PRETTYPITHY's SparkPeople Blog PRETTYPITHY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Great start So far, my May is off to a great start! I have succeeded in each of my daily goals: walking, being alcohol free, writing in my gratitude journal and eating a salad a day. These actions (especially the walking!) are creating a positive feedback loop and I feel lighter than I have in months. That "lightness" of spirit translates to 3.7 pounds on the scale which motivates me to maintain these behaviors. <BR> <BR> It bears mentioning that I have not had a formal workout this week -- just wa... Thu, 4 May 2017 12:23:27 EST May Goals! Well, thanks for joining us Northern California spring -- took ya long enough this year! The sun is out and shining and the world feels brand new. I feel motivated and ready. Unbelievably, one of my best friends was diagnosed with cancer recently. She is 33 years old. She is strong and otherwise healthy and I believe she will have a good outcome. But it is shocking -- incredibly shocking -- to see one of my peers (aren't we still young people?!) dealing with a serious illness. In fact... Mon, 1 May 2017 14:05:20 EST Ground zero or the first floor? I'm not sure what to call it: ground zero or the first floor? The site of a catastrophe or an entry point? Right now, my body feels like both. <BR> <BR> After I had my baby in August, I lost the first 18 pounds almost effortlessly. Then I had an IUD placed. And the holidays came. And I bled for 90 days continuously. And somehow, almost all those pounds came back. <BR> <BR> Every day, I promised myself a change. I'd start walking when the rain cleared (I'm still waiting -- we are havi... Thu, 6 Apr 2017 19:32:02 EST First post-baby blog! My daughter Scarlett was born on August 11. The last month has been absolutely incredible -- one of the most remarkable times in my life. There's a lot on my to-do list and I'm breastfeeding to boot so I won't be going full throttle on my weight loss goals. But I really, really look forward to improving my habits, losing weight and returning to normal exercise. <BR> <BR> I gained about 38 lbs with Scarlett -- more than I intended but as someone who has struggled my whole life with weight,... Tue, 13 Sep 2016 17:40:14 EST Week 29 Well, here I am in the third trimester. Baby girl is only about 75 days from joining our family. This has been a very exciting time for me. I wish I had taken more time to write about it. I want to memorialize some of what I am feeling. I find that people tend not to speak too deeply about the feelings raised by their pregnancies. I think part of this is because pregnancy -- a unique, transformative and introspective time -- is immediately replaced by new parenthood which is so intense ... Thu, 19 May 2016 12:45:16 EST Week 26 -- So Happy! Got great news today -- no gestational diabetes for me! I was very worried about this due to my family history and weight. I knew my blood sugar was normal going into the pregnancy but since my dad died from complications of diabetes, I am very wary of contracting it. I know gestational diabetes is different from type 2, but unfortunately it puts you at an elevated risk of contracting type 2 later in life. It also correlates with a greater risk of still birth -- scary!! <BR> <BR> I was f... Sat, 30 Apr 2016 18:36:56 EST Week 23 Wow, I cannot believe I am almost 6 months pregnant! The time is flying by. <BR> <BR> I have been very fortunate in that I haven't felt ill, just somewhat fatigued and absent minded. I have continued to stay active, walking to and from work about 3 days a week, dancing 2-3 days a week and taking a prenatal yoga class. <BR> <BR> My eating has been good but not perfect -- I do eat sweets and more carbs than I otherwise might. But I also eat a lot of eggs, chicken, beef, strawberries, yo... Mon, 4 Apr 2016 13:11:37 EST Surprise! Wow, it is very unusual for me to go this long without blogging. And usually when I fall silent for long stretches, it is very bad news. It means I've backslid, regained and am piling on the pounds. <BR> <BR> Well, I will be gaining some weight over the next six months -- but it's because I'm PREGNANT! <BR> <BR> This is my first pregnancy and I'm very excited. My husband and I have been together for ten years and married for seven. We both have good, stable jobs and a nice lifestyle -- ... Mon, 1 Feb 2016 18:06:51 EST I must keep fighting!!! It is November and FINALLY a slight chill has set into the Northern California air. There are events galore and the holiday season is a stone's throw away. I'm not super happy with where I am right now weight wise but it is what it is. The important thing is to KEEP FIGHTING. Keep tracking, keep walking, keep working out. Keep getting in water, keep logging (52 consecutive days!). Maybe I'm not going to meet all my goals for the year but I CAN end it on a HIGH NOTE. I CAN prevent the h... Thu, 5 Nov 2015 14:01:46 EST A winning streak If you've been on Spark as long as I have then you know that, sometimes, a little streak is all you need. <BR> <BR> I lost weight this week. But more importantly, I changed my mindset. <BR> <BR> Here's an example. <BR> <BR> This morning, I went for a coffee date with my husband. I got a cappuccino, but no pastry. <BR> <BR> This afternoon we're having a work party. I had to pick up a snack for the group. Usually, I'd choose one of my favorites. I love introducing people to my favorite... Fri, 23 Oct 2015 12:19:49 EST New Goal I ordered a new pair of designer jeans -- deeply discounted -- from I ordered a size 32, and darn if they weren't so tight on arrival that I couldn't button them. I finally buttoned them last night but darn if the muffin top wasn't unsightly! I'm not discouraged by this -- rather motivated. It is good for me to have a non-scale goal and these jeans are my new "why". My goal is to fit into them comfortably by 11/22 (when I leave for Tahoe). I know I will meet this goal bec... Thu, 22 Oct 2015 12:18:57 EST Compare and Contrast Wow! Based on some suggestions from my health coach, I have really upped my protein game and I feel GREAT! Past three days have been 135g of protein. The main difference was adding a protein shake for breakfast and switching up some of my snacks -- instead of fruit and sugary yogurt, I'm doing nuts, cottage cheese, low-sugar yogurt, hard boiled eggs. Not only have I been fuller for longer, I've had more energy and my mood is great. Thank you, protein! <BR> <BR> This change led me to bac... Wed, 21 Oct 2015 17:27:07 EST Mid-month Check-In Here are my goals for October: <BR> <BR> 1) 5 classes/week (including 2 ST) <em>248</em> <BR> 2) Track nutrition every day <BR> 3) Use RKO tracking method <BR> 4) Keep goal calendar <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> I'm rocking goals 1 and 4 and could be doing better with goals 2 + 3. I have been tracking but probably not every bite. And I have been doing RKO tracking but I haven't been very consistent with it. <BR> <BR> I've lost a very tiny bit of weight. But it's a start. Thu, 15 Oct 2015 12:18:31 EST Today Today things are going pretty well. I've manged to do well on diet and exercise so far this week. I'm prioritizing myself and making time and space to focus on me. Sometimes that means clearing my schedule and saying no to certain social events, instead making time for things like therapy, health coaching, workouts, food prep, self-care and personal grooming (mani pedi's, eye brow wax). Sometimes that means clearing space internally -- inside myself, to think about and focus on what's goi... Wed, 14 Oct 2015 16:10:18 EST Carbs I was going through photos from my 2013 Turkey trip last night. I weighed about 15-20 pounds less in the photos and though I'm fairly happy with my current appearance, there's no denying I look better in those Turkey photos. I had just lost 70 pounds. And though I'm proud to have kept off 50 of those pounds for over two years now (!), there's no denying I look GREAT in those photos. I'm in a size 8 pants, size M top and my face is thin. Moreover, I look SMALL in relationship to objects a... Thu, 1 Oct 2015 14:23:30 EST Long time no see! October Goals. Wow! It has been over a month since I last blogged. As usual, it is a bad sign when I fall totally silent. After successfully maintaining my weight for about six months, I had a not so good September and found myself six pounds above the range I have maintained for most of the year. I didn't like that one bit! I've been back on track for about a week now and am two pounds above my comfort zone. <BR> <BR> I was happy maintaining my weight but this experience has show me that I need a b... Wed, 30 Sep 2015 23:28:07 EST Good times! August has been great so far. <BR> <BR> Outside Lands was amazing -- one of the best years yet with incredible performances by Mumford and Sons, Kendrick Lamar, Elton John and more! We ended up scoring VIP passes for Elton John and spent the whole set in the luxurious VIP section watching from about 40 ft. away. Incredible!! <BR> <BR> After the amazing excess of Outside Lands, we decided we needed a little recharge so we're doing a cleanse. Nothing too crazy -- two smoothies, two green... Mon, 17 Aug 2015 13:22:00 EST July Lessons, August Goals August marks the beginning of the end of summer. It has been a truly great summer. But I allowed myself to get too busy, celebratory and distracted towards the end of June. July was similarly unfocused. Although August will be starting with a huge bang for me, I'd like to see myself rein it in a bit. I don't just mean in terms of food (though I've been eating and drinking somewhat extravagantly, to put it mildly). I'd like to rein myself in a bit socially as well. <BR> <BR> I'm learn... Mon, 3 Aug 2015 16:41:08 EST Wahoo! Yesterday was my first strength training class since I injured my back in May and guess what? I'm sore in all the right ways! Like, "it's been awhile" sore and not "I may have really hurt myself sore." Progress, people! <BR> <BR> I just did a fun little exercise where I tallied up the calories burned on my Fitbit during a given hour of my regular activities: shimmy pop, zumba, walking, weights/pilates and yoga. And guess what the number one definitive calorie burner is? Walking! That is... Wed, 29 Jul 2015 16:41:07 EST The Lord works in mysterious ways A few months ago, I was feeling a bit rudderless on this journey. I felt I'd accomplished much of what I'd set out to do. I'd lost 50+ pounds and largely kept it off since 2013. I had cute clothes. I was physically active. I ate healthy food. What, then, was my motivation for weight loss? I'd lost my "why." <BR> <BR> Well, the Lord works in mysterious ways! <BR> <BR> Since my trampoline accident in May, I've gained 6 pounds. But more distressing, I've lost a lot of strength and card... Wed, 22 Jul 2015 12:12:12 EST Over a month! Usually, it's a pretty bad sign if I go over a month without blogging! <BR> <BR> I'll be honest, things haven't been great. But admittedly they could also be a lot worse. Of the 18 pounds I've lost in 2015, I've gained 6 back since my back injury in mid-May. <BR> <BR> On the one hand -- what a bummer. But on the other hand, it is a testament to my ongoing efforts that I have not gained back much more. And I've maintained since the last week of June and even had a small loss last week. ... Tue, 21 Jul 2015 18:43:01 EST Day 33 -- What next? <BR> I've actually had a lot on my mind lately with regards to what, exactly, I am trying to accomplish with my weight loss goals. Basically, what is my "why?" <BR> <BR> I'm finding that my "why" is really abstract these days. I want to maintain my health for the future, of course. But when I really look at all the other things I wanted at the outset of my journey . . . well, I have largely accomplished them. <BR> <BR> I have a great, healthy lifestyle, an awesome, loving marriage, a gr... Thu, 11 Jun 2015 16:33:49 EST Day 24 -- Great news!! Great news! <BR> <BR> I went to my dance class last night, stood in the back row and took it REALLY EASY. This morning, my back is a little sore but I did not reinjure myself like last time -- yay!!! I plan to rest it today and then take another class on Wednesday -- taking it really easy again. Over the next month, I hope I can continue to heal my back while working my way back up to my usual cardio schedule. This week, I'm aiming for just three classes. <BR> <BR> I cannot overstate ho... Tue, 2 Jun 2015 12:05:01 EST May Results + June Goals Here were my goals for May: <BR> <BR> 1) Track every bite <em>248</em> <BR> 2) Track overeating/binge episodes with an eye towards understanding the how, when, where, why, what <em>248</em> <BR> 3) Keep average total calories for the month around 1800 <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> I averaged 2,044 calories for the month. <BR> <BR> Results: <BR> <BR> Pounds: + 1.2 <BR> Fitness Minutes: 3340 (a drop of nearly 1000 minutes from the previous month) <BR> Average Calories: 2,044 (and incre... Sun, 31 May 2015 12:06:57 EST Day 21 -- Crafting My Own Solution I'm finally starting to get a peek at what a balanced lifestyle might look like. <BR> <BR> Like, a lot of women, I've been dieting almost my entire life. I've spent more time theoretically on diets than off of them. I've had varying degrees of success. From 2009 to 2013, I lost 70 pounds. I've kept off 55 of that to the present day. <BR> <BR> But I've NEVER achieved anything like balance. In losing the bulk of that weight, I ate a very low calorie, low carb diet with 6 days a week of c... Sat, 30 May 2015 16:20:04 EST Day 20 -- Okay I experienced a gain this week. I was prepared for this because in the last two weeks I have exceeded my calorie goal by a significant margin 5 times. Three of those times I significantly exceeded my TDEE. And, though I managed to get back on track this week, I ate a lot of high sodium foods so I'm most likely still retaining water. The gain of 2.5 lbs was not a surprise or a disappointment. I will be weighing in again on Sunday to capture my final weight for the month. But it is quite ... Fri, 29 May 2015 11:47:06 EST Day 19 -- "If you can lift a fork, you can lose weight." Even though my eating was off track for most of last week, there were a few interesting developments. <BR> <BR> First of all, I had a number of restaurant meals where I exercised willpower, control and mindful eating. <BR> <BR> I had dim sum with my sister -- that usually turns into a free for all, what with the carts circulating and us choosing to eat whatever appeals to our eyes. The timing also usually ends up being such that we get a few things off the cart, order from the menu, and by... Thu, 28 May 2015 14:06:32 EST Day 18 -- Moving forward Things are going okay. I'm a bit bummed about my back but trying not to let it get me down. I've been fortunate enough to avoid injury up to this point so this is my first time dealing with it. I realize I can't just jump back into it full throttle, at the pace I was going before. I think I'm going to take a few weeks off of Power Pop and instead focus on getting to Shimmy Pop just 3 times a week, taking days off in between to recuperate. I'm also thinking about hopping into the pool -- ... Wed, 27 May 2015 14:06:24 EST Day 9 -- NSV's I was looking back through my old blogs. I found one on July 9, 2014 that said I wanted to achieve the following non-scale victories: <BR> <BR> 1) No longer feeling pain in my foot <BR> 2) Fitting comfortably into my new school boy blazer <BR> 3) Fitting comfortably in my dark blue jean jacket <BR> 4) Fitting comfortably into my suits <BR> 5) Feeling greater energy <BR> 6) Feeling the mood boost <BR> <BR> Imagine how good I felt reading that today and realizing that I have achieved a... Mon, 18 May 2015 17:21:50 EST Day 8 -- Treat day! Man, I am loving my treat days. Yesterday was a good one. It was my nephew's 10th birthday party. I had pizza and cupcakes! And later in the evening, my husband and I had fancy grilled cheese sandwiches for dinner. Yum. My calories were high but pretty close to my TDEE for the day. The most important part about treat day is that it is forcing me to destroy my diet mentality. Lifestyle change is not just forcing yourself to eat clean for months until you reach your goal and then return... Sun, 17 May 2015 13:55:12 EST Day 6 -- Lots of Success I'm feeling very successful today. I've lost another 1.3 pounds. I'm very excited because I have not been dieting, just measuring my food, packing a healthy lunch with lots of healthy snacks and eating a light dinner. Breakfast is usually smoothie or eggs. Food has not been "perfect" -- ate some office candy on Monday and some froyo last night. Food is not meant to be perfect. <BR> <BR> I also took it pretty easy on my workouts -- yesterday, I just walked. I actually got 23,000+ step... Fri, 15 May 2015 12:12:53 EST Day 4 -- Problems + Solutions My log-in streak died! Of course, streaks were meant to be broken . . . and outdone. :-D <BR> <BR> Here are a few things I've been working on this week. <BR> <BR> I've finally adjusted my perspective to think about weight in terms of healthy habits. Whether we weigh 225 or 125 pounds, our weight is supported by our habits. Adding healthy habits has helped me lose and keep off 55 pounds. In order to lose the next 20-30 pounds and get to my goal, I must acquire and maintain more new healt... Wed, 13 May 2015 00:52:00 EST Day 159 -- Touching the Void Well, I haven't blogged for a solid week so you know it can't be good. I haven't been on a disastrous binge streak but I've been experiencing the Great Interrupter -- that is, my period. I decided to be "gentle with myself" this month, which basically means accepting that there's a 3-4 day period where I won't make all my workouts because I'm lying on my side in pain while eating chocolate in front of the television. I'm all for being gentle with myself, but this month, I really wallowed. ... Fri, 8 May 2015 13:35:42 EST Day 152 -- WooHoo! Success! + April Results and May Goals. YAY!! I did it. I am finally out of the 190's and into the 180's for the first time in over a year. In fact, I haven't weighed in this low since January 2014!! <BR> <BR> Last week, I didn't lose any weight In fact, I "gained" .3 pounds. I refused to read anything into it. In the past, I would have lowered my calories, upped my exercise, reduced my carbs -- something. But this time, I just told myself, "It's okay, I'll lose next week." <BR> <BR> I focused on appropriate portion sizes,... Fri, 1 May 2015 09:21:45 EST Day 151 -- A few NSV's to start off the day . . . And brainstorming my May goals Do you ever buy a dress that's just a little bit too tight on the premise that you'll lose weight and it'll fit better in a few weeks? Then it just sits in your closet unworn? Maybe you even gain weight and the dress gets depressingly further out of reach? <BR> <BR> Well, I'm WEARING that dress today. I bought it at Ann Taylor in the Fall of 2013. I bought it to wear to work but it was always too tight to be appropriate. Lately, I've been reclaiming a lot of my closet real estate. I'd ... Thu, 30 Apr 2015 10:41:42 EST Day 150 -- The Sexy Path I've been thinking a lot about willpower lately. It seems like sometimes a herculean amount of willpower is required to lose weight. But I'm increasingly finding that the best plan is one that does not REQUIRE that you exercise a lot of willpower. The best plan makes it so that you seldom have to rely on willpower to get by. When we create habits that support our goals, than the exercise of willpower becomes less frequent. Which is great because willpower is NOT AT ALL the best method fo... Wed, 29 Apr 2015 13:14:38 EST DAY 149 -- Week(end) in Review Last week ended up being pretty mixed for me. I had an awesome Monday through Friday but my weekend was, well, insane. I scheduled us for four stacked back-to-back social events on Saturday and though I had a BLAST I saw easily how this kind of frenzied socializing is not supportive of my goals. We had my niece and nephew stay over Friday night and of course we spoiled them with treats (which we also relished). We made them a special brunch on Saturday morning before they went home. Then... Tue, 28 Apr 2015 12:27:58 EST Day 145 -- My biggest success of all I didn't lose any weight this week. I didn't gain either. And that's just fine. <BR> <BR> I've lost 2 more inches from my hips. I ate healthy and worked out (albeit not as much as usual, given that I was sick this week). <BR> <BR> I've had some MAJOR NSV's. For instance, last night, I went out to dinner with my husband. I ate two slices of pizza and some arugula salad. I avoided alcohol and filled up on sparkling water. Which means I was able to ENJOY MYSELF IN MODERATION. This ha... Fri, 24 Apr 2015 13:10:26 EST Day 144 -- Oh happy day! Today has been a great day and there are more great things in store. I've been productive at work, I had a FANTASTIC mid-day walk and I'm walking with my husband this evening, too. I'm also taking one of my dance classes thereafter. So, lots of activity = happy O! <BR> <BR> I also have some fun social stuff planned for the weekend. Saturday is my friend's birthday and a big house party at my dance studio! I'll be wine tasting, getting my grub on and dancing into the night! Thank goodne... Thu, 23 Apr 2015 19:32:54 EST Day 143 -- Bad day, good news! I had a rough day, yesterday. I took ill on my way to work and had to return home. I was out sick all day, dealing with bouts of nausea. I didn't want to cancel my workouts but I did. I've read that it isn't generally bad to work out when ill but you know what? I wanted to R&R so I did. Just goes to show you how quickly things can change -- last week I had to force myself to take a day off because I was working out too many days in a row. Then I fall sick and miss a full day of working... Wed, 22 Apr 2015 16:35:44 EST Day 141 -- Plan for the week I spent yesterday meal planning and prepping and I've gotten my week off to a pretty good start (although I did hitch a ride to work with my husband today, skipping my morning walk, tsk, tsk . . . but I walked during my lunch break to make up for it). Here are my plans and goals for the week. <BR> <BR> Goal: Lose 1.1 lbs. 1.1 lbs finally gets me out of the 190's. More would be great but I'll be utterly thrilled with 1.1. If I don't do it next week, I'll do it the following week so no bea... Mon, 20 Apr 2015 20:09:28 EST Day 140 -- Snap Back Sunday! I had a good day yesterday. It was my cheat day and it was fun but not a binge. I started my day with two classes at my fitness studio. After two days off, I felt great! Then my friends and I met up at one of my favorite coffee shops in SF and we had coffee and cinnamon toast (yum)!). Then we went for an urban hike, up past the beach, up to the Cliff House, Sutro Baths, the Land's End Trail and back. The classes combined with my hike gave me my most active day ever on Fitbit! I had ove... Sun, 19 Apr 2015 10:55:41 EST Day 138 -- WooHoo! WooHoo! I've lost two pounds since my last weigh-in. This is great information because it let's me know that I can lose weight at my current calorie intake, which is pretty high and thus pretty sustainable. I've never tried losing weight slowly before so it is nice to see what that looks and feels like. <BR> <BR> The last two weeks were by no means perfect. There was Passover, and my period and two concerts. I also had a cheat day that looked more like a binge day, a few office candy s... Fri, 17 Apr 2015 10:27:07 EST Day 137 -- Expectations A friend on HSM posted yesterday that she didn't step on the scale for two weeks. When she finally did step on, and posted a loss of 2.8 pounds, she was disappointed. See, she had expected so much more from two solid weeks of eating healthfully and working out. <BR> <BR> This really resonated with me. I also have not recorded an official weigh-in in two weeks. And in that time, I've been doing a great job. Being active, getting veggies and water, and enjoying my life! Yet, as soon as I... Thu, 16 Apr 2015 14:55:38 EST Day 136 -- Mid-Month Check-In Let's see how I'm doing with my goals for April! <BR> <BR> 1) Eat as clean as possible 6 days a week with one cheat day <em>345</em> <BR> 2) Maintain log-in streak <em>242</em> <BR> 3) Participate in challenge at the gym <em>250</em> <BR> <BR> I am crushing my goals this month! And it is not lost on me that it has as much to do with the goals I formulated as it does with my efforts to achieve them. <BR> <BR> Take a look at that first goal. "Eat as clean as possible six days ... Wed, 15 Apr 2015 15:00:28 EST Day 135 -- Gretchen Rubin + the 4 Tendencies In her new book Better Than Before, Gretchen Rubin discusses the four most common personality types when it comes to habit formation and follow-through: The Upholder (generally meets commitments made to the self just as well as those made to others); the Obliger (meets expectations to others easily but has difficulty meeting expectations to self); the Questioner (questions all expectations and only meets them if they are proven valid) and the Rebel (resists all expectations, both from others ... Tue, 14 Apr 2015 13:01:34 EST Day 134 -- Weekend + Daily Goals + Pics I had a super fun weekend. We went to two concerts, Florence + the Machine on Thursday and Alabama Shakes on Saturday. I ate just fine on Thursday but got a little turnt up at the show -- lots of vodka tonics! Saturday was my cheat day and it was pretty unhinged. I wasn't happy with it. I think part of the big difference was that I spent the day with my husband -- and boy can he eat. Together, it quickly devolved from a cheat day into a binge day (i.e., eating just to eat). But I stil... Mon, 13 Apr 2015 12:50:01 EST Day 130 -- More tweaks! One of my Sparkfriends commented that I'm very analytical. So true! I'm an attorney and I love to research and puzzle over things. Sometimes it can be a bit much but I think on this journey it has mostly been helpful (as long as I don't get too obsessive about minor details, which does happen from time to time!). <BR> <BR> Today, I've been poring over all my data trying to determine what my true calorie range should be. I've decided to take things slower. I usually try to have as big a ... Thu, 9 Apr 2015 12:32:27 EST Day 129 -- What's sustainable? It stands to reason that if I can grow my list of healthy habits, while shrinking my list of unhealthy habits, I will be able to move towards my goal. <BR> <BR> My healthy habits: <BR> <BR> Cooking at home <BR> Packing a lunch <BR> Walking instead of driving <BR> Walking during my lunch break <BR> Working out <BR> Drinking water <BR> Getting adequate sleep <BR> Limiting simple carbs <BR> Gratitude journaling <BR> Blogging abut health challenges <BR> Social health networks (Sparkpeople, HS... Wed, 8 Apr 2015 17:15:33 EST Day 128 -- Thoughts on goals + consistency I started thinking abut my goal today. I have a number in mind. It's about 25 pounds away. I've made so many changes over the years. I've gotten active, improved my diet and lost and kept off over 50 pounds! But what will it take for me to get to my goal? <BR> <BR> I think the thing I've struggled with the most is consistency. And I realize now that part of that struggle has been my definition of consistency. You see, I've been conflating consistency with perfection. I consider mysel... Tue, 7 Apr 2015 16:44:50 EST