a quick stroll around the neighborhood, I've been able to veg out and -- dare I say -- relax. <BR> <BR> I've been working pretty much nonstop since the last week of February -- no days off (although I usually only work a few hours a day on the weekend). So my break is well deserved. Especially because I'm sure it will heat back up again soon. <BR> <BR> Jere... Tue, 29 Apr 2014 23:25:53 EST Cool! Weight Watchers Week #1 Cool -- I lost three pounds this week. The impressive part is not that I lost three pounds but that this week was not "perfect" by any stretch of the imagination. I ate tons of fruit, vegetables and lean protein, yes. But I also ate some Shanghai dumplings, a half a cupcake and two churros. I used up some, but not all, of my weekly points. I didn't touch my activity points. But it mostly felt easy and natural which was awesome. I'm excited to keep using the WW system and see what else ... Mon, 28 Apr 2014 13:04:58 EST Stoked Im excited about WW so far. The tracking app is outstanding. And it may help me learn to do something that has previously eluded me -- exercise moderation. Heretofore, I've lost weight by restricting entire categories of food (low carb, paleo, vegan). This works for a period of time -- even a long period of time -- but it cannot be permanent. Eventually, I rebel both mentally and physically. <BR> <BR> A question for WW users: do you generally use your weekly points? How about your ac... Sun, 27 Apr 2014 21:25:13 EST Still here I'm feeling pretty beat down, guys. I've been working out consistently but my diet is crap and I'm going nowhere fast. My friend's wedding is next month and I'm genuinely concerned about fitting in my bridesmaid's dress. I don't want to bellyache but it's just so hard for me right now. I stress eat and I can't outrun my fork. <BR> <BR> That said, I've decided to up the exercise ante. I've also decided to join Weight Watchers. I think the social component of a meeting could be good for ... Thu, 24 Apr 2014 15:11:57 EST Awesome April I posted my goals for the month yesterday and filled out my goal calendar. I am ready to go! Today was good. I won't be able to work out due to work constraints but my nutrition has been on point. Lots of protein and vegetables. Its so funny how eating junk is a self-fulfilling prophecy. Today, my co-worker brought me a piece of chocolate. I thanked her, put it in my pocket and forgot about it. I would not have been able to do that ten days ago! Its like food has no pull over me righ... Tue, 1 Apr 2014 22:53:46 EST 7 Days of Success, March Results and April Goals Wow, this is the longest streak of healthy behavior I've had since my big life upheaval (moving in August, starting a new job in October). My eating has been on track for a week, complemented by ample exercise and water. I have lost 4.8 pounds to show for it. In some ways stringing together those 7 days was the hard part. Now I'm feeling ready for change, ready to get in shape for Spring, ready to be in shape for my Miami trip which is now less than two weeks away. I hope to streak right... Mon, 31 Mar 2014 19:27:37 EST Daily Differential (3/12) Calories <BR> Eaten 1,601 <BR> BMR* 1,950 <BR> Exercise 302 <BR> Total Burned 2,252 <BR> Differential -651 <BR> Thu, 13 Mar 2014 02:07:28 EST Daiy Differential (3/11) <BR> Calories <BR> Eaten 1,729 <BR> BMR* 1,950 <BR> Exercise 0 <BR> Total Burned 1,950 <BR> Differential -221 <BR> Wed, 12 Mar 2014 01:25:27 EST Daily Differential (3/10) Calories <BR> Eaten 1,685 <BR> BMR* 1,950 <BR> Exercise 144 <BR> Total Burned 2,094 <BR> Differential -409 <BR> Tue, 11 Mar 2014 01:12:44 EST Daily Differential (3/9) Calories <BR> Eaten 2,165 <BR> BMR* 1,950 <BR> Exercise 432 <BR> Total Burned 2,382 <BR> Differential -217 <BR> Mon, 10 Mar 2014 00:49:09 EST Daily Differential (3/8) <BR> Calories <BR> Eaten 1,639 <BR> BMR* 1,950 <BR> Exercise 942 <BR> Total Burned 2,892 <BR> Differential -1,253 <BR> Sun, 9 Mar 2014 11:52:49 EST Daily Differential (3/7) Calories <BR> Eaten 2,011 <BR> BMR* 1,950 <BR> Exercise 258 <BR> Total Burned 2,208 <BR> Differential -197 <BR> Sat, 8 Mar 2014 16:22:37 EST Daily Differential (3/6) Calories <BR> Eaten 1,839 <BR> BMR* 1,950 <BR> Exercise 681 <BR> Total Burned 2,631 <BR> Differential -792 <BR> Sat, 8 Mar 2014 16:21:47 EST Daily Differential (3/5) Calories <BR> Eaten 1,447 <BR> BMR* 1,950 <BR> Exercise 641 <BR> Total Burned 2,591 <BR> Differential -1,144 Wed, 5 Mar 2014 23:38:50 EST I ate a brownie and didn't feel guilty Yesterday, I ate a really rich, delicious cheesecake brownie. I didn't feel guilty, I stayed in my calorie range and still lost weight. Focusing on my differential has been really good for me because it gives me freedom from guilt. Even if it isn't as high as I'd like, I know I can try again the next day. And it shows me that it is possible to slip in a treat or two without throwing in the towel! Wed, 5 Mar 2014 12:30:44 EST Daily Differential (3/4) Calories <BR> Eaten 1,268 <BR> BMR* 1,950 <BR> Exercise 550 <BR> Total Burned 2,500 <BR> Differential -1,232 <BR> Tue, 4 Mar 2014 23:56:54 EST Daily Differential (3/3) Calories <BR> Eaten 1,692 <BR> BMR* 1,950 <BR> Exercise 418 <BR> Total Burned 2,368 <BR> Differential -676 <BR> Mon, 3 Mar 2014 23:56:03 EST Daily Differential (3/2) Calories <BR> Eaten 1,508 <BR> BMR* 1,950 <BR> Exercise 872 <BR> Total Burned 2,822 <BR> Differential -1,314 <BR> Mon, 3 Mar 2014 18:54:43 EST Daily Differential (3/1) Calories <BR> Eaten 1,546 <BR> BMR* 1,950 <BR> Exercise 788 <BR> Total Burned 2,738 <BR> Differential -1,192 <BR> Sun, 2 Mar 2014 01:56:45 EST Daily Differential (2/28) Calories <BR> Eaten 1,462 <BR> BMR* 1,950 <BR> Exercise 226 <BR> Total Burned 2,176 <BR> Differential -714 Sat, 1 Mar 2014 00:24:12 EST