PRETTYPITHY's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=PRETTYPITHY PRETTYPITHY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Mid-Month Check-In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5799410 1) You vs. You Challenge at the gym (4 classes a week including one ST) <em>248</em> I am making all my classes, having fun and feeling good! <BR> 2) Continue with Dr. Beck. <em>248</em> I've actually taken a few days off from this but today is my first day back doing the exercises and writing in my diet journal. It feels good. <BR> 3) Begin to implement Paleo diet. <em>248</em> All my home meals and snacks are paleo! I've eaten out non-Paleo twice. <BR> 4) Track nutrition. <e... Thu, 16 Oct 2014 17:16:02 EST Tapping into my pride http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5798074 I really, really have to send a huge thanks to 4-A-HEALTHY-BMI. I want her to know how much she's helped me modify my thinking in the past few days. <BR> <BR> I saw a comment she wrote on someone else's blog that some consider keeping even 10% of your original weight loss off for over a year to be successful weight loss maintenance. Now, I know the generally accepted definition is more stringent -- remaining within a certain number of pounds from your goal, or remaining within a healthy we... Tue, 14 Oct 2014 12:46:42 EST First meeting with new health coach!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5796485 You guys, I'm so serious about reaching my goal weight and maintaining for LIFE that I have taken a new step -- something I've never done before in my numerous attempts to lose weight. <BR> <BR> I've enlisted a health coach. I've actually known Heather as my dance instructor for over two years. She's also my masseuse! She is an amazing force in the studio so when I found out she had just gotten her life coaching degree (in addition to her training as a personal trainer, masseuse, yoga pra... Sat, 11 Oct 2014 20:07:09 EST Thanks to my aching foot and knee http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5796418 In July of 2013, I weighed 172, down from a high of 245, just three pounds from exiting the "obese" column. Over the next year, I steadily inched my way back to 200, crossing that dreaded line in August. I was mired in self-loathing, weighing every day and then nastily berating myself for hours afterwards. But the hatred I spewed at my body was not the solution. It never could be. <BR> <BR> Instead, I noticed that my planar fascitis was returning. I was hitting the gym -- hard -- and wa... Sat, 11 Oct 2014 15:51:45 EST Day 1 (and discovering the grill!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5794703 The Beck Diet Solution urges you to spend two weeks working their program before starting your diet in earnest. Though today is Day 15 of my work with the Beck Diet Solution -- and I've been monitoring what I eat for that whole time -- today is the first day of my diet. Yay! I'm actually excited! Starting my diet means I can start losing more weight and I am genuinely excited about that. I've lost 4 pounds since starting the Beck Diet Solution. My first goal on the diet is five pounds. ... Wed, 8 Oct 2014 13:39:23 EST Celebrating two weekends on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5794272 This weekend was by no means perfect, but I tracked it all and kept my eye on the prize. Two weekends in a row where I tracked and did not go hog wild. This is the hardest part for me as I often do well during the week and then go crazy on the weekend. If I can keep stringing together good days, good weeks, and good weekends, I'll really be on my way! I don't have plans this weekend so I should be able to keep it together. Next weekend I'm going to my friend's ranch for a Halloween party... Tue, 7 Oct 2014 20:47:25 EST Month In Review/October Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5790498 Here were my goals for September: <BR> <BR> 1) Track nutrition every day. ACTUAL: 22/30. <BR> 2) Walk outside every day. ACTUAL: 20/30. <BR> 3) Attend five dance classes per week. ACTUAL: 5, 5, 1, 4. <BR> 4) Lose 7 pounds. ACTUAL: 2 pounds. I'LL TAKE IT. <em>244</em> <BR> 5) Eliminate alcohol to help jump start metabolism/ results ACTUAL: Did not fully eliminate but drinking was moderate outside of my husband's birthday weekend. <BR> <BR> I LOST TWO POUNDS THIS MONTH. That is the ... Wed, 1 Oct 2014 14:33:19 EST Week in Review/Mid-Week Review http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5777293 Last week was a mixed bag but I think it went really well. I averaged 1697 calories for the week which was a bit high but pretty good for my first week back on track. I didn't work out on Thursday but I did two classes on Saturday and two classes on Sunday for a combined six workouts for the week. I got a total of 695 minutes of exercise if you count all my walking. Here are some ways I could have improved: <BR> <BR> 1) I went out with friends on Saturday night and ate way too much (over... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 13:37:44 EST Dessert Ideas (250 - 300 calories) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5774039 I've had two really lovely desserts this week. Delicious unexpected treats that did not break the caloric bank. <BR> <BR> 1.5 oz burrata cheese (would also work with a nice fresh mozzarella) <BR> 1 white peach, diced (deliciously in season right now!) <BR> A drizzle of honey (I tracked this as .5 tbsp but really I just stick a fork into the honey and drizzle a bit over the top) <BR> <BR> Serve cheese on top of diced peaches and drizzle with honey. This was so tasty! The burrata has a cre... Fri, 5 Sep 2014 14:23:26 EST "Life is NOT a dress rehearsal." http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5773366 This morning I awoke with an aphorism rolling about in my head: "Life is NOT a dress rehearsal." I'm not sure where this phrase came from but I'm sure of it's meaning: You only get one shot in life. This is your only chance, so make it count. There are no do-overs. <BR> <BR> But this morning, I thought to myself: "What if life IS a dress rehearsal?" As a former thespian, I remember dress rehearsals fondly. The whole cast, dolled up in costumes and make-up for the first time. Spirits we... Thu, 4 Sep 2014 13:17:52 EST Appetite + Exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5772780 I brought an enormous quantity of healthy snacks with me to work today to help me combat the ravenous hunger that has been plaguing me. Strangely, I find that I am half as hungry today as I usually am. Possible interpretations: <BR> <BR> 1) I've been drinking more water? <BR> 2) Psychological comfort provided by abundance of food puts me at ease, makes me less concerned where next nosh will come from? <BR> 3) Fibrous fruits and vegetables increase satiety? <BR> <BR> Honestly, it is probab... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 17:45:01 EST Cool new stuff http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5772631 I've made two new purchases that I think will be helpful to me on my continued path towards a healthy weight. <BR> <BR> I brought a mini-fridge for my office! A lot of folks that I started with got mini-fridges back when we started. I didn't, reasoning that having a fridge at my feet might lead me to overeat. As it turns out, the contrary was true. When I found myself stuck at work with no meals or healthy snacks, I typically binged on whatever was available -- candy, cookies, popcorn, ... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 12:43:56 EST September Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5772000 1) Track nutrition every day. <BR> 2) Walk outside every day. <BR> 3) Attend five dance classes per week. <BR> 4) Lose 7 pounds. <BR> 5) Eliminate alcohol to help jump start metabolism/ results Tue, 2 Sep 2014 15:21:39 EST Say it one more time with feeling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5771943 Say it one more time with feeling: "You can't outrun your fork!" <BR> <BR> This weekend was an excellent example of this phenomena for me, as I was more active than I have been in the last year! On Saturday morning, I took my regular dance class (Shimmy Pop) then I took a special Beyonce choreo class in the afternoon . . . and I walked from home to each class and back as well as walking the lake in between. I probably walked close to ten miles in addition to those two classes. And I had s... Tue, 2 Sep 2014 13:53:15 EST Man With a Plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5769429 So, I've been using this week as a sort of "on ramp" to my return to health and wellness. I want Monday, specifically 9/1 to mark the beginning of a more hardcore pursuit. This week has been good in the soft sense -- I've gotten more veggies, more water and more exercise. But for the most part, I didn't make any "hard" goals for myself. I've been very flexible and mostly focused on consistency (which is awesome). <BR> <BR> So, what are my "hard" goals? And why do I want to achieve them?... Fri, 29 Aug 2014 13:37:28 EST Settling in for the long haul http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5768869 It is going to take a while before I see some progress and I need to be okay with that. <BR> <BR> I've been conscious and effortful and active all week with no change on the scale. But I know this is normal. My body is ramping up. When I get into weight loss mode, my body starts shedding pounds left and right. But it takes time and effort to get there (anywhere from a week to a month). I need to whittle the carbs, up the produce, up the water, up the activity. My body takes a few weeks... Thu, 28 Aug 2014 17:05:35 EST Epiphanies for all! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767778 <BR> I'm just full of epiphanies on this (endless) journey to health. :channeling Oprah: And you get an epiphany! And you get an epiphany! <BR> <BR> Tonight at my fantastic, perfect, amazing, missed-it-so-much dance class, I realized two things: <BR> <BR> 1) I don't have to be perfect on nutrition. I don't have to be perfect on fitness. I just need to, through some combination of the two, get it done. Of course, perfect nutrition gives the best bang for buck. But I was not nutritiona... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 01:17:59 EST Good food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767533 I have some out of control produce in my life this week, thanks to the farmer's market. White nectarines, heirloom tomatoes, plums, Japanese eggplant, summer squash and piel de sapo melons, oh my! You know your body has been deprived of good food when it reacts to an overload of fruits and vegetables with some . . . distress. I'll say no more on the topic. <BR> <BR> So, far, I am on track to meet my goals for the day. I'm realizing this is much more like "starting over" than I cared to... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 17:17:10 EST Decisions, decisions. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767079 The more healthy decisions you make, the easier it is to make healthy decisions. But those first few can feel agonizing. I made two healthy decisions today. And while it almost hurt to make them, I know I put myself on track for more healthy decisions tomorrow. <BR> <BR> First, I was picking out a snack at the supermarket and I saw a new product -- chocolate toffee covered pretzels. Boy did those look good! I even picked them up and started walking towards the register with them. But t... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 01:23:50 EST Taking my medicine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5766921 For me, Sparkpeople is so much more than a website or a social media platform or a repository of information. It's like a daily vitamin, or maybe even a vital medication that must be taken each day. I always convince myself I don't need it (WHY???) but I always come crawling back. Because Sparkpeople works. I''m ready to embrace that fact. I'm ready to do what needs to be done. I'm ready to commit. <BR> <BR> Goals for tomorrow: <BR> <BR> 1) Eat packed lunch only <BR> 2) Attend 8:15 ... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 20:13:44 EST Earthquake weather http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5766171 It's a beautiful day here in sunny California. There was a pretty big earthquake last night that did a lot of damage around Napa but I somehow managed to sleep through it. That's a true native San Franciscan for you, right there. Earthquake? What earthquake??? <BR> <BR> Funny thing is, just yesterday crossing the bridge, I thought "This is earthquake weather -- I hope I make it over before it hits!" I did end up making it over by about a 10 hour margin! Of course, all the bridges are f... Sun, 24 Aug 2014 16:49:38 EST The Trouble with Travel http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5763902 Several of my Sparkfriends travel often for work so I have heard about their struggles on the road. But now I can add my own to the list! <BR> <BR> I feel like I've been doing okay because I'm not using this as an opportunity to binge. In fact, yesterday I even stayed within my calorie range. But here are just a few of the issues I have faced: <BR> <BR> Work outs? What workouts? There's no time! I just go back and forth between the hotel and the worksite. I work when I'm onsite. The... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 22:36:28 EST Still alive! Still trying! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5762970 Boy, that was a long time between blogs! August has been insane. I went to Outside Lands music festival for the fourth year in a row -- that accounted for four days of my absence. And then, I was sent on a business trip to North Carolina where I have been off and on since 8/11. Good news: NC is lovely and the people are great. Bad news: I want to be home! I just bought a brand new house and I can't even enjoy it! Worst news: When I get back, my husband is leaving for L.A. for three da... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 14:35:29 EST 19,941 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5751461 Another great active day -- 19,941 steps! I didn't even work out today! All those steps were just walking around. Here's what I did: <BR> <BR> 1) Walked to BART <BR> 2) Walked to work <BR> 3) Walked back to BART <BR> 4) Walked home <BR> 5) Walked to meet a friend for dinner <BR> 6) Did some light shopping <BR> <BR> Yes, yes, yes! This is what I need! Active rest days where I get out and about and burn calories even though I have no formal workout planned. I've already lost weight sinc... Sat, 2 Aug 2014 03:01:52 EST Starting over (or not) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5750065 Back in 2013, I wrote my one and only Popular Blog Post. The blog took on the phrase "on the wagon" and concluded that, because a true lifestyle change is permanent and on-going, "there is no wagon." It is all part of the same continuum -- just a series of days that make up our lives, no stops, no starts, just life. <BR> <BR> I still believe that but I have the distinct feeling of "starting over" at the moment. And I can't say that's a bad thing. This healthy lifestyle is just like ridin... Thu, 31 Jul 2014 00:46:37 EST 19,475 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5749656 I took 19,475 steps yesterday! The best part is that I didn't do anything extraordinary -- just back to my old routine! I took a short walk on my lunch break (plan to do the same today). In the evening, I walked to my ShimmyPop class, danced my heart out and I walked back! That was it! <BR> <BR> When I was living in the East Bay last year, THAT WAS JUST A NORMAL DAY. I knew that I was being less active when I was living in Mountain View, but I couldn't easily quantify it because I never... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 12:18:40 EST August Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5749134 I've spent today ruminating on my goals for the month of August. Here is what I have come up with so far: <BR> <BR> 1) No processed foods or alcohol with the exception of the following predesignated events: (8/2, 8/7, 8/8, 8/9, 8/10 -- 3 of those are the Outside Lands Music Festival!) <BR> <BR> 2) At least 3 Hipline classes per week (back to my old dance studio -- I can't wait!) <BR> <BR> 3) Walk/run/bike at least 10 miles per week (walking or running the lake, walking as transportation, ... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 18:43:40 EST Because I'm Happy!: A Nod to the Mental Game http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5749076 I'm so, so happy this week! We finally moved into our new home this weekend. We're homeowners! We love the condo, it is gorgeous and has so much space. But what's better -- way, way better! -- is the neighborhood! Yes, we are lakeside, with beautiful views, tons of fun shops and restaurants and plenty of gently rolling hills to burn a few calories on. My goal is going to be to get in at least a little walking time every day. I may go for a miles goal, or a steps goal -- I haven't decid... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 16:26:56 EST A Good Weekend! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5738166 Huzzah! I actually managed to have a pretty good weekend. I did not eat as few calories as I would have hoped but I kept it under 1800, made both of my workouts and continued tracking and getting my water. All this even though I went out with a friend for lunch yesterday, and got Thai take-out last night. So I finally proved to myself that it is possible to enjoy the weekend while still remaining true to my mission and making progress. So proud! I'm going to write down the steps I took ... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 21:12:33 EST A "Come to Jesus" Moment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5736073 Urban dictionary defines it as "An epiphany in which one realizes the truth of a matter." <BR> <BR> After years of running from the truth of the matter, it has finally dawned on me: I need to eat a low-calorie diet. Pretty much every day. For the rest of my life. <BR> <BR> You may think I've known or thought this all along. After all I have been on Spark for years, lost tons of weight, surely I did this by eating fewer calories! <BR> <BR> Yes, I have eaten fewer calories. But I always ... Thu, 10 Jul 2014 13:09:40 EST Small streak, small reward http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5735549 I have an incredibly tiny streak going right now -- 3 days of proper nutrition. <BR> <BR> I love streaking. And I love rewards. But when rewards are tied to weight loss, you can go along time without getting one. That sort of defeats the purpose of rewards -- to celebrate your victories along the way. <BR> <BR> My three days feels pretty significant -- four more and I'll have a whole week! Here's the pink grapefruit fragrance and soap I picked out today to mark my success. <BR> <BR> <... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 19:07:18 EST Mid-Week Check-In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5735432 TRIUMPHS <BR> I've been eating about 1200 calories a day <BR> I've been drinking 8+ glasses of water a day <BR> I've attended Zumba twice <BR> <BR> CHALLENGES <BR> I need to make larger batches of food so I'm not cooking all the time <BR> I need to invest more time in meal planning <BR> My foot hurts (but it hasn't stopped me from working out) <BR> <BR> This week, I'm going to devote some time to figuring out how I can make my weekend a successful one. I have the following events planned: ... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 14:56:41 EST NSV's I am looking forward to http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5735281 NSV’s I am looking forward to: <BR> <BR> 1) No longer feeling pain in my foot (this is a huge motivator right now!) <BR> 2) Fitting comfortably into my new school boy blazer <BR> 3) Fitting comfortably in my dark blue jean jacket <BR> 4) Fitting comfortably into my suits <BR> 5) Feeling greater energy <BR> 6) Feeling the mood boost <BR> <BR> I can't wait to start getting some of the under my belt! <BR> Wed, 9 Jul 2014 11:06:56 EST Ready, Freddy? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5734728 I'm ready for this! I am excited to lose weight! I can't wait to be healthy! <BR> <BR> Two big changes: As I may have mentioned, we're in escrow on our new house. The new house is back in the East Bay where we were living so happily for two years before we had to move for my new job. The move, as I'm sure you've heard me say, was disastrous -- I never got into a good rhythm, never made any friends or developed a real community. We knew we were going back, it's just been a matter of tim... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 17:15:59 EST Expecting Immediate Results http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5727155 One way in which I have been setting myself up for failure is by expecting immediate results. <BR> <BR> When I weighed much more, I could make relatively small changes and get moderate results instantaneously. If I made large changes, I got HUGE results almost instantly -- talk about instant gratification! Of course, this success was intoxicating and while it was positive, it had the unintended consequence that I now expect these results when I put forth any effort whatsoever. <BR> <BR> W... Fri, 27 Jun 2014 13:32:47 EST Feeling pretty good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5726404 I worked out Saturday through Wednesday which should be my usual schedule. I've had such difficulty implementing a regular schedule, it felt good to actually succeed on that front this week. Now, I have two days off. <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> I've been on point with my nutrition all week, eating super clean with the notable exception of coffee which I've been sweetening with honey. I'm being pretty dogmatic about my nutrition right now which I think is warranted given how much difficult... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 12:59:40 EST Higher Standards http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5725681 For the longest time I just wanted to be under 200 pounds. It does not fill me with pride to admit that I weighed over 200 pounds for nearly seven years. <BR> <BR> Then, through a lot of hard work and determination and above all CONSISTENCY, I got below 200 in February 2013. I felt joy and pride. I felt like a success. <BR> <BR> But I also wanted to lose more weight. So, I kept pressing, kept working, kept grinding. I experimented with my diet, kept calories low and ate clean. I worke... Wed, 25 Jun 2014 14:15:16 EST Ditching the FitBit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5722118 I've really enjoyed having my Fitbit over the past few months -- but I won't be using it moving forward. <BR> <BR> My main issue with the FitBit -- and I'd imagine this would be true of any activity tracker -- is that it makes me feel like I'm more active than I truly am. If I look at my Sparkpeople, it shows me logging activity every day, easily obtaining over 2000 fitness minutes per month,. <BR> <BR> This is a lie. <BR> <BR> Pre-FitBit, if I won the 2000 or 2500 fitness months per minu... Fri, 20 Jun 2014 12:31:22 EST Unintentional break from the scale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5720696 My scale ran out of batteries so I haven't weighed myself since last week -- maybe Thursday? It is pretty weird given that I have seldom missed a day of weighing myself in about two years. I rely on the scale to let me know how I'm doing. Without it, I'm forced to consider other measures. For instance, I've been to all my workouts this week -- good. I haven't been tracking my food -- bad. I've been enjoying a few glasses of wine or beer with dinner -- bad. <BR> <BR> The latter is pro... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 13:27:47 EST 6/5 Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5711386 1) Summer associate happy hour -- 500 calorie limit and drink water through out. <BR> 2) Walk during lunch. DONE! Thu, 5 Jun 2014 14:18:25 EST Weight Loss Warrior http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5710930 I've been attending a 7 a.m. workout class called GRIT for the last few weeks. GRIT is a combination of cardio, weight training and plyometrics. It is my main source of strength training and I aim to do it at least twice a week. Because it starts early, our instructor refers to us as "Morning Warriors." It is such effective branding -- I love it! Some mornings when I am struggling to get going, I just think "I'm a morning warrior" and rise out of bed. I find the phrase that motivating!!... Wed, 4 Jun 2014 23:51:30 EST A-Changin'/Today's Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5710410 I feel some great changes already. <BR> <BR> * My energy level is up! I was up before my alarm today. Yesterday, I didn't drag my feet getting up for my 7 a.m. GRIT class. I'm not dependent on caffeine to get through the day. <BR> <BR> * I'm hot -- my body is burning more efficiently. Usually, I'm constantly cold. <BR> <BR> Here are my goals for today: <BR> <BR> 1) No coffee at afternoon meeting -- tea is fine. DONE! <BR> 2) Take a few minutes for a weight loss visualization/meditat... Wed, 4 Jun 2014 10:01:10 EST Pride and Shame http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5709764 I'm feeling pretty proud of myself this morning. I'm climbing out of this depression hole. I've been on a positive streak for 8 days. I went to a 7 a.m. GRIT class this morning. I'm feeling good. I have a lot of to be proud of. <BR> <BR> Pride is the opposite of shame. Pride is a motivator -- when you take pride in yourself, your home, your work, you can do anything. <BR> <BR> By contrast, shame is crippling. When you feel ashamed of something, the prevailing reaction is to withdraw.... Tue, 3 Jun 2014 13:08:46 EST 6/3 Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5709434 1) Walk after lunch (Done) <BR> 2) Bring my own lunch to the office lunch (I ate my own lunch but didn't end up attending the office lunch.) <BR> <BR> NSV: I have an 8 day tracking/log-in/water streak going. Let's make it 9! Tue, 3 Jun 2014 01:55:41 EST Meditating on my Measurements http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5708965 As I gear up for successful weight loss this summer, I decided to re-take my measurements which were getting a bit dusty. I have always measured at my natural waist which has given me a false sense of security because it is a smaller measurement then at the belly button for me. They say for heart health, a woman should be no more than 35 inches around the belly button. I know I captured that briefly last summer. But I may have also been sucking it in! So, today, for the first time, I too... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 13:20:22 EST June Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5706920 I have but one goal for the month of June. <BR> <BR> Re-enter the 180's. <BR> <BR> I've been bouncing around the low 190's for several months. I'd fight my way up to 189 for a day or two and then bounce right back up to 192, 193, 194. I came back from my Miami trip around 196-197 which really put the fear of G-d in me. <BR> <BR> I started this journey wanting nothing more than to get to Onederland. I exceeded that goal by over 25 pounds! As I started to gain it back, I thought to mysel... Fri, 30 May 2014 16:20:11 EST Good news, bad news http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5705374 Good: I fit into my bridesmaid's dress and looked lovely at the wedding! <BR> Good: The wedding was beautiful! <BR> Good: I've been back on track since my return on Monday. <BR> Good: I'm excited to get serious about my goals this summer and start seeing some real progress. <BR> Good: I'm ready to put myself first. <BR> Bad: I'm still depressed over the circumstances of my life as discussed recently in this blog. <BR> Good: I'm working on being more positive, changing my outlook and hopefully... Wed, 28 May 2014 16:52:04 EST This weekend -- Better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5698476 This weekend was better. I was overbudget on calories but I tracked everything and didn't go too far overboard. I was extremely active and burned a ton of calories. I got in my water. It feels good. <BR> <BR> My bridesmaid's dress arrived! I won't lie, it is a tight fit -- but it zips and looks good. My friend's wedding is just five days away now but I will continue my weight loss efforts. Even shaving off a pound or two will help the dress fit all the better. <BR> <BR> Here's me clo... Mon, 19 May 2014 13:20:41 EST A Fork in the Road http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5697376 Life is about choices. Some choices are easy -- others are hard. But at the end of the day our lives, the results of all our efforts and dreams, are ultimately the product of choices. <BR> <BR> I just realized that I have been choosing to gain weight. <BR> <BR> A few days ago, if someone had suggested that to me, I would have been offended. Why would I choose weight? On the contrary, I want to lose weight! I think about losing weight constantly and am always bemoaning my current shape.... Sun, 18 May 2014 00:16:49 EST Mid-Month Check-In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5696093 Let's see how things have been going for me in the month of May! <BR> <BR> 1) Work out 5-6 days/week <BR> B-. I did work out six days the first week of May but then 4 days the following week and on track for four days again this week. <BR> 2) ST at least 2x/week <BR> A+. I've gotten in 2-3 strength training work outs per week. Yay! A success! <BR> 3) Track points religiously <BR> C+. Actually have abandoned WW for Spark tracking. I love the idea of points but after being on Spark f... Fri, 16 May 2014 02:36:07 EST